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Dear Nobody: The True Diary of Mary Rose

Dear Nobody: The True Diary of Mary Rose

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by Gillian McCain, Legs McNeil

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Fans of Go Ask Alice will devour Dear Nobody, a real teen's diary, so raw and so edgy that it's authenticity rings off every page.

They say that high school is supposed to be the best time of your life. But what if that's just not true?

More than anything, Mary Rose wants to fit in. To be loved. And she'll do whatever it takes


Fans of Go Ask Alice will devour Dear Nobody, a real teen's diary, so raw and so edgy that it's authenticity rings off every page.

They say that high school is supposed to be the best time of your life. But what if that's just not true?

More than anything, Mary Rose wants to fit in. To be loved. And she'll do whatever it takes to make that happen. Even if it costs her her life.

Told through the raw and unflinching diary entries of a real teen, Mary Rose struggles with addiction, bullying, and a deadly secret. Her compelling story will inspire readers—and remind them that they are not alone.

Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
Between the ages of 15 and 18, until her death in 1999 of cystic fibrosis, a Pennsylvania teenager named Mary Rose wrote unguardedly in her journals. McCain and McNeil (co-editors of Please Kill Me: An Oral History of Punk) offer a condensed but otherwise unaltered version of her diary entries and the occasional letter. Despite any ethical issues raised by publishing the book, which Mary Rose’s mother touches on in an afterword, Mary Rose’s writing has an immediate and viscerally raw impact as she describes her fights with her mother, a magnet for abusive, criminal boyfriends; her own tempestuous experiences with romance, sex, alcohol, and drugs; and the agony of cystic fibrosis. “I definitely won’t binge anymore,” writes Mary Rose after one rehab stint. “HA! That resolution lasted three days!” opens the next entry. Mary Rose’s enormous pain and the ways she attempts to swallow it are evident in every profane, rage-filled entry; while her anguish is near-constant, it’s spiked with moments of biting humor, elation, and hope. It’s a rare, no-holds-barred documentation of an American teenager’s life, written for no audience but herself. Ages 14–up. (Apr.)
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"a rare, no-holds-barred documentation of an American teenager's life." - Publishers Weekly

"The voice is authentic, this book is an experience." - Kirkus

"The writing style has a beautiful lyricism...Readers will appreciate this unflinchingly honest work." - School Library Journal

"Mary Rose's diary is a heart-wrenching tale of a young girl trying to figure everything out...It will appeal to teens." - VOYA

VOYA, June 2014 (Vol. 37, No. 2) - Loryn Aman
For all of Mary Rose’s short life, things have been difficult. Her mother has abusive boyfriends; she cannot seem to make and keep friends; and on top of everything else, she has cystic fibrosis. In her diary entries, Mary Rose tells the story that she feels no one cares to hear. Drug and alcohol abuse, run-ins with the law, rehab, extended hospital stays, and rape are all part of Mary Rose’s life. She knows that her lifestyle is not healthy, and she should want to be sober, yet she continues to make choices that inhibit her from reaching that goal. This true story of fifteen-year-old Mary Rose is, at times, shocking and also incredibly sad. Her home life is awful, to say the least; her mother is constantly bringing home men that both physically and mentally abuse everyone in the house, and Mary Rose even writes about drinking and getting high with her mother from time to time. Outside of home, Mary Rose seeks attention from boys, seeming to fall in love every time she meets someone new. Eventually she gets into a relationship with Geoff, an older man who does not treat her well and, in some ways, almost mirrors her mother’s relationships. Mary Rose’s diary is a heart-wrenching tale of a young girl trying to figure everything out. She is very sick, and one of the ways that she copes with her sickness is by drinking and doing drugs. She is stuck in a cycle of unhealthy decisions that eventually take her life. There are many instances of foul language, adult themes, and drug use and abuse throughout this book. It will appeal to teens, regardless of those issues. Reviewer: Loryn Aman; Ages 15 to 18.
School Library Journal
Gr 9 Up—In this actual, posthumously published diary, the teenager is brutally honest about her problems with her mom and her mom's abusive boyfriend, her sexual encounters, and her addictions to alcohol and drugs. Lonely and looking for relationships, the girl begins every entry with "Dear Nobody." Readers learn early on about Mary's stints in rehab, but it is a third of the way into the book when it is revealed that she has cystic fibrosis. Mary Rose has been in and out of the hospital all her life with this disease, but she doesn't dwell on it. Like the fictional Go Ask Alice (Prentice Hall, 1971), this is a first-person account of a girl detailing the poor choices she has made. Though a depressing picture emerges, the writing style has a beautiful lyricism. Teens may not understand Mary Rose's decisions, and they may dislike how those who care about her treat her, but readers will appreciate this unflinchingly honest work.—Elizabeth Kahn, Patrick F. Taylor Science & Technology Academy, Jefferson, LA
Kirkus Reviews
The posthumous memoir of a drug-abusing teen who died of cystic fibrosis. Living in suburban Pennsylvania in the late 1990s, Mary Rose uses her journal, addressed to "Dear Nobody," to chronicle her daily life: She's bored, frequently on the outs with her mom and searching for something. She hangs out at the nearby rope swing with other teens, drinking and doing drugs, getting arrested and hoping to find a friend—or even better, a boyfriend. But things change when Mary Rose has to deal with something she isn't facing head-on: She suffers from cystic fibrosis, and her condition is deteriorating due to her drinking and drug use. Mary Rose attempts to turn over a new leaf only to fall back into drinking and suffers a new tragedy. Yet through it all, as her body begins to give out, Mary Rose strives for peace through religion and searches for a connection with other people. Edited from Mary Rose's journals after her death, this memoir necessarily suffers from the absence of an authorial hand, shifting abruptly from Mary Rose's party-girl ways to her medical suffering. Mary Rose evidently never had a chance to reflect on the total arc of her written narrative, forcing readers to glean meaning from the disparate, angst-filled entries or just go with the flow. While the voice is authentic, this book is an experience, not a crafted narrative. (Memoir. 14-18)

