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| ISBN-13: | 9780307377616 | 
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| Publisher: | Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group | 
| Publication date: | 06/03/2008 | 
| Sold by: | Random House | 
| Format: | eBook | 
| Pages: | 208 | 
| File size: | 227 KB | 
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Hot Borscht
Today, it's a different picture. It's been raining nonstop, and it's suddenly cold outside. I'm wearing jeans and a sweater and my husband's thick socks—I can't believe I was sweating in a tank top and shorts just a few days ago. The gas heater in our trailer has been broken for years, and the owners won't bother fixing it. They never live here themselves, and summer renters apparently don't need heat. "It's a rundown trailer," my husband says. "What do you expect?" We rent it for seven weeks for the price of what you'd typically pay for two, and I'm usually happy with the bargain. Not on a day like today, though. We tried an electric heater, but it was expensive and seemed to warm only the ten-inch area around it. What we do is this: We turn all four stove burners on and put four large pots of water on to boil. (We could try baking pies, but there are mice living in the oven, and I really don't want to go there.) While the water is boiling on the stove, we cuddle with the kids under a huge blanket and watch Young Frankenstein on my computer. (We never get tired of watching Young Frankenstein.) Well, I think, since we need to keep four large pots on the stove, why not cook borscht in one of them? I can cook and still keep an eye on Young Frankenstein.
Ingredients
 3 or 4 fresh beets
3 or 4 potatoes
1 medium carrot
1 medium onion
3 stalks of celery
Olive oil
2 tablespoons tomato sauce
2 quarts beef broth
Salt and pepper
1 or 2 bay leaves
1 tablespoon white vinegar
Sour cream
Chopped parsley and garlic (optional)
   1. Chop vegetables and sauté them right in the soup pot, in a little olive oil and the tomato sauce, for 15 to 20 minutes.
   2. Pour the store-brought beef broth over the mixture. When it starts to boil, add salt, pepper, a bay leaf or two, and vinegar, and let the soup simmer until everything is tender, which sometimes takes so long that Young Frankenstein ends before my borscht is ready.
   3. Hot borscht is served with sour cream just like cold borscht. I like to chop some parsley and garlic, smash the two together with a pinch of salt, and sprinkle this over a little island of sour cream in the bowls.
For some reason, it always seems warmer in the trailer when you make borscht than when you simply boil water. And there is another advantage. We don't have enough space at the table, so we eat balancing our hot bowls in our laps. And the laps get warm too.
A Bunch of Broccoli on the Third Shelf
 
Another one, seduced and abandoned," Nina's  husband said, pulling a bunch of wilted broccoli from the refrigerator shelf. He  held it with two fingers as if it stank, his handsome face scrunched in a grimace  of disgust.
 
It doesn't stink, Nina thought. She blushed and hurried to take the  broccoli--to throw it into the garbage. It isn't fresh, but you can't say that it  stinks. She didn't say these thoughts aloud. She said she was sorry, she was busy  all week and didn't have time for cooking. Nina worked in Manhattan. By the time  she came home to Brooklyn, it was already seven thirty, sometimes eight, and she  felt too tired to cook. The most she could do was fix a sandwich for her husband  and herself or boil some meat dumplings from a Russian food store.
 
"Yes, I know,"  her husband said. "But why buy all these vegetables if you know you won't have time  to cook them?" Nina shrugged. She liked shopping for vegetables.
 
Nina couldn't say  when she'd first begun the habit of shopping for vegetables. Probably two years earlier,  on her second day in America, when she and her husband left her sister's Brooklyn  apartment to explore the nearest shopping street. Her sister, who'd lived in America  for fourteen years, called herself an American. She thought Nina would be impatient  to see everything. "Go, go," her sister said. "But don't buy anything. To survive  in America, there are two rules you have to remember. First: Never buy anything in  expensive stores unless they have a fifty-percent-off sale. Second: Never ever buy  anything in cheap stores."
 
