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Backing Into Forward: A Memoir

Backing Into Forward: A Memoir

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by Jules Feiffer

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The award-winning cartoonist, playwright, and author delivers a witty, illustrated rendition of his life, from his childhood as a wimpy kid in the Bronx to his legendary career in the arts.

 A gifted storyteller who has delighted readers and theater audiences for decades, Jules Feiffer now turns his talents to the tale of his own


The award-winning cartoonist, playwright, and author delivers a witty, illustrated rendition of his life, from his childhood as a wimpy kid in the Bronx to his legendary career in the arts.

 A gifted storyteller who has delighted readers and theater audiences for decades, Jules Feiffer now turns his talents to the tale of his own life.

 Plagued by learning problems, a controlling mother, and a debilitating sense of fear, Feiffer embarked on his first cartoon apprenticeship at the age of seventeen, emboldened only by a passion for success and an aptitude for failure. He vividly recalls those transformative years working under the legendary Will Eisner, and later, after he was drafted into the army, his evolution from “smart-ass kid into an enraged satirist.” Backing into Forward also traces Feiffer's love life, from a doomed hitchhiking trip to reclaim his high-school sweetheart to losing his virginity in Greenwich Village, and his road to marriage and fatherhood.

 At the center of this journey is Feiffer's prolific creativity. In dazzling detail, he recounts the birth of his subversive graphic novella Munro, his entrée into New York's literary salons, collaborations with film greats Mike Nichols, Robert Altman, and Jack Nicholson, and other major turning points. Brimming with wry punch lines, slices of Americana, and pithy social commentary, Backing into Forward charts Feiffer's rise as an unlikely and incisive provocateur during the conformist fifties and the Vietnam and Civil Rights sixties and seventies.

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Editorial Reviews

Michiko Kakutani
Backing into Forward provides the reader with a sharply evocative portrait of the author's youth in the Bronx, where he says he grew up a terrified, cowardly child, who "sidestepped arguments, fled confrontations, pedaled away from fistfights." And the book proves just as nimble at limning the literary world of Manhattan…when Backing Into Forward sticks to the story of his life and the evolution of his craft, it succeeds in sounding like the best of Mr. Feiffer's cartoons: funny, acerbic, subversive, fiercely attuned to the absurdities in his own life and in the country at large.
—The New York Times
David Carr
Reading Feiffer, you know where the truth lies because it is there on every page—resonant, self-lacerating and frequently hilarious…It is a good life he's had, and in Backing Into Forward, well told in every respect.
—The New York Times Book Review
Michael Lindgren
Jules Feiffer's account of his multifaceted career will delight that generation of readers for whom his whimsical, sardonic and often politically barbed Village Voice cartoons were a cultural touchstone.
—The Washington Post
Kirkus Reviews
In characteristically wry tones, the celebrated cartoonist/playwright/illustrator looks back at a six-decade (and counting) working life, paying particular attention to his early influences. First among these are the comic strips and superhero comics that Feiffer (Passionella and Other Stories, 2006, etc.) read and copied in his Bronx youth; he pays warm tribute to their creators throughout his memoir. Second-and looming so large that she practically becomes the protagonist in major portions of the book-is his mother (his father rates only a few passing mentions), a notably insensitive figure who, he writes, "never failed to fail me." She did, however, wean her son of any need to rely on the approval or judgments of others in his work, politics or private life. With chapter heads like "Lucking Into The Zeitgeist" and "Heckle and Jeckel [sic] Meet Mike and Elaine," Feiffer retraces his career from a post-World War II apprenticeship in the studio of the legendary Will Eisner and the beginnings of a decades-long association with the Village Voice, to his establishment as a fixed star in the New York cultural firmament and a powerful voice of the New Left, to his most recent turn as a popular children's-book author. The author describes himself as a "hardworking, never-resting combination of talent and fraud," and he freely drops names and opinions ("Now, I had loved Annie Hall, and I used to like Woody"), which create a winning portrait of his literary and artistic milieu. Feiffer dishes up a self portrait notable for authentically sudden switches from self-effacement to touchy pride, righteous anger to bemusement, vulnerability to urbane loftiness. A touching, penetrating memoir-though fartoo sparsely illustrated.
Library Journal
The Jewish Mother from Hell would never have guessed that her wimpy kid had so much inside him—multiple personalities like Munro, Bernard, Passionella, Harry the Rat with Women, and the tireless Dancer. Feiffer had the moxie and the magic both to reflect and to define the neuroses of his uncomfortably self-aware generation as all the smugness of the postwar 1950s went aground on the Vietnam War, campus sit-ins, the sexual revolution, and the Civil Rights Movement. At age 80, Feiffer relishes his life story, remaining firmly convinced of his own greatness while still in awe that a Brooklyn scribbler sans degree should be hobnobbing with media darlings and New York's socioliterary intelligentsia. VERDICT There's not much here on the personal side or about his drawing techniques, but the juicy stories about the art and the networking and Feiffer's own brand of antichutzpah are so captivating that who cares? Over 40 cartoons are included but, alas, no photos and no chronology of publications, plays, and films. Indispensible for most public and all academic libraries.—M.C.

