Before I Let Go [NOOK Book]

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An Essence bestseller, Before I Let Go
is the sexy story of three male best friends' dramatic search
for love, intimacy, and the perfect relationship.

Nate is a D-O-G with an obsession for conquering as many women as possible. But when he breaks his own rules and falls for two women at the same time, all hell breaks loose. Brendan is the type of man every woman claims to want -- at least until she gets one. ...

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Overview

An Essence bestseller, Before I Let Go
is the sexy story of three male best friends' dramatic search
for love, intimacy, and the perfect relationship.

Nate is a D-O-G with an obsession for conquering as many women as possible. But when he breaks his own rules and falls for two women at the same time, all hell breaks loose. Brendan is the type of man every woman claims to want -- at least until she gets one. Will he ever find a woman as sweet as he is, or is he doomed to be the poster child for "Good Guys Who Love Bad Girls"? Cory is successful, smart, and handsome. He's never gotten over his first love, and when he moves back to his hometown, he has to face secrets and make decisions that will change his life forever.

Before I Let Go is a sizzling, entertaining tale of how men come to terms -- in the most startling ways -- with lust, love, and life.

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780061738869
  • Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
  • Publication date: 10/13/2009
  • Sold by: HARPERCOLLINS
  • Format: eBook
  • Pages: 336
  • Sales rank: 918,380
  • File size: 2 MB

Meet the Author

Darren Coleman is the author of Before I Let Go and Don't Ever Wonder. A former elementary-school teacher, he is now a full-time writer and coaches in a youth football league. He lives in Bowie, Maryland.

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Before I Let Go


By Coleman, Darren

Amistad Press

ISBN: 0060594845

Chapter One

Surviving the Game

My whole life changed when Shelly said those three little words to me: "Cory, it's over." We were in the throes of a discussion about how to keep our soon-to-be long-distance relationship alive and well when I left home to go to Atlanta for graduate school. At the time, getting a good job and making plenty of cash were my main concerns. I'd never been rich, but I wasn't prepared to struggle due to bad decisions either. I believed wholeheartedly that an MBA from Georgia Tech in project management was sure to open a few doors for me in the future.

I'd done well in undergrad, but it wasn't as if schools were beating down the doors to get me to choose them. I had attended Morgan State University, a small black school thirty miles from my home in the suburbs of Washington, D.C. It was no secret that the prominent graduate schools held that against you. Their unspoken mantra seemed to shout "Sure, you may have performed well against your peers, but that doesn't mean that you can make it here with the privileged." That's why when I was accepted to grad school at Tech, I chose to go there instead of even thinking about applying to Temple, where Shelly was headed to work on her master's.

The fact that I was leaving the D.C. area and heading down south meant that we wouldn't be within driving distance, but I was convinced we could make it work. I knew it would be difficult missing her. Through my years at Morgan State it had always been easy to find me. If I wasn't hanging out downtown in the clubs with Brendan and Nate, then it had been a safe bet that Shelly and I were together. Adjustments would have to be made. I'd assured her there would be long weekends and holidays for us to see one another. Hard as it is to believe now, I had had no idea that I was tearing Shelly's heart apart in ways that I couldn't have figured out at the time.


After she'd rocked my world with her statement, Shelly didn't look me in the eyes. I was speechless, trying to figure out where she was coming from. She went on to say, "A boyfriend 750 miles away can't meet my needs, Cory."

Her words and attitude made her seem like a different person. During the three years we had been together she had never given me any drama other than an occasional lovers' quarrel, and at first I expected this spat to be no different. But somehow Shelly had turned as cold as ice. I'd thought that I'd picked up on her fears, and maybe she was just feeling unsure of our being able to maintain the relationship over the long distance. When I questioned her about it she told me that she definitely had concerns, but not just about me remaining faithful. When I asked her what she'd meant by that, she flatly said, "When the cat is away the mouse will play."

"So what are you saying?" I asked her apprehensively.

"C'mon, Cory. Do I need to spell it out for you? Be realistic. I ... I ... just don't think we can expect to make it. There'll be so many women down there."

"And there'll be so many men up in Philly."

She'd stood up from the couch and said, "Yeah, that too."


I lost my temper at that point. I remember saying some nasty things and hearing her cursing me back in a combination of English and Spanish. Shelly was Puerto Rican and always spoke in Spanish, her native tongue, when she got mad or emotional. She didn't stop until I walked out her front door. Like any young couple we'd had a few major fights, but somehow we'd managed to make up each time. The only difference was that this time, in two days, she'd be leaving for Philly, and I was heading to Atlanta.

She didn't ring my phone during those two days, and when I finally called her to apologize, her younger sister Nina made it a point to tell me that Shelly had gone out on a movie date to see He Got Game. If she was trying to make me jealous, it had worked.


It worked so well, in fact, that my mind began to race with doubts about whether or not I should have ever trusted her.

