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Raised a Christian Scientist, Charlotte McGuffey has always been taught to solve her problems by denying their existence. But now, suffering from crippling insomnia, living with a husband she no longer cares for, and bewildered by a three-year-old son who still won't talk, Charlotte is starting to wonder whether this strategy is working. When her husband is killed in a sudden accident she packs her two young boys in the family car and takes off for Beede, Vermont–the town where her husband grew up and died. Here ...
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Raised a Christian Scientist, Charlotte McGuffey has always been taught to solve her problems by denying their existence. But now, suffering from crippling insomnia, living with a husband she no longer cares for, and bewildered by a three-year-old son who still won't talk, Charlotte is starting to wonder whether this strategy is working. When her husband is killed in a sudden accident she packs her two young boys in the family car and takes off for Beede, Vermont–the town where her husband grew up and died. Here in Vermont, away from the watchful eyes of her older sisters, Charlotte begins to search for answers, making new discoveries about her family's past, her late husband's death, and the possibility of new love. Filled with gentle wit and uncommon generosity, Learning to Drive is a funny, poignant lesson in self-discovery.


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Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
The world of Christian Science healing forms the backdrop for this story about grief and the conflict between religious faith and physical experience. In December 1952, Charlotte McGuffey re-embraces her Christian Scientist beliefs and announces her intention to take her two young sons, the energetic Baird and the impulsive, autistic Hoskins, and leave her photographer husband, Melvin. Melvin agrees to a trial separation, thinking he will prove the folly of her plan, and departs for their country home in Beede, Vt. Just a few days later he is killed by a young, nervous driver. The following summer Charlotte packs up their belongings and brings the boys to Beede to search for information about her husband's last days alive. The town's denizens-including drifter Paul Bellini, "The Great Bellini," who lives in a nearby communal house and insists on watching over the country place for her, and the fiercely attractive artist Francis-begin to coax Charlotte from her mourning and loneliness. But when her beloved sister refuses medical treatment for the diabetes that killed their Scientist mother, and Hoskins reaches his fourth birthday without speaking an intelligible word (though he perfectly mimics the instructions in a driving manual, hence the title), Charlotte's own faith and healing are sorely tested. Mesmerizing prose and darkly complex characters draw the reader deep into Charlotte's world, raising fascinating questions about the power of mind over body and the emotions that bind the most unlikely people together. Readers who crave a slice of insight with their fiction will find this a thoughtful, provocative book. (Oct.) Copyright 2003 Reed Business Information.
Library Journal
This debut novel gives a dreamy peek into the impact of the Christian Science religion on the life of a young widow in the early 1950s. Charlotte McGuffey is a wife and mother of two small children in Syracuse, NY, who gets a nasty reminder to be "careful what she wishes for." Less than a week after she asks her husband, Melvin, for a separation, he lies dead near their summer home in Vermont. Numbed by guilt and the lifelong pressures of the stern Christian Science-related voices in her head, Charlotte flees with her boys to Vermont to get out from under the control of her older, well-meaning sisters. There, she both learns the details of Melvin's death and gets to the heart of her mother's death, which occurred when Charlotte was ten. She also discovers the curative powers of passion when she enters into an unsettling affair with a local artist who is dodging considerable trouble in his past. The tale is rich with subtleties and questions begging for answers-more than enough fuel for a lively book discussion. Recommended.-Beth E. Andersen, Ann Arbor Dist. Lib., MI Copyright 2003 Reed Business Information.
Kirkus Reviews
In a deceptively quiet but affecting debut, a young mother is suddenly widowed, and, overwhelmed by guilt and fear, learns to live life to the full on an old Vermont farm. Though fundamentally a story of self-discovery, this one is unlike so many in its genre in that the demons the protagonist overcomes are mostly spiritual ones, products of a religious upbringing. Charlotte MacGuffey has been raised by her two older sisters, Kitty and Rosey, who stepped in to help their father with ten-year old Charlotte after their mother died. They'd been raised as Christian Scientists, and Kitty, who in adult life becomes a Christian Science practitioner, is particularly zealous about maintaining the family's adherence. In early December 1952, Charlotte, married to Melvin and the mother of Baird and three-year old Hoskins, tells Melvin, just before he sets off on a business trip, that she wants a separation. Lying awake nights, she's decided there are too many irreconcilable differences between them. But a few days later, when Melvin, a photographer, is killed crossing a street in Vermont, Charlotte not only feels responsible, but all the old fears and uncertainties fostered by the family's beliefs that illness and unhappiness are caused by weakness of faith, return. Over the summer, spent on the family farm in Vermont, however, Charlotte begins to change. She falls in love and has an affair with neighboring artist Francis; learns that her mother had diabetes and would have lived if the family had taken her to a doctor; and gets Hoskins, a beautiful child who's obsessed with order and not yet talking, evaluated by a doctor, who suggests he is autistic. Sister Kitty is appalled at Charlotte's actions,and her defiance of all Mrs. Eddy's teachings, but Charlotte, who also learns some comforting news about Melvin's death, is ready to embrace life, the senses, and the future with courage and hope. A finely wrought tale of the sometimes-harmful bonds of family and faith. Agent: Timothy Seldes
From the Publisher
“I savored every moment I spent with this wise and moving and inspired novel.” –Chris Bohjalian, author of Midwives

