Even Now

Even Now

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by Karen Kingsbury

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Sometimes hope for the future is found in the ashes of yesterday.

Shane Galanter is a man ready to put down roots after years of searching. But is he making the right choice? Or is there a woman somewhere who even now remembers—as does he—those long-ago days . . . and a love that hasn’t faded with time?

Lauren Gibbs is a


Sometimes hope for the future is found in the ashes of yesterday.

Shane Galanter is a man ready to put down roots after years of searching. But is he making the right choice? Or is there a woman somewhere who even now remembers—as does he—those long-ago days . . . and a love that hasn’t faded with time?

Lauren Gibbs is a successful international war correspondent who gave up on happily-ever-after years ago—when it was ripped away from her. Since then, she’s never looked back. So why can’t she put to rest the one question that haunts her: Why is life so empty?

Emily Anderson is a college freshman raised by her grandparents and about to take her first internship as a journalist. But before she can move ahead, she discovers a love story with a tragic ending that came accompanied her birth. As a result, she is compelled to look back and search out the mother she’s never met.

A young woman seeking answers to her heart’s deep questions. A man and woman separated by lies and long years . . . yet who have never forgotten each other. With hallmark tenderness and power, Karen Kingsbury weaves a tapestry of lives, loss, love, and faith—and the miracle of resurrection.

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Even Now

By Karen Kingsbury


Copyright © 2005 Karen Kingsbury
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ISBN: 0-310-24753-5


Christmas 2006

It was time.

Emily Anderson had waited all her life for this moment.

The box on the floor in front of her held the hope of a lifetime ... her lifetime. Inside could be a window, a glimpse, a pathway to the past, to a time still littered with question marks. But what if it wasn't? What if it was nothing?

For a moment Emily could only sit, stone still, and stare at it. Doubts gathered around her like summer storm clouds. This was her last chance. If the box held only high school mementoes, framed photographs, and old stuffed animals, then she'd know she'd reached her final dead end.

And barring a miracle, her search for her parents would be over.

She laid her hands on the dusty cardboard top and traced her fingers across the words. Lauren's Things. The box would be nearly nineteen years old now.

A lump stuck in her throat and she swallowed, forcing it down. "Mom ..." she stared at her mother's name. "Did you leave me a trail?" She closed her eyes and hugged the box. "Please, God, let there be something here."

Downstairs her grandparents were fixing dinner. They'd given her this time. Her tender old papa had found the worn box in the garage stashed away in a cobwebbed corner with a dozen other forgotten cartons. He had known how much it would mean to her, how long she'd been waiting for a breakthrough like this.

"Emily, honey," he'd told her when she came home from college that day. "This belonged to your mother." He held the box in his hands. As tall as she was, she still felt tiny next to him. He had to look around the brown edges of the box to see her. "I'll take it to your room. You'll need some time."


She opened her eyes and stared at the box, hard and long, drilling imaginary holes through the flimsy cardboard. As if maybe she could see inside before she tore into it and found out for sure. Panic tap-danced around her, and she grabbed two quick breaths. What if she went through the whole thing and found no clues at all? Two more breaths. Come on, Emily. Exhale. She tightened her middle, pursed her lips, and blew out. God, get me through this. There has to be something.

How many times had she prayed for a clue or a sign? A trail that would lead her to her parents, even for a day? Then she could ask them why they'd left and how come they never cared to find out what happened to their little girl?

Emotion flooded her, tightening her throat, closing her eyes. Memories rushed back like forgotten classmates - hateful ones, who used to laugh when you weren't picked at recess.

Suddenly she was in kindergarten again, at the Mother's Day luncheon. She and the other boys and girls had made place mats with bright green handprints and pretty painted flowers coming from the top of every finger. They sang a song, and Emily could hear their young, off-key voices booming out, "Thanks for all you do ... Mommy, I love you!"

As with everything around Mother's Day, Emily directed the words to her grandma.

Even back then, she'd known. She was the only kindergartner without a mother. The only one whose mommy left when she was just a few weeks old. Now she watched her kindergarten self as the memory of what happened next played back, every painful detail intact ...

"Grandma," she asked, "where is my mommy? Do you know?"

Her grandmother got sort of nervous. "No, sweetie. Papa and I tried to find her but, well, we haven't had any luck."

Emily had felt suddenly lost. Like the day she was at the park and couldn't find her papa. Then an idea came to her. She smoothed her fancy dress and swung her legs, setting her patent-leather shoes in motion. "Maybe I could find her!"

"Honey." Her grandma patted her hair. "I don't think she wants to be found."

And that was that.

Emily drew a shuddering breath, relieved that the memory was over. But on its heels came another. The time she was thirteen and all of eighth grade was getting "the talk."

"I feel funny talking about girl stuff in school," she told one of her friends at lunch that day. "Seems like it should be private."

"So talk to your mom." The friend smiled. "Moms are great for that."

The emptiness and loss were so terrible, Emily felt like an actual hole in her heart, a hole so thorough she bet her friend could see straight through her. That afternoon, Emily went home and made a promise.

Someday, I'm going to find my parents. No matter what.

