High On Arrival: A Memoir

High On Arrival: A Memoir

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by Mackenzie Phillips
     
 

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Mackenzie Phillips shares “a raw glimpse” (Entertainment Weekly) into her lifelong battle with personal demons and near-fatal addictions—and reveals the shattering truth behind her complex, secretive, and damaging history with her father, the legendary John Phillips of The Mamas & the Papas.

Not long before her fiftieth birthday,

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Mackenzie Phillips shares “a raw glimpse” (Entertainment Weekly) into her lifelong battle with personal demons and near-fatal addictions—and reveals the shattering truth behind her complex, secretive, and damaging history with her father, the legendary John Phillips of The Mamas & the Papas.

Not long before her fiftieth birthday, Mackenzie Phillips made headlines with her arrest for drug possession at Los Angeles International Airport; the actor-musician-mother had been on her way to a reunion of One Day at a Time, the hugely popular ’70s sitcom on which she once starred as the lovable rebel Julie Cooper.

Born into rock-and-roll royalty, flying in Learjets to the Virgin Islands at five, making pot brownies with Donovan at eleven, Mackenzie grew up in an all-access kingdom of hippie freedom and heroin cool. As a rising Hollywood star herself, she joined the nonstop party in the hedonistic pleasure dome of her father’s making, and a rapt TV audience watched as Julie Cooper wasted away before their eyes. By the time Mackenzie discovered how deep and dark her father’s trip was going, it was too late.

As an adult, she has paid dearly for a lifetime of excess, working tirelessly to reconcile her wonderful, terrible past and the pull of her magnetic father. By sharing her journey toward redemption and peace, the star who turned up High on Arrival has finally come back down to earth—to stay.

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"I felt many things while reading this book — which I did in one overnight sitting — but when I reached the last page I felt only one: a tremendous respect for its author and a deep appreciation of just exactly how courageous she is to publish this book. This is no celebrity addiction memoir. And it is no 'former child star falls from grace' saga, either. It is the heart-wrenching and perilous story that thousands and thousands of perfectly ordinary women and men lived themselves, silently, numbly, and with obedience and love. By making her search for redemption public — despite the inevitable backlash — Mackenzie Phillips may very well help others find it for themselves. Rich with compassion, forgiveness, and wisdom, this is a brave memoir executed with an unwavering loyalty and commitment to truth." — Augusten Burroughs

Product Details

ISBN-13:
9781439153864
Publisher:
Gallery Books
Publication date:
02/22/2011
Pages:
320
Sales rank:
147,451
Product dimensions:
6.10(w) x 9.10(h) x 0.90(d)

Meet the Author

Mackenzie Phillips is the daughter of John Phillips and stepdaughter of Michelle Phillips, both lead singers of the 60s band The Mamas and The Papas. She starred as Julie Cooper Horvath on the sitcom One Day at a Time alongside Valerie Bertinelli. Today, Phillips works at Breathe Life Healing enter in West Hollywood as a substance abuse councilor.

