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Drive like Hell

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by Dallas Hudgens

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Wanting desperately to be behind the wheel, Luke Fulmer counts down the days to his sixteenth birthday, when he can finally get his license. Unfortunately, the first thing he does with it is "borrow" his neighbor's car. When he is pulled over and found in possession of an air pistol, a ski mask, a stolen TV, and a bag of pot, the unforgiving local magistrate takes


Wanting desperately to be behind the wheel, Luke Fulmer counts down the days to his sixteenth birthday, when he can finally get his license. Unfortunately, the first thing he does with it is "borrow" his neighbor's car. When he is pulled over and found in possession of an air pistol, a ski mask, a stolen TV, and a bag of pot, the unforgiving local magistrate takes scissors to his license and vows to lock him up if he ever stands in front of her again. So with an absent father and a mother descending into alcoholism, he moves in with his older brother, Nick, an easygoing ex-con who wants to steer Luke onto the straight and narrow. In the summer that follows, Luke contends with a kleptomaniac girlfriend, a duffel bag full of cocaine, and the realization that he must save his family from themselves, even as he plots to beat a path out of town.

In his hilarious, unforgettable debut — with everything from stock car racing to drug dealing — Dallas Hudgens brilliantly evokes Southern culture in a tale that is raucous and wrenching, funny and wise.

Editorial Reviews

From the Publisher
"The writing is splendid. Hudgens has captured these characters and this milieu with heartbreaking veracity."
The Charlotte Observer

The San Diego Union-Tribune

"Funny, fast, and dead-on with the details."
The Roanoke Times

"Hilarious...Hudgens's first is so much fun that it's easy to forget how difficult it is to portray decent people acting like morons with an artfulness sufficient to transform it into boneheaded genius."
Kirkus Reviews (starred)

"Drive Like Hell takes corners at 90 miles an hour to deliver the goods."
South Florida Sun-Sentinel

"The twang and the heartbreak are real. Hank Williams would be proud, and deeply amused."
Los Angeles Times
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Welcome to Georgia in the late 1970s, where ten-year-old Luke's otherwise neglectful father is teaching him to drive, a lesson so steeped in southern meaning that it eclipses his father's many failings. Freedom -- ethereal, unattainable, unimaginable freedom -- has just cleared the horizon for the first time in young Luke's life, and he likes what he sees.

Luke's family is a blessed mess. As Luke counts the days until his 16th birthday, his mother enters into a series of painful if poignant relationships with men, only to discover that her closest and most gratifying bond may be with the bottle. Luke runs a bit wild, driving without a license and attracting the notice of the local authorities -- a development that causes his world-weary mother to send Luke off to his drug-running brother, Nick, who is dedicated to seeing that Luke doesn't follow in his path.

But Luke's love for Nick sends him on a journey to catch up with him and his fellow fugitives before the police -- or, for that matter, murderous cocaine traffickers -- find them first. Along the way, Luke discovers love and nurtures a steadily blooming desire to live life on the right side of the law. Equal parts hilarious and touching, painful and joyous, Drive like Hell is a picture-perfect study of growing up restless and rootless in a southern town. (Spring 2005 Selection)

Publishers Weekly
Sixteen-year-old Luke Fulmer gets an education in misbehaving in Hudgens's raucous, Southern-fried bildungsroman. Luke hasn't had the greatest role models: his gorgeous mom, Claudia, needs her soaps like a wino needs his Thunderbird; his deadbeat dad, Lyndell, gets Luke involved in a B and E within 24 hours of seeing him for the first time in a decade; and his older brother, Nick, has done time twice for dealing drugs. It's Georgia in 1979, where Luke steals his brother's nickel bags for pocket money and his neighbor's car for errands-that is, until he smashes it into a tree. He loses his license, is forced to take a job as a busboy at the Holiday Inn, and has to move in with his brother-after all, isn't Nick walking the straight-and-narrow these days? Not hardly: he may have a landscaping business, a decent golf game and a band, Puss N' Booze, but he's also got a nice cocaine trade. Then Luke falls for a kleptomaniac, Nick lands in jail, and Luke has to play pick-up man in a drug drop. Hudgens's sharp dialogue sparkles throughout, and the cat-and-mouse confrontations between Luke, Nick and the local lawmen are particularly funny. Hudgens's takes on car racing, Claudia's dating, Luke's first love and Nick's attempts to teach Luke his dubious keys to success also shine in this shaggy but thoroughly enjoyable debut. Agent, Joe Regal. (Feb.) Copyright 2004 Reed Business Information.
Library Journal
Luke Fulmer is basically a good kid. So what if he borrows a neighbor's car, and she notices that it is gone before he returns it? So what if he gets hauled before the toughest juvenile judge in north Georgia, who revokes his driver's license and sentences him to six months' probation? These and other escapades do not curb this 16-year-old with a big heart and even bigger ideas. Fortunately, Luke is also a quick study, fleet of foot, and blessed with basic good sense and a wicked sense of irony. Hudgens's debut novel is a compelling coming-of-age story, narrated by Luke himself-a rollicking tale of love, death, drag racing, drug dealing, alcoholism, country music, and hanging out. How Luke survives probation and takes charge of his own life will touch a nerve with many readers who have experienced dysfunctional families and survived to remember. Recommended for most popular fiction collections.-Thomas L. Kilpatrick, Southern Illinois Univ. Lib., Carbondale Copyright 2004 Reed Business Information.
Kirkus Reviews
Cars and the damage a man, with them, can do to himself, his women, and his good name lie at the center of this deceptively funny-okay, hilarious-coming-of-legal-incarceration-ager. It's the wretched '70s in the American South. Luke Fulmer is so estranged from his father, Lyndell, that the first time he meets the man, he mistakes him for a prowler and bops him with a baseball bat. No harm done: daddy just wants to take his ten-year-old son on a three a.m. joy ride and pass on the family motto: "A real man eats pussy and drives a stick shift." Luke's legal driving days last all of two weeks; within days of taking his driver's test, a botched attempt to steal back the family TV from the ex-boyfriend of his mother, Claudia, lands him in juvie, where a meanie judge makes confetti of his license. Instead of boot camp, the 16-year-old is sent to spend the summer with his brother, Nick, whose "landscaping" job is a cover for a thriving drug operation, while Claudia moves to Florida to get soused on blender drinks with Sport Coat Charlie (a nice guy, who, alas, has a penchant for sofa-patterned haberdashery). Things go elegantly and effortlessly to hell. Luke picks up a bail bondsmen sidekick named Cash, then a convict's dog (trained in crotch attacks) named Brute, and a girlfriend, Rachel, who steals Juicy Fruit gum by the case. Many wonderful scenes of incompetent mayhem ensue, including a brawl in the Waffle House parking lot with Jack Nicklaus, a golf club, and a broken TV antenna; and a shoot-out in a drug dealer's condo with three drunk pro wrestlers, a Magnum, and a $15 Daisy BB gun. A giddy homage to testosterone-induced blindness: Hudgens's first is so much fun that it's easy to forgethow difficult it is to portray decent people acting like morons with an artfulness sufficient to transform it into boneheaded genius. Agent: Joe Regal/Regal Literary