On the street with the unimaginative name Avenue M, they  walked through narrow stores that all looked alike to Nina, no matter what they sold:  food, electronics, clothes, or hardware. After a while, it seemed that they were  walking in and out of the same store over and over, just to hear the chime of its  bell. The February morning was cold, and the sunlight was pale. Nina hid her reddened  nose in the fur collar of her Russian coat. She clutched her husband's elbow and  carefully stepped over piles of garbage, reluctant to look up or sideways at the  ashen sky or the motley signs of the shops. She felt dizzy and a little nauseated  from the flight and the all-night talk with her sister. Only one place attracted  her attention: a small Korean grocery with fruits and vegetables set outside on plywood  stands--colorful piles of oranges, tomatoes, and cucumbers, almost unnaturally clean  and bright. Nina read the sign on the box of tomatoes: SUNRIPE. She was still learning  English, and every new expression seemed exciting and full of great meaning. SUNRIPE  brought to mind a vegetable patch on a summer afternoon, the smell of the rich soil  heated by the sun, pale-green branches sagging under heavy tomatoes bursting with  juice. SUNRIPE reminded her of her family's tiny vegetable garden when she was little.  Nina wanted to touch the tomatoes in the box, hoping that their surface would still  be a little warm from all the sun that shined on them while they ripened. She was  reaching for one when her husband dragged her away to another store.
 
Now Nina shopped  alone for vegetables every Saturday morning while her husband slept late. Nina drove  to 86th Street to visit the Korean and Russian vegetables stores between 22nd and  23rd avenues. The assortment in the stores was generally the same, but Nina liked  to explore each of them, hoping to find something surprising, such as the occasional  white asparagus, or plastic baskets of gooseberries, or tiny nutlike new potatoes.  On days when there weren't any new or exciting items, it was still interesting to  compare the stores. In one store the onions could be large and shiny, but the bunches  of lettuce wilted and colorless. Another store could boast of the freshest, brightest  lettuce, while the squashy gray onions hid timidly in string bags.
 
Nina felt a thrill  as soon as she climbed out of the car by a store entrance, her feet touching a sidewalk  littered with bits of lettuce, onion peel, and broken tomatoes. Inside, she walked  between the produce shelves, touching the fruit and vegetables and marveling at how  different their surfaces felt. She ran her fingers over the tomatoes; they felt smooth  and glossy like polished furniture. She cupped oranges, feeling their lumpy skins  in her palms. Sometimes she would hook an orange peel with her nail so it would sputter  a little of its pungent, spicy juice on her finger. She avoided the hairy egg-shaped  kiwis and wormlike string beans. She liked to stroke the light, feathery bunches  of dill and parsley, and to squeeze artichokes, which felt like pine cones, but soft  ones. She liked to pat cantaloupes and tap watermelons with her index finger to hear  the hollow sound they made. Most of all, Nina loved broccoli. It smelled of young  spring grass, and it looked like a spring tree with its solid stem and luxuriant  crown of tight grainy florets that resembled recently blossomed leaves.
 
Regardless  of the other vegetables she bought, Nina took home a bunch of broccoli every week.  She carried the heavy brown bags proudly to the car with the firm belief that this  weekend she would find time to cook. There was the rest of Saturday afternoon ahead,  and all of Sunday. She would wash the vegetables as soon as she got home and then  cook something on Sunday, maybe spinach gnocchi, or grilled zucchini, or broccoli  topped with a three-cheese sauce.
 
Somehow, Nina invariably managed to forget both  the errands she had to run on Sundays and the Saturday-night parties at her husband's  friend's. As soon as she came home, Nina immediately found herself in a whirl of  things to do. She had to shower in a hurry, hot-curl her hair, brush it down if it  turned out too frizzy, try on and reject various sweaters and pants, put on her makeup,  find her husband's socks, iron his shirt, tell him where his other sock was, check  if the gas was off, and lock the door.
 
