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She helps people put their demons to rest.
But she has a few of her own…
In the lockdown ward of a psychiatric hospital, Dr. Nadine Lavoie is in her element. She has the tools to help people, and she has the desire--healing broken families is what she lives for. But Nadine doesn't want to look too closely at her own past because there are whole chunks of her life that are black holes. It takes all her ...
She helps people put their demons to rest.
But she has a few of her own…
In the lockdown ward of a psychiatric hospital, Dr. Nadine Lavoie is in her element. She has the tools to help people, and she has the desire--healing broken families is what she lives for. But Nadine doesn't want to look too closely at her own past because there are whole chunks of her life that are black holes. It takes all her willpower to tamp down her recurrent claustrophobia, and her daughter, Lisa, is a runaway who has been on the streets for seven years.
When a distraught woman, Heather Simeon, is brought into the Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit after a suicide attempt, Nadine gently coaxes her story out of her--and learns of some troubling parallels with her own life. Digging deeper, Nadine is forced to confront her traumatic childhood, and the damage that began when she and her brother were brought by their mother to a remote commune on Vancouver Island. What happened to Nadine? Why was their family destroyed? And why does the name Aaron Quinn, the group's leader, bring complex feelings of terror to Nadine even today?
And then, the unthinkable happens, and Nadine realizes that danger is closer to home than she ever imagined. She has no choice but to face what terrifies her the most…and fight back, in Always Watching by Chevy Stevens.
Sometimes you can leave the past, but you can never escape.
"This was one tough book to put down…Highly recommended." --Suspense Magazine
"ALWAYS WATCHING is a riveting examination of the power of childhood secrets over our past and our present selves. I couldn't put it down." - Alafair Burke, author of IF YOU WERE HERE
"Chevy Stevens is in top form. ALWAYS WATCHING is a tense and twisty exploration of dark memories, hidden pasts, and a place that seems like heaven but might be hell. This is a deep and exciting novel, as unsettling as it is gripping." —Lisa Unger, author of HEARTBROKEN
“Haunting and harrowing, ALWAYS WATCHING is a stunner, offering not only consuming suspense but also a moving tale of mothers and daughters, the lingering echoes of the past that never stop reverberating.” – Megan Abbott, author of DARE ME
“A fantastic, heart-pounding thriller that pulls you in from the first page. I loved it!” – Lisa Jackson, author of YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW
"ALWAYS WATCHING grabbed me from page one. Its story of power, murder, and family secrets is seductive and sinister. Dr. Nadine Lavoie is a tenacious, compassionate heroine." - Meg Gardiner, author of RANSOM RIVER
“Taut and riveting, ALWAYS WATCHING follows the fault line between a person’s past and present — and the terror and turmoil that can pull a life apart when they collide with the force of an earthquake. Chevy Stevens’ suspenseful, twisted story kept me up late into the night, frantically turning pages with white-knuckled fingers.” – Hilary Davidson, author of THE NEXT ONE TO FALL
“Chevy Stevens intelligently and relentlessly pulls the reader deeper into a nightmarish world while compelling you to read just one more page…” – Rosamund Lupton, author of SISTER
“A harrowing tale of manipulation that got under my skin by the end of the first chapter…” — Linwood Barclay, author of TRUST YOUR EYES
The first time I saw Heather Simeon, she was curled into a ball in the seclusion room at the hospital, a thin blue blanket tight around her, the bandages sharp white lines circling her wrists. Her blond hair obscured most of her face. Even then, she still gave off a sense of refinement, something in the high cheekbones barely visible through the veil of her hair, the beautifully arched brows, the patrician nose, the delicate outline of pale lips. Only her hands were a mess: the cuticles raw and bleeding, the nails jagged. They didn’t look bitten, they looked broken. Like her.
I’d already read her file and talked with the emergency psychiatrist who’d admitted her the night before, then gone over everything with the nurses, most of whom had worked in the Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit for years, and who were also my best sources of information. I might spend fifteen minutes to an hour with each patient during my morning rounds, but the rest of the time I was at my office in the Mental Health building, treating patients who are out in the community. That’s why I like to bring a nurse with me when I first meet a patient, so we’re on the same page with the care plan. Michelle, a cheerful woman with curly blond hair and a wide smile, was with me now.