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Chapter 1

Food was out to get me. Food devoured me with every mouthful I took. I chewed for minutes without being able to swallow. I gagged, spit up into a napkin, then secretly shook the remains into the garbage when my mother’s back was turned. She didn’t suspect.

Much in the manner of immigrant Jewish mothers of her time and circumstance, my mother placed all her hopes and dreams on me. She wanted me to be big and healthy. But I wouldn’t cooperate. I was small for my age and underweight for any age. I could count my own ribs when I stripped down to my shorts.

“It’s good for you,” was her unpersuasive catch phrase as she tried to shovel noodle pudding down my throat. “It’s your favorite,” she insisted against the evidence of my tightly sealed lips. “I have no time for this,” she pleaded.

She had anointed me, the only male child in the family, to succeed where she had not. But at the rate I was going, I had three months to live. Or so my mother worried. I knew I’d do fine if I could only get away from her noodle pudding. I despised her noodle pudding.

My mother had failed to live up to her early promise as a fashion designer. It was never clear why her career had gone flat, but what was clear, much too clear, was how she toiled, night and day, over her drawing table stationed in a corner of our living room, sandwiched between the piano no one knew how to play and the bookcase stacked with Russian, French, and English novels (read by my father) and uplifting essays by Emerson and others (studied by my mother). She drew her fashion sketches, cloaks and suits they were called, in pencil and lightly tinted watercolor. Three days a week she packed them up and subwayed down to the Garment District on Seventh Avenue, where she peddled them door-to-door to dress manufacturers. Each sketch earned her three dollars. Since my father perennially failed at business and his various other jobs didn’t last that long, it was my mother’s three-dollar sketches that brought us through hard times.

She performed dutifully the roles of breadwinner, wife, and mother, unsought obligations inflicted on her by a bad choice in husbands and the Great Depression. She was said to be good at design, but how was I to know? Except for superheroes in tights and capes, I was indifferent to fashion. But from an early age I was forced to observe how absent pleasure was from her work, how often she mentioned the strain, her headaches, her throbbing temples—

I was meant to grow up to right the wrong of her stalled career, undermined by my grandparents, who prodded her into marrying Dave Feiffer. So much had been taken from her, small wonder the anxiety she brought to raising me. Her offers of food felled me like a battering ram. She pushed, cajoled, browbeat, destroyed my appetite for the very things she offered. “Eat, it’s delicious,” “You’ll love this, you know you’ll love this.” This is not the job she wanted. What she wanted was to get on with the day, get back to her drawing board, dive deep into the world of fashion, which, though it offered few rewards, remained her single escape from this marriage she was drafted into. Her aim was to stuff me at least to the extent that I wasn’t a physical embarrassment to the neighbors, a reproach to her reputation as a mother, forty pounds at seven years, my reminder of her failure.

