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Last Man Down: A New York City Fire Chief and the Collapse of the World Trade Center

Last Man Down: A New York City Fire Chief and the Collapse of the World Trade Center

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by Richard Picciotto, Daniel Palsner, Daniel Paisner (With)

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On September 11, 2001, FDNY Battalion Chief Richard "Pitch" Picciotto answered the call heard around the world. In minutes he was at Ground Zero of the worst terrorist attack on American soil, as the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center began to burn—and then to buckle. A veteran of the 1993 bombing of the World Trade Center, Picciotto was eerily familiar


On September 11, 2001, FDNY Battalion Chief Richard "Pitch" Picciotto answered the call heard around the world. In minutes he was at Ground Zero of the worst terrorist attack on American soil, as the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center began to burn—and then to buckle. A veteran of the 1993 bombing of the World Trade Center, Picciotto was eerily familiar with the inside of the North Tower. And it was there that he concentrated his rescue efforts. It was in its smoky stairwells where he heard and felt the South Tower collapse. Where he made the call for firemen and rescue workers to evacuate, while he stayed behind with a skeleton team of men to help evacuate a group of disabled and infirm civilians. And it was in the rubble of the North Tower where Picciotto found himself buried—for more than four hours after the building's collapse.

This is the harrowing true story of a true American hero, a man who thought nothing of himself—and gave nearly everything for others during one of New York City's—and the country's—darkest hours.

Editorial Reviews

From the Publisher
"Picciotto's account is one survivor's remarkable story... Its strength is its tone: conversational, free of literary pretense... The book is both grim and inspiring." USA Today
Washington Post
[Richard Picciotto] has a remarkable story to tell.
Publishers Weekly
When the north tower of the World Trade Center collapsed on September 11, Picciotto, an FDNY battalion commander, was inside it, on a stairwell between the sixth and seventh floors, along with a handful of rescue personnel and one "civilian." This outspoken account tells of that indelible day, and it will shake and inspire readers to the core. The book starts by listing the 343 firefighters who died from the attacks, setting an appropriately grave tone to what follows, which begins as the author heads to work at Engine Co. 76 and Ladder Co. 22 on Manhattan's Upper West Side. Then comes a call on the intercom, and soon he is racing down to the World Trade Center. Arriving, he dodges falling bodies, runs inside and upstairs with a battalion not his own. Early in the book, this straightforward accounting is intercut with flash-forwards to 9:59 a.m., when Picciotto, on the 35th floor of the north tower, experiences the collapse of the south tower not visually, but aurally and in his body ("the building was shaking like an earthquake... but it was the rumble that struck me still with fear. The sheer volume of it. The way it coursed right through me... like a thousand runaway trains speeding toward me"). Picciotto, writing with Paisner (coauthor of autobios by Montel Williams and George Pataki, among others), pulls no punches, naming those who hindered his work and those who helped, taking numerous swipes at what he sees as a fire department bureaucracy whose money pinching puts firefighters at risk. This mouthiness can grate, but it certainly gives the flavor of a man and a department whose heroism became clear to all that day. It's Picciotto and his comrades' courage and willingness to sacrifice that every reader will remember, and honor, upon closing this gritty, heartfelt remembrance of a day of infamy and profound humanity. Copyright 2002 Cahners Business Information.

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September 11, 2001: 9:59 A.M.

It came as if from nowhere.

There were about two dozen of us by the bank of elevators on the thirty-fifth floor of the north tower of the World Trade Center. We were firefighters mostly, and we were in various stages of exhaustion. Some guys were sweating like pigs. Some had their turnout coats off, or tied around their waists. Quite a few were breathing heavily. Others were raring to go. All of us were taking a beat to catch our breaths, and our bearings, figure out what the hell was going on. We'd been at this thing hard for almost an hour, some a little bit less, and we were nowhere close to done. Of course, we had no idea what there was left to do, but we hadn't made a dent.

And then the noise started, and the building began to tremble, and we all froze. Dead solid still. Whatever there had been left to do would now have to wait. For what, we had no idea, but it would wait. Or it wouldn't, but that wasn't the point. The point was that no one was moving. To a man, no one moved, except to lift his eyes to the ceiling, to see where the racket was coming from. As if we could see clear through the ceiling tiles for an easy answer. No one spoke. There wasn't time to turn thought into words, even though there was time to think.

For me anyway, there was time to think, too much time to think, and my thoughts were all over. Every possible worst-case scenario, and a few more besides. The building was shaking like in an earthquake, like in an amusement park thrill ride gone berserk, but it was the rumble that struck me still with fear. The sheer volume of it. The way it coursed right through me. I couldn't think what the hell would make a noise like that. Like a thousand runaway trains speeding toward me. Like a heard of wild beasts. Like the thunderfall of a rock slide. Hard to put it into words, but whatever the hell it was, it was gaining speed, and gathering force, and getting closer, and I was stuck in the middle, unable to get out of its path.

It's amazing the kinds of things you think about when there's no time to think. I thought about my wife and my kids, but only fleetingly and not in any kind of life-flashing-before-my-eyes sort of way. I thought about the job, how close I was to making deputy. I thought about the bagels I'd left on the kitchen counter back at the firehouse. I thought how we firemen were always saying to each other, "I'll see you at the big one.'' Or, "We'll all meet at the big one.'' I never knew how it started, or when I'd picked up on it myself, but it was part of our shorthand. Meaning no matter how big this fire is, there'll be another one bigger, somewhere down the road. We'll make it through this one, and we'll make it through that one, too. I always said it at big fires, and I always heard it back, and here I was, thinking I would never say or hear these words again, because there would never be another fire as big as this. This was the big one we had all talked about all our lives, and if I hadn't known this before—just before these chilling moments—this sick, black noise now confirmed it.