In what seemed like only a minute, Nina found  herself back in the car on the way to the party. She alternately glanced at her husband  in the driver's seat and at her reflection in the mirror. Her husband seemed distant  and deep in his thoughts, which was natural, she told herself, because he was driving.  And her own reflection seemed unsatisfying. Her hair was still too frizzy, her soft-featured  round face required a different type of makeup, and her blue angora pullover cut  into her armpits. The thing about clothes bought at fifty-percent-off sales was that  they were either the wrong size or the wrong design. In the car, Nina didn't think  about vegetables. They lay abandoned on the refrigerator shelves, where Nina had  shoved them in a hurry: tomatoes squashed under zucchini, lettuce leaves jammed against  the edge of the vegetable basket, a bunch of broccoli that didn't fit anywhere else  placed all by itself on the third shelf.
 
The parties were held at Pavlik's place,  Nina's husband's friend from work, whose wife had divorced him a few years earlier.  Pavlik was a heavy man with an uneven ginger-colored beard. He wore ill-fitting trousers  and unclean shirts. He loved to laugh heartily and smack his friends on the back.  "Don't mind the mess!" he yelled, as his guests wandered through the dusty labyrinth  of his house, stumbling on mismatched furniture, broken electronic equipment, heavy  volumes of Russian books, and slippery magazines. It seemed to Nina that Pavlik's  function as a host was limited to yelling, "Don't mind the mess!" He didn't feed  or entertain his guests. People came to him with their own food and wine, their own  plastic dinnerware, their own guitars, and sometimes their own poems written in notebooks.
 
Not one of Pavlik's guests was a professional poet or musician, though. Most of  them worked as computer programmers, the occupation they took up in America, finding  it easier and more profitable than trying to prove the value of their Russian degrees  in science or the arts. Some of them, Nina's husband included, adopted a condescending,  slightly snobbish attitude to their new profession, as something easy and boring,  something beneath them. "A computer programmer, like everybody else," they answered  reluctantly, when asked about their present profession. "But that's not what I used  to be in my previous life." They preferred to talk about art or music or their exciting  hobbies, such as mountain climbing, rafting, or photographing Alaskan sunsets.
 
Nina  was a computer programmer too, but unlike everybody else she'd also been a computer  programmer in her "previous life." What was worse, she didn't know much about poetry  or music, and she didn't have any exciting talents or hobbies.
 
"My wife is a vegetable  lover," Nina's husband said, introducing her to Pavlik's circle.
 
Nina didn't like  Pavlik's guests. The men were untidy and unattractive. They piled up their paper  plates with cold cuts, smoked too much, and laughed with their mouths full. They  repeated the same things over and over, and it seemed to Nina that there was always  a piece of ham or salami hanging from their mouths while they talked.
 
The women,  on the other hand, with the exception of one or two, were attractive but in a wrong,  unpleasant way. They were thin and sophisticated, with straight hair and strong hands  with long powerful fingers, toughened by playing either the piano or the guitar.  They had soulful eyes, sad from all the poetry they read, and wore expressions of  eternal fatigue. They had everything that Nina lacked.
 
Nina usually sat through  the whole evening in the corner of Pavlik's stiff sofa, away from the other guests,  who sat on the floor by the cold fireplace, and away from her husband. The sounds  of their laughter, their singing, and their reading floated around the room but didn't  seem to reach her. The food and wine on a rickety folding table by the window were  more accessible from the sofa. Nina made frequent trips to that table, where cold  cuts lay on paper plates, loaves of bread stood on cutting boards, and pickles swam  in glass jars with a fork invariably stuck into one of them. There were usually a  few unopened bottles of vodka, and a five-liter box of Burgundy or Chablis. The wine  often dripped from the plastic spigot right onto the beige carpet, making intricate  patterns, so that by the end of the party Pavlik's modest carpet looked like a fancy  Turkish rug.
 