Heather’s husband had come home the night before to find her sprawled on the kitchen floor, the knife near her hand. When she was admitted to the hospital, she’d become agitated, crying and fighting the nurses. The emergency-room doctor ran a drug screen that came back clear, so she’d been given Ativan and placed in the seclusion room. She was under close observation on the monitor, and a nurse checked on her every fifteen minutes.
She’d been sleeping all night.
I knocked softly on the door frame. Heather stirred and opened her eyes, blinked a few times. I stepped closer to the bed. She gazed up at me, licked her lips, which were dry and chapped, then swallowed. Her mouth parted as if she were going to say something, but only her breath escaped in a long sigh. Her eyes were dark blue.
“Good morning, Heather,” I said in my gentlest voice. “I’m Dr. Lavoie, the attending psychiatrist.” When I had my private practice up island, my patients called me Nadine. But since moving to Victoria to work at the hospital, I’d started using my title, had come to like the emotional distance—one of the reasons for my move in the first place. “Would you like some water?”
She was staring somewhere over my shoulder, her expression blank, devoid of sorrow or anger. She might not have succeeded in checking out physically, but she had definitely disappeared emotionally.
“I’d like to talk with you for a little bit if that’s okay.”
Her eyes skimmed past me, landing on Michelle. She pulled the blue blanket tight around her.
“Why … is she here?” Her voice was a whisper.
“Michelle? She’s one of our nurses.”
On the psychiatry floor, the doctors are generally in business casual, the nurses dressed more for comfort. Michelle tended to favor fun clothes, today a funky striped shirt with dark denim dress jeans. Unless you noticed the ID badge around her neck, you might not realize she was a nurse.
Heather’s body language was defensive, almost cringing under the blanket, her gaze flicking back and forth between us like a cornered animal’s. Michelle stepped back, but Heather still looked overwhelmed. Some patients felt ganged up on when we brought a nurse in with us.
I said, “Would you be more comfortable just talking to me?”
She gave a small nod as she worried a corner of her bandage with her teeth. Again, I was struck with the image of a wild animal trying to escape its bindings. I glanced at Michelle, signaling that it was okay for her to leave.
Michelle smiled at Heather.
“I’ll check on you later, honey. See if you need anything.”
I liked Michelle’s warmth with the patients, had noticed it before. She’d often sit and talk with them, even on her breaks. When the door closed behind her, I turned back to my patient.
“Can you tell me how old you are, Heather?”
She slowly said, “Thirty-five,” as she looked around, starting to become more aware of where she was. I saw the room through her eyes and felt bad for her: the small plastic window in the heavy metal door, the Plexiglas cover on the window with scratch marks down it like someone had tried to claw their way out—which someone had.
“And your name?” I said.
“Heather Duncan…” She shook her head, catching herself, but the movement was sluggish, delayed. “Simeon. My name now, it’s Simeon.”
I smiled. “Did you get married recently?”
“Yes.” Not yeah or uh-huh, but yes. She was educated, brought up to speak clearly. Her gaze focused on the heavy metal door. “Daniel … is he here?”
“He’s here, but I’d like to talk with you first. How long have you and Daniel been married?”
“What do you do for a living, Heather?”
“I don’t do anything now, but I used to work in the store. We take care of the earth.”
I noticed her shift to present tense.
“Are you a landscaper?”
“It’s our job to tend and keep the land.”
I felt an uncomfortable flutter in my stomach about the phrase. It sounded familiar, and she’d also said it like she was reciting an expression she’d heard many times. She was repeating it, not speaking for herself.
“I heard you had a bad night,” I said. “Would you like to tell me what happened?”
“I don’t want to be here.”
“You’re in the hospital because you’ve been certified under the Mental Health Act. You tried to hurt yourself, and we don’t want that to happen again, so we’re going to help you get better.”
She pulled herself up into a sitting position, and I noticed how thin her arms were as she braced on the mattress, the veins popping. Her arms shook as if the effort of holding up her body was exhausting.
“I just wanted it all to stop.” Her eyes filled with tears that weaved down her face, dripped off her nose. One landed on her arm. She stared at it as though she had no idea how it got there.
“What did you want to stop?”
“The bad thoughts. My baby—” Her voice caught and she flinched, gritting her teeth as though something had stabbed her deep inside.