I fumbled for some fix on the situation, thinking maybe if I understood what was happening, I could steel myself against it. Realize, all of these thoughts were landing in my brain in a kind of flash point, one on top of the other and all at once, but there they were. And each thought landed fully formed, as if there might be time to act on each, when in truth there was no time at all.

Somehow, in the middle of all this fear and uncertainty, I got it in my head that one of the elevator cabs had broken loose and was now cascading down the shaft above us. It felt like something was fast approaching, and this was what made sense. Of course, it also made sense that a single, falling elevator cab would no way generate the same kind of all-over, all-consuming noise and rumble, and I had this thought as well, but nothing else figured. When you're caught in the middle of such improbable circumstances, you grab at what you can find, and this was what I managed. Elevator cabs, free-falling one into the other, like dominoes, filling the shafts that surrounded us with unimaginable terror.

Or something.

But what? What could make such a loud, horrific, thundering noise? A noise that would surely claim me and my couple dozen brothers from the New York City Fire Department, stranded there on the thirty-fifth floor of a torched landmark that had been attacked by a hijacked 767 just an hour earlier? What else could be gaining on us with that kind of ferocious velocity?

It all happened in an instant, and yet it was an instant frozen—iced over to where we all had time to sort through our worst fears, rejecting the ones that weren't grounded in anything real and accepting the ones that seemed plausible. It was a mad race to imagine the unimaginable, to think the unthinkable. Really, I had no idea. I had no idea, and I had every idea. And I stood there, by the windowless elevator banks of the thirty- fifth floor, alongside my brother firefighters, staring at the ceiling, waiting for it to come crashing through.

Whatever it was.

Chapter One


I remember what we all remember about that morning: clear horizon, high sun, visibility stretching to forever. Looking back, I realize it was the beautiful day that killed us, because if it had been gray, or foggy, or overcast, there's no way those bastards could have flown those planes. Not on that day anyway. All up and down the East Coast, it was the same: still winds, blue skies, and not a cloud in sight. Boston, New York, Washington, D.C....all dawning like a picture postcard. What are the friggin' odds of that?

September 11, 2001, started early in our house in Chester, New York, about sixty miles north of the George Washington Bridge. God's country—or anyway, a mostly blue-collar community, solidly embraced by firemen and cops and other civil servants who couldn't afford to live in the city they served. I was scheduled for a straight tour, nine to six, which for me comes around just a few times each year. Most days, I'm working six o'clock at night until six o'clock the next night; a couple times a month, I'm on from nine in the morning until nine the next morning; and every here and there, I'll pull a night tour, a fifteen- hour shift from six at night until nine the next morning. These straight tours, though, they're pretty rare, especially when you reach chief, as I had done about nine years earlier. I'll tell you, they're always a welcome sight on the calendar. They signal a shift that puts you in synch with the rest of the nine-to-five world. Makes you forget, at least for one day, how out of whack our working lives really are, set against everyone else's.

It's about seventy miles, door to door, from my front door to the firehouse on West 100th Street. I had the drive down to a science. If I had to start at nine, I usually planned to get to work around seven-thirty, which meant leaving the house at about six. Most guys, they're looking to do the same, itching to start their shifts, to get into it, and at the other end there's guys been working twenty-fours anxious to leave a little early, so it all works out. You pull the same nine hours—or fifteen, or twenty-four—you just start a little bit ahead of the books. It's been this way as far back as I could remember, and I'd been at this job twenty-eight years. We're always looking to punch in early, and to get a jump on heading home. At the front end, there's something about the pull of the firehouse that draws us to it for the camaraderie, the bullshitting, the shared purpose, the frat-house environment...it's different for each of us, I suppose.

For me, the attraction has always been about the guys and the job. Or I should say, about the guys and the jobs—emphasis on the plural, meaning all the different fires we've worked over the years. I love talking about this job or that job, big or small, extraordinary or routine. Whatever fire I missed on the previous shift, I have to hear about it. Whatever fire I worked, I have to tell the tale. As chief, and now as battalion commander, I obviously have to hear about each job in order to file my necessary paperwork and stay on top of things, but it runs much deeper than that. I have to hear about it. I get off on listening to the guys talk about the jobs, down to the smallest detail, over and over, or talking up whatever it was that took place on our tour. It's like lifeblood. I can hear the same story a million times if it's a good story, and I can tell a good one of my own a million plus. There are a lot of us caught up in it the same way. It's what we do. It's who we are. And it's why we're there.

So I was looking to leave home early that Tuesday morning, same as my wife, Debbie, who works as an obstetrical nurse at St. Luke's Hospital in Newburgh, New York, and my son, Stephen, who attends a private Catholic high school in New Jersey. My daughter, Lisa, is a senior at Pace University in lower Manhattan, living in a dorm, so she was the only one in the family sleeping in at this early hour. We were all out the door by six, six-fifteen, which meant there was no such thing as breakfast. Maybe a doughnut fisted on the fly. No such thing as small talk either. Our main thing was getting Stephen moving in time for school. He's always ten, fifteen minutes late for everything, and that's with his mother and me riding him. It's funny the way two people from the same family, the same gene pool, can be so completely different—me racing to get to work early; Stephen being pushed along so he isn't too late. And then there's Debbie in the middle, minding us both.