When they first started going to Pavlik's parties, Nina sat by the  fireplace with the others. She loved to sit across from her husband and watch his  face while he played. His neck was bent down, the bangs of his dark hair fallen over  his half-closed eyes. From time to time he glanced at her, and then his eyes flickered  through the forest of his hair like two tiny lightning bugs. At those moments Nina  felt he was playing for her, and then the music touched her, making her skin prickle  and her throat hurt.
 
With time, Nina noticed that she wasn't the only one staring  at her husband while he played. Nina saw how the faces of other women lit up just  like hers under his fleeting gaze. Each of them must have felt that he was playing  for her. Sometimes Nina thought those women had more right to be looked at by her  husband. Sometimes those women threw quick looks at Nina, and then Nina felt that  she was changing in size; she was growing, bloating up, turning into an enormous  exhibit: a dull, untalented woman wearing the wrong clothes and the wrong makeup.  She thought that all of them must have wondered why this interesting, talented man  had married her.
 
Her sister didn't wonder. "You were his ticket to America," she  often reminded Nina, having first said it on Nina's arrival in New York. "Can you  disprove that?"
 
Nina couldn't.
 
It was true that Nina's husband had always wanted  to emigrate but couldn't obtain a visa. He didn't have close relatives in the United  States. It was true that, having married Nina, he had gotten his visa. And it was  true that Nina hadn't wanted to emigrate but yielded to her husband's wishes. But  it wasn't true that he had married Nina just for that, and it wasn't true that he  didn't love her. Nina's sister didn't know what Nina knew. She didn't know that when  Nina was in the hospital after appendix surgery, her husband wouldn't leave her room  even for a minute. She begged him to go and have some coffee or to take a breath  of fresh air, but he refused. He held Nina's hand and squeezed it every time she  moaned. Nina's sister didn't know how sometimes he would hug Nina from behind, bury  his face in her hair, and whisper, "There is nothing like it. Nothing in the world."  She could feel his sharp nose and his hot breath on the nape of her neck, and her  eyes would grow moist. And Nina's sister didn't know that he often said the same  words when they were making love.
 
It was a relief to come home after the party and  find herself in bed, next to her husband, with a book. Nina had covered the nightstand  with cookbooks bought at a fifty-percent discount at Barnes & Noble. She read lying  on her back, using her stomach to prop up her book. The thick, glossy pages rustled  against Nina's satin nightgowns (fifty-percent off at Victoria's Secret). She loved  the rustling sound as much as she loved the prickly sensation in her feet when they  touched her husband's hairy legs from time to time. She also loved the euphoric feeling  roused in her by lustrous photographs of okra and tomato stew in rustic clay bowls,  grilled zucchini parcels on ceramic trays, and baskets of fresh vegetables against  a background of meadows or olive groves. Her favorite book, Italian Cuisine: The  Taste of the Sun, included step-by-step photographs of the cooking process. In the  photos, smooth light-skinned female hands with evenly trimmed fingernails performed  all the magical actions on the vegetables. They looked like Nina's hands, and Nina  fantasized that they were hers. It was she, Nina, who made those perfect curled carrot  slices. It was she who pushed the hard, stubborn stuffing into the bell peppers,  or rinsed grit off lettuce leaves, or chopped broccoli florets, scattering tiny green  crumbs all over the table. Nina's lips moved, forming the rich, passionate words  of the cooking instructions: "Brush with olive oil," "bring to a boil and simmer  gently," "serve hot," "scoop out the pulp," "chop," "slice," "crush," "squash." When  eventually she put the book away, cuddled against her husband's back, and closed  her eyes, her lips continued moving for some time.
 
Nina’s husband left her during  the middle of September, when the vegetable stores on 86th Street were full of tomatoes  and zucchinis. There was an abundance of them in Nina’s refrigerator when her sister  opened it.
 
