I Cried, You Didn't Listen: A First Person Look at a Childhood Spent Inside CYA Youth Detention Systems

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"I CRIED, YOU DIDN'T LISTEN IS THE MOST POWERFUL TALE OF HORROR WITHIN THE WALLS OF PENAL INSTITUTIONS SINCE 'PAPILLON.' THE TERRIFYING ASPECT IS THAT IT DESCRIBES AMERICA'S JUVENILE SYSTEM" - Alden Mills, ARETE MAGAZINE

"THE AUTHOR'S WELL-WRITTEN STORY COMES AT THE READER FAST AND FURIOUSLY; SHOCKING READERS INTO AN AWARENESS OF THE INHUMANITY OF AMERICA'S JUVENILE PENAL INSTITUTIONS."- PUBLISHERS WEEKLY

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Overview

"I CRIED, YOU DIDN'T LISTEN IS THE MOST POWERFUL TALE OF HORROR WITHIN THE WALLS OF PENAL INSTITUTIONS SINCE 'PAPILLON.' THE TERRIFYING ASPECT IS THAT IT DESCRIBES AMERICA'S JUVENILE SYSTEM" - Alden Mills, ARETE MAGAZINE

"THE AUTHOR'S WELL-WRITTEN STORY COMES AT THE READER FAST AND FURIOUSLY; SHOCKING READERS INTO AN AWARENESS OF THE INHUMANITY OF AMERICA'S JUVENILE PENAL INSTITUTIONS."- PUBLISHERS WEEKLY

"I CRIED, YOU DIDN'T LISTEN IS A POWERFUL INDICTMENT OF A SYSTEM THAT MAY HAVE LOST TRACK OF ITS PURPOSE."- Don Davis, THE SAN DIEGO UNION

An early Winner of the "Project Censored" Award of Excellence"; I Cried, You Didn't Listen is a powerful story. It is shocking, haunting and brutal. Although it is a rare and valuable document, what is exceptional is not Dwight Abbott's experience, but his clarity and courage in sharing that experience.

Dwight tells the disturbing tale of a very young child, first committed to the care of the state because of family tragedy and bad luck. Once institutionalized, he must learn to live within the cruel dynamics of a system that grants power through violence and leaves children at the mercy of predatory adults. He is continually faced with the need to choose between dehumanizing options: Be predator or be prey. Even in Dwight's description of racialist violence we see the effect that the social system has had on him - cementing stereo-types and prejudices that become self-fulfilling prophesy.

Dwight's account is terrifying. Upon reading it, one must recognize that, faced with the stark choice between victimizing another and being a victim oneself, the morals and values that make sense in freedom fall away. Perpetrating violence appears as the best option for self-preservation. This is the fundamental dynamic at work in Dwight's institutional life. I Cried, You Didn't Listen shows that, within incarcerating institutions, violence in all its forms - sexual assault, cliques, crews, gangs, emotional abuse - is essentially about power and control both over and above one's own sense of self. -Books not Bars

"THIS IS A SEARINGLY HONEST BOOK - READ IT IF YOU HAVE THE COURAGE. DWIGHT EDGAR ABBOTT'S STORY WILL REVEAL MORE ABOUT THE SELF-FUELING HORRORS OF INCARCERATION THAN WOULD TEN OF THE AVERAGE CRIMINOLOGY TEXTS. FOR YEARS THIS BOOK HAS CIRCULATED AS AN ALMOST CULT UNDERGROUND DOCUMENT, A SIMPLE KEY TO EXPLAINING THE COMPLEX WRETCHED MESS THAT IS THE AMERICAN CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM." - Christian Parenti; American investigative journalist; writer of many widely published articles and author of: "LOCKDOWN AMERICA," "THE SOFT CAGE" AND "THE FREEDOM."

"SADLY, DWIGHT'S EXPERIENCE ECHOES THE STORIES OF THE THOUSANDS OF YOUNG PEOPLE STILL WAREHOUSED AND DEHUMANIZED IN CALIFORNIA, BUT ALSO SERVES POWERFUL TESTAMENT TO THE NEED FOR A 180 DEGREE SHIFT IN HOW WE DEAL WITH YOUNG PEOPLE IN TROUBLE." - Van Jones, EXECUTIVE DIRECTOR, ELLA BAKER CENTER FOR HUMAN RIGHTS

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781470059903
  • Publisher: CreateSpace Publishing
  • Publication date: 4/10/2012
  • Pages: 234
  • Sales rank: 691,935
  • Product dimensions: 6.00 (w) x 9.00 (h) x 0.49 (d)

Meet the Author

Dwight Abbott is currently serving seven life terms at Valley State Prison in Chowchilla, California. He was raised and trained by the California Youth Authority, from the age of nine. This prepared him to continue his adult life in various penal institutions and penitentiaries throughout California and Oregon. Places include: Preston Castle, Paso De Robles, Deules, San Quentin, Folsom, Salinas Valley State Prison, Pelican Bay and many unmentioned. He is a hardened veteran of the Aryan Brotherhood among others. He is now an accomplished author of "I Cried, You Didn't Listen" and "CONSEQUENCE", the aftermath. He presently is showcasing his books and short stories on Ebay and www.DwightAbbott.com. His sole remaining Purpose in this life is to have one more young 'rebel' write him and say that Sonny's book had a part in a change of heart; thus avoiding the Path that Sonny took.

