Breakdown: A Collection of Poetry

by Kristen Kersey

Overview

Every one has a way of expressing themselves; everyone has a way of letting out their emotions. For some it make be singing, dancing, working, talking, crying, running, drawing, ect., but for me I write. Ive loved writing ever since I can remember, but it wasnt until recently I picked up poetry. Th is is a book of a collection of poems that I wrote. I wrote them to explain something to someone, let out my feelings, pass the time, and just because I love to write. Every single poem in this book, expresses a though or emotion. Weather it be a shallow or deep, it can be expressed, and that is what I tried to accomplish. Most of these poems are similes, and they arent to be taken literal. If you like to read deeply expressed emotions, then this book is for you.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781456711375
Publisher:	AuthorHouse
Publication date:	03/22/2011
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	92
File size:	677 KB

About the Author

I was born in North Carolina; then later moved to Georgia. When I was very young, my grandfather started me out in the computer. By the age of 2, I was running the computer totally on my own. I have always had an interest in writing. I wrote my first short story in the 6th grade, roughly 4 years ago. I very first got in to poetry, thanks to Hannah, about 2 years ago. I began to write at lest two poems a day because I can release my thoughts and emotions with words on a paper. This really help me vent my feelings. I currently live in Madison, Georgia, and attend Morgan County High School. Where I live with my grandparents, and where I have many close friends. Also I love the color purple.

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Breakdown

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By Kristen Kersey

AuthorHouse

Copyright © 2011 Kristen Kersey
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4567-1139-9

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Chapter One

Don't Judge

I'm not to hasty because my
Thoughts aren't that tasty

For they leave me cold and alone
To wither

And yet some how this is
Oh, so bitter

Thus I daresn't judge for those
Amongst me are quite the same

Trying to put out their own
Bitter Flame

With out hints of shame
In the way of

Today


Life

Let go of your yesterdays
And
Worry about the problems of tomorrow
But
Why worry about the problems of tomorrow
When
You can dance
So
Why dance
When
You can sing
For
Life is full enough to live
Out
A long lost dream
But
Don't forget about your yesterdays
For
They can haunt you
In
our sleep
Then
You might have to be buried
6 feet deep
Because
The past is a horridness thing
That
Will seep from past
Into
A down fall of the future


More

As Life passed by, I always think of why, but as I see your face it all
becomes clear.
My reason of life is for you my dear, not a sound by your movement tells
me where you are, but in your heart.
I feel, hear, and see it beat, beat with tremendous love for me.
Love so uncontrollable it's a rush of adrenalin.
And then a down fall of hate from our very first date.

I love you, and you love me, but I'm not sure we should be.
I can't handle the downs of our fall.
By the end of the ride I can barley walk at all, but why would I want to.
If I am where you want to be, where I am loved and kissed by people on
their knees.
Why must I have more?
Maybe it's the lesser half I have and I'm in search of more, the better half
I could have.

More love.
More happiness.
More life.

Until then I lay here thinking of things,
while staring in to the blade of a knife.


My Dear

Please tell me what's true,
When I believe in you

What can I do?
When I'm apart from you

When I see you everything I know becomes clear,
For you are my precious dear

To find what matters the most
You'll have to look close

Close in your heart
Passed all the dark

The deeper you look
The more you'll find

Just promise me
you won't cross the line


People You Love

Where are the people that you love,
When you need them the most?

Are they too dealing with regretful ghosts?
That burry then 10 feet deep to watch them seep

Down

Down

Down

To the bottom of nothing
Event though they aren't quite dead

Just remember not only you
Are dealing with horrible

Thoughts of
Dread


Something More

There must be something more
Something more,
That I'm not looking for
Maybe something more than
This closing door
I'm sure there's something more
Something more than
What meets the eye


Time

Dreams are just like memories fading in the wind.
Another day forgotten before a new day can begin.

Days equals months, months equals years.

Years were to last a life time but now,
forgotten in a single second of an hour.

