If You Stay (Beautifully Broken Series #1)

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In the bestselling tradition of J.A. Redmerski, Jessica Sorensen, S.C. Stephens, and Jamie McGuire...

Twenty-four-year-old Pax Tate is an asshole. Seriously. He's a tattooed, rock-hard bad boy with a tough attitude to match. His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with an intense guilt that he doesn't understand. What he does know is that he and his dad were left alone, and they have never been close. Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the ...

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Overview

In the bestselling tradition of J.A. Redmerski, Jessica Sorensen, S.C. Stephens, and Jamie McGuire...

Twenty-four-year-old Pax Tate is an asshole. Seriously. He's a tattooed, rock-hard bad boy with a tough attitude to match. His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with an intense guilt that he doesn't understand. What he does know is that he and his dad were left alone, and they have never been close. Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the black void in his soul. He pretends that the emptiness isn't there and this has always worked . . . until he meets Mila.

Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air that Pax has never known in his life. He doesn't know how to not hurt her, but he quickly realizes that he'd better figure it out because he needs her to breathe. When the memories of his mother's death resurface to haunt Pax, Mila is there to save him from his overwhelming guilt. Mila restores his broken heart, even as she evokes his powerful, sexual desires. Now for Pax to keep Mila, he needs to work on his issuesand stop being an asshole. But is that enough to make her stay?

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Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
02/17/2014
Cole (Dante’s Girl) offers a new adult take on the classic bad boy/good girl theme with her first If You Leave contemporary. Mila Hill is taking photos of Lake Michigan when she stumbles upon Pax Tate, who has overdosed on a number of substances. After she saves his life by calling an ambulance and performing CPR, Mila is drawn to find out more about this poor little rich guy who finds oblivion in drugs and alcohol. She slowly gets to know him as a damaged man whose mind is trying to shield him from a horrific childhood incident. Told in alternating first-person perspective, the story digs deep into the multitude of reasons why these two need each other so badly. Pax is hard to love, but soon the reader comes to see why Mila feels the way she does. In places, the unvarnished emotions will bring readers to tears. Gritty, raw and real. (Apr.)
<b>Mandi</b> - SmexyBooks.com
"...[R]aw and gritty and well done."
obsessionwithbooks.blogspot.com Obsession With Books
"If you've ever loved someone unconditionally, in spite of their problems, read this book."
Andrea - The Bookish Babe
"I loved If You Stay. Like, really really loved it. The kind of love that kept me reading until 2:40 am and left me crying, smiling, devastated, and elated. The best kind of book love."
Amanda - Globug and Hootie Need a Book
"Beautiful, raw, gritty, emotional and breath-taking are just a few of the words I can find to describe this book...reading this book was one of the best experiences I have had."
Stuck In Books (stuckinbooks.com) on IF YOU STAY
"5 stars - Love this bad boy who's heart is pure gold!"
thereaddicts.blogspot.com
"...You should go grab this book asap."
Just Bookin' Around
"If you've ever loved someone unconditionally, in spite of their problems, read this book."
obsessionwithbooks.blogspot.com
"5 stars - Love this bad boy who's heart is pure gold!"
Stuck In Books (stuckinbooks.com) on IF YOU STAY
"5 stars - Love this bad boy who's heart is pure gold!"
Goodreads - Kristen Proby
"This book is BRILLIANT!" -- Kristen Proby, Best-selling author of the With Me in Seattle series.
Defiantly Deviant - Lyra G.
"FIVE WHOPPING STARS - I haven't been this excited for an NA novel since Easy!"
My Secret Romance - Taryn C.
"Courtney Cole is a new-to-me author who was able to evoke so many emotions from me quite early on. When an author can do that, I know they're a keeper."
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781455550814
  • Publisher: Grand Central Publishing
  • Publication date: 4/8/2014
  • Series: Beautifully Broken Series , #1
  • Pages: 352
  • Sales rank: 120,962
  • Product dimensions: 5.20 (w) x 7.90 (h) x 1.00 (d)

Meet the Author

Courtney Cole is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling author who lives near Lake Michigan with her family. She's always working on her next project... or staring dreamily out her office window. To learn more about her, please visit http://www.courtneycoleauthor.com/
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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 9, 2013

    Dont pass up

    This is a very well written story about love, pain, forgiveness & hope. The first couple of chapters are quite raw, but the rest of the book isn't quite like that. It's a fairly short (about 170pgs) but powerful read. Would recommend for young adults & older.

    16 out of 17 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 11, 2013

    U will fall in love

    There are few books that make you cry and laugh and hope. And this book had it all. It was beautifly written and an amazing strory. A must read.

