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In this emotional sequel to Diary of a Teenage Girl, Caitlin O'Conner faces new trials as she grows in her faith and strives to maintain the recent commitments she's made to God. As a new believer, Caitlin begins her summer job and makes preparations for a Mexico mission trip with her church youth group. Torn between new spiritual directions and loyalty to Beanie, her best friend (now pregnant), Caitlin searches out her personal values on friendship, romance, dating, life goals, and key relationships with God and...
In this emotional sequel to Diary of a Teenage Girl, Caitlin O'Conner faces new trials as she grows in her faith and strives to maintain the recent commitments she's made to God. As a new believer, Caitlin begins her summer job and makes preparations for a Mexico mission trip with her church youth group. Torn between new spiritual directions and loyalty to Beanie, her best friend (now pregnant), Caitlin searches out her personal values on friendship, romance, dating, life goals, and key relationships with God and family. Tough choices threaten her progress, and her year climaxes in her realization that maturity sometimes means life-impacting decisions must be made ... by faith alone.
Sixteen-year-old Caitlin struggles with her feelings about her best friend's pregnancy, boys who tempt her to break her vow not to date, non-Christian friends, and what God may be calling her to do with her life.
Friday, July 13 (I’m back…)
Is it just me or is this world going totally nuts?
Okay, before I get carried away, let me first say how good it feels to pick up a pen and write in my diary again. I thought I wanted to take a little break from writing in my diary during the summer—you know how it gets with work and sunshine and fun stuff to do. Anyway, I somehow imagined I was too busy to keep writing about my life. Big mistake, Caitlin! The thing is, I need to write about my life. Like, it sort of clears out my head or something—makes things more understandable. Almost like praying, but not quite the same.
Anyway, back to the world going totally nuts. Or is it me? You see, I’ve been working at my dad’s advertising firm (actually I’m just a part-time receptionist, and not doing such a bad job if I do say so myself). But lately it seems like all these older guys have been hitting on me. Okay, now I know that sounds all narcissistic (a word I just read in a magazine, which means you think the whole world revolves around you, which I don’t really think, by the way). But I don’t think I’m imagining it either.
I mean, Todd Alberts (who’s probably at least twenty-five) even asked me if I wanted to go get coffee with him today. Now, it’s not that I’m not flattered (because, believe me, I am!). But sheesh, I’m only sixteen (well, almost seventeen) for Pete’s sake! But in Todd’s defense, I doubt that he even knows my age, and he’s probably just being friendly. And I’m sure if he knew I was still in high school he’d run the other way—and fast. But here’s the honest truth—it feels pretty good to be noticed like that. And yet at the same time, it bugs me that it feels good. You know, like I should be above those sorts of feelings. Especially after making my vow to God about sex and dating. It’s like I just wish those feelings (you know, feeling interested in a cute guy) would all just go away, once and for all. But they don’t. So why is that?
Well, to make a long story short, I nicely told Todd thanks but no thanks (not in those exact words!). And now I feel kind of bad because he actually looked sort of hurt and disappointed. But maybe someone in the corporation will set him straight about me and how old guys like him shouldn’t go around hitting on high school girls. Big laugh!
But now that I’ve vented over something pretty unimportant, let me get to what’s really bugging me. It’s Beanie Jacobs, my supposedly best friend. I say supposedly because lately she’s been treating me like I’ve got smallpox or something. I mean, every single time I call her to invite her to go do something, she makes some totally lame excuse not to come. Okay, I know she’s pregnant and not feeling too cool lately, but it’s not like it’s my fault, and all I’m trying to do is to be the good friend that I’ve promised her I would be.
Like tonight, for instance, I just wanted someone to hang with. You know, go to the mall or something simple like that, and she says, “Sorry, I can’t.” Just like that. Not even an explanation, apology—nada, nothing. Well, instead of me grilling her like I usually do, I just said, “Well, fine!” and hung up—bam! Which, to tell the truth, left me feeling pretty rotten inside. Because I know she doesn’t need that from me or anyone else right now.
