Being Me

Being Me

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by Lisa Renee Jones

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Being Me is the second sensual adventure in New York Times bestselling author Lisa Renee Jones’s “totally swoon worthy” and “absolutely enthralling” (Under the Covers) Inside Out series.

I arch into him, drinking in his passion, instantly, willingly consumed by all that he is and could be to me...

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Being Me is the second sensual adventure in New York Times bestselling author Lisa Renee Jones’s “totally swoon worthy” and “absolutely enthralling” (Under the Covers) Inside Out series.

I arch into him, drinking in his passion, instantly, willingly consumed by all that he is and could be to me...

Sara McMillan is still searching for Rebecca, the mysterious woman whose dark, erotic journal entries both enthralled and frightened her. Tormented by a strong desire to indulge the demands of her new boss while also drawn deeper into her passionate bond with the troubled artist, Chris Merit, Sara must face a past as deeply haunting as Rebecca’s written words. In one man’s arms, Sara will find the safe haven to reveal her most intimate secrets and explore her darkest fantasies. But is safety just an illusion, when the truth about Rebecca has yet to be discovered?

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Being Me

  • I am suffocating in a tunnel of complete, utter darkness created by the unexpected power outage in the storage unit I’ve been digging through in hopes of finding clues to Rebecca’s whereabouts. I have been thrust into the middle of a dreaded horror movie, the kind I hate watching, and I instantly picture myself as the girl who makes all the wrong moves and ends up bloody and lifeless. I, Sara McMillan, am a logical person, and I tell myself to reject my fear as irrational. This is simply one of the random power outages San Francisco has experienced in the past few months, and a mouse at my feet is the worst of my worries.

    But then, isn’t that what the girl who gets killed in the horror movie always thinks, too? It’s just a power outage. It’s just a mouse. I was stupid to come here alone at night as it is and I try not to be stupid. I knew from a prior encounter that the attendant of this place was creepy but I dismissed him as a concern. I’d just been too darn desperate to feel I was doing something to find Rebecca, and desperate to take my mind off Chris’s silence since our text exchange this morning, when I’d confessed to missing him. I fear his trip out of town for a charity event has given him time to decide he doesn’t miss me. After all, he’d dared to show me one of his darkest secrets the night before and I’d done exactly what he’d said I would, and I’d sworn I wouldn’t, by pushing him away. Running away, I add silently, thinking of the words Chris had used quite often to predict my behavior.

    Another popping sound permeates the eerie silence and I am officially freaking out about more than Chris’s silence. My mind struggles to identify the sound, with no results. Oh yes, indeed, I am so flipping stupid for coming here alone. And while I like to think I’m not stupid often, tonight proves that when I am, I do it in a big way.

    I don’t dare move, let alone breathe, yet I can hear low, raspy pants and I know they are mine. I will myself to silence but it doesn’t work. My chest is tight, and air becomes harder to draw into my lungs. I need air. I need it desperately. I’m hyperventilating, I think. Yes. That’s it. I remember this same, almost out-of-body sensation, from the moment a doctor exited my mother’s hospital room five years ago and told me she was dead. Even knowing what is happening to me, I continue the damnable shallow gasps certain to give away my location. I do not understand how I can know what is happening to me and still not be capable of controlling it.

    Somehow, I am standing and I don’t remember standing. Papers fall from my hands that I don’t remember holding. Panic rises inside me and tells me to scream and run. So right and real is this “fight or flight” sensation that I take a step forward, but another popping sound freezes me in place. My gaze jerks to the door, where I see nothing but more darkness. Nothing but this deep, black hole threatening to gobble me up. Another pop. What is that sound? Another noise—a shuffle of a foot, I think—sounds closer to the doorway. Adrenaline races through me, and I don’t consciously think, I just act.

    I launch myself across the room, in a direction I think is free of obstacles. Door, door, door! I need the door. Where is the damn door? My fingers find empty space and more empty space until, finally, I hit cold steel and relief washes over me as I slam the door shut. I hold my palms against the surface. Now what? Now what?! Lock the door. But I can’t. Reality hits hard. The lock is outside and—oh, God—whoever is outside could lock me inside. Or . . . what if the person I sensed in the hallway had made it inside with me before I shut the door?

    I whirl around at the terrifying thought and flatten myself against the door. I remember my phone in my jacket pocket and dig for it. I can’t see anything. I clearly cannot even think straight. How had I not thought of my phone before now? I grab it but it slips from my hand and drops to the ground. Frantically, I fall to my knees on the ground to scrabble for it, relieved when my hand closes around the slick plastic, but I struggle without success to get the lock button off.

