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Back Roads

Back Roads

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by Tawni O'Dell

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"One day you're that guy who's happy he managed to survive high school and get that almighty piece of paper, and you're thinking you might try to get a job at Redi-Mix concrete where your dad's worked since the beginning of time. And at least you've got a family you can stand even if they are all sisters.

One day you're that guy, and the next day you're


"One day you're that guy who's happy he managed to survive high school and get that almighty piece of paper, and you're thinking you might try to get a job at Redi-Mix concrete where your dad's worked since the beginning of time. And at least you've got a family you can stand even if they are all sisters.

One day you're that guy, and the next day you're assigned to a social worker and a therapist and given the choice of either being a LEGAL ADULT with three DEPENDENTS or an ORPHAN with NOBODY." --From Back Roads

Harley Altmyer should be in college drinking Rolling Rock and chasing girls. He should be freed from his closed-minded, stricken coal town, with its lack of jobs and no sense of humor. Instead, he's constantly reminded of just how messed up his life is.

With his mother in jail for killing his abusive father, Harley is an orphan with the responsibilities of an adult and the fiery, aggressive libido of a teenager. Just nineteen years old, he's marooned in the Pennsylvania backwoods caring for his three younger sisters, whose feelings about him range from stifling dependence to loathing. And once he develops an obsession with the sexy, melancholic mother of two living down the road, those Victoria's Secret catalogs just won't do the trick anymore. He wants Callie Mercer so badly he fears he will explode. But it's the family secrets, the lies, and the unspoken truths that light the fuse and erupt into a series of staggering surprises, leaving what's left of his family in tatters. Through every ordeal, the unforgettable Harley could never know that his endearing humor, his love for his sisters, and his bumbling heroics would redeem them all.

Funny and heartbreaking, Tawni O'Dell's pitch-perfect characters capture the maddening confusion of adolescence and the prickly nature of family with irony and unerring honesty. Back Roads is a riveting novel by a formidable new talent.