“The fifth week is the worst. The first four weeks it hasn’t sunk in  yet. You feel the shock, but you don’t feel the pain. It’s like you’re numb. But  the fifth week. . . . Brace yourself for the fifth week.” Nina’s sister crouched  in front of the refrigerator, unloading the food she had brought. She came to console  Nina with four large bags from a Russian food store.
 
Nina felt tired. She sat at  the table, staring at her sister’s broad back. Nina thought that if you tried to  hit it with a hammer it would produce a loud ringing sound, as if her sister’s back  were made of hardwood. The refrigerator shelves filled quickly: bright cartons of  currant juice– “Currant juice saved my life; I basically lived on it when Volodya  left me”–cream cheese, farmer’s cheese, soft cheese, Swiss cheese, bread–“Always  keep bread in the refrigerator, it preserves much better this way”–pickles, a jar  of cherry compote.
 
“Nina!” her sister suddenly shrieked. “What is this?” She pulled  out a vegetable basket. Inside was a pile of mushy tomatoes with a white beard of  mold where the skin split, oozing dark juice; zucchini covered with brown splotches;  dark, slimy bunches of collard greens. “You’ve got the whole vegetable graveyard  in here.” Her sister emptied the basket into the garbage can, where the vegetables  made a squashing sound.
 
The faint rotten smell stayed in the kitchen for a long  time after Nina’s sister left. The smell wasn’t unpleasant. It was a simple, cozy  kitchen smell, like vegetable soup simmering on the stove, the kind Nina’s mother  used to make.
 
Contrary to her sister’s prediction, the fifth week didn’t bring Nina  any extreme pain but only added to her fatigue. Nina felt as if she were recovering  from a long, exhausting illness. She tried to do as few household chores as possible.  She didn’t shop for vegetables anymore. She still read her cookbooks after work,  but she was too tired to decipher the recipes. Instead, she ran her finger over the  index pages, which were filled with neat columns of letters. The austere phrases  were logical and easy to read: “Broccoli: gratin, 17; macaroni with, 71; penne and, 79.” She had no desire to look up the recipe on the referred page, she simply went  on to the next entry that caught her eye: “Eggplant: braised chicken with orange  and, 137.” 
 
Pavlik’s booming voice on the old, creaky answering machine broke into  the elegant sequence of string bean recipes. Nina had turned off the ringer on the  phone weeks earlier and now only listened to messages as they came through her machine.  Most often they were from Nina’s sister, who called to ask if Nina was eating well  and to tell her the latest news: that Nina’s husband had been seen on Brighton Beach  with some “dried herring,” then that he was moving to Boston, then that he had already  moved. Her sister’s voice seemed to Nina distant and somewhat unnatural.
 
Pavlik’s  voice made her jump. “Hey! Nina! Are you home?” he shouted.
 
On impulse, Nina looked  at the front door. It was hard to believe that all that roaring came from a modest  plastic box on the kitchen counter. Pavlik’s voice suddenly went low, and it became  hard to make out his words. “Don’t disappear,” he said, if Nina heard him correctly. 
 
Pavlik’s place looked different. Nina saw it as soon as she stepped into his living  room, but she couldn’t quite figure out why. The rickety food table still stood on  the “Turkish” rug, the fireplace was crammed with piles of old magazines, Pavlik’s  hulking figure was shaking with laughter, and the vacant sofa was waiting for Nina  in the corner. Everything was there, everything was in the same place, yet something  was undeniably different. The size–it’s become bigger, Nina decided, taking her seat  between the sofa cushions. Pavlik’s place had more space and more air.
 