    As I dart to my feet, afraid I’ll be slashed to death while trying to dial—and this time nothing is stopping my escape. Running might be another stupid move, but at this point not running feels pretty darn stupid, too. I yank the door open and more darkness greets me, but I don’t care. I run and pray that I don’t charge into whoever is inside with me or trip over my own feet in the black hole that is everything around me. I just want out. Out. Out. Out. It is all I can think of. It’s what drives me forward in the direct line to the exit. I am an explosion of fear and adrenaline that has dissolved the logic I’d had moments before.

    I search for the exit, for light, but the exterior door that had been open is closed, and I hit it with a force that rattles my teeth. The iron taste of blood spills into my mouth where my teeth have ground into my tongue, but I don’t let it shake my resolve to escape in one piece. I feel for the handle and let out a breath of relief when it gives and the door opens.

    Within a split second I am out of the building, the dim streetlights and cold San Francisco night air a welcome escape from the suffocating darkness of the building as I bolt for my car. My muscles flex and burn as I fear someone is at my back but I do not dare waste precious seconds to confirm or deny this possibility. The delicate skin of my palm is pinched between my keys where I have squeezed the metal into the flesh, and I struggle to find the electronic clicker to unlock my car door. Time seems to stand still as I fight the urge to look behind me again and, instead, I tug the door open.

    Certain someone is about to grab me from behind, I throw myself into my seat and yank the handle, sealing myself inside and clicking the locks into place. Frantically I look out my window and see no one, but I expect shattered glass any second. My hands shake with such fierceness I have to steady one with the other to get the key in the ignition. The instant it’s in, I start the engine and throw the vehicle into reverse. Tires squeal and my heart thunders. I shift the gear into drive and instantly stomp on the brake, jerking myself forward with the impact. The sound of my heavy breathing fills the eerily silent car as I stare at the open door of the building and see nothing spectacular or scary. It’s just . . . there. And I’m here and no one else seems to be around.

    It doesn’t matter. The longer I sit here the more I feel exposed, vulnerable, a target. My foot hits the gas. I need out of this parking lot and I need out now.

    I’m barely on the side street leading to the highway, my hands clutching the steering wheel, when it hits me: the storage unit is unlocked. I’ve left it open and I’m driving away. I cut the car into a gas station and park beside the building. I just sit. It could be a minute, or two or ten. I can’t be sure. I can’t seem to form coherent thoughts. I let my head fall to the steering wheel and try to focus. The storage unit. Rebecca’s secrets, her life. Her death. My head jerks up. No. She’s not dead. She’s not dead . . . and yet, I know in my gut there is a secret about her in that storage unit that someone doesn’t want me or anyone else to discover.

    “I have to go back and lock the unit,” I whisper. I could call the police to meet me. They won’t arrest me for being afraid of the dark. They might laugh, they might be irritated, but I’ll be safe and smart this time.

    My cell phone rings from the seat, where I don’t remember tossing it, and I jump, balling my fist between my breasts. “Good grief,” I murmur, chiding myself. “Get a grip, Sara.”

    I glance at the number. Chris. My chest burns hot with emotion. There is so much between us that is unsettled, so many reasons why we are wrong for each other. Yet, despite this or perhaps because of it, I have never needed to hear someone’s voice as much as I need to hear his now.

    “Sara,” he murmurs when I answer, and my name is a soft rasp of silky male perfection that radiates through me and settles in the deep hollow of my soul only he seems to fill.

    “Chris.” My voice cracks on his name, because damn it, my eyes are burning. How have I gone from living the past few years so unaffected by what is around me to the opposite in a matter of weeks? “I . . . I wish you were here.”

    “I am here, baby,” he says, and I think, I hope, I hear a note of his own emotion etched deep within his words. “I’m at your front door. Open up.”

    I blink in confusion. “I thought you were in L.A. for the charity event.”

    “I was and I have to fly out again in the morning, but I had to see you. Open up and let me in.”

    I am stunned. I’ve worried all day over his silence. Feared he’d shut me out, as I had him last night. “You came home just to see me?”

    “Yes. I came just to see you.” He seems to hesitate. “Are you going to leave me outside?”

    More of that emotion I try not to feel erupts inside me, and the burn in my eyes threatens to become tears. He came to see me, went out of his way, to fly here from another city, even after the way I’d reacted to his confession at the club last night. “I’m not home.” My voice is barely audible. “I’m not and I want to be. Can you please come here?”

