A Nest of Sparrowsby Deborah Raney
His Fiancée Was the One Woman He’d Loved.
Her Children Are All He Has Left.
Reserved contractor Wade Sullivan never expected to fall in love with Starr Parnell or to love her three small kids as if they were his own. But that’s exactly what happened. As their wedding draws near, however, tragedy strikes–and Wade must put aside his own… See more details below
His Fiancée Was the One Woman He’d Loved.
Her Children Are All He Has Left.
Reserved contractor Wade Sullivan never expected to fall in love with Starr Parnell or to love her three small kids as if they were his own. But that’s exactly what happened. As their wedding draws near, however, tragedy strikes–and Wade must put aside his own grief in order to help Starr’s children cope.
As Wade focuses his efforts on caring for the children, he discovers that their tender, young lives give tremendous meaning to his own broken one. Then Starr’s abusive ex-husband shows up to claim the offspring who barely remember him–and Wade prepares for the fight of his life.
Will Anyone Believe His Claim to Love the Children More than Their Father Loves Them?
A powerful novel of loss and discovery, courage and grace, A Nest of Sparrows masterfully illustrates one man’s struggle to know when to fight, when to let go, and when to simply wait.
From the Trade Paperback edition.
–Randy Alcorn, author of Deadline and Safely Home
“Deborah Raney’s A Nest of Sparrows is a moving testament to the power of love. If you are looking for a story about family, about restoration, about home–as well as a story that’s just plain engaging–this is it.”
–Ann Tatlock, award-winning author of All the Way Home
“What a tender and moving novel! A Nest of Sparrows is cute, funny, tragic and moving. Ultimately, it’s a story of love on all levels; the love between parents and children, the love between a man and a woman, and foremost between God and his children. I was drawn into the story of this book and left with the message.”
–Linda Hall, award-winning author of Steal Away and Chat Room
“We often read stories about a mother’s heart. Deborah Raney paints a vivid picture of a dad’s heart, better than any definition I’ve ever read. A Nest of Sparrows is a gripping portrayal of what family should be. An expertly crafted story with all the ingredients that make us laugh and cry——let go and let God.”
–Yvonne Lehman, author of 40 novels, including Coffee Rings
“This is a heartfelt story of one man’s struggle to keep the children he loves, and the faith that keeps him strong. Deborah Raney’s writing is always full of warmth and hope, and A Nest of Sparrows is no exception.”
–james scott bell, Christy Award winning author of Breach of Promise
“Wow–what an amazing, tender, touching story! A Nest of Sparrows grabs your heart from the get-go, delivering wonderful characters and an emotionally gripping story you’ll love. By far Raney’s best. Highly recommended! Do not miss this marvelous book.”
–Gayle Roper, author of Winter Winds, Autumn Dreams, Summer Shadows and Spring Rain
- The Crown Publishing Group
- Publication date:
- Sold by:
- Random House
- NOOK Book
- Sales rank:
- File size:
- 2 MB
Read an Excerpt
Sophia Braden dropped the phone into its cradle and covered her mouth
with her hands, trying to absorb the bombshell Wade had just dropped.
Her throat constricted, and she struggled to catch her next breath.
A tug on her shirttail made her look down.
“Aunt Sophie? Was that my mama?” Danica looked up at her with
woeful puppy-dog eyes–eyes so like her mother’s. How did you explain
something like this to a four-year-old? Sophie could barely make sense of
“No, sweetie”–she took a deep breath and put a hand on her niece’s
head, smoothing back the silky yellow hair–“that was Wade. He–” She
swallowed back a sob that felt like a boulder. “He’s going to pick you guys
up in a little bit.”
A glint of suspicion crossed Danica’s delicate features, and she looked
hard into Sophie’s face, then ducked out from under her caress and ran back
to the living room, where her brother and sister were watching a video.
What on earth was Wade going to tell these kids? And what would
happen to them? No way in the world was Wade going to take on three
kids and raise them. And she sure as Moses wouldn’t do it.
Her big sister was gone. Dead. Sophie was jolted all over again by the
thought. It brought back too many memories that were better left buried.
But one thing couldn’t be ignored. She was totally alone now.