Emily brushed a hand across her face, as though she could free her mind from the haunting thoughts. She opened her eyes and stared at the box.

Eventually her grandparents got Internet access. After that there were days of typing in her mother's name - L-a-u-r-e-n A-n-d-e-r-s-o-n - and searching through lists of schoolteachers and scientists and track stars, but never - not in all the thousand entries that popped up, making her breathless with possibility - did she find her mother. Same with her dad. She'd spent hopeless afternoons looking for him any way she could imagine.

And now, at eighteen, she was no closer to finding them than when she first started. What she wanted - what she'd always wanted - was the truth. Because the sketchy details she knew made up barely a handful of dots. Nowhere near enough to connect.

Cobwebs stuck to the top of the box, and Emily brushed them off. She let her hands rest on the old, worn carton, wondering. Could it be? Did this box hold the secrets - secrets that would answer the questions that had haunted Emily all her life?

Why did her mother leave? Where was she? Why hadn't she been in touch since she ran away? Had her parents ever connected again?

She gripped the top of the box. Maybe ... maybe she was about to discover enough pieces to put together a trail.

And maybe the trail would lead her to the story.

She couldn't wait another minute as she opened the side flaps. It was really happening; she was about to see her mother's things, touch them and read them and breathe them in. Her heart beat so hard and fast she wondered if her grandparents could hear it downstairs.

She peered inside. The first few items were framed photographs of her parents. Emily reached in, lifting them with careful fingers. Beneath them were yearbooks and folded handwritten letters. Emily's heart jumped. Hours of exploration stretched before her. As she pulled out the contents of the box, she lay each item on her bed, staring at it even as she reached for the next item.

Did the letters hold declarations of love from her dad to her mom, maybe words that explained the feelings they had for each other or their plans for after their baby was born? She would read them later. For now she had to keep digging, because she had to make it through the entire box, just in case.

In case the answers lay somewhere near the bottom.

She reached back into the carton and pulled out another layer of pictures and photo albums, and two-thirds of the way down, a tattered stuffed bear. Only after the bear was removed did she see something that caused her loud, demanding heart to jerk to a silent halt.

Journals. Eight ... maybe ten of them. And beneath those, what looked like notebooks, dozens of notebooks.

Emily rifled through the carton, collecting the journals and placing them on the bed next to the photos, yearbooks, and letters. Then she pulled out the first notebook and opened it. The pages were a little warped and yellowed, filled with page after page of narrative and dialogue. Emily scanned the text and caught her breath.

She'd found it. A missing piece.

Her mother was a writer! She set that notebook on the bedspread and reached for another. This one was thicker, and on the front someone - her mother probably - had written, "Lauren loves Shane." Emily stared at the words and felt the sting of tears in her eyes. Her hands trembled and she ran her thumb over the words.

She slid further back on the bed, until she was leaning against the wall. She propped a pillow behind her and settled in. The clues she'd been hunting for all her life had to be here, buried somewhere between the paper covers of these spiral-bound notebooks. In the stories her mother had written, the stories she'd left behind.

Tales of her parents' love. Maybe the story of their loss. And perhaps even the reason why they'd gone away and left their baby to live without them.

Biting her lip, Emily turned the page.

And then, carefully so as not to miss a single detail, she began to read.


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Meet the Author

New York Times best-selling author Karen Kingsbury is America’s favorite inspirational novelist with over 20 million books in print. Her Life-Changing Fiction™ has produced multiple best sellers including Unlocked, Leaving, Take One, Between Sundays, Even Now, One Tuesday Morning, Beyond Tuesday Morning, and Ever After, which was named the 2007 Christian Book of the Year. An award-winning author and newly published songwriter, Karen has several movies optioned for production, and her novel Like Dandelion Dust was made into a major motion picture and is now available on DVD. Karen is also a nationally known speaker with several women’s groups including Women of Faith. She lives in Tennessee with her husband, Don, and their five sons, three of whom are adopted from Haiti. Their daughter Kelsey is married to Christian artist Kyle Kupecky.