    “Where is here?” he asks, sounding as urgent as I feel.

    “A few blocks away. At a Stop N Buy store by the storage unit I told you about.” I can’t bring myself to say Rebecca’s name and I don’t know why.

    “I’ll be right there.”

    I open my mouth to give him directions, but the line goes dead.

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    Being Me 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 200 reviews.
    Tyhada More than 1 year ago
    OMG. OMG. Like If I Were You, Being Me is an amazing read! I love, love, loved this one too. This series is unbelievable and without a doubt one of my favorites. I think Ms Jones did a great job of building the story and keeping it interesting. This book is NOT a filler. There are several twists and turns. I didn't find myself getting bored with it or skimming. It kept my attention until the very end. Writing this review is sort of hard for me because I don't want to give anything away. I can tell you this though. You will find out who the Master is, and you will also get answers to the mystery of Rebecca. Chris and Sara are still keeping secrets from each other, and while some of them are revealed in this one it won't be until the third book that you'll find out just exactly what deep dark secrets Chris is keeping. Even though this story has BDSM elements it's not overly explicit. Having said that, the sexual scenes are still steamy and plentiful. Next up is a novella entitled The Master Undone. It's written from The Master's point of view and I can't wait get his perspective of how things happened. It's being released in August and I can't wait to read it. Book three, entitled Revealing Us, is expected to release in September.  If you have yet to read this series I suggest you give it a try. It really is amazing!
    njp42474 More than 1 year ago
    Did you read ‘If I Were You’?   If you haven't read the book go do so and then come back to read this review. Did you read ‘Rebecca’s Lost Journals’?  If you didn’t then you need to read Journal 1-4 before you read this book, they are very useful. *Possible Spoilers* Did you have questions at the end of ‘If I Were You’?  I know I did.   Questions like ‘Who is Master’?  ‘Who is Master’s second’?  ‘Where is Rebecca’?  And thanks to the cliffhanger Lisa leaves us with, ‘Who is at the storage shed’?   ‘Being Me’ will give you those answers.  However,  even with answers you have to wonder if they are all tied up with a nice little bow, or do the answers have questions themselves.  They aren’t all tied up with a bow in case you are wondering or at least not all of them.  I got most of the answers, but by the end of the book I had more questions.  I can only hope that we get the answers soon in the next book.   Sara is still trying to find answers to what happened to Rebecca by reading the journals that she found in the storage shed.  Chris is back (thank god) and is determined to keep Sara safe while battling who he is inside.  Read the book if you want to know some of those answers.  Mark, what can I say about Mark, well he is his typical dominant self and I wouldn’t want him any other way.  All the wonderful cast of people that we met are still there and we learn more about some of them.  We meet Dylan who tugged at my heartstrings and I just wanted to hug him every time he was around.  If you have read Lisa’s ‘Tall, Dark and Deadly’ series you will recognize Blake from ‘Beneath the Secrets’ as the PI that Chris hires to help Sara on her quest to find the answers she is looking for about Rebecca. I was highly anticipating this book after reading ‘If I Were You’ because I absolutely fell in love with the book.  After I read the cliffhanger, I wanted to scream, heck I even wanted to throw my nook against the wall, I really hate cliffhangers.  But this book, it didn’t disappoint me at all.  In fact it makes me itch for more.  Like seriously itch.  How many days till ‘Revealing Us’ is released, because it can't come soon enough for me. Between the character developments, the steamy sex, the intrigue, the all-around general rollercoaster of emotions I didn’t even stop for breaks while reading.  When I was finished I wanted more.  I bow to Lisa for her ability to grab hold of her readers and pull them into the book.  I honestly felt like I was right there next to Sara searching for the answers. Lisa didn’t disappoint with this book, like she could ever do that anyway, and she sealed her position on the list of authors whose books I will always preorder (heaven forbid I forget a release of any of her books) and as one of my all-time favorite authors.   You don’t need to have read the ‘Tall, Dark and Deadly’ series before reading this book but you should read that series cause it’s just an awesome series.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I LOVE this whole series. This one went a little deeper into everything. Hot Hot romance,suspense. This whole series has it all. I read straight through. It's gonna be a cruel summer waiting for the last two. These books are a must read,but they should be read in order.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I was very pleased with this book. Its the second in the series and the author takes you on a journey to find answers to a mystery and the characters are trying to find themselves too. It is not stand alone so you have to read book one to be able to enjoy this book.
    RedheadedBookworm More than 1 year ago