“You had a miscarriage, Heather?” According to her file, she’d lost the baby a week ago, but I wanted to see if she would tell me more about it herself.
Another tear slid down and dropped onto her arm.
“I was three months along. I started bleeding.…” She took a breath and let it out slowly through clenched teeth.
I paused, a beat of silence in honor of what she’d just told me, then said, very gently, “I’m sorry, Heather. That must have been very painful for you. It’s normal to have feelings of depression after losing a child, but we can help you manage your feelings so they aren’t so overwhelming. Your file said your doctor prescribed Effexor last year. Are you still taking it?”
“When did you stop?”
“When I met Daniel.” I caught the slightly defensive tone and knew she felt guilty that she’d stopped taking the pills, ashamed that she needed them. People with depression often stop their medication when they fall in love, the endorphins creating their own natural antidepressant. Then real life kicks in.
“The first thing I’d like to do is put you back on the antidepressant.” My voice was casual: This isn’t a big deal. You’re okay. “We’ll start you off on a low dose and see how you do. Your file mentioned that you also went through a hard time a few years ago.” Her previous two suicide attempts had been with pills. She’d been found at the last second in each case, but now that Heather had progressed to more violent means, she might not be so lucky next time.
“You were referred to a psychologist. Are you still seeing him?”
She shook her head. “I didn’t like him. Daniel, is he okay?”
“The nurses said he stayed here all night and only went home this morning to get some of your things. He’s back in the waiting area now.”
Heather frowned, her face worried. “He must be so tired.”
“I’m sure Daniel just wants you to get well. We’re here to help with that.”
Fresh tears made her eyes seem even bluer, like sapphires set in diamonds. She was so pale you could see every vein in her neck, but she was still hauntingly pretty. People often assume that beautiful people have no reason to be unhappy. It’s usually the complete opposite.
“I want Daniel,” she said. Her eyelids had begun to droop, the effort of talking draining what little energy she had left.
“I’m going to speak to him first, then we’ll see if we can arrange a little visit.” I wanted to get a sense of what kind of emotional shape he was in, so he didn’t make the situation worse.
“They can’t find me in here.” She said the words to the room as though she’d forgotten I was there and was just reassuring herself.
“Who are you afraid is going to find you?”
“I want them to leave us alone, but they just keep calling and calling.” She picked at her cuticles as she spoke, tearing at a small piece of flesh.
“Is someone bothering you?” Her file hadn’t said anything about paranoia or hallucinations, but psychosis is sometimes possible with severe depression, which Heather was clearly suffering from. But if she was also having problems with some people in her life, we needed to know about it.
She started to worry the bandage with her teeth again.
I said, “This is a safe environment—it’s a place for you to get better. We can bar anyone you don’t want to visit, and there’s a security guard on the floor at all times. No one can get to you.” If there was a real threat, I wanted to make sure Heather felt secure enough to tell me what was going on. If it was just paranoia, she still needed to feel protected, so we could begin to treat her.
“I’m not going back.” The last part was said as though she was warning herself. “They can’t make me.”
“Who can’t make you?”
She forced her eyes open, met mine with a flash of confused alarm. I could see her wondering what she’d just told me. Fear, and something else, something I couldn’t name yet, rolled off her body in thick waves, pressing into me. I fought the sudden urge to step back.
“I need to see Daniel.” Her head lolled forward, and her chin dropped onto her chest. “I’m so tired.”
“Why don’t you get some rest while I talk to your husband.”
She curled up under the blue blanket in the fetal position, her face to the wall, shaking even though the room was warm.
Her voice now barely a whisper, she said, “He sees everything.”
I paused at the door. “Who sees everything, Heather?”
She just pulled the blanket over her face.
* * *
When I walked into the visiting area, a tall man with dark hair leaped to his feet. Even unshaven, with shadows under his eyes and a rumpled dress shirt hanging outside faded jeans, Daniel was an attractive man. He was probably in his mid-forties, judging by the laugh lines around his eyes and mouth, but I had a feeling he was one of those men who grow even more handsome with age. Their child would have been lovely. I felt a wave of sorrow for them.
He strode toward me, a brown leather bomber jacket hanging over his arm and a knapsack hooked over his shoulder.
“How is she? Is she asking for me?” His voice cracked on the last word.
