Buried Dreams: Inside the Mind of a Serial Killerby Tim Cahill, Russ Ewing
Drawing on exclusive interviews and previously unreported material, journalist Tim Cahill “offers the stuff of wrenching nightmares” (Wall Street Journal), a harrowing journey inside the mind of a serial killer. Meticulously researched and graphically recounted, Buried Dreams brings to vivid life the real John Wayne Gacy – his complex personality, compulsions, inadequacies and torments – often in the killer’s own words. Called “an absorbing and disturbing story” (PW) and “surprisingly graceful” (New York Times), this is a journey to the heart of human evil that you will never forget.
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Inside the Mind of a Serial Killer
By Tim Cahill
OPEN ROAD INTEGRATED MEDIACopyright © 1986 Tim Cahill and MC Productions, Inc.
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ONE OF THE NEIGHBORS was wakened from her sleep by screams in the night: faint, high-pitched screams that drifted across the neatly mowed lawns and seemed to come from the house beyond a hedge she could see from her back door. It was hard to tell, on that humid summer night, when the air was still and thick as cotton, exactly where they were coming from, or even if they were nothing more than a remnant of troubled sleep, some dim, half-remembered nightmare. But no, fully awake now, she could hear them through the open window. They sounded like the cries of a boy, a fifteen-, sixteen-, seventeen-year-old boy: a young man about the same age as her son. The muffled screams went on and on, reaching a tormented crescendo that lasted for half an hour or more. "Drugs," the woman thought. Maybe the boy was taking drugs, and maybe the drugs made him scream. Could drugs make boys scream like that?
She called the police and reported the disturbance, which, as near as she could tell, seemed to be coming from the house behind hers out in Norwood Park, an unincorporated area north and west of Chicago. Officers visited the house at 8213 Summerdale, where they talked with the owner, a contractor named John Gacy. Nothing seemed to be amiss.
There were other nights, almost always weekend nights, when the woman woke to screams across the lawn in the still of the night, but the police had investigated, and there was never anything on the radio or television about foul play in Norwood Park.
Several months later, on the night of December 11, 1978, a fifteen-year-old boy was reported missing by his worried parents. Rob Piest was an A student, a standout gymnast, an ambitious, intelligent boy who was very close to his family—not at all the sort of kid who runs away from home. Certainly not at nine o'clock in the evening, after putting in four hours on his part-time job; certainly not on the night of his mother's forty-sixth-birthday party, a party that had been postponed until Rob finished work. The boy was last seen on his way to talk to a contractor about a summer job. The contractor's name was John Gacy. That night, Rob Piest simply disappeared.
Suburban Des Plaines police, investigating the case, put a tracer on John Wayne Gacy, Jr., and found that he had been convicted of sodomy, in Iowa, ten years previous. That offense had involved a fifteen-year-old boy.
Ten days later, after an intensive investigation, John Gacy was arrested. He insisted that he knew nothing about the Piest boy's disappearance. The interrogation was cut short when the suspect complained of severe chest pains and said that he had a history of heart trouble. Officers rushed Gacy to Holy Family Hospital in Des Plaines.
Meanwhile, a search warrant was obtained for Gacy's house. Officers and evidence technicians—representatives of the Des Plaines police department, the Cook County sheriffs police, and the state's attorney's detail—began arriving at the brick ranch house about seven that night. They were looking for evidence of a kidnapping; they feared they might find evidence of a murder.
The front room of the house at 8213 Summerdale was choked with plants, and there were several pictures of sad-faced clowns on the wall. In a business office just off the living room, officers found several sets of meticulous records detailing Gacy's business, as well as photos showing the chunky contractor shaking hands with the mayor of Chicago and with the wife of the President of the United States. In a rec room, hidden near the pool table, officers found a large vibrating dildo crusted with disagreeable evidence that it had been used in some recent anal penetration. There were a number of books and magazines about homosexuality, and several of them featured older men in congress with young boys. Ominously, in the attic, investigators found some wallets, and the information inside proved that they belonged to young men, teenagers.
