Electricity [NOOK Book]

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Ray Robinson’s visceral, ambitious debut novel Electricity is a tour de force portrayal of a heroine you will not soon forget. Thirty-year-old Lily O’Connor lives with epilepsy, uncontrollable surges of electricity that leave her in a constant state of edginess. Prickly, up-front-honest and down-to-earth practical, Lily has learned to make do, to make the most of things, to look after — and out for — herself. Then her mother — whom Lily has not seen for years — dies, and Lily is drawn back ...
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Overview


Ray Robinson’s visceral, ambitious debut novel Electricity is a tour de force portrayal of a heroine you will not soon forget. Thirty-year-old Lily O’Connor lives with epilepsy, uncontrollable surges of electricity that leave her in a constant state of edginess. Prickly, up-front-honest and down-to-earth practical, Lily has learned to make do, to make the most of things, to look after — and out for — herself. Then her mother — whom Lily has not seen for years — dies, and Lily is drawn back into a world she thought she’d long since left behind. Reunited with her brother, a charismatic poker player, Lily pursues her own high-stakes gamble, leaving for London to track down her other, missing brother Mikey. In the pandemonium of the city, Lily’s seizures only intensify. As her journey takes her from her comfort zone, it leads her into the question of what her life is meant to be.
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Thirty-year-old Lily O'Connor suffers from epilepsy. Abused as a child by her alcoholic mother, she grew up in foster care and is now working as a bingo caller in a dismal seaside town in northern England. After her mother dies, Lily is reunited with her brother Barry, a professional poker player known as Slick. Lily becomes obsessed with locating her other brother, Mikey, who was last seen operating a reptile house. Despite her frequent terrifying seizures, she sets off to London to search for Mikey. At first she is overwhelmed by the chaos of the huge city, but she is determined to start a new life. Along the way, she finds both betrayal and the hope of true friendship. First-time novelist Robinson has succeeded in writing a convincing story from a female perspective while giving us an edgy, gripping look at what it's like to live with epilepsy. Recommended.
—Leslie Patterson

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A vividly portrayed, most unconventional protagonist dominates this punchy first novel from an award-winning British short-story writer. She's 30-year-old Lily O'Connor, a sufferer from temporal lobe epilepsy since early childhood, when her intemperate and unstable mother threw her down a flight of stairs. Lily tells her own story, which begins when her mother (from whom she was "taken away" following the aforementioned "accident") dies, and Lily leaves her entry-level job taking tickets at an amusement park arcade and heads for London, seeking her two brothers. She finds-but discovers she has nothing in common with-sleek, self-absorbed Barry, a professional card player interested in nothing beyond training himself for the World Poker Open. But Mikey, the brother she loved, who had gone missing years earlier, is still nowhere to be found. Adrift in London (which she envisions as "a pile of bodies writhing like fat worms in a fisherman's box"), Lily makes connections doomed to short-circuit: with Mel, the woman Cambridge grad and banker who takes her in (and undoubtedly loves Lily, secretly and guiltily); and with the cryptic Dave, a smug, secretive electrician (symbols clash here) who becomes her lover and abuser, echoing the pattern in which preadolescent Lily had been caught up with her mother's creepy boyfriend Don. The details of such relationships are cliched, and there's too much of the social worker's casebook in other's observations of Lily. But whenever we're inside her own thoughts and perceptions, the novel soars. Innovative typography helps: images of pills Lily takes, lined up in a row; skewed, distorted jumbles of letters, denoting her frequent convulsive seizures. AndLily's voice is impressive-raw, angry, emotionally urgent, rising frequently to inchoate poetry (e.g., water in a canal runs "oily and slow . . . . sound[s] like treacle glooping. Stench like burnt toast"). She's a survivor like no other, and the mixed pleasure of inhabiting her jagged psyche is the best reason for reading this daring tightrope-walk of a novel. Agent: Jennifer Carlson/Dunow, Carlson & Lerner Literary Agency Inc.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780802199126
  • Publisher: Grove/Atlantic, Inc.
  • Publication date: 12/1/2007
  • Sold by: Barnes & Noble
  • Format: eBook
  • Pages: 368
  • Sales rank: 1,085,850
  • File size: 3 MB

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ELECTRICITY


By Ray Robinson

BLACK CAT

Copyright © 2006 Ray Robinson
All right reserved.

ISBN: 978-0-8021-7035-4


Chapter One

26

I was thirty years old when they came to take me away again.