The breeze comes and goes with the flow of a stream,
Taking dreams away and hiding forgotten memories of the past deeper
into the dark.

Erasing everything in its path until yesterday seems like decades ago,
When it was merely a day away


Path Ways

This is a point in my life
Where anything and everything can
Change
Anyone of the four decisions can change me
Forever
Which path to follow?

Path One ~

Turn and free fall a million feet to my death
But I couldn't do that
Why not?
No one would cry
No one would miss me
No one would remember
No one would come look for me
Before taking my life of shame
I must see other paths of blame

Path Two ~

I could be with you
Forever until the end
But I really don't want
This to begin
Too much drama follows you around
And it leaves me looking
To the ground

Path Three ~

The path of continuation
Just go with the flow
Despite my personal insight
That cuts deep
Enough to make me weep
But just push it back
No matter how harsh the
Attack

Path Four ~

That will lead me to the door
Just to leave and not do a thing
No matter what comes my way
To run from day to day
Taking life's hard hit from
Day to day
Despite the pain


People

What's a lover with out love?

What's a writer with out words?

What's a teacher with out students?

What's a driver with out a car?

People
That's what they are, just plain Jane
People
Nothing more and nothing less
Take a person and shed them of their
Friends, Family, Surrounding, Clothes, Faces, Fronts, and Skin
What do you see?
Look past all the sin because that's always within
What do you see?
What don't you see?
Are you looking?
Are you ready for the truth?
Cause there it is ... Nothing hiding it from you

A fool would poke around and get inside of the person
Analyzing each and every single piece
Judging as they go
A wise man would glace in yet another direction and
Simply walk away
For they have accepted the person as they are and will be
Yet, who's to do the same?
Who's to help the lame?
Who's to provide ...

Love,

Words,

Students,

Cars?

For the building shame in everyone's heart
The real question is ...

Who is to lead them in the dark?


I Want To Go Home

Thy wants to return to thy dwelling, but
Thy is at thy dwelling.

I want to return home, but
I am home.

Thy is confused. Why does thy feel in a foreign place,
Rather in thy dwelling?

I am confused. Why do I feel like I'm in a foreign place?
When I am at home?

Thy fortune will carry out to thy destination

My future will lead me to my home I long for.


Seize the Day

Today he is fine with out a single trouble
But as times flies
And age grows, no one has the promise
Of tomorrow, so off he goes
A new adventure is
A start of a new day!


Happy

I am so happy right now
Even though no one on planet Earth cares

I think I am going to scream a happy sound
For all to hear around
In this small unhappy town

If I could just scream
Wow!
I think I could find my way
With out place to stay
And
Alone every single day
Yet I still need some time to play

My happiness was extreme
Like a natural high
Picking me off the sky
Maybe if I try to fly

I won't die

But it is gone

Just like me

Not to return

But to be
Gone until dawn


A Letter

Remember when we used to be in love?
Yeah, those were the good times.

I thought it could last forever,
And end never.
All things end as they do begin.
Also I will admit this letter has been planned out
And
Written ahead a time because
I, I've been thinking of things to say to make it seem okay.
The truth is, is that it isn't okay, and won't be.
This letter isn't to fight with you;
I've done enough of that,
And
I don't see sensible reason to continue
This never ending fight of,
Who did what,

Who hurts more,

Whose fault it was,

Who left who.

In the end it isn't worth it,
You're not worth it.

And I've talked to many people of what to do,
With us

Where should it go?

What should I do?
What happened to what I used to do?
What I used to know.

I will admit,

I miss you,

I miss talking to you on the phone,

I miss the comfort of knowing

I wasn't alone,
I miss all of those things we had that I've never had with anyone else.

It has gotten to the point
Where I wonder if you even read everything I send you,
And if you think it through

I take the time to write it; it's the least you can do.

The whole point of this is to say good bye.
And I love you,

And you say you love me,
But what kind of love is it when you don't text but once
In three days
When you know
"The Best Thing You've Ever Had"
Is leaving?

