Godforsaken Idaho

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Winner of the PEN/Robert W. Bingham Prize for Debut Fiction
Shortlisted for the William Saroyan International Prize for Writing
Named "Outstanding 2014 Collection" by The Story Prize
Pushcart Prize Winner

In this stunning debut, Shawn Vestal transports us to the afterlife, the rugged Northwest, and the early days of Mormonism. From “The First Several Hundred Years Following ...

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Winner of the PEN/Robert W. Bingham Prize for Debut Fiction
Shortlisted for the William Saroyan International Prize for Writing
Named "Outstanding 2014 Collection" by The Story Prize
Pushcart Prize Winner

In this stunning debut, Shawn Vestal transports us to the afterlife, the rugged Northwest, and the early days of Mormonism. From “The First Several Hundred Years Following My Death,” an absurd, profound vision of a hellish heaven, to “Winter Elders,” in which missionaries calmly and relentlessly pursue a man who has left the fold, these nine stories illuminate the articles of faith that make us human.
The concluding triptych tackles the legends and legacy of Mormonism head-on, culminating in “Diviner,” a seriocomic portrait of the young Joseph Smith, back when he was not yet the founder of a religion but a man hired to find buried treasure. Godforsaken Idaho is an indelible collection by the writer you need to read next.

Godforsaken Idaho named 'Outstanding 2013 Short Story Collections' by The Story Prize

Winner of the 2014 PEN/Robert W. Bingham Prize for Debut Fiction

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Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
In his debut collection of short stories, Vestal, a journalist for The Spokesman-Review, focuses on down-on-their-luck types, stubborn men in the dregs of society and on the verge of giving up. The unnamed narrator of the title story is a sad sack hiding out in Idaho with his collection of Penthouse magazines and no real prospects. Having decamped from Chicago after his father's fatal heart attack, which leaves him and his mother unexpectedly penniless, the man spends his days sitting in his closet, "gorging on porn" and Russian novels. When he falls three months behind on the rent, an unpleasant encounter with his landlord turns unexpectedly tragic, but the narrator is too disgraced by that point to feel much of anything. In connected stories "The First Several Hundred Years Following My Death" and "About as Fast as This Car Will Go," several generations of a family make the same mistakes, as fathers abandon sons with predictably sad but trite results. And in the cheerily, if sardonically, titled "Families Are Forever!" compulsive liar Brad attempts to make amends with his girlfriend and her parents only to find himself—sadly, predictably—telling more lies. In Vestal's bleak vision, hope itself is godforsaken. (Apr.)
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“Shawn Vestal’s Godforsaken Idaho is a wickedly funny, surprisingly profound collection. These nine stories of prophets and parents, of doppelgangers and pocket dogs, form a thrilling introduction to one of the wryest, most inventive new voices in fiction.”
—Jess Walter, author of Beautiful Ruins 
Godforsaken Idaho mixes the hardpan realism of Richard Ford's Rock Springs with the dreadful wonder of Dan Chaon's best stories. In the lyrical beauty of his sentences, in the brutal choices his characters must make, and in the heartbreaking landscape itself, Shawn Vestal finds startling moments of grace and unexpected redemption.” —Kim Barnes, author of In the Kingdom of Men

“Shutter your windows—Godforsaken Idaho is an awesome storm of history, grit, and revelatory imagination. These stories take huge risks and simply do not falter. Shawn Vestal has set out to reimagine the American West, and he’s done so with the soulful, single-minded purpose of a half-mad pioneer.”
—Patrick Somerville, author of This Bright River and The Cradle

