Here I Stand: My Struggle for a Christianity of Integrity, Love, and Equality


The legendary Episcopal Bishop tells of his lifelong struggle to champion an authentic christianity based on love, not hatred.

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The legendary Episcopal Bishop tells of his lifelong struggle to champion an authentic christianity based on love, not hatred.

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Editorial Reviews

Peter J. Gomes
...a rare and compelling exercise in spiritual and intellectual autobiography.
Desmond Mpilo Tutu
The poignant account of someone who loves the church deeply and has frequently been misunderstood.
Publishers Weekly - Publisher's Weekly
Longtime devotees of Spong, the controversial Episcopal Bishop from Newark, N.J., will be familiar with some of the material in his new memoir, as his earlier books Rescuing the Bible from Fundamentalism, Why Christianity Must Change or Die, etc. are peppered with autobiographical asides, but they will still relish this full-bodied, racy chronicle of Spong's political and theological journey. Liberal crusader Spong reveals that his concern for the oppressed began in his native Charlotte, N.C., while growing up in an "overtly pious home [where] racism was an operative assumption." Early on, he rejected the racism of the Jim Crow South and of the Church. Spong devotes the core of this memoir, however, to the battle that has earned him national prominence—the ordination of noncelibate homosexuals in the Episcopal Church. Spong has nothing but condescension for those who don't share his views, especially the theologically conservative bishops from the Third World. Many African bishops disagree with Spong's stance on human sexuality, but rather than engage them, Spong suggests that they have blindly embraced the "fundamentalism" pedaled by English missionaries. Spong's naysayers will want to steer clear of this book, which will strike them as just another restatement of his heresy, but his followers will appreciate the characteristically lively prose. Feb. Copyright 2000 Cahners Business Information.
Library Journal
In this superb autobiography, Spong (the retiring bishop of the Episcopal Diocese of Newark, NJ, and the author of over 15 books, including Why Christianity Must Change or Die and Rescuing the Bible from Fundamentalism) synthesizes his experiences as the leading spokesperson in America and abroad for liberal Christianity. In 20 well-written and -researched chapters, he remembers the dysfunctional environment of his early childhood, his intellectual and moral formation at the University of North Carolina, the humanization acquired through a loving marriage, and the pastoral responses incumbent of a good shepherd. Having thrown away almost nothing in 45 years of ministry, Spong reviewed files, scrapbooks, date books, and calendars chronicling times of adulation and popularity and times of prophetic loneliness. Spong's continuing goal is to make Christianity relevant to the modern world. A delicate and scrupulously honest work; recommended for all public and academic libraries.
—John-Leonard Berg, Univ. of Wisconsin Lib., Platteville Copyright 2000 Cahners Business Information.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780060675394
  • Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
  • Publication date: 4/28/2001
  • Edition description: Reprint
  • Pages: 480
  • Sales rank: 714,207
  • Product dimensions: 6.10 (w) x 9.00 (h) x 1.40 (d)

Meet the Author

John Shelby Spong was the Episcopal Bishop of Newark before his retirement. As a visiting lecturer at Harvard and at universities and churches throughout the world, he is a leading spokesperson for liberal Christianity. Selling over a million copies, his books include The Fourth Gospel: Tales of a Jewish Mystic; Eternal Life: A New Vision; Why Christianity Must Change or Die; and his autobiography, Here I Stand. His weekly online column reaches thousands of subscribers all over the world.

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Setting the Stage:
The Parameters of the Debate

"Your words are not just heresy, they are apostasy. Burning you at the stake would be too kind!"
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
"Your book was like manna from heaven -- God-sent! I cannot adequately express my gratitude. "
Richmond, Virginia
"You rail against the Church's doctrines and core beliefs while you accept wages from her. Even whores appreciate their clients. You, sir, have less integrity than a whore!"
Selma, Alabama
"You have made it possible for me to remain in the Church and have taught me how to believe honestly its creeds even in the twentieth century. "
Boston, Massachusetts
"Bishop Spong, you are full of sh-t. We are going to clean you up.
An orthodox Chris
"Reading your book is like eating a delicious Black Forest cherry birthday cake. It has made me vulnerable while increasing my desire to worship. "
British Columbia, Canada
"Remember, as you prance about disguised as a minister of the gospel, that you will pay for your sins eternally in the lake of fire."
Charleston, South Carolina
"Your book is a transcendent work of brilliance and, I am sure, permanence."
Pasadena, Cal
"I hope the next plane on which you flycrashes. You are not worthy of life. If all else fails, I will try to rid the world of your evil presence personally."
Orlando, Florida
"I believe you are a prophet and I will strive with you to answer God's call to live fully, love wastefully, and be all that I can be. Thank you, thank you, and may your life continue to be blessed."
Grosse Point, Michigan

These are excerpts from but a tiny few of literally thousands of letters I have received in my career as a bishop. They clearly reveal the diversity of responses my life, ministry, and writings have elicited over the years. If someone had told me years ago that I would create these enormous levels of both appreciation and hostility in my ordained life, I would have been dumbfounded, shocked, and probably deeply hurt. How did it happen? What created these twin emotions of praise and anger, of gratitude and fear? What forces pushed me, compelled me, or led me to play my particular role in the struggle to make the Christian Church respond to the issues of our century, and indeed to open new dimensions of spirituality to the citizens of this century? That is the story I seek to tell.