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I may not have spent much time with Lyndell Fulmer, or have known him the way that some people think a son ought to know a father, but I understood him.

"If you remember anything," he said, "let it be this. A real man eats pussy and drives a stick shift."

He told me this when I was ten years old. He was drinking Lem Motlow as we skimmed along a blacktop outside of town in his '66 Chevelle Super Sport. Three in the morning.

I was the one behind the wheel, perched up at the edge of the seat so I could reach the gas and the clutch, edging up to 50 in a 45. Lyndell was riding shotgun and doing his talking, most of it about driving, like how to downshift and work your heel and toe on the brakes and the accelerator at the same time.

He was lean and dark, with kick-ass sideburns and a junior Porter Wagoner pompadour. A Kool snagged in his teeth and the pint of Motlow between his legs, he fiddled with the radio dial, trying to find something worth listening to, all the while letting me drive as if I were Cale Yarborough.

He pointed to an oak tree up ahead of us, sitting off a bend in the road. "That's your entry point, right there," he said. "When you get to that tree, squeeze the brakes and cut the wheel. Don't jump on the gas again until you start to unwind."

"Unwind what?"

"The steering wheel," he said. "What else?"

"Well, what if I start spinning?"

"You ain't gonna spin. Jesus Christ, don't be so goddamn negative."

He leaned back and mulled over the situation. "Of course, if you do spin, remember to turn into it, not against it."

"Got it."

"All right. Good."

He dialed in a Charlie Rich song on the radio and turned it up nice and loud, so he could hear it over the screaming engine. The Silver Fox was singing about what goes on behind closed doors. Lyndell closed his eyes and started playing the dashboard like it was a baby grand. He didn't appear concerned in the least that I might wreck his car. I pointed the high beams right at the oak tree and prepared myself to brake and downshift.

My baby makes me proud, Lord don't she make me proud.

She never makes a scene by hanging all over me in a crowd.

Claudia, my mother, was disappointed in Charlie Rich. She thought he'd sold out and forsaken the hard-core, gut-bucket country shit that she really loved. Claudia stood firmly in the corner of folks like Hank and Lefty and Lester Flatt, Faron Young, Webb Pierce, and Hank Thompson. She liked the twang and the heartbreak and people talking about killing their lovers. Sounding too smooth never sat well with her. She never

had much good to say about "Gentleman" Jim Reeves or Eddie Arnold. "There's no place more boring than the middle of the road," she'd say.

She and Lyndell had the radio playing in the kitchen one night. They were smoking and fretting over my older brother, Nick, who was in the midst of a twelve-month prison term on account of marijuana trafficking. They'd been to see him that afternoon, and they were talking about his lawyer and his upcoming parole hearing. That's when Charlie Rich came on the radio. He was singing about the most beautiful girl in the world, prompting Claudia to forget all about Nick.

"He used to be good," she said, "back when he sang real country music."

I was eating a bowl of Pet vanilla ice cream, and Lyndell was tapping out the beat to the music with his Zippo. He shrugged and frowned. "It's only a song, Claudia. Why can't you just relax and enjoy it?"

"Because," she said, "the more you listen to that stuff, the more of it they're gonna make."

She looked down at me. "Do you like this song?"

I shook my head. "I don't like any of that country stuff. They all sound like a bunch of hicks."