A thin, delicate  woman’s voice sang something about a little path in the woods that meandered among  the trees. Just like the words in this song, Nina thought. She liked the song. When  it ended, the singer put her guitar down and walked to the food table. She was wearing  a long gray cardigan with drooping pockets. There wasn’t anything mysterious about  her. A balding man with a closely trimmed gray beard took over the guitar. Nina’s  eyes traveled from the man’s outstretched elbow protruding through his shabby corduroy  sleeve, to his stooped shoulder, to the greasy line of his hair. Nina suddenly saw  that his untidiness wasn’t some kind of snobbish fashion statement but a sign of  loneliness, of being uncared for. She saw that the women sitting in a circle were  watching the man just as they used to watch her husband. They were tired, lonely  women, just as she was. There wasn’t anything mysterious about them either. Nina  also noticed that she wasn’t the only one sitting outside the singing circle. In  fact, only a few people sat in the circle, while others were scattered all around  Pavlik’s house. A lonely figure here and there sat quietly on a chair, an old box,  or a windowsill, or wandered around the room. From time to time the paths of the  lonely figures intersected, and then conversations were struck: awkward yet hopeful  conversations, just as the one Nina was having now.
 
“You are a vegetable lover,  aren’t you?” a man asked, having seated himself in the opposite corner of Nina’s  sofa.
 
Nina nodded.
 
“Yes, I thought I heard that from somebody.
 
Do you like to  cook vegetables?”
 
Nina nodded again.
 
“You know, I love vegetables myself. My wife  hates it when I cook, though.” The man rolled his eyes, making Nina smile. He was  short, with thin rusty-red hair and a very pale complexion. A tiny piece of toilet  paper with a spot of dried blood
stuck to his cheek.
 
“Are you a computer programmer  like everybody else?” Nina asked.
 
The man nodded with a smile. 
 
“And in your previous  life?”
 
“A physics teacher in high school. But I can’t say that I miss it. I was  terrified of my students.”
R 
Nina laughed. It was easy to talk to him. Nina looked  at his smiling eyes, then down at his hands–short fingernails, white fingers, red  hair on the knuckles. She tried to imagine what it would be like if a hand like this  brushed against her breast. Accidentally.
 
Nina wiped the little beads of sweat off  her nose. He was a strange, married, and not particularly attractive man. He introduced  himself as Andrei.
 
“So, what’s your favorite vegetable?” Nina asked.
 
“I would say  fennel. Fennel has an incredible flavor. Reminds me of a wild apple and, oddly enough,  freshly sawed wood. Do you like fennel?”
 
Nina nodded. She liked fennel. It had a  funny, slightly ribbed surface, and it was heavy and spouted weird green shoots that  seemed to grow out of nowhere. Nina’d never tasted fennel. “I like broccoli,” she  said.
 
“Oh, broccoli! I love how they cook it in Chinese places. How do you cook  it?”
 
This man with the piece of tissue stuck to his cheek looked safe enough to  confide in. “I’ve never cooked broccoli–or any other vegetable,” Nina said.
 
“Let’s  have a cooking date,” Andrei offered.
 
A cooking date! Nina couldn’t remember ever  feeling so excited. She was sure she had been as excited sometime before, she just  couldn’t remember when. So the better part of the following Saturday Nina spent shopping  for cooking utensils. She went to Macy’s and abandoned the fifty-percent-discount  rule for the first time, buying two drastically overpriced skillets, a set of shiny  stainless steel saucepans, a steamer, and a pretty wooden spoon with a carved handle.
 
“Do you want it wrapped as a wedding present?” the cashier asked.
 
Halfway home,  Nina realized that she hadn’t bought nearly enough. Knives! She needed knives! And  a cutting board, and a colander, and God knows what else. She swerved her car in  the direction of Avenue M, where, abandoning the second rule about never ever buying  anything in cheap stores, she bought a set of knives, two wooden cutting boards and  one plastic, a colander, a curved grapefruit knife just because it looked so cute,  a vegetable peeler, a set of stainless steel bowls, and two aprons with a picture  of wild mushrooms on a yellow background. In a grocery store next door Nina bought  a bottle of olive oil, black pepper, chili pepper, and a jar of something dry and  dark-green with Chinese letters on it.
 