I had my appetites, not for food but for comics. I didn’t see that food had anything in it to sustain me. I ate only because I wanted to be a good boy. I wanted to keep my mother happy. Not that I, or anyone else, could keep her happy. But more about not keeping my mother happy later.

Comics: I ate them, I breathed them, I thought about them day and night. I learned to read only so that I could read comics. Nothing else was worth the effort. Marginalized from every aspect of the Bronx world I inhabited, my only escape was a life of escapism: reading comics, going to movies, listening to radio serials and favored comedians — Jack Armstrong, I Love a Mystery, Fibber McGee and Molly, Charlie McCarthy, Jack Benny, Burns and Allen — each transporting me out of real life into a totally impossible fantasy reality that I bought as a metaphor for my future.
My alternate dream was to someday work myself into the ranks of the great cartoonists. Getting to the top, where I’d be invited to hang out with Milton Caniff of Terry and the Pirates, Will Eisner of The Spirit, Roy Crane of Wash Tubbs and Captain Easy, E. C. Segar of Popeye, Raeburn Van Buren of Abbie an’ Slats, Alex Raymond of Flash Gordon, Al Capp of Li’l Abner . . .
These men were heroes! Brilliance in four-paneled daily strips and full-page gloriously colored Sunday extravaganzas that they routinely created. I loved the look, the dazzling interplay of words and pictures that leaped off the comics page at me, a preferred universe to the one I was mired in. But not for long. If I had anything to say about it. I lived in circumstances where I was poor (a drawback in real life, an incitement to high adventure and rags to riches in comics), where I was small and powerless, so inadequate that I couldn’t bat, throw, or catch a ball (a disaster in real life, but in comics a self-imposed limitation that hid my superpowers from evildoers).
I could have used superpowers. If you grew up poor in the Bronx during the Great Depression, missing out on the joys of boyhood as others knew them — baseball, football, basketball (fun for others, failed challenges for me) — then what was my way out? A fantasy of fame and fortune as a cartoonist! So went my exit strategy.
The scenario begins with my own Bronx version of a movie Western shootout. It’s Saturday. It’s summer. It’s Stratford Avenue in the Soundview area of the East Bronx. Five- and six-story dreary brick apartment houses line the streets. Brown, gray, and rust are the colors that dominate. On the corner of Stratford and Westchester, the Lexington Avenue El clatters by, noticeably noisiest in the middle of the night. Kaminkowitz’s drugstore is on the corner of Stratford, next to Horowitz’s vegetable store, next to a vacant lot. I worked at Kaminkowitz’s as a delivery boy when I was eleven and twelve.
Pensky’s candy store is across the street, the near corner. Pensky was important to my life because his store was where I scanned comic books before buying them. Pensky also had a soda fountain and gum ball machines and, in a booth at the back of the store, one of the few phones on the block. If my mother got a call, Pensky sent a kid (in the store for a candy or a soda), up Stratford to our house, 1235, to call my mother to the window. “Mrs. Feiffer, you’re wanted on the phone!” the kid shouted from the street.
My mother walked three flights down, meandered to the store (she had two speeds: slow and slower), ambled into Pensky’s, said, “I have a phone call, Mr. Pensky?” as if it had to be a mistake, thanked Pensky correctly but without feeling (he was a tradesman, she was a snob), and then, no matter how hot the day, closed herself off in the phone booth to take the call.
My mother minded her own business and wanted Pensky to mind his. And her children to mind ours. She kept secrets, who knew how many and of what gravity? Secrets about finances, about family, about family and finances, about disappointments, about betrayals, about debt and more debts, about so much that she couldn’t let on, could only hint at: “You’re not old enough. I’ll tell you when you’re old enough.”
   My mother’s secrets gave depth to her rigidity. And God knows, for a woman who started out a blithe spirit, the abuses that broke but did not bend her succeeded in alienating all three of her children, who were incipient blithe spirits themselves.