I don't know what it sounds like to you
But to me it sounds terribly wrong.

That isn't the matter of the subject here,
Now is it?
Nope,
The only question is why?
I mean you wanted to give them a chance,
And that you didn't want to hurt them,
But that meant sending me to hell.

Did that matter?
Why?
I think to myself every day,
And the never ending question is why?

What made you?
Did you want to move on?
I just want a reasonable answer,
And sorry for bothering your life; it seems to be going just fine with out
a word from me.

I mean why even bother, but I just want to know why, then to say good
bye.
All I ask of you is an expectably reasonable answer to why.


Rainy Day

The rain drops though a broken window.
Breaking all the rules and being untamed.

First Drop,
One tear travels down my face.

Second Drop,
Clears the fuzziness in the memory that cuts deep into my heart

Third Drop,
Completes the flood of tears on my pillow

Fourth Drop,
Brings a small amount of hope that tomorrow might bring

Fifth Drop,
The end of all tears because there are no more to be shed.

I turn my pillow over and get rest because
Tomorrow is going to be another rainy day.


Silent Depression

I hold my head high,
For no one's to know I've died.

Inside it's dark, cold and lonely,
While I walk slowly

Thinking to myself how can this be
What's to be come of me?

When people pass, I smile
As if nothing has happened,

The world still turns
And the sky hasn't fell
I've only gone to hell

But no one knows I've died,
Because I hide from the darkness inside


You Are the One to Blame

You are the reason for,

Every tear I cry,

Every break in my heart,

Every time I'm angry,

Every time I'm sad,

Every emotion I have,

And it's all revolved around you,
I mean what can I do?


Dead

There is a whole in my heart
It is DEEP and DARK
It tears me apart.

The depth grows in size
Making me despite all of your LIES

The darkness is pitch BLACK
Carrying me back
To the MEMORIES that
Stick to me like plaque.

I FIGHT day after day
Trying to find a way
To say what will keep you AWAY.

It would take a simple GUN to the head
Then I'd be DEAD
Never to be wed
Not even a TEAR shed
For my lonely, lonely empty head
DEAD, not a single person FLED.

DEAD comes with tremendous amounts of
Dread that fills my
Head to the
Brim with SIN.

Sin, like a long LOST kin
Hiding me under its fin
A fin of a serpent pulling me in
And STABBING me with a pin

So I RAN
Ran to an open hand
Not knowing the plan

For you can be like sand
Pulling my hand DEEP DOWN to DARK lead

Killing me until I am completely
Dead


Rock Bottom

My hands are shaky
My feet are unsteady
My head is dizzy
I'm striving to walk straight

My face feels hot
My eyes are on fire
My breathing is shallow and fast
I can't calm my racing heart

Then

The

Bottom

Falls

OUT

And the tears come
Fast, cold and heavy

I have no where to go
I have no where to hide
My temperature is on the rise
And
I have completely died inside
I'd rather be six feet under to escape the
PAIN

I've fell to the bottom
A bottom so low

I'm shaking so horribly, I can't stop
I'm so unsteady, instead of trying to stand up, I lay on the floor
I'm so dizzy the world won't stop spinning
My attempts to walk have failed each time I try
I'm feeling my face deepen in to a darker shade of red
I'm patting my eyes in hope of soothing the burning pain
I'm striving for calm, slow, deep breathing
My heart has completely stopped.

Is this what it's like to be dead?

