Awake: A Memoir
From Jen Hatmaker-beloved New York Times bestselling author and host of the For the Love podcast-a brutally honest, funny, and revealing memoir about the traumatic end of her twenty-six-year-long marriage, and the beginning of a different kind of love story.

At 2:30 a.m. on July 11th, 2020, Jen Hatmaker woke up to her husband of twenty-six years whispering in his phone to another woman from their bed. It was the end of life as she knew it. In the months that followed, she went from being a shiny, funny, popular leader, to a divorced wreck on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds parenting five kids alone with no clue about her own bank accounts. Having led millions of women for over a decade-urging them to embrace authenticity, find radical agency, and create healthy relationships-this seemed nothing less than total failure.

In Awake, Jen shares for the first time what happened when she found herself completely lost at sea-and how she made it to shore. In candid, surprisingly funny vignettes spanning forty years of girlhood, marriage, and parenting, Jen lays bare the disorienting upheaval of midlife-the implosion of a marriage, the unraveling of religious and cultural systems, and the grief that accompanies change you didn't ask for. And, drawing on all her resources-from without and from within-Jen dares to question the systems beneath the whole house of cards, and to reckon with the myths, half-truths, and lies that brought her to this point.

More than one woman's story, Awake is a critical analysis of the story given to all of us: the story of gender limitations, religious subservience, body shame, self-erasure. With refreshing candor, Jen explores a Midlife Renaissance-grieving what's lost, cherishing possibility, and entering the second half of life wide awake.
1146999841
Awake: A Memoir
From Jen Hatmaker-beloved New York Times bestselling author and host of the For the Love podcast-a brutally honest, funny, and revealing memoir about the traumatic end of her twenty-six-year-long marriage, and the beginning of a different kind of love story.

At 2:30 a.m. on July 11th, 2020, Jen Hatmaker woke up to her husband of twenty-six years whispering in his phone to another woman from their bed. It was the end of life as she knew it. In the months that followed, she went from being a shiny, funny, popular leader, to a divorced wreck on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds parenting five kids alone with no clue about her own bank accounts. Having led millions of women for over a decade-urging them to embrace authenticity, find radical agency, and create healthy relationships-this seemed nothing less than total failure.

In Awake, Jen shares for the first time what happened when she found herself completely lost at sea-and how she made it to shore. In candid, surprisingly funny vignettes spanning forty years of girlhood, marriage, and parenting, Jen lays bare the disorienting upheaval of midlife-the implosion of a marriage, the unraveling of religious and cultural systems, and the grief that accompanies change you didn't ask for. And, drawing on all her resources-from without and from within-Jen dares to question the systems beneath the whole house of cards, and to reckon with the myths, half-truths, and lies that brought her to this point.

More than one woman's story, Awake is a critical analysis of the story given to all of us: the story of gender limitations, religious subservience, body shame, self-erasure. With refreshing candor, Jen explores a Midlife Renaissance-grieving what's lost, cherishing possibility, and entering the second half of life wide awake.
19.99 Pre Order
Awake: A Memoir

Awake: A Memoir

by Jen Hatmaker

Narrated by Jen Hatmaker

Unabridged

Awake: A Memoir

Awake: A Memoir

by Jen Hatmaker

Narrated by Jen Hatmaker

Unabridged

Audiobook (Digital)

$19.99
FREE With a B&N Audiobooks Subscription | Cancel Anytime
$0.00

Free with a B&N Audiobooks Subscription | Cancel Anytime

START FREE TRIAL

Already Subscribed? 

Sign in to Your BN.com Account

Available for Pre-Order. This item will be released on September 23, 2025

Listen on the free Barnes & Noble NOOK app


Related collections and offers

FREE

with a B&N Audiobooks Subscription

Or Pay $19.99

Overview

From Jen Hatmaker-beloved New York Times bestselling author and host of the For the Love podcast-a brutally honest, funny, and revealing memoir about the traumatic end of her twenty-six-year-long marriage, and the beginning of a different kind of love story.

At 2:30 a.m. on July 11th, 2020, Jen Hatmaker woke up to her husband of twenty-six years whispering in his phone to another woman from their bed. It was the end of life as she knew it. In the months that followed, she went from being a shiny, funny, popular leader, to a divorced wreck on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds parenting five kids alone with no clue about her own bank accounts. Having led millions of women for over a decade-urging them to embrace authenticity, find radical agency, and create healthy relationships-this seemed nothing less than total failure.

In Awake, Jen shares for the first time what happened when she found herself completely lost at sea-and how she made it to shore. In candid, surprisingly funny vignettes spanning forty years of girlhood, marriage, and parenting, Jen lays bare the disorienting upheaval of midlife-the implosion of a marriage, the unraveling of religious and cultural systems, and the grief that accompanies change you didn't ask for. And, drawing on all her resources-from without and from within-Jen dares to question the systems beneath the whole house of cards, and to reckon with the myths, half-truths, and lies that brought her to this point.

More than one woman's story, Awake is a critical analysis of the story given to all of us: the story of gender limitations, religious subservience, body shame, self-erasure. With refreshing candor, Jen explores a Midlife Renaissance-grieving what's lost, cherishing possibility, and entering the second half of life wide awake.

