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Before You Go

A Novel

Feiwel and Friends

Jude squeezed his eyes shut, blinking away the sun's glare, and waited for the eight-fifteen-in-the-freaking-morning bus. On a Saturday, no less. The stop was located beneath the elevated Long Island Rail Road, with rails that hummed overhead and stretched across the length of the island, connecting the farthest points east all the way to Pennsylvania Station in Manhattan. For as long as he could remember, New York City had beckoned to Jude, offering an exotic world of freedom and possibility. The city stood as a skyscrapery refutation of his suburban life, escape only a train ticket and forty-five minutes away.

He sat cross-legged on the curb, leaned back on his hands, and scanned the road for coming traffic. Most people around here drove like psychopaths, and Jude wasn't eager to have his legs run over. It might ruin his weekend, the bleeding stumps, all that dragging around. Better, he thought, not to get run over in the first place, so he cast a wary eye down the road. Today was the first day of the rest of his life, and Jude would spend it at Jones Beach — starting a new summer job in the food-service industry. There were still a couple of weeks of school left and the grind of finals, but they needed workers on weekends, and Jude wasn't in a position to make anybody wait. Jobs weren't easy to find, and his skills, Jude had discovered, were not highly in demand, as he had none.

Barely awake, he had dressed in the required uniform of black pants and orange T-shirt. Because naturally you wear black pants to the sun-baked beach. Jude Fox was on his way to becoming a minimum-wage flunky, a burger- grilling, soda-spilling concession-stand worker.

The morning sun shone not high above the horizon, garish and bright, so Jude stepped back into the station's cool cement shadows. It was going to be a hot one, the first scorcher of summer — not a cloud in sight, just blue June skies. In truth, Jude didn't hate the idea of working. He'd heard that beach jobs could be okay, even fun. But Jude was a realist; he knew it would basically blow. Or suck. Strange how those two words, blow and suck, both conveyed the same and yet totally different meanings. It blew, it sucked: same thing. Weird. He'd heard people complain about their jobs all his life. Why should his job be any different? So he couldn't help but wonder if getting a job had been a colossal mistake. Sometimes it felt to Jude that he was just like those trains overhead, traveling between two steel rails, the course of his life mapped out long ago. No steering wheel, no brakes. Jude followed the path carved out for him, no different from anybody else.

These are the thoughts you have when you wake up too early on a Saturday morning.

Jude had taken this particular bus many times before, usually with a murder of boys dressed in shorts or baggy bathing suits, with beach towels rolled in tubular fashion or backpacks slung over their shoulders. They went to hang in the sand, admire the girls, swim if the jellyfish weren't too bad, wander the boardwalk, and later, catch a bus home, sunburned and happy.

A few glassy-eyed stragglers gathered at the stop, mostly young beach workers in Halloween colors. It was too early for the leather-skinned beach crowd. Jude knew a few of the guys at the stop, not interested in talking, so did the chin-lift thing. They were all in the same boat as Jude — or, very soon, the same bus; the learner's permit crowd, old enough to work an entry- level job, not old enough to drive there.

Jude had considered running to the beach, about seven miles door to door, but that would've required setting his alarm even earlier, and then he'd need a place to shower once he got there. His body could absorb a run like that no problem, but it could make for a long day if work turned out to be tough. Maybe another time, after he scoped out the job situation. His dad was already up and out, gone for the day. Jude had half hoped his mother would offer to give him a lift, step up this one time, but he knew not to count on miracles. As a matter of personal policy, Jude kept his expectations low to avoid disappointment. That was the strategy, anyway.

A good-looking girl whom Jude knew a little bit showed up, the beautiful Dani Remson with long legs that went all the way up to her shoulders. She'd had a brief thing with his friend Corey about six months back. Something about Dani had always made Jude uneasy, maybe because she was a predatory goddess with brown eyes that lasered right into him. So, head down, Jude busied himself with the apps on his cell, and that worked sufficiently well. After a teasing, sing-songy, "Mooorning, Jude," Dani brushed past him to join another girl who stood clutching a can of Diet Pepsi.