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Dear Nobody

The True Diary of Mary Rose


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Copyright © 2013 Gillian McCain and Legs McNeil
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Dear Nobody,

Tonight I got arrested. I hate saying that, but it happens.

I had a 40 ounce beer in my hand and one in my book bag and I smelled like it. I was walking with my two friends, when this cop pulls up and goes, "Is something wrong?"

We all said nothing was wrong, but then the cop pointed to me and said, "Why does she look so sad?"

I made up some bullshit about how my boyfriend and I just broke up, but by then he had already seen the 40 ounce I was hiding in my coat.

They arrested me, but not my two friends, because they had no alcohol on them. My mom picked me up at the police station — and on the way back home we got into a fight over the time when I was twelve and she had pot in her car. A lot, too.

So I just got out of the car and tried to walk my drunken ass home, but it turns out I was walking in the wrong direction. I could've walked from Reading to Pottstown; that's over twenty miles. Shit, I bet I would've kept walking, if I hadn't seen this mall I knew, and was like, "Oh shit, what now?" I turned around and went to a store I saw closing up. It was after ten. Actually, I had been making pretty good time. I'm glad that I'm in fairly good shape right now, because I would never have made it if I was sick.

So I had time to think things through.

When I got back to Reading, I let this cop car see me, because it was past curfew and I wanted a ride home. Also, I had a feeling I wouldn't get fined; I figured there was no way, after all this shit — that anything else that fucked up could happen to me.

The cop came into my house and talked with my mom and me. He said he wanted me to grow up to be happy and healthy, and that he wanted me to introduce him to my kids some day, and that he wanted to see me live to grow old.

First off, I'll never have kids.

And secondly, I'll never get old.

It's hard to grow old when you're dead.

Dear Nobody,

Today my mother's boyfriend, Joe, started threatening my life — saying he'd slit my throat and break my neck — and that it would be worth the jail time. When my mother tried to protect me, he swore she'd be dead in the river with me. She stopped protesting after that — she's a TERRIBLE swimmer.

Then Joe started in with even more violent threats; trying to break us down, the worst way he knew how, like calling me "a half-dead motherfucker!" When he started to get REALLY violent, my mother ran upstairs to get her pot out of the house so we could call the police. I told him that I wasn't scared of him and to "get out of our house now!" That made him even angrier, because his threats and bullying were futile against me. I guess he felt powerless. When he went to grab me, my mother jumped in between us and told him to get away from me. He grabbed her arm — the same arm I heard snap when my stepfather, Darrell, broke it in front of me when I was eight. Then Joe jerked her towards him. His breath was heaving and his eyes were wide with anger. My defenseless and pathetically weak mother had that familiar fear on her face and was meekly trying to fend him off. Nothing in me snapped — nothing flashed before my eyes; I remained calm and neutral. SOMEONE had to.