Claudia could always get sidetracked by music. It might have even meant more to her than cars meant to Lyndell. They each had their Saturday-night destinations. Lyndell's was the dirt track, where he'd change the tires on the Chevelle, slap a pair of magnetized number 7's to the doors, and race in the hobby stock class. Meanwhile, Claudia would be working over at the fish camp, dishing out hush puppies and slaw in the serving line until the house band called her onstage to sing her two songs: "I Can't Help It If I'm Still in Love With You" and "Just Someone I Used to Know."

She'd be wearing her Wranglers and straw cowboy hat, her thin, blonde hair pouring out the sides of it. She always waited for some fellow from the dance floor to give her a boost onto the stage, and then she'd drop her apron and take her spot behind the mike, calling out "one, two, three" in an unsure voice, like she wasn't going to pull it off. Then the Green Lake Gang would start up with their playing, and her voice would suddenly grow strong and run like cool water atop all of their twanging and banging. The men standing down front would stare up at her until their partners grabbed their shoulders and turned them back around to dance.

Claudia and Lyndell could have been one of those couples in a country duet, maybe something by Dolly and Porter, or Conway and Loretta. Verse one would have covered the early years, Claudia sixteen and living with a second cousin, just a quiet girl who'd been abandoned by her mother. Then Lyndell comes along, a good bit older, already been through one marriage and a stint in Korea, nursing a constant hangover while he fixes transmissions at a garage. He's got a glow that's not all whiskey, and Claudia falls for him. She turns up pregnant, they get married, and Nick is born. Life's sunnier than July.

Verse two would have to introduce the heartbreak; Lyndell drifting and drinking and fighting his demons, finally leaving and getting married to another woman. Claudia's all alone again, except for the kid. It ain't July anymore.

Verse three would provide the reconciliation, with Dolly doing the singing:

And then, eight years later, he called me out of the blue.

He said, "Honey, I'm with this other woman, but I've been thinking of you."

He said, "I'm the water and you're the moon, and if I can't see you soon,

then I do believe my heart will turn to dust."

That would have been a good ending right there, Dolly taking

him back and then fading things out with a nice refrain about lovers under the moon. But Lyndell and Claudia's story still had a few more verses to go, and they really weren't all that song-worthy. Of course, I still had to be born. And then Lyndell would run back to his wife, who'd eventually find out about the fling that produced me. She'd shit a brick, divorce Lyndell, settle up for possession of his GTO, and then burn it right in front of his eyes for spite. Lyndell would drift for several years, until he heard about Nick being locked up. And that would bring him back again. He was no longer the dashingly drunk paramour. He was just a man who needed a place to stay. And so Claudia offered him the sofa.

I met Lyndell at two o'clock in the morning, when he slipped into my bedroom smelling of sweet liquor and cigarette smoke. I didn't know who he was. I only heard the floorboards creaking in the darkness, so I reached under the bed for my Rico Carty baseball bat. As soon as the tall, dark figure stepped into the strike zone, I took his ass to right field.

All the air rushed out of his body. He groaned, dropped to his knees, and fell onto his side. He looked like a wrestler who'd just been thrown from the ring. "My kidney," he whimpered. "Oh, God. I think my kidney's ruptured."

The hallway light came on and Claudia swept into the room, still tying her blue bathrobe. I was standing on the bed with the bat cocked behind my ear, and Lyndell was lying on his back with his hands covering the top of his head.

Claudia rushed over and grabbed the barrel of the bat. "Holy shit, Luke. Don't kill him. That's Lyndell. That's your father."

My heart slowed to a trot. I pulled the bat off my shoulder and tilted my head to get a better look. My body felt warm and tight all of the sudden, like someone had rolled me up inside a big, heavy rug.

Ever so slowly, Lyndell's hands parted. When he realized I had no intention of smacking him again, he swiped his hand across his chest. "That's the take sign," he said.

I dropped the bat on the bed. "You oughta try knocking. I thought somebody was breaking in."

Claudia helped him sit up. He groaned and touched his fingers to his side.

"Jesus, boy. You swing like Willie McCovey."

I hopped off the bed, dressed in my skivvies and socks. That's what Nick slept in, at least before he went to prison. He'd told me the socks were more important than pants — they took longer to put on in case you had to make a fast getaway.

"You're lucky I was choking up," I said.

Lyndell pushed himself to his feet. He was wearing his Wranglers, a blue T-shirt, and a gray Amoco jacket with his name stitched over the heart.

Claudia couldn't help but smile a little as Lyndell leaned against the wall, still hurting and doubled over from the blow. "So what's the word?" she asked. "Are you gonna live?"

"I think so." He laid his hand on his side again. "I might be pissing blood for a few days, but otherwise..."

"Well, what were you thinking, sneaking in here like that?" she asked.

He pointed my way. "I was gonna see if he wanted to take a


"At this time of night?"

"Well, yeah. It's the best time. No cops. No traffic."

"Oh, Lord." She was smiling, though, and Lyndell was looking over her shoulder. He was smiling, too. He even gave me a wink.

The next night, I was ready to make a fast getaway, wearing my Keds and my Toughskins under the covers. Lyndell was careful to knock. He stuck his head in the door and waved his hand for me to follow him.

