Broken Silence

by Douglas Moore Jr

Overview

Doug's third book of poetry Broken Silence is his trilogy of poetry, in which he returns to his roots of what inspired him to write. This collection of poems focuses on romance, heartbreak, family, motivation and dealing with the struggles that a person may encounter in life. The poems convey his feelings about how important loved ones are with the dedication poem to his mother, First Lady. The poem In Memory of You, was written for his Grandmother he lost to cancer.

Doug discusses the joys of love and finding that connection with a person in his heartfelt poems Notice You and Falling For You. He also addresses the pain of losing a relationship in his poems I Remember When and Off The Market, where sometimes putting your heart on the line does not guarantee, a person will end up with the result that was being sought out. In addition, his poem U.G.L.Y. inspires people that no matter what the opinion others may have of a person, there is strength to overcome any insecurity to find the path of secure inner happiness. The poem In My World addresses the struggles and pains that he views others dealing with in terms of unemployment and how it is affecting the world.

Doug's purpose in writing this book is to share his thoughts in a poetic form so others can see that no one is ever alone in feeling like the only outcast in the world. We are all unique in our own special way, and live every day as you are painting the world with your vision for everyone to see. Broken Silence will stimulate a person's mind and show that most valuable things in life primarily come from within and understanding others.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781468581300
Publisher:	AuthorHouse
Publication date:	06/07/2012
Pages:	120
Product dimensions:	6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.28(d)

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Broken Silence

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By Douglas Moore Jr

AuthorHouse

Copyright © 2012 Douglas Moore Jr.
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4685-8130-0

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Chapter One

    Mom Poem (First Lady)

    You always taught me to speak from the heart
    And when it comes to family you play the biggest part
    It was not hard for me to think
    And ink my feelings for you my mother
    You are better than any other
    You brought me into the world
    Gave me the gift of life
    That is the present I'm still opening today
    That always leaves me with a surprise

    I remember the day when I was four years old
    You taught me how to tie my shoe laces
    Into double bows
    Reminded me to always know
    The world is my oyster
    To embrace, never shy away or avoid it

    It would be wonderful
    If all moms were cloned
    After you
    I need to take a lifetime loan
    To pay you back for always being there
    To care, never a day I felt alone
    No matter what I was going through
    The support system you provided
    Full of constant love
    Never malfunctioned

    I love you more than words could possibly say
    You kept it hood
    By having us grow up in a good neighborhood
    You worked night and day to ensure
    My brother and I had food on the table
    Clothes on our backs
    And a warm place to rest our heads

    To call home
    And even when you were tired
    From a long day in the office
    You still displayed the pride in your eyes
    With anything we did in our lives
    You always helped us with our homework assignments
    So we understood the signs to live a good life
    Instilled the will in me to never let my dreams die

    Don't mean to get sentimental
    But everything that you've done for us
    Has been incredible special
    So thankful and grateful
    You're one of the very few
    That always supports all that I do


    Everything I Ever Wanted

    I never had to fend for myself
    God my greatest friend was always there to help
    Born on the edge of the seat
    The fear of defeat never rattled me
    Used to wear my emotions on my sleeve
    Until I designed another style
    So no one could take away my smile
    Subscribed to paying my dues
    Till I ran out of dimes to put in the meter
    I stay heated because I got the fever to succeed
    Rich without having a dollar to my name
    My family keeps me sane
    Umbrellas me when the world showers me with blame
    A lot of people want to take the short route to fame
    Catch me riding the lanes untraveled
    One thing I never do is unravel
    I battle with motivation as my weapon
    My actions provide me with satisfaction
    To show my critics I'm equipped to never quit
    Give until I got nothing left
    So many in the audience are blatantly flagrant without playing
    the game
    Talking behind my back
    While I'm moving forward
    Toward spread heading my own revolution
    The solution to making it is not being afraid to create it
    Moved into a different state of mind with no detours
    Mentally unpacked my baggage, don't need it anymore
    Walked past it, with no regrets
    Even when I'm not clicking on all cylinders
    I find a way to filter the negatives from the positives
    I always pictured myself owning the moment
    Even with adversity still having a lease on me
    I took my pre-existing dreams as my hunger turned them into
    a feast of reality
    I learned that conceit could lead to your own defeat
    While being humble could be your greatest deed
    Still got my sights on going from oddity to a known commodity
    So the world would view me as super and the market would
    want to have stock in me