Editorial Reviews

Set in western Pennsylvania, Back Roads is the story of newly orphaned Harley Altmyer (his mother is in jail for killing his abusive father) who, at 19, must shoulder the burden of caring for three younger sisters and struggle with his growing obsession for the sexy mother of two living just down the road. Selected by Oprah for her Book Club™ and celebrated by readers and critics alike, Back Roads announced the arrival of a major new talent.
Los Angeles Times
O'Dell's storytelling has natural flair.
Orlando Sentinel
A vivid writing style that makes for enjoyment reading.
San Diego Union
O'Dell offers up a remarkable tale.
New York Newsday
O'Dell has tackled the real stuff of stories, and she's done it with compassion and a unique voice.
Michael Shelden
Her novel is as racy and as outrageously unconventional as her autobiographical note...Back Roads is a very funny book.
Baltimore Sun
Keith Phipps
Life has always been hard for Harley Altmeyer, the protagonist and narrator of Tawni O'Dell'sBack Roads, but never harder than since his mother went to prison for murdering his father, leaving him alone to care for his three sisters. Working two jobs in a rural Pennsylvania community that's reluctant to forget his family's past, Altmeyer struggles to make ends meet, serving as the head of his household while turning over nagging questions about his father's murder and postponing his inevitable breakdown as long as possible. Sacrificing his own needs at every turn, Altmeyer eventually finds his desires overtaking him as a friendship with a local housewife turns into something more intimate. O'Dell's subject matter may be a little overly familiar, as are the twists and turns of her melodramatic plot, but there's a deftness to the way she handles things--she shifts perceptions of characters and events as the story progresses--that keeps her novel interesting, making it seem far fresher than it could have. Much of this can be credited to the way O'Dell draws the central character: A thoroughly developed backwoods Holden Caulfield who may be on the verge of becoming a rural Travis Bickle, but whose inherent goodness remains close to the surface at all times, Altmeyer and his infinitely sad voice make Back Roads a memorable debut.
The Onions A.V. Club
Publishers Weekly - Publisher's Weekly
Nineteen-year-old Harley is left to rear his three younger sisters after their mother is imprisoned for murdering their abusive father in this searing, hardscrabble Party of Five set in Pennsylvania mining country. Doubly resentful because his best friend is off at college, Harley spends his days slogging as a Shop Rite bagger and appliance-shop delivery person, coming home to cold cereal dinners prepared by six-year-old Jody. Harley is bitter about having to take over for his mother--"she still had us kids but we didn't have her"--and he can't shake the feeling that she prefers prison to their home life; a mystery lingers around his father's death. Meanwhile, 16-year-old Amber is sleeping her way through the town's teenage boys and flaunting her body in front of Harley; middle sister Misty, once her father's favorite and his hunting companion, practices shooting. Desperate for relief, Harley finds solace in rough but exhilarating encounters with married Callie Mercer, little Jody's best friend's mother, losing his virginity to her on a muddy creek bank and reveling in her sophisticated, sensitive words. But memories are stirring in his subconscious, and erotic dreams of the Virgin Mary metamorphose into nightmarish sexual visions. In his sessions with a court-appointed therapist, Harley edges closer to understanding his family's twisted dynamic, but it is only when the horrors of the present begin to catch up with those of the past that a series of shattering truths are revealed. By then it is too late for Harley to save everyone he loves, but in sacrificing himself, however hopelessly, he introduces a note of grace. O'Dell's scorching tale touches on all the tropes of dysfunctional families, but her characters fight free of stereotypes, taking on an angry, authentic glow. (Jan.) Copyright 1999 Cahners Business Information.
This first-time novel (an Oprah Book Club selection in March of 2000) will make the reader laugh and cry, angry and sad. This said, it should be noted that when Oprah introduced Back Roads, she observed that it is, among other things, "raw." Both the theme and the language should be considered when recommending this to a teen. Twenty-year-old Harley Altmyer has three younger sisters and is now the head of the household, because his mother shot his abusive father and is now serving a life sentence. He works two dead-end jobs and has his hands full with 16-year-old Amber, who is having sex with every guy she meets, 12-year-old Misty, who is moody and silent and wears her dead cat's collar around her wrist as a bracelet, and loveable six-year-old Jody, who is constantly writing lists and possesses secrets that she is not even aware of. Then one day Harley meets Callie, a 33-year-old married mother of two who likes short shorts and halter tops. For Harley it's love at first sight and for Callie, Harley is a sexual diversion she can't pass up. Through melodramatic twists and turns the events lead up to the murder of Harley's father and, as we can guess at the beginning, another tragedy comes to light. Through every ordeal readers care about Harley and will come to understand why this angry young man is probably the most innocent one of them all. KLIATT Codes: SA—Recommended for senior high school students, advanced students, and adults. 2000, Penguin Putnam/Signet, 405p, 18cm, $7.99. Ages 16 to adult. Reviewer: Jamie Lyn Weaver; YA Libn., Geneva P.L., Geneva, IL, March 2001 (Vol. 35 No. 2)
Library Journal
In a small Pennsylvania town depressed by coal mine closings, a young man of 19 finds himself thrust into the role of parent. Harley has become the guardian of his three younger sisters as the result of their mother going to jail for the shooting death of their father. Each sibling finds his or her own way of coping with this family tragedy. During his regular visits with a psychotherapist Harley finds some comfort while at the same time feeling disdain for this woman. He is able to satisfy his youthful urges by beginning a series of sexual encounters with an older woman whose daughter is a playmate of his youngest sister. The characterizations are vivid, and each family member generates sympathy. Reader Dylan Baker does a satisfactory job of interpreting Harley's sense of frustration and cynicism. An absorbing novel worth purchasing for fiction collections.--Catherine Swenson, Norwich Univ. Lib., Northfield, VT Copyright 2000 Cahners Business Information.\
Rochelle O'Gorman
O'Dell's writing is powerful, passionate and sometimes overcooked. She has created a compelling character in Harley Altmyer, a wounded teen-ager in charge of a brood of sisters. Their mother is serving a life sentence for murdering their father, leaving the stoical, angry young man with more responsibility than he can handle. Though her writing teeters close to melodrama in spots, O'Dell conjures up a vivid world in which domestic violence and sexual craving predominate. Audiophiles know they are in for a treat when they see Baker's name associated with a project. A hint of country in the actor's voice adds texture to his performance. He changes his intonation for the young girls but does so without sounding mincing or phony. He roughens and deepens his voice for a minor character and clearly changes his timing to suit the halting words of a small child.
From the Publisher
"An intense story of family, frailty and dysfunction, set in the coal-mining towns of western Pennsylvania...captivatingly told." —Chicago Tribune

"Tense...involving...deftly captures the voice of a teenage boy who's in trouble." —New York Times Book review

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Chapter One

All those times me and Skip tried to kill his little brother, Donny, were just for fun. I keep telling the deputies this, and they keep picking up their Styrofoam cups of coffee and walking away only to return a few seconds later and heave their fat butt cheeks onto the metal-topped table in front of me and flash me sad, weary stares that would be almost tender if they weren't filled with so much hatred. They tell me they don't care about Skip and Donny. They're not interested in stuff I did when I was a kid. I'm twenty years old now. I will be TRIED AS AN ADULT. The words come out of their mouths in Skoal-flavored capital letters and hover against the fluorescent glare of the room. I reach out to touch them but before I can, they melt away again and one of the deputies slaps down my hands stained the color of a dead rose. They won't let me wash them.