Toward the front of the house, in a living-room closet, police found a trapdoor leading down into a dark, dirt-floored crawl space, which seemed to be flooded. The beam of a floodlight pointed into the open hatchway was reflected on the surface of the dank water that stood a foot deep below. Cook County evidence technician Daniel Genty saw a cord just under the hatchway door; he plugged the cord into a nearby socket. There was a rumble of machinery, and a sump pump, somewhere in the murky depths, began pumping water out of the darkness. A dank, putrid smell emanated from the crawl space: the smell of sewage and something worse, something officers recognized as the odor of a morgue.
It took about fifteen minutes for the crawl space to drain, and in that time, evidence technicians searching the garage and workshed found a number of wallets containing IDs belonging to several young men, as well as some items of personal jewelry a teenage boy might wear. It didn't seem possible that all these boys had just happened to leave their clothes, their jewelry, and their wallets at John Gacy's house.
Daniel Genty now had an idea of what he might find in the crawl space. When the water had been flushed away, Genty dropped through the hatchway, into the mud. There was no ladder: the crawl space was only about two and a half feet deep. Genty dragged a small shovel and fire department floodlight with him. He crawled, on his hands and knees, toward the south wall, dropping to his belly to get under the center-support beam that ran the length of the house. In the southeast corner of the house, up against the foundation, Genty could see two long depressions, parallel to the wall. They were about six feet long and a foot and a half wide: the size of graves.
Genty crawled to the northwest corner of the crawl space, then moved to the southwest, where he noted three small puddles, about the size of ashtrays. One of the puddles was a dark, murky, purple color. The other two were filled with hundreds of thin red worms, about two inches long, and when Genty shone the floodlight on them, they burrowed into the soft mud.
It was there, in the southwest corner of the crawl space, that Genty decided to make his first excavation. He knelt, nearly doubled over, and plunged his trenching tool into the mud. An unbearably putrid odor burst up out of the earth and filled the crawl space. The second shovelful of earth contained a clot of adipocere: white, soapy, rotting flesh, almost like lard. A product of decomposition, adipocere takes twelve months or more to form. The body could not be Rob Piest's.
Gacy, it seemed, could possibly be guilty of more than one murder. Genty took one last scoop of mud, hit something hard, and pried up what looked like a human arm bone. Skeletal remains: definitely not the body of a boy last seen alive eleven days ago.
Genty shouted to Lieutenant Joseph Kozenczak of the Des Plaines Police Department upstairs: "Charge him! Murder!"
Kozenczak yelled, "Repeat that!"
"I found one."
"Is it Piest?"
"No. I don't think so. It's been here too long."
Another evidence technician and an investigator dropped into the crawl space.
The odor, in that damp and confined area, was almost as unbearable as the thought of what the crawl space contained. "I think this place is full of kids," Genty said.
In the northeast corner of the crawl space under John Gacy's house, the officers found more puddles, all swarming with thin red worms. There, two feet from the north wall, they uncovered what appeared to be a knee bone. The flesh was so desiccated that at first they thought it was blue-jean material.
South of that dig, Genty uncovered some human hair in the soil. The second evidence technician dug along the south wall and found two long bones, human leg bones, both very blackened. Rather than disturb any more remains that might complicate identification procedures or destroy evidence, the officers decided to quit the crawl space and call the coroner.
At about the same time, John Gacy was being released from Holy Family Hospital. He had been thoroughly examined, and doctors could find no evidence of a heart attack. Gacy's pulse was a little high, that was all. Under heavy guard—detectives had been told what the search uncovered—Gacy was returned to the Des Plaines police station, where he was arrested and charged with murder.
Gacy signed a card waiving his Miranda rights, then spoke to detectives David Hachmeister and Michael Albrecht.