What could have happened to Starr? Wade said they didn’t know yet,
but good grief, a twenty-nine-year-old woman didn’t just drop dead for no
reason. She and Starr had had their differences over the years, but in spite
of it all, Sophie loved her sister. Starr was the only family she had left.
Now she was gone too.
And where was her sister’s God now? She strangled a derisive snort. If
Starr had one fault, it was that she was always trying to cram her religion
–her faith, she called it–down Sophie’s throat. Well, it didn’t take a
psychologist to see that Starr had God and Wade mixed up. Just because
things had finally gone right for Starr, just because she’d finally found a
man who treated her like a princess and loved her brats as if they were his
own, Starr was ready to jump up and shout hallelujah and give God all
the credit. Well, where was God now?
Sophie hoped Starr knew…wherever she was.
Wade stood six feet from Starr’s body and answered the questions the
emergency personnel–and later the medical investigator from the coroner’s
office–threw at him. But Wade had no light to shed on what could
have caused Starr’s sudden death. Numb, he told them everything he
could think of: She’d spent long hours working at the house, using all
kinds of paints and varnishes. She’d been fighting a cold for several days,
but that hadn’t seemed to slow her down. No, she wasn’t on any regular
medications, though he thought she might have been taking something
for the sinus headache. But he couldn’t be certain. He racked his brain for
anything else that might help and came up blank.
Finally they covered Starr’s body and carried her from the house. Like
an automaton, Wade locked up the house, climbed into his truck, and
drove over to Sophie’s place. He trudged up the sidewalk to the run-down
apartment. It took supreme effort to put one foot in front of the other.
How could he tell those kids their mama was dead? They’d had so many
struggles already in their short lives.
He rang the doorbell. Almost immediately the door swung inward,
and two featherweight little girls swooped on him. “Wade! Wade’s here!
Oh, Father, give me the words. “Hey, half pint.” He hoisted Danica up
with one arm and pulled her seven-year-old sister close with the other.
“Hey, Lacey Daisy. Hey, Dani Banany.”
Beau waited in the wings, with the newly acquired aloofness of an
almost-nine-year-old. “Hey, buddy.” Wade put up a hand for their ritual
“give me five” greeting.
Beau slapped Wade’s hand hard with his small palm, then dipped his
head and tossed Wade a crooked grin.
“Where’s Mama?” Dani asked, looking past Wade to the front door.
He felt his spirit falter. “Come here, guys.” He started toward the living
room, Dani still in his arms, herding the other two beside him. “I…I
need to talk to you…about your mama.”
From the corner of his vision, Wade saw Sophie grab the remote and
switch off the television. She leaned on the doorjamb.
He sat down on the shabby sofa and pulled Danica close, breathing
in the sweet baby shampoo scent of her hair. Beau and Lacey stared at
him, waiting. What were they expecting him to say? Surely not the terrible,
devastating words he was about to utter.
He cleared his throat and fought for control. “Something happened
to your mama this morning. We…we’re not sure what yet, but she had an
accident–or maybe she was sick–we don’t know for sure,” he repeated.
“The…the doctor is going to try to find out. But your mama…she’s in
“She died?” Beau’s voice cracked, and his face contorted. He stood
like a statue for a long minute before his angry outburst split the air. “No!
You’re a liar!”
Wade reached for him, but Beau wriggled out of his grasp and ducked
between the sofa and the wall, whimpering.
“I’m sorry, Beau. We don’t know why, but, yes,…your mama died.
And she’s in heaven with Jesus now.”
“You’re a liar,” Beau spat again. “I hate you! I hate Jesus! I want my
Danica began to whimper. “I want Mama. I don’t want Mama to go
up to heaven.”
Wade held the little girl close, drawing strength from her birdlike
weight on his lap. Her thumb went to her mouth–a habit that had been
broken last year before she started preschool. He pulled Lacey into the
circle. She snuggled close to him, dazed and silent.
Wade looked to Sophie, wondering why she didn’t help him out
somehow. Why didn’t she go to Beau, try to comfort him. Or talk to the
girls? But Starr’s sister stood apart, removed from the scene. Wade
reminded himself that Sophie had just lost a sister. They were all in shock.
Gently Wade eased the little girls from his lap and went to kneel
beside the sofa where Beau crouched. He put a firm hand on the boy’s
shoulder. “Hey, Beau. C’mon, buddy, look at me.”