    I feel lost and empty after finishing this book. My cheeks are tear stained and my heart has been shredded. I was pulled so far into this book, I actually felt ALL the raw emotions, and now I'm trying to talk myself back into the real world. Being Me picks up right where If I Were You ends.  From page one, I was sucked back into the lives of these complex characters. Sara is still avidly trying to find Rebecca and trying to make sure she keeps the clients and Mark happy at the gallery. And of course, there's Chris. There is so much electricity between Sara and Chris it makes the air around you sizzle. Chris is the ultimate tortured bad boy. From his torn jeans, leather jacket and that magnificent piece of hardware between his legs. The Harley that is. *ahem* He keeps trying to warn Sara that there's a part of him that she may not be able handle. Mark tries to convince her of the same. Does she listen? NOPE! She'll have to experience his dark side for herself. And does she ever. I was gutted after reading a few scenes. Mark is, well, Mark. He's handsome, mysterious, and has to have his way. Although, I must say, he shows a little bit of a softer side. Which made me feel a little differently about him. I actually felt sorry for him at one point. There's more to Mark and I hope we get to know him better in Revealing Us. So, we do get the identity of The Master. Who was it? Well, I can't tell you that. That would be a spoiler and I hate those! Sorry! Lots of things are answered. The mystery surrounding Rebecca is revealed. And WOW, never saw that coming, I mean not in a million years! Don't worry though, even with these questions answered, many more are raised. The ending? Well, I'm not happy with the way it ends. Of course, it's a cliff hanger, but even's an emotional cliff hanger. Now, don't get me wrong, I like cliff hangers, but I can't last six months not knowing what's going on!!! And some "new" characters are introduced. The Walker Brothers from Lisa Renee Jones' Tall, Dark and Deadly series make an appearance! Jones has managed to write another superb book! The way she creates these characters and their world makes you feel as if you are part of it. I couldn't put this book down. I finished it within 24 hours. I had to know what was coming next. Now, if I could just get Revealing Us I would be happy!
    Gina_M More than 1 year ago
    AMAZING! Emotional, Hot, and Suspenseful. Full of mystery, danger, romance and heat! I was blown away! Lisa Renee Jones does not disappoint!! BEING ME picks up right where IF I WERE YOU ended. So many questions are answered: Who “Master” is, who the second man is that “Master” brings into their relationship, what happened to Rebecca and you learn about Sara’s past. You’ll even be surprised by seeing some characters from another series of hers!! I could not put this book down! Each chapter grabs you and sucks you in! This journey of discovery is emotional, the sex is HOT! the story is captivating and there's something about these hot alpha males; hot, protective and charming that will make you swoon!! I don’t know how we are going to wait until September for the 3rd book!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    No matter how good the story (and it was), I have issues with paying almost eight dollars for roughly 250 pages of a second installment... Makes me feel like the author is taking advantage of loyal fans! Unfortunately, I am hooked...and you will be too.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    You've got to be kidding me!!! This book dragged and i was so looking forward to it being over and then to find out it's another cliff hanger!!!!! I was getting tired of hearing how damaged and flawed Cris & Sara are and wondering is the big deal when finding out. Now i have to get the next book because i feel otherwise all the time and effort i did reading this book has gone to waste!!!!!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    disappointed...not as good as the first book...pre ordered the next one...hoping for it to bring back the umph the first one had.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I had to force myself to finish this book. I felt like most of it was giberish to feel the pages. I did have moment where i connected with the characters but they were few.
    Kozmos_Mom More than 1 year ago
    SHE DID IT AGAIN Ms. Jones has once again succeeded in blowing me away. I had the privilege of getting my hands on an early copy of Being Me and I must say that I was not disappointed. She picked up exactly where she left total panic mode and the book took off from there. The mystery of Rebecca continues and without giving away too much is concluded we think. But that is just the background, because Lisa draws us further into the triangle that is Sara/Chris/Marc and it is delicious! Yes its hot and steamy, but more important is that its honest. The characters all grow and their secrets/pain is bared. In that is where Lisa truly shines. I felt every heartache, fear and shock that the characters felt. I cannot wait to see how Chris and Sara grow and hopefully trust. I am giddy for the next Journal which I am informed will be a novella in The Master's POV. Thanks to you Lisa, your gift is a joy and it burns brighter with every book!
    Hazel_G More than 1 year ago