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High on Arrival 3.6 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 223 reviews.
1Emerson More than 1 year ago
I enjoyed watching Ms. Phillips on TV on One Day at a Time. We all knew she had issues with substance abuse but had no idea the depth of her pain and anquish. I totally believe that this book is true and I applaude Ms. Phillips for her honesty and going the extra mile to tell everything in this book. While it is true she could have sugar coated the facts and still made an interesting tell all - having the bravery to include intimate details with her father will go on to inspire others that have lived through insest or need to step away from insest. Anyone battling substance abuse should read this to see just how far the depths of hell can take you and survive. I pray that Ms. Phillips is able to stay clean and overcome her personal demons. Way to go Mackenzie! Way to go! I am a bigger fan now more than ever!
SusanLynn More than 1 year ago
I saw Mackenzie Phillips on Oprah and went out the next day to purchase her book. I finished the book in 1 day, I could not put it down. The environment that she was born into set her up perfectly for her own world of addcitions to repeat the cycle of abuse to herself and others. Thank the Good Lord we live in a time where the victim is not the bad guy anymore but the victim is a person who is acting out on what has been role modeled infront of them. You don't fix a problem by pretending it is not there, she has courage for speaking out and trying to figure out how she got to where she is and trying to relearn new thoughts and behaviors and reprogram her thinking. Where the mind goes the body follows. Her father was a very sick man and when you are trying to survive in a realtionship of any kind with an unhealthy person it is a losing battle until if and when they get better to help themselves and others. No matter what environment you are born into it goes to show you that if it doesn't "feel" right it isn't right, your spirit knows and her spirit was damaged, not broken though. By writing her story she has helped herself and others. Mackenzie if you are reading this...please there is no future in the past..concentrate on today and tomorrow.
Grateful2bsober More than 1 year ago
The authors story is proof of where drugs and alcohol take you....Degredation, spritual bankruptcy and an enormous amount of suffering I admire her honesty and courage....anyone struggling with addiction should read this book!
REDSOXXFAN More than 1 year ago
Not long before her fiftieth birthday,Mackenzie Phillips walked into Los Angeles International Airport. She was on her way to a reunion for One Day at a Time, the hugely popular 70s sitcom on which she once starred as the lovable rebel Julie Cooper. Within minutes of entering the security checkpoint, Mackenzie was in handcuffs, arrested for possession of cocaine and heroin. Born into rock and roll royalty, flying in Learjets to the Virgin Islands at five, making pot brownies with her father's friends at eleven, Mackenzie grew up in an all-access kingdom of hippie freedom and heroin cool. It was a kingdom over which her father, the legendary John Phillips of The Mamas & the Papas, presided, often in absentia, as a spellbinding, visionary phantom. When Mackenzie was a teenager, Hollywood and the world took notice of the charming, talented, precocious child actor after her star-making turn in American Graffiti. As a young woman she joinedthe nonstop party in the hedonistic pleasure dome her father created for himself and his fellow revelers, and a rapt TV audience watched as Julie Cooper wasted away before their eyes. By the time Mackenzie discovered how deep and dark her father's trip was going, it was too late. And as an adult, she has paid dearly for a lifetime of excess, working tirelessly to reconcile a wonderful, terrible past in which she succumbed to the power of addiction and the pull of her magnetic father. As her astounding, outrageous, and often tender life story unfolds, the actor-musician-mother shares her lifelong battle with personal demons and near-fatal addictions. She overcomes seemingly impossible obstacles again and again and journeys towardredemption and peace. By exposing the shadows and secrets of the past to the light of day, the star who turned up High on Arrival has finally come back down to earth -- to stay.
glamaris More than 1 year ago
This book had me so caught up in it. I loved the way she spoke...it was just so honest. Regarding the incest...it doesnt matter if people think she was wrong for bringing it up after her dad was dead, it's still a huge and incriminating thing that happened and I think she was very brave to come out with it...even after the fact. I appreciate the fact that she didnt get into gross detail about her sexual relationship with her father...I wasnt sure if I could handle reading THAT. Overall, this book is great and I would highly recommend it.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
When I began reading Mckenzie Philipps' story I couldn't put it down. Then as she describes her experience with multiple trips into rehab situations, she falsely tries to tell readers that there are doctors and other healthcare professional to blame for her addiction. She lays blame for her problem on others....it's never really is her fault after all. To put into print that most states have a law against doctors gradually reducing your dosage to help wean you off of RX meds is false. Celebrities, especially addicts pouring their hearts for the public, should NOT be allowed to preach about what is legal. Take this book at about 50% true and 50% fairytale written by a fairytale girl.
Ach56 More than 1 year ago