Beau jerked away from his touch.
“Come on, Beau. I need your help here. I know it’s tough. I miss your
mama too. But we need to be strong…for the girls. Help me out here,
Beau sat stock-still, but Wade could tell by the way his sniffling quieted
that he was weighing his words.
Finally Beau turned, still squatting on his haunches. He glared at
Wade. “Why did she die?”
Wade risked reaching out to him again. This time Beau let him rest a
hand on his shoulder. “I don’t know, buddy. I don’t understand it either.
We’re just going to have to be patient until the coron–” He stopped
himself, not wanting to have to define the word coroner for an eight-year-old.
He started over. “We’ll have to wait until the doctor examines her.
Then maybe we’ll know more about what happened. You sit with the girls
for a minute, okay? I need to talk to your Aunt Sophie.”
Beau nodded, his eyes glazed.
Wade motioned Sophie to follow him into the apartment’s tiny
kitchen. “What do you want to do?”
“What do you mean?”
“About the kids. Do you think it would be best if they stayed with
Sophie started wagging her head before Wade even got the question
out. “I don’t have room for three kids here, Wade. You can see that.
Besides, I can’t afford to miss work.” She looked at her watch. “I’ve
already lost almost two hours as it is.”
“You’re going back to work?”
“The bills don’t pay themselves, Wade.”
“Sophie, your sister just died. You’re not going to work.” How could
she be so cold? She must be in denial. “I’ll take the kids to Starr’s and stay
there with them tonight,” he told her. “But we’re going to have some
decisions to make tomorrow…about the kids. We need to decide where
they’re going to stay…” Wade heard his sensible words, knew they were
true, but there was a surreal quality about the very air in the room.
And yet, as each second ticked off the clock over Sophie’s cluttered
kitchen table, he was clouted with a startling new thought about the reality
of what Starr’s death meant for him: There would be no wedding in
August. The big house he and Starr had restored would never hold all the
love they felt for each other. The children were orphans. And the house
had no purpose now.
Every room in that house had been lovingly created for one of those
children. The names of Beau and Lacey and Danica were painted in Starr’s
hand on the walls of the rooms. Just like the mocking couplet that crawled
across the wall in the room he and Starr should have shared come summer.
Oh, Starr…Starr light, Starr bright. He placed a hand over his chest in
a futile effort to ease the terrible ache that throbbed there.
“They need you now, Wade. They ought to be with you.” Sophie’s
words brought him sharply back to the present.
He nodded. “Yeah. Okay. I’ll take them back to Starr’s and stay with
them tonight. Who…who do we need to call?” Starr and Sophie’s parents
were dead. The sisters had no other living relatives. “What about Darrin?”
Wade had never given the children’s biological father much thought.
He knew only the little that Starr had chosen to reveal about Darrin
Parnell. The man had been abusive to Starr and neglectful of the children.
They’d divorced when Starr became pregnant with Dani because Darrin
insisted Starr have an abortion. Starr had cut off all contact with Darrin
even before the baby was born. She’d told Wade she hadn’t even wanted
child support from a man who wished one of their babies dead.
But Parnell needed to know now, didn’t he? Wade stepped into the
living room and looked at the children huddled there. Would Darrin Parnell
have a claim to these precious children? He shuddered at the thought.
And for the first time his heart fully acknowledged that Beau and Lacey
and Danica Parnell belonged to him–Wade Sullivan. He couldn’t have
loved them more even if they were his own flesh and blood. Over the
two and a half years he and Starr had known each other, these kids had
become his. Not once had he seen them as a liability Starr dragged after
her. No. They were a windfall. Just one more wonderful asset that was a
part of Starr. One more gift she’d bestowed on him when, unbelievably,
she’d offered him her love.
“Darrin won’t care,” Sophie said, staring blindly past Wade, bitterness
thick in her voice. “He doesn’t deserve to know.”
Wade looked at her. He agreed with Sophie. But still, they ought to
let him know. “Okay…we’ll worry about it after the funeral,” he said.
“Right now these kids need some supper in their bellies. And they need
to be home.”
Sophie just nodded. While Wade rounded up the kids and their
things, Sophie grabbed her purse and car keys off the kitchen counter. “I’ll
be at work.”