But, I ask you, how far backwards is a person supposed to bend for her these days? I mean, it’s not like she’s a whole lot of fun to be with right now. And now she’s all worried about putting on weight and getting fat, which, if you ask me, she should’ve considered before she got all hot and heavy with Zach last spring! Okay, there I go getting all preachy and judgmental again. And Beanie accuses me of doing that a lot lately. In fact, she even sarcastically calls me “Sister Caitlin” sometimes, which totally fries me!
So anyway, I called up Andrea LeMarsh, after being turned down by Beanie, and we went to the mall and hung out and had a really fun time (at least when I wasn’t feeling guilty about Beanie). Andrea and I both got these totally cool Hawaiian print bikinis—and we imagined ourselves wearing them on some sandy beach in Mexico next month when the youth group goes on their missions trip. (Okay, I know we’re primarily going there to help poor people and stuff, but we plan to have some fun along the way too!) But the whole time we’re shopping and joking around and having a great time, I’m thinking how fun it would be if Andrea were my best friend instead of Beanie. And just thinking those kind of thoughts makes me feel really, really low. Because I do know that despite Beanie’s prickly disposition of late, she really does love me, deep down, and she needs me too.
So, here’s my struggle: Just because my best friend has totally messed up her life by getting pregnant, does this mean I must also sacrifice my summer, my fun, my life just to hang with her while she’s being all depressed and glum and tired? I mean, I do believe in loyalty and I’d never stop loving Beanie or caring for her. But what I want to know is: Is it really my responsibility to see her through this whole pregnancy thing? Good grief, it lasts nine months (practically a lifetime in teen years!). And quite frankly, the idea of hanging with a girlfriend who’s obviously starting to look pretty pregnant (not to mention how she never seems to care about her appearance anymore!) is starting to wear on me.
Well, now it’s plain to see what a rotten, selfish, lowdown (and yes, I’m sure, narcissistic) person I truly am. But isn’t this my life too? Don’t I have the right to do what I want? To hang with whomever I please? I mean, it’s my life!!!
And yet, I know (deep down inside of me, someplace where I want to just plug my ears and cover my eyes sometimes) that this is definitely NOT what Jesus would do. I know, good and well, He would NOT treat His friends like that. Sheesh, He wouldn’t even treat His enemies like that. And I can just imagine what Clay would say to me right now. In fact, I still vividly remember that time (just a couple weeks before he was shot and killed) when he told our youth group about how he wanted us to love one another like Jesus did, by putting each other above ourselves. And sure, it might sound nice and easy, but let me tell you, it’s really not.
Oh, crud, I still have soooo much to learn about being a Christian.
DEAR GOD, IT SEEMS I’LL NEVER GET THIS RIGHT. ONE MINUTE I THINK I’M DOING PRETTY WELL, AND THE NEXT THING I KNOW I’M HAVING TOTALLY SELFISH AND SHALLOW THOUGHTS. HOW LONG WILL IT
TAKE FOR ME TO REALLY CHANGE?
Saturday, July 14 (oh, brother!)
We had another car wash today (to earn more money for our Mexico trip). And naturally I didn’t even bother to invite Beanie since she’s made it perfectly clear that “no way, no how” is she going with us down to Mexico in August. Not that I blame her. I doubt I’d want to go either if I were in her shoes. So anyway, not wanting to bother Beanie, I called Andrea and then drove over and picked her up in my freshly washed car (no need to waste the youth group’s time on it!), and we headed over to the minimall where we’d prearranged to hold the wash.
Well, last night Andrea and I both decided we’d try out our new bikinis today. (I mean, why shouldn’t we enjoy them while it’s hot and sunny and we’re getting all wet anyway?) And to our pleasant surprise, they didn’t hurt business at all. Man, you should have seen how many cars pulled over being driven by guys who obviously wanted to flirt. (We were halfway tempted to hose a couple of ’em down, but then we might’ve missed out on some tips.) So as you can imagine, it was a pretty successful fund-raiser. In fact, the best car wash event we’ve had so far this year.