At that moment I cut her off from my love and me as far as I was concerned. I hung up and began packing for my trip and my life in Atlanta. I was leaving early. I knew she would probably be calling back later, but I wanted to make sure that it was too late. I called my boys, Brendan and Nate, to see if either of them wanted to ride with me on the ten-hour drive to Atlanta. They both were willing to roll down to keep me company but neither was ready, and my anger wouldn't let me wait around.

It turned out to be better that I was alone. I'm not ashamed to admit that I shed a few tears on my ride down 85. I don't know why I tortured myself by listening to all of that damned slow music. K-Ci and JoJo's "All My Life," Brian McKnight's Anytime, and don't get me started on R. Kelly. By the time I reached Charlotte my rage had given way to paranoia. I had envisioned R. Kelly going half on a baby with my girl simply because she reminded him of his jeep.

My shattered ego coupled with my confusion and suddenly everything was all starting to make sense. I reasoned that Shelly must have been cheating all along. That was why she hadn't made a fuss about my decision to not go to school up North with her ...

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First Chapter

Before I Let Go
A Novel

Chapter One

Surviving the Game

My whole life changed when Shelly said those three little words to me: "Cory, it's over." We were in the throes of a discussion about how to keep our soon-to-be long-distance relationship alive and well when I left home to go to Atlanta for graduate school. At the time, getting a good job and making plenty of cash were my main concerns. I'd never been rich, but I wasn't prepared to struggle due to bad decisions either. I believed wholeheartedly that an MBA from Georgia Tech in project management was sure to open a few doors for me in the future.

I'd done well in undergrad, but it wasn't as if schools were beating down the doors to get me to choose them. I had attended Morgan State University, a small black school thirty miles from my home in the suburbs of Washington, D.C. It was no secret that the prominent graduate schools held that against you. Their unspoken mantra seemed to shout "Sure, you may have performed well against your peers, but that doesn't mean that you can make it here with the privileged." That's why when I was accepted to grad school at Tech, I chose to go there instead of even thinking about applying to Temple, where Shelly was headed to work on her master's.

The fact that I was leaving the D.C. area and heading down south meant that we wouldn't be within driving distance, but I was convinced we could make it work. I knew it would be difficult missing her. Through my years at Morgan State it had always been easy to find me. If I wasn't hanging out downtown in the clubs with Brendan and Nate, then it had been a safe bet that Shelly and I were together. Adjustments would have to be made. I'd assured her there would be long weekends and holidays for us to see one another. Hard as it is to believe now, I had had no idea that I was tearing Shelly's heart apart in ways that I couldn't have figured out at the time.


After she'd rocked my world with her statement, Shelly didn't look me in the eyes. I was speechless, trying to figure out where she was coming from. She went on to say, "A boyfriend 750 miles away can't meet my needs, Cory."

Her words and attitude made her seem like a different person. During the three years we had been together she had never given me any drama other than an occasional lovers' quarrel, and at first I expected this spat to be no different. But somehow Shelly had turned as cold as ice. I'd thought that I'd picked up on her fears, and maybe she was just feeling unsure of our being able to maintain the relationship over the long distance. When I questioned her about it she told me that she definitely had concerns, but not just about me remaining faithful. When I asked her what she'd meant by that, she flatly said, "When the cat is away the mouse will play."

"So what are you saying?" I asked her apprehensively.

"C'mon, Cory. Do I need to spell it out for you? Be realistic. I ... I ... just don't think we can expect to make it. There'll be so many women down there."

"And there'll be so many men up in Philly."

She'd stood up from the couch and said, "Yeah, that too."


I lost my temper at that point. I remember saying some nasty things and hearing her cursing me back in a combination of English and Spanish. Shelly was Puerto Rican and always spoke in Spanish, her native tongue, when she got mad or emotional. She didn't stop until I walked out her front door. Like any young couple we'd had a few major fights, but somehow we'd managed to make up each time. The only difference was that this time, in two days, she'd be leaving for Philly, and I was heading to Atlanta.

She didn't ring my phone during those two days, and when I finally called her to apologize, her younger sister Nina made it a point to tell me that Shelly had gone out on a movie date to see He Got Game. If she was trying to make me jealous, it had worked.


It worked so well, in fact, that my mind began to race with doubts about whether or not I should have ever trusted her.

At that moment I cut her off from my love and me as far as I was concerned. I hung up and began packing for my trip and my life in Atlanta. I was leaving early. I knew she would probably be calling back later, but I wanted to make sure that it was too late. I called my boys, Brendan and Nate, to see if either of them wanted to ride with me on the ten-hour drive to Atlanta. They both were willing to roll down to keep me company but neither was ready, and my anger wouldn't let me wait around.

It turned out to be better that I was alone. I'm not ashamed to admit that I shed a few tears on my ride down 85. I don't know why I tortured myself by listening to all of that damned slow music. K-Ci and JoJo's "All My Life," Brian McKnight's Anytime, and don't get me started on R. Kelly. By the time I reached Charlotte my rage had given way to paranoia. I had envisioned R. Kelly going half on a baby with my girl simply because she reminded him of his jeep.

