Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinetteby Carolly Erickson, Maggi-Meg Reed
For more than two centuries Marie Antoinette has been vilified as the heartless, frivolous queen who spent lavishly while her people starved. Now, in the tradition of The Birth of Venus and The Other Boleyn Girl, this moving novel tells her side of the story.
Imagine that, on the night before she is to die under the blade of the guillotine, Marie Antoinette
For more than two centuries Marie Antoinette has been vilified as the heartless, frivolous queen who spent lavishly while her people starved. Now, in the tradition of The Birth of Venus and The Other Boleyn Girl, this moving novel tells her side of the story.
Imagine that, on the night before she is to die under the blade of the guillotine, Marie Antoinette leaves behind in her prison cell a diary telling the story of her life—from her privileged childhood as Austrian Archduchess to her years as glamorous mistress of Versailles to the heartbreak of imprisonment and humiliation during the French Revolution. Carolly Erickson takes us deep into the psyche of France’s doomed queen: her love affair with handsome Swedish diplomat Count Axel Fersen, who risked his life to save her on the terrifying night the Parisian mob broke into her palace bedroom intent on murdering her and her family; her harrowing flight from France in disguise, her recapture and the grim months of harsh captivity; her agony when her beloved husband was guillotined and her beloved son was torn from her arms, never to be seen again.
Erickson brilliantly captures the queen’s voice, her hopes, her dreads, her suffering. We follow, mesmerized, as she reveals every detail of her remarkable, eventful life, from her teenage years when she began keeping a diary to her final days when she awaited her own bloody appointment with the guillotine.
“Writers of historical fiction must tread a fine line between loving one's protagonists while telling the truth about them. Carolly Erickson has executed this balancing act with the same scorching wit and greatheartedness that has always illuminated her biographies. The old "let them eat cake" myth has once and forever been exploded, yet the author resists the temptation to sentimentalize or simplify the maddeningly complex character of Marie Antoinette.” Robin Maxwell, author of THE SECRET DIARY OF ANNE BOLEYN
“Carolly Erickson turns cold fact to hot fiction in her first historical novel. THE HIDDEN DIARY OF MARIE ANTOINTETTE lets a much-maligned woman speak for herself -- in exquisitely precise prose that illuminates her growth from innocent princess to unloved wife to doomed queen. Erickson lets us see that Marie Antoinette's life tragically mirrors the plight of a France headed for bloody revolution -- and reveals the very human truth behind history's mask.” India Edghill, author of QUEENMAKER and WISDOM'S DAUGHTER
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The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette
By Erickson, Carolly
St. Martin's Griffin
Copyright © 2006
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June 17, 1769
My name is Archduchess Maria Antonia, called Antoinette, and I am thirteen years and seven months old, and this is the record of my life.
Writing in this journal is my punishment. Father Kunibert, my confessor, has told me to write down all my sins in this journal so that I may reflect on them and pray for forgiveness.
"Write!" he said, pushing the book toward me, his thick white eyebrows going up, making him look ferocious.
"Write what you have done! Confess!"
"But I have done nothing wrong," I tell him.
"Write it down. Then we will see. Put there everything you did, starting with last Friday. And leave nothing out!"
Very well, I will put down in this book all that I did on the day I went to see Josepha, and what happened afterward, and then I will show Father Kunibert what I have written and make my confession.
Tomorrow I will begin.
June 18, 1769
It is very hard and sad to write what happened, because I am so very sorry that my sister was in such pain. I tried to tell Father Kunibert this, but he just opened the journal and handed me the box of sharpened quills. He is a hard man, as Carlotta says. He does not listen toexplanations.
On Friday morning, then, this is what I did.
I borrowed a plain black cloak and hood from my maid Sophie, and put a silver crucifix around my neck such as the Sisters of Mercy wear. I prepared a basket with fresh loaves and a ripe cheese and some strawberries from the palace garden. Without telling Sophie or anyone else where I was going, I went at night to the old abandoned stables where I was sure my sister Josepha was being kept.
Josepha had been missing for a week, ever since she became hot with fever and began to cough. No one would tell me where she was, so I had to find out by asking the servants. Servants know everything that happens in the palace, even what goes on between the master and mistress in the privacy of their bedroom. I found out from Eric, the stable boy who grooms my riding horse Lysander that there was a sick girl in the basement of the old riding school. He had seen the Sisters of Mercy going there at night, and once he saw our court physician Dr. Van Swieten go in and come out again very quickly, holding a handkerchief over his mouth and looking very pale.