"My house," Gacy said. "Did you go into the crawl space?"
"Yeah," Albrecht said, "we did."
"I used lime," Gacy said. "That's what it was for."
"What was it for, John?" Albrecht asked.
"For the sewage, the dampness ... for ... what you found there."
A mug shot, taken at the time, shows a stuporous, uncomprehending man. Gacy's puffy face and undistinguished features look slack, as if the bones of his skull have no substance to them. He stares into the camera, and his eyes are glassy, dull, and dead. He looks like a man insane. Or on drugs.
"There are four Johns," Gacy told Albrecht. "I don't know all of them." One of the four, Gacy explained later, was called "Jack." Jack didn't like homosexuality, and he detested homosexuals. The bodies in the crawl space? You'd have to ask Jack how they died. John did the dirty work. John, it seemed, had been forced to cover for Jack, to bury the bodies, to live with the stench, to spread the lime.
In a second voluntary statement, given about three-thirty the next morning, Gacy said there were "twenty-five to thirty bodies." Detectives found that number hard to comprehend, and they questioned Gacy closely. The suspect said he couldn't answer every question. Some things, he said, he just honestly didn't know. "You'd have to ask Jack that," he explained.
Piest's body, Gacy said, had been thrown from a bridge on I-55 into the Des Plaines River. Jack was working too fast for John to keep up. The crawl space was full, and John, with his worsening heart condition, couldn't dig any more graves.
The killer was named Jack: Jack Hanley.
John could tell the police that much.
The next morning, a fleet of police vehicles and nearly three dozen officers, including representatives from three different law-enforcement agencies, invaded Norwood Park. They were closely followed by about as many reporters.
The media were hungry and the suspect was in custody, unavailable. As is usual in such cases, the neighbors were interviewed about the accused killer who had lived in their midst. No one could believe it, not at first. The man had a heart condition, after all: how could he have dug those graves, doubled over in that cramped crawl space? He was 5 feet 8 and weighed over 230 pounds.
There was an odd sense of déjà vu about these postarrest interviews with the accused killer's friends and neighbors. It was a scene that had been played in 1971 in Yuba City, California, when Juan Corona was arrested and charged with the murders of twenty-five young farm workers, all males; a scene that had its run in Houston, when Elmer Wayne Henley was charged with the sex-torture murders of twenty-seven young men. It was a scene that would play in Atlanta in 1981, when Wayne B. Williams was arrested and charged with the murders of two young blacks. Prosecutors insisted they could link Williams with the murders of twenty-eight young men. Eighty young men dead in all: Eighty murders, all of them, so it seemed, committed in some insane sexual frenzy or in a calculated effort to conceal evidence of homosexual activity.
These were not mass murders, journalists pointed out. It was a problem of semantics, as well as a difference in method. Richard Speck—who invaded the Chicago living quarters of eight nurses in 1966 and murdered seven—was a mass murderer. The slaughter had been accomplished in a matter of hours, all at once. Charles Whitman, who climbed a tower at the University of Texas and shot twelve in 1966, was a mass murderer. Henley, Corona, and later Williams were not mass murderers in that sense; they were serial killers. All three seemed to lead normal lives, and they killed their victims one at a time, as the mood struck them, over a period of years. The serial killer was a colder, more calculating animal than the mass murderer. Part of the serial killer's method was façade, the ability to live an apparently normal life between, and in spite of, the accumulating murderous episodes. The serial killer is everyone's next-door neighbor.
Serial murderers survive and kill, and get away with the killings, in part because life does not emulate art. It is not the way we expect it to be, not as it is on TV or in the movies, where discordant music hints at some character's frightening psychological problems, where low camera angles and shadowed lighting can suggest an impending homicide. The serial murderers lived next door, or across the street, or down the block. They talked and walked and laughed like any other man, but they killed, and killed again—and again, and again after that—until they were caught.