Dedicated to:
All the children who shared with me the suffering of physical, mental, sexual and emotional brutality. To those very same boys I met again as an adult, while I served time in Soledad, San Quentin, Folsom and in Oregon state and Washington state penitentiaries.
To the many I have watched slaughtered on those prisons' yards, and to those who went on to kill - three of whom I wrote to often until they were executed by the state that raised them.
To all the incarcerated children, who because of cruel physical beatings, sexual molestations and mental manipulations, become society's outcasts and nonconformists; not because they are bad children but because they have become products of the system.
To the children who are - and will be - growing up as I did, filled with shame and guilt, unable to speak with any member of a society that refuses to lift its head from the sands of ignorance and denial.
To the future victims of these victims.

And to the following men:

George Jackson, shot and killed by guards at San Quentin; Billy Cook, murdered at San Quentin; Gary Gilmore, excuted by the state of Utah; Tony Zamore, murdered at San Quentin; Wallace Michael Ford, murdered at Vacaville; Dennis Dimmick, murdered at Vacaville; Jimmy Trembly, murdered at Soledad; Kenny West, shot and killed during a bank robbery; "Joker" Jones, murdered by prison guards at San Quentin; "Wop", murdered by inmates at San Quentin; Jason, poisoned at Oregon State Penitentiary; and to Charles Manson, a friend whose soul was killed by the System.
I dedicate this book. - Dwight Abbott

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  • Posted April 19, 2012

    A word from the author's brother, Skippy When Sonny first wrote

    A word from the author's brother, Skippy

    When Sonny first wrote I Cried You Didn’t Listen and subsequently Consequence, I never 'wanted' to believe. I told myself that he was simply 'dramatizing' the situations. This was particularly true after I had read I Cried You Didn’t Listen. I don’t think it was so much as being far from the truth, as it was that I did not want to believe that my brother had suffered the 'unbelievable & inhuman' indignity’s that he related in his book; nor, that he had perpetrated similar indignities upon others, either, whom he perceived had wronged him or simply in 'self-preservation.'

    With knowledge, age, wisdom and experience; I have come to know that what my brother has written, is not only true; but, maybe even 'less' than the truth. Not because it is false, but because the truth is more then most humans can bear to hear about their very own nature. I, in my own cloistered and protected world, do not want to know what lies in the 'darkness' ; inside or outside. I prefer that no one turn the “'lights' on; for I am totally convinced, the horror of what I will actually see, will; by far, outstrip my most vivid imaginations of what is there. I also fear and know; when the lights go on, I will see myself, in a mirror, as I really am.


    I certainly am in denial; however, I might always remain of that persuasion, to the death. This is because I never want to believe that my brother actually suffered such indignities and was forced by the system to act so violently toward others. Most of all, I never want to admit to my part in that system, or let it be seen by others, to my shame. I prefer to point to the sins and secrets of others in order to distract from myself, my family and my friends. I simply have never been caught; and I sincerely hope I never will.

    I am thankful for the vivid news stories, prisons, jails, mental institutions, cartels and corrupt governments, which draw attention away from me; and to which I can, with confidence, point a 'finger of guilt' or 'throw a stone'. Such opportunity for 'condemnation' gives me a 'soapbox pedestal' upon which I can and do, falsely, lift myself; my life behavior and thoughts, above what is the absolute Truth concerning my own sin. I can look down, while the 'ignorant' look up.

    When should a child be ‘exposed’ to the absolute truth of our (mans) continuing inhumanity? Should we withhold the truth and hope that our children will never come near that ‘human darkness’ let alone be drawn into it, either willingly or unwillingly? Should we “spare them”, as long as possible, out of misguided compassion, hoping beyond hope, that they pass through this life; never ‘suffering’ the discovery that the real world (including you) is not really what they were led to believe? Is it better to ‘live the lie’; by sticking our heads in the sand; or risk the Burning Light of the Truth?

    If there be a 'Highest Power', it is I, you and our children who need it even more-so than my brother; for he has been exposed; albeit, in a horrific and tragic way, to Truths Light. It is now my brother’s desire and purpose to awaken young adults and children in as 'gentle' a way as possible; in the Hope that they can avoid the tragic consequences of believing the lie a minute more than necessary.


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  • Posted August 26, 2012

    I Also Recommend:

    This is a book you won't put down. I admire the writer for his c

    This is a book you won't put down. I admire the writer for his courage
    to continue on in writing Part 2 in his most recently published book:
    "CONSEQUENCE: The Aftermath" which is just as intense and
    honest as Dwight's 1st book, "I Cried, You Didn't Listen"
    Dwight is naturally talented in exposing life's truths, horrors that
    most people tend to shut out and push away — all that is 'invisible to
    the eye'

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