    Sensational, Sensual and Suspenseful! A PERFECT Sequel! Questions Answered, Mysteries Unveiled, But... Who Survives and Where Do We Go From Here! The Rundown: Being Me thankfully picks up immediately where book one leaves off. Sara feels threatened and all is not as it seems. As the story progresses, there is still a huge mystery surrounding Rebecca's disappearance and what's happened to her. There is still no word from Ella and Sara is fearful of what her silence means. Mark steps up his game in trying to get what he wants. Sara has a secret she's hiding from Chris and Chris's dark side is exposed leaving Sara to decide if she can be a part of a world she doesn't understand. There's a lot going on in this story. However, not so much that it confuses the reader but rather leads us on an exciting and thrilling ride as these characters face dangers, their dark natures and uncertain futures. The Review: This series is erotically addicting! Every fantastic, intense and powerful moment leads up to one exciting climax that will have you holding your breath and then breathing a sigh of relief! I simply loved this book to the point of exhaustion but was rewarded greatly as.... Finally!!! All questions are answered, characters motives are revealed, sins are uncovered and the mystery is solved! With a slightly different and less intense but just as exciting tone as book one, "Being Me" focuses more on the developing relationship between Chris and Sara as they struggle to find common ground, with the foreboding mystery surrounding Rebecca's disappearance ever present in the backdrop. Chris has stuck by his word to help Sara and hired professional PI's to aid in their quest. Secrets are revealed and a constant danger vibe hangs over Sara's head as she herself might become the next target if she continues on her fact-finding mission... and she realizes stepping into Rebecca's shoes might seem glamorous but its shrouded with secrets that could possibly destroy her. As Sara decides her future, she also has two handsome, alpha men wanting to accommodate and dominate her, willing to satisfy her every sexual desire. One wants to do this through love and one wants to do this through power but both steeping it in pleasure leaving this one of the most erotic tales I've read this year! We should all be so lucky! The Wrap Up: Though Being Me doesn't leave off with the hair-raising cliffy that the first book does, the author leaves us with an emotional decision that will guide the next book and set the tone for the characters, ending on a note that has left me salivating for answers to Chris and Sara's uncertain future. Hopefully, we're headed to Paris and I for one can't wait to see what path that leads us on as well as Sara and Chris! I'm definitely looking forward to book three, "Revealing Us (Inside Out Trilogy #3)" when it comes out September 2013. NOTE:: I received this eARC in exchange for an honest review by "Simon & Schuster: Gallery, Threshold, Pocket Books" through "NetGalley".
    Nicole02 More than 1 year ago
    If you are for some reason putting off reading these books (I Was) I suggest you stop waiting. Chris puts Christian Grey to shame, now I'm not into BDSM and sure there is some of it in these books, but its not what they are ABOUT. We get the mystery of what has happened to Rebecca in If I Were You, in such a unique and amazing way and we are intrigued as to what happened to her. With Sara being thrust into Rebeccas life with men like Chris and Mark both wanting her, we are always guessing who really are them men in the journals. At least I was constantly wondering who they were. Being Me unveils some of the mysteries we were given in If I were You but not all of them. I wish I could unread these two books just so I could read them again they are that fantastic. Chris and Sara have such an electric chemistry between them but they are also both so broken that we can only wonder if they will only tear each other apart even more. I can't say enough about how fabulous I found this series!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    At the end all I could think was Holy Crap! Being Me picks up where If I Were You left off, Sara finds herself having to escape the storage unit and into the arms of the one person who is the center of her crazy world, her Dark Prince, Chris.  Chris and Sara's relationship is rocky at best, and her past colliding with the present makes her feel even more unsure of everything, but Chris sets out to straighten that.  Armed with the journals, and the help of a PI, Sara and Chris continue their journey to find where Rebecca is and what could of possibly happened to her.  Finding her puts Sara's own safety at risk, and Sara finds that people she thought she knew aren't exactly who she thinks they are, and she fears that Rebecca had to come to that same conclusion.  Despite the mystery of Rebecca, Sara and Chris's relationship is as steamy as ever.  "There is no in-between", Chris often tells her and Sara has to slowly let go of her insecurities and bring him pleasure through his emotional and physical pain.  Sara has discovered that although she tumbled into Rebecca's life and basically took it over, that she  can  learn to step back, and be herself all over again.  Questions left in If I Were You are answered and you're left with all new ones! Can't wait for Revealing Us!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Once again Lisa Renee Jones had written a fantastic book. Sara and Chris are faced with many struggles in their relationship. On top of that Sara is still trying to find out what happened to Rececca. While this is 2nd of 3 books this does not have such a harsh cliff-hanger like If I Were You. I feel it will be a more satisfying ending for people that don't like cliff hangers. We were given so much info in this book I was surprised that it came out in book 2 and the reader did not have to wait until book 3. I am anxiously awaiting book 3 of the series. Not to mention a Starz show based on the books.---Rae