My shattered ego coupled with my confusion and suddenly everything was all starting to make sense. I reasoned that Shelly must have been cheating all along. That was why she hadn't made a fuss about my decision to not go to school up North with her ...

Before I Let Go
A Novel
. Copyright © by Darren Coleman. Reprinted by permission of HarperCollins Publishers, Inc. All rights reserved. Available now wherever books are sold.
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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 6, 2012

    Good book!

    Great read! Part 2 is even better!

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  • Posted January 7, 2010

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    Great Book!

    This was a very good book. It had enough excitement to keep you going.

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  • Posted April 13, 2009

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    Had me TOTALLY Captivated!!!

    Being from Maryland I found myself totally wrapped in this book. I enjoyed the way the character's lives unfolded. I just could NOT put the book down!! I was engrossed in the characters lives. Having knowledge of the locations in the book really had me experiencing the characters lives as well. Great book Darren and keep them coming!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 28, 2007

    JUST GREAT!

    I thought this book was soooo good! I could not put this book down. I loved the way Dickey portrayed three very different versions of the black man. I found it interesting how things panned out at the end. The end of the book was the best for me. I simply loved it. And I must say before I'm done that 'I would never date my sister's ex...that is the ultimate betrayal.' LOVED IT!!!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 25, 2006

    Off the Hook

    I haven't read a book in years reading make's me sleepy oh not this book it had up's down's a thrill ride I was laughing, shocked, and just captivated no sleepness with this book I couldn't put it down. I hated for it to end I bonded with the caracter's no movie could do it justice searching for a book to live up to this one.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 5, 2006

    good book

    Great Book Couldnt put it down. It was funny, interesting, and meaningful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 20, 2005

    INSIDE A MAN'S WORLD/MIND

    This was very mature literature and great reading about men thoughts on relationship and the women they are with.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 29, 2004

    What an Alluring read...Couldn't put it down

    Darren Coleman outdid himself. This is definitely a book that I would enjoy watching on the bigscreen. I fell in love with the characters, Cory, and his relationship with Nina, however the whole story had a twist. Maybe they give it a second chance on 'Don't Ever Wonder'.(Fingers Crossed)

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 24, 2004

    this book was hot

    this book was really good it had me going from page to page this is a very good book to read

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 2, 2004

    the book was off da hook

    the book was good i loved the beginning middle but the ending is still keeping me on my feet. this book is most likely to be continued

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 5, 2004

    This book should be a movie

    I think this book was well written and it left me thinking that if it was a movie Darren Coleman would be a millionair. Everthing about it was great and I did think that Nate got what he deserved. Brendan and Cory....I have no words for

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 3, 2004

    I never really read too much before this book

    I never found a book that I could just really get into like this one. It was good and made me laugh out loud!! And I know a guy just like Nate so I was glad to see the outcome. I am so looking forward to the new book coming soon.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 1, 2004

    I liked it

    I liked this book becuase it was entertaining and had a twist to it. I will definitely going to buy his next book.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 6, 2004

    A learning experience that's a definite must read

    This book is amazing. It's an enlightening tale of three men and truly teaches women how to beware of the games men may play. However, women also need to know that this is fictional, and not to take it as seriously as they do. A few type errors, but other than that the book is great.. Not five stars, but I'll definitely give it four

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 22, 2004

    Nice job!

    This book is a huge eye opener into the minds and hearts of a few black men. It shows how life can definitely weave some tangled webs, but also show how very true CARMA can be.... Well done! I'm heavily anticipating the sequel 'Don't Ever Wonder'.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 8, 2004

    An Easy Read

    The book was well written and easy to read quickly. Every woman should be grateful to Darren Coleman for creating a document that details how whoreish men are. This book makes me feel less self-conscious about being single at age 32. I don¿t want to ever have to deal with, or be disrespected by, men as disgusting as the characters in this book. The book¿s summary classifies Nate as a dog. This is wrong¿Nate, Cory, and Brendan, are complete whores.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 14, 2004

    A good book u wont be disappointed

    darrien coleman did his thing with this novel it is a very good book i finished reading it in one day it is a very good book if u haven't read it yet then i advise u to go buy it u wont be disappointed.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 23, 2004

    It was an ok book

    This book was ok. It had alot of loose ends, but the ending was ok. But I think he could have done a littl bit better.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 5, 2004

    Story Emotionally Inept Minds

    This was pathetic attempt to portray the lives of the most childish indecisive characters. As I was reading the story initially it was boring, midway it was an adventure in absurdity and finally a weak endeavor to tie up so many loose ends. I have a few questions. Where did Nate work? What happened to Shue? How was Cory a ¿typical man¿? I only hope that the author¿s young students are not influenced by this book. The story was not even about men.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 19, 2003

    Want more drama?

    If you want drama from the first page to the last, then this is the book for you. Every character in this book had some major drama, especially the male characters. Each of them will make u want to choke them. As the story goes, men never get enough. This book was fast-paced and was a very good,interesting, and easy read although I didn't quite like the ending. However I applaud Mr.Coleman on his efforts. Can't wait for the next book. So bring IT!!!!

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