I began writing before I learned to read. I remember my mother reading fairy tales to me and my younger brother from picture books full of wolves and princes. I must have been three years old. As she read I found myself surreptitiously tracing the patterns of each of the letters that formed the words of the story with my index finger on my thigh as I realized for the first time that they represented the words my mother spoke.
When she finished her story, bade us goodnight, and shut off the light, I would crawl from bed to find my crayons and coloring book to mimic the letters from the book. We must have lived in an apartment above a store or a tavern as a flashing neon light bled through the cracked and tattered windowshade my mother pulled down in an effort to lull us to sleep giving me just enough light to see by.
Though I did my level best to reproduce the letters and words from those fairy tale books I could never seem to get them right. It bothered me a good deal that the objects of the world refused to bend to my efforts at reflecting them on paper. Thus began a life-long obsession with getting the story right.
I still write at night. Getting the story right continues to befuddle me. I am prone to self-doubt and often times I despair of ever writing even one true sentence. Yet I persevere. Over the years I have written millions of words all aimed at the seemingly impossible goal of creating the perfect story. I have finally decided it is not the perfection that I am shooting for so much as it is the effort it takes to bring into being that which causes me so much consternation.
My Gathering of Lovers Series takes a look into the madness and desire that arise when people find they are alone in a world not of their own making. Though the books are filled with personal loss, family abuse, mental illness, rampant alcoholism, and death, the spirit of the characters shines through even at their darkest moments as they make the best of the bad hand life has dealt them.
My latest work revolves around a motley collection of human beings, the sole survivors of a world-wide plague, and the last remnants of a race of beings who once lived beneath the waters of Lake Baikal in eastern Siberia. The Mermaids Series is comprised of four books exploring the relationships that form between immortal beings attempting to survive in a decimated world slowly giving itself back to wilderness.