    Sandy-thereadingcafe More than 1 year ago
    REVIEW:  Some background information:  Sara McMillan is a woman who has found and is reading a series of journals written by a young woman who was once employed by the same man with whom Sara is now working. Hoping to find some clue about Rebecca’s disappearance, Sara searches for answers in the sometimes less than revealing journals about the ‘what’ and the ‘who’ in Rebecca’s life. BEING ME is the second installment in Lisa Renee Jones’s Inside Out Trilogy focusing on Sara McMillan and her almost obsessive need to discover the truth about Rebecca and the information contained within a series of journals found in an abandoned storage locker. The journals chronicle several weeks in the life of Rebecca as she is pulled into the dangerous world of BDSM and becomes the slave to her Master.  When Sara discovers that Rebecca has been missing for a number of weeks, she endeavors to uncover the truth about what happened but in doing so sets into motion a waterfall of untapped emotions and information that could very well turn her world upside down and threaten to destroy the man with whom she is falling in love.  Lies will be uncovered, identities revealed and the players involved would much rather the journals were buried and forgotten.  Sara’s relationship with artist Chris Merit will be tested on several levels especially when it comes to trust, honesty and full disclosure. As Sara begins to dig deeper into Rebecca’s life, she will uncover the darker side of a lifestyle and of her boss, unlike anything she has ever known.  And when Sara’s life begins to unravel, Chris will pick up the pieces to make sure that the woman he loves is protected; but who will protect Sara from herself when she willingly places herself in danger by confronting the people she holds responsible for Rebecca’s disappearance? The world into which Sara has stepped is dangerous, seductive, mysterious and dark as is the man who has stolen her heart. As the story develops, the reader is taken on a journey of discovery; not only for Sara but for several of the storyline characters as well.  We are given a glimpse into a world very few experience but a world where power and control are gained through pain and pleasure. And it will be Sara who must fight for the ultimate control of a man’s heart when he becomes lost and has difficulty accepting that not everything is his to control.  When pain seems to be his only avenue, Sara must fight for what she believes but sometimes believing is not enough. Being Me reveals and answers many of the questions and unknowns in Rebecca’s journals as well as the truth behind Rebecca’s disappearance; and uncover some secrets about our heroine she had hoped would remain buried with the past. But there is still one major storyline premise that has yet to be resolved. BEING ME is an amazing and fascinating addition to Lisa Renee’s Inside Out Trilogy.  Lisa combines the mysterious allure of the world of BDSM with the thrill of falling in love with the unknown.  Chris Merit is an alpha hero who has lost his heart to Sara but a heart that is easily broken; Sara is a woman who is determined to uncover the secrets hidden within the journals only to discover that she has stepped into a world of which she knows nothing about.  Being Me will seduce you emotionally and pull you in before you ever have a chance to say no.see all of my reviews at : thereadingcafe(dot)com
    HarlequinJunkie_ More than 1 year ago
    Being Me is book 2 in the Inside Out Trilogy. I read somewhere that the suggested order of things should be: If I Were You, the Inside Out Novellas, and then Being Me. But I can promise you that you do not HAVE to read the novellas. They are really great and they give you Rebecca's story/journey but I wouldn't say they are required reading.  At the start of Being Me, we pick up EXACTLY where we left off in Book 1 with Sara having been plunged into darkness while inside Rebecca's storage unit and Sara's sensing that someone else is in the building with her. Once that is resolved (hell, no, I won't tell you what happens!), we continue on with Sara and her journey. Being Me is similar to Book 1 in that sometimes it feels like its two separate books, smooshed together. On one hand, we get to the bottom of Rebecca's disappearance and Ella (Sara's friend and neighbor) is still missing and it doesn't seem like she's on a simple honeymoon anymore. On the other hand, Chris and Sara's relationship progresses and Sara's deals with the trauma of her past. Yes, we learn the BIG SECRET that Sara has been thinking will cause Chris to hate her (but let me tell you - its a letdown). This secret has had such a huge buildup over Book 1 and into Book 2 that I thought it was going to be monumental, life changing. I mean, if its bad enough that Sara thinks Chris will hate her for it? And that she's felt she had to lie about it? She had to have killed someone, right? But no. Her ex-fiancee was a dick (and that's as much as I'll tell you about it) but we already knew he was a dick! Oh and he shows up at a function where Chris and Sara are and its AWESOME! Sure, Sara is the weak, we know and love but its still fun to see Chris in all of his alpha male glory! I feel like Sara still doesn't know herself in this book. And