The ten blocks to Starr’s apartment was the longest drive Wade had ever
made. In his rearview mirror, he watched the kids lined up in the cramped
backseat of his pickup. They sat buckled in, hands in their laps, eyes boring
into the back of the bench seat in front of them. Any other time, he
and Starr would have spent half the trip turned around in their own seats
trying to shush the chatterboxes.
He pulled into Starr’s parking space, jumped out of the truck, and
leaned his seat forward to help the girls with their seat belts. Beau’s eyes
met his, and Wade cringed at the emptiness he saw there.
He gathered them all into the apartment. Beau immediately switched
on the television.
“Hey, bud, turn that off, please. Let’s get supper going. You guys go
wash your hands, okay?”
Beau complied, following his sisters down the hallway to the bathroom.
Wade followed but stopped in front of Starr’s bedroom. He looked
through the doorway. Her bed was neatly made, as always, and the faint,
musky scent of her perfume assaulted him. His legs threatened to buckle
under him. He leaned against the doorpost, gathering his strength, sucking
He heard water running, then the kids straggled from the bathroom
one by one.
He went back to the kitchen with them and doled out assignments.
“Beau, you and Lacey get the dishes down. Dani, you can help set the
table.” He pulled open cupboard doors, one after another, looking for
something easy he knew how to make.
He should have stopped for pizza, but in a town the size of Coyote,
he was bound to run into someone he knew. The news of Starr’s death
would be hitting the streets by now, and he could not face the sympathy
and questions it would bring. Not yet.
Besides, it seemed wrong somehow that they were going about the
business of life–making supper, as though it were an ordinary day. What
would people think if they could see him now, acting as if everything were
the same, as if his whole world hadn’t just crashed at his feet the way Starr
had crumpled on that floor?
He pulled two boxes from the cupboard over the stove. “How does
mac and cheese sound?”
“I’m not hungry,” Beau said.
Wade tousled his spiked hair. “I know, bud. I’m not very hungry
either, but we need to eat. The girls, too. Your mama wouldn’t like it if you
guys skipped supper.”
He checked the instructions on the box and put a pan of water on the
stove to boil. “See what you can find in the refrigerator to go with this,
would you, Lacey?”
She tugged the door open and came out with a large container of
applesauce cradled in both hands.
“Perfect. Did you put spoons on the table? We’ll need spoons for
Lacey nodded. Wade wasn’t sure how long he could stand to look into
their hollow, grief-stricken eyes.
When the macaroni was finished, he scooped generous helpings onto
Starr’s everyday Melamine plates and helped the girls with their chairs.
“Let’s pray,” he said, stretching his hands out to Danica and Lacey on
either side of him. It was something Starr had started, holding hands
around the table while they prayed. It had made them seem like a family.
Tonight it only emphasized the gaping hole she’d left.
He waited for the children to bow their heads, then did likewise.
“Heavenly Father, this is…a very sad day for us–” His voice wavered and
he willed it to steady. “We ask you to help us get through this time. Father,
we know you loved Starr even more than we did. We know she’s with you
now, and for that we thank you. But–”
There was a loud scraping of chair legs on linoleum. He looked up to
see Beau slide off his chair and run from the room. Lacey and Danica
looked to Wade to see what he would do.
“It’s okay,” he said. “Beau just needs to be by himself for a while.” He
bowed his head again. “Help us, Jesus. Get us through these next hard
days. Be with us. Amen.”
“You forgot the food,” Lacey said, nodding toward her plate of congealed
It would have been funny any other night. But Lacey’s voice quivered,
and her blue eyes brimmed. Wade thought he would lose it if she let those
tears spill over. Quickly he bowed his head again, trying to keep his tone
light. “Um, sorry, Lord. I guess I forgot something. Please bless this food
for the use of our bodies. Amen.”
He raised his head but avoided looking into any Starr-like eyes. Shoveling
a forkful of tasteless macaroni into his mouth, he watched Dani
from the corner of his eye. She picked up her fork with her right hand,
and with her left, she beaded a piece of orange macaroni on each tine.
Starr was–had been–a stickler about manners. She would have corrected
Dani sharply. But tonight Wade didn’t have the heart.
Not tonight. Not on this first night that Danica Parnell was an orphan.
From the Trade Paperback edition.
and post it to your social network
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
See all customer reviews >