On this morning, after I did my piece chasing Stephen out of bed and into the shower, I grabbed a cup of coffee in a travel mug and made to leave. We'd never been overly demonstrative with each other, me and Stephen, just kind of nodded or grunted good-bye as we got ready for the day. Two ships passing, that's how it was with our comings and goings each morning. Me and Debbie, though, we usually kissed, or hugged, and on the days we didn't think to kiss good-bye, we usually hollered something to each other on our ways out the door. Something nice. Debbie's always told me that when I go off to work there's a part of her thinking about the dangers I might face there, about the job, but she tries to put it out of her mind. Like the wives of most firefighters, she chooses to think I spend my days playing Ping-Pong at the firehouse, or whipping up great meals with the guys in the kitchen, and we'd fallen into this silent routine where I didn't talk about how close we came in this fire or that fire, how big the job was, or anything like that. She tells me that when I come home at night and crawl into bed alongside her, she can still smell the smoke— the fire even—coming off my body, even after I've showered, but we don't talk about it. We never talk about it. Most guys I know, they don't talk about these things with their wives either.

The unspoken fear, the unacknowledged fear, is that I might not come home, but it's a fear so ingrained it's almost unnoticeable. It's there, but it's not there, Debbie tells me—in the back of her mind, but so far back it hardly registers—and knowing this, we try to put our busy routines on pause long enough for a loving good-bye of some kind. This, too, we don't always think about. This, too, has become so ingrained we don't even notice it. We mean to make this loving moment of connection, but sometimes we forget, or sometimes the clock gets in the way.

That's one of the pieces of this morning's ritual that will haunt me later, the not remembering if we had a chance to hug or kiss or say something nice to each other. If it was one of those mornings when we just took each other for granted and went about our business, or if it was one of those mornings when we stopped and paid each other some warm attention. I've reworked the scene a thousand times in my head, and I've got no idea. One minute we were taking turns putting Stephen through his slow paces, and the next minute I was gone.

Gone first for bagels. One of the unwritten rules of the fire department is that the guys working the day tour are expected to bring breakfast. It's understood. Chief, captain, lieutenant, fireman...rank doesn't matter. Every day tour, every firehouse in New York City, there are whole units coming in, and it falls to these guys to bring cake, bagels, muffins, rolls, fruit. Whatever they want, but it's got to be something, enough for everybody, so before I hopped onto the New York State Thruway, I made a pit stop at Rockland Bakery for a bag of bagels. The bakery is a bag-your-own, self-service place, so I grabbed a couple dozen assorted, with at least one cinnamon raisin for yours truly. I didn't put much thought into what I was grabbing, I just grabbed until the bag was full. Everything else we've got at the firehouse kitchen: butter, cream cheese, coffee, milk. Every payday, we take up a collection, twenty dollars per man, that goes to keeping the kitchen stocked. Coffee's by far the biggest expense—we drink that stuff down like it's water—but the twenty dollars also goes to buy condiments, other staples, and toilet paper. (Actually, we do get department- issued toilet paper, but it's like sandpaper; you can still see the wood chips in each square!) The city doesn't pay for any of that stuff; it all comes from us, and it all starts with breakfast.

I drove my beat-up blue 1991 Honda Accord south to the city in no time at all. I'm usually moving against traffic, and whenever there was a tie-up there were a bunch of different back ways I could go. I'd been driving that route for so long it was like the path I'd worn out between my bedroom and the bathroom—the 160,000 miles on the odometer were the proof!—so it was never a problem making time. I knew all the snags, all the potholes, all the trouble spots. And I made good time this morning, even with the regular commuting traffic, and pulled up at the firehouse around seven-forty. Found a good spot right on the street—the police chief's, from the 24th Precinct, which is housed in the same building (I always made it a point to take their parking spaces, for chop-busting reasons)—made sure my valuables were stowed out of view in the black lawn-and-leaf bags I kept for just this purpose, grabbed the bagels, and went inside.

There wasn't much doing from the night before. There had been a couple of incidental runs, and there was some paperwork left over, reports to be filed. The chief I was relieving, Bob Holzmaier, was particularly glad to see me. He'd been on since nine the previous morning, and he took one look at me and started figuring which Long Island Rail Road train he could catch out of Penn Station. Bob's not one of those ''minute men'' you sometimes find in firehouses, those guys who watch the clock and bug out at the first opportunity, but he was anxious to get home, can't blame him for that, and he had the train schedule so burned into his memory that he didn't have to consult it for his ride home.

It had been a quiet night, nothing much to report. Once or twice a year, you'll get a night tour with no calls, but there's almost always a run or three. Sometimes, it's a run to nothing, but when you check the calls throughout the battalion, there's usually something big somewhere. As battalion commander of FDNY Battalion 11, I supervised seven companies, along with battalion chiefs John Hughes, Dennis Collopy, and Bob Holzmaier: Engine Co. 37 and Ladder Co. 40, on 125th Street in Harlem; Engine Co. 47, on 113th Street in Morningside Heights; Engine Co. 74, on 83rd Street on the Upper West Side; Ladder Co. 25 on 77th Street on the Upper West Side; and Engine Co. 76 and Ladder Co. 22, on 100th Street on the Upper West Side, where I was based. If there were no big jobs here, with our two home companies, there were surely a couple elsewhere in the battalion.

I dropped the bagels in the kitchen, grabbed my cinnamon raisin, and hopped up to the office to go over a couple of things with Bob. Things move in much the same way all over the department, all over the city, as one guy comes in to relieve another. It's like a tag team, or a relay race, the way you pass on responsibility to the next guy, bring him up to speed on what's been going on. At the change of shift, there's usually three or four guys in the kitchen, shooting the breeze, talking about the jobs, in no hurry to leave. At the end of the overnight tour in particular, guys' kids are already off to school, and if their wives work, they're usually gone by this time, too, so there's no rushing home.