Ten pages into MacKenzie Phillips' book, I was riveted!! This is one woman who lays her very soul nacked in hopes of helping other incest survirors. The turmoil of her life, due to the lack of parenting by her father, the famous John Phillips, and his first wife, left in the dust by his fame and young girlfriend and future wife, Michele Phillips, is heartbreaking. Grown up way before her time, this woman faced a life of pure Hell--brought on by a man totally obsessed with his own need for attention, his drug addiction, and his total lack of learning responsibility in life--not to mention his pedofile sickness and need for utterly posessing people, including his own child. For those unsure of Phillips' testimony to her incestous affair, caused by her sick father, it is a shame you have not read the now out of print Phillips' autobiography, "Papa John." I read it around 20 years ago when it came out and he admitted the drug use with his children without any shame, but omitted the incest. What a sick soul---I thought so then and do now!! I believe each and every word of MacKenzie's story and you should also. This is a must read on any woman's list---and should be on the list of men, also. COMPELLING AND TOUCHING. What a BRAVE WOMAN!!! If you have not read it, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT!!!
totiedye4 More than 1 year ago
I had just gotten sober from heroin, coke, crack, any type of opiates or pain killers you could throw at me and the devil itself, fentanyl, when I read this book. Granted some of the stories really made me think about all the good times and what not, but I was able to handle it...and I'm glad I did. One of the last things Mac says in her book is about her being better...although she is, she isn't cured...that monster will always be on her back. Looking at it that way has helped me alot..its def kept me from getting cocky after being sober for 2+ years without a single slip up. I am very proud of my fiance and I both for making it this far..but I really thank Mackenzie for saying it like that. I honestly believe with the way I was raised, my family history, everything that I've gone through, and just the fact that I plain down enjoyed being high 24/7, that I will be a drug addict for the rest of my life, but I don't need to be a using drug addict for the rest of my life.
RoamingGypsy More than 1 year ago
Irritatingly repetitive and mind numbingly off point. If the author, as she claimed in an interview with Larry King (as well as in a multitude of interviews with every other talk show in existence), was seeking to champion the largely unrepresented population that is struggling with life threatening addiction, she has done a very poor job. This supposed memoir reads more like a 1970's tabloid article, than the thought provoking journey through self destruction and personal rediscovery that this book was advertised to be. She seems, at times, almost proud of her conquests and her Hollywood minded removal from reality. She seems more focused on opportunistic name dropping than in exploring the true horror of a life consumed by drug addiction and then the eventual mental and physical healing that her story was supposed to exemplify. She does not yet seem well enough to truly have learned anything from her own life story.
steffiebaby140 More than 1 year ago
Not many could write a book about such a traumatic and troubled life yet still maintain a positive outlook on life and a sense of humor. The tough details are written with concise and accurate language but it handled gently enough to avoid upsetting or offending the reader. Even in the midst of a hurricane of pain, Mackenzie Phillips managed to tell it all with a sense of humor and a belief that things will be better. I found it inspiring, touching and a wonderful read. I recommend it for anyone who has been in that same hurrican and thinks they are alone and it won't get any better.
SusieQDean More than 1 year ago
As an avid reader of authorized celeb bios I had no intention of purchasing this book. Just another "poor me" story from some spolied celeb who threw their fame away. Boy was I wrong!!! I receicved this as a Christmas gift & I was riveted from page 1. I respect the author's efforts to tell her story & yet be mindful of how it would affect others. Her tale is both horrifying & uplifting. Both painfully honest & laugh-out-loud funny. Ms Phillips points the finger only at herself & blames no one for the twists & turns her life took. She owned her experiences & I admire that.I highly recommend this book.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I thought Ms. Phillip's descriptions were very colorful. I saw a different view of addiction from the inside.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I finished the whole book on a trip from PDX-BOS. Felt like I lived it with her.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
It took a lot for her to tell her story, but it was not as good as I thought it would be.
deboIL More than 1 year ago
I think this book is well written and comes across in a very humble way. She does not seek to place blame for any of her life choices or problems but instead let's you into what was going on in her life and mind when these things occurred. You can feel sympathy for her in this book without having to absolve her of her own responsibility for the things she writes about. I have not walked a mile in her shoes and would therefore not cast judgment on her for her life. I think she is brave woman who has overcome a lot in her life and I wish her all the best for her future. A very compelling, inspiring story!
TallulahCK More than 1 year ago