I was sure my sister Josepha was there, lying in the dark probably, sick and lonely, waiting to die. I had to go to her. I had to tell her that she was not forgotten or abandoned.
So I wrapped the black cloak around me and went out. The candle I carried guttered in the wind as I crossed the courtyard and made my way along the arcaded walkway and out into the stable yard. There were no lights in the old riding school, no one ever went there and no horses were kept tethered in its stalls.
I tried to keep my thoughts on Josepha, but my fear rose as I entered the dark building with its high domed ceiling. Dim shapes loomed up amid the darkness. When I shone my light on them they turned out to be cupboards for harnesses and empty bins that had once held hay.
All was silent, except for the creaking of the old timbers in the roof and the distant calling of the palace sentinels as they made their rounds. I found steps leading down into more darkness. I started to go down, praying that my candle would not go out, and trying not to think of the stories Sophie liked to tell about the palace ghost, the Gray Lady who walked weeping through the corridors at night and sometimes flew in at the windows.
"Don't be foolish, Antonia," my mother would say when I asked her about the Gray Lady, "there are no ghosts. When we die, we die. We do not live on as disembodied spirits. Only peasants believe such nonsense."
I respected my mother's wisdom, but I wasn't sure about the ghosts. Sophie had seen the Gray Lady several times, she said, and many others had seen her too.
To keep my mind off ghosts I called out to Josepha as I descended the stairs.
I thought I heard a weak cry.
I called out again, and this time I was sure I heard an answer.
But the voice I heard was not my sister's. Josepha had a strong, laughing voice. The voice I heard now was pinched and thin, and terribly anxious.
"Don't come any nearer, whoever you are," it said. "I have the pox. If you come near me you will die."
"I hear you, I'm almost there," I called out, ignoring the warning.
I found her in a small, cell-like room where a lantern hanging from a nail in the wall gave the only light. I could not help but gag, the stench in the room was so overwhelming. A powerful, cloying odor, not the odor of decay or dirt but a sickly, ghastly stench of rot.
From where she lay in her narrow bed Josepha lifted one weak arm as if to ward me off.
"Please, dearest Antonia, turn back. Go back."
I was crying. What the weak lantern-light showed me was monstrous. Josepha's skin was purple, and full of blisters. Her face was swollen and red, her cheeks puffed out grotesquely, and there was blood dripping from her nose. Her eyes were bloodshot.
"I love you," I said through my tears. "I am praying for you." I put down the basket, wondering whether rats would come and eat the food I had brought. But then I thought, the smell in this room is so terrible not even rats would come near.
"I am so thirsty," came the voice from the bed.
I took from my basket the bottle of wine I had brought and set it beside Josepha's bed. With difficulty she raised herself, reached for the bottle and drank. I could tell she was having trouble swallowing.
"Oh, Antonia," she said when she had put the bottle down, "I have such terrible dreams! Fire coming down, and burning us all up. Mother on fire, screaming. Father, laughing while he watches us all burn."
"It is only the sickness that makes you dream such things. We are all safe, there is no fire." But there is, I thought. There is the fire of the cowpox, that makes Josepha burn with fever and turns her brain to madness.
"You must have medicine, you must get well."
"The sisters give me brandy and valerian, but it doesn't help. I know they have given up on me."
"I have not. I will come back, I promise."
"No. Stay away. Everyone must stay away."
Her voice grew fainter. She was going to sleep. "Dear Antonia . . ."
My tears were falling fast, but I knew I couldn't stay. I couldn't risk being missed. No one knew where I had gone, I hadn't even told Carlotta, with whom I share my bedroom.
So I left Josepha, and went back up the dark stairs and out through the old riding school and back along the torchlit arcade to the palace.
The next day I was in the room when Dr. Van Swieten came to see my mother the empress. My brother Joseph, who is twenty-six and who has just buried his second wife, was also there. Ever since our father died, our mother has looked to Joseph for help in governing her many lands. One day after she dies Joseph will rule them all, so he needs to learn. Already he has the firmness that my mother says all rulers need. But I have heard her say to Count Khevenhüller that Joseph does not yet have the necessary compassion and concern for people that he will need if he is to rule well.
"What of Josepha?" my mother asked the doctor as he bowed and murmured "Your imperial highness."
"It is the black pox."