What you've got then are all these extra hands, guys not wanting to leave for fear they'll miss out on something. Often there's nothing to do but twiddle our thumbs, sip at some coffee, pinch at a muffin or a roll, and hash over the details of our last big job like it was the seventh game of the World Series. Or sometimes, it's actually the seventh game of the World Series, or the Monday Night Football game from the night before. The firehouse is like a second home to most firefighters, and if our real homes are empty, there's no better place to be. Honestly, there's not a firefighter in my acquaintance who will tell you, also honestly, that he'd rather be anyplace else than chewing the fat with his brothers. Looking back on the last job, looking forward to the next. Shooting the shit.

So this was the scene on that terrifyingly beautiful morning. Business as usual, about to be shattered. I was still in my civvies when I told Bob to take off, but I figured if we got a job I could put on my bunker gear over my clothes. You're not supposed to, goes against regulation, but I'd done it before. Two minutes, I'd be dressed and good to go. There are some chiefs, they won't relieve the chief on duty until they're sitting at their desks with their ties cinched tight, like they're posing for the newspapers. Regulation says we're to wear our work duty uniform whenever we're on duty: blue pants, white collared shirt with the chief's epaulets—gold oak leaves for the chief, silver oak leaves for the battalion commander. It's like the military, silver outranks gold, but if I can't find my silver leaves I'll wear the gold ones—that is, if I can find those. What the hell do I care? How I dress doesn't affect my job performance, how I approach each fire, how I look after my men. If a job comes in, I'm ready; it doesn't matter what I'm wearing.

At about eight o'clock, I wandered down to the kitchen, to talk with the guys, to grab another bagel, to put a head on my coffee. In one sense, the day had officially started, with me relieving Bob, but it hadn't really gotten going. We hadn't started checking the equipment, or recharging the batteries for our radios and other gear, which for the morning tour would have to wait until precisely nine o'clock. But the entire house was already in change-of-tour mode. Guys were still trickling in, small-talking on this and that, swapping out upcoming tours. Basically, we were waiting for nine o'clock, hoping our first run could hold out until then. And if it couldn't, then that would be okay, too.

Eight-fifteen, I was back in my office, making ready. A chief's office isn't much: two desks, two chairs, two computers—one for the chief and one for the aide. (My aide, for this tour, would be Gary Sheridan, but he was joined in our rotation by Doug Robinson, Super Dave Shaughnessy, and Bobby Pyne.) We kept our family photos and other personal effects in our lockers—in mine, there's a pair of Stephen and Lisa in my chief's hat, circa 1995 or so, which I'm guessing is a fairly standard pose for the children of firefighters—but the office itself is a spartan, bare-bones scene. Nothing that isn't standard-issue, or time-shared by the four chiefs assigned to each house—or occasionally, by a chief from elsewhere in the department called in to cover. I've done time in almost every chief's office, and I can tell you that everything's pretty much the same, and in this way we all know where everything is, and how everything works. About the only thing to distinguish them would be the view, but in some quarters you can't even catch a window.

I had some paperwork to cover, some calls to return, and some clothes to step into, so I juggled all three as the rest of my men reported to work, and in this way I passed the time until the formal change of shift. At about a quarter to nine, a call came over the ''bitch box,'' our internal intercom, telling us to turn on the television to Channel Seven. Actually, all it said was, ''Channel Seven,'' but we knew what the message meant. There were televisions all over the firehouse: in the chief's office, in the kitchen, in the lounge area....If we were tipped to something relevant unfolding on one of the local television stations—a fire, or an interview with one of the brass—the shout was straightforward: ''Channel Seven,'' or ''Channel Four,'' or whatever.

It was just after eight-fifty in the morning, according to the clock on the office wall. I flipped on the television and turned to Channel Seven, and as I did a couple of the guys wandered into the office to see what was going on. And there it was. Our beautiful blue day turned to shit. Our world turned upside down and inside out and all over the place. Our lives changed forever.

I saw what everyone else saw, couldn't have been more than a minute after it happened. The north tower of the World Trade Center, smoking like crazy. Pandemonium at ground level. And I heard the uncertainty and confusion coming from the announcers. At this early point, the talk on the television was that a plane had crashed into the tower, but there was no indication of the size of the plane, no word on the circumstances of the crash, no accompanying video. Just this incongruous picture of a frightening blue sky, clouded with smoke on a late summer morning.

There were three or four of us in my office, and no one said a word. For the longest time, we just stood there and watched, our mouths hanging open in complete disbelief or incomprehension. We understood what we were seeing, what the implications were in terms of us firefighters, but it wasn't fully registering, if you know what I mean. Finally, I broke the silence. ''Holy shit!'' I stammered, and that about said it. I wasn't much for words to begin with, and here none were needed.

Right away, I knew this was no accident. I knew this in my gut, and I knew this in my heart, and I knew this in my head. Usually, I trust the first two when they're all I've got to go on, but when the head's involved, I tend to go that way first. And that way, right away, screamed terrorism. There was always the chance it could have been an intentional act by some nut-job loon with no agenda, but I knew enough about flying to realize that this kind of thing didn't happen on its own. I knew that in the history of New York City, there had only been one occasion when an airplane crashed into a skyscraper—the 1945 crash of a B-25 into the seventy-eighth and seventy-ninth floors of the Empire State Building—and that occurred on a dangerously foggy day without the benefits of the sophisticated instrument-flying technology currently in place. Back then, pilots flew by a navigational method known as ''dead reckoning.'' They picked a spot on the horizon, and kept it in their sights until they got where they were going. But there was no longer room for this kind of accident. The airspace above New York City was a ''no fly zone.'' The only strip you were allowed to fly was up and down the waterways, east at an even altitude, west at an odd altitude. The ''rules of the road'' were such that there was no colliding, one plane into another, one plane into a fixed object on the ground. When a plane hits a building like that, there's no way it's an accident.