I refuse to live amid anger or fear. I looked directly into his crazed eyes; stared point-blank into his rage, as I'm sure no other woman ever has, especially a teenager. I spoke calmly and said, "Get off of my mother! Nobody touches her like that! Nobody will hurt my mother, especially not you! You are woman-beating trash — go back to jail!!!" (Joe did time for assault and kidnapping, among other things).

He was stunned for a minute, just like Darrell had been when I told him (practically) the same thing. But Joe's shock didn't last long. His flood of anger returned quickly enough for him to hurl my mother into a door that had a full-length mirror on it. She fell forward, holding her arm in pain. He was yelling even louder now but I still wasn't scared — my pulse didn't even raise enough for me to break into a sweat.


He was pushing things out of the way to get to me. By that time, I was on the bed, climbing to the window and yelling for help at the top of my lungs, "SOMEBODY CALL THE POLICE! HELP! HELP US! HELP MY MOM!"

He grabbed me and said, "What the fuck do you think you're doing, you cunt?!"

That's when he pinned me down on the bed and pulled my right arm back. My mother jumped up and grabbed him, and when he pushed her off, I had time to squirm away. Then my mother snatched the bag of pot — and we ran downstairs and out of our own house — for the hundredth time — while I screamed for help.

When we got to the car, I looked around. None of our neighbors were looking out their windows. They just hid inside the paper-thin, poorly-insulated condos we all lived in.

Joe had said if we left him, he would call the cops and tell them mom had an ounce of weed on her. So I told my mother to give me the drugs, so if he did call the cops, I'd say it was mine. She handed it to me and I bent the bag so that it fit into my pocket. We left for my mom's friend's house — as we had done so many times before — only this time mom didn't mention what had happened with Joe — she just dropped off the pot and then we left.

My mom called Joe from payphones four times; getting more frustrated each time — because he wouldn't leave OUR house. He said he would only leave if she gave him $700. (Last time it was $280). As I watched my mother smoking nervously at the payphone, I got her checkbook and hid it under the seat of the car.

Mother. Mommy. Mom.

Phone in one hand, cigarette in the other — her eyes shifting uneasily and her voice trembling; the fluorescent light of the phone booth was forming a halo above her head. It reminded me of my childhood, when I envisioned my mother as a saint, as my angel, like most young children do, despite any circumstances. For a moment, I was saddened by the corruption of my childhood fallacies — but my level-headedness found me again when I overheard her offering to drive Joe home! I heard her say that she would pick him up and take him back to his parents house.

I jumped out of the car and screamed, "YOU ARE NOT DRIVING HIM HOME! THERE'S NO WAY I WILL LET YOU BE ALONE IN A CAR WITH HIM FOR TWO HOURS!!!" (Joe had beaten her up in the car a few times before — he had tried to choke her to death; there had been bruises on her face and her throat). I started yelling and crying as we got back into the car. I kept telling her how scared I was for her, that she was the only parent I had left and that I couldn't bare to lose her. I begged, I pleaded, I ranted, I rationalized. I prayed. Then I got out of the car.

I took off walking in the opposite direction of our house. I had no idea where I was — or where I was going.

My mom didn't follow me at first — but pretty soon she pulled up next to me and told me to get in the car, unless I wanted to walk all the way home. After arguing with her for about ten minutes, I said, "If I get in the car, we have to drive right over to that payphone and you have to call the police. You have to show the cops the marks on your arms. Or we can stand here all night where at least I'll know you're safe."

A few seconds later my mother sped off, leaving me, her fifteen-year-old daughter, in the middle of an unfamiliar town — at midnight — afraid and alone. I sat down on a grassy hill near an intersection and cried. Then I walked back to the road and waited — half-hoping she'd be worried and come back for me.

She never came back for me.

It started to get cold. With the cold came drops of rain, so I looked for someplace to go. I found a bathroom with a broken door at a desolate gas station and went in there to cry some more. After I was out of tears, and could only whimper, I started praying.

I asked God, "Why?"