We padded out of the house and climbed into the white Chevelle. It was long and low-slung, with a twin-bulge hood, a Muncie four-speed, and mag wheels. The front fenders were embossed with crossed flags and the words "Turbo Jet." I'd never been impressed much with cars before then, but this one got my attention. It was the smell as much as anything else, the cigarette smoke and the leather and the gasoline. It smelled like the place to be at two o'clock in the morning.

Lyndell coasted down the driveway so the engine wouldn't wake Claudia. He rolled halfway down the street and fired up the motor on the fly. BA-WOOM, WOOM, WOOM, WOOM. The big V-8 scared me. It felt like that engine was over us, under us, in front and behind us. I grabbed hold of the dashboard with both hands. Lyndell glanced over and smiled. I let go and tried to sit back like I wasn't all that impressed.

We didn't talk much at first. Lyndell drove toward town, playing with the radio as he steered us along the crooked roads, braking and downshifting and romping on the gas when it was needed. He drove faster than anybody I'd ever seen, and it took a while for me to relax and start to feel like the engine wasn't so much surrounding me as a part of me. It made me feel fast, strong, loud, and hard to break.

We lived forty miles north of Atlanta in a town called Green Lake. It hadn't even been a town before World War II, just an empty river valley. The Army Engineers drove in after the war and decided the valley would be the perfect spot for a huge dam to help water and electrify all the people in Atlanta. The result was Green Lake, a forty-thousand-acre pond, which had become, as I'd learned in social studies class, a "valuable water, power, and recreation resource." Or as Claudia used to say, "Take away the lake, and there goes the Dairy Queen and the Holiday Inn."

Lyndell wheeled the Chevelle past the Holiday Inn. It was a fairly impressive structure for Green Lake in 1973 — a two-story job, all lit up, the parking lot filled with automobiles. Tom T. Hall was on the car radio, singing about heaven and how the water there tasted an awful lot like beer.

"Hmm." Lyndell slowed the car and eyed the hotel's lighted swimming pool. It shone like a bright, blue gem out in the middle of the parking lot. "I think me, you, and Claudia might need to come over here one night and take a dip in that thing."

We passed the Krystal, the Big Star, and the Dairy Queen. The buildings glowed under the spring moon, their neon signs still flickering long after closing. The bank's time-and-temp sign said it was 2:46 a.m. and 65 degrees.

Lyndell drove down to the end of the commercial strip and pulled into Wilson's Auto Supply, an old cinder-block eyesore. He pulled around back, cut the lights, and stepped out onto the gravel. He motioned for me to follow him.

"You ever seen one of these?"

We were standing in the shadows at the back door of Wilson's. Lyndell was holding up a greasy piece of metal.

I shook my head. "Uh-uh."

"It's a distributor cap," he said. "I need a new one for the car. You think you could get in under that door and get me one?" He pointed to the dog door that was cut into the bottom of the door frame. It was small, barely the size of a dachshund. I knew it would be a tight fit.

"I thought you worked at a garage. Can't you get one of those for free?"

"Well, I don't exactly have a job yet. I mean, hell, I just moved in with y'all yesterday." He crossed his arms and scratched at his chin. "I've got a line of credit here. Me and the owner go way back. We used to race together and everything, so he doesn't really mind me coming in and taking what I need."

"Wouldn't he give you some keys if he didn't mind you coming in?"

Lyndell scratched at his head and looked back over his shoulder. My questions were making him awfully itchy, but I kept asking them.

"You really raced together?"

Lyndell shrugged in a dodgy sort of way. "More like against each other. We don't get along too well."

"How come? Did you beat him?" I imagined Lyndell standing in the winner's circle with a big trophy.

"Sort of," Lyndell said. "He ran me into the wall one night when I was leading. Two laps to go in the feature race. Came up underneath me and hit my rear axle."

"And you still beat him?"

"Well, no. Not in the race, anyway. Hell, I couldn't even finish because my car was so busted up. But after it was over, I wrapped a tire iron in newspaper and went after him down in the pits. I got in a good head shot before they pulled me off him. Split his scalp wide open."

"That'd be a better story if you'd come back and won the race."

"Yeah, I know. Funny thing is, I met his wife a couple years later in this bar." He smiled and wolf whistled, remembering the occasion. "I got him back real good then."

We stood there staring at each other. "You mean you hit his wife in the head with a tire iron, too?"

He shook his head and scratched his shoulder. He wasn't used to telling his stories to kids.

He pointed to the dog door again. "So what do you think? Will you do it?"

I'd stolen some stuff before: candy bars and cinnamon toothpicks from Elmore's Five and Dime, and a Hot Wheels car from a kid's desk at school. I'd actually felt bad when the kid started crying about his toy car. Nevertheless, I wanted to impress Lyndell.

"You need anything else while I'm in there?"

Lyndell smiled. "Now that you mention it, I could use a new oil filter. But that's all. There's no need to get greedy."

I had to wiggle my ass a little to get my hips through the dog door. Lyndell helped me along with a shove. "In you go," he said.

The stockroom was windowless and pitch black. It smelled like mildew and grape soda. I switched on the flashlight Lyndell had given me and made my way up front. The caps and the filters were exactly where he'd said they would be. I pocketed the goods and scrambled back to the dog door. I felt like Colonel Hogan on one of his nighttime scouting missions outside the stalag.