Remember, at this early point, there was no indication what kind of plane it was that had flown into the tower. Nothing to let us know if maybe there was some kind of bomb on board. Nothing but the sad, surreal picture of a bright, gorgeous sky, blackened by smoke, and the thought of the number of people who were surely dead as a result, and the horrible ways they'd surely died. And to a firefighter, the scene looked even more serious than it did to civilian eyes. I actually heard one of the announcers on the television report that the stock market opening would be delayed by a half hour because of the crash, and I thought to myself, What the hell are these people thinking? What are they talking about? They were talking about business-as-usual kinds of things, and here we were looking at the biggest disaster in the history of the city. Just one glance at the television, and I could see we were into an impossible situation, and if it wasn't impossible it was damn close. There'd be no easy way to get to those office workers trapped above the impact. It could be done, mind you, but it wouldn't be easy, and it wouldn't do to be thinking about opening the stock market or going about the rest of our lives in the usual way. Not just yet.

I collected all of these thoughts, and a couple million more, all in the space of a few seconds, and the next thing I knew I was on the phone to the departmental dispatcher. I dialed 261 on our internal telephone system without fully realizing what I was doing, knowing only that those images on the television meant people were hurt and there was a fire to be put out. It was pure instinct, and as the dispatcher's voice came on at the other end, all I was thinking was rescue. How do we get those people out of there? How do we put out a fire on such a high floor? What's our next move? I thought back to an article I'd written a couple months earlier in WNYF, our departmental magazine, about nonroutine high-rise fires, and I figured if there was anyone in the department wanting in on something like this, it would be me.

''This is Chief Picciotto, Eleven Battalion,'' I barked into the phone. &'grave;I was down there for the first World Trade Center bombing in '93. I know the building. If you need my services, call me.''

It wasn't much of a call, but it was a call I had to make. As chief, when there's a fire in your jurisdiction, you just go. You're ''first due,'' which is department-speak for being first due on the scene. You don't have to wait to be dispatched. There's a ''second due'' company as well, and they can usually head out without a direct order, but beyond that you have to follow protocol. If every one of us went out to every fire that caught our interest, you'd have empty firehouses all over the city, so we had to follow command, and in this case command was telling us to stay put. I could live with this, for the time being. I wasn't asking in, just offering myself up, telling them of my prior knowledge, which maybe someone in charge might think would come in handy.

Of course, there were others with some of the same pieces of prior knowledge, but I figured I'd get my name in there early. See, back in 1993, February 26th, as a battalion chief in lower Manhattan, I was the second chief on the scene when a rented Ryder van exploded on the B-2 level of the World Trade Center parking garage. The van had been carrying a nitrourea bomb. That's a thousand pounds plus of fertilizer packed with hydrogen cylinders to add impact. The detonation took out seven stories, six of them below ground. Six people were killed, and over one thousand were injured, and the resulting rescue made it the biggest job in FDNY history. Roughly forty-five percent of the department's on-duty staff responded to the scene, including eighty-four engine companies, sixty truck companies, twenty-eight battalion chiefs, nine deputy chiefs, five rescue companies, and twenty-six other special units. The total response was the equivalent of a sixteen-alarm fire—an unfathomable amount of manpower and equipment. I was part of the team establishing a subcommand post near the entrance to the building, to direct the overwhelming flow of responding units, and felt strongly that this experience would be useful for whatever the hell was going on in the north tower at just this moment. Plus, I knew the building. I knew the stairwells, and what it was like to evacuate tens of thousands of people through such a narrow space, against an uncertain clock.

In this, I realized, I was like hundreds of other guys still on the job from 1993, but to me it was personal. I hadn't realized it until just this black moment, but I felt a connection to those towers. It was the strangest thing. There'd been hundreds of calls to the World Trade Center since it opened in 1970. Most of these were minor fires, or false alarms, but it was the bombing in 1993 that was the fixed line to where we were this morning. I'd been there in a time of crisis, and I felt I needed to be there during this one as well. I know it sounds crazy to put it in just this way, but it's like it was between me and the building, what was happening on these television screens. Like I said, to me it was personal.

I got off the phone and scrambled down to the kitchen, to watch the news with the other men. Remember, it was still change of tour, so there were guys at both ends of their shifts standing around the television set, wanting to be let in, just like me. Other than Bob Holzmeier, there wasn't a single other guy who had left from the night tour, so the house was pretty crowded. And all of us were just staring, rapt, taking it all in, trying to make sense of what we were seeing, when in truth it made no sense at all. Think about it: How are you supposed to piece together images like this into any kind of logical picture?

Gradually, we started to talk. We could see the amount of fire. We could see the smoke. We could see the hole at the point of impact. We knew this was bad, real bad, that the people above would surely die, if the smoke hadn't gotten to them already. There was no way to get them out. Billy Reynolds, of Engine Co. 76, mentioned that a lot of firefighters were probably going to die today, and no one could argue the point. In fact, we let his comment just hang there in the room for a while, none of us saying anything, each of us lost in our own private thoughts, wondering which of our brothers we were about to lose, if it would be one of us.