    They want to know about the woman. I laugh. Which woman? My life is lousy with women. All ages, shapes, sizes, and levels of purity.

    "The dead woman in the abandoned mining office behind the railroad tracks," one of them says, making a face like he might puke.

    I close my eyes and picture it. The roof with gaping holes. The rotting floorboards scattered with broken window glass, rusted screws and bolts, and pieces of flattened iron that use to be part of something bigger a long time ago. When I finally took her there, she didn't ask me to sweep it out. She said she didn't want to change anything about it because she knew it was a special place for me. She said she loved the calm of decay and desertion thatreigned there. She liked art and sometimes the way she talked sounded like a painting.

    Rage starts building inside me, nicely and neatly, like a perfect pyramid of sticks being piled up for a fire. My hands start shaking, and I sit on them so the police won't see.

    "Me and Skip used the mining office for our secret hideout," I answer, smiling, while the blaze roars to life inside me. Soon I will be nothing but a black skeleton of ash that the slightest touch will cause to crumble. But no one on the outside will know.

    The deputies shake their heads and groan and snort at the mention of Skip. One of them kicks a folding chair across the room. Another one says, "The kid's in shock." The other one says, "We're not going to get anything RELEVANT or COHERENT out of him tonight." I reach for those words too and this time I get the side of my head smacked instead of my sticky hands.

    "You better start talking," the sheriff says, pausing to spit a brown bullet of chew into an empty coffee can before adding, "son," to his suggestion.

    He's the only one here I know. I remember him from my mom's trial two years ago. He testified that she gave herself up willingly after shooting my dad. He smells like a wet couch.

    I do start talking but all that comes out is the same stuff about me and Skip again, how we used to spend hours in the old mining office eating bologna sandwiches and hatching our plans against Donny. We called it secret even though Donny knew where we were. It was secret because he couldn't get to it. He was too little to make it up the hill and through the vicious undergrowth surrounding the place like nature's barbed wire.

    We came up with some great ones. Once we bent down a birch sapling and anchored it to the ground with a tent stake and tied a rope loop to it, then lured Donny into the middle with a shiny foil-wrapped HoHo. The tree was supposed to break free and fling him to his death by his ankles, but we realized too late we hadn't figured out a way to make it do this, and Donny just finished the HoHo and left.

    Another time we spilled a bunch of marbles on the back porch steps and yelled at him to come outside, we had a box of Little Debbie Oatmeal Creme Pies for him. He came tearing out of the house but instead of slipping and falling on the marbles, he skidded to a stop and sat down and played with them.

    Another time we promised him a box of Little Debbie Star Crunches if he would let us tie up his feet and hands and lay him on the railroad tracks but they were freight tracks—the same ones that run by the old mine—and we all knew a train hadn't been down them since before we were born. Donny got bored waiting to die and started wriggling toward home on his belly.

    Our most ingenious plan was probably the time we put a pack of Dolly Madison Zingers beneath the open garage door, and we hid out with the garage door opener and clicked it on when Donny sat down to eat. He didn't notice or didn't care about the heavy door grinding down toward his skull. We watched in amazement, unable to believe we were finally going to succeed, but I lost my nerve and ran and yanked him to safety. I saved him. I can't seem to make the police understand what this says about my character.

    "That's the closest I ever came to murder," I explain, "up until my dad ..."

    The sheriff interrupts me. He doesn't want me to go into that again. He knows all about my mom and dad. Everybody does. It was in the papers and all over TV.

    He was the one who was there, he reminds me. Not me. I wasn't even home. He was the one who walked in and found my mom with a bucket of red sudsy water calmly scrubbing the stains off her kitchen wallpaper while her husband lay a foot away stuck to the tile in a pool of tarry blood staring right at her with hunting trophy eyes. He was the one who found my baby sister huddled in one of the doghouses with vomit all over her because she had cried so hard she made herself throw up; and Jody never even liked Dad. He was the one who watched Dad get zipped into a body bag. Not me. I never got to see him again. It was a closed casket funeral. I'm not sure why. Mom shot him in the back.