Normal-enough guys; pretty good neighbors; bright, friendly fellows. And when they were caught, their neighbors found themselves squinting into bright television lights, feeling defensive, as if they had to justify themselves; feeling angry or confused; feeling somehow betrayed. The killer, in his frenzy, had destroyed something soul deep in those who lived around him. The viewer sensed it in the troubled glance off camera; the facial tic; the odd, inappropriate gesture: these were innocent people destined to live with a sickly sad, unearned guilt the rest of their lives.
No, the neighbors and friends said in California, there didn't seem to be anything troubling Juan. I never thought he might have homosexual tendencies. Never had an inkling. In Atlanta, they would say that Wayne was a bright young man, destined to go places. Elmer Henley was a hard worker, they said in Texas. The neighbors were numb in Texas, stunned in California, staggered in Georgia.
It was no different in Chicago. The day the story broke, there were shots, broadcast live, of the brick ranch house with the outdoor Christmas lights mysteriously blinking (the owner, after all, was in jail), and the neighbors, in voice-over—or on the radio, or in newspaper columns—described the man who had lived there as gregarious, community-minded, generous. When the snow piled up on the streets, they said, John Gacy hooked up a snowplow and cleared the driveways up and down his block. He had worked long and hard to get streetlights installed in unincorporated Norwood Park. He was a man said to have important political connections, and some neighbors had seen, in the office in his home, those pictures of John Gacy shaking hands with the mayor of Chicago, with the wife of the President of the United States. He was a man who gave an annual summer lawn party for four hundred or more people, at his own expense; a man who organized Chicago's Polish Day parade and saw that it ran like clockwork. And this—on his own time, and at no pay, John Gacy went to hospitals where he entertained sick children, dressed as a clown. Pogo the clown.
Even as the neighbors spoke, John Gacy was giving another voluntary statement. At four o'clock on the afternoon of December 22, one day after his arrest, Gacy asked to talk with Larry Finder, of the state's attorney's office. In the course of the conversation, Gacy began describing where some of the bodies were buried, and Finder said he was having difficulty picturing the graves in his mind. Gacy asked for a sheet of paper and a pen. Resting the paper on the metal part of the bunk in his cell, Gacy drew a rectangle and began filling it with smaller rectangles he said represented graves, or trenches, where the bodies were buried. There could be as many as thirty of them.
And while Gacy was drawing his map, the neighbors were being grilled by reporters. No, they said, the man never seemed insane. He drank now and again, no more than anyone else, and if he had one too many, which happened infrequently, he simply became a little louder, a little more friendly. He was proud of himself and his business, maybe even a bit of a braggart, and, sure, sometimes he bullied the teenage boys who worked for him, but the man himself regularly put in twelve- and sixteen-hour days. He pushed himself hard and obviously felt he had a right to revel in his accomplishments, to expect from his employees the same perfection he demanded of himself.
The crawl-space map was the work of a perfectionist: very neat, very precise, everything neatly squared off on a thin sheet of pink paper. When he finished the work, the suspect's head dropped to his chest in a sudden, poleaxed bow. His fists were clenched tightly at his sides, but he remained motionless, as if suddenly frozen, unconscious. There was no sound in the room. After about a minute, Gacy raised his head and stared at the rectangles within rectangles on the pink sheet. "What's going on?" he asked, and there was a grogginess in his voice. "Did Jack ... I see Jack ... drew a diagram of the crawl space."
Excerpted from Buried Dreams by Tim Cahill. Copyright © 1986 Tim Cahill and MC Productions, Inc.. Excerpted by permission of OPEN ROAD INTEGRATED MEDIA.
