Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things: Learning to Love as a Bipolar Aspie [NOOK Book]

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Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things: Learning to Love as a Bipolar Aspie opens with Ellen at a crossroads in her life. She has just lost her fiancé and is starting a new job in the Columbia University Libraries. Here she will meet Danielle, the West Indian woman who is to change her life forever. And, many years later, she will meet Jimmy, the mid-Westerner whom she will one day marry. The book is a testament to love despite the obsession, intrigue, and turmoil Ellen goes through as she falls in love with ...
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Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things: Learning to Love as a Bipolar Aspie

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Overview

Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things: Learning to Love as a Bipolar Aspie opens with Ellen at a crossroads in her life. She has just lost her fiancé and is starting a new job in the Columbia University Libraries. Here she will meet Danielle, the West Indian woman who is to change her life forever. And, many years later, she will meet Jimmy, the mid-Westerner whom she will one day marry. The book is a testament to love despite the obsession, intrigue, and turmoil Ellen goes through as she falls in love with Danielle and nearly loses her mind and her job. The intrigue that ensues is a psychological thriller. Is Danielle really married as she says or is she a closeted tease? Is Danielle really interested but holding back because of Ellen’s psychological problems? Is Danielle interested at all or is Ellen totally delusional? The questions spin round in her mind until Ellen has a breakdown.

Ellen comes to understand that her own fear of closeness and her emotional dissociation makes her incapable of real love. After the breakdown she must start from square one. She recounts the healing process of therapy and her rich inner world of synchronicity which is sometimes exhilarating, often terrifying, and, for a period, psychotic. Ellen is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder but decides she is also autistic. Decades later, this self-diagnosis is corroborated by another psychiatrist as Asperger’s Syndrome, the now well-known Autistic Spectrum Disorder. Ellen’s belief that Danielle is waiting for her to be well provides her with the motivation to fight her mental and emotional problems. Through therapy, various romantic inter-racial and other relationships, and a supportive work environment, she finally learns to be fully “there,” and to quell her inner demons until she can truly love. Enter Jimmy, a man also on the Spectrum, and they fall in love Aspie style.

The book is written in narrative form with dialogue and interior thought processes. The episodes are drawn from the writer’s contemporaneous diaries and writings, thus adhering closely to the truth. The story is not just a psychological portrayal of Bipolar Disorder and Asperger’s syndrome. Subplots also portray Black life in the 1980s and the homosexual lifestyle of the period.

A scholarly version of her story, described as what was then called “Secondary Autism,” appeared in Psychoanalytic Inquiry in 1993. The editor, Dr. Lichtenberg, centered the entire issue of the journal around her article, “Fear of Fusion,” comparing it to Temple Grandin’s and M. Scariano’s book, Emergence Labeled Autistic. Ellen decided to revisit the story in memoir form in order to tell it from a more informed vantage point, incorporating her newly diagnosed Asperger’s Syndrome, which had not been widely known at the time.
This is the story of the triumph of love over mental illness and emotional disability, racial barriers and gender taboos, giving encouragement to those who are fighting their own inner battles. It is a story of how therapy and a supportive environment can foster change, giving insight to parents, therapists and psychiatrists. Lastly, it is a story of hope that those who seek love can find it against all odds.
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Editorial Reviews

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Ms. Wolfe has achieved something quite remarkable. She has applied the direct simplicity of science to a human ordeal and, in the process, accomplished what art does, when it is at its very best. She has fearlessly and generously taken us into her world and - in doing so - enriched us all.
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This book is worth the time. The writer is unbelievably honest about her experiences and she had me caring about her from the very beginning. She is a very brave woman for being as open and detailed as she was. Her mental battles, her struggles with everything and as for the writing, the delivery of her thoughts was intense and well delivered. I have epilepsy and I can tell you that after reading her story it has helped me. She has inspired me and reminded me not to forget what I know. This is a
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Product Details

  • BN ID: 2940014495776
  • Publisher: Ellen Stockdale Wolfe
  • Publication date: 4/12/2012
  • Sold by: Barnes & Noble
  • Format: eBook
  • Sales rank: 1,234,428
  • File size: 541 KB

Meet the Author

Ellen Stockdale Wolfe worked her way through school, earning a BA from Barnard College, an MA in Special Education at Teachers College, Columbia University, an MLS in Library Science at Columbia University. She worked with autistic children in college and in graduate school. Additionally she took courses in fiction and non-fiction writing at the School of General Studies at Columbia. She worked for 30 years as a cataloguer, specializing in her college major and minor, art history and psychology, at Teachers College, Columbia University, Butler Library, Columbia University, the Frick Museum and the New-York Historical Society. In 2000 she left libraries to become a Reiki Master and pursue her early interests in photography, painting, and writing. Her art work can be viewed on her web page:
http://stockdalewolfe.myexpose.com




OTHER PUBLICATIONS


Fear of Fusion, the featured article and focus of Psychoanalytic Inquiry, vol. 13, no. 3, 1993

A nature column in the Millbrook Register Herald with the byline, Under the Black Birch from 2005-2010
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