Why did this happen?

Why did I feel so much pain?

I prayed some more — and then the rain stopped. I started walking towards the highway. It was so dark that I could only see where I was going when cars drove by, minutes apart from each other. The sounds from the woods nearby and the emptiness of the highway reminded me of something out of a horror film. Faces of missing girls from the 6 o'clock news passed through my mind. Instead of scaring myself, I decided to pray some more. I asked God to help me and my mother get home safely.

I walked for almost an hour, keeping my eyes open for my mother's car. I was walking as fast as I could without running. I tried to walk with my head up. Even though I was tired — I tried to walk proudly. I felt more like a soldier of God, than a child of God. By now I had seen and felt so much, that I knew God was there with me — helping me and loving me when no one else would.

I began to watch for a police car to pass by; knowing that even if they arrested me for being out after curfew, they'd at least give me an $80 ride home. (Or at the VERY least they'd give me directions.) Finally a van drove by and I could see the bill of a boy's hat silhouetted through the passenger windows. The van slowed down and stopped a few feet ahead. I slowed my walking, cautiously. I was ready to run just in case.

The boy in the hat popped his head out of the window and said, "Are you Megan?"

I shook my head and the woman driver asked where I was headed. I told her and she was kind enough to offer me a ride, even though her destination was in the complete opposite direction. She was being very friendly and so were the boys around my age who were sitting in the back. They asked me how old I was.

I said I was fifteen and one of the boys asked if I'd be going into 11th grade. Embarrassed, I told them that I'd be in 9th next year. I felt bad for not being completely honest, but I said it was because my family moved around so much. The lady seemed understanding, but the boys said nothing.

When I got home, it felt so good to be here, without that tyrant Joe. I ate what was supposed to be my dinner before we had to run out of the house. A movie came on HBO about a murderer that killed people in stalled cars on the highway. I tried not to watch it.

Mom got home safe — but looked sad. She said Joe was "moody" on the way home. That could have meant anything.

Well, that was my Wednesday.

Good night.

Dear Nobody,

As if the thing with my mom's boyfriend, Joe, wasn't bad enough — my step-dad came by last night without even calling, asking for money. Darrell is my half-sister Nicole's biological dad; my step-dad — really. At least, I USED to think of him that way.

I hadn't seen Darrell this drunk and violent since mom was five months pregnant with Nicole and Darrell threw her on the bathroom floor. Then he threw me after her — then the phone — and then the phonebook, too. He told us we had a half hour to get the fuck out and never come back. I remember mom lying on her side — on the phone with her friend, Jane. She said that she thought her arm was broken, and that she couldn't walk. She had fresh bruises along her neck and arms — along with the old ones. I looked at what my HERO; my FATHER — had done. I was trembling — I could not even speak. I've never been so afraid in my entire life. I remembered how I had always wanted a father. Be careful what you wish for. That night ended like so many others; lying on Jane's cot — crying into a pillow. At least we were safe there.

My mom gave birth and nursed my baby sister with her broken arm. She had to work at a grocery store to make money. I'll never forget how sad and disappointing it all was — I had no daddy again, or dog. No house, not even an apartment. No friends, nothing of my own. I'll never forget it — and last night was no different.

Dear Nobody,

When I was little, I was so proud of Darrell — I even bragged about him sometimes. I called him Daddy. I really looked up to him. I even wanted to be a housepainter just like him — even AFTER he started to do drugs and beat my mom up.

After a while, I just got scared of him, but I still loved him a lot — for who he'd been BEFORE the drugs. People would come to the house when mom wasn't home and sell him cocaine. I saw it once. I was in the second grade and he was babysitting me and Nicole when this shitty little white car pulled up in the driveway, blaring rap music. Two fat black guys with gold chains got out and came into the kitchen. Nicole started crying.

Darrell gave them money and they gave him a plastic bag full of white powder. It was coke. One of the guys was sucking on a little pipe. I asked what was in the bag and Darrell sent me outside.

I saw my friend Crystal out back and I told her to look through our kitchen window. Crystal peered in and then asked why there were black people in my house. In Saginaw, the town we lived in then, there were no black people at all. It was a very small town; it didn't even have any stores. Crystal told me how she was scared of black people, but since I had to go into Philly a lot, I had met a lot of black people and they were all really nice. I told all this to Crystal, but we were both still really scared about WHY these guys were in my house.