I saw my mother blanch, and Joseph turn his face away. The black pox was the severest kind of cowpox. No one ever survived it. When there was black pox in Vienna we children were always taken away at once into the country, so that we would not become ill. Servants with black pox were turned out of the palace and sent as far away as possible. None ever returned. And now my sister Josepha was dying of it too.
"It is perfectly horrifying," the doctor was saying. "I have seen it often before. There is no point in trying to preserve life once the pox takes hold. The archduchess cannot be saved. She can only make others ill."
"Is she receiving every care?" I heard my mother ask.
"Of course. The Sisters of Mercy visit her, and the dairymaids." It was well known that dairymaids were spared from being struck down with the cowpox. For some reason, they could care for sick people without fear of becoming sick themselves.
"No one must know who she is," Joseph boomed out. "No one from the court must be allowed near her. We cannot have another outbreak of Pox Fear, like last summer."
Whenever the cowpox appeared, people panicked. The entire town caught the Pox Fear. There were frenzied efforts to escape the sickness. Terrified householders, trying to flee, were trampled or crushed to death.
No one wanted the Pox Fear to invade the palace, where hundreds of servants and officials lived in close quarters and served the empress and our family.
"That is understood," Dr. Van Swieten said. "The archduchess is being kept where no one will find her."
I almost spoke up then, but managed to hold my tongue. Standing beside my mother, I heard her black silk skirts rustling, and was aware that she was trembling.
"I can't lose any more of my children," she was saying. "First my dear Karl, and then Johanna, only eleven when she died, poor girl, and now my lovely Josepha, so young, and about to be married--"
"You have ten of us left, maman." Joseph's voice was cutting. He knew that although he was the eldest son, and our mother's heir, she had preferred Karl, and loved him more. "Surely ten children is a sufficient number."
I am fond of my brother Joseph, but he does not understand what it is to love someone. When our father died four years ago he did not weep, but snorted with contempt.
"He was a lazy do-nothing, surrounded by idle hangers-on," I heard him say. He refused even to lay a wreath on father's grave, though he did offer his arm to mother at the funeral.
Joseph is twenty-six, and has been married twice, but he did not grieve for either of his wives when they died, or for the poor little dead baby his first wife gave him. Joseph is hard for me to understand.
"How much longer will she live?" Joseph asked Dr. Van Swieten.
"A few days perhaps."
"When she dies, have the body taken away quickly. Let there be no announcement. She will not be missed. One excess daughter more or less--"
"Joseph! That will do." My mother spoke firmly, but I could hear the panic in her voice.
But my brother, in his bitterness, went on.
"And I want the body burned. Along with all her clothes and effects."
"Enough! What you propose is unchristian. I will never allow it. You forget yourself."
"Such foolishness!" I heard Joseph mutter. "To believe that some day all the bodies of the dead will sit up in their graves, and come back to life. A priest's fairy tale."
"We will abide by the teachings of the church," my mother said quietly. "We are not heathens, or sectarians. Besides, Josepha is still alive. And while she lives, there is hope. I will retire now to my chapel to pray for her. And I recommend that you do the same."
To the doctor she said, "I want to be informed if there is any change in her condition."
At this I could keep still no longer.
"Oh maman, there is such a terrible change in her. You would not believe it!" Tears ran down my face as I spoke.
My mother looked down at me, her eyes grave. Joseph glared at me in fury. Dr. Van Swieten gasped.
"Explain yourself, Antonia," said mother calmly.
"I have seen her. She is all puffed up, and black and purple, and she smells horrible. And they keep her in a dark rathole under the old riding school, where no one ever goes." I looked up into my mother's eyes. "She's dying, maman. She's dying."
Instead of enfolding me in her black silk skirts, as I expected her to do, my mother took several steps back from me, so that I could no longer smell her familiar smell, a combination of ink and rosewater.
"Your imperial highnesses must withdraw," Dr. Van Swieten said to my mother and Joseph, who were both putting more distance between themselves and me. "I will take charge of her. She will be watched for signs of the black pox." He motioned to one of the tall footmen standing at the back of the large room, waiting for orders.
"Send for my assistant, at once. And the dairymaids."
I was taken to the old guards' quarters and kept there, watched by two village women, one old, one young, until they were certain I was not going to become sick like my sister. All my clothes were taken away and burned, and Sophie sent new clothes. When I was putting them on a note fell out. It was from my sister Carlotta.
"Dearest Antoinette," she wrote, "how brave you were, to visit poor Josepha. Everyone knows what you did. We all have to pretend to disapprove but we admire you. I hope you don't get sick. Joseph is angry. I love you."