    I Remember When

    I remember when
    Love used to matter
    Till heartbreaker shattered
    My laughter
    Once adored
    Still unspoken for
    Sometimes I wonder if
    Love is what I truly long for
    After what happened before
    I'll say no more

    I remember when
    It was a whirlwind romance
    Until it left me abandoned and stranded
    So stressed, winded and spent
    From giving all I had to give
    All remaining in my hearts pockets was lint

    I remember when
    I once called your heart home
    That what we had was cemented in stone
    Seemed like I voiced all my issues with you
    Through a megaphone
    To only feel more alone
    Dial-tone
    Heard through my phone
    Because even when we spoke frequently
    On the inside
    It still felt like
    The silent treatment
    Cuz our souls were so quiet
    And the love that I thought could expand
    To something more grand
    Disbanded like a torn rubber band

    Can't understand
    Or get my hands around this
    Situation we're in
    My eyes reddened
    From raining and weathering puddles
    From lost love
    It's the last thing I wanna think of

    I remember when
    I thought we could
    Hesitate on the separation
    Segregate our differences
    To make an amends
    So our love would not end
    But to my dismay
    That was far from happening that day
    Reconciliation just a fragment
    Of my imagination

    I reflected today
    And recollected
    How immensely I'm affected
    That love always seems to do a number on me
    I feel so divided on love period
    As the pain multiplied every lonely night

    And now I'm a fraction of myself
    So tired of being the denominator
    In terms of always being hurt
    That my heart turns
    In its resignation
    So it can be free
    Of it being so poor
    It can't take no more

    To the point
    Love finally pushed me
    To press the pause button
    On my heart
    In the case the sound of love displays its claws
    I'll never get played

    I Remember When


    Economy Of Reality

    Another day of waking up in the middle of the night
    From a vision of seeing pink slips being distributed left
    and right
    In the workplace where
    Loyalty and sincerity is a rarity
    And if you ask me
    It's affecting my daily way of living
    Screaming words of profanity
    Detailing what it's doing to me
    In my dark bedroom
    I'm constantly losing my cool
    Waking up in cold sweats
    With headaches
    And sometimes there's no room
    To hold any food in my empty belly
    Wondering if others in my shoes
    Are wearing the same blues in their heads
    Morning breath reeking of stress
    Drowning in debt
    I wish I was disliked because
    Credit Card companies are showing me too much interest
    Ignorance would be bliss
    Still waiting to cross that bridge
    I hate this predicament
    Not knowing what to do next
    Working from paycheck to paycheck
    The rent is due
    So stressed over the upcoming performance review
    What I'm earning is not enough
    We're about to have our compensation discussion
    I need more than change in my compensation statement
    Stomach upset I guess it's in agreement
    Of how much I hate this treatment
    I wonder if my job is tired of keeping me company
    All I know is that misery seems to accompany me
    Should I leave or trust they will do right by me
    But I need these funds
    Even if the environment is not fun
    I was hired so this work needs to be done
    My options are few to none
    I've seen a lot of good people come and go
    The world is cut throat
    But people still got no business
    Attempting to end their existence
    No matter what life is still golden
    I wonder what my future holds
    Selling out will leave me broke on hope
    Trying to scope a particle of positivity through a microscope
    But all I could afford to be is real
    People chasing record and model deals
    I'm just focusing on being a good role model
    Others poppin bottles in the club and all types of pills
    While I'm working this nine to five to pay my bills
    I gotta decide what time of day I can have my one meal
    Debit card denied
    All I was trying to do was buy a burger and some fries
    Praying for the strength to somehow get by
    Stand my ground during this ordeal
    Without the use of crutches to survive in the clutch
    I'll just continue dealing with my reality check for now