    It's been almost two years now, the sheriff reminds me. No one cares anymore. It's not RELEVANT.

    "Define relevant," I say.

    The deputy who keeps hitting me grabs me by the front of my dad's camouflage hunting jacket and pulls me out of my chair. He has big sweat stains under his armpits. Eighty-five today. Hot for the first week of June.

    "Tell us about the woman," he shouts at me.

    I don't know why they won't say her name. I guess they're waiting for me to say it. For me to admit I knew her. Well, of course, I did. They know I did.

    He drops me back into my chair, and TRIED AS AN ADULT appears in front of my eyes bright and buzzing like neon. I don't know why I can't talk about her. Each time I open my mouth something about Skip comes out, and he's not even my friend anymore.

    I always knew Skip would leave. His constant scheming never seemed a part of these quiet, wounded hills the way Donny's blind love of snack cakes did. Donny will be here forever. I see him every morning on my way to work at the Shop Rite waiting on the side of the road for the school bus like a stump.

    "Skip's away at college now," I say.

    I'm still staring at the words so I don't see the fist coming. I feel the warmth of blood gush down my chin before I feel the pain. Bright red droplets spatter onto the front of Dad's coat where her blood has already dried into a brown crust. They keep trying to make me take off the coat. People are always trying to make me.

    I hear the sheriff say, "Jesus Christ, Bill, did you have to do that?"

    I think the sheriff's up for reelection next year. I guess I'll be old enough to vote then if I want. VOTE AS AN ADULT. I think I would probably vote against him though. It's not that I dislike the guy, and I don't know anything about his stands on law enforcement issues so I can't say I disagree with him. My vote would be based solely on smell.

    I touch my smashed nose and decide to tell them the TRUTH. Who's to blame. Who's at fault. Who should be locked up. I have nothing to be afraid of anymore. What will I be giving up by losing my freedom? What will the world be giving up by losing me?

    I told her once I wasn't good at anything. She ran her thumb over my lips raw from kissing her and said survival was a talent.

Chapter Two

When Skip left for college, he never even came around to say goodbye. I heard about it from Amber, who heard Donny talking about it on the bus.

    He wrote me once during his whole first year at school. The next year I didn't think he was going to write at all, but he finally did and invited me to come visit him. We both knew I wouldn't go and that's why he asked. I read the letter a dozen times, then put it in my drawer with the Victoria's Secret catalogs I was always swiping from Amber's room.

    I made the mistake the next day of telling Betty about the letter. Betty loved it when I talked about Skip. She especially loved hearing about the times we tried to kill Donny. I supposed I should have never told her that stuff in the first place, but she asked me to tell her a pleasant childhood memory once and it was the only one that came to mind.

    She wanted to know how Skip's letter made me feel and why I wouldn't consider going to visit him. I pulled my stare away from the window where blue-gray tree branches crawled against the white sky like the veins on Betty's thighs. I had tried not to notice, but she wore her skirts way too short for an old lady.

    I didn't look at her but the fact that I had stopped staring out the window was a signal between us that I heard her question but the answer to it was so obvious I wasn't going to say it out loud.

    "I think I know what you're going to say, but why don't you tell me anyway," she said, smiling. "Treat me like I'm stupid."

    It was what she always said to try and get me to talk. One of her textbooks must have told her teenagers could never resist this invitation.

    "I have to work," I said finally.

    "This weekend?"


    "Next weekend?"


    "Every weekend?"

    I didn't say anything, and she leaned back in her chair.

    "Do you have any other reasons for not going?"

    I shifted around on the far end of the couch and tried to find something new in the room to look at, but nothing ever changed. Desk. Window. Chair. Table with lamp. Couch. Table with box of Kleenex. Door. Betty. She didn't even have a framed diploma or a bookcase here. I asked her about this once—I thought all shrinks had bookcases—and she said this wasn't her real office; it was just the place where she saw government cases. I could tell she regretted the way she said it, and I let her.

    "Who's going to watch Jody and Misty?" I said after a while.

    "Who watches them when you're at work?"

    "I'm talking about overnight."

    "Amber is old enough to watch them overnight."

    "Amber," I snorted, and I was done talking.

    I went back to staring out the window, and Betty reached into her blouse and adjusted her bra strap when she thought I wasn't looking.

    "I'm going to assume from that reaction that you and Amber aren't getting along any better," she said, and let me stew for a minute.

    "Why do you think that is?" she asked.

