Hostage: A Todd Mills Mysteryby R. D. Zimmerman
Todd Mills is getting ready for the coup of his career: an exclusive interview with right-wing congressman Johnny Clariton, whose positions against gay rights and AIDS research promise to make his appearance with Minneapolis's only openly gay journalist an explosive television event. Things are also getting pleasantly serious between Todd and Steve Rawlins,
Todd Mills is getting ready for the coup of his career: an exclusive interview with right-wing congressman Johnny Clariton, whose positions against gay rights and AIDS research promise to make his appearance with Minneapolis's only openly gay journalist an explosive television event. Things are also getting pleasantly serious between Todd and Steve Rawlins, although Rawlins' grieving over the recent end of his closest friend's long struggle with AIDS is beginning to take its physical toll on the police detective.
Coup turns to chaos, and grief to despair, when Todd's interview ends with the Congressman abducted by gun-wielding kidnappersand a tragic discovery puts an unsuspecting Rawlins on the trail of the abductors, a trio of unlikely domestic terrorists in the final stages of AIDS, willing to risk what's left of their lives to give violent expression to their desperate AIDS rage. Their goal: to make the world know what it's like to liveand diewith AIDS. Their weapons: a Congressman, a video camera, and a syringe full of HIV-infected blood. Their conduit to the global viewing audience: Todd Mills, who knows more about their plansand has more at stakethan he first realizes.
Unsettling, unpredictable and unapologetic in its dramatization of such hot-button issues as right-wing hypocrisy, AIDS activism, HIV infection and assisted suicide, Hostage is Zimmerman's darkest and most suspenseful tale yet, a bold step forward for this acclaimed series.
Veteran Zimmerman (Red Trance, 1994, etc.), as if knowing this high-concept snatch has nowhere to go, punches up Mills's hardcover debut with such ferocity and horrific physical detail that it transcends its pulpish story to become a full-throated howl of anger and pain.
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You really don't think about dying when you're dancing, at least not if the music's fast and pulsing and the volume's so loud that you can feel the beat pummel your innards. There's nothing better than flashing lights, grinding hips, and bodies, bodies, bodies all packed together as the tunes pound on and on. It just makes you feel so full of energy, so incredibly alive. Maybe that's why Curt and I both loved going down to the bars. Maybe somewhere inside we understood we were doomed. Maybe we were merely trying to forestall the inevitable.
So that's how I'm going to remember Curt, out there on the dance floor in his white T-shirt and blue jeans, a big smile on that handsome face, a thread of sweat rolling off his brow as the Village People throbbed away. Nobody could dance better than him. We'd both come out in the last yeareven the moms knewand you could see his joy and relief as he bounced around, feet moving, fingers snapping, the music pouring into his body and out his soul.
Yes, that's how I'll remember Curtso very happy, so very gayeven though I'll always, always feel guilty for what I did to him.
He'd spent a long time thinking how he was going to kill Curt. After all, they were best friends.
Turning a corner, the man parked on the edge of Powderhorn Park, a large, rolling space with a frozen pond in the middle, and then proceeded the rest of the way up the snowy sidewalk. No one was out, not in this neighborhood, not at this time of night, but he still pulled up the collar of his dark wool coat, he still kept his cap snug on his head. You never knew. Some insomniac could be up watching TV, some truck driver could be coming home late, and the last thing he wanted was any sort of complication. He just had to do it and be done with it.
As he approached the small brick building two blocks later he took note that all four apartments were dark. Very good. He'd thought about slipping down the side of the building and using the rear door, but, no, that wasn't such a hot idea. He knew this place well. All four apartments were identical, all four bedrooms were in the back of the building. The chances of waking anyone up were much slimmer if he just went in the front, entered Curt's ground-floor place, and proceeded to the back where Curt lay sleeping. If anyone heard him they'd think it was just someone getting up in the middle of the night to take a pee.
Off to the right he heard something, glanced over. Raccoons, three of them gathered in a concentrated huddle. Having obviously gotten into someone's garbage, they sat right in the middle of the street ripping apart a McDonald's bag. The biggest one, a gloppy packet of ketchup in his paws, glanced at the man, but confident that the frigid night belonged to them, didn't budge and continued with the feast at hand.
