Kissing Doorknobs

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During her preschool years, Tara Sullivan lived in terror that something bad would happen to her mother while they were apart. In grade school, she panicked during the practice fire drills. Practice for what?, Tara asked. For the upcoming disaster that was bound to happen?

Then, at the age of 11, it happened. Tara heard the phrase that changed her life: Step on a crack, break your mother's back. Before Tara knew it, she was counting every crack in the sidewalk. Over time, Tara's...

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Overview

During her preschool years, Tara Sullivan lived in terror that something bad would happen to her mother while they were apart. In grade school, she panicked during the practice fire drills. Practice for what?, Tara asked. For the upcoming disaster that was bound to happen?

Then, at the age of 11, it happened. Tara heard the phrase that changed her life: Step on a crack, break your mother's back. Before Tara knew it, she was counting every crack in the sidewalk. Over time, Tara's "quirks" grew and developed: arranging her meals on plates, nonstop prayer rituals, until she developed a new ritual wherin she kissed her fingers and touched doorknobs....

Fourteen-year-old Tara describes how her increasingly strange compulsions begin to take over her life and affect her relationships with her family and friends.

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Editorial Reviews

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The first novel for young adults that addresses Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). With approximately 1.5 million adolescents in the U.S affected, OCD is a pertinent issue to young readers. This story not only explores the confusion and fear experienced by 14-year-old Tara, but the anxiety and agony parents face when a child is suffering from OCD.
Publishers Weekly - Publisher's Weekly
Hesser's unusually polished debut novel brings a singularly compassionate wit to a singularly painful topic. Tara Sullivan does not know how or why she lost "possession" of her thoughts, but she can trace her terrible problem to her 11th year, when the rhyme "Step on a crack, break your mother's back!" begins to run insistently and ceaselessly through her head. Propelled by a series of irrational fears, Tara counts sidewalk cracks on her way to school and then enacts other equally bizarre rituals among them, praying aloud when anyone swears; kissing her fingers after touching the doorknob. Her strange behavior puzzles neighbors, alienates her friends and drives her mother into nearly murderous rages. Through Tara's first-person narrative, Hesser compellingly expresses both the anguish and the dark humor of the heroine's obsessive-compulsive disorder identified near the end of the book, when she begins therapy. At times descriptions of her entrapment are so vivid and intense that readers may need to come up for air. But the lively characterizations especially of Tara's closest friends and pugilistic younger sister prevent the protagonist's psychological confinement from becoming claustrophobic to readers. Hesser's thoroughly credible narrative "I have experienced some of the obsessions and compulsions I have written about," Hesser states in her acknowledgments, and fascinating story promote both an intellectual and emotional understanding of a treatable disease. Ages 12-up. May
Publishers Weekly - Publisher's Weekly
A first-time author portrays the thoughts and behaviors of an 11-year-old girl suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder with "a singularly compassionate wit," said PW in a starred review. Ages 12-up. (Nov.)n Copyright 1999 Cahners Business Information.
VOYA - Nancy Thackaberry
Tara, age ten, senses something is wrong when "tyrants" in her mind order her to count the cracks in the sidewalk-all 495 of them-on her way to school each day. Although her anxieties begin at school age, Tara is not properly diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) until age fifteen. During those early teen years Tara's OCD becomes more powerful and torments her loved ones as her "spacey" personality painfully cuts her friends out of her life. Her younger sister fist fights to defend Tara and release her own frustrations. Tara's Irish Catholic father escapes his feeling of uselessness at home by volunteering at the American Legion, hoping Tara's "phase" will pass, while her mother turns to alcohol and violence. Tara clings to her catechism lessons to help her overcome her fears. The church gives no solace, but she continues the rituals of praying and crossing herself constantly. In one disturbing yet poignant scene at an amusement park, Tara's mother slaps her every time she crosses herself or prays for her mother's "sins." Tara creates her own ritual of kissing her fingers and turning the front doorknob of her home thirty-three times before she can feel safe enough to venture outside. Once Tara's OCD is diagnosed, she struggles toward some normalcy. This book has the elements of a horror story as the reader watches Tara's family being tormented by unseen demons. A few outdated terms from the 1970s are used but the grace and power of this novel flow like a classic ballet. VOYA Codes: 5Q 3P J S (Hard to imagine it being any better written, Will appeal with pushing, Junior High-defined as grades 7 to 9 and Senior High-defined as grades 10 to 12).
Children's Literature - Alexandria LaFaye
Tara has odd quirks she can't control. She must count the cracks in the sidewalk, kiss her front door knob before exiting, and pray whenever someone sins in her presence. Her parents hope these are part of a phase. Her friends tolerate the oddities and Tara feels enslaved by them. It isn't until a teacher correctly identifies Tara's illness as obsessive-compulsive disorder that the young girl is able to begin to retake control of her life. This novel takes a realistic and intense look at a baffling illness. The emotional complexity of the novel is admirable, as is the author's decision to portray Tara's recovery as a long, arduous process.
School Library Journal
Gr 6 UpIn this excellent, absorbing first novel, Hesser introduces readers to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder through the experiences of 11-year-old Tara. The girl suddenly feels compelled to follow strange, meaningless rituals to deal with the anxieties that have plagued her all her life. To protect her mother from a broken back, she must not only avoid stepping on sidewalk cracks but also count them endlessly. To ensure her parents' safe return after a night out, she must pronounce a set of prayers perfectly five times, stand directly in front of two different clocks and look at the time, turn the knob of the front door with equal pressure on each finger, and then stand in the exact center of the road and look both ways twice. Each psychiatrist she sees has a different, incorrect diagnosis. Tara's behavior strains her friendships, and her family begins to shatter, creating more anxiety. Finally, a concerned teacher identifies a "doorknob kissing" ritual as a symptom of OCD and steers her toward help. The book does not end with an instant or perfect cure, but Tara at 14 does have reason to hope for a life free from the "tyrants in her head." Hesser's deft treatment turns this account of an unusual condition into an honest, fresh, and multilayered story to which readers will instantly relate. The author's treatment of the subject is thorough and thoughtful but not heavy-handed. The prose is forthright, economical, and peppered with wry humor, making this a great pick for reluctant readers.July Siebecker, Hubbard Memorial Library, MA
Kirkus Reviews
With a trenchant portrait of Tara Sullivan from ages 11รพ14, Hesser's first novel puts obsessive-compulsive disorder under the microscope. Troubled Tara is preoccupied with orderliness and impending disaster, and dedicates her attention to painstakingly trivial rules and rituals. She counts cracks in every sidewalk, worries that her mother's back will indeed be broken, lines up grains of rice on her plate, prays every time she hears a swear word, and "kisses" doorknobs in a ritual of her own invention. Her devotion to these activities leads to the exclusion of friends and the alienation of family. Incredibly, her parents allow her condition to drag on, undiagnosed, for years; when she does come under scrutiny, the various diagnoses are Attention Deficit Disorder, immaturity, borderline anorexia, anger issues. Tara's condition isn't easily conveyed: Readers may tire of her depressive, self-deprecating immersion in disorder, no matter how natural her perspective is to her illness: "In a fetal position, I rocked myself like a sad baby in a cold white crib. I had no language to describe my pain. I had no company in my pain. I just had pain. Isolating, solitary pain. And loneliness. And humiliation." Understandably self-absorbed, Tara lapses into stilted, self-conscious moments that distance readers rather than elicit their compassion, e.g., "After a few months, I got over my separation anxiety." Only a serendipitous meeting with fellow sufferer Sam promises a rescue for Tara in an otherwise onerous story. (Fiction. 13-15)
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780440413141
  • Publisher: Random House Children's Books
  • Publication date: 11/28/1999
  • Format: Mass Market Paperback
  • Edition description: Reprint
  • Pages: 160
  • Sales rank: 119,933
  • Age range: 12 - 17 Years
  • Product dimensions: 4.83 (w) x 6.87 (h) x 0.48 (d)