“Let’s go where we can talk privately, Mr. Simeon.” I led him down the hallway toward one of the interview rooms, skirting the janitor mopping the floor. I frowned when I noticed that the utility room behind him was unlocked and gaping, and made a mental note to mention it to the nurses.
“Call me Daniel, please. Can you tell me if she’s all right?”
“I’d say yes, considering. She’s having a hard time, but we’re doing everything in our power to help her. This is the best place for her right now.”
“There was so much blood.…”
I felt bad for him, knowing what he was probably thinking: What if I’d come home ten minutes later? Why didn’t I see the signs? Families seem to fall into two categories: those that blame themselves and those that blame the patient. But they always need to blame someone.
“It must have been very upsetting to find her like that,” I said. “Is there anyone you can talk to? I’d be happy to suggest someone.”
A quick shake of his head. “I’m okay. I just want Heather to be safe.”
I thought about what Heather had just told me. Was someone harassing her? Or was his fear just related to what she had done?
“That’s what we want too.” I unlocked the heavy metal door to the interview room and waved Daniel into a chair.
He sat across from me. People might think that the ward would be decorated in soothing colors, a warm, nurturing environment, but the chairs, mismatched shades of pink, blue, and puce, have been there since the seventies. The desk was laminate, the edges cracked and peeling. A wood shelf stood against one wall with a few lonely books stacked haphazardly. Even the waiting area where he’d been sitting for so many hours was just a few chairs by the elevators. It’s an old hospital. But the funding isn’t there, and this isn’t meant to be a holiday.
“Did she tell you why she…” Daniel choked up, took a quick breath. “Why she tried to kill herself?”
“I can’t share anything Heather tells me without her permission. But I’d like to ask you some questions.”
“Did you know how depressed she’s been?”
He rubbed his chin, his face bleak. “Since we lost the baby, she won’t eat or get out of bed. Most days she won’t even shower. I thought it was postpartum, or whatever it’s called, and she just needed some time.… I keep thinking about how quiet she was when I left last night. I was late for work—I’ve been picking up odd jobs in the evening to make some extra cash—so I was in a rush.” He shook his head. “If I’d stayed with her…”
He was the type who blame themselves. I leaned forward.
“This isn’t your fault, Daniel. If you’d been there, she’d have waited until you weren’t and tried again. People as troubled as Heather always find a way.”
He looked at me—long enough, I hoped, for my words to sink in—then his face clouded over.
“Her parents are going to take this really hard.”
“They don’t know?”
“They’re on an RV trip in Northern BC. I tried to call, but they must be out of range. She hasn’t talked to them for a while.”
“What about her friends?”
“She never wanted to do anything with them, so they stopped phoning.”
I wasn’t surprised that Heather had pushed people away, except for Daniel. A classic symptom of depression was detaching from friends and family.
“What do you do for a living, Daniel?”
“I’m a carpenter.” That explained his build, and his deep tan. He smiled as he looked down at his rough hands. “Heather and I came from different worlds, but the minute we met, we had this instant connection, like on the deepest level. Neither of us had ever felt that way before.” He looked at me as if expecting skepticism.
I gave him an encouraging nod.
He continued. “She’d just gone through a breakup—her ex was a real jerk. But we started hiking and doing yoga together. It seemed to cheer her up.”
It had been a good idea on his part. Exercise is one of the best natural aids for depression.
“So you noticed some signs of depression before you got married?”
“I guess.… She’s the kind of person who’s always trying to take care of everyone else, so it’s hard to tell sometimes. She’d get really quiet or start crying, but she wouldn’t want to worry me, so I wouldn’t know what she was upset about. But when she got pregnant, she was really happy about the baby, picking out names, buying toys.…” His voice wavered. “I don’t know what to do about the baby’s room or all the clothes she bought.”
My mind flashed to Paul painting Lisa’s nursery strawberry red with apple green stripes because our child would be different, would skip to her own beat. Which she had, always—a trait I’d admired, until she danced away from me.
“Let’s take it one day at a time,” I said, as much to myself as to him. “You can work all that out later.”
“When can Heather come home?”
“She’s been involuntarily admitted into the hospital so we can keep an eye on her. We can’t release her until she’s no longer a danger to herself.”
“What if she tries … you know.” He swallowed hard. “What if she tries to do it again?”