MAC, the Minnesota AIDS Coalition, had set up a rotation of friends to care for Curt, which meant there were maybe twenty-some keys circulating around town. Perhaps more, for Curt had been popular, a jovial sort with a big heart and a handsome face, and in return a lot of people now cared for him. Which meant it wasn't at all unusual, thought the man as he approached the front door, that he would have a key too. If all went well no one would suspect anyone had slipped in here tonight. If any suspicions were raised, though, the trail would be impossible to follow. Hadn't Curt mentioned that even a delivery service had a key?
He knew the place so well that when he unlocked the front door of the building and stepped inside, he didn't even have to turn on the light. A little lobby that they kept locked after nine at night. Four mailboxes on the right. Four steps up to the first landing. Curt's apartment was up there, the first door on the right, and the man paused only briefly. He listened, tried to suck in any and all of the sounds. But there was nothing, and so using both hands he slid the key into Curt's door, twisted the lock open, and entered.
It was hot.
The first thing he did was take off his cap and stuff it in his pocket; then he unbuttoned his coat. He didn't remove his gloves, however, even though this place was as overly warm as a nursing home. It smelled like one too. Stuffy. Stale. Moist. Medicinal. The gloves had to remain on though, lest he leave a careless print.
Sensing something move to his right, he looked into the living room and saw eyes staring back at him. Curt's cat, Girlfriend, sat perched on a window ledge, a tall, lean creature with short, jet-black hair. She stared at him for a long, soulful moment, knowing of course that something was wrong, terribly so. Aware in some wise animal part of her that she was powerless, however, Girlfriend turned back to the window, gazing out at the antics of the raccoons and their McDonald's bag.
He proceeded to the rear of the apartment, passing through the dining room and directly into the kitchen, where he paused in front of the old wooden cabinets, tall ones made of shellacked fir. Down the short hall lay the bathroom, where a faint night-light was burning, and beyond that was a dark doorway, the bedroom. Standing quite still he heard distinct noises, the hissing of a vaporizer, and finally Curt's slow, pained wheezing.
Knowing he had no other choice, the intruder didn't hesitate. He continued on, walking right into the bedroom, a small room with a dresser on the left, some big posters on one wall, a chair, a bedside table littered with vials, pills, a glass of water, and the bed in which Curt now slept. It was dark, of course, except for the light from the alley, which made everything glow as if a full moon were out. The man grabbed the back of the chair with one hand, dragged it across the floor, and sat down right next to the bed, surprised that Curt didn't even stir. Then again, who knew what drugs he was on today.
He was buried under a down comforter and three or four blankets, a near skeleton of a figure who didn't look as if he'd ever be able to stand again. Curt's best friend just sat in the chair, silently weeping, searching for an answer, wondering how could this once robust and vital guy now be so scrawny, so puny? How could this butch man have lost so very much weight and still be alive? He'd fought so ungodly hard, hung on as long as he could to this apartment. He should have been moved to one of the AIDS foster homes weeks ago instead of to a hospice tomorrow as was now planned, but of course that was what Curt had wanted least: to leave this place, the life and memories he'd had here.
Finally, he reached down and touched Curt on the shoulderoh, Jesus, nothing but bones!and nudged him gently, saying, "Curt, wake up."
As if in delirium, Curt stirred. "Wh-what?"
"It's me, buddy. Wake up."
Curt rolled to one side, struggled to open his sunken and hollow eyes, then managed a smile. "Oh, hi. So you're next on the roster. I . . . I didn't know you were coming tonight."
All the friends and then some were taking turns staying here, watching out for Curt, making sure he took his meds, trying to get him to eat something, anything, even a mere spoonful of mashed potatoes. And there would have been someone here tonight had Curt's visitor not fudged the schedule, twisted it around so that Mike thought that another guy would have been here, another guy who would have shown up if Carol hadn't called to tell him that Tony was on this evening, when in fact Tony was out of town. It was all an oversight that Curt's best friend had cleverly manipulated so that he could do the necessary deed.
"How're you doing?" he asked.
"Not so good," Curt said in a faint voice. "I think this is it. I think I'm in the departure lounge."
"Yeah, well, none of us is getting out of here alive." He reached out, pushed aside the thick layer of covers, found the skeletal hand, and shuddered, for it was like holding hands with death. "Who knows, maybe I won't be far behind you."
Curt looked down at the gloved hand wrapped around his. "You're all right, aren't you?"
"Just a cold," he lied, "that I don't want to pass on to you."