At this point, we were all thinking the smoke would be the killer. We didn't know it had been a huge jet plane, laden with fuel. We all knew how jet fuel could burn at two thousand degrees Fahrenheit, and how steel can begin to lose its strength at fifteen hundred degrees Fahrenheit, but we weren't thinking along these lines just yet—and even if we were, we'd remind ourselves that the steel used in the twin towers of the World Trade Center had been coated with some kind of fire retardant. All we knew for certain was what we could see, and what we could see was smoke. Lots of it. Black and billowing and out of control. And we measured what we could see against what we already knew: Ninety percent of all deaths in high-rise fires can be directly attributed to smoke inhalation, so this was a serious race against time. From the pictures we were getting on the television, it didn't even appear that the roof was offering any fresh air; that's how thick the smoke seemed to be, spilling up over the top of the building.

We all watched in horror, and as we started to talk it became clear that we all wanted to get down there, as quickly as possible. We were like racehorses, waiting to be let out of the starting gate. We belonged down there, for our own individual reasons, but at the other end of each individual reason was our shared purpose: This was what we did; this was who we were; this was why we were there.

''Chief Pitch,'' I'd keep hearing, ''get us down there.'' (''Pitch'' has been my lifelong nickname, and when we were on duty the guys always put the ''Chief'' out in front, mixing the formal with the informal.)

''Fuck command,'' I'd also hear, &'grave;we're going.''

&'grave;They're gonna send us eventually, so we might as well go now.''

And then the second plane hit. We all saw it coming, couldn't believe what we were seeing. Really, it was such an inappropriate image, it took each of us a beat or two to process it. Who the hell has the tools, or the frame of reference, to understand a sight like that? It was just a beat or two, and yet it felt longer when we were in its middle. We were all silent again, and as each of us in that kitchen began to realize what had just happened, I reached again for the departmental phone. Like the first time, I did this without a clear thought. It was maybe ten seconds after the second crash. I dialed the same number—261—for the Manhattan dispatcher in Central Park. I knew they'd be swamped with calls, but I wanted to get mine in there ahead of the others. And it wasn't just departmental calls they'd be dealing with, but 911 calls from people on the scene, cell transmissions from folks trapped on one of those upper floors, nuisance calls from people simply wanting information.

I knew they'd be swamped, but I didn't care. I was just as much racehorse as the men in my command. They wanted down there, and I wanted down there, and if I waited for orders we'd never get anywhere.

''This is Chief Picciotto,'' I said again when the dispatcher picked up. &'grave;Eleven Battalion. A second plane just hit the second tower. Whatever alarm assignment you have, double it. I'm on my way. I know the building, and I'm going.''

Surely, I initially thought, this guy already knew about this latest development, but from the moment's hesitation in his voice coming back, I started to think perhaps he didn't.

''Go,'' the dispatcher finally said, his voice choked with horror and disbelief and resignation. ''Go.''

I wasn't asking, and I wasn't really waiting for an answer. I got an answer, but I wasn't waiting for it. If the dispatcher had told me to stay put, perhaps I wouldn't have heard him. Sometimes, in the heat of a moment like that, my hearing wasn't so good. But I heard him just fine: ''Go.''

I didn't know it at the time, but my daughter, Lisa, had bounded from her dormitory onto Fulton Street in Lower Manhattan, to watch these horrific events unfold firsthand, from the relative safety of a few blocks away, and as she stared in disbelief as the second plane staggered into the south tower, she realized her father was probably on the scene. She knew it in her bones. That's how a fireman's daughter thinks: You see a burning building, and you know Daddy's there somewhere, and in this case her bones weren't far off. I wasn't there yet, but I was on my way.

—from Last Man Down by Richard Picciotto and Daniel Paisner, Copyright © May 2002, The Berkley Publishing Group, a member of Penguin Putnam, Inc., used by permission."

Meet the Author

Battalion Commander Richard Picciotto was the highest-ranking firefighter to survive the collapse of the World Trade Center. He is a twenty-eight year veteran of the New York City Fire Department. For the past nine years, he has presided over FDNY's Battalion 11, covering Manhattan's Upper West Side.