“We won’t let her here. And we won’t send her home until she’s stable and has a good support system in place.”
“Can I see her? I brought some of her things.”
Normally, we’re strict about visiting hours—they’re only from four to nine in PIC, where everyone has to be buzzed in and out. We don’t allow visitors before noon, so patients can attend programs, and we can make our rounds. But he looked desperate, and I thought seeing him might help Heather settle in.
“She’s resting right now, but you can say a quick hello.”
* * *
We didn’t talk as we rode up the elevator to Psychiatric Intensive Care on the next floor. Daniel seemed lost in thought, and I was busy counting my heartbeats while focusing on my breathing. I’ve suffered from claustrophobia for years, a fact that would probably shock my patients. Various coping techniques help, from mental imagery to breathing exercises, but when I first heard the elevator seal shut, I had to restrain myself from hitting the panic button.
We were buzzed into the unit. In PIC, the nurses’ station is behind glass, and a security guard is always at hand. One side of the unit is for high-risk patients like Heather, and the other is the step down unit, where they go when they don’t need the same level of monitoring. If they continue to improve, they are moved down to the next floor, where they have more freedom.
The nurse searched the bag Daniel had brought for Heather to make sure there wasn’t anything she could hurt herself with—the frame was removed from their wedding photograph, same with the tie from her robe. When the nurse was finished, I showed Daniel to an alcove in the lounge area, where they could have some privacy but still be in view, then went to get Heather.
As I entered the seclusion room, I gave her a quick visual. She was still curled in a ball, her pale arms wrapped around her torso with both small hands on her shoulders, as if she were trying to hold herself together.
“Heather, do you feel up to a visit with Daniel now?”
Heather twitched at the sound, then slowly rolled over. Her voice was pleading, and her eyes flooded with tears, as she said, “I need to see him.”
“Okay, but you’ll have to come out with me because we don’t allow visitors in the seclusion rooms. Are you feeling strong enough to stand?”
She was already pulling herself up into a sitting position.
* * *
When we entered the lounge area, Daniel jumped to his feet—and froze as he took in the sight of his wife slowly shuffling beside me, the bandages on her wrists, the hospital blue pajamas, the blanket she’d wrapped around her shoulders like an old woman’s shawl.
“Daniel!” she cried out.
“Oh, sweetie,” he said as he gathered her into her arms. “You can’t scare me like that again.”
Once a patient has been in for a few days we leave them alone with their visitors, but I wanted to see how Daniel and Heather interacted—in case Daniel was part of the problem. I sat in one of the chairs a little to the side.
Daniel gently helped Heather lower herself before taking a seat. Heather rested her head against his shoulder, and he wrapped his arm around her back, supporting her.
“I’m sorry, Daniel.” Heather’s voice was raw with emotion. “I hate what I’m doing to you. You shouldn’t have to take care of me all the time.”
A red flag. Suicidal patients try to convince themselves that people would be better off without them.
Daniel said, “Don’t talk like that. I love you. I’m not going anywhere. I’m going to take care of you forever.” As though to prove his point, he pulled the blanket up around her shoulders, tucking it around her neck where the hospital pajamas had drifted down, revealing the hollow of her thin collarbone.
She clearly wasn’t frightened of Daniel, so I decided to leave and finish my rounds. Then Heather, speaking slightly under her breath, said something that caught my attention.
“I told the doctor about how they keep calling.”
“What did you say?” Daniel didn’t sound upset, just a little worried.
“Not much, I don’t think.… I’m confused, and my head feels funny. Are you mad at me?”
“I’m not mad, sweetie. But maybe you shouldn’t think about any of that right now, just think about getting better. We can talk about everything else another day.” His face was earnest, making sure she understood.
“Do you think Emily knows … what I did?”
“No, they probably wouldn’t have told her at the center.”
Heather nodded, then glanced up at the camera in the corner. She’d also glanced at it when she first sat down, and I wondered if she’d been at a treatment center where patients were monitored.
“Is there someone you’d like me to contact for you?” I said.
Heather looked at Daniel. He shook his head, just a slight movement, but she nodded back, acquiescing to whatever he’d just silenced.
I said, “It would help my treatment plan for Heather if you told me what program you were attending.”