    15 out of 16 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 9, 2013

    5

    What a sad and beautiful story! I really enjoyed the love story, but the backstory was great, too-sad, but great. I kept expecting Pax to screw up in all the usual ways, and I'm glad he didn't. I'm getting so tired of the whole ' boy cheats, but the girl forgives him because he really loves her' crap. And even though he got dark for a bit, we never doubted his love for Mila.
    This story is so unique because Pax was always brutally honest, even when he was scared of his dark side and the repercussions. And once Pax committed, he was in 100%, even though he was messed up emotionally.
    I will definitely read more from this author. I loved her first book, My Favorite Mistake. And this book was even better, by miles.

    13 out of 14 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 10, 2013

    Anonymous

    Wow loved Mila and Pax! What a wonderful heartfelt story. I laughed and cried and could not put it down! Waiting for the next one!

    9 out of 12 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 20, 2013

    Amazing!!

    I am a very active reader. I read so much sometimes it is hard to find a really good book the the characters will stay with me even after i have finished Pax and Mila will be close to my heart for a long time the writer does an amazing job with this book. She could have stretch it out a little more for me but it would have just been filler anyways i laughed i cried and i want everyone to read this book WONDERFUL

    7 out of 7 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted February 18, 2013

    This has to be one of the most amazing books I have had the plea

    This has to be one of the most amazing books I have had the pleasure of reading!

    From start to finish I was enthralled and I couldn't put it down. I mean, WOW, what a way to introduce us to sexy, bad-boy, Pax Tate. And poor Mila, she deserves a medal for what she had to go through in the beginning.

    The story is well paced and jam-packed with emotion. There wasn't a second that my heart wasn't in my throat. I loved the development of Pax and Mila's relationship, and boy, oh boy, are there some scorching hot scenes in this book! I especially loved the tantalising second date. It really upped the ante on the sensuality of this story...and it made me want to start painting!


    Underneath it all, there is a really beautiful love story. One in which two people learn to accept, and love each other – as well as themselves. Everything about this couple felt real. They faced many hurdles but they also shared many beautiful tender moments.
    I cannot express enough how much I loved the characters. Pax is flawed in so many ways. All he's ever known are bad habits, trashy people and the dark void that fills his soul. He doesn’t apologize for being a bad-boy. In fact, he quite clearly puts it out there that he has problems, take it or leave it. And I admired him for his brutal honesty. But his bad-boy side was clearly a shield and I was intrigued as to why he’d become that way. So when the truth was revealed, my heart shattered into tiny pieces.

    Mila on the other hand, although more grounded and stable, really seems to be missing something. It felt like she was holding back and only started to live again after meeting Pax. She is such a wonderful, strong female MC, and I think we can learn a lot from her. She is independent, and even when she starts a relationship with Pax, she holds her own. She doesn’t become needy and clingy. She has doubts about him but they are all within reason, and when it does get to breaking point, she takes a step back. It takes all of her willpower but she does it, and I felt a sense of pride that she took the risk of letting go for the sake of their love.

    These days it’s too easy for people to make promises and then break them without a thought, so I loved that Pax didn’t promise Mila the world, he only told her that he would try to not hurt her. And because of his love for her he turned that try into a lasting promise, proving that Love Never Fails.

    7 out of 7 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 12, 2013

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    Luv This Book!

    Luv This Book!

    7 out of 9 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted March 5, 2013

    I bought this book because of its popularity, I had to see w





    I bought this book because of its popularity, I had to see what the hype was about.  When I stared reading the first page, my jaw was slightly ajar.  It was not what I was expecting.  I don't think the cover connects with the actual darkness that this book brings to the table. 




    This is so dark.  Pax is so messed up.  The first time Milla meets Pax, Pax is dead or about dead, from a self induced drug overdose.  She saves his life.  For me this was a struggle to connect with, perhaps from being around one to many messed up people, it was hard for me to see how she would immediately want to put herself in a relationship with Pax.




    This story is well written and you definitely get some crazy things happening.  I liked it, but for some reason I had a hard time with it.  It didn't draw me in as much as I would have liked.   




    There is a nice love story here, and the overall theme is love never fails.  There are some very great scenes with paint and nakedness.  I also really liked that Milla wasn't the virgin needing saving, I start to get sick of every girl being a virgin, Milla was the girl out to do the saving.  

    5 out of 5 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 10, 2013

    Awesome!!!!

    This is such an good book! I loved Mila and Pax. This book is in my top 5 favorites!

    5 out of 6 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 24, 2013

    Only okay

    Disappointing....all these books are all starting to run together....bad boy and good girl....they break up and make up....nothing original.

    4 out of 5 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted February 18, 2013

    I love Pax and Mila, what a great love story.  I love their char

    I love Pax and Mila, what a great love story.  I love their character and the way the author build it up.