Lyndell had said he would time me on his watch to see how fast I could get in and out. I slid the distributor cap, oil filter, and flashlight through the door and wormed my head and shoulders out into the cool night air. I looked up from the ground, still half in and half out of the store. "How long?" I asked.

Lyndell had already retrieved the goods. He was reading something off the back of the oil filter box. He glanced at his watch and shrugged. "About two minutes, eighteen."

"That's bullshit," I said.

His mouth dropped open in a gesture of mild shock. "Does Claudia know you talk like that?"

"She doesn't care. As long as it's not at school." Of course, that was a lie. But I figured if he was going to ask me to steal things, I might as well get something in return.

He nodded like the deal made sense. "All right. I was just checking. But don't go overboard. If you cuss all the time, people won't take you serious." He went back to reading the package.

"I counted in my head," I told him. "There's no way I was in there two minutes."

He didn't say anything, so I craned my neck and tried to look him straight in the eye. "You didn't really time me, did you?"

He sighed and jerked his thumb back over his shoulder in the direction of the empty road. "Well, I had to keep a look out." He walked over to the car and tossed the stuff into the open window. He turned my way again and waved his hand through the air. "Come on out of there."

I tried to slide the rest of the way through the door, but my ass was stuck again. This time I couldn't work it free.

"I can't."

"What do you mean, you can't?"

"I mean I'm stuck."

Lyndell grabbed my arms and started pulling. He pulled, and I wiggled. I tried holding my breath, blowing it all out, sucking in my stomach, tightening my butt, the whole nine yards.

"I can't move either way, now. I think my legs are falling asleep."

Lyndell stepped back and observed the situation. "Well, what the hell did you do, eat a T-bone steak while you were in there?"

He stood above me for a moment, thinking. He took a look at me and then the Chevelle. His eyes lingered on the car.

"If you leave me, I'll tell on you."

He pulled his Kools out of his jacket pocket and smiled. "You wouldn't rat out your old man, would you?"

"Does a hobby horse have a hickory dick?"

Lyndell laughed. "Hey, where'd you hear that one?"

"From Nick."

He shook his head, still smiling. "I bet you didn't know he heard it from me. Ain't that a kick in the ass?"

"It'd be a bigger kick if I wasn't stuck in this door."

"All right, then. Just hold your damn horses."

He went to the car and grabbed his tire iron from the trunk, then he walked back over and sized up the problem. The tire iron dangled at his side.

"I guess this guy, Wilson, hates to see you with one of those."

Lyndell gazed down and chuckled, then he squatted and went to work. By the time he'd finished hacking up the door, a good-size hunting dog could have scampered through the hole. I crawled right out, stood up, and brushed off my jeans.

Lyndell held the tire iron up in the air and grinned. "Now that's what you call an all-purpose tool."

We ended up on Green Lake Road that night. It was a crooked two-lane running along the banks of the lake. There were no other cars out, so Lyndell took it upon himself to double the speed limit. We were doing 90, the pine trees streaming past us like fence posts. Every now and then there'd be a break in the trees, and I'd catch a glimpse of the lake.

Lyndell plucked the cigarette lighter out of the ashtray and held the orange tip to a fresh stick. He glanced my way, smoke filling the air.

"You like cars?" he asked.

"They're all right."

"Well, you don't sound too committed."

"It's not like I can drive."

"Says who?"

"You ever heard of the police?"

Lyndell waved his hand through the air. "You don't need a damn license to be able to drive. I know plenty of drivers who don't have a license. Most of them can drive better than the people who do have one. Even when they're drunk."

He flung us around the curve, pressing me up against the door. He caught a little bit of the shoulder coming out. The tires thumped like we'd run over a squirrel. Lyndell dropped the Muncie into fourth and jumped on the gas again.

"Well, what else?" he asked. "What do you like to do?"

"I don't know."

"Well, you gotta like something."

"I don't like school, if that's what you're getting at."

"Shit, no," he said, "that's not what I'm getting at. I just mean for fun. If you've got a day to kill, what would you do with it?"

Only one thing came to mind. "I'd probably watch TV."

Lyndell smiled, nodded. "You get that from Claudia. I remember when we bought our first Emerson. Hell, I couldn't get her out from in front of it. She'd sit there all day with Nick in her arms, watching those soaps."

"She's still like that," I said.

"General Hospital?" he asked.

"Every day at three, watching those Quartermaines."

He laughed. "I never cared much for the soaps. I do like that Love, American Style show. That's a good one. That, and Flip Wilson."

He asked what shows I liked best. I took him down the list, starting with the eight o'clock programs. Gunsmoke, Bonanza, Mod Squad, Emergency! I also made sure I mentioned Georgia Championship Wrestling, which conflicted with one of Claudia's favorites, Hee Haw. Sometimes, she'd blackmail me and force me to sing that "Gloom, Despair and Agony" song from Hee Haw just for the privilege of watching wrestling. For some reason, she got a kick out of hearing me sing it. I thought the whole thing bordered on psychological abuse.

"Who's your favorite wrestler?" Lyndell asked.

"I like Buddy Colt. Him and Mr. Wrestling Number Two."

"What about the Funk Brothers?"

"They're all right. They can do some damage."