it felt like she doesn't even realize that she doesn't know herself. Maybe its because her thoughts are pretty much one contradiction after another: I think I love him but do I really? And if I do, does he love me? No, not with my secret. So I shouldn't love him. But I kinda do. But I should just end it because this will only end badly. So I should break it off before we begin... I mean, holy crap, lady! Then, when she and Chris hit a rough patch, she does what all weak, pathetic women do and stops eating, making me like her even less! Don't hate me yet... I get it, I do. When you're upset, your stomach is in knots and you just aren't hungry and/or you forget to eat. I've been there; I totally get it. But a STRONG woman would pull herself out of it because she knows that she needs to take care of herself. What kind of a "heroine" lets herself just waste away? Not any kind of heroine I want to read. But the final nail in the Coffin of Liz's Dislike for Sara was when Chris returns after their falling out. She just caves! She yells at him for how much he hurt her and then BOOM her blouse is undone. Oh. My. Gawd. Puh-lease! I wanted her to stand her ground and say "No, you can't seduce me until we work this out RIGHT NOW" but she doesn't. It's ALL about gettin' that thick man-shaft all up in her lady bits... Since we're on the subject of Chris (a little), let's leave poor Sara alone and talk more about him. I still like him. I like that he's rich (sorry, but I'm NOT rich and I wish I was, so sue me) but I like him even more because he's tortured! I know, I know! That sounds so sick and twisted! But its true! And even though we find out about Sara's secret torment, Chris's still remains elusive. I can't even begin to guess. He's really, REALLY tortured by the memory of something and it seems really bad! So of course, you know me, I'm again thinking that he's had to have murdered someone! But we don't know! Gah! Not even a hint or a sliver or a slice or a taste! Nothing! Its driving me insane!I swear, I'm going to read Book 3 just to find out what the heck it is! LOL! Anyway, even though we don't get Chris's secret, we DO get to know him better. He's so generous with Sara, which is expected from a rich hero but its still sweet. He clearly cares for Sara and he shows it in many ways. Not just in his words, but in his actions as well. Again, I don't want to give away more than I already have so I won't go in to detail about it. We also see a lot more of Chris's dedication to that children's hospital and its so sweet and moving. I dare you not to fall at least a little bit in love with Chris in this book! But Chris's demons threaten his relationship with Sara so at the same time, you sort of want to strangle him for being so dense! Together, Chris and Sara are TNT: totally hot but completely unstable. Its difficult to judge them fairly though because we only see things from Sara's POV. I know that Sara has her doubts about herself and her secret - until its revealed. Then, she has (legitimate) doubts about her relationship with Chris when his first instinct in to run or close himself off when things get too intense/emotional/difficult. I think that's what pissed me off so much about Sara. She can see that he has this secret that defines him and he isn't revealing it (yet). She knows that they don't have a great chance at surviving (as a couple) if he doesn't let in. But instead of standing her ground and telling him this, she decides to have sex with him. Y'know, because sex always SOLVES problems as opposed to making them, or worse burying the issues even deeper. So I guess that's my main problem with Sara and with this book in general. I mean, I love the mystery and the setting of the San Francisco art scene. I love the side characters, especially Mark, Sara's boss. I really dig Chris. The book is scorching hot and full of Sexy Time! There are even aspects of Sara that I like. But overriding all of that good stuff (and returning to my point at the start of this paragraph!) is that all emotional development is set aside for the sake of sex. That's how it felt to me, anyways. And that would be just fine if this was straight erotica. But it isn't. This is erotic romance and I, for one, expect more. I think I can sum it up by using one of the thoughts that Sara had that had me grating my teeth. This is a scene where Sara is about to have hot, angry sex with Chris and she thinks to herself, "My body doesn't care how angry and hurt I am." And that, folks, is where you lose me.
    Roses_Book_Blog More than 1 year ago
    ***If you have not read If I Were You you will need to go back and read it.  Being me is not a stand alone book and in order to understand fully what is going on in the story you will need to go back and read book one and also the journals Vol 1-4 really  help with the story as well.***  Let me start off by saying this I thought that If I Were You was a great book, Being Me was AMAZING!  The story takes you more into  the depth of the lives of the characters in the story.  You watch as Sara begins to make a life for herself and really find who is she.   Unlike with Rebecca and the journal entries in which she seems to lose more of herself as time goes by, Sara seems to be discovering who she is.  I really went back and forth with my feelings towards both Chris and Mark.  With Chris it was like one minute I loved him and the next I hated him but as you learn more about the demons of his past you begin to discover why he is the  way that he is which leaves me wondering if he will ever be able to open himself up completely to Sara or if he will always keep the darker portion of himself hidden from the world.  