    A crow landed in the parking lot outside and started trying to peel a flattened earthworm off the blacktop. Early March had been warm and fooled everyone into thinking spring was here. The ground thawed. Worms woke up. Girls got out their summer clothes.

    Every morning on my way to work, I drove past a yawning group of bare-legged ones in shorts and miniskirts waiting for the school bus with Donny the stump. In the past, I would've slowed down and watched from my rearview mirror until they disappeared around a bend in the road, but lately looking at girls shredded my nerves. It was a big part of becoming a man: discovering there was a difference between wanting sex and needing it.

    "Amber says she's been trying," Betty persisted. "She's told me she's been helping out a lot more around the house."

    "Are you kidding me?" I cried out.

    "No, I'm not. Do you disagree with that?"

    I laughed. A real laugh. A sincere Har Dee Hat Har.

    "Why would she tell me that if it isn't true?" Betty asked.

    I pulled one of my feet onto my lap and started digging at a piece of gravel stuck in the tread of my Sears work boot. Amber made fun of their red laces. I didn't care. They lasted forever. Not like the Payless crap she bought with my money.

    "Because along with being lazy and stupid, she's also a liar," I answered.

    "How do I know she's the liar and not you?"

    I got the gravel out and seriously thought about flicking it across the room at Betty, but instead I put it in the pocket of Dad's camouflage hunting jacket.

    "I guess you don't," I said, feeling my face burn.

    I dropped my foot back on the carpet with a thud.

    "I didn't mean to upset you."

    "Sure you did. You want me to get mad so I'll say something meaningful."

    I had made that mistake before. Recalling things like the way my mom's eyes had sparkled with tears at my three-year-old observation that "I am person-shaped," or how my mom used to save the dogs' expired rabies tags because she thought they were pretty. I could always tell when I had accidentally said something meaningful because Betty would look at me like I was suddenly naked and surprisingly well-hung.

    She smiled and caught a piece of her nickel-colored hair with a finger and hooked it behind one ear. Her hair was expensive-looking, cut on an angle and shiny solid like a helmet. It didn't go with the rest of her. It reminded me of the county fair pony rides and the brand-new, freshly oiled saddles sitting on top of the brokendown, shaggy old ponies.

    "Everything you say in these sessions is meaningful, Harley."

    I slumped down as far as I could go and still be on the couch.

    "Can I go?"

    "Not yet. Let's try and resolve this problem. I think it would be good for you to get away for a day or two. If you don't trust Amber to watch your sisters overnight what about someone else? A relative or neighbor?"

    "I told you before my mom doesn't have any family, and Dad's family won't have anything to do with us anymore."

    "Why do you think that is?"

    "I guess because we're related to Mom."

    "You're related to your father too."

    "Not as closely."

    She smiled at me again and I fingered the gravel in my coat pocket and imagined it embedded smack in the middle of her forehead with a tiny trickle of bright red blood dripping from it. She would have gone right on talking if I did it.

    "What about your Uncle Mike? I thought you said he's been helping out lately."

    "He's been bringing me cases of Black Label. I guess that's helpful. Although Rolling Rock would be more helpful, in my opinion."

    She gave me her concerned look. Clear young eyes peering out anxiously from a wrinkled face like a kid trapped inside a mask. I hated it when old people kept something young about them, like Bud who bagged with me at the Shop Rite and chewed bubble gum all the time. It was easier to think of them as always being old instead of being young and dying very slowly.

    "Alcohol is not a solution to your problems," Betty announced, frowning.

    "I didn't say anything about alcohol. I'm talking about beer."

    "If your social worker found alcohol on the premises, the girls would be put in foster homes immediately. You're underage."

    "I don't care."

    "You don't care if your sisters are put in foster homes?"


    "Well, you have a funny way of showing it."

    "I have to go."

    I stood up and pulled my Redi-Mix Concrete cap out of my back jeans pocket. Betty glanced at her watch and said, "We still have fifteen minutes."

    I slapped the cap on my head and pulled the brim down to my eyes. "My apologies to the taxpayers," I said, and headed out the door.

    The false spring had only lasted a week and then, as if to punish the worms and the girls for their optimism, the weather had turned brittle cold. I blew in my hands and rubbed them together, then stuck them under my armpits while I walked quickly to my truck. I didn't know why I was hurrying. The heater didn't work.

    The county Behavioral Health Services office was in the same long, low, brown brick building as the DMV and the animal control office. Across the intersection was the Eat N' Park that had driven Denny's out of business (even Grand Slam breakfasts couldn't compete with Eat N' Park pies) and the strip mall with Blockbuster Video, Fantastic Sam's, the Dollar Tree, and a Chinese restaurant called Yee's. I always stopped at Yee's after my appointment with Betty.