But here’s the clincher. After it’s all said and done, Josh Miller (the guy who broke my heart last spring before I gave up dating completely) has recently joined our youth group and is now planning to go to Mexico with us. So anyway, he pulls Andrea and me aside like he’s got something really important to tell us. So I’m thinking he’s probably going to say something nice about how hard we worked and all, which makes sense due to the fact he’s in charge of the car wash today (because Greg Thiessen, our regular youth group leader, had to be the best man at his brother’s wedding). So anyway, we cheerfully come over to listen, and then he says, “You girls think it’s wise to be showing so much skin around here?” I mean, he just says this totally weird thing without even batting an eyelash. Of course, I get all indignant and say, “Just what do you mean by that?”
Then he sort of shrugs and says, “Well, it just seems a little un-Christian to go around half naked like that.” Now that really makes me mad and I snap at him, “Sheesh, Josh, we’ve been working real hard here today, and we’re just trying to be cool and comfortable, and all you can do is snipe at us!”
“Yeah, I know, Caitlin.” He suddenly looks slightly uneasy, like maybe he wishes he’d never brought this ridiculous subject up. And for some reason his discomfort pleases me a little. (Okay, you already know I’m human!) Then he says, “But you should really think about us guys. You know, we’re supposed to be your brothers.” Then he sort of laughs but not quite. “Maybe you sisters should have a little mercy on us.”
“So, are you suggesting our appearance creates some kind of a temptation for you?” asks Andrea in what seems a fairly flirtatious way (although she’s just like that sometimes, and I don’t think she even totally realizes how she comes across).
“Maybe,” says Josh, then he reaches over to me and flips the string tie that’s keeping my bikini top on. “You know, I’d think you’d be especially uncomfortable with something like this, Catie. I mean, what with your commitment to sexual purity and all that stuff.”
Well, I’m sure my eyes must’ve flashed some sort of very un-Christianlike message right then, but somehow I managed to answer in a rather quiet, albeit hostile, tone. “Since when does what I wear in any way reflect my personal beliefs or convictions?”
He shrugs again. “I don’t know, Catie. It just seems to me you’re sending out some pretty weird mixed messages.” Then he walks away and starts coiling up the hoses.
Well, Andrea and I just stood there and laughed at him; then we took down the car wash signs, got into my car, and I drove off—fast. Because I was still irked. And all I could think was: The nerve of that guy! After all our hard work, all he could comment on was our unacceptable attire. Who does he think he is anyway, God’s fashion police? I mean, grow up, Josh Miller! All of which I expressed to Andrea, but she just threw back her head and laughed. She hadn’t taken one single word seriously. She just thought the whole thing was a joke.
But I really don’t think Josh was joking. And to be completely honest, I must confess that he has actually got me to thinking about what he said. And I’m wondering if he might not be partially right about me sending those “mixed messages.” (Although I refuse to admit as much to him just yet.) And at the same time I still wonder, what right does he have to judge me in the first place?
I mean, is he trying to imply that just because I made a promise to God to remain sexually pure, that I should go around dressed like a nun or something? How fair is that? Why shouldn’t I dress however I want? Last time I checked it was still my life. And if he’s got a problem with my appearance, he can just look the other way!
Can’t he? Or maybe not. I’m not entirely sure anymore. But I guess I will consider what he said, and I’ll try not to be too mad at him for saying it. I suppose he was just trying to be honest, even if he was pretty irritating and judgmental about it. And maybe I’ll even ask Greg about all this tomorrow in youth group. Or maybe not.
Well, I do know this, I will ask God about it. Because, it’s like Clay used to say—convictions are a personal thing—they need to come straight from God and directly to you—no middleman needed.
DEAR GOD, SHOW ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT THINGS LIKE STRING BIKINIS AND THE LIKE. AND SHOW ME HOW YOU WANT ME TO LIVE. AND THEN HELP ME TO BE WILLING TO OBEY. AMEN.
Posted March 24, 2008
Caitlin O¿ Conner¿s life has changed quite a bit over the past year. Turning seventeen, she has realized that not everything is all candy canes and gum drops. When a missions trip with her church to Mexico, everything changes. Caitlin learns to help others by starting an organization to help the less fortunate. Life is just full of all kinds of secrets, her friends hiding things from her, temptations Caitlin never thought she would have, and challenges with her newfound faith. Yea, you could say this is the normal life of a teenager.