Well, where to begin. The whole time reading it (and the only reason why I am reading it is because my son is an addict) all I thought of was what a "skank" she is. Delusional and a very high opinion of herself.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Mackenzie did a wonderful job in writing this book and telling her story. I actually shared a room w/ her while she was in detox at Summerhouse in Florida and she was the sweetest lady I met there. I'm so glad she is finally sober!!!!!!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I believe your experienced will help other victims of incest and drug abuse. Especially those who are too afraid to face the truth after so many years gone by.
Bev1970 More than 1 year ago
I believed her story, because she admitted her "failures" as a parent, which is difficult to admit for any parent. I am conflicted by how I feel about the sexual relationship she had with her father, but I she was neglected as a child and on drugs at the time so I understand why she didn't say "no". Their relationship was bizarre, but probably not as uncommon as people like me who were never abused think. I hope that she can stay clean and sober, and I appreciate her honesty.
KimKirsch More than 1 year ago
I could not put the nook down. A great story of how money and drugs can make your life truly crazy.
Lynn_C_Tolson More than 1 year ago
Review of "High On Arrival" A Memoir by Mackenzie Phillips Imagine a child knocking on her parent's door to get her father's attention. He says, "Not now, darling, Daddy's shooting up." What does that tell the child about the pervasive self-absorption of drug addicts? Of course, the message to the child is that the drugs are more valuable than any child's desire for love, affection, and attention. Sexual assault, addiction, and suicide are unsolved social problems that carry stigmas. The stigmas cast a code of silence that do not solve problems. Mackenzie has shattered the silence in the most public of venues. She has endured the risk of rejection by her peers, the backlash of a celebrity community that protects its so-called legendary "heroes" like John Phillips, and the untoward questions of ignorant interviewers who ask her about father-daughter incest: "Did you enjoy it?" Furthermore, she has been publicly discredited by her own step-mother, Michelle, who was in a relationship with John Phillips since she was sixteen. Where were her morals? He was an (older) married man with two children. Where were his values? The burden is on the victim (Mackenzie) to relive, recover from, and revitalize a life that was traumatized in a hedonistic family lacking respect and responsibility. If we read between the lines of a story about a rich and famous family, we will see Mackenzie's insight: ". if real stories of love and incest and survival are kept behind the closed doors of therapists' offices and judges' chambers, then current and future victims are destined to do what I did: to weather it alone, to blame themselves, to hide behind drugs." Incest does not just "happen" like a random fender-bender on the freeway. It is a calculated event of power and control and abuse of trust. These real stories are all too rampant in "ordinary" families that do not have the resources for rehabilitation. Mackenzie Phillips wrote a memoir that is candid and cathartic. She makes public a story that is held private, and for that she is courageous. She received the Darkness to Light "Voice of Courage" award at the Circle of Light gala.
leecee797 More than 1 year ago
I was hesitant at first b/c of all the sensationalism behind this book. But it was a great read and quite the page turner. People doubt the authenticity of her accusations, but I believe her, and I think after reading her book you'll see what all the fuss was about. Mackenzie is quite funny and adds humor to something so painful and hard to get over. I highly suggest this book if you enjoy reading where people came from, what they went through, and where they are going.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
It was a good book. I do hope that she has finally stopped using and can be clean now. If you don't care for the "F" word---you might not want to read this book.
nickanmaxie More than 1 year ago
I do not know what book that some of the reviewers read.......but this book was outstanding. I read it in two days.
Andrew_of_Dunedin More than 1 year ago
Mackenzie Phillips writes a cautionary tale as to the effect of fame and fortune (and an absentee father, and lots of drugs, and …) that some of today’s young stars would do well to read (or, in the case of the audio book version I had, listen to – narrated by the author, who actually lived it). Hang out with Daddy’s rock friends, where parties and drugs were plentiful and easy to come by. Get a small part in what turned out to be a major film. Get a couple of more films, and a successful TV series. Lose yourself in drugs. Hang out with the “wrong” guys … lose your job due to drug use, get busted … need I continue? Or should I toss in the “go out on tour with Dad’s rock band” and “sleep with the most really wrong guy you could” portions? I’m not telling anything in the above summary that couldn’t be obtained from a few back-issues of People magazine, and in much greater detail. That, in a nutshell, was my biggest disappointment – I’d already read virtually everything mentioned in the book by the time I actually got my copy. Well, that, and Miss Phillips is so intent on not glamorizing her life choices that I often found it hard to root for her, despite my wanting to. How can you write your memoirs and NOT be the most sympathetic character in them?? (OK, her son fills that role; there is a poetic justice in that choice.) RATING: 3 ½ stars, rounded up to 4 stars. (Giving bonus points for the decision to have the author read her own works on the audio – who better to tell the story?)