Editorial Reviews

From the Publisher

Reading Awake is like being offered a lifeline when you’ve drifted too far out to sea—it’s warm, witty, wise, and wide awake to what matters most. Jen Hatmaker is proof that we can change our own stories.” —Lori Gottlieb, New York Times bestselling author of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone and "Ask the Therapist" columnist

“My heart was wide open for Jen Hatmaker’s balls-to-the-wall Awake. In these pages, Jen lays out the messy, broken path to self love, with out-loud heartbreak, rewritten storylines, and belly laughs. I won’t be the only woman to feel like this book was written just for me." —Jennifer Garner, actor and humanitarian

"Jen Hatmaker’s story of heartbreak and her raw, real transformation will light you up in the best way. Her warmth, humor, and honesty are absolutely contagious, and I can’t imagine any woman reading this without feeling seen, inspired, and totally empowered." —Mel Robbins, bestselling author of The Let Them Theory and host of The Mel Robbins Podcast

“Sometimes the worst thing has to happen to us to move us toward the best thing. Jen Hatmaker walked through unbearable pain, heightened by public scrutiny, and brought herself, her children, and her friends through to a new life. And she did it with humor, brutal honesty, and a strength we can all learn from. This life isn’t perfect, but if you’re able to stay present in the toughest moments, the beautiful thing you find on the other side is your true, authentic self. It is brave of Jen to tell her story, flaws and all. I’m so glad she shared it with us." —Trisha Yearwood, Grammy-winning singer

“You could say Jen Hatmaker has written a book about the explosive end of a marriage. You could call Awake a book about betrayal and grief. You could describe it as a raw excavation of one courageous, spirited woman’s life. But what I would call it is an act of reclamation, a powerful howl of honesty that will open the eyes and hearts of every single woman who sees herself in its pages, which is to say, all of us. This book is the best kind of medicine.” —Dani Shapiro, New York Times bestselling author of Inheritance

“One of the best books I’ve ever read. You begin the book rooting for Jen, and by the end you’re rooting for yourself. Jen speaks to your soul through her own story that somehow feels exactly like your own. It’s a permission slip to embrace your own truth, love who you are, realize the power inside of you, and set yourself free, finally!” —Jamie Kern Lima, New York Times bestselling author of Worthy, host of The Jamie Kern Lima Show podcast, and founder of IT Cosmetics

"A gorgeous, raw, and deeply convincing memoir. This is a book for all of us who need to feel brave again. What a triumph.” Kate Bowler, New York Times bestselling author of Good Enough

“The message of Awake resonates on the deepest levels—as we boldly release what doesn’t serve us and step into what we deserve. Everyone needs this book as a roadmap to joy.” —Nicole Walters, New York Times bestselling author of Nothing Is Missing

“We are contextual beings. We absorb the messages and norms of our earliest environments and that tells us what to expect and endure. Jen Hatmaker is yanking down the veil here, generously sharing the most intimate story she has to offer while also asking bigger questions about what a girl, and the woman she becomes, is allowed to be in this culture. This is a gift.” —Kelly Corrigan, New York Times bestselling author of Tell Me More and host of the Kelly Corrigan Wonders podcast

"WOW. What Jen has done here is STUNNING, not just in its bravery but also in its wisdom and generosity. The trick of memoir is to write something deeply specific and personal—set in one place, one house, one body—that becomes somehow so much more than that: something for all of us. I knew the plot of this story because I walked alongside her through the events of it, but what she offers us in this book is so much more than plot. It’s a lifeline, an open door, a vision for a new way to be a woman in our world.” —Shauna Niequist, New York Times bestselling author of I Guess I Haven't Learned That Yet

"Awake is Jen Hatmaker at her rawest and most courageous. This memoir isn’t just a story; it’s a lifeline for anyone navigating life’s hardest chapters. With unflinching honesty and signature wit, Jen shows how to rebuild when life falls apart—stronger, more authentic, and beautifully awake. This book doesn’t just speak to your heart; it revives it." —Jenna Kutcher, bestselling author of How Are You, Really and host of The Goal Digger Podcast

Awake is for anyone who’s ever been told to shrink, stay quiet, or settle. Jen shows us what it means to rise anyway.” —Yvette Nicole Brown, Emmy-nominated actress, producer, and host

"Awake is as profoundly kind as it is honest. By chronicling her own story of awakening and coming home to herself, Jen Hatmaker does what all our best teachers do: she clears a path for us to find our own awakening. This is a mature book, a hard-won story, and it's glorious.” —Sarah Bessey, international bestselling author of Field Notes for the Wilderness

“While we love Jen Hatmaker for the deep belly laughs and on-demand wisdom, in Awake she gives us something more powerful still: a meditation on betrayal. Hatmaker gives voice to one of its most profound revelations, that the roadmap to recovery requires contending not only with the lies we've been told by others, but the lies we've told to ourselves. Hatmaker is erudite, hilarious, warm, and fearlessly self-aware on every page—and I didn't want this book to end.” —Elise Loehnen, author of On Our Best Behavior

"For all of the women who gave their teenager years to purity culture only to feel alone in adulthood, who pretended their marriages were perfect and their sacrificial silence was holy, Awake is the missing piece they've been waiting for.” —Laura Tremaine, podcaster and author of The Life Council

“A TREASURE. Readers are not ready for all the ways this will be a hand at their back gently guiding them to the other side of themselves. I will never get over this reading experience.” —Jamie Golden, cohost of The Popcast podcast

Product Details

BN ID: 2940194603664
Publisher: Simon & Schuster
Publication date: 09/23/2025
Edition description: Unabridged
From the B&N Reads Blog

Customer Reviews