July 3, 1769
I have decided not to show this book to Father Kunibert. It will be my record, my private journal, of my life. Mine alone.
So much has happened to me in the past several weeks. I have been kept away from poor Josepha, who died on the third day after I visited her. I try not to think of her in her suffering, but I know I will never forget how she looked, there in her cot, when I found her.
Father Kunibert says I must reflect on my disobedience, and pray to be forgiven. He says I must be grateful to be alive. But I do not feel grateful, only full of sorrow. I was not allowed to attend the brief funeral mass for Josepha, because I was still being watched by the dairymaids, who inspected my hands and arms and face every morning and evening for pox blisters and murmured to one another and shook their heads over me.
I have thought about death, and how Josepha only had seventeen years on earth, so brief a season! Why do some die and some live? I can write no more about this, I am too full of sorrow.
July 15, 1769
Finally Dr. Van Swieten has let me return to the apartments I share with Carlotta. I do not have the cowpox.
July 28, 1769
This morning Sophie got me up early and dressed me with extra care. I asked her why but she wouldn't tell me. I knew it had to be something important when I saw her bring out my pale blue silk ball gown with the silver lamé trim and the pink satin rosettes on the bodice.
My hair was brushed and pinned back from my face and a silver-gray wig put over it. The wig was becoming, and made me look very old I thought, especially when Sophie threaded pearls through it.
I have always been told that I look like my father, who was very handsome. Like him I have a wide forehead and large eyes set far apart. My eyes are light blue like my mother's and she likes me to dress in blue to bring out their color.
I could tell, as Sophie dressed me, that she was satisfied with the effect. She smiled to herself and hummed as she worked. Sophie has been my maid ever since I was seven years old and she was fifteen, and she knows me better than anyone, better even than my mother and Carlotta.
When I was ready I was taken into the grand salon where my mother was. There were several men with her, and they all stared hard at me as I entered the room and walked to my mother's side.
"Antonia, dear, this is Prince Kaunitz and this is the Duc de Choiseul." Both men bowed to me and I inclined my head in acknowledgment, feeling the unaccustomed weight of the wig as I did so.
My dancing master Monsieur Noverre came forward and signaled for the court musicians to play. He led me in the polonaise and then the allemande as the gentlemen watched closely. My harp was brought forward and I played several simple tunes--I am not a very accomplished harpist--and I sang an aria by Herr Gluck who had taught me to play the clavichord when I was younger.
Trays of coffee and pastries were brought in and I sat with my mother and the prince and the duke talking of one thing and another. I felt rather foolish in my ball gown but we passed a pleasant half-hour chatting, and I did my best to answer the questions put to me, questions about everything from my religious education to my knowledge of geography and history to my ideas about marriage.
"Naturally you hope to marry one day," Prince Kaunitz said amiably. "And what is your idea of the perfect wife?"
"One who loves her husband dearly, as my mother loved my father."
"And presents him with sons," the Duc de Choiseul added.
"Yes, of course. And daughters too, if the lord wills it."
"To be sure. Daughters too."
"Do you believe, archduchess, that a wife must obey her husband in all things?"
I thought for a moment. "I hope that when I marry, my husband and I will decide together what is best, and act as one."
The two men looked at one another, and I thought I saw a faint look of amusement in their faces.
"Thank you, Archduchess Antonia, for your frankness and your courtesy."
My mother and the men rose and walked the length of the enormous room, deep in conversation.
"Physically, she is perfect," the duke said. "Her education has been inadequate, but she can be taught. There is great charm--"
"And a good heart, a very good heart," I heard my mother add.
They took their time, walking and talking, Prince Kaunitz gesticulating, the duke more measured, more calculated in his movements and his tone.
"This is the alliance we have long hoped for," I heard my mother say. "The union of Hapsburg and Bourbon will secure our fortune, long after I am gone."
"Austria is not our enemy," the duke said. "Britain is. We must fortify ourselves against Britain."
"And we must fortify ourselves against Prussia," Prince Kaunitz countered. "The interests of both Austria and France will be served by this marriage. And the sooner it is made, the better."
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Distinguished historian CAROLLY ERICKSON is the author of The First Elizabeth, Great Catherine, Alexandra and a dozen other prize-winning biographies. She lives in Hawaii.