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Posted February 8, 2008
I liked this book because its about a Christian who doesn't have a perfect life. Like, other books I've read about Christian girls have perfect lives except like boyfriend problem or whatever. It's refreshing to read about a Christian girl who has a difficult life but can still stay a strong Christian.
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I love it this book because catilan is living as hard life but simple. I love a idea when Catilan wants help needy child. I can't bear it who needs food,home and family. I cried for them. But Beanie is little disliked by me becaus i hate when Beanie is pregenat. I totally rate one gazllion stars!Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
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A Girl Trying To Follow the Right Path Caitlin O¿Conner is now back in the second novel, of the series, It¿s My Life. Caitlin returns to school as a senior. She¿s really excited because she waited for her senior year her whole life. Since Caitlin always has a lot on her mind, she decided to start writing in her diary again. Well as usual, Caitlin is still sticking with her commitment to God. She is starting to have doubts about her commitment with God. She tries putting that behind her, so she can go down to Mexico to help the poor kids. While Caitlin, Beanie, and the youth group were down there, Beanie and Caitlin found some kids that lived in this dump place. They felt really bad for them, so they brought the kids some food. When they got back from Mexico, Caitlin starts a fund raiser for the poor kids down in Mexico. While Caitlin is doing this fund raiser, something bad happens to Beanie. Caitlin couldn¿t believe it. When Caitlin and Beanie got past it they went back to school, and Jenny, a popular girl, started hanging out with them. After Jenny was hanging out with them for a while, Jenny comes down with something. Beanie and Caitlin didn¿t know what to do. What happened to Beanie that was so bad? What did Jenny come down with? Is it horrific? I thought that this book was really good. I liked this book because only one person is telling the story, so that makes it easier to read. I really liked how I could relate to the book in many ways. I could relate to the different emotions in the book, and different scenes in the book. I also liked how there were parts in the book where there were different emotions. Also, I liked how some parts got you very nervous. The only thing I didn¿t like about the book was that it stated off kind of slow, but it picked up after a couple of chapters. This book, It¿s My Life, is part of a series. I don¿t think that these books can be read out of order because you wouldn¿t get the book at all. You wouldn¿t understand what is going on. People, I think, that would enjoy this book are people who want to learn more about God, and people who like different emotions. I think these kind of people would like this book because it ahs a lot to do with God and how good He is. Also, I think people who like different emotions will enjoy this book because this book has a ton of different emotions that will capture you. I think that this is a very good book, and if you pick it up you won¿t be able to put it down.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
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How would you feel if your best friend was pregnant, you make a vow to God not to date, your aunt is getting married, and on top of all of that, God has called you to be a missionary? Beanie is Caitlin¿s best friend, and she is pregnant. Caitlin made a vow to God not to date boys, because she doesn¿t focus well. Caitlin is leaving soon after school is released to go to Mexico with her youth group to help the needy. While in Mexico, Caitlin finds a group of children that are always around a dump and begins to love them, and bring them food. When leaving Mexico, Caitlin realizes that she needs to go back again to help the kids. Clay, the youth group leader, died from a gun shot. Jenny stopped eating in school, and she became anorexic. Her mom took her to an institution where she stayed there all day and people could visit her. Caitlin¿s Aunt Steph is getting married to Pastor Tony. God has called on Caitlin to be a missionary and along with someone else in the book. Read to find out whom. I really enjoyed reading It¿s My Life in the series Diary of a Teenage Girl by Melody Carlson. I could relate to the book because Caitlin is a teenager and she goes through a lot in her life. One thing that I didn¿t like about It¿s My Life was that it was a little confusing when the youth group was in Mexico. Other than that I really enjoyed reading this book. It¿s My Life is part of a series called Diary of a Teenage Girl. You have to the books in order to understand them. The people that would enjoy this book would probably be teenage girls, because it is filled with drama and everything else in a teenager¿s life. This series of books is very similar to the Color books by Melody Carlson, because that series is also related to teenage girls that have problems and difficulties. This book is a page-turner throughout the whole book!Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted October 19, 2006
Ok i really loved this book. its refreshing to read a book that talks about God. i liked this book so much i cant wait to read the rest of them. i recommend this book to anyone who is a christian...or doesnt mind reading about God.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted October 6, 2006