While my stepdad and his "friends" were inside the kitchen, I thought about the first time Darrell beat the shit out of me, when I was in first grade. It happened when I woke up one morning and walked into the living room. Darrell was sitting there watching TV, drinking a beer and eating a donut.

I hate donuts.

When I saw him there eating a donut (mom had bought a big box of them), I said to him, "You can have all the donuts."

Next thing I know he jumps up and starts screaming, "WHAT?! WHAT?"

Then he came after me — and hit me. Mom was still sleeping. It fucking hurt. I cried and cried, even after he was done. I tried to figure out why Darrell did that, and wondered if he thought I said, "You CAN'T have the rest of the donuts," like I was being a smart ass.

But then later, he came into my room, pulled me out of bed, sat me on his lap, handed me the donut he'd been eating and said, "Here. Eat that."

I guess that was Darrell's way of apologizing.

Dear Nobody,

I walked in the house and before I closed the door behind me, I got that feeling. I knew something was wrong. I could feel it in the air. My mother looked at me, and didn't speak. My heart began to race. I felt sickened. How could this be happening?

We're moving away to the middle of nowhere — to Phoenixville!

Mom wants to make a "fresh" start. Thanks, mom.



WINTER, 1997

Dear Nobody,

Ever since we moved here, I feel like I've got nothing anymore. It's such a small town that friendships here have been established years ago, and there's no room for even one more.

Sometimes I just get so bored of emotions. Sometimes I just get so bored of everything and I wonder if I'll ever be myself again. Maybe I just need a nap — or a new life. I've never been this lonely, and I know how it feels to be lonesome. Being a teenager, being alive, is hard enough — but I am lost. It's like I'm in a new world, a foreign country, all by myself — and I've got to construct a new life.

When you know nobody, and nobody knows you, it's impossible to make friends by accident. I try to tag along discreetly, and aloof, but I end up seeming like the tag along I am: "Who's that girl? Why does she keep following us around?" I follow people, hoping for affection, acceptance — a home. From clique to clique, group to group, I follow, only to be kicked aside — and at the end of the day, I am always left alone, droopy-eyed, and miserable — like a lonely, unloved puppy with its tail between its legs, and misery in its heart. I can only hope, and keep inviting myself along, keep following the group, hoping they won't mind.

HA — I used to be a leader — the center of my group of subjects, and now I've been banished to an unfamiliar kingdom.

Two months ago I'd have NEVER been a tag along! And now I consider myself lucky if there's anybody around to tag along with.