Meet the Author

Terry Spencer Hesser is a screenwriter and a documentary filmmaker. Kissing Doorknobs is based on her personal experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
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Step on a crack, break your mother's back! The first time I heard that stupid rhyme was when I was eleven years old and still in possession of my own thoughts.

At first I thought the rhyme was stupid.  Step on a crack, break your mother's back! When I couldn't get it out of my head, I thought it was annoying.  Step on a crack, break your mother's back! Finally I thought it was scary.  But no matter what I thought about it, I couldn't stop thinking it.  Actually, it was more as if I couldn't stop hearing it in my head over and over again.

I heard it while I was brushing my teeth,
Step on a crack, break your mother's back!
eating dinner,
Step on a crack, break your mother's back!
doing my homework,
Step on a crack, break your mother's back!
having a conversation,
Step on a crack, break your mother's back!
and falling asleep.

It was like listening to the sound track of a movie that I wasn't watching.  A weird time-release audio torment stuck on Replay in my brain.  Even now, I'm fourteen years old and just thinking about it makes me tap it with my feet.  Step on a crack, break your mother's back!  Nine syllables.  Uneven.  I hate that.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 15, 2011

    loved it!

    awesome book!

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted May 19, 2009

    Forever

    I read this book years and years ago. It is something I will never forget. It takes you through the twists and turns of her life and her torment. I really enjoyed it. I recommend reading it.

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 19, 2005

    LOVED EVERYTHING

    This book is the best for wanting to know what it's like to have OCD. The ultimate book. Shows the struggles of having OCD. One of my ABSOLUTE favorites.

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 1, 2013

    Spelling error

    The title is spelled incorrectly when searching for this book. The k is missing in the word "doorknobs." Due to this I could not find this book right away. Please revise so other users don't have this problem.