Well, what can I say? This book is about a girl named Caitlin, who¿s a senior in High School. She is trying to get close to god, by helping her friends who are troubled with problems,and trying not to date guys. Caitlin joined a youth group at her church and she and the other members of the group get to go to Mexico and the trip changes her life and relationship with god. Her friends help her a lot in the book too by getting over things. Even though she has fights with her friends and family she still comes out strong. I didn¿t have any dislikes on the book it was all very good. But there were some parts that were a bit boring to me, but I still liked the book very much because I was always wondering what was going top happen next.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted June 14, 2005
The Diary of a Young Girl is a great story about Anne Frank. From not knowing what really happened and not knowing very many details about the time of WWII, this is such a great book to just to pick up and read about the time. This girl lived a crazy life not knowing what the next day was going to bring her or what corner to turn. Her life was spinning with all new things going on around her. With only being thirteen and so open-minded, she was just a lost soul. Anne was a powerful young woman who wanted to know what was going on. With living through the Holocaust and the war, Anne had to struggle through a lot. First of all, she was Jewish and living through the Holocaust and being Jewish wasn¿t an easy life. Anne wrote the truth without holding anything back: the pain, fear, and the horror that she had to live through each day. Anne Frank was a hero to many even to this day.. Anne Frank died at the age of fifteen. That just makes you realize that life is too short so don¿t waste your time and mess it up. Anne really made me open my eyes to things and just to life in general. Don¿t take life for granted. Anne Frank was a true hero so it is my opinion to recommend this book. Its just not a diary, it really makes you think how you want to stay on your feet and succeed in life. This book was about a girl named Caitlin who was in her teens who wanted everything. She was involved in church and was going on missionary trip to Mexico. She was very into God. She would always rely on God to talk to about all her problems. Throughout the book she wrote diary entrees about her day and the problems that she is having or what was going on in her friends¿ lives. She had a great life with a great head on her shoulders. On the other hand her best friend, Beanie, was also a great person but with a lot of problems in her life at such a young age. She was pregnant as a teenager with no support from the father of the baby. When Beanie found out she was pregnant, Caitlin and Beanie started to drift apart as best friends. Then this lead Caitlin to a new best friend, Andrea. Throughout the book the girls started hanging out with the wrong crowd and lead to life going down hill. Caitlin helped some other friends get back on their feet from the drug uses. This book really got to me because right now in my life all of these problems are happening to one of my friends. So for me, this book was very touchy on things important to me. This book is an eye opener for teens everywhere because you might have a perfect life but someone around you might not have one. So reading this book helped me learn a lot about different kids in my school and helping me understand life and family issues better.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted January 31, 2004
it was okay, make sure that if you read it you really like to read things that have to do with God. I'm a Christan too and everything, but she was like obsessed with her faith. I guess I just didn't agree with a lot of it and it seemed sorta fictional.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted March 17, 2003
usually i am stuck reading a book about the soap opera like problems of some teary eyed drama queen or about the ultra-unrealistic life of a rich snob. I really needed a new taste to refresh my opinion about today's teen books. Melody Carlson is completly renivating. It's nice to see a book that relates to me, and is not full of sex and drugs and clothes. Also it talks about God. And being a Christian myself, it was really nice to see that there are books out there that can be spiritually uplifting and not be too preachy. Overall, it was the best book i've read this year!Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted November 28, 2002
I loved this book, it does deal with great issues that teenage girls go thru 24/7. And the way it's written puts you inside Caitlin's life, mind, and spirit. You can feel with her and cry with her and get mad at all the people who are being rather dumb around her. This book and the one before it is very well written and I cannot wait to get the third one which I plan on doing tomorrow! My compliments to Ms. Melody Carlson-great job!Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted December 26, 2002
I thought the first one was awsome,but once again Melody Carlson shows what it is like to be a teenage girl christian. This book will make you want to never put it down. I loved it, and so will you.Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted December 8, 2002
I loved it. I don't know of any book that could teach me, perpare me, excite me for what I might have to go through someday aswell as this did. I have never gotten into a book this much, it made it hard to stop reading! VERY VERY good!Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.