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Meet the Author
Tim Cahill, a well-known journalist, has been a Contributing Editor to Rolling Stone, a columnist for Outside and has been published in The New York Times. He is also the author of multiple travel bestsellers, including LOST IN MY OWN BACKYARD (Crown ‘04), HOLD THE ENLIGHTENMENT (Vintage ’03), PASS THE BUTTERWORMS (Vintage ’98), JAGUARS RIPPED MY FLESH (Vintage ’96), PECKED TO DEATH BY DUCKS (Vintage ’94), ROAD FEVER (Vintage ’92), and A WOLVERINE IS EATING MY LEG (Vintage ’89).
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Don't listen to the other reviews. I did and wasted my money. This book is very slow, jumps around without a clear path of where it is going, and is boring. I've read other books about John Wayne Gacy and learned nothing more from this one. The entire book consists off of Gacy guessing what he did. He says he doesn't remember anything and blacked out for all of the killings. He isn't even sure he really committed them. You do not get into the mind of Gacy. You basically get a third party sitting there saying well, this is what I guess happened. The book focuses on Gacy trying to outsmart the doctors and not really telling a bit of truth. It skips over half of the murders because Gacy says he doesn't remember them. And the ones he does he only remembers the boy themselves but not killing them. The book spends most of its time telling you about how he met the boys but doesn't go into his mind or what he was thinking at the time of the killings. This book was a waste of my time and money. I have read hundreds of true crime books and this one is probably the worst on my list. Please don't waste your money and don't listen to the other reviews. I did and I'm not sure what book they were reading but it was not this one.
This book was amazing. It has portions of interviews with John Wayne Gacy Jr. I found myself thinking about his crimes even when I wasn't reading the book. It's a great read for anyone interested in serial killers and sociopaths.
The best true crime book written in the past 75 years. Tim Cahill is a master writer and makes JWG's life and crimes come to life in a personal, human manner. Because of this book, I spent six years interviewing JWG and writing about what I learned. An unreleased documentary - a filmed interview with Robert K. Ressler and JWG, May 1992, will be a good companion piece. Release date pending.
This is a fabulous book that will keep your interest with twists and turns from start to finish. It is important to know that John Casey did not profit from this book. However, it takes you deep inside his thoughts and events in his life that lead up to his acts of murder. It is both amazing and scary to realize after you have read this, of how trusted he was in the community. It is a real eye opener.
This book had you think of the mind of this psycho at the Dinner Table, before you went to sleep, or doing anything at all. The fact that it dives so deep into his mind and what he was like as a person is simply remarkable. If you find serial killers interesting this is a must buy book for you.
After I was finished with this book, it left my senses tingling. I have never read a book that went inside the mind of a serial killer, this was very in depth, and kept you wanting to read more! Tim Cahill is an absolutly genius! Tim takes you from John's early childhood, all the way though prison!
Most 'true crime' books accomplish one thing only, at best: They inform us about the subject's life and crimes. Tim Cahill's incredible book does that and much more: It brings you into the mind of John Wayne Gacy with a clarity that will (or at least should) leave you wanting to scrub yourself clean in a scalding shower. The prose style itself takes on a pattern that's clearly Gacy-esque, rather than Cahill's. I doubt Cahill would care to get this close to a serial killer's heart again, but at least he's left us with this remarkable document of a modern American monster.
I find stories about serial killers interesting, but have never read a book written from inside the mind of the killer. The author has so much material from John Wayne Gacy himself, and reading what Gacy's diagnosis of his motives are and why he thinks might have done what he did makes the story much more compelling than the usual speculative narratives written about serial killers. I honestly have never read a better, more insightful book about such a murderer before. I came away feeling a little bit sorry for Gacy, the original fat, unathletic, unpopular boy who never got over his feelings of insignificance and his father's disapproval. Talk about a cautionary tale for propspective parents! Beware your actions -- this is how your kid could turn out if you are not nice!
Buried Dreams is a great book about the mind of a serial killer. John Wayne Gacy is detailed in great depth, giving insight into the mind of a serial killer.
Absolutely spellbinding. Cahill has made this man come to life on paper.
I liked this book pretty well. It gives a lot of insight into Gacy. A very sick character.