Colors of a Butterfly An Autobiography

by Lisa Gore

Overview

A Butterfly will not fly if she has been told for her entire life that her wings are broken. The very moment she believes God can heal and restore her she will flutter and fly high into the sky until she reaches her dreams, the dreams that had been there waiting on her the whole time!
Abandonment, rape, abuse, molestation, drugs, guns, car crashes, how much can one take before they try to end it all? Find out as you go through the pages of Colors of a Butterfly and see how Lisa Gore found her destiny and because a beautiful Butterfly

Product Details

BN ID:	2940013894655
Publisher:	Lisa Gore
Publication date:	04/01/2011
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	228
File size:	213 KB

About the Author

I was born and named, but I wasn’t supposed to make it. I was loved and claimed, but still, I wasn’t supposed to make it. I was born In West Philadelphia to a seventeen year old girl who had epilepsy, and a father who had a drug, and alcohol addiction. My mother only lived eight months after I was born. I never knew her, nor could I remember seeing her face. Yet, I found myself crying for her many nights. This void in my life was supposed to destroy me, and I wasn’t supposed to make it.
It was March 5, 1975 when my mother died in her sleep. You can say that my father died that day also, because he was the one who found her. So hurt and depressed, drugs and alcohol replaced me, and in that brief moment I was also fatherless. Unable to process the pain, he continued his addiction for my entire childhood. I grew up without an example of a real man, and as I searched for love, I always found pain.
When I turned 13, I started to seek love elsewhere. My grandmother no longer accepted me for who I was. She said things to me at times that caused scars no one on earth could heal. I was called a slut when I was still a virgin. I searched for anyone and anything to fill what she emptied. Yet, I always found myself in pools of pain. I then began to try and drink my sorrows away.
Unable to handle me, she sent me to live with my father when I turned 14. I had maintained an F average that school year, my grandmother was at a lost. My father had been clean for a while. It seemed the best thing for me at the time. But, living with my father was very depressing. Later I was allowed to return to Philly. The truth, no matter the place, I was going to be unhappy. I just wasn’t supposed to make it.
I can still hear the strong, yet, powerless voices, “Why bother going to school, you’ll still be dumb? You aren’t worth nothing, and you’ll never be nothing!” It’s funny how you start to believe others and their opinions become your facts about yourself. If for a second you start to believe you are special, and important, you quickly tell yourself you’re lying. I mean, everyone can’t be wrong, can they? Then, your goals seem unobtainable, and your dreams seem unreachable. At times I believed in myself and my piers did also, it was when I stopped receiving acceptance from my grandmother that I shut down. 2-Be Continued~~~GET THE BOOK!!!!!!!!!

Editorial Reviews

“What a story of how God can take something slimy and icky (the negative you faced–like a caterpillar) and make it into something beautiful (your life in Him and all the positive He has made out of that negative–like a butterfly). It is really a story of redemption and how God can use our pain and past to glorify Himself. I was moved greatly and women are going to be blessed! I pray God takes it deep into the hearts of women.”

Nicole Danielle

“This is a touching story of Lisa’s struggle with her life. Even though I am familiar with her story, I fought back tears many times, and I rejoiced with her when she told how she came to know Christ. I recommend this book for anyone but especially teenage girls, so they will know that only Jesus can heal our deepest hurts and truly satisfy our deepest desires.”

Judith Mosley