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Overview

A harrowing, remarkable poetry memoir about one girl's struggle with anxiety disorder.

This is a true story of growing up, breaking down, and coming to grips with a psychological disorder. When Samantha Schutz first left home for college, she was excited by the possibilities -- freedom from parents, freedom from a boyfriend who was reckless with her affections, freedom from the person she was supposed to be. At first, she revelled in the independence ... but as pressures increased , she began to suffer anxiety attacks that would leave her mentally shaken and physically incapacitated. Thus began a hard road of discovery and coping, powerfully rendered in this poetry memoir.

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In this moving memoir, Schutz details her struggle with anxiety disorder. She has always been a perfectionist, thanks in great part to her parents' constant pushing. Shortly after beginning college, Schutz starts to experience strange symptoms-shaking, sweating, racing thoughts, and feeling trapped in her own body-which turn out to be panic attacks. The fear and discomfort of the attacks rule her life. She relies heavily on medication to regulate her days, but worries that she is only able to cope with her disorder because of the medication. Even with pills and therapists, Schutz battles fear, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. Her illness bewilders her, at one point even forcing Schutz to wonder if she is doing it to herself. Schutz worries that perhaps she needs this disorder, that maybe she does not want to get well. Schutz vacillates between feeling as if she has conquered her affliction to being right back in the thick of it, feeling alone, scared, and desperate. The ending seems hopeful, but given her past, it is hard to be certain that she has overcome her demons. Written in verse, this memoir successfully conveys what it is like to suffer from panic attacks. The intense tone often feels frantic and breathless, pulling the reader into Schutz's frame of mind. Her story will have a wide appeal thanks to both its content and form. Once readers pick up this insightful debut, they will not be able to put it down.
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"I can't believe/no one else can hear/I am screaming/inside my head/I am going to die/I am going to die/I am going to die. So begins the memoir of Samantha Schutz who has written about her anxiety disorder completely in verse. There is little variation throughout the 280 pages, which describes the minutia of what she feels as she experiences frequent panic attacks and interacts with friends, boyfriends, and family. The memoir has no plot and only one three-dimensional character—Samantha herself—while others appear as undeveloped, supporting characters. The book starts out with Samantha graduating from a private girls' high school in New York, which is when she first exhibits signs of her disorder. Readers follow her through four years of college, including a semester abroad in France. She takes medication and goes to counseling, which only temporarily eases her symptoms. She has one loyal friend, Rebecca, who is sympathetic to her plight, and several men who drift in and out of her life, who either do not know about or do not notice her "crazy" behavior. Her parents seem clueless, and it is unclear how much they know about her disorder. Finally, as Samantha learns to manage her condition, there is a ray of hope at the end. Readers may wonder what caused her condition in the first place or what causes anxiety disorders in general. The author never explains either, nor what finally helped her to manage her condition. Although the main character is in college, the language is simple enough for younger teens. At the end is a list of sources for teens who want to learn more about anxiety disorders.
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In this "memoir in verse," Schutz comes to terms with an anxiety disorder that surfaced and plagued her throughout and after her college years. Readers accompany the author from the summer after high school, through college, on a semester abroad in Paris, and into her first job after graduation. Typical early-adulthood issues such as boyfriends, sex, drinking, grades, and family are woven throughout her struggle with physically and mentally debilitating panic attacks. The author had the courage and wisdom to seek professional help and embarked on a long and often bumpy road to treating her disorder. The decision to write in verse proves fitting; in the scenes in which a panic attack is approaching, for example, the short lines of text echo the breathless terror described within. Though the book begins to feel repetitive toward its conclusion, the repetition simultaneously reflects the cyclical nature of Schutz's disorder and one's college years. Aptly, the book ends without absolute closure, and while luckily not all teens will find themselves in identical situations, many young people transitioning to adulthood will find a part of themselves in this overwhelming, and seemingly never-ending, search for self-identity.
—Jill Heritage MazaCopyright 2006 Reed Business Information.

Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780439805193
  • Publisher: Scholastic, Inc.
  • Publication date: 8/1/2007
  • Edition description: Reprint
  • Pages: 280
  • Sales rank: 162,217
  • Age range: 12 years
  • Product dimensions: 5.12 (w) x 7.08 (h) x 0.66 (d)

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  • Posted February 9, 2012

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    I Don't Want to Be Crazy will make you go CRAZY...

    When reading this book, I got mixed emotions when the author described her battle with anxiety. Of course, I felt bad because she feels she doesn't have control of her life, but then I feel she's overreacting and just freaks out about any little thing. Obviously, it's hard to relate to if you don't go through anxiety but it’s understandable when you read about the struggles. Interesting read if you want to know what it's like to deal with anxiety.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 6, 2011

    Fantabulous

    I really loved this book. It was an interesting read and I could really relate to the main character. This book helps you to understand that some people have struggles that they have to deal with in their everyday life and it is really difficult for them. I don't want to spoil the book at all so I'll just leave it at that.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 6, 2011

    Realistic

    I enjoyed this book. As someone who has Clinical Depression, I can tell you from experience that this is a realistic book. It is also interesting to read, and it is over before you know it.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 6, 2011

    Catchy title

    The summary of the book caught my eye in the bookstore and I thought it was a book I would really find interesting. Instead, it was a teenage angst story about drugs. It was not something I could relate with or find interesting.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 30, 2010

    Are you crazy?

    Hi my name is Reagan, I read the book I don't want to be crazy, author by Samantha Schutz. It's a very interasting memore book on something you, me, or teens would like. The book is intense you don't know what's going to happen. I can say i loved it, on how it's a true story of a girl growing up, and breaking down. She was normal like me and you she had problems, boyfriends, graduated, went to college, did some drugs, but there was just one thing she was unsure about. Something strange was happening to her, something unsual. She didn't want to worry about it or tell her parents.She kinda thought it was from smoking weed but was unsure it was alot of pressur on her with school an making sure she wasn't crazy. Every thing would be fine untill out of no where her body took control an she would be mentally shaken . I scale this book a nine from ten being the best. It kept me wanting to read more an more, an as for me I don't like to read books but this one kept my eyes on the pages.

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  • Posted October 12, 2010

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    I am SydneyR...a student at Hewitt-Trussville High School in Alabama

    Sam is a troubled teen who wants to be perfect and normal. This book takes us through Sam's moving away to college. Away from her boyfriend and family, Sam becomes troubled with parties and boys along her way. As Sam progresses through college, she starts having anxiety attacks. She gets red, hears voices tell her she is not ok, sweats, and watches the world seem to move in slow motion. Jean, Sam's psychologist, gives Sam some pills to help with the attacks. Unfortunaly, the pills do not help Sam much and her attacks worsen. Sam goes through everyday trying to be perfect, and normal, and appear to be not crazy.
    I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys reading about troubled teens. I thought this was a very well written book. I enjoyed the psychology factor of this book talking about the anxiety attacks. I think Samantha Schutz is great young writer. The only problem I had was the layout of the book. I didn't like how the text was laid out on the pages.

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  • Posted January 31, 2010

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    great story

    this story is very informative and goes into quite detail about how a girl comes to realize her problems and the challenges of dealing with it in college/family. i really enjoyed reading it.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 17, 2009

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    The book I don't want to be crazy

    This book is very life like. I fell in love with this book very fast. i read the first page and was hooked. This book is about a girl who goes off to collage and from all the stress starts having anxiety attacks and has to deal with them all through collage. She meets all diffrent people and guys. She is happy and sad to be away from her "boyfriend" Jason. He played with her emotions all the time, but she didn't want to leave him because he gave her a since of saftey. I recommed this book to everyone that enjoys true stories. This book is written in a poetry memoir.

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  • Posted March 6, 2009

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    Okay but not great

    This book was not my favorite at all!
    It was just a bunch of events in a persons life that didn't even go anywhere.
    I wouldn't recomend this book to anyone.