Heather rested her hand on Daniel’s leg, her eyes pleading with him. Daniel’s were focused on her bandages, then he turned to me.
“We used to live at a spiritual center. It’s out in Jordan River. We left when Heather got pregnant because she didn’t want to have the baby there. Some of the members have been calling to make sure we’re okay. They’re nice people.”
I’d heard that there was a center out in Jordan River, a spiritual retreat of sorts that was well respected, but I didn’t know much else about them.
Heather had started to cry again, her shoulders shaking.
“They made me feel like it was my fault I lost the baby.”
“They don’t really believe it’s your fault—no one thinks that,” Daniel said. “They’re just trying to help, sweetie. You were doing so well.”
Heather was crying harder now, her face twisted.
“I didn’t like how they’re always telling us what to do. They—”
“Heather, stop—you don’t know what you’re saying.” Daniel’s eyes shot to my face, his voice concerned and his expression helpless. “They have rules, Dr. Lavoie, but they’re so we can stay focused on the workshops.”
Heather and Daniel clearly weren’t on the same page about the center, but she didn’t want to contradict Daniel in front of me. She kept glancing at him. Is it okay that I’m saying this? Do you still love me?
She gazed at him now, her hands gripping her blanket tight around her.
“They wouldn’t let me say good-bye to Emily.”
This was the second time Heather had mentioned Emily.
“Emily didn’t want to leave with us, remember? She loves it at the center. I know you miss her, but you need to worry about yourself and the bab—”
Heather recoiled like he’d hit her.
Daniel said, “Oh, sweetie, I’m sorry. It was just habit.”
Heather’s eyes had gone dark and empty again, her hands dropped by her sides, palms up—defeated.
“It’s my fault I lost the baby. You’re mad at me.”
“It’s not your fault, Heather—and I’m not mad at you.” In a voice so loving and sad it made my heart hurt, he added, “You’re the most important thing in the world to me.”
“They said we should stay. They said it was better for our baby—and maybe they were right. I made you leave, and now the baby’s dead.”
“Heather, stop.” Daniel was rubbing her back. “Don’t say things like that.” He put his face close to hers. “Hey, look at me.” But Heather was just staring at the wall now, her expression blank.
I didn’t want to push things too much, especially with Heather starting to dissociate from the conversation, but I was concerned about why she was blaming herself so much for the loss of her baby.
“Why did you want to leave the center, Heather?”
She began to rock, her arms wrapped around her body.
“They said that all adults are the child’s parents. So everyone helps raise them, and they don’t even stay with you.”
The horror in her face made it clear that this hadn’t sat well with her.
“At the center, they believe it’s better for the baby’s spiritual growth to be loved by many hearts,” Daniel said. “They have highly trained caregivers.”
This center sounded highly controlling. I turned to Heather.
“But you didn’t want to share your child?”
She nodded and glanced at Daniel, who stared down at Heather’s bandages again. She looked like she wanted to explain herself more, but then she reached out and held Daniel’s hand. He gave it a small squeeze.
“I think I was wrong, though,” she said. “We should’ve stayed. Then I wouldn’t have miscarried.”
I said, “How can you know that you wouldn’t have miscarried even if you had stayed? Did they actually tell you that you were responsible?”
“They didn’t say it was our fault,” Daniel said. “They were just worried that Heather had gotten herself too stressed out by moving.”
In other words, they had implied that it was her fault.
“What is this center called?” I said.
Daniel sat straighter, his shoulders proud.
“The River of Life Spiritual Center.”
Something tickled at the back of my mind, followed by an uncomfortable feeling of dread settling in my stomach.
“Who runs it?”
“Aaron Quinn. He’s the director of all the programs at the center.”
Aaron Quinn. He said Aaron Quinn.
It couldn’t be the same man.
Heather’s voice was a whisper. “Most of the members call it the commune.”
The commune. I hadn’t heard that name in years. I hadn’t wanted to hear it ever again. I stared at Heather, trying to think, my heart thudding in my ears.
“Dr. Lavoie?” Heather’s blue eyes were full of sorrow and pain. “Do you think it’s my fault the baby died?”
It took a second for me to refocus my thoughts. You have a patient, and she needs your help.