    U.G.L.Y. (U Gotta Love Yourself)

    Everybody used to call me ugly
    And mentally it got to me
    You see
    I got too much pride to weep
    But at the same time
    I'm feeling defeated
    Self-esteem diminishing
    By the minute
    Can't deal with it
    Outta of my comfort zone
    Never felt anymore alone
    Muting my inner screams
    It pains me to hear them
    I'd take a look in the mirror
    And it couldn't have been any clearer
    I hated what I'd always see
    Whether the angle was obtuse or acute
    The visual of the reflection was far from cute
    As it's burning a hole in my soul
    More than you'll ever know
    I used to care that I was overlooked
    Until I realized I focused on wanting
    The wrong people to look
    So I'm checking out
    Of living with my own resentment
    Learned to big myself up on self-love
    Defaced all their hate I was faced with mental mace
    They can designate their ill will out of my place
    And move it to their inner face
    Because when it comes to this feeling of ugly there will
    be no sequel
    I see envy is the root of all evil
    And I don't want to be around those kinds of people
    Hate plants the seeds of insecurity
    But I supplanted their means of inferiority
    By uncovering their mediocrity
    So maybe I'm not ugly
    But it's the ones who are constantly
    Offending me with degrading obscenities
    Belittling my character
    Trying to assassinate my confidence
    Has only awaken a de ant sleeping giant


    Notice You

    At one time in my life I thought I was a bad catch
    When it came to love I always missed
    Dismissed
    Had a lot of the wrong women
    Come through my door
    But I think that this one is different
    Could be the next Mrs.
    Never met anyone like her before

    Cupid had me targeted
    Trooping it hard during the march
    To bring to me this new lady
    Who flowers beauty
    Her aura is a scene of serenity

    That gave me a change of heart
    And from the start
    The fire she ignited inside of my desires
    Held me hostage
    Put her stamp on me
    By delivering something so unique
    That I never want to leave

    You see
    She brings out the best in me
    When the world views me as the worst
    She brings me back down to earth
    When I'm at an all-time low
    To feel like I finished first

    Presently
    I'm so wrapped up into her
    Living in this moment as it occurs
    This woman is so gifted, continues to keep me uplifted
    By finding something in my soul that I thought stopped livin

    She's my honorable mention
    In every discussion
    Always got me blushing

    So driven and independent
    I got the intentions
    To strip her of any insecurities
    And give her
    love and security

    You couldn't measure with a ruler
    How I feel about her
    The lovely dimensions of what she represents
    Extends until the end of time
    Her love is my life line

    She's got so much depth
    She brings my pain to death
    That she's takes away my breath
    She's ahead of her class
    Got a hour glass figure
    But most importantly her inner beauty is timeless

    She's amazing in sweats and a t-shirt with no make-up
    So beautifully made-up
    A lot of people can't keep their eyes off her
    I can't keep my mind off of her

    I believe this woman is cut from a different cloth
    Something I dig that's deep
    And it's a secret
    that even an out t from Victoria's
    Couldn't make clear to see

    There's so much harmony
    between her and me
    We make beautiful music together
    I think of how in sync we are on the regular
    However if we ever got out of tune
    I'd replay the moment of the day
    She had me sing her praises

    Her smile kissed my soul
    Without even touching my lips
    Which sealed it
    Never thought anyone could steal
    My heart of steel
    And give me feelings that are so real


