Table of Contents
Introduction Philip Metres Dimitri Psurtsev xiii
I Butterfly in the Hospital Orchard (1926-1945)
Candle 3
If I were the arrogant man I once was 5
Ignatievo Forest 7
Hail on Petit-Bourgeois Street 9
Portrait 11
June 25, 1939 13
The table is set for six 15
Cricket 17
Yesterday morning I began waiting for you 21
From "Chistopol Notebook"
II Under the yoke of bad luck 23
IV Refugee 25
V I'm piling up lines of firewood altars 27
VII In anger you punish unbearably, Lord 29
VIII You ran, choking, until you fell 31
X I call, but Marina does not reply. She sleeps today 33
Beautiful Day 35
Here, a house once stood. Inside, some old man 37
A German machinegunner will shoot me in the road, or 39
The gun battery was over there, behind that hill 41
A blind man was riding an unheated train 43
Don't stand here 45
Western Sky 47
The Hunt 49
Butterfly in the Hospital Orchard 51
Valya's Willow 53
Saturday, June 21st, 1941 55
Field Hospital 59
II The Earthly Feast (1945-1965)
The Book of Grass 65
The Word 67
I learned the grass as I began to write 69
Things 71
I bid farewell to everything I was 75
You evening light, gray 79
From the Window 81
May Vincent van Gogh forgive me 83
Poets 85
The Olive Trees 87
Infant-Life 89
Pigeons 91
Passing By 93
Earthly 95
Wind 97
Song Under the Bullet 99
To Poems 101
The Steppe 103
Eurydice 107
First Times Together 111
I've come to hate them, these words, words, words 115
The Poet (Osip Mandelstam) 117
Reality and Speech 121
Manuscript 123
III Gather My Wax When Morning Arrives (1965-1977)
Life, Life 127
The Night Before the First of June 131
O, if only I could rise, regain my memory and consciousness 133
By the book of stone I learn a tongue outside of time 135
And now summer has left 137
From nowhere at all 139
Their commas exact and sensible 141
To the Memory of A. A. Akhmatova 143
Wet-nurse of dragonflies and birds 153
After the War 155
The Sugakleya disappears into the reeds 165
I've dreamed all this, and this I'm dreaming 167
Snow in March 169
That thunder still rings in the ears 171
I'm no plaintiff, I will not sue 173
From its dark sleep the body wakes 175
Once Upon a Time 177
My sight, which was my power, now blurs 181
Afterword: "Erotic Soyuz" by Philip Metres 183
Notes 197