    Jack Yee, the guy who owned the place, bobbed his head and smiled deliriously when I walked in and his wife did the same, waving from a far corner where she always sat at a table reading a newspaper. I feared I was their best customer, and I only came in once a month and bought a two-dollar egg roll.

    Jack tried pushing the General Tso's chicken on me.

    "Spicy, spicy," he said, grinning.

    "No, thanks," I told him, even though I was starving and all I was going to get at home was blue box mac and cheese and hot dogs. It was Misty's night to cook. She was twelve.

    He gave me Jody's umbrella and cookie for free and asked about her. He and his wife had only met her once, but they were blown away by her. They couldn't stop touching her hair. It fell all the way down to her butt and was the same color as the gold letters stamped on church hymnals.

    All the girls had long hair—including Mom—but Jody's was the most admired. Mom's was the reddest. Misty's the most neglected. Amber's the most likely to smell like a rank old blanket from the back of some guy's pickup truck.

    I took the little brown bag and sat it next to me in my truck, then spent the half-hour drive from Laurel Falls to Black Lick watching the grease stain grow from the egg roll pressing against the paper. I wanted to eat it more than anything in life. I rolled down the window to try and get rid of the deep-fried smell, but I couldn't stand the cold. By the time I took the final bend leading home, I was driving so fast the old Dodge Ram was shuddering.

    Ours was the only house on Fairman Road, an unpaved two-mile shortcut connecting two parts of a county road that doubled back on itself. Locals called it Potshot Road because before my dad had started piecing together our house at the top of it, so many deer gathered in the clearing any hunter hiding in the trees could take a potshot and hit something. Every hunting season, Dad had to lock up the dogs in the garage and Mom made us kids play inside for fear of getting shot. I never felt safer than those days Amber and I spent hiding beneath a blanket-covered card table playing war and listening to the crack of rifles outside and the calm blasted silence that always followed.

    The deer had thinned out the past couple years though. Even the stupidest animal could sense when a place had gone bad.

    The truck bounced over a rut, and the egg roll went flying off the seat onto the floor, where it landed on top of a bunch of empty fastfood coffee cups, crumpled McDonald's bags, and a cheap gray windbreaker with Barclay's Appliances written across the back. One of Jody's dinosaurs was down there too and my parents' wedding picture.

    I had found the picture stuffed in the bottom of a garbage bag a couple months after the shooting. The sharp corner of the cheap yellow-gold frame had poked a hole through the plastic and scratched me on the calf while I was standing in my underwear putting on a twist tie. The rip got bigger and garbage spilled out all over the kitchen floor and I had froze, bracing myself for the flat of my dad's hand to connect with the base of my skull and for the tiny stars of light, like floating dandelion fuzz, to drift into my line of vision and pile up until I couldn't see anything but cold white nothingness. Then I remembered he was dead.

    The girls were all asleep so I cleaned up the mess myself. I kept out the picture and was on my way to throw it in the outside can when something made me throw it in my truck instead.

    I never looked at it. Whenever I happened to notice it by accident, I buried it under the trash but it always managed to surface again: Dad in a white suit and a glossy shirt patterned in jewel-toned splotches like a melted stained-glass window, way too much hair and collar, a Burr Reynolds mustache, a blood-red carnation in his buttonhole, grabbing Mom around the waist and grinning drunkenly at one of his off-camera buddies; Mom in a gauzy white handkerchief dress, a ton of eye makeup, long white feather earrings and ceramic Farrah hair, her shoulders kind of hunched together and her head tilted away from Dad's breath, looking like she was trying not to throw up. I gave her a lot of morning sickness.

    I reached over with my foot and pushed the picture under the trash.

    The first half-mile of our road was straight uphill and the trees grew together over the top of it making a tunnel of leaves in summer, and a tunnel of snow in winter, and a tent of bare branches like charred fingers the rest of the year. Our house sat at the crest. Across the road was the clearing, stretching out green and smooth, then disappearing over a slope into a rolling sea of hills the color of rust and soot and worn yellow carpet. The power lines and the smoke-belching twin coal stacks of the Keystone Power Plant in the distance were the only signs of humanity. Whenever people asked me how we could stand to stay in the house, I told them I liked the view and then they thought I was even crazier than before they asked.