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Even Now (Even Now Series #1) 4.4 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 141 reviews.
TORTOR99 More than 1 year ago
I didn't know that there could be such wholesome good love stories out there. Most books support sinful ways of living, but this one supported the God driven life. I can really relate to Lauren in the way her faith feels lost at times due to situations in life. This book showed me yet another way that God will pull through even in the hardest times of life. I plan on going out and buying another one of Karen's books after getting to experience this one. I loved this book and I read the whole thing in four hours, and I think i cried for at least one! Very moving and emotional story of a family with more love than any I have heard of!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I cried I laughed and couldn't put this book down. It was the first of her books that I have read and now I can't stop reading books that this author has written.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
The storyline was very good, as K. K. usually is, but the number of typos was more than ridiculous. Some even required taking words apart that were mistakenly put together. It affected the ease of reading. I dont know who is in charge of this area, but they missed the mark on this book !!
Guest More than 1 year ago
This is an outstanding book! I could not put it down. I think this book of Karen's is the best that I have read so far. December 2007
bookwormmamaNE More than 1 year ago
I really liked the reilgious aspect of the this story, I liked the characters strong faith in God. The middle tends to drag a tiny bit, but so much happens in the last 5-7 chapters you have to keep reading. I was surprised to see such a strong reference to our current war being a huge part of the story. Overall I enjoyed the book beginning and end are both strong and was so happy to see characters with a strong faith it was refreshing!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is the first Karen Kingsbury book that I ever read. I read it in one day because I could not put it down. It was absolutely amazing! Once it was over I really did feel like I was part of the family. Then I read the sequel and it was just as good! I recommend that everyone read this book and the sequel Ever After. They are fantastic!
Guest More than 1 year ago
This is one of those books that is outstanding and anyone can relate to. I felt connected and could understand every character. A journey of love and lost love is what the book is about. And it confirms love, hope, and faith can conquer a lot. This books helps you review your life and question whether your love can conquer all.
Guest More than 1 year ago
If you know anyone who is young and pregnant--struggling, etc. make them read this book. or struggling to feel like nothing in their life is fair and will ever be again. Very interesting beginnings of a political stance from Mrs. Kingsbury as well. Lovin the book and can not WAIT for its follow-up
Guest More than 1 year ago
I didn't know that there could be such wholesome good love stories out there. Most books support sinful ways of living, but this one supported the God driven life. I can really relate to Lauren in the way her faith feels lost at times due to situations in life. This book showed me yet another way that God will pull through even in the hardest times of life. I plan on going out and buying another one of Karen's books after getting to experience this one. Thank you Karen!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I thought the first 100 + pages sad and depressing. I wondered to what age group this was geared. I kept reading because of all the awesome reviews and how well it was written. The last 1/3 of the book was wonderful. Many tissues are needed throughout the book. The typo's were very distracting - I would be reading along and say what out loud? And have to reread - The last part of words were put together with the next words to make new words that didn't flow with the story. I would have given the book 5 stars if not for the typo's.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I have read many of Karen Kingsbury's books and this was again a superb story.  However, the quality of the e-book  was very disappointing.  Many words ran the prefix or suffix into the adjacent word, making it difficult and annoying to decipher.  I have never experienced this in other products from Barnes and Nobles.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This story pulls you in and you find yourself hoping for what seems impossible. A great message.
conniejackson More than 1 year ago
I'm new to Karen Kingsbury and a friend gave this book to read. She thought that it was a wonderful story. Well, I have to agree with her, the book was terrific. Once I started reading the book I had a hard time putting it down. The author's style of writing is warm and heartfelt and I can hardly wait to read another book by this author.
BelieverinbooksJB More than 1 year ago
great insight into the teen pregnancy expierence..also the love between two young people..the story is very sad in many regards for parents who deal with loss or detachement with their teens..the ending is very well written to go on into the second book ever after thats the one i fell gripped to..this story brings the families together with a closer and sense of a happer ever after future together..in an now adult relationship ...
Guest More than 1 year ago
I read the book in 2days..i just couldn't put it down..and once it was over..I felt like I was part of that family..I am about to read the sequel..EVER AFTER...
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book was so amazing! I got so in to the book that once I started reading I couldn't put it down. The author makes you feel like a part of the story. I laughed, I cried, I felt the emotions that the characters were going thru. It was an amazing book and it has a sequel that is just as good.
Guest More than 1 year ago
i am in love with this book! It is OUTSTANDING!!!!! I wish i could give it more Stars!!!!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I read this book and I couldn't put it down! I started the 2nd book right away. Karen Kingsbury is my new favorite author!
Guest More than 1 year ago
This is an excellent book for a person of any age! Once you start reading, you can't wait to get to the next chapter...
Guest More than 1 year ago
I loved this book! I cant wait to get the second one. I reccomend it to everyone. It's good for any age. I'm only 14 and i loved it, my mom loved it and my grandma loved it. It's very eye opening and it can be sad sometimes.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book will change your life. It will renew your faith in God and in all his miracles. It reminds you that he is in charge and has your best interests in mind. It will give you a new perspective on life and will help you look at life with new and clear eyes.
Guest More than 1 year ago
When I started reading this book, I wanted a child, a baby of my own. I am very young-not even graduated from high school yet and I was raised in a Christian home, but I felt I wanted a child. After reading this book, it opened my eyes and made me see the reality of what life is truly like and that the best thing I could ever do is what until I'm at the alter saying 'I do.' Great for any age, I would say...it was always be my fav by KK
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book has to be the most eye-opening book I've ever read! I now truely understand that when someone feels something that I don't feel, it is not my place to judge them. It is so great to have someone write a book that many people can relate to, and the fact theat it includes God is even better. It's not every day anymore that you can find a great book & athour that gives all the glory to God! If I were you, I would go out and buy all the books by Karen Kingsbury that you can find because they are all great!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I loved this book! I read the whole thing in 4 hours, and I think i cried for 2! Very moving and emotional story of a family with more love than any i have heard of!
Guest More than 1 year ago
It was so steady and always made you on the edge of your seat. It was unbinding love, such a romance. A must-read!