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Dear Nobody: The True Diary of Mary Rose 4 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 10 reviews.
Sandy5 More than 1 year ago
Someone help. Anybody, somebody, everybody, nobody? Mary Rose was fifteen when she wrote this journal and whether she intended for anyone to read it or not, the pain is real, almost too real unless you know her circumstances. Her pain comes from a variety of sources, internally and externally and when she writes the messages is clear, she’s hurting. Mary Rose suffered from cystic fibrosis, from sexual and abusive relationships, from alcoholism, from drug addiction and from parents who just didn’t care. To hear her story, you have to be strong, you have to want to hear her message or otherwise you won’t understand it. Her message is that she wants help and she wants to be loved. I am attracted to these types of books; they scream at me, they pull everything out of me and yank at my soul, dragging me to feel the emotions and the thoughts those individuals experience. Sometimes I am left drained and other times, I am left feeling invigorated and with Mary Rose I am left standing in the middle. Mary Rose felt abandoned by her mother as her mother chose her abusive boyfriend over her own daughter. This on-and-off relationship coupled with screaming matches often left Mary Rose alone and scared. Alcohol and drugs were a great coping mechanism which lasted only as long as the high lasted. Friends, money and school all come into the picture and it becomes a balancing act with some things being cast aside when things get too complicated. Mary Rose is on a first-name basis with the police and her scars don’t just come from the treatments from her disease. So many times she tries to handle life but it just becomes too difficult for her on her own, so she copes the best that she can with what she is given and what she knows. So many times Mary Rose states that she is going to get her life back in order, yet she slides right back into the world of destruction. Even after many attempts of rehab, hospitals, jail and whatnot, she is placed right back into the same environment and life goes right back to what she wants to avoid. You can hear her pain in her writing with her capital letters, her slang, her choice of words and her drawings so I know I was not imagining what I was feeling. The drawings were terrific and the pictures she drew of herself, the eyes shaded so deep and dark. The constant repeating of her own image in her drawings, I enjoyed that. She’s digging herself into a hole yet she doesn’t have the resources to pull herself out. “I’d peel off the label like I was unwrapping a present. I felt secure with alcohol, like I had finally found my home.” I highlighted so many parts of this book, so many great parts and parts I want to go back and read. I especially liked the part where Mary Rose listed the different friends you have for the different fights you have with those friends. Mary Rose coupled this with each substance you were on at the time of the fight (alcohol or a list of drugs M.R. was experienced in). Being an expert on each different type of drug and an expert drunk, she had this down and it was quite interesting and detailed. I want to buy this book as some of the pictures didn’t show up on my Kindle version so I know I was missing something and I know I will definitely want to read this again. This is a powerful book with strong language and strong subject matter which should only read by mature readers. Thank you NetGalley for supplying me a copy of this book to review. “It took me to heaven, but left me in hell.” (Talking about alcohol) “OhmyGod, you’re right! I AM A FREAK! Guess that makes me different. Okay wait, what if I would take them into my living room and show them the three big, loud machines that “keep me breathing”? Do you have big loud machines in your living room that keep you breathing? No? Didn’t think so. Oh, wait, I’ve got them! How about next time I sweat I show them how salt crystals….” (People call her a freak and sometimes she just wishes she could tell them what her life is really like)
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
who are you? Are you nobody too? Who would believe the story of a little nobody. I personally love this book, I just started reading it yesterday and I'm a quarter way in and I can't stop turning the page. Not a thiriller so far but deffinitly a learning experiance. I can relate in some ways to the character, a good book if you liked The Cellar Stolen The Perks of Being a Wallflower Give it a go, it's an easy read.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Hi.i honestly this was agreat book.the inly rrason i read it tough wss because sandy5's discription.it was a great self connection and summery andi am highly thankful for that.warning for this book.yiu may start to cry onalmosr evry page.you were warned!
RebeccaScaglione More than 1 year ago
Dear Nobody: The True Diary of Mary Rose is the real, gritty, and honest diary of the teenage lost soul, Mary Rose. Mary Rose totally got the short end of the stick. She has an absent father, a not-so-fabulously-behaved mother, and her mother’s boyfriend is abusive. Mary Rose also happens to have cystic fibrosis and seems to have a hard time making friends. So what does Mary Rose do? She turns to drugs and alcohol, the only things that will make her feel normal and “fit in” with the crowd. But of course, addiction isn’t known to solve many people’s problems. Dear Nobody is addicting to read – I could not put it down, and didn’t, until I was finished. It was heart-wrenching and devastating at times. With that said, the book fell a little flat for me. I know it sounds strange since it’s a true story, all in Mary Rose’s real diary entries, but I wasn’t as emotionally hooked onto Mary Rose as I expected to be. Have you read books like this, like Go Ask Alice or something similar? Thanks for reading, Rebecca @ Love at First Book
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I really did not know what I was getting into when I first picked this book up but I sure am glad that I did. This intense, captivating story about a girl, Mary Rose, who is struggling to be a normal teenager while she struggles with an alcoholic mother who would chose her abusive boyfriend over her own daughter and deals with substance and alcohol abuse. All Mary wants is to be loved by anybody who is willing to love her even when its only if they are under the influence any positive attention or attention at all gives her a glimpse of hope that her live will soon become normal again. Throughout the book she talks about her disease, sexual and abusive relationships and alcohol and drug abuse. Most of the time she would only get attention from guys or anyone when she was high or drunk but the attention alone gave her a high that couldn't be replaced by drugs. Any attention she received would make her happy. I want to say that Mary is a inspiration but not for the bad things but for the fact that she didn't lose hope in everything completely she was strong enough to never give up on life, she could've killed herself many times in the book but she didn't. This book has opened my eyes to help and understand people who have substance issues even though I do not have any personally. This book was one of the best ones I have ever read about a truly amazingly strong person.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
AMAZING! This book made me a little sad at times but I absolutely love it. It is definitely on my top 5 of favorite book I have ever read!
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Very good book
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I got bored