The bus came and everybody shuffled onboard, feet dragging. Jude grabbed a seat toward the back, stuffed in earbuds, found the Cure on his iPod, gazed out the window for the ride south on Wantagh Parkway. Jude had been obsessing over the Cure lately, especially the best tunes off Disintegration. As a band, they peaked in the early 90s, but Jude liked them anyway. Music was music; it didn't matter if a song was made fifty years ago in Liverpool, England, or behind some guy's woodshed five minutes ago. The good tunes stuck and the rest dropped away. Some days Jude could listen to "Pictures of You" on an endless repeat cycle, losing himself in the interplay of guitar, synthesizer, and bass. That the Cure's songs were often dark, brooding, and melancholy only made it all the better. Jude didn't really go for the Cure's poppier, radio-ready numbers. He had played guitar for eight years now, practicing four, five times a week. Guitar was his retreat. It was a door closing, shutting the world out, and a window opening, connecting him to something other, a rift in space through which he escaped for hours at a time. Jude felt, not without reason, that music had saved his life. But, hey, music made everything better — even bus rides to a particular version of sucks called My First Day on the Job.

The bus dropped the passengers off near the huge traffic circle at Central Mall, Field Four. This was the busiest, most crowded, commercial area of Jones Beach, loosely divided into fields. The famous Jones Beach watertower signaled a visitor's entrance to the beach. The iconic tower thrust skyward at more than 225 feet. It dominated the flat horizon like an extended middle finger. Young children called it the pencil, usually in a happy squeal, for it announced their arrival. Here you go, happy beachgoers, now pay your parking fee and grab a patch of sand.

Jude turned his back to the tower and walked toward the boardwalk like everybody else in sight — it was either that or step into traffic — then turned right to wind his way to operation headquarters where he'd been told to check in. The building wasn't much, a trailer on steroids obscured by a scraggle of bushes, tucked behind the men's bathroom. Jude noted that it offered showers and lockers, definitely useful if he ever wanted to run to work some morning.

He hesitated in the open doorway, looking in at a thin, middle-aged man dressed in a white short-sleeved shirt and dark tie seated behind a gray metal desk. The man, obviously a boss-type individual, had sinewy arms covered in thick curly hair, like some kind of tree-climbing forest creature. His jaw muscles worked on a stick of gum. A nameplate on the desk read KEATING. No dummy, Jude took that for the guy's name. Keating spoke into his phone in fits and spurts, listening impatiently before barking out directives such as, for example, "We've got to get those freezers fixed, or we'll have fifteen goddamned hundred pounds of melted chopped beef on our hands!" If he noticed Jude's presence, Keating didn't bother to glance up. Even after snapping shut the phone, Keating continued to ignore Jude, concentrating instead on working his gum while tapping a pencil against the side of his head.

Tap, tap, tap. Anybody home?

Jude recognized Keating's performance for what it was, a random, unnecessary, and totally unimpressive display of power. So Jude said, "Yeah, hi, excuse me, I was —"

Keating raised a hand for silence. "Grab some bench, son. The car'll be back in a few minutes. Where you going?"

"Going?" Jude asked. "I just got here."

Keating raised his chin to give Jude a long look. The career food-service manager was lean and square-jawed, a wiry man, a runner no doubt, and he chomped on gum as if it had hurt his feelings. One of those marathoner guys Jude saw everywhere filling the roadways in his neighborhood, galloping down the street as if they were chasing immortality. His own father was one of them.

"This your first day?" Keating asked.

"Yeah, yes," Jude said, pulling some rumpled papers from his back pocket. "They told me to —"

"And you are? ..."

That stumped Jude for a second. He wavered, befuddled. Jude's mind didn't at first recognize it as a question, so he stood like a lowland gorilla, waiting for Keating to finish the sentence, tell Jude what he was, exactly, before finally answering, "Fox, Jude Fox."