   She was not affectionate. Not a hugger, a holder, a kisser, a squeezer, or a pincher. She didn’t go in for bodily contact, certainly not with my father. I’ve suspected for a long time that mine was a virginal birth. I can’t prove it. But in my life I’ve never been in much of a position to prove anything. My motto has been: Even if you have to make it up, move on. That’s just one of my mottos. My other motto is: Duck!
So I’m back in the Bronx in the 1930s, which I’m told was a fine place to be if you were a different kind of poor Jewish boy than I was. I hear, now and again, from Bronx nostalgia associations and Web sites set up for expats who remember their Bronx childhoods fondly, romantically, a bit misty-eyed. That’s not how I remember it: Walking down three flights of narrow stairs from Apartment 2-F at 1235 Stratford. I have a piece of chalk in my hand instead of a gun. But walking down those stairs and out the door into the sunlight is a little like walking down a lone Western street through the swinging doors of a saloon. Gunfighters everywhere — they know they can take me. I know they can take me. My three-year-old sister, Alice, who worships the ground I walk on, even she knows they can take me.
But of course it’s not a saloon, it’s the very block I live on. My enemies are armed not with guns but with balls and baseball gloves and broomsticks. And they know when they see me walking out my front door (if they do see me, which I doubt), that I am of absolutely no consequence. I can’t hit, I can’t throw, I can’t catch.
I was missing a basic Bronx gene, the ball-playing gene. It seemed that every kid had it but me. Later, John F. Kennedy was to famously say, “Life is not fair.” He was never to know that, a generation earlier, I had proved his point over and over again.
Anyhow, back to the scenario: I have chalk, that’s my weapon. They have balls and sticks and gloves. They outsize, outweigh, and outgun me. I don’t know what I’m doing out here. I wouldn’t be here, but my mother made me. “You can’t stay in the house and draw all day.” “You need fresh air.” “Go out and play.”
    Play? If she paid attention to anything but her own rules, she’d know that I can’t play. I am physically at odds with sports. My body has been fitted with a hand that can draw but can’t catch or field a ball. She is sending her only son out to die.
    Hence the piece of chalk in my hand. At seven I have begun to strategize. If no one else, not my mother, not my father, is aware enough to look after my survival, then it’s up to me. Chalk is my weapon, the sidewalk my battleground. While they, the other, the enemy, the kids with size and muscles and coordination, take over the street, a dozen or more, batting balls, fielding base hits in and around traffic, I establish my terrain, down on my knees on the sidewalk. I draw in large, brash strokes. I don’t know what it is until I’ve laid down the first lines. Its . . . Popeye. Next I do Wimpy. I do a better Popeye than a Wimpy, but it beats any Wimpy these jocks can draw.
One or two of the athletes wander over. They trot off their turf, the street, over to my gallery on the sidewalk.
“Hey, it’s Popeye.”
“Can you draw Dick Tracy?”
I can and I do. And I am fast. They are startled by my speed.
“Can you draw Tom Mix?”
Tom Mix is a favorite cowboy star of the thirties. I draw a ten-gallon- hatted gunslinger firing with both barrels. It doesn’t matter that it doesn’t look like Tom Mix. The growing crowd is responding to me, the fastest chalk in the West.
Of course, after five or ten minutes they are bored and go back to their game. Besides, I have a limited repertoire, only so many cowboys and cartoon characters that I know how to draw or fake draw. But it doesn’t matter, I’ve made my point, I’ve taken my ground: the sidewalk. And on that sidewalk I’ve carved out a niche for myself in the neighborhood. I’m the artist.
I’ve won respect if not acceptance. Admiration if not friendship.
I’ve drawn myself into the pecking order. It’s an early use — perhaps my earliest — of a basic survivor’s technique: backing into recognition.
I figured out what the jocks couldn’t do that I could. I could draw. They couldn’t. I used their lack of talent to prove that even though I wasn’t a ball player I was visible, I existed! Inadvertently, I had stumbled onto the use of comics as judo. Talk about epiphanies.