    Alone

    Everybody telling me to wake up and smell the coffee
    I ain't thirsty
    I just hate what love today is offering
    It's decayed
    Like a bad cavity I wish I did not have
    Love is watered down
    I frown upon it
    It let me down
    Lacks fluid
    Had enough of it being misused
    It would be nice if there was some meaning
    Sprinkled on it
    Let's think
    We need to have more substance
    So it won't break up
    And go down the drain
    As I'm so disappointed
    After I anointed it queen
    You see
    It did not live up
    To its crown
    I'm bored with it
    Everyone trying to play their mate for a clown
    Love ain't a board game to be played or dictated
    What ever happened to trust
    You should never have to check your mate
    That's why I remain
    Single for another day
    Felt like what I lost
    Could never be found
    I sit here wondering how
    Things turned out like this now
    Placing my heart on the back burner
    For everyone to observe
    Trying to curb all the hurt
    Leaves me on the dead end street of misery
    With silent emotional outbursts
    While I take a turn for the worse
    And even though the pain is burning inside of me
    Deep down I'm still yearning to find the one
    Who's real and right for me
    But the weight on my heart
    Is starting to be too heavy for me to bare
    Removing myself from all feelings to care
    In the back of my head
    I'm soaked with emotion
    Knowing this notion
    Needs to be dead
    Put to rest
    But I see my demons creeping up on me
    As I'm freezing in the warmest weather
    Following me, extinguishing all my positivity
    Speaking to me
    Just saying love ain't meant to be
    That history will only repeat itself
    And next time they won't be around to help
    Myself
    So I scale back on my way of thinking
    Believing hope is just scheming
    To sell me a dream
    That will never be my reality


    I Don't Know

    Sometimes I just wish heartbreak would just give me a break
    Sometimes I wish I could just stop embracing
    Standing & being drenched with false hope in the thundering
    rain
    So I could escape and love the brighter days
    Restrain myself from
    Looking for love in the wrong places
    But I'm just following the directions my affections lead me to
    Which is disarray
    I just wish I could fade away
    To a secluded place
    So I don't have to deal with these stressful strains of
    heartbreak

    See I don't know
    If I can ever love again without restrictions
    It's kinda hard to determine what's true and what's fiction
    If the next one will be a pretender or contender
    My lifetime companion and friend
    Will there be hidden agendas
    I'm asking out loud
    Is there a ready made template to figure this out

    If fate is listening to the aching pain in my voice
    Nowadays I wish love would stop trying to solicit me
    I'm not giving in, till I can tell she's authentic with genuine
    feelings
    I know this is all a gamble
    As you hear me ramble
    About how I don't know if it's worth the hurt
    Of having my heart broken down in shambles
    Tormented, Conflicted and Numb to this love thing for so long
    I'm not so con dent it's somewhere I truly belong
    In the long run

    Seems like love always has my heart tied up in loops and
    losing
    You see my heart is worn thin of feeling used and abused
    I need my pain unlaced from the knots
    Praying for a saving grace to rescue me from these days
    I wish I could buy a clue so this love thing would not string
    me along
    Carrying on, I guess I'm seeking a love that could give me
    What I'm truly asking for and stand its course
    But I don't know if that will ever walk through the door


    My Only Love

    Lyrically, I'm on a rampage
    inking permanent damage on every page
    It's not even about revenge of a nerd
    I'm a voice once never heard
    I'm back with a vengeance
    Without throwing a fist.
    As I'm thinking with my pen
    Most artists rhyme for the streets
    I write for Human Beings
    And I don't have to rehearse on how to be diverse
    You see I love poetry as lot of my peers
    Jumped ship to relate to my verses
    Monogamous
    I'm infamous for being loyal to God's message
    So blessed
    I can clearly hear it with all ears
    Folks thought I was kidding
    But my flow is legitimate
    The deaf turns up the volume to hear me clearly
    The illiterate can connect
    By reading between the lines I write
    That's respect
    And mentally I paint the picture
    Of what I want to appear
    The dyslexic never forget
    As their minds are flooded with
    The vision I projected

    Even when I'm broke, I'm still paying homage
    To the originators and forgotten
    If you call me the best, I'll pick up
    And say I have not proven anything yet
    I embody sharing the thoughts
    That gets buried in your soul
    I speak from the rib

    From the beginning to the end
    My mood is win
    It consumes me, never lose, I buy in
    With my last two quarters
    I got a get rich or die tryin attitude

