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ANGELS IN THE SILICON
By RICHARD THEODOR KUSIOLEK
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Chapter OneThe Journey
"Speak unto the children of Israel that they go forward" –Exodus 14:15
Chronicle - Past Events Future Realities
Thaddeus Sikorski was a third generation Russian and Polish American. Thad had long given up the thought of experiencing fatherhood. It was the prevailing premise that a child created forever by the way his mother experienced the child's expression of needs and sensations during the first days and weeks of life, and then the presupposition this was the moment that a child's life tragedy might be set for life. When he became a father during the birthing process at the Stanford University Medical Hospital, and viewed his first and perhaps only child, Melissa Rose, Thad catapulted immediately into a murky tunnel of experiences. Those ordeals changed his entire life. Thad left with a clear concern over the American values of justice, rule of law, and moral decency. Up to that point, Thad believed that the courts and lawyers were always just and pure. As the years rolled by, America was to experience endless hours of psychological and economic pain that the heartless judicial executioners would continue to inflict upon the innocence of children and their parents.
Thad was a United States Air Force Veteran of the 1960s. Thaddeus was not a traditional recognized war hero in Vietnam for he did take many risks that could have brought him back in a black plastic body bag. Thad had "sucked it up" being afraid during his entire tour with the First Air Commando Squadron in Nha Trang South Vietnam. As a little boy growing up in the cold weather in Chicago, Thad only knew that if options failed for him and everyone else in his life, the United States government would always be there to rescue him. However, in his latter stages of life, Thad would begin to think that the California legal system was out to destroy him and his angel children. Thad lived in these times when fathers lost their children due to the women's empowerment agenda of the U.S. Federal Government. Legal bandits stole a family's future earnings and the full power of the State of California and the Federal Government would threaten them with jail if they did not pay what they had not. One can see that the policy actions of the Clintons brought dire consequences for average American families who did not have the monetary resources to fight for the sanity and safety of his or her children and families.
On March 18, 1988, Phyllis Wilde, was discovered murdered in her Santa Clara home. Wilde savagely attacked with a hammer. She beaten so severely that the entire left side of your skull had collapsed. Before leaving, the murderer had covered her with a blanket and neatly balanced two pillows over her head. The entire room splashed with huge amounts of blood. The first person that entered the crime scene with Santa Clara Police Sergeant George Teal was the high profile 37-year-old Silicon Valley attorney N. Russell Sjonborg who had been the client executor of Phyllis Wilde's estate. Sjonborg three months after he walked through the blood spattered gruesome crime scene accepted an appointment by Judge Jeremy Bird to be the Guardian Ad Litem for Melissa Rose Sikorski, a young Palo Alto, California five-year-old girl. Russell would soon find himself the author of a murder plot to kill children.
The Journey Happens
Thad's mind was clear. This was to be his time of joy and self-actualization. He was finally coming to the point where his destiny was to be an entrepreneur power within the business community. Looking back, from the very moments of clarity of thought, Thad's thinking and creation had much to do with his own parents and their domestic struggles during their lives. To be clear, Thad never experienced knowing them. Yes, their divorce when he was just nine years shattered this young boy's very foundation. Thad's family was but past shadows moving across the snowdrifts of Chicago's winter storms. Therefore, Thad never wanted to be a father who would subject his own children to the years of endless confusion and lack of direction that fate had bestowed upon him. Prior to going to Vietnam, Thad's college first love, when he was 17 and attending Bradley University in Peoria Illinois, was June Hartmann. June was from Naperville Illinois but later married an engineer from Western Electric two years after Thad's arrived in Japan. Of course, the romantic breakup led Thaddeus to being a regular Tachikawa Airbase bar brawler.
Time fast-forwarded to 2009 when June Hartmann contacted Thaddeus on the Internet. She had divorced her husband and had two grown children. She lived in San Diego and they visited together. She was this sexy fox at 20-years-of age when Thaddeus met her at Bradley. In 2009, she was an old woman with 10,000 wrinkles and breast implants. There is nothing wrong with breast implants; however, they were hard as baseballs. Well, their regenerated love lasted for about six months. Unfortunately, June was a bit "nutty" as if she was at Bradley. They stopped seeing each other when Thad realized that she was flirting with any man who would walk within five feet of her. Thaddeus knew that she was battling cancer. In 2010, Thad found her obituary in the San Diego newspaper. The truth for Thad was that no one could resurrect a completed romantic past. Thad married several times because of his Post Trauma Stress Disorder (PTSD) anger episodes affected his ability to maintain stable relationships. Thad's five legal wives were Janice Troulman, Alice Paroda, Scarlett Swerling, Michelle Chiles, and Lucinda Varzea. Lucinda was a student from Portugal and they lived together in Seattle, Washington. Thad's second daughter Marianna was born in 1998. Anyone would conclude that Thad had a full life. However, Thad as a man was emotionally unable to stay long in a marriage relationship. Thaddeus had this "traditional 21st century role" to play and then to pay for selecting toxic women. When Thad married Scarlett Swerling, the dreams of being a "real father" rekindled as a reality. With the Palo Alto, California Swerling family, Thad was soon to discover that he did not have the right to love his children or to participate in his angels' early childhood years. The middleclass never would get justice. Perhaps, that is why families settle marital differences outside of a United States' Court System that many believe exist for the rich and their powerful politician allies.