    Aside from Laurel Falls National Bank, the only thing that could have driven me away was the sight of the four empty doghouses. Every time I parked my truck and was greeted with silence instead of the barking chorus I had come to expect ever since I was old enough to put meaning to sound, I hated myself for failing them. But dog food cost a fortune. I managed to find homes for three and kept Elvis, my shepherd mutt. He was allowed to come inside now, but he was nervous about it. So were the girls. If anything could have brought my dad raging back from the dead it would have been the sight of a dog lying in the middle of his living room.

    Misty opened the front door and let Elvis out. She followed him and stood on the front porch, silent and expectant, fingering the pink rhinestones on the grimy cat collar she wore around her wrist.

    The collar had belonged to the kitten Dad got her for her tenth birthday. It only survived for two months before we found it shot in the woods.

    I remembered Mom taking the death harder than anyone. She burst into tears when she saw what was left of the blood-matted fluffy white carcass Misty had dragged back to the yard by its tail.

    She folded Misty into her arms and held her while Misty stood stiffly and stared at the body with her eyes a glazed brown like a medicine bottle. Then she knelt down and slowly unbuckled the collar and fastened it around her wrist while Mom's hands still clutched her shoulders. Later Mom said she had been in shock.

    "Did you get my egg roll?" Misty called out, rubbing her thin bare arms at her sides and her stockinged feet against each other.

    I threw the bag. Elvis stopped in his tracks on his way to meet me and watched its flight. It fell on the frozen mud next to the steps and he bounded over to sniff it.

    Misty glanced at me, unsmiling, before she walked down to get it. I couldn't tell if she was pissed or hurt or couldn't care less. Her mask of freckles gave her the appearance of being more persecuted than she really was.

    I started across the yard and paused at the patch of cement with a sawed-off piece of pipe sticking from it where Dad's satellite dish used to be. I tapped at it with the toe of my boot and reminded myself I needed to get rid of the rest of the pipe before someone got hurt on it. The dish had gone the way of the dogs, leaving us with only four channels. Jody lost Disney. Misty lost Nickelodeon. Amber lost MTV and Fox. At the time they had all been too depressed about Mom and Dad to care, but now they weren't and I had to hear about it every day.

    I went inside and wiped my boots on the mat by the door, but I didn't take them off the way I used to have to.

    "Did you get my fortune cookie and umbrella?" Jody asked from the living room.

    On my way through, I told her Misty had the bag. I tossed the stuffed dinosaur over the back of the couch, and Jody's head popped up from the cushions.

    "Sparkle Three-Horn," she cried. "I lost him."

    "I know. I found him."


    "My truck."

    The head disappeared and the couch said, "Thanks."

    I walked into the kitchen and found the Thursday pot of boiling water on the stove and five hot dogs laid out on a paper plate ready for nuking in the microwave. I opened a cupboard and grabbed a bag of pretzels. Misty came in after me, eating her egg roll.

    I hadn't noticed from a distance that she was wearing some of Amber's purple eyeshadow again. Mom wouldn't have approved of her wearing makeup already, but I had surrendered control of everything female to Amber the day Misty came to me the year before and told me she was pretty sure she had started her period.

    I looked at the hot dogs again and did the math: one for Jody, one for Misty, three for me.

    "Isn't Amber eating?"

    "She's got a date."


    Misty tore open the Kraft box, pulled out the cheese packet, and dumped the macaroni in the pan. The water foamed up, and she adjusted the heat.

    "She said you'd be mad. But I can watch Jody. I'm old enough.

    "That's not the point."

    "I know. Amber said the main reason you'd want her to stay home is because you want to ruin her fun. Not because of the baby-sitting."

    I threw the bag on the counter, and pretzels spilled onto the floor. Elvis lunged for them as I stormed out. Misty pushed one aside with a blue-polished big toe and kept stirring the pot.

    I pounded on Amber's door so hard her Indian dream catcher fell off the wall. She was holding it in her hand when she opened the door. She had on a red lace bra and hiphugger jeans, and her pinched expression of annoyance changed into a satisfied smile when she saw me looking at her.

    "You're supposed to watch the kids tonight," I yelled at her over the music blaring from her radio.

    She turned her back on me and walked with exaggerated hip thrusts over to her dresser, the top of her humingbird tattoo peeking at me over the waistband of her jeans. He seemed to be waving a green wing at me.