“No, I don’t think it’s your fault. You made a decision you thought was best for your child—you were just being good parents.” I talked on for a minute or two, heard the comforting words coming out of my mouth. But all the while my head was filled with a dull roar, the sound of fate and life colliding. Because what I couldn’t tell them was that I knew Aaron Quinn.
I knew exactly who he was.
Copyright © 2013 by Chevy Stevens Holdings Ltd.
Posted June 28, 2013
I loved this book! I am not one to write lengthy book reports so please don't expect that of my comments. I received this book yesterday and i completed it by the next day. It kept me interested and reading and i couldn't put it down. It was written very well and was a page turner. I have already recommended this book to others.
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Posted August 2, 2013
How did I ever overlook this author? Chevy Stevens doesn't use fancy verbiage, but her constant flow of energy and fast-paced inertia keeps the reader fully engaged and reading until all hours of the night. A truly suspenseful and stimulating book!
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Posted July 6, 2013
I've become a big fan of Chevy Stevens and would venture that this is her best yet.
Nadine, a therapist starts having flashbacks to her childhood of living on a commune in Victoria when a patient, who'd just left the commune, is admitted to the hospital after a suicide attempt.
It took me a few chapters to get into it, but when I did I was hooked. Stevens expertly weaved the past history of the River Of Life commune with the present mystery of what Nadine's recently returned memories of living there meant. This is a hard thing to do and often confusing, but in Stevens talented hands the transitions are seamless.
I would recommend this to anyone who likes psychological thrillers. Stevens family-driven thrillers go a step beyond run-for-your-life.
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Posted June 24, 2013
I have read Stevens other 2 books as well and have found all three great, quick, page turners and have recommended them to many of my friends.
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Posted June 22, 2013
This is the first book I've read by this author and I truly enjoyed it. At times a little predictable but none-the-less enjoyable. The story kept me turning the pages.
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A great read that keeps you turning the pages till the very end. What more could you ask for?
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Posted September 4, 2013
Always Watching pulls you in by the end of Chapter one. It seems that the more Dr Lavoie comes to know about Heather the more her nightmares come to life. This had me not wanting to put the book down. The twists and turns in this book are amazing. Nadine is a character who is both hard to like and very easy to relate to, she is both brilliant and foolish but aren't we all?. Chevy Stevens has written Always Watching to be a suspenseful and gripping read, and it will keep you up at night trying to finish the book. I did think that the ending of the book was dragged out but it was so good I can forgive her for that.The only minor complaint I have is the scenes between Nadine and Kevin, the book did not really explore the relationship between them. Other then that this book was perfect. Chevy Stevens has written another winner and I recommend this book to all readers who love a book that will keep you in suspense until the very end.
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Wow! Another great book from Chevy, she never disapoints! This was a very good book! A thrilling suspenceful page turner that I couldn't put down until I was finished! I have read all of Chevy's books and can't wait for another one! She has a great style of writing that draws you in and makes you feel like you are there with the characters the whole way through! Her characters and story lines always have me chomping at the bit until I have finished the book! She is an excellent story teller with a gift of drawing you in! I loved it! XO
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Posted March 28, 2014
It has been a while since I have read (or listened)to anything by Chevy Stevens, having read STILL MISSING and NEVER KNOWING, years ago.
ALWAYS WATCHING, featuring Nadine, a psychologist whose own past is as disturbing as the patients she treats. I listened to the audio version by Joyce Bean, which I am very familiar with from previous audio books.
Nadine, the main character comes from a horrifying background with an alcoholic father and an unstable mother. Now that she is a therapist, she confronts her past; however, some of her memories are blocked, as she begins to uncover secrets regarding the cult, in this suspenseful journey.
She helps others, when she cannot help her own daughter, yet when Heather, a suicidal patient is admitted, she is reminded of a similar story – will she confront her fears and demons, can she escape her past? When she learns Heather and her husband recently left the River of Spiritual Light Center (the commune lead by Aaron Quinn) the connection becomes front center with her time there as a teen with her mom and brother.
As she realizes danger is near, she is forced to confront her traumatic childhood at the remote commune on Vancouver. Full of terror, power, manipulation, murder, intensity, suspense, and the power of buried childhood secrets---locked away as it crosses over to a nightmare of the dark side.
Looking forward to reading the riveting, THAT NIGHT- Stevens latest novel, coming June 17, 2014.
Posted February 10, 2014