Sat in my booth having A Blank One, the din from the machines just getting too much and smothering me. Pulses and bleeps, whirrs and chug-chugs of slots spewing coins, the rat-a-tat-tats of guns and those lasers zapping away. Sounds sinking down the plugholes of my ears, making my eyes wander the signs on the walls:

UNDER 16S NOT ALLOWED IN WITHOUT AN ADULT TAKE A SEAT, REST, PLAY BINGO! CHECK IN, CASH OUT! JACKPOT u50 FULL HOUSE FORTNIGHTLY THESE MACHINES PAY UP TO u25 CASH!

The letters swimming in and out of my eyes, making me dizzy-as.

And that's when I saw them: two uniforms. They headed to Jim's office and I thought: here to warn us about some gyppos on the make, something like that. But next thing I know Jim's come round the Derby machine and he's pointing right at me.

I put my head down, pretending to count coins.

They tapped on the door and stepped in. The police-woman went Lily? and it looked like my name tasted proper bad in her mouth. The cloud on her face - it said it all.

I nodded, wondering what the fuck I'd done. Then the policeman asked me to confirm my full name and birth date and address, nodding away like he knew them all along.

And then one of them said it,

- Your mother's ill.

Mother.

I felt my head drop.

Then my eyes went and my arms were all heavy down my sides.

-She's been rushed into hospital. She's in a critical condition.

A hand squeezing me.

- She asked for you.

I wanted to lie down, right there and then. I wanted to go to sleep. Wanted these bastards to go back out of that door and leave me the fuck alone. Come on. Yes come on. An arm through the crook of mine. Come on, Lily. I wanted to smash them away. Find somewhere small and dark to curl up and hide. Never come out again. But something inside said you just couldn't.

They had me again.

I watched my trainers through the blur of my lashes. Moving out of the booth, over the carpet, over the pavement, into the car.

Sirens blared away like I was some kind of murderer.

- Do you really need to do that?

The policewoman turned around.

- We need to get there as soon as we can, I'm afraid. We did the full length of the promenade and I felt on show, people turning and staring. An old couple and some kids on bikes outside the chippy - their eyes on mine in the back seat. Their heads moved together, slow, and I wondered what they saw as I gawped back.

I curled up on the back seat and watched the upside-down sky outside the window. It was all murk up there, like dirty dishwater and the clouds were suds. I pictured my hands going into the water and felt cold, felt wet inside.

Because I knew where we were headed.

Over the moors. Along the same road that I'd come on when I was eleven years old. Brought to the care home down near the cliff-edge. Locked up until they could decide what to do with me. Taken away from her, from him, from that house. I remember my heart was hot with never wanting to see them again. The heat went from my chest to my body and I felt the warmth of myself because they were out of my life.

But that journey was in front of me now. I was going back in time.

A couple of hours of hills and cows and drystone fucking walls. The hills making me feel hemmed in. Like brackets in a sentence, but I couldn't find any words to put between them. And I knew I had to. Words that would make sense of the why-am-I-here?

I asked it when I was eleven and I was asking it now.

A couple of hours, then we'd start dropping down those steep roads and into the vale. And those places would be out there. The places that I dream about, though I don't want to dream about.

I hugged my legs. My lungs were folding over into themselves, tucking and pleating. I struggled to breathe. A rattling noise in the back of my throat. I took a quick look out: sheep with shitty arses staring at me, their eyes slitty and yellow like devils.

I grabbed the back of the headrest. I didn't want it all to go in reverse.

I didn't want to be that girl again.

Chapter Two

25

It had that same stink in there. TCP and Germolene. Underneath you could still smell piss and shit and puke. Bodies turning against themselves. The air warm as blood. Sounds ping-ponged off the walls, squeaky trainers and heels clackety-clacking on the shiny floor. The corridors were long and narrow, strip lights running down the middle of the ceiling. Plastic rectangles of white light. Men mainly, wandering about in their scratchy smocks. One with a piss-coloured bag on a tall stand, wheeling it along, doddering in his slippers - he gave me a dark look.

I'd been there a thousand times as a girl and I tried to trick myself that I couldn't remember any of it. But that smell did it. Flick-flickers of memories on the back of my eyelids. Those lights above, burning my staring eyes that I couldn't close - they were the white lines on the road as the ambulance sped. And the swish of the trolley rushing me down to Emergency - I could still feel it on my skin. Sometimes I was too far gone. I got used to coming round to the blue haze of nurses, to blood pooled in my throat.

The police took me into a darkish passageway. A young man was stood talking to a nurse. He looked away when he saw me, greasy black hair hiding a beardy face, scummy-as. But there was something about him. I watched his hands held in front of him, like he was praying. The police took the nurse into a room. The young man sidled off.

And stood on my own in that corridor, I tried to remember what she looked like. Hair long. Down-the-back long. And dark, very dark. Or was I remembering it wet? Or did she dye it? No, it was greying and she always wore it up. Piled high in a queer way that made people stare. A fifties or sixties hairdo. A Bet Lynch beehive. And her eyes were pale blue like the sky in summer, like a seagull's. But a sky that always said rain. I saw the storm clouds in the snarly skin around them.

