Flee

Flee

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by Francine Pascal
     
 

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They say that old habits die hard. I have to agree. Just look at my father. He still hasn't kicked the habit of abandoning me. But that's all right. Because if he can run...so can I.

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They say that old habits die hard. I have to agree. Just look at my father. He still hasn't kicked the habit of abandoning me. But that's all right. Because if he can run...so can I.

Product Details

ISBN-13:
9780743422642
Publisher:
Simon Pulse
Publication date:
02/14/2002
Series:
Fearless , #17
Sold by:
SIMON & SCHUSTER
Format:
NOOK Book
Pages:
240
Sales rank:
1,079,797
File size:
329 KB
Age Range:
16 - 17 Years

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I'm considering giving up chess. As in never playing again. Not even in Washington Square Park with Mr. Haq or Zolov or Renny. Definitely not with Sam. Not with anybody. The fact of the matter is that I can't play anymore. I've lost my edge. The game confuses me. The last few times I played, I couldn't strategize. I was losing left and right. And for a grand master, that's humiliating.

More to the point, my life has always felt like chess, like combat. Life makes its move, and I make mine. Maybe I haven't been exactly comfortable with the setup, but at the very least I've been used to it. It's all I've ever really known.

Now it seems like I'm no longer even a player in my own game. I feel more like a pawn. And I'm not even sure of the sides. In the past it was easy to make out black from white, but now the board is a blur of gray.

Who is the white knight? My father or my Uncle Oliver?

I've had my doubts about all of this before. But I've never been as confused as I am now. The simple facts are these: my father is gone again, and Oliver is back -- asking me to live with him. And Sam? I can't even go there. My feelings about him are a negative image of what they once were: where I once had something pure and instinctive and a hundred percent right, I now have only empty, bitter pain.

Yesterday I tried to think of one constant in my life. Instinctively, of course, I turned to my friendship with Ed. But I nixed the thought before it even made it to the surface. Ed is a new person. There's no denying that I feel strange around him. I can't put my finger on exactly what has changed between us, but now that he's up and walking, there's a self-conscious awkwardness between us that I've never felt before.

Which of course makes me wonder if Ed isn't the one who has changed.

Maybe it's me.

And all of this thinking just sends me further into a spiral of uncertainty. I don't have time for it. I need to make some cold, hard decisions. To live with Oliver or not? God. What I would give for some advice right now. I've never much been one for taking (or asking for) advice, but I'm fresh out of strategies. The chessboard is a blank slate. A tabla rasa, as they used to say in ancient Rome. I'm unable to think for myself at all.

Sometimes I feel like confiding in Mrs. Moss, and I find myself almost bursting out and telling her or Paul everything, my whole story -- complete with all of the shit and misery and loneliness. But then I remember myself. Living with the Moss family is a temporary arrangement. I'm not going to sleep in Mary's room forever, no matter how hospitable her family is. Besides, these are good people. They don't need to be burdened with my problems.

Anyway, they can't help me.

No one can help me figure out if Oliver is just screwing with my head, or if he's really the well-meaning uncle he claims to be. So I have to rely on my own judgment. And that's a shame, since it migrated south for the winter a long time ago. So what do I do? Run to Oliver or away from him? Believe what he says -- that my father is actually "Loki" and has been brainwashing me? Or do I tell Oliver to drop dead?

I have to go back to the facts, though. I have to ignore my emotion. After all, emotion clouds reason. That's one of the first lessons of martial arts. And the facts are indisputable. Oliver has come for me twice, while my father has abandoned me twice. He's here now. My father isn't. That should count for something...right?

I'm not a girl who hesitates. I make my move and accept the consequences. So I should do it. Leave the Mosses and give Oliver another chance to prove himself. I mean, if I don't go, how will I know?

It makes the most sense.

So why am I hesitating?

Copyright © 2001 by Francine Pascal

Meet the Author


Francine Pascal is one of the most popular fiction writers for teenagers today and the creator of several best-selling series, including Fearless and Sweet Valley High, which was also made into a television series. She has written several novels, including My First Love and Other Disasters, My Mother Was Never a Kid, and Love & Betrayal & Hold the Mayo. In writing her stories, Ms. Pascal is inspired by her own memories of growing up and by the experiences of her three daughters.

Francine Pascal lives in New York and the south of France.

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Flee 5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 8 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Stops and waits fot Moonlight.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
WOW THIS BOOK WAS SO AWESOME THAT I DIDNT WANT TO PUT IT DOWN. PEOPLE WHO HAVE NOT READ THIS BOOK YET SHOULD.w BUT I DO NOT RECCOMEND TO READ IT DURING NIGHT TIME WHEN UR ABOUT TO GO TO SLEEP BECAUSE U WOULD NOT WANT TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN BECAUSE ITS SO AMAZING.. I RECCOMEND THIS BOOK FOR TEENS AND UP!!!
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How francine Pascal describes something as complicated as love and makes it seem so wonderful and yet a burden is amazing. The language she uses is wonderful.
Guest More than 1 year ago
omg i loved this book. i was getting kind of sad because 16 made me so mad but this is just absolutly fantastic. it has everyting a book needs and i loved it and can't wait for love (#18) if you haven't read this book do dodo now!