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"An intense story of family, frailty and dysfunction, set in the coal-mining towns of western Pennsylvania...captivatingly told." —Chicago Tribune

"Tense...involving...deftly captures the voice of a teenage boy who's in trouble." —New York Times Book review

Meet the Author

Tawni O'Dell, a western Pennsylvania native, earned a degree in journalism from Northwestern University. In addition to earning wages as a bankteller and a waitress, she put herself through college working as an exotic dancer jumping out of cakes at bachelor parties. A mother of two, she lives with her husband in Illinois. This is her first novel.

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Nicole Poliskey More than 1 year ago
This was a story for only the bravest of readers because it is so heartwrenching. The characters were people that most would not want to know but still rather amazing. Please give it a chance!
SarahJane26 More than 1 year ago
This was amazingly well written and true to life. There are some pretty twisted and dramatic topics in this book, but if you are grossed out or offended by them, you have missed the point. Tawni O'dell isn't some sicko writing about an incestuous relationship between brother and sister, rather two characters who have been damaged and betrayed by those whom they trusted. If you miss the fact that they are not even attracted to each other sexually and that they associate love with physical closeness, then you are bound to miss several other important messages. It is more complex than its "Jerry Springer" twists and turns. The story is about sacrifice, trust, and the basic needs of the human soul, among other things. Take a chance to get to know these characters, dare to delve into the minds of children who have been forced to cope with the harsh realities of betrayal & abandonment, and all of the contradicting and irrationally rational feelings that come along with it all.
LaceHatt More than 1 year ago
phenomenal. one of the best books I have ever read in my entire life. I fell in love with Harley's sarcastic and blunt humor. O' Dell has an amazing talent when it comes to capturing moments and thoughts. Even though it's fiction, She reviles thoughts that are relatable but no one would ever admit. By the end, my jaw had several moments when it dropped, very unexpected twists and turns. I didn't want to end it, knowing there would be no more Harley. by the end, you just grow to have a compassion for the whole family. After reading, the book haunts you. excellent.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
GOOD BOOK. One of Oprahs original book club story. Had some kind of bizarre moments but kept me going!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I love this writer. Her prose is so descriptive and thought-provoking that by the time I've finished one of her books, there are several pages turned down at the corners with descriptions or ideas that are so great I want to go back to read them again!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Very poignant book about a family torn aparat by abuse, murder, cover ups and a 19 year old left to raise his sisters.
Luceman More than 1 year ago
I appreciate the depth of how true she is able to capture the mind and heart of a struggling young boy who grows up in a broken home that forces and depends on him to become the "default" man of the house. She dares to boldly characterize his feelings and attitudes toward his longing desire of the opposite sex. She helps us male readers identify and relive our own inward excitement and ecstasy that comes by way of a first sexual encounter. A much more explicit and venerable rendition of young love than such classic books as The Catcher In The Rye. Thanks Tawni for telling it like it really is.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Once you start you cannot put this book down. This haunting tale of a boy with troubles beyond his years in the coal mining area of Pennsylvania.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I thought this book was dull at first, the first 2 chapters were hard to get into but after that I couldnt stop reading,,,it made we wonder what would happen next,,,and the ending is one no one will ever imagine!!! Great Book!!!...
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I loved this book. I never expected the ending and it was one twist after another. Top read!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I had no idea what I was getting into when I started this book. I've never read an author that can cut to the nitty-gritty, the deepest, ugliest parts of life so quickly. This book broke my heart over and over...I found myself rooting for the protagonist, Harley, and especially sweet 6 year old Jody. Just wow. I'm searching for another book by Tawni O'Dell right now.
megan105 More than 1 year ago
i loved this book! There was defiantly something about this book that drug you in. I love the way the story line is set up, the characters, the way the author portrayed the story. I've read this book more then once because its that good! 
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A little boring in the beginning chapters, but stick it out because it is so worth it. This is truly a shocking tale, to say the least! Harley takes you so far into his world that you may find it hard to stop thinking about him even when you're no longer reading. At times I found myself laughing out loud at his antics and at other times, I just wanted to give the poor kid a BIG hug. Worth reading . . .
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Loved it! It was thrilling, intresting, and after reading it..it will stay in you're mind for days but don't try to explain to others what you've read. I couldn't put this book down all day, it is a great read that is good for a day you need to escape into a darker twisting story.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is a tragic story with a few twists and turns that were not so much surprising, but still God awful. I was able to form a clear picture of all of the main characters and I like this true to life style of writing. I will look for more by this author.
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sunshine747 More than 1 year ago
I read half of this book in one night and I plan to finish the other half tonight. She writes what someone may think in their deepest, darkest corners of the mind and makes you love the one thinking it nonetheless. I want a sequel.
sabrina100 More than 1 year ago