Lyndell nodded. "That stuff's fake, you know."

"Yeah, I know. Claudia met one of those guys at the fish camp."

"Who? A wrestler?"

"Yeah. His name's Rowland, but he wrestles as Big Boy Brown. He's not on TV, though, so you wouldn't know him."

Lyndell frowned. He didn't speak for a moment, but he kept glancing over at me like he was hoping I'd say something.

"So is that her boyfriend?"

"Who, Rowland?"

"Rowland. Big Boy. Whatever the hell he goes by."

"Nah, Claudia only went out with him twice. She said he'd landed on his head one too many times."

Lyndell nodded. He was staring out over the hood again. "So I guess she meets a lot of men at the fish camp."

My heart gave my rib cage a little tap-tap-tap, just to let me know this might be a good time to play dumb.

"Not many," I lied.

He cast a suspicious glance in my direction. "Claudia's an awfully pretty woman," he said. "You might not have noticed that, seeing how she's your mother. But other men notice."

"Lee Gordon said she reminded him of a young Angie Dickinson."

"Who's that?"

"She was in that John Wayne picture, Rio Bravo, and the one with Burt Reynolds, Sam Whiskey."

Lyndell shook his head. "Hell, I know who Angie Dickinson is. I mean, who the hell is Lee Gordon?"

"Oh, he's the manager at the Big Star. He plays that stand-up bass in the Green Lake Gang."

Lyndell was getting all puffed up, like he wanted to fight somebody. He was squeezing the steering wheel extra tight.

"I don't know him, but he's a damn idiot. She don't look a thing like Angie Dickinson, I can tell you that. She's got prettier hair than Angie Dickinson."

"You jealous or something?"

He snorted, but without a whole lot of conviction. "Hell, no, I'm not jealous. Me and Claudia have an understanding about these things. I just wanna make sure she doesn't get mixed up with the wrong guy."

"She said there's a lot of men who are lucky she's not a big singing star."

"Why's that?"

"Because she could sing some real mean songs about them."

Lyndell got quiet for a moment. He switched off the radio in an agitated way. Roger Miller, one of his all-time favorites, had been singing. Even Claudia liked Roger Miller. Hell, even I liked Roger Miller.

"Well, I sure hope she wasn't including me on that list," Lyndell said. "I might not be perfect, but I've always had her best interests at heart."

We never got around to swimming in the Holiday Inn's pool. Lyndell and Claudia were hardly ever together. Lyndell eventually found work at a garage. He had a habit of going in late and coming home even later. I don't believe Claudia ever saw much money from him, but she was always friendly enough toward him. They played gin sometimes in the evenings, Claudia whipping Lyndell's ass time and again while the radio played.

"Goddammit, this game ain't nothing but luck." Lyndell fired his hand down on the table after another futile effort. He turned in his chair, crossed his legs, and lit a cigarette.

Claudia smiled and winked at me. I'd been sitting there pretending to read one of my schoolbooks.

"Poor Lyndell," she said, "he's lost his touch."

Lyndell had his arms crossed. He was sulking and drawing the life out of his Kool.

"The thing is," she said to me, "he's the one who taught me to play this game. Taught me years ago, and now that I'm better than him, he doesn't like it much."

Claudia never stopped seeing other men while Lyndell was staying with us. Sometimes, on fish camp nights, she wouldn't come home until five in the morning. Lyndell would have stumbled in long before her, a quart of Schlitz in his hand, his face and clothes caked in the red powder from the dirt track. We'd fall asleep together on the sofa, watching the TV in the dark, James Brown's Future Shock and then the monster movies on channel 17. Lyndell was a big James Brown fan.

One Sunday, I woke up to Lyndell and Claudia arguing. It was the only time I ever heard them raise their voices at each other. Lyndell was back in Claudia's bedroom.

"You're just doing this to get back at me," he said. "It's nothing but spite."

I tiptoed down the hall and gazed through the crack in the doorway. Claudia was standing there wrapped in a towel, still wet from the shower. Lyndell stood in front of her, dressed in his racing clothes from the night before. Claudia flicked the towel with her thumb and let it fall to her feet. She stood there in front of him naked. I turned away as fast as I could.

"It's not spite," she said, her voice cool and measured. "It's called blowing your chance. And you blew it twice. So, take a look, Lyndell. Get your eyes full. Because all you're gonna have is a memory."

Lyndell didn't have anything else to say.

We kept up the late-night car rides. Lyndell would come in and wake me a couple times a week. At school, I would daydream about the Chevelle, the smell and the feel of the engine when it threw my head back against the seat. I drew pictures of it in my notebook. I pictured myself on the dirt track, behind the wheel, banging fenders on the last lap. Lyndell had taken me to the Green Lake Speedway to watch him race a couple of times. He'd set me up in the stands with a funnel cake and a Coke. He hadn't made the feature race on either occasion, but he hadn't wrecked, either. It was about the most fun I'd ever had. I realized that the only thing better than one loud, fast car was a whole bunch of them driving in circles together.

One of the best things about our car rides was hearing Lyndell tell stories about his own father, C.W. It was C.W. who had taught Lyndell to drive in his '39 Ford Coupe, the same car that C.W. used to run liquor down from north Georgia to Atlanta. Lyndell was barely twelve when he started driving that car.