I could remember curlers and platforms, bright-as-luck headscarves, and that it was always raining, always raging in that house. But I couldn't remember my mother's face.

They reappeared, all slumped and sagged, moving towards me with that look that says I'm sorry. I watched their mouths open and close. The nurse took my arm and led me down the corridor. We stopped beside a door.

- I'll be just out here if you need me.

I stepped in.

The walls were orange from daylight coming through the yellowy curtains. In the corner of the room was a table on wheels. And - yes - a shape beneath the bedsheets.

They said there was something wrong with her insides. She'd had cancer for years and they'd removed most of her guts. She'd a bag thing on her side but she hadn't passed anything for three weeks and hadn't told anyone. What they meant was that her body had filled with shit and killed her.

Shat her insides to death.

A red plastic chair and a locker next to the bed. There was no name, nothing in the room to say that this lump under the sheets was her. I walked over to the locker and opened the drawer. The letters on the cover were cold on my fingers. Holy Bible. Some queer smell hung in the room. Sweet, like gone-off fruit. I was trying not to think that it was her making the smell. I moved to her side and sat on the chair.

And then I did it.

The white hair. The shrunk, sunken face. She looked newborn. Her skin was almost see-through. The veins beneath a bluish colour, stuck up like tree roots around her neck and forehead. Like dying had been some massive struggle. Her fingers were a tangerine colour. Years of cigarettes. They were spread out on the bedsheet like she was drying her nails. One of them was chipped and there was something disgusting about it: bright red nail varnish on your deathbed. I looked at her and imagined her getting cold. Going hard.

Then I got this image of her in my head, from when I was a kid: she's vexed and I'm trying not to look at her eyes, so I look at the cigarette dangling from the corner of her lipsticked gob. The red end dances about as she speaks. The grey ash is getting longer - I'm waiting for it to drop off. She grabs my face, her hands cold slabs of meat. She pinches my face and a nail slices in and I try not to scream. Her words loop clear inside my head: ARE YOU FUCKING LISTENING TO ME YOU LITTLE FUCKING BITCH?

I stood, and leaned over her.

I felt my arm go up, high above my head, and heard the loud crack as I brought my palm down, hard, on the side of my dead mother's face.

The skin on her cheek moved slowly back. Like mud. And I swear that she smiled. An itty-bitty little smile like she was saying ha-fucking-ha you're too fucking late.

I left the room, the corridor, the hospital. I was in the outside world that didn't look any different but should have. I felt a tingle of warmth on my skin and tilted my face up to the bright patch in the sky. The heat on my face and in my heart again and I smiled for the first time that day because she was dead.

And I was safe.

Chapter Three

24

I got the coppers to drop me off at the phone box outside the Clarendon. I thought fuck work - Jim'll think I'm in mourning or something anyway. I took the crumpled bus ticket out of my purse, the ticket with Ridge Racer's number written on. He answered and I said he had to meet me, now or never and he said yes with surprise.

I put Blondie on loud and danced around my bedroom. I chose my push-up bra and some low-deniers. Then the Clarins face tint and Rimmel eyeliner and Revlon lippy that I got cheap off the market, and that posh smelly I only ever wore for special occasions - not that often. I pulled out my black shoes without the heels and my brand spanking new dress. I'd felt saucy when I bought it because I knew how nice it'd look. I imagined men's roving sex-eyes and I liked the feeling it gave me. I haggled the guy on the stall down to fifteen quid. He said he wished he could see it on and I went in your dreams mister. It was short and hugged me in all the right places, showed off my legs. I have great legs. They make up for what I lack in the boob department.

I necked my two evening pills [??] early.

It's what I measure my days by. Six a day. Two in the morning, two in the afternoon, two at night. You can't miss them. Like full stops and my days are three sentences. Awake, two pills, two pills, two pills, asleep.

You just hope life happens in between.

I brushed my hair so many times that it popped with static. I looked electrified with the heat inside me. It made me look even taller than my six foot. I could feel my frizz bobbing soft on my shoulders as I took long-legged strides along the seafront. I had the surprise of a thrill-knot dancing around my belly, and the beam across my face was on full power. The dress felt like something explosive hidden under my coat. I couldn't remember a time when I'd felt better, more alive.

So there was Ridge Racer, waiting for me at Davy Jones Locker, and I was nervous-as. He'd asked me out the week before. He came up to the booth and handed me a fiver.

-Twenties and tens, please. What's your name? You want to go out sometime?

I started laughing and he scratched his head.

- Lily. My name's Lily.

Then he stood staring and went well?