Kirkus Reviews
A provocative and revelatory debut, filled with stories about losing faith and trying (often in vain) to find purpose, mainly set amid the sparsely populated Mormon country of the rugged Northwest. Raised a Mormon and now a columnist in Spokane, Vestal combines formal invention and spiritual depth--even when those depths are dry with spiritual estrangement--in nine stories that establish a unique vision. All but one of these stories has a first-person male narrator, generally one who is struggling with faith or has fallen from it, often one who is drifting without direction. When the all-but-destitute loner narrating the title story says that "[t]he vistas were wide, wide open, like the view from the middle of the ocean," what he sees as promise strikes the reader as more like emptiness. Broken families, abandoned by the father, fill these stories as well. Two of the narrators are dead; one is in the afterlife (where "the food is excellent....You eat from your own life only. You order from memory, as best you can"), another's spirit somehow coexists within the consciousness of a young Mormon veteran, returned from World War I, driven mad by his sinful memories. God is mostly invoked in these stories through his absence. "I have tried again to pray," writes a man, fallen from faith in the early 1800s, following the death of his wife. "Five months since Elizabeth has gone, and I remain unable to find the language....I fear for my soul, for I am angry at Him, and He is silent." Yet hell is very real, often a hell of the narrator's own making, with sin central to the human condition. In "Families Are Forever!" (a title that is more threat than promise), a compulsive liar and his girlfriend visit her Mormon parents (with whom she feels tension complicated by faith). "[S]omething about it made me want to change myself entirely," he says, but he sees through the eyes of her father that "he knew all he needed to know about me--that I was false in my bones." And he asks, like others in these stories might, "Couldn't I be someone else, for once?" Plainspoken stories filled with profound ambivalence and occasional flickers of redemption.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780544027763
  • Publisher: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt
  • Publication date: 4/2/2013
  • Pages: 209
  • Sales rank: 113,009
  • Product dimensions: 5.20 (w) x 7.90 (h) x 0.60 (d)

Meet the Author

Shawn Vestal is an Eastern Washington University alumni. He has had stories from the collection published within Tin House, McSweeney's, and others.
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The First Several Hundred Years
Following My Death

The food is excellent. The lines are never long. There’s nothing to do with your hands. These are the first things I tell my son. Then we don’t talk again for something like two hundred years.

The food is excellent, but nobody knows where it comes from. Your mother’s Sunday dinner. A corn dog from the county fair. You eat from your own life only. You order from memory, as best you can. Your birthday cake, your wedding cake, your graduation barbecue. You give the cafeteria workers some coordinate, some connection, and out comes the tray. Your grandmother’s pot roast. The double cheeseburger from the Lincoln Inn.
   If you try to take a bite of someone else’s food, it vanishes as your teeth descend.
   In the cafeteria the workers call out the year at regular intervals. For a while, every time you go to eat you hear them shouting: “Twenty-five thirty-four! Twenty-five thirty-four!”
   Until, before you know it: “Twenty-five thirty-five! Twenty-five thirty-five!”
   Right now, as I tell this, it’s 2613. There’s a long way to go.

Your age at death becomes your age forever. Your body at death is your body forever — from scars to missing limbs to brain damage. In the cafeteria, people sit with others of their age and era — tables full of bald old men from my century, children from flu epidemics in the 1800s, young soldiers from every time. When you see mixed ages, it’s a family, and it usually means someone new has arrived and they’ve gathered in welcome.
   I woke up here at forty-seven, a familiar arthritic throb in my hip. I couldn’t think what came before. I beat almost everyone: my mother, my two brothers, my son, my daughter, my ex-wife, possible grandchildren, and Janet, the woman who lived in the apartment down the hall. Not counting my father, I went first out of all the people who mattered in my life. I never went to a single funeral that made me cry.
   After my ex-wife, Brynne, arrived and spent fifty years or so here, we talked about that. How I left so much grieving behind. She told me it was just one more example of me getting away with something. She was still angry, after all that time.
   “You never wanted to do the things everybody had to do,” she said. “You’re like a child.”
   “No one’s life is all one way,” I said.
   “Or an impulsive monkey.”
   In my whole life I never felt anything but thwarted and blocked. Nobody ever understands you, not even here.

Here is something I wish I’d told my son and never have: There is no peace here. All the trappings of peace, yes, all the silence and emptiness, but those are just shells. If you want peace, you have to find it in the life you left behind.