    4 out of 4 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted July 15, 2013

    Wow! Talk about an opening chapter that packs a punch. Courtney

    Wow! Talk about an opening chapter that packs a punch. Courtney Cole walloped me right off the bat...and I liked it. For me, there's nothing better than gritty realism when it comes to contemporary romance. It gets a little tedious reading about supposed bad boys who deep down are pretty mild. Pax is the genuine article. He's the kind of guy that's really out there in the world. The damaged-beyond-repair type that good girls are encouraged to stay far away from.
    And that's what makes the title IF YOU STAY resonate on a deeper chord. Mila knows Pax isn't good for her. My favorite lines from her are: &quot;I can't let you break my heart. I don't have much of it left.&quot; and &quot;He could very definitely hurt me if I give him the chance. I've already had enough pain in life. I don't need more.&quot; She's already troubled and she doesn't need more heartache to go along with it, but despite her better judgement she's inexplicably drawn to Pax. And he has a load of trust issues as well. He doesn't think he deserves Mila, and he's afraid he's going to do something to screw up their relationship. He's terrified that one day she will leave him if he doesn't change. He feels comfortable in the oblivion that alcohol, drugs and meaningless sex provide, but with Mila he begins to feel for the first time.
    They meet each other under intense circumstances, and the love scenes that follow get an A+ for imagination and creativity. Nude finger painting. Fried zucchini mishaps. A plunge in Lake Michigan. Cole has a knack for peering into the male perspective when it comes to sex. What guys are looking for...what they're really thinking...making her writing of the steamier passages really stand out. Pax is a horny son of a gun, but then most guys are and it's a turn on for female readers to get inside his head.
    But what sets this book apart for me is the serious philosophical questions it raises about the polarity of life and death, dark and light, etc. Cole is fascinated with these contradictory elements and they're brilliantly explored in the dream states of Pax and Mila. I'm enamored by the lines: &quot;What I can see so far is that life consists of good and evil, black and white. And everything in between is a struggle for dominating the other. Life is a struggle. And I hate that it all ends with nothingness. That one day, you simply aren't here anymore. No more smiles, no more tears, no more anything.&quot; That is powerful stuff, and to find that kind of message in a New Adult novel is pretty extraordinary. I am blown away by how exceptional the insights in this book are. Courtney Cole, I like the way you think.

    3 out of 4 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted September 11, 2013

    This is a book I did not want to like... But I could not put it

    This is a book I did not want to like... But I could not put it down... Pax and Mila were two beautiful people and while there relationship was pretty dark there was more good than evil as their story unfolded... I will surely read the next books in this series... Ms Cole is a gifted author and this book had to be difficult and very emotional to write... This is not an easy book to read but there are some important messages between the covers....

    2 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 6, 2013

    TRAGIC SEXY & HOT

    I Loved this book. It has alittle bit of everything. It will make you laugh and definitely make you cry. And at times it will really piss you off. But then you begin to fall in love with Pax. It very enlightening. I recommend this book to everyone. The main characters Pax & Mila are wonderful together. Mila saves Pax in so many ways. And the author really defines Pax in a way that makes you think OH MY FREAKIN GOODNESS!! Could he get anymore messed up. Then he meets Mila and you think THANK YOU GOD!

    2 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 31, 2013

    I generally distaste romance novels because, generally, they're

    I generally distaste romance novels because, generally, they're annoyingly predictable: weak female lead dominated by very strong (commonly annoying) male and watery plots. I figured you should know that about me.

    If You Stay, however, was an amazing story that knocks you off your feet from the very first chapter. I couldn't help but fall in love with Pax and Mila; the depth Courtney Cole gives both characters is perfect. With a compelling plot that kept me turning pages (until one in the morning) and subtle twists I would definitely recommend If You Stay to anyone who loves a good love story.

    It's been a long time since a story kept me up half the night because I couldn't put  it down. So anyone who isn't sure whether they'd like If You Stay, I can honestly say that it would be completely worth it to check out the story.

    2 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 19, 2013

    good book

    i just got done reading this book.. its a little slow to being with but when you get into and see what is going on with pax and Mila you just keep reading at lest that’s what happened with me. i could not wait to get on my breaks at work to see where the book was going to go next

    2 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 10, 2013

    Love!

    Love, love, love this book. It is so well written. It reminds you no matter how dark your world seems the light will find you if you let it.

    2 out of 3 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 27, 2013

    Amazing

    Buy it. I read daily and this book is one of the best ever

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted October 16, 2013

    If You Stay by Courtney Cole gets you right from the beginning.

    If You Stay by Courtney Cole gets you right from the beginning. Pax has a void that he tries to fill with drugs and women. Mila is a sweet girl with her own issues. Can these two come together and help each other? I loved their story. It was gritty and real and sweet but had so many unknowns that you have to keep reading to discover their pasts as the characters discover it for themselves. She wrote it with alternating POVs which makes the story even better! ~Kendra with For the Love of Books

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted October 2, 2013

    Loved it

    Great Story

    1 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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