I loved Mark in this book I felt like I got to see some of his softer side he wasn’t so much of the dominant male he was in the first book.  Don’t get me wrong he’s all alpha male but there were moments when it was like he was a different person, which made me wonder throughout the book if he really had it in him to be “master” as it’s so much implied.  Which leads me back to the who is “master”?  The other question I have is what role does Ava play in all of this.   She seems to be a lot more hostile in this book and left me wondering if she had something to do with Rebecca’s disappearance.   I really loved reading more about Chris and Sara in this book and what this book shows is that sometimes it’s not the demons of your lover’s past that you much work through sometimes it’s the demons from your own past that will push your relationship to it’s ultimate breaking point, it’s not just what secrets Chris has but also what Sara is hiding as well.  Believe me when you read it you’ll know what I am talking about I sat in front of my computer for a good five minutes with my mouth hanging open unable to believe  what had happened.  Within the span of five chapters you will find yourself shaking your head in amazement.  Am I going to spoil it for  you?  NOPE!  You have to read this story it’s full of twist and turns, lots of suspense, and plenty of HOTT sex! A great read that will keep  you reading right straight through to the end and leave you wanting oh so much more!!!  The wait for Revealing Us and the 5th journal will be soooo LONG I’m going to spend a long time relating future books I read to this book!
    Anonymous 7 days ago
    At moth flight res 2-4. Part three coming soon
    Anonymous 5 months ago
    While still very good, "Being Me" felt like a very extended novella because not a lot happened. It dragged out and I left the book several times. The plot thickens around the Rebecca storyline putting Sara in peril, yet they never get the police involved. We do get some answers at the very end, so hang in there because the ending was excellent. The rest of the book was Sara and Chris going back and forth. He has secrets and demons, but he doesn't trust her enough to share them with her. I won't lie, Chris lost some of his appeal this book. Sara's boss Mark becomes a more significant character and if I'm having to choose teams, I'm on Team Mark (for now). I hope "Revealing Us" picks up the pace because this has the potential to be an excellent series.
    Anonymous 6 months ago
    I honestly dont know what to do to make you happy. And i dont know how to make someone feel better about themselves. But you arenever alone. No matter how much you feel like you are.
    feather_lashes More than 1 year ago
    Being Me is the second installment in Lisa Renee Jones's adult romance series titled Inside Out. Being Me picks up exactly where the first book: If I Were You left off. As a reader reading the novels back-to-back, I appreciated this. It can be so annoying to read a ton of backstory that you literally just read yesterday! In Being Me, readers see the main character, Sara's life continue to be a reflection of the deeply personal journals she keeps close to her. The mystery element is engaging and the romance is tastefully erotic with a subtle BDSM element. I enjoyed getting to know Sara's love interest: Chris a bit more in this book (swoon!), and the mystery surrounding Rebecca, and now Sara's friend: Ella, grows increasingly complex, encouraging the reader to view most every character as the suspicious party. My only complaint, although mild, is Sara's internalization, insecurities, and tendency to jump to conclusions seem to be causing unnecessary drama that I started to find somewhat annoying after a while. But overall, I am very much enjoying Ms. Jones' storytelling. If you like mysteries and romances with a darker feel, check out this series! My favorite quote: “How many of us allow others to define us and thus we become what they want us to be, not what we should be or could be?”
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I love this series! I couldn't wait to read the next book!
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    Flowergirlzmom1SW More than 1 year ago
    'I received a complimentary copy of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review' Sara delves deeper into the world that Rebecca had lived in. She gets more worried about Rebecca every day. Something happened to her. She knows this. She needs to figure out what. Her and Chris are in a rollercoaster relationship. She has fallen for him very quickly. But they are both holding back. He helps her learn things about herself. Chris feels like Sara should walk away. He doesn't want to hurt her. But he knows that he can't let her go. Mark wants Sara under his control. He does his best to try and convince her that Chris is not right for her. But Sara just may have delved too deep into Rebecca's world. She's looking for answers that she may not want to know. Another great book to add to this series. There is danger, intrigue, Steamy love scenes. A great story with amazing character development. I am even more drawn to this story then I already was. I can't wait to read more! I highly recommend reading but you do need to start from the beginning of the series. 'Read and Reviewed by LSK Sweetheart Reviews'