You wake in a simple room of interlocking cinder blocks, painted gray. One chair, one cot, one window filled with opaque gray. You can’t tell whether the gray is outside air or the windowpane itself. You will never know. It is like morning, in half-light. A late morning after a dream.
   That’s all.
   When I woke up here, Dad came to see me first — he showed me out of my room and explained how the cafeteria works. He called me “buddy” and seemed maniacally happy about my arrival.
   “Wasn’t expecting you this quick,” he said, and then he laughed so wide I could see the metal fillings in his back teeth.
   He was nervous, a lot nicer than I was used to. I’m older than him here, and that was strange. We stole looks at each other like kids at a dance. Pretty soon, my whole outlook on him changed. I’d always thought he was mean, but I started to see him as merely young, too young to expect much from. I hoped maybe I could teach him a thing or two, but nothing like that ever grew up between us.
   I don’t know why, but he never told me about reliving. I found out about that on my own.
   A few decades later, my daughter, Annie, arrived and I started going to see her. She was too young to die — breast cancer at fifty-one — but she’s older than me here. She seemed perfectly put together — neat black hair, big alert eyes, a stillness under every movement. I felt proud of her, though I had no credit coming. We would get together and share a meal, and I would try to give her advice about this place. I made a point of telling her about the re-living — how to control it, how to guide it.
   “Now that it’s gone,” I said, “your life is the only thing you have left.”
   I told her how to concentrate in just the right way, to lock on to some detail or emotion from the moment in your life that you want to visit. Concentrate in the right way, I said, and the next thing you know, you’re back in it. Back in it for as long as you want. Back in it to hunt for perfect moments. I told her to watch out for the bad times, though, how the bad times are always underneath even the happiest ones. I gave her the best advice I could. I was afraid she might be forgiving me in the same way I had forgiven Dad — holding me one or two percent less to blame due to my youth and ignorance.
   “Try sports,” I said, suggesting some avenues for re-living. “You always liked sports.”
   She was a nice woman, no thanks to me, so I didn’t find out for years that she hadn’t played a sport since she was twelve, that she never attended a sporting event as an adult, and that she refused to let her son play football because she was scared he would get hurt.

I am in the swimming pool, bob-walking through the shallow end, water tugging against me as I try to speed up, and the pool is a chamber of sound, of children’s cries and parents calling and everybody shouting names, names, names, but none of them mine. I sink underwater and open my eyes in the stinging blue. It’s like shade under there, legs like machine parts, moving without purpose against the pressure of silence.

It’s hard to keep straight, but it goes something like this: My father died first, then me, then my mother, my ex-wife, my daughter, Janet from down the hall, my son.
   Janet, the last woman in my life, the last chance at a real whatever, told me after she arrived that she didn’t want to see me here. She was the first to turn. After I died, she’d started seeing a counselor. She said I had abused her emotionally.
   “Emotional abuse is every bit as harmful as physical abuse,” she said, nodding certainly. “Every bit.”
   “How would you know?” I said. “Even if I did abuse your emotions? Did I ever hit you? Did anyone ever hit you? Physical abuse is probably a lot worse.”
   This was fairly early in my death. I hadn’t yet begun to prize relationships.
   She said, “You didn’t love me enough. You didn’t love me at all, maybe.”
   “I absolutely did,” I said, which wasn’t true, not like with my wife, who I loved so much at one time that I felt like it could have destroyed me. Janet and I drifted together thanks to drink and the proximity of our apartments. I hadn’t been aware that love was even hovering around our hemisphere. I had always thought that was the good part about us.

The food is excellent. The lines are never long. You eat from your own life only. Once I sat by two men eating greasy squirrel, just gnawing it off a greenwood spit. Looking all Appalachian. They froze to stare over the tiny blackened limbs at a tall, good-looking dude walking by, all big hair and swagger.
   “If that ain’t Joe fucken Smith,” one of them muttered, then went back to his squirrel angrily.
   For me, though, the food is excellent.
   You can order generally or specifically. It’s fun to listen to the people around you as they order.
   Hamburger, please. Any one from the Oh-So-Good Inn.
   I’d like the prix fixe meal I had with my wife in Paris, 1961.
   Easter ham and scalloped potatoes. Whenever.
   Once he discovered the cafeteria, my son, Tyler, ate the same thing for years and years. This was long after he’d arrived, and we’d started seeing each other occasionally.
   “Thanksgiving dinner!” he would say, like he didn’t know how loud he was being. And then he would shovel it in while I talked. I would ask him if he remembered this or remembered that, and he would nod like he was keeping time to a song. He was old, old enough to be my grandfather.
   “You liked Thanksgiving, did you, Tyler?” I said once.
   “I went by Reed,” he said.
   His middle name. His grandpa’s name.
   Here’s what I should have told him, and what I still, for various reasons, have not: Now that it’s gone, your life is the only thing you have left. Ransack it, top to bottom. Plunder that fucker. Find whatever you can in there, because it’s all there is.