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  • Posted May 19, 2011

    awsome book

    i loved it'!!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 21, 2008

    Amazing book!

    this was a great book, and it really helped me to understand the problems that people with Obsessive Compulsive Disorders have to face. She goes through most of the book as an outcast, and trying to figure out what her problem is when they get an unexpected visitor, and he helps solve her problems. It is one of my favorite books and i really recommend reading it!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 14, 2008

    wonderful!

    this is a very interesting, funny, and heartwarming story. i highly recommend reading this book. kissing doorknobs will always be one of my favorites.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 15, 2006

    Kissing Doorknobs

    I thought that it's a good book. It was about a girl with something different about her than anyone else, but there are people who do have the same thing as her. She has Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. She made it constinte to count the cracks in the sidewalk when she walked to school. Also, when she kissed her lips and then put it on her doorknob.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 8, 2007

    Krisitina Washington

    This book was great! I didn't expect it to be that interesting because the title sounded very different but as soon as I began reading, I realized how interesting this book was. I learned a lot about obsessive-compulsive disorder. I heard about it before but I never would've learned that much about it if I hadn't read this book. When I was reading this book I could imagine or picture in my head what was going on because it was so descriptive. Throughout the book I could tell the personality the character had and the book was very real. It dealt with a real disorder that many people have and it helps you understand a little about what they have to deal with. This book kept my attention and I didn't want to put it down, especially when some parts were really good. I really enjoyed reading this book and I hope anybody who reads this book likes it too.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 10, 2006

    read it

    it was really good... im doing a report on it!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 24, 2005

    awesome book

    it was so nice to read a fictional book about obsessive compulsive disorder. i related, not to the extreme, but somewhat, to the same thoughts tara did in the book. for anyone else who may struggle with OCD, it is a wonderful read.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 14, 2005

    an interesting book

    i liked this book most of the time i dont read but this really caught my eye i read it and i was attatched

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 28, 2005

    good book

    This was a really good book and i enjoyed it until the end...i think that it ended too fast and i was a little disappionted by it which is why i gave it four stars. This was the first that i've read about a person with OCD and i was surprised about how severe it could be...a definite read!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 10, 2005

    A realistic story!!!!

    This book is great.I dont get outside much and it gave me an idea of the real world out there.The main character in the story-Tara has OCD.I had heard of that disorder before on Dr.Phil but then I saw this book.It gave me a complete understanding of the affecting disease.READ IT!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 13, 2005

    Amazing...

    This book is very touching, and anyone who has been in contact with someone who has OCD will definetly relate. I highly recommend it.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 28, 2004

    A WONDERFUL BOOK, EVERYONE SHOULD READ

    i thought it was very good. some people never know what it is like to live with ocd. this book explores a teens struggles with odc.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 9, 2004

    FABULOUS

    This book is AMAZING!!! I've read this book many times and it never gets old. very informative and interesting the whole way through. i recommend this book for teens as well as adults. it is truly a great book, a must read!!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 2, 2004

    What a wonderful book!

    The book is about an eleven -year-old girl that has OCD but is oublivious to it. She heard a phrase ' step on a crack, and break your mother's back', which haunted her for most of her childhood life. She counts cracks, does obsessive rituals: worrying too much, praying too much, and doing similar numerous habits.Tara's family and friends think that she is crazy but they do not know anything of the disease she suffers from. One she had a ritual that consisted of placing all ten figures in a doorknob's little circle with equal pressure and before she knew it she had kissed the doorknob. Her mother threatened to slap her everytime she performed a ritual. I really like this book because it is aboutdiseases that people are unaware of. People may condemn others for actions they don't have control of. As people, we need to keep this in mind and be patient and accepting of others. I recommend this book because they will practice more open-mindness towards others. This is a book that young or old would enjoy because it pertains to all people and these compulsive disorders could occur to anyone. There are no barriers,which means it could affect some one you know. Therefore, one must have patience and love towards all people because one would also want people to show love to a person you know suffering of this disease. I hope this boook touches others as it has touched me.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 10, 2004

    Kissing Doorknobs

    The book is about a eleven year old girl named Tara who thinks she is going crazy and it all starts when one phrase changes her whole life ¿ Step on a crack break, your mothers back¿ Tara realizes slowly her friends are beginning to desert her and she finds out because they claim she is beginning to act ¿weird¿. Whenever they call her when she is on her way to school she will not even acknowledge them or turn around because she is counting the cracks on the ground and if she loses count or steps on one she has to go and start over. Not long after her friends desert her and wont walk with her to school she starts to kiss her thumb and press it to the doorknob before she can open the door and it is starting to scare her mother so much that she threatens to slap her if she does it again. I believe the book is a captivating, and elucidatory novel showing teenagers how disturbing to ones self having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can effect your life and is hard to live with but that you can also live a normal life with it but it is not easy coping with it. It also shows teenagers not to judge people so quickly and say that someone is crazy just because they aren¿t just like you. Many people would agree that some one with this disease could read this book. It might help them deal with there problems.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted September 28, 2003

    THIS IS THE BEST BOOK EVER!!!!!

    This is the best book ever! It made me feel like I was right there and I was happy when Tara was and sad when Tara was and felt bad that her friend's life is so messed up and very sad that her's was so messed up and I couldn't believe that all those doctors didn't know about OCD! Whether or not you've heard about OCD, this is a wonderful, WONDERFUL book!

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