"What's the diff, I already have PCP." Reminded of the Pneumocystic carinii pneumonia that had plagued him from the start of his battle against AIDS, Curt suddenly began hacking, the cough coming from deep within and racking his body. "I . . . I"
"Shh, buddy," he said, reaching out and smoothing Curt's forehead, the skin so translucent, so fragile that it seemed it might rip. "Don't say anything. Just relax. I'm right here."
The coughing deepened, desperately so, and at one point Curt's entire face twisted and he struggled to push himself up. He was gagging, and for a moment it seemed he might vomit, but then things subsided and the fit passed as quickly as it had come.
"That's it, Curt. Just get comfortable."
Curt gazed up, those soulful eyes so sincere. "Our soup of the day is a lovely lobster bisque."
At first he didn't know what to say or do. At first he thought it was a joke. But of course it wasn't. A deathly dementia was overtaking Curt's mind, and in the course of the last two weeks Curt, without realizing it, was saying far too much about everything and anything.
"And today our salad dressings are creamy pepper, honey mustard, and, of course, our house vinaigrette."
He smiled, ran his hand down Curt's sunken cheek. "Hey, man, I think you should have gotten out of that restaurant a little bit sooner. You're going to carry that shit with you to the grave."
Curt squeezed his eyes shut, seemed to fade away, but then came back, his lids bouncing open in panic. "What's going to happen to Girlfriend?"
"We'll find a nice home for her, don't worry."
"Promise me you won't send her to . . ." He closed his eyes. "Promise me not the pound. I don't . . . don't want my kitty to be gassed."
Tears started swelling his eyes. "I won't let that happen, sweetheart. I promise."
"Thanks. God, I've always been able to count on you, haven't I?" He started to cough again, then stopped, only to drift away again. "I'm sorry, man. I'm really sorry."
"Don't worry," he replied.
"But you're going to do it, aren't you?"
"Shh, don't talk."
"Do it for me, will you? Don't back out now."
His face tensing with fear, Curt looked up. "I haven't told anyone. I promise, I"
"Hey, it's okay."
"No one will ever find them down there," he muttered as his eyes fell shut.
And right there was the problem. Who knew what Curt had been blathering and to whom? For the past week his temperature had been dangerously high as his body had struggled to fight off the pneumonia and brain lymphoma, not to mention the various fungal infections and thrush and a half dozen other things. For days now he'd been babbling everything from daily specials to talk of the weather to messages for "Mr. Wonderful," his ex-lover, the shit who'd abandoned him when Curt had first tested positive. Curt's best friend had listened to a variety of nonsensical things, and now he only prayed that Curt hadn't let their plans slip.
"It's . . . it's not a . . . a gay disease," begged Curt, struggling to open his eyes. "Make sure everyone . . . understands."
"That's right, it's just a disease." He reached into his pocket and pulled out the small vial. "Look, buddy, I brought you something."
"A magic potion?" Curt smiled, caught his breath, and stifled a cough.
"Right, the one you've been waiting for. Don't worry, it's going to make everything all better."
What other choice was there? He'd been over and over this, trying to figure out any other way. But there wasn't, thought the man, reaching to the bedside table for the glass of water. He had to do it tonight too, not only before Curt was moved to the hospice, but before he let the proverbial cat out of the bag. Besides, it wasn't going to hurt. Curt'd be gone in an instant. And he was going to last only another few weeks anyway. Better he should be spared all the misery.
And so he poured the cyanide into the glass of water, swirled it around, and then leaned over to Curt, whose head he lifted up.
"Drink up, sweet prince," he said, his eyes beading with tears as he held the glass to Curt's lips. "Don't worry."
"Just get that fat-ass con . . . congressman for me."
"Whatever you say."
"Oh, and tell Mr. Wonderful I hate him."
Curt smiled, took a swig, and then a moment later, in one quick jerk, was released.
Meet the Author
Award-winning author R.D. Zimmerman has been nominated for two Edgars, two Lambda Literary Awards, and an Anthony. He has written ten previous novels, including Tribe and Closet (1996 Lambda Literary Award winner) in the Todd Mills series, six children's books, and created six bestselling mystery jigsaw puzzles. Raised in Chicago, he now lives in Minneapolis.
- Minneapolis, Minnesota
- Date of Birth:
- August 23, 1952
- Place of Birth:
- Chicago, Illinois
- B.A. in Russian Language and Creative Writing, Michigan State University, 1976
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