I am with Angela Jarvik in her bedroom and her parents are downstairs and we know that they never come up and she has her hand on me, over my jeans, and I have my hand on her, inside her jeans, and her mouth tastes like sweet metal and she groans and twists away. I am on my back in the sandy weeds outside the kegger, and Jennifer Luttin has me pinned, slides onto me, her kinky black hair brushing my face, and I feel an exquisite tightness beneath a flaming center, and when she leans forward to kiss me, I taste beer and cigarettes and see a burst of white. I am in the apartment of a woman named Sandy, who I met over Christmas break in Boise, and she is whispering nastily in my ear while I’m just trying not to let it end too soon, and then I am on my knees on a hardwood floor at the foot of a bed, my face between the legs of my not-yet-wife, Brynne, and my tongue aches, and then I am in the shower with a woman whose name I can’t remember, I’m behind her and she’s leaning forward, and she’s saying the filthiest things and I get all twisted up inside and thrust into her as hard as I can, like I want to hurt her, but she slips a little forward and then I do too, ramming my leg against the cold-water spigot, which leaves a stupendous bruise, a bruise that I know I will have to lie about to Brynne and then keep straight in my head what the lie was in case it somehow comes up again, now that I’m careful about every story.

You know it when the people you love die. You become aware. I first visited Brynne right after she arrived. I took myself to her room and waited outside her door until she opened it. When she saw me she flinched.
   Her hair was white and thin. You could see through to her scalp. Liver spots covered her arms, and her heavy breasts made a stomach inside her smock. She seemed somewhat like the woman I had once loved, but thickened with sloughing latex and talc. I wanted to tug at the skin of her neck. I wanted to peel away the folds above her eyebrows.
   “How do you feel?” I asked.
   “Strange,” she said.
   “Can I come in?”
   “I don’t think so.”
   She seemed confused. She had to be eighty.
   “You know I’m Rex,” I said.
   “I know who you are,” she said.
   I hadn’t seen her for eleven years before I died. Now all I wanted was to find something beautiful in her, something that could remind me of her knockout twenty-three-year-old self. Then I thought, not for the first time: I am a purely horrible person. Her eyes were wet with anger.
   “Are the kids all right?” I asked.
   “You got used to not knowing that,” she said.
   “Come on,” I said. “I’ve been dead.”

I died lucky. You could go in a coma or after dementia. Some people never get out of their cots and make it to the cafeteria. You could go young, without enough to relive. Because that’s everything, the reliving, the hunt for perfect moments. The poor kids, the teenagers, the twenty-year-olds — you look at them and they’re beautiful, you want to taste them. The younger kids run screaming through the cafeteria, playing tag, and you think at least they’ve found something to do and a way to make friends. The games of tag include kids from everywhere, all times and places, African kids and Japanese kids and American kids and Bolivian kids. It is the only joy you ever see.
   Sometimes you envy these children. Then you realize all they’ll never be able to relive, all the food they never ate, the places they never went, the sex they never had, the Christmas mornings, the Easter Sundays.

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Table of Contents


1. The First Several Hundred Years Following My Death 1
2. About as Fast as This Car Will Go 29
3. Families Are Forever! 45
4. Pocket Dog 71
5. Godforsaken Idaho 91
6. Winter Elders 105
7. Opposition in All Things 127
8. Gulls 169
9. Diviner 181

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 5, 2013

    This book is beyond stupid. If it's suppose to be a book about

    This book is beyond stupid. If it's suppose to be a book about the mormons or as they are really known "the church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints, it's not. It doesn't even contain any similar beliefs. If it is suppose to just be for fun, it isn't that either. It is disjointed and blurred. Terrible.. Do not buy.

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    Posted November 13, 2014

    Smart, weird, unflinching, and incredibly imaginative.

    Smart, weird, unflinching, and incredibly imaginative.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 22, 2013

    Beautiful book.

    Beautiful book.

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