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I found this book to be amazing. I couldn't put it down. It left me in shock and awe. I defiantly would recommend this book to anyone who is interested in learning about the events that took place on 9/11. It is also a great first person telling of the story as it really gives a good insight on what a survivor was thinking during all of this. I think this is a must read for everyone. Colin S
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
On September 11th, 2001, America witnessed one of the scariest terrorist attacks that has ever happened in history. I remember watching it all happen on the television and wondering, "Wow there are so many firefighters, policemen, medical staff, and other very important people in that building trying to save people's lives. I wonder what it's like in the building and what all is going on in there. It must be crazy!" This book gave me a very in-depth insight on what happened inside the building and all the chaos that occured as the firefighters and policemen tried to get people out of the building before it collapsed. It gave you a visual on what everything looked like and how crazy it was and the panic that everyone was going through because it was a race against the clock to get as many people as possible out alive along with the firefighters themselves. It gave me a lot of information about different jobs that firefighters have to do and procedures and protocals etc...and it also explained why firefighters do their jobs for so may years. All of them have a different reason why, but they love saving lives and risking their own life for others. It definitely demonstrated just how scary every call can be. I learned a lot and thought it was a great book. I didn't want to put it down because I always wanted to know what was going to happen next. It captures your attention immidiately and keeps you interested until the very last page. I'd definitely recommend it to friends and family.
Guest More than 1 year ago
this is the best book iv ever read it makes ya feel like you r there with em and makes you rell feel what they were goin through. its just down right great!!!
Guest More than 1 year ago
It was a great book that gave a huge insight of what happened within the world trade center. We have all seen pictures and videos of what happened outside the WTC, however we really do not have a clue what happened inside. This shows what happened inside the Twin Towers from a rescuers point of view.
Guest More than 1 year ago
About time someone who knows the real deal wrote a real story. I could not put this book down. I read it in a weekend. Didn't leave the house. I wish this book had come out sooner. I could have saved time and money by not reading those books by the other guys that where not even there. Great read!
Guest More than 1 year ago
William Langewiesche, who wrote the cold-machine-idolizing tome 'American Ground: Unbuilding the World Trade Center' was not there. This guy was. William Langewiesche says, in his uncorrected proof, that the men of Ladder 4 were pilfering jeans from the Gap before the towers even fell. He didn't even show up until days later, never talked to enough people to fully represent any group beside the guys wielding the grapplers and the big equipment. In a radio interview on WPR, he bashes the firefighters for supposedly striking heroic poses and 'looking up at the sky.' The only agenda the firefighters had at the time was doing their jobs, jobs that many of them have chosen because it's one for which they will want to get up every day, one about which they can feel good doing. When the 'Last Man Down' author went into the site, surely everyone knew who he was. When Langewiesche went into the site, as a 'journalist,' his badge said DDC. He didn't take notes or make recordings. Who are you going to believe? Someone who was there, or someone who showed up afterwards to tear down an image of 'hero' - a product of late patriotism and media at a loss, which most fire-fighters most assuredly did not self-apply.
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The book is quite powerful. It was one thing to watch the horror from the outside but I can't imagine viewing it from a staircase, trapped within all that rubble. God bless you and continue to pray for all those who lost their lives on September 11th.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I thought the book was very good. what I liked the most about the book was that richard went in to every little detail and it gives the people of our great nation a view in to what we go threw everyday. it also show the true brotherhood that we share
Guest More than 1 year ago
Was a good book to read since it came from a brother fireman in his own words. Not from a professional writer than wasn't experiencing anything from his desk. Good reading from that perspective. Also helps to imagine what those guys went through.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This isn't a bad book on the whole, but I found it to be too self-centered and self-aware for my taste. There are times when the book drags leading to a climax, but when that event comes, in the lull tha follows are men who seem to revolve around the "heroism" of the narrator. No question that NYFD deserves our thanks but certainly, there are many heroes that day who weren't fire fighters. Who would deny this? I preferred the more balanced observations presented in "American Ground, Unbuilding the World Trade Center" by William Langewiesche, which goes beyond the myth that the NYFD is somehow most deserving of our total, complete admiration above and beyond that which we extend to the many other individuals who helped many on 911. In Langewiesche's book we learn facts about NYFD that put a balance face on their efforts and behavior during, immediately after, and in the months following 911. We learn that when the body of a Port Authority policeman was found in the pile, there were terrible confrontations when the FDNY didn't want to stop searching for their own dead, but yet when they found their own, they demanded that everyone, including the Port Authority Police, stop what they were doing. We learn that there was looting on the scene and that quite possibly some fire fighters were involved. There was definately a double standard on "the pile," as the site came to be known, and some revision about the "ultimate hero" status given to the FDNY needs to be undertaken. I do not believe that the FDNY is somehow most representative of the "ultimate sacrifice" made on 911, and think this is more mythologizing than examining reality. This is not taking away from their losses, which were terrible to say the least. I am sure that FDNY Battalion Commander Richard Picciotto is a good man, and I respect his account. Yet, I urge people reading his account to realize this is very empassioned reading, understandably so, but likely too narrow to provide the level of objective analysis necessary for it to be of great historical value beyond one man's account. Yes, I am very respectful of those men in the NYFD, but let us not forget that police officers and many more civilians lost their lives. Also, for absolute volume, it was Cantor Fitzgerald that suffered the greatest loss that day. True, NYFD men were brave, but there were brave civilians too. This is a good book but perhaps a bit too biased. It needs to be balanced as one finds in the pages of "Unbuilding the World Trade Center." As the author of that book writes (I am paraphrasing): "the fire fighters were performing a dangerous job, to be sure, but they did not know the building would collapse. It wasn't the same as if they were charging a machine gun nest." Let's try to demystify what happend on that sad day, September 11, 2001. I praise and thank and grieve for the FDNY losses, but I also grieve for the 800+ lives lost at Cantor Fitzgerald, and the other lives lost. Respectfully, I would ask what gives FDNY the right to wave the flag of ultimate hero. Are they? No, not all, but some certainly are. An event this big should not be totally dominated by one group of "heroes," there were many "heroes" on 911 who weren't in the FDNY. Let's keep that in mind and move to a more realistic assessment of all that happened. This is what history demands, to mythologize this day and FDNY as if mythology is the same as objective analysis is wrong, and does not best serve the memories of all those who lost their lives that terrible day. Realism and balance serves them best. Finally, as I think of the U.S. and other forces that will quite likely move against Iraq, I can't help but compare their task with the task facing the FDNY on 911. It was a terrible, daunting task, but they thought they were fighting a fire. They didn't know the buildings would collapse. The troops that move into Iraq will be certain that they will be shot at and that even then, they will have to keep moving. Some at least will