"It's best to learn young," he said.

"Why's that?" I asked.

He thought for a moment, then shrugged. "Hell, I don't know. It just is."

Lyndell had all sorts of C.W. stories. C.W. winning illegal stock car races in cow pastures, outrunning the law, sharking people at pool and then fighting his way out of the bar with a cue stick. My favorite tale involved the time he was hauling ass through Buford after dropping off a load of whiskey. The deputy pulled him over and walked up to the window, whereupon C.W. presented him with a twenty-dollar bill. The deputy gave C.W. a puzzled look and said, "Goddamn, C.W. After all the times we've done this, you should know a speeding ticket only costs ten dollars." C.W. just nodded his head, one foot still riding the clutch and the other revving the motor. "I am fully aware," he said. "But seeing how I plan to be in a big hurry when I come back through here tonight, I'd like to go ahead and pay the other fine up front."

Lyndell had promised to let me drive the Chevelle before he moved out. When that time came, he drove us out to Green Lake Road this particular night, pulled onto the shoulder, and slid the stick into neutral. The moon was high and full and white as a marble. George Jones was singing "The Race Is On."

"I'm probably rushing things here a little," Lyndell said, "but it's now or fucking never."

I knew what he was getting at. "I'm ready."

He considered my face and my hands. "Are you scared?"

For some reason, I decided to be truthful. "A little bit."

He smiled and nodded. "That's good. A little fear is a good thing. It'll keep you alert. I guarantee you Richard Petty gets a little nervous before races."

He pressed in the cigarette lighter and waited for it to catch fire. He already had the Kool dangling from his lips.

"Are you planning to leave or something?" I asked.

He turned down the radio a little and pulled the cigarette out of his mouth. "It's kind of looking that way," he said. "Nick'll be out in a few months, and the racing season's almost over. Plus, I got an offer to work at this race shop up in Bristol."

"Does Claudia know?"

"Yeah, she knows. I think she'll be glad to have me gone."

He got a concerned look on his face. "Are you okay with it?"

I thought about my room, empty and dark, and how I didn't want to be there, how I could have spent every night like this. We sat there a moment longer. I kept waiting for him to open the door so we could switch sides, but he never made a move in that direction. He still had his hand draped over the wheel, staring out the windshield like he was trying to spot something up ahead of the high beams.

I asked him what he saw. He grunted and shook his head like he was trying to clear some things out of his mind. He pulled the Lem Motlow out from under the seat, unscrewed the cap, and took a pop.

"I was just thinking," he said. "You know, Claudia thought that maybe having me around would be good for you. She thought that maybe the reason Nick got into trouble was because I hadn't been around when he was growing up."

The lighter finally clicked, and he whipped it out and sparked his Kool with it.

"I don't think that's why Nick got into trouble," I said. "He told me it was because some guy turned state's evidence on him."

Lyndell smiled. "Yeah, I know all about that. I'm just talking about something different. What Claudia was hoping is that maybe I could teach you some things, maybe give you an idea of how a man should act, so you wouldn't get into any trouble yourself. She thought it might be a way for me to sort of make amends."

He studied my face. Something about it seemed to frighten him. He pulled back a little. "I didn't teach you a damn thing, did I?"

I dug really deep, hoping I could bail him out. I could tell it was important to him.

"A tire iron comes in pretty handy," I said. "That's one thing."

He laughed, but soon he was frowning. I started to worry he might change his mind about letting me drive.

"Don't worry," I said, "I'm not gonna get thrown in jail when I grow up. I only had detention seven times last year. This kid, Marty Atkins, got it twenty-three times. I heard Mr. Rogers, the principal, say that Marty was gonna make a good convict one day."

Lyndell sat there a while longer, squeezing the steering wheel. "There's something I want to tell you," he said.

"What's that?"

He had a real serious look on his face, like he was about to pass along some grave news. I couldn't imagine what it might be.

"It's about C.W.," he said. "It's about those stories I told you."

"What about them?"

"Well, they're all a bunch of shit, basically. I stole them from other people." He turned and blew his smoke out the side window. "Truth is, C.W. wasn't no character. He was just a drunk, an outlaw, a womanizer. Pretty much a sonuvabitch, really."

He looked at me and draped his arm across the back of the seat. His eyes were wide and remorseful.

"You know, he sent me out one time to set fire to a man's sugar sacks. It was another moonshiner, a mean-ass sonuvabitch who'd have just as soon gutted you as look at you. He'd short-changed C.W. on a run, and C.W. wanted to get back at him. I wasn't much older than you at the time, but I knew that sugar was something a moonshiner would kill over, especially this sonuvabitch. We were parked out in the middle of the woods, and it was late at night. I told C.W. I was scared. I told him I didn't want to do it. But he just looked at his car. He said, 'It's a long walk home, boy. A long walk.'"

I felt bad for Lyndell. At least he hadn't left me behind at the auto supply store.

He took another drink out of the bottle. He was getting near the bottom. "You know, I used to take Nick out like this. That was back before you were born." He squinted his eyes, thinking hard, trying to keep the history straight. "Actually, I guess we were in the process of making you. That's when me and Claudia had our second go-round. That's before she'd had enough of me."

"Did you ever let Nick drive?"