Alone

Cold

Dark

Dark

Darkness

Over whelming darkness
Fills my life to the brim
More now than ever

Lower than low is currently my status quo

I've hit rock bottom
And there I'll stay

Until another day


Far, Far, Far Away

This is driving me insane

I'd rather crash into a plane than to
Go day to day

With out word
With out glance
With out meaning
With out you

I'd rather lay here under the stars
Instead of a million bars
Just to see you crash in to a car

Far, far, far away
Like a distant day
Far, far, far away
With no play

Far, far away space
Will kill me before the day of yesterday or
Perhaps tomorrow
Washes in to my life

For the fabrication of my very existence is made up of
Death
Far, far, far away death
Peaceful death

To take me away
So flying is possible in my time of today
To fly

With out you
With out meaning
With out glance
With out word

I hope this to be true
To make my quite escape from
You


Kristen Kersey

A Story to Tell
Time to tell this story very well for it is truly is a long story to tell
I miss how we used to be
And you will see when all else fails
I will uncover my veil

I have always been here and
Here I will stay
For I'm terrified to move away
In hopes of your return

If you ever return
I hope you'll stay
But at my dismay
Nothing goes as planed
Because of the reality at hand

Yes,
I hope for thing to be different
Yes,
I do love you

But
Not one know for it's because of my enemies and foes wind together
with robes


Bye, Bye Love

Roses are Red and
I am feeling very blue

Because I haven't seen you

I am moving on because
Our love is gone


I Am Lost

Maybe two is better than one,

But be careful of what you will become,

For loves toll on a heart,

Might just break me apart,

My word is true,

For I've felt very blue,

I've been blue because of you,

Now to be honest I don't know what to do.


Something Is Missing

I don't know what it is
But something is up
It's just not the same

I don't know why

I don't know who

I don't know how

I don't know what

And how am I supposed to know where?
When your not there

I don't understand
Why aren't you there holding my hand?

Where have you been?
Since God knows when?

All I know is
Your not here
You're somewhere I'm not
With out me you are
With out you I am

Lost in the time of sand


Everything

You are my everything
Your eyes are what hold mine to you
Your smile is what takes my breath away
Your thoughtfulness is what steals heart
Everything about you makes me
Love you more and more
Every single day!


Don't You Know

What in the world is your problem?
Why can't you see?
Why don't you see?
When I make it in plain sight?
If I didn't love you,
I would give up but,
I do love you so,
I can't move on.
I just hope and pray
That we can be
Together
Forever
One day.


A Gift

A soft hand's caress
Upon your magical dress
A soft hand's caress
Upon your gentle face
A soft hand's touch
Upon hair of gold
A princess,
You must ask,
Not indeed, but a commoner
About to share a special gift
A gift of love
A gift of happiness
A gift of a simple
Slight kiss
A gift is a gift
Just as
People are people
But joined together can make something
To remember
For a decades life time


A Simple Thought

As summer fades and fall blossoms,
I picture what it would be like with you.

My face would be filled with joy.
My heart with be filled with love.

My eyes would gleam.
My breath would stop every time I saw your face.

Oh! What is happing to me?

Why must I think these regrettable things?
When I know it will never be this way because
The one I love the most won't see,
And he won't even think twice about me.


Days of Our Love

Day one
Love at first sight takes over
Day two
I want to be with you
Day three
We are meant to be
Day four
You keep shutting the door
Day five
I am losing my mind.
Day six
This cant be fixed
Day seven
This is the end of the line,


Can You Stay

Oh Thy love for ye is great
Ye has come and
Ye has go
Thy shall not be fooled
Shall ye say or
Shall ye go?


Lovers

You love me oh so much
And
I love to feel my lovers touch

Weather we are together
Or far apart

No matter what you're always in my heart
Not a day goes by
Where I don't miss staring in to your amazing eyes

I can feel you miss me too
If only we knew what to do

We've had our
Ups and downs,
Our
Wrongs and wrights,
Our
Lefts and rights,
And
Our fights
That are followed by delights

We are close together
In fact it's as if we are one in the same
Our love is the one to blame


Together

Here you are and
Here I am
Together holding hands

I love you and you love me
Together for entirety

He is mine and I his
Together we belong

You and me here tonight
Together forever

Our love is great
Forever without escape

Wound together with something stronger than tape
That makes our love's shape

You are there for me as I for you
Together we are

I know for a fact this
Must be right
As we are together till the end of time

(Continues...)

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