March 6, 1976, was a crisp, sunny late winter Saturday in Richmond, Virginia. It fell in the midst of a busy weekend in my life. On Friday, the fifth, I had indulged my passion for sports and secured, through my politically well connected cousin, tickets to the semifinals of the Atlantic Coast Conference basketball tournament, which was being played in Landover, Maryland. My alma mater, the University of North Carolina, was playing my daughters' alma mater, the University of Virginia, in one of the two semifinal games on that date. To be a Tar Heel while living in Virginia and serving St. Paul's Episcopal Church, the historic "Cathedral of the Confederacy," in downtown Richmond made me about as popular as Kentucky Fried Chicken's Colonel Sanders at a chicken farm. The commitment of old-line Virginians to the Cavaliers of the University of Virginia was deep. Even my two older daughters would choose to go to the University of Virginia and to be grafted into the Virginia tradition. So I watched this particular game in a sea of Virginia alumni. One of them, sitting just behind me, was my friend Sidney Buford Scott, whose family had given Scott Stadium to the University of Virginia and Scott Lounge to the Virginia Theological Seminary. He was one of the few in those stands who was aware that I was at that moment a nominee for the position of bishop coadjutor of the Diocese of Newark in the state of New Jersey and the choice would be made the next morning. That night, as my university was being eliminated by his, he inquired about that process.

"Any chance you'll be elected?" he asked.

"Somewhere between slim and none." I replied. "I believe I'll get enough votes not to be embarrassed, but not nearly enough to be elected. It's not something in which I have any great investment."

That was an honest assessment. That was also the only time that evening that the Newark election entered my consciousness.

The Sunday of that same weekend was also to be a big day in my life. I was engaged in a series of dialogue sermons that were to last for three Sundays on the wide-ranging subject of medical ethics. This was my attempt to address theologically a concern that had been brought to the public's attention by the case of one Karen Quinlan, who had been in a coma for months, kept alive by mechanical devices. Her parents had petitioned the courts for permission to remove these artificial support systems and allow this young woman, their child, to die. The courts had refused this request, and a national debate had ensued.

St. Paul's Church in Richmond was only three blocks from the Medical College of Virginia. We had over eighty doctors in the congregation. Occasionally I used the sermon period for a dialogue on vital public issues. This allowed me to Invite people who possessed an expertise that I did not to engage both me and the congregation in debate. Whether a hopelessly brain-dead young woman should be kept breathing by medical devices seemed tailormade for such an approach. A young internist associated with the Medical College of Virginia and active at St. Paul's named Daniel Gregory had agreed to be the medical member for this dialogue...

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  • Posted June 26, 2010

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    Spong's Best Work

    This is a terrific read. In many ways, this is Spong's best work. With out a doubt, it is also a must read for his critics, as well as his devotees. I am sure his critics would see his work differently, even positively, if they appreciated something of where Spong is coming from. In particular, the book gave me a real insight into Spong's personal and intellectual struggles, especially his struggle with fundamentalism. It was also inspiring to see how his concern for justice was deeply rooted in his life story. In many ways, Spong's intellectual and personal passion is grounded in the biblical prophets. In fact, I suspect the interpretive key to understanding Spong is the relationship between a concern for justice and his condemnation of religion that perpetuates violence and injustice. I have been greatly encouraged by Spong's autobiography "Here I Stand".

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 18, 2000


    Retired bishop John Shelby Spong´s latest book deserves to be read by any committed and thinking believer and non-believer. His book contributes to the discussion about what it is to be a Christian in the real world, and poses an alternative to the fundamentalist religious right. Although this is an autobiography, it serves as an excellent summary of the philosophy and thinking of Spong. If you do not have the time and opportunity to read all his works, this is the best introduction you can find to his way of reasoning and his faith in a loving, human God. Do not miss this book! Whether you agree with Spong or not, I dare to say that 'Here I stand: My Struggle for a Christianity of Integrity, Love and Equality' is the most important theological book since John A. T. Robinson´s 'Honest to God' (1963), and it will be debated in the years to come.

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