"Oh, yeah. Sure, I did. I had me a Plymouth back then. Nick must have been about your age." Lyndell whistled and shook his head. "Good Lord, he scared the shit out of me. Took this turn too fast and spun us around. We ended up in the front yard of this old shack with some sonuvabitch's mailbox lying on the hood of the car. The lights come on in the house, and then this man and woman step out onto the porch. I look over at Nick, and I'm expecting him to be scared to death. But that little rascal was already trying to get the car started. He fired up that sonuvabitch and lit off down the road with the mailbox still on the hood. He finally looked over at me, and he said, 'Lyndell, the mail service sure ain't what it used to be.'"

We both laughed. All I could see was Nick with his grown-up head and long hair, but a kid's body and a little leather motorcycle jacket.

"Now that story is the truth," Lyndell said. "That's the God's honest truth."

"It's a good one," I said.

He drank the last of the bourbon, reached out the side window and hooked the bottle over the top of the car. It bounced down the hill, finally clanking against some rocks near the lake's edge.

"I never did get around to telling Nick the truth about C.W.," he said. "I've been wondering if that might have done some good."

He gave me this aching look. A few years would have to pass before I could recognize someone casting out for a reassuring word. All I knew then was that he seemed to be waiting for me to say something. So I asked a question that I'd always wanted answered. It felt like as good a time as any to ask.

"Do you and Claudia love each other?"

He took a hard pull on his Kool and blew out the smoke. He watched the cloud rise as if it might hold the answer. "We do," he said. "It's just a complicated thing. It's not as simple as those songs Claudia likes, where somebody's always to blame for things going wrong."

He let out a sigh. The music was barely trickling from the dashboard, Glen Campbell singing "Wichita Lineman."

"You meet somebody," he said, "and then you fall in love with them because they give you something you ain't ever had before. But the mean part of love is that, after a while, you find yourself needing other things. So you go out looking for it from somebody else. Hell, everybody does it. They might say they don't, but they're full of shit. And the church folk, they're the worst of all about it."

He flicked his cigarette onto the road and rolled up the window.

"So, why do you keep coming back?"

It was almost like I'd pulled a gun on him. He drew back from me, and his face turned white as the moon. He stared off into the distance, searching for words.

"I don't know," he said. "It's like I was her first, and I can't help thinking I should have been the only one."

He looked at me again. "But I suppose I already had my chance at that. At least that's what Claudia says."

He left after that night. He went up to Bristol, Tennessee, and took the job working on engines at the race shop. Several years later, he married the daughter of the man who owned the racing team. They even had a baby girl together.

I was fifteen when Claudia told me all of this. She said she'd gotten the news from Carl Bettis, one of Lyndell's old racing buddies who worked at the Amoco.

"Can you even picture that?" she asked. "Lyndell Fulmer working a full-time job and keeping up a family? They say he's even quit drinking."

Truth is, I hadn't even thought about Lyndell for a couple of years. I meant no offense by it. He'd just become like an old, broken piece of furniture that you move out to the garage with every good intention of reclaiming one day. Problem is you end up setting something else in front of it, and then another thing, and another, and pretty soon you've forgotten all about that one chair.

Besides, I had other things on my mind just then, namely selling a nickel bag of pot at the 7-Eleven and getting my driver's license when the official date rolled around the coming spring. I was doing a little dealing of my own with Marty Atkins, trying to save money for a car that I could fix up to race at the speedway. Not that I was exactly on the fast track to ownership. My pot operation was small stakes, most of the inventory consisting of weed that I stole from Nick's house. Nick was on parole at the time, following a second round of incarceration over a measurable quantity of contraband. He was one misstep away from a twenty-year sentence.

"Are you mad at Lyndell?" I asked.

"Of course not," Claudia said. "You should never begrudge someone their happiness."

She looked like the saddest person in the world when she spoke those words.

I pushed my chair away from the kitchen table. I stood and watched Claudia. She was leaning against the door, looking down, fingering the frayed edges of her hat brim.

"All right," she said. "I'll probably be late tonight." And then she left.

The house was awfully quiet. I walked over to the sink and switched on the radio. It was already tuned to the country station. I didn't recognize the song that was playing, but it sounded sad, a pedal steel guitar driving slowly and plaintively across a bridge. I switched the radio back off, stopping the lyrics before they ever caught up to me. I can't say if it was about a man or a woman, happiness or despair, people leaving, returning, drinking, or dying. For all I know it might have been about love itself, how it can be a complicated and mean companion.

Copyright © 2004 by Dallas Hudgens

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Dallas Hudgens is a native of Georgia. He is the author of the novel Drive Like Hell and has contributed to The Washington Post and online at FANZINE ( He lives in Virginia with his wife and two sons. For more information, visit

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bravesman More than 1 year ago
This is one of my favorite all time books!! "The great Red Neck Novel"
Guest More than 1 year ago
Wonderful novel. Fell in love with the characters. Amazed at the tansformation of Luke through the novel. With the potential to become a malignant young adult, Luke, throug his adventures, becomes a benevolent and trustworthy young man. Excellent admixture of humor and drama. I hope there will be a sequel so we can follow Luke through young adulthood. A 'Southern classic' that will soon be an AMerican classic I look forward to Hudgens' future works
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