Thaddeus's story begins with the angel Melissa Rose. However, the story really begins in 1983 when he first met her mother, Scarlett Swerling at a (STAR) retreat. Thad first learned about (STAR) during the early 80s when he met Sarah Green, a young Palo Alto women who lived on Cowper Street, and had gone through the (STAR) process at the Geyserville retreat. Sarah raved about how Thad could discard finally his childhood nightmares. Sarah explained how therapy helps to discover past feelings, which are the real causes for a person's hatred. (STAR) graduates will no longer behave like the mistreated children they were. They were no longer children who must protect their parents and who therefore need a scapegoat for the buried emotions that torment them. However, the hatred remains even when the scapegoats are switched. Never appeased it remains present and ready to spring out. Hatred poisons and blinds the soul, carves away the memory and the brain, and murders the capacity for compassion and insight.
The (STAR) Therapy process founded in Palo Alto California and developed by Barbara Findsen; a Stanford educated therapist and an internationally recognized pioneer in Transpersonal Psychology. The (STAR) Process designed to create a zone of safety so that the workshop participants could do their deepest personal work. Sarah was a sensitive and soft-spoken woman who Thad became attracted to almost immediately. They both spent time making love in the evenings, but it never was terribly exciting to Thad. He went through his programmed process of trying to dominate and control Sarah. Eventually, she avoided Thad or he just stopped his pursuit of her. It did not make any difference for Thad knew that he entered into a group, which consisted of lonely women and easy prey. Thad's technique was attracting women and discarding them. He always had some sick desire to hurt the women in his life. None of the many therapists ever figured out the key to Thad's destructive behavior towards women when it was obvious to him.
Soon after that meeting with Sarah, Honeywell Information Systems transferred Thad to Phoenix, Arizona to the Public Relations Large Information Division. Thad spent the two years in Phoenix trying to pull his dreams together and falling into one bad relationship after the next, like so many of his generation, that experimented with drugs and alcohol. Even when Thad was developing black out after black out, he believed that he was just a normal social user. Thad was just medicating the stressful lifestyle that the Sales and Marketing positions always demanded of him. Thad always hid his Vietnam nightmares with the same self-prescribed medications. He was going broke, working, spending, and then laid off in the fast-paced Computer and Software Industry. Thad was a single man with no responsibilities except himself and a true failure. He never knew what a husband was or if that role would ever be his to play.
Thad always went to his favorite Phoenix Arizona restaurant and bar, Durant's, to unwind from a day that began at 6am and usually ended at 7pm. It was Tuesday evening and he was toasting everyone with several bottles of his favorite French white wine, Pouilly Fuissé. Down the bar was a very piquant woman who Thad immediately moved to sit next to her. She had those warm sensual lips of love. Sikorski had a strong attraction to ravish her body. After two hours, she agreed to stay with him for the evening. It never occurred to Thad that he had a very important task of picking up the Prime Minister of Scotland at the Phoenix Airport the next morning at 8:30 AM. Thad was a trusted employee. He had the Honeywell corporate company car with the license plate, GCOS 1, and the Marriot Hotel was only across the street. Thad figured that this would be an easy plan to spend the night with this sensuous woman to love and drive to the airport in the morning. They left at 11PM and when Thad turned into the street traffic, a Phoenix police car nearly collided with the Honeywell car. Thad simply continued to drive across the street into the hotel parking lot. However, the officer followed Thad anyway directly to the hotel registration parking space. Instead of being calm and helpful, Thad was combatant and hence the officer arrested him. Thad's date for the night drove the Honeywell Company car to the police station and took a taxi home. Thad spent the night in jail. His hangover was major and the guards intentionally kept slamming the holding cell door repeatedly. At 7:00AM Thad was still in jail and the prospect of not meeting the Minister from Scotland at 8:30AM became quite apparent to him. Because Thad did not have any money, he had no choice but to make a direct collect call to his Senior Vice President. The first thing that the jailhouse operator said when the phone was answered, "I have a collect call from the Phoenix City Jail from Mr. Thaddeus Sikorski, and will you accept the charges?" Thad's jailhouse release occurred at 8:00am. When he walked out into the rear of the jailhouse, Thad only saw a police department parking lot that contained over 200 cars. He had no idea where the Honeywell car was in a parking lot. After a considerable amount of time, Thad saw GCOS I, he raced to the driver's door, opened the door, turned the ignition key, drove over the speed limit to the Phoenix Airport, and arrived within five minutes, as the passengers of the plane began disembarking. Thad enjoyed high risk and experienced a sense of power over difficult odds.