"You sure about that, son? You need more time to think about it?" Keating cracked. He reached for Jude's papers as if they'd been soaked in poison. Unsmiling, he poured coffee down his throat and unsmiled some more.

Things were going just swell.

Jude shifted on his feet, glancing around at the grim, cluttered office. It truly was nothing more than a transformed trailer. Jude hated this whole scene already with a passion he usually reserved for chemistry teachers, party clowns, and the Grammys. Worst of all, Jude was pretty sure he wasn't getting paid yet. So all this pleasant chitchat came absolutely free.

Keating's phone chimed the opening riff to some Billy Joel tune — "We Didn't Start the Fire" — and the man paused before answering. He jerked a thumb, gesturing outside. "Like I said. Find some pine, sit on it, and we'll get to you." Keating didn't need to call Jude a dumb-ass; it was implicit.

Jude took a couple of steps back, more than happy to get away from the runty marathoner and his Napoleon complex. Outside, there wasn't a chair in sight; confused, Jude looked back at Keating.

"Around the corner," Keating said. Then he grumbled into the phone, "It's a parade of lost lambs around here, yeah, yeah," — he laughed like a toothy hyena at some joke — "everybody's looking for new talent. Right now all's I got is a couple of guys with that deer in the headlights look. I'll send you what I got."

There was another kid waiting on the far end of the bench. He was fattish, and splotches of sweat already darkened his orange T-shirt. The boy sat with his shoulders against the trailer office, arms folded across his chest, legs stretched out, ankles crossed, wearing red sneakers with bright green laces. His expression said that he wasn't thrilled to be here and didn't care who knew it.

"Hey," Jude said almost inaudibly.

The boy stirred, uncrossed his ankles. "Sucks, doesn't it?" he grumbled. "Sitting here, hot as hell."

Jude squinted at the climbing sun. He shrugged. "I hear when it rains, they tell you not to come in to work. We only make money when the weather's good."

"Got that right," the boy said. He reached out a hand. "My name is Roberto and I'm a workaholic."

"I try to lay off the workahol myself," Jude said. "That stuff'll mess with your mind."

Roberto laughed. "Workahol, that's funny."

Jude smiled, asked, "This your first day?"

"First day, second year," Roberto answered. "I reenlisted. I still can't believe I took this job again — even my grandmother laughs at me. You know what that feels like? When even your mawmaw thinks you're a joke? Damn. Everybody knows I hate the beach. The sun, the crowds, the seagulls. Sand everywhere. You never get it out of your hair, ever. Growing up, it was the last place I wanted to be. Now I work here. God's big joke and I'm the punchline."

Jude gestured to the trailer. "I guess you know Mr. Sunshine."

"Keating?" Roberto said. "Don't worry, you won't see much of him. Did he tell you what field you're working?"

"No," Jude said. "He told me to sit on the bench."

Roberto explained that there were different concession buildings up and down the beach: Field Six, Central Mall, the Bathhouse, Field Two, Zack's Bay, a few others. He quickly ran through the pros and cons of each one. "Field Six is dead, so that can be good and bad. You don't have to work hard, but it's boring as hell. Mostly moms with dark tans, fake boobs, and little kids. Plus, some old people who never bother to walk down to the water. They set up folding chairs right on the edge of the parking lot and bake in the sun like raisins. They never eat anything, just wander in looking for napkins and free ice," he said. "Central Mall, right here, is a mob scene, busy all the time, and it's right next to headquarters, so the white shirts like Keating are in and out all day for surprise inspections."

"'Surprise inspections,' what's that?"

"It's when the big shots show up unannounced. They love to strut around like peacocks, you know, feathers in their butts, point out ridiculous crap nobody cares about, ketchup containers almost empty, the heat's too high on the grill, too many boxes lying around, what the F ever — it's their big chance to boss around a bunch of teenagers, basically. Chat up some of the pretty girls."