Well before three o’clock–the time of their  cooking date–Nina had everything ready. The sparkling saucepans and the skillet stood  proudly on the stove. The bowls, the colander, the cutting boards, and the knives  were arranged on the kitchen counter in careful disarray around the centerpiece:  the opened Italian Cuisine: The Taste of the Sun. Nina observed her kitchen, trying  to shake off the embarrassing excess of excitement.
 
Andrei came on time, even earlier.  At five minutes to three he already stood in Nina’s hall, removing his bulky leather  jacket and his leather cap sprinkled with raindrops. He smelled of wet leather. He  handed Nina a bottle of wine and a baguette in a sodden paper bag. “In movies, when  a man hands a woman a baguette and a bottle of wine, it always seems chic, doesn’t  it?” he said.
 
Nina nodded. Andrei looked more homely than she remembered. Nina’s  memory somehow had managed to erase the red spots on his pasty cheeks, to color his  brows and eyelashes, to make him slimmer, and add an inch or two to his height. It  was strange seeing him in her house, especially in her tiny hall, where every object  was familiar, its place carefully considered. He clashed with the surroundings like  a bad piece of furniture. Nina hurried to lead him into the kitchen.
 
“So, are we  cooking broccoli today?” Andrei asked. He began leafing through Italian Cuisine:  The Taste of the Sun, his freshly washed hands still smelling of Nina’s soap.
 
 “Broccoli,  yes,” Nina mumbled. She was suddenly struck by a dreadful suspicion, which was immediately  confirmed upon opening the refrigerator.
 
In all her shopping frenzy, she had forgotten  to buy any vegetables. 
 
She jerked out the vegetable basket, faintly hoping for  a miracle. The basket was empty and sparklingly clean, wiped with a kitchen towel  moistened in Clorox by her sister’s firm hand. There was only a tiny strip of onion  skin stuck between the edge of the basket and the shelf above. Nina turned to Andrei,  motioning to the empty basket. Her throat felt as if someone were squeezing it. Suddenly  everything seemed hopeless and absurd: the counter crammed with gleaming, artificial  sets of kitchenware; the barren vegetable basket; this perfect stranger, who came  to cook in her kitchen; Nina herself, with all her energy and excitement of moments  ago, now pressing her forehead against the cold vinyl of the
refrigerator door.
 
“Do you want me to drive to a supermarket?” Andrei asked.
 
Nina shook her head. She  knew it would never work now, after everything had been exposed to her in all its  absurdity.
 
“What’s this?” Andrei asked. He was looking toward the back of the refrigerator.  A bunch of broccoli was stuck between the third shelf and the refrigerator wall.  It hung upside down, the florets nearly touching the shelf below. The bunch wasn’t  yellowed or covered with rotten slime. On the contrary, for the weeks that it lay  between the shelves, it had become darker and dryer. A few more weeks and it would  have turned into a broccoli mummy. It smelled okay, or rather it didn’t smell at  all. “I’m sure we can still cook it,” Andrei said. He began showing Nina what to  do.
 
Nina ran cold water over the florets, then shook the bunch fiercely, letting  out a shower of green drops. She chopped off the stem, then cut off the base of each  floret, watching with fascination how they split into new tiny bunches of broccoli.  She then peeled the stem and cut it into even, star-shaped slices. Some things turned  out to be different from Nina’s cooking fantasies, others exactly the same. Some  were disappointing, others better than she ever imagined. The best thing of all was  that, when the broccoli was already on the stove, sputtering boiling water from under  the shiny lid, Andrei pulled one of her kitchen chairs close to the stove and suggested  she stand on it.
 
“Climb up and inhale,” he said. “The hot air travels up. The strongest  aroma should be right under the ceiling.” He stood back, giving her room.
 
Nina stood  on the chair, her hair just grazing the ceiling. She closed her eyes, lifted her  nose, and breathed in deep. The warm aroma of broccoli rose up, caressing Nina’s  face, enveloping the whole of her.