For so very long, Thad was hiding out in his own plastic shell of pain that began in his own childhood. Thad was a child of a divorced family who lived with years of anger and abuse, struggling for basic love, loneliness, and lack of inner direction that he had tried to un-mask for so long. Thad did not develop an abusive personality. He was just medicating himself with liquor against the pain, which Thad had to bear each day. It was his key to a room of escape. Within that protected bubble of black outs and strangers, which he gathered around himself, Thad found a form of peace. That peace was the acceptance of the non-recognition of Thad by his working class Chicago family and his own daily psychotic contract with depression and run-down dreams of grandiose accomplishments that never materialized.
As a man, it appears in the years that Thaddeus lived; it was their generation's responsibility to wage war, to earn income, and to father a family. Thad could see all the images. Kazmeirz Sikorski's father could see the coming of Russian revolutionary armed struggle and sent Kazmeirz and his brother Leon to seek personal safety and a new life in Allentown, Pennsylvania. Prior to the 1830s, Allentown was a small town with only local markets. The arrival of the Lehigh Canal, however, expanded the city's commerce and industrial capacity greatly. With this, the town underwent significant industrialization, ultimately becoming a major center for heavy industry and manufacturing. Coal and oil natural resource were in close abundance and fueled the American Industrial Revolution for Pennsylvania.
Before 1872, Germany was a loose federation of states, including much of modern-day Germany, Austria, Switzerland, Lichtenstein, Belgium, Netherlands, Czech Republic, Eastern France, Northern Italy, and Western Poland. In January 1902 at the age of 25, Thad's grandfather, Kazmeirz Sikorski, and 26-year-old Leon Sikorski arrived in the United States on the ship Frankfurt. The Frankfurt built by Caird & Co. in Greenock, Scotland. (Tonnage 2,582 Dimensions: 310' x 39', Single screw, 12 knots. Inverted type engines, two masts, one funnel). The hull made of iron. Traveling at that time was not for the timid of heart. Immigrants traveled on cargo ships meant to carry lumber. With the cargo loaded, the shipmasters converted the storage compartments into makeshift steerage for travelers. Loose boards, laced together over the bilges, served as temporary flooring and rows of cramped berths fitted with straw for bedding. Immigrants who had money for the journey boarded the vessel and then packed in the Frankfurt like animals.
In spring 1866, a terrible tragedy occurred as the iron hulled steam ship England was sailing to New York. Many died from a cholera outbreak and quarantines imposed. Thereafter, immigrants saw America from New York's Ellis Island. Ellis Island operated from 1892 to 1954. Newly arrived immigrants herded into holding pens and forced to wait for hours, days, or weeks before learning their fate. As in Kazmeirz Sikorski's case and so many others who left the port of Bremen, Germany, he had to start from scratch and to make a new life in Allentown, Pennsylvania. Kazmeirz's mother, Sophia, had sewed twenty dollars in his jacket for his new life in America. Kazmeirz and Leon shared a common dream of Cossack immigrants. Simply, it was a hope that America had no king. America offered vast opportunities. Poor people could become rich. In America, employment was plentiful. Free homesteading rights freely given to immigrants. Immigrants had a belief that gold flowed from the ground for easy picking. As they suffered sleeping within the hay and smelling the foul smells of the passenger steerage, Leon and Kazmeirz convinced themselves that overcoming these discomforts and everything else was well worth the present discomfort and risk for a new future life in America.
In 1895, the Polish grandparents of Thaddeus Sikorski's arrived in America from Germany following the similar route travel by his Cossack grandfather from Bremen Germany. Janek Potocki moved to Chicago, Illinois and found his Polish wife during a snowball fight on the Southside of Chicago near Hyde Park. This was to be the beginning of Thaddeus Sikorski American legacy beginning with Russian Cossack and Polish immigrant families consisting of eight Uncles and eight Aunts. Later, the Potocki's homesteaded one-thousand acres devoted to corn, barley, and wheat. The Potocki's grew their own vegetables, planted orchards of apples and peaches, and raised horses, cows, pigs, and chickens in Hamlet, Indiana. They had a family of four boys and four girls. All four boys joined the Army and Marines during World War II and the girls worked in war plants before starting their own families.
Charles Potocki joined the U.S. Marines, then fighting on Iwo Jima's Mount Suribachi, where he received a purple heart for valor. After discharge, as so many military men did, he brought to his parent's Indiana farmhouse his war trophies from the battle-a Japanese rifle and a samurai sword. Thad found the weapons hidden under his Uncle Chuck's bed and secretly admired them. Thad at ten years of age had a vivid imagination. He could see his uncle rushing the Japanese pillboxes, throwing grenades, and using his M1 bayonet to finish off any Japanese soldier moving in the foxholes. Thad then would return these war treasures and place them back under his uncle's bed, which consisted of a large hand-made forged iron bed frame, goose-feathered mattress, and heavenly soft-feathered pillows.
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