    Let's be realistic
    My lyrics are far from simplistic
    No one's on par
    You know I go hard with my rhymes
    You'll see I'm right
    I'm committing a crime of murdering foes everytime I write
    No holds barred with my bars
    They do serious harm
    Battle me, you'll end up permanently scarred
    Just measure the width, length and circumference
    Of the meaning of my sentences
    And I'll leave your membrane imprisoned
    For years at a time
    As you learn, never fail, bail denied

    They ask if I have street cred
    I say no, but I ain't dead
    I'm a book that's primarily unread
    You never hear me boast about what
    I have or own
    But I possess thoughts that come from the heart
    Won the inner war within myself with very few mental scars
    I'm an unlit star that yearns to travel far
    I encompass my future direction
    My mental compass to surpass the expectations set before
    me

    The allure of the finer things you can purchase in a store
    Do nothing for me
    As I'm searching for a little bit more
    My use of metaphors

    Are allowing me
    To walk through doors
    Never opened to me before
    I'm winning, no split decision
    Rhyme with rhythm and precision
    I cut incisions through obstacles
    I'm holding all my doubters accountable
    With every word that comes out my mouth
    Now I can put the microphone down


    Uncrowned Jewel

    I sat by the lovely blue ocean
    In my grey suit and black shoes
    My hands on my knees
    Staring straight ahead into the skies
    As the waves took me to a place with
    Thoughts of you in mind
    You're like the shining light
    That rescued my heart from the dark
    Making it beat so brightly
    Feeling richer than a golden prize

    You're the breath of fresh air
    That makes me care
    Ambitions amount to sharing
    Everything
    Physically you caught my eye from the beginning
    But mentality you took my mind to an ecstasy
    Earth shattering feeling
    And I'm ready to give you my all
    Falling and rising even stronger together
    Marching through the halls of windy storms
    Hand in hand with a love
    That shelters and keeps us warm

    I know that you are distances away from me
    On an entirely different coast
    But I'm feeling bold
    Craving to unbottle my emotions
    Pour my heart and soul into
    Catering to making you happy
    Listening to your wishes
    Beyond content is my mission
    As I can not resist the temptation
    To let you know
    How your smile
    Drives me wild

    And even with us so many miles away
    You're my uncrowned queen
    That I relish the opportunity
    For my wish to become reality
    Of desiring to learn your dreams and goals
    How I can play a role
    In giving you what you want your future to hold

(Continues...)

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Table of Contents

Contents

1. Mom Poem (First Lady)....................1
2. Everything I Ever Wanted....................3
3. I Remember When....................5
4. Economy Of Reality....................8
5. UGLY (U Gotta Love Yourself)....................10
6. Notice You....................12
7. Alone....................15
8. I Don't Know....................17
9. My Only Love....................19
10. Uncrowned Jewel....................22
11. I Stood Tall....................24
12. I Don't Want You....................27
13. Falling For You....................29
14. Not Your Type....................31
15. Number One Single....................33
16. Definition Of A Zeta Woman From A Sigma Man....................35
17. In My World....................37
18. Outcast....................40
19. I Never Had You....................42
20. Off The Market....................44
21. Penny For My Thoughts....................47
22. Crush On You....................49
23. The Best That Never Got To Be....................51
24. Glass Ceiling....................53
25. Valentine's Day Love....................55
26. Lately....................57
27. I Miss The Days....................58
28. I'm Over It....................60
29. Clearance Rack....................62
30. My Kind Of Woman....................65
31. Ex Factor....................67
32. Broken Silence....................70
33. Man Up....................71
34. Friend Zone....................73
35. In Memory Of You (I Miss You Grandma)....................75
BONUS POEMS....................77
36. Thoughts of Her – Part 1....................78
37. Thoughts Of Her – Part 2....................80
38. Cheat On Us....................82
39. Motivated....................84
40. Untitled Freestyle 1....................86
41. Untitled Freestyle 2....................88
42. Better Day For Me....................90
43. Endangered Species....................92
44. By Popular Demand....................94
45. Escape....................95
46. Flashback....................96
47. Second Chance....................98
48. Everybody....................100
49. Saturday Night....................101
50. What's Left Of Me....................102