From the Hardcover edition.

Meet the Author

JULES FEIFFER's Pulitzer Prize-winning comic strip ran for forty-two years in the Village Voice and one hundred other papers. He also penned the Obie Award-winning play Little Murders and the screenplay for Carnal Knowledge. He lives in New York City.

From the Hardcover edition.

Brief Biography

New York, New York
Date of Birth:
January 26, 1929
Place of Birth:
New York, New York
The Pratt Institute, 1951

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Backing into Forward 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 4 reviews.
peakbagger06 More than 1 year ago
Jules Feiffer's easily recognizable cartoons are a favorite for us all. But how did he get to where he was going....by backing into forward. The title of his book, in spite of its repetition throughout, only hit me over the head when I got about half way through. Don't we all have lives like Jules? Forget about the 5 year plan, the 10 year plan, any plan at all. Life is something we back into as he describes. Jules' self-deprecating style makes him all the more likeable. In spite of no college education, his prose suggests a most erudite man. His colleagues run the range from writers, cartoonists, politicians and even a spy thrown in for good measure. A great read which helps us examine our own path in life.
Christmas-girl More than 1 year ago
I've always been a fan and this book doesn't disappoint. Warm, engaging and often very funny, I felt as if I was listening to a great conversationalist.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Amazing! Please continue! -Dauntless's Author P. S. I saw your post at Jigsaw all results. That story is by me! Chapter Nine will be from Bearpaw's perspective, or Jaypaw, maybe... not sure yet!
ron-wye More than 1 year ago
Jules Feiffer's autobiography, Backing Into Forward, is the story of a boy who started drawing comic book characters at a very young age and then became a cartoonist before he became a man. The tale starts slowly and in short sentences without much adornment but explains some of the motivation for Feiffer to stay in his room and draw. The Feiffer family was Jewish. Jules' mother badgered him to be a success in life and she hovered over him giving him no leeway to be his own boy. He did not adjust to school work showing no interest in anything but cartoons. He drew his own comic book when he was eleven. Much like Albert Einstein he made only passing grades in school and yet after he completed high school, he soon became a genius. He was fortunate to land a job with Will Eisner, an early cartoonist master. Jules landed that job when he was 16 and was one of the unpaid helpers for Eisner, but he persevered and before being drafted into the Army when he was eighteen, he was drawing a comic strip on the back page of "The Spirit". Jules develops a contrarian view of life. He must heed what he is told to do at his own peril. Whatever advice he is given he must do the opposite. If he is told some new cartoon character he has drawn will definitely be a success, he must scratch that character and draw one entirely different. Jules says that this philosophy has served him well. Jules joins the Village Voice newspaper, a new alternative weekly and begins drawing a weekly cartoon strip and with this strip Jules becomes the darling satirist of comic strips. He draws these cartoons for the next 40 years. He turns to writing plays in the late sixties. His first play, Little Murders, opens on Broadway on Tuesday, receives punishing reviews Wednesday and expires Saturday. Feiffer continues to tell you about every famous cartoonist, comic, director, writer and B-flat trumpeter that he has worked with, talked to, drawn with or associated in any manner with. He does this either to explain his improbable success as a cartoonist or to keep his tale interesting for the masses. Jules is rescued two years later when Alan Arkin directs the same Little Murders and it is given a good review by the critics and a two year run on Broadway. After another couple of plays that go nowhere, Jules finds another career of writing and drawing children's books and he adds another trophy to his life. Jules Feiffer has displayed his art, his comic strips and his editorial cartoons on the printed pages of newspapers and magazines with a flair and a knack for the human being. He manages to reveal that genius in the autobiography that he has written.