Jude nodded. He enjoyed listening to Roberto almost as much as Roberto liked talking.

"And just pray you don't get stuck at Zack's Bay," Roberto said emphatically. "That place is like another planet, believe me."

"So where do I want to work?" Jude asked.

Roberto held up crossed fingers. "West End Two," he said. "It's way out there, almost at Long Beach, not far from where they shot the tollbooth scene in The Godfather. Remember that, when Sonny got shot, like, fifteen million times?"

Jude remembered. You spend any time on Long Island, somebody's bound to point out those tollbooths where Sonny got shot.

Roberto continued, "It's a fifteen-minute drive from here, so if one of the bosses decides to pull a surprise inspection, we'll get a call from our spies before he's even in the car. But the best thing about West End Two? I hear that Kenny 'Half-Baked' Mays is back as closing manager — working for that guy's a trip and a half."

A few minutes later, they were on their way. A different supervisor had picked them up — Jude guessed it was his job to taxi around different workers to the far-flung concession stands. This guy was thick and fiftyish. He wore tinted, wire-rimmed glasses, a ten-gallon hat, and told the boys he was new to the area, originally from Houston, Texas. He had that avuncular Southern thing going full blast, so he blabbed the whole ride over. "Call me Ed," he instructed the boys, "Big Ed, Eddie, I don't give a rat's patootie." He looked into the rearview mirror at Jude. "You met Mr. Keating this morning, huh?"

Jude nodded cautiously.

"So what'd you think?" Big Ed inquired.

Jude knew a trap when he fell into one. "We didn't really get a chance to, um —"

Big Ed laughed, a hearty whoop. "You know what we say about guys like him back where I'm from? He's all hat and no cattle."

Roberto laughed out loud, smiling and bobbing his head at Jude. "I like that, Big Ed. All hat and no cattle."

"Texas is a great place for expressions, lots of colorful people back there," Big Ed mused.

"So how'd you end up here?" Jude asked.

"That's the $64,000 question, ain't it?" Big Ed replied. He looked out the driver's side window, clicked his wedding ring on the steering wheel, and his wondering eyes scanned the dunes and the ocean beyond it, as if looking for something that wasn't there. "I guess it was time to go, simple as that. Besides, I'm near retirement. Time for a new beginning."

It was a nice ride. Big Ed was a good guy, laid-back and quick to laugh. He talked to Jude and Roberto as if they were equals. Big Ed was a boss and they knew it; he didn't need to club 'em over their heads with it. Best of all, Big Ed dropped them off at West End Two. "Work hard, boys," he called after them in a Texas lilt, "from can till can't. You ever need a lift, give Big Ed a shout."

Roberto led the way through the back door, which opened from the parking lot into a gray room about the size of a train car, cluttered with shelves, metal tables, and boxed goods of every size. No one seemed to be around.

Acting as tour guide, Roberto pointed to various doors and explained that they opened to closet-size storage rooms, a large walk-in refrigerator (with kegs of beer), a freezer, and the manager's office. Though the door was partially open, Roberto knocked on it and waited.

The manager's name was Denzel Jessup — no lie. He recognized Roberto from the previous summer, when Roberto spent a week filling in over at Field Six. Jessup had the look of a thoroughbred: tall, taut, broad-shouldered, dark-skinned. As manager, he earned the right to wear a white button-down shirt and a cheap black tie. Somehow on Jessup it looked almost sharp. He stood tall, acting neither friendly nor unfriendly; kept it neutral, all business. It took Jessup about a minute and a half to casually let drop that he was an upperclassman at an Ivy League school, that he was too smart for this shit, and that if everybody did their jobs, it would all go fine and he wouldn't have to crawl into anybody's ass.

Jude would spend the rest of the summer trying to purge that disgusting image from his mind.

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Excerpted from Before You Go by James Preller. Copyright © 2012 James Preller. Excerpted by permission of Feiwel and Friends.
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