I think I said something like I'm a very busy girl, you better give me your number. I pressed the levers and he scooped out the coins.

- I've got the top three now.

And he strutted off, proud as a dog with two cocks.

When he left, he dropped a piece of paper into the coin tray. He winked at me and smiled from the door. He looked proper made up.

I started marching fast, wishing some of the people inspecting the fresh air and gobbing like goldfish would just move. Hey you, hippopotamus arse, MOVE IT. Couldn't they see I was late, got a date with Ridge Racer?

And though I'd been back heeling it to the rear of my thoughts, it began.

Soft pounding.

Sparks.

Zigzaggedy lines.

Tiny fucking insects crawling in my arms.

Of all the times.

I stared down the street, through the blur of heads towards the sea. I smelt the chips and vinegar from Maggie's Plaice. I saw the band of puke-green sea with mucky seagulls dive-bombing. Heeling it back. Wishing.

No way. And in my new bloody dress.

Sometimes it's the lights.

The world speeds up and you need to grab on to something like you've forgotten what gravity is. The Earth jumps away from you and you panic panic panic like fuck. You'll find somewhere to sit and take hold of someone's arm, pull at their hair, snatch the child's doll away and chew its face off, all the time screaming mmmmmgreeeeeheeeeeyaaaaaNEEEEE then panting like you're squeezing a baby elephant out of your fanny, and they don't know whether to run, cry, hide or shite themselves. Wondering if you're having a heart attack, having a baby. Wondering if you're just the latest Care in the Community fruitloop. Your nails digging into the wooden bench, knuckles scraping the concrete steps until they bleed.

Sometimes God shouts BOO into your soul, his breath knocks you to the floor.

Sometimes it's like warm trickles running from your feet up to your head.

Sometimes people make no sense, you watch their mouths moving but all you hear is oooo eeee aaaaa.

Sometimes your jaw judders, opens and closes like a fish and your tongue's a lump of gristle in your gob that you can't chew.

Sometimes there's no feeling at all just wham bam, inhale, and dark electricity.

I spotted a bench over by the fountain. A flat-capped old bloke was sitting there with his dog. He smiled when I sat down, trying to control the breathing, getting that kind of sick feeling, like you're going to puke and it doesn't matter what position you sit in the green waves come flooding over you.

I put my hands under my bum and bit my lips.

I could feel it sizzling away in my head. Static on a record. Egg being fried in a distant kitchen. Jesus it was coming. A strong one. And I knew: soon I'd be down on the concrete, legs and arms shaking, eyes rolling, tongue lolling about while Ridge Racer nursed his pint and watched the door. I checked the ground for dog shite - I didn't want to ruin the dress more than I had to. I wrapped my hands over my mouth.

MMMMMg ERRRRmmmmg

They say I have the strength of ten men when fitting. How many women is that? It's just one of the stupid things the bright sparks say. Like: I'm afraid you'll be on these pills indefinitely. That's one of their favourites. And it makes me laugh how they always end with an I'm afraid like they really fucking care. And so I say you mean until I peg it? Then they try to baffle me out of the office with their big words. But I'm smarter than they give me credit. I've spent all my fucking life listening to them going on at me, all my life reminding me, as if I'd forget. For your own safety - how many times have I heard that? I can make people laugh and look away and cry though. But I don't blame them. It must look awful. The kids in the care home loved it. I'd come round and they would be leaning over me, chanting and stabbing their fingers.

Chucking an epi. Epi epi epi epi.

The bright sparks scanned my head when I was a bairn. I've got this large lump, just above my left ear. It's where Mare chucked me down the stairs when I was just a baby. Because I wouldn't stop crying. She wasn't bothered about admitting it. And that's when my fits started.

The bright sparks call it my epileptic focus.

And seven or eight I was, when they came up with this daft idea that they should somehow try and pull me out of the fit, because of the way my arms lock under my chin. They thought that by pulling my arms apart, I'd be cured. They haven't got a fucking clue. Not really. None of them have. And I could remember that when I started my squealing, all of a sudden there'd be Mam and whoever else was at hand, their arms open, ready to try and pull me out. But they never did. And they gave up after the day I chucked about fifty, one after the other, and they had to call an ambulance.

FIT-TASTIC SPASTIC. That's what the kids in the care home called me.

mmmmmgreeeeeheeeeeyaaaaaNEEEEE

The old man was fretting. He probably wanted to say something, if he could only find the words. But there aren't any. No magic spells. Head spinning backwards, I grabbed his jacket and pulled him into me, still looking straight ahead, staring at the fountain and the patterns the water was making. They reminded me of something - headlights, dancing across my bedroom ceiling at night. Cars driving down the seafront. They were like little explosions that left stars behind.

(Continues...)



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