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  • Posted November 1, 2008

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    Reviewed by Sally Kruger, aka "Readingjunky" for TeensReadToo.com

    Millions of people suffer from anxiety disorder (panic attacks) on a daily basis. Most suffer needlessly, either due to lack of medical treatment, misdiagnosis, or ignorance of the condition. I DON'T WANT TO BE CRAZY is one woman's brave confession of her struggles with the debilitating disorder.

    Samantha Schutz was first diagnosed with anxiety disorder at age seventeen, after years of suffering with the problem. She uses this memoir to describe the devastating effects of the condition on her life and her relationships. The book chronicles the ups and downs of Samantha's life from age seventeen until she graduates from college and gets her first job in the publishing industry.

    Told in verse, the story reveals everything from the gripping terror of the attacks to the many therapists she consulted for help. Samantha titles her entries with the current drugs (Klonopin, Serzone, Xanax, Paxil, etc.) and the dosages she was prescribed to treat her condition. She also explains her attempts to stop the medications, and her belief that things would get better, only to relapse with increasing frequency.

    Samantha's honesty is evident throughout. She doesn't promise miracle cures, and she truly marvels at the support she received from her family and most of her friends. This is an inspiring book for anyone living with or connected to someone living with anxiety disorder.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 27, 2008

    Awesome read!

    This book was so good, I couldn't put it down! The author's story is so real and different from other books that I have read. The way she wrote it(in verse) made it seem more real like I was experiencing it as well. I talked about this book for my english seminar-it deals with lots of important issues. Not just mental disorders. So everyone read this book!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 1, 2008

    What a read!!

    In this deeply touching novel, Samantha Schutz writes about her struggles with anxiety disorder throughout her college experience. An amazing summer read for anyone who is looking for a book that will change the way you see things. Five stars!!!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted October 22, 2007

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    Millions of people suffer from anxiety disorder (panic attacks) on a daily basis. Most suffer needlessly, either due to lack of medical treatment, misdiagnosis, or ignorance of the condition. I DON¿T WANT TO BE CRAZY is one woman¿s brave confession of her struggles with the debilitating disorder. Samantha Schutz was first diagnosed with anxiety disorder at age seventeen, after years of suffering with the problem. She uses this memoir to describe the devastating effects of the condition on her life and her relationships. The book chronicles the ups and downs of Samantha¿s life from age seventeen until she graduates from college and gets her first job in the publishing industry. Told in verse, the story reveals everything from the gripping terror of the attacks to the many therapists she consulted for help. Samantha titles her entries with the current drugs (Klonopin, Serzone, Xanax, Paxil, etc.) and the dosages she was prescribed to treat her condition. She also explains her attempts to stop the medications, and her belief that things would get better, only to relapse with increasing frequency. Samantha's honesty is evident throughout. She doesn't promise miracle cures, and she truly marvels at the support she received from her family and most of her friends. This is an inspiring book for anyone living with or connected to someone living with anxiety disorder. **Reviewed by: Sally Kruger, aka 'Readingjunky'

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 22, 2007

    Loved it!

    I thought this was a very interesting book. I was glad that I picked it up that day in the library. It was the title that got me, then the reviews in the back. Seeing that Ellen Hopkins had made a comment, gave me more reason to read it. And i'm glad I did, this story is full of emotion and distress. It put you in someone elses place everytime you opened the book.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 18, 2006

    little bit of crazy

    samantha schutz makes you realize the pain of living with anxiety disorder. it gives a unique peak inside the author's head to the most personal thoughts that you would never imagine hearing outloud. it is a deeply personal and touching memoir that will change the way you see people.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 12, 2006

    A True gem

    Samantha Schutz's book, 'I don't want to be crazy' is an amazing and vivid portrayel of a young woman's struggle with panic/anxiety disorder. I am positive this book will help many young women who are experiencing similar struggle. Further, I would recommend this book to anyone who is looking for a fascinating and impressive read! A wonderful first book for this author I look forward to more publications.

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