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book is awesome because it tells you what it was like in the stairwell of the World Trade Center. It is told from a first person point of view so you really get what it is like in the World Trade Center. The story is told by a firefighter who was in the World Trade Center. The book tells you how many firefighter died at the World Trade Cente. The book talk about the 5-5-5-5 the bell that rings to sound out a died firefighter. So if you are interasted in 9-11 you will like this book. My respect goes out to the people who do this ever day.
Guest More than 1 year ago
If the book is anything like his story he gave on September 17 at East Carolina University it is going to be a milliion dollar book!
Guest More than 1 year ago
Not only does the author, as one of the few eyewitnesses alive, describe all he saw and heard and did that day, but also what was running through his mind along the way. Very personal story, high integrity, real. (from Upper Michigan)
Guest More than 1 year ago
I had the opportunity to meet "Pitch" and hear him speak at my university and I read his book and thought it was great. I've seen some people critisize the way the author is, the language he uses, and the choices he makes throughout the book, but the fact remains that he is human too, and acted just as civilized as anyone could have in that situation. His "flaws" make him more human, which I think bring the story closer to home.
Guest More than 1 year ago
What can I say - I rarely read only if it captures my interest enought to pick it up, but then it would take approx 6 months + to finish an average size book. Chief Picciotto I take my hat off to you Sir. I live in the UK and during this day of 9/11 I was at home recovering from an ectopic pregnancy operation. I was numb at the scenes on the CNN news and I felt hurt and sad yet perhaps it was for my own different reasons at all those people losing a loved one at such an emotional time for myself and husband. But for some reason I have never felt so drawn to an experience as this as I did when 10 months later I started reading Last Man Down. In total the book took me 6 & 1/2 hours cover to cover. I read the book while on a rest day at work, I could not leave my desk for lunch or breaks I just sat and read and tried to control the tears of emotion I felt. The detail was amazing, due to the intense going-ons I would never have imagined that a person could be so detailed. The whole story is just full of fact, details, emotions and the information that would not be available to read if this hero had died, and it will pull at the biggest heart-strings your body has. Cheif Piccotto is one of many very brave servicemen/women. & civillians who endangered their lives for the Heart of New York. I have pride for my country of Britian, although I have great admiration for Americans, you should Stand Proud for your fellow people. In all this book is a credit to the Chief, it must have been difficult to write and I hope he can move on to Sept 12th. ***** 5 STARS - You have to read it to believe it This has inspired me now to continue. I have just purchased "Amoung The Heros" The story of Flight 93 by Jere Longman. I shall come back and review once read. I watched Ground Zero on 9/11/02 on TV this Wed. and it just breaks my heart to see all the loved ones who had lost on that tragic day. My heart goes to each and every one of you.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Something is wrong here! If the fire department has such rules of engagement, procedure, and protocol, how come this fire chief took it upon himself to NOT follow the rules and wait until directed to be told what to do. All through this book he does what he wants, or feels what he needs, to do. If he was the highest ranking fireman in this group stuck in the rubble, how come he was the first one out. I would think that he should have been the last one out. If he had of been the captain of the Titanic, there would have been one less woman or child in the first lifeboat. Also, on the ABC TV program televised Tuesday night 09:00PM all of the firemen that were with him told their stories in their own words. The author, Chief Picciotto, was only referred to as "the chief", and was not on the program. That sounds strange to me also. For what reasons was he left off of the program! Yes, he did do his job at trying to get the WTC employees, and other fire fighters out of the building, and he probably was the highest (in altitude) survivor to ride the building down, hence the title, but he was also the first one out! Too much time criticizing the political decisions made (in hindsight), and not enough thinking of other people first like he was trained to do. He is interesting, but arrogant!
Guest More than 1 year ago
Excellent, informative and historic. A true insiders view of what happened, at the World Trade Center, on September 11th. Told with honesty and a clearity known only to firemen.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I am not much of a reader but this book was awsome. The detail was so great it makes you feel like your right next to B.C. Picciotto. I couln't stop reading the book i finished it in about two days after work. I could sit down and read this book again right now, and i would recomend it to anybody that has any interest in what it was like to be at the World Trade Center on September 11, 2001. To all our lost brothers rest in peace, you will never be forgoten.
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Chief 'Pitch' tells his story from inside World Trade Center Bldg 1 when it collapsed. He was literally the 'last man down' the stairwell when it happened. The author relates his story so well that you can visualize being there in the incredible rumble, the darkness, the smoke, the horror. He describes people he came upon while evacuating the building. He teaches you how firemen believe in rescues no matter what it takes. If there is a downside to this book, it is the arrogance with which it was written. Perhaps it takes arrogance to be a leader, though. This man saved many lives of everyday people and brother firemen.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Last Man Down is an unforgettable book that sheds light on the human terror of 9/11, a vicious sea that many of us watched from the distant bridge of a TV screen. It proves that heroes do exist and act. If you are still groping with the grief of 9/11/2001, Last Man Down is a must-read book.
Guest More than 1 year ago
September 11, 2001 affected all of us. However, it wasn't until I read Last Man Down, that I understood just how deeply it affected those who were there. This book captured my attention and kept me wanting to read more from the moment I started it. It provides the inside view of what firemen went through in trying to save as many lives as they could and what one fireman in particular dealt with in personally leading a brave group of men. I had never thought about what it was really like for them until I read this book, and I now have even more respect for the men (and women) who are out there fighting to save lives each and every day. Thank you to all the fire fighters who risk their lives each and every day.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I hate to state that I really enjoyed reading this book, due to the reason and the subject that it was about, however, it was a great read!! We have all seen the news coverage and newspaper articles on 9-11, but in a perspective of an actual person being in the midst of it all, gave a whole new light to what all was happening down at ground zero that day. I have recommended it to all my friends!