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I'm a huge fan of historical fiction and, though a history buff, I can ignore historical inaccuracies for the sake of a good story. However, this was, quite possibly, THE WORST story I have ever read. The plot is simplistic and trite, the characters are all unsympathetic and I was quite glad that Erickson's incredibly evil National Assembly condemned them all to death. She ignored the complexities of the people and the time period and instead chose to invent characters and events that were incredibly inane and were much more boring than what actually happened. The author very obviously did not bother to do much research and her account of the French Revolution reads like royalist propaganda. Robespierre, who historically was a soft-spoken idealist called 'the Incorruptible' shows up as The Source of All Evil, whom we are supposed to hate because he has pockmarks 'he didn't' and he blames Marie for quite rightly conspiring with Austria. Marie herself is horribly unsympathetic and I wanted to hit her over the head with a shovel. She is stupid, vapid, irritating, and selfish. It is remarkably easy to make Marie Antoinette sympathetic. Who wouldn't feel sorry for a 14-year-old princess taken away from everything she holds dear to the very bewildering court of Versailles? However, by zeroing in on the flippant, frivolous twit who ramped up the national debt because she just *had* to have a new diamond necklace, Erickson made Marie Antoinette one-dimensional and thoroughly boring when she wasn't thoroughly irritating. Erickson offers no motivations for any of her characters' actions, offers an incredibly vacuous view of a highly complicated time and completely ignores historical people and events for invented, trite, boring, and incredibly stupid characters and actions that she made up entirely. This was a terrible, terrible book, and I hope Carolly Erickson will learn to a. research before attempting an historical novel, and b. learn that people have motivations for actions and are seldom one-dimensional. I wish I could have a refund, and/or give this book zero stars. It was really that bad.
This book was a complete disappointment. It wasn't until the very end that the author decided to acknowledge it's fabricated. I knew some of it would be imaginative, but believed most would be based on fact. It was a waste of my time and money.
This was a really good fiction novel however was completely innaccurate to the point that it actually made me wonder if the writer knew anything about Marie Antoinette and for that matter the French Revolution. As a complete work of fiction I found it really good but I also think that it's important for a fiction novel based on actual events to be accurate. Two of the things that bothered me the most was her portrayal of Louis XVI as a simpleton rather than a reluctant King, the explosive arguments between Marie Antoinette and Madame Du Barry which never happened because Marie Antoinette prided herself on never speaking to the woman until she was forced into it by Count Mercy and her mother, Louis-Joseph died of tuberculosis and was never diagnosed has having a curvature of the spine. This is just a few inaccuracies the ones which bothered me the most. Over all it's a good book not one I would recommend for someone looking for a fictionalized novel based in fact.
I'll be the first to admit that I don't know much about Marie Antoinette. And, what I do know probably comes from the movies. She usually isn't portrayed very kindly there. I had built this image of a young women who liked parties, clothes, and basic extravagance. This book took an extreme opposite view. It touched on the rumors surrounding the Queen, but I never got a good feel for how the Queen felt about this. The book seems to down play all of that, when in fact that malicious gossip eventually made the people of France hate her. She had to have realized that but she seems really detached from her people and her country. I'm sure the truth lies somewhere in the middle. Although, I'm sure we will never know the whole truth surrounding all the gossip. I did really enjoy the format of the book. The diary entries made it seem like more of a possibility that this was who the Queen really was. I learned a few things I did not know. Plus, it made me want to read more historical fiction about Marie Antoinette. Some seem to complain about some characters being made up, but I able to take that in because I know it is historical fiction. I know that not everything is fact. Overall, and interesting read, but I feel it's steeped more in fiction than in fact.
Carolly Erickson is known for her historical works, including stories about Mary, Queen of Scots, Catherine the Great, and the many wives of King Henry VIII. In this novel, she turns to Marie Antoinette, once Queen of France and victim of the French Revolution. The story itself is richly told, from before her marriage to the Dauphin of France all the way to her final days. If you enjoy history or are just looking for an incredible read, you will like this!
Glorifies the French monarchy, which was oppressive and (underLouis XVI) inept. The revolutioaries were murderous and were rezponsible for years of horror. I'm zurethat Marie Antoinette wasn't as sympathetic as she'sdepicted here.
Amazing.. truly amazing. Please read you will not be dissapointed. Great emitional depth and character development. Hands down the best i have read and my official new favorite.
This is a work of highly fictionalized history, but I couldn't put the book down. This was a fun read and got me interested in learning more about the actual history behind the story. I would definitely recommend this book and I look forward to reading it again!
Another great book that held my attention from beginning to end.
i loveeee history and marie is one of my favorites .this book put a new understanding to her and i loved it .