"Mary Hays has written a brilliant, original, funny novel. What a treat! It is totally satisfying and its characters unforgettable. I loved it." –Judy Blume

“This remarkable novel compassionately looks at humans and their foibles as they strive for 'the right way.' . . . Hilarious . . . Hays writes with authority and authenticity.” –Vermont Life

"Mesmerizing prose and darkly complex characters draw the reader deep into Charlotte's world, raising fascinating questions about the power of the mind over body and the emotions that bind the most unlikely people together." –Publishers Weekly

“[A] quietly affecting debut novel.” –Glamour

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780307487377
  • Publisher: Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group
  • Publication date: 8/19/2009
  • Sold by: Random House
  • Format: eBook
  • Sales rank: 892,953
  • File size: 2 MB

Meet the Author

Mary Hays was educated at Bennington College and the University of Chicago, where she received her M.A. in humanities. She has written short stories and plays and, until recently, taught third and fourth graders at a rural elementary school. She lives in Corinth, Vermont, with her husband, Stephen Long. Learning to Drive is her first novel.


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Charlotte lay awake all night listening to the clock in the downstairs hallway. Every quarter hour it squeezed out a chime within a long and predictable sequence of sounds that became more distinct as the night wore on: a wheeze, a cough, a running start, and finally, a pause and a failure of nerve, and then a little song--another quarter hour is coming, another is gone, another is coming, another is gone. She pictured the old, dead quarter hours piling up, then sliding off the pile and disappearing into endless Time where quarter hours didn't count. Quarter hours were mere human constructions, temporary units fabricated by mankind for convenience in daily life, like minutes, though more important than minutes, since clocks didn't chime every minute--and for that she was very grateful. There was an infinite number of units of time, as many as you could think of names for, each one folded inside the other, their inward progression stretching beyond the mind's eye, to the outer edge of knowing, all of them ticking, relentlessly beating, like her own heart.

She decided to drown them. She gathered them into Melvin's fishing net and lowered them into a dark pool, watching as the flimsy little units cascaded gently toward the muck at the bottom. Just before they landed, she reversed the net and whipped it out of the water. Success! None had stuck! They were all gone, or nearly all. Just one was left; it clung to the net, its delicate green wings twitching, ticking, relentlessly beating. . . . She was doomed; she would never sleep. Her skin prickled; her long, heavy braid pulled at her scalp. She listened to Melvin breathing peacefully beside her, to the quiet little snort at the bottom of each breath that signaled his blissful oblivion. Across the hall, their two small sons slept on, two soldiers of sleep marching through the night. It was always she, the lone female, who had to carry the whole nocturnal consciousness of the household, she alone who watched and prayed, and waited for the dawn.

Insomnia had been a way of life in Charlotte's family. Her mother and two older sisters were always prowling the house at night in search of sleep, a loosely knit pack stalking the same elusive prey. Their mother read from Mrs. Eddy's works, her flowered bathrobe tucked tightly around her legs as she sat curled up on the couch, head resting on her hand under the glow of the lamp. Rosey, the oldest, read romantic novels, while Kitty, the middle child, did puzzles. (Kitty was always alert and cheerful no matter what the hour and could easily do anagrams after midnight.) Charlotte, the baby of the family, was last to join in their forays. At first she snacked, like any child let loose in an unsupervised kitchen. Later, she got out her crayons and sat alone at the long, polished table in the dining room, creating the same little scene over and over again: a house with a high-pitched roof and a garden in front (always drawn from the same perspective), a standard lollipop-shaped tree (with nests), a row of tall flowers marching alongside the walkway through the garden, two happy clouds, and a flock of V-shaped birds in the far distance. After she had made a few of these pictures, so full of goodwill and brave resolve despite the dark shadows in the corners of the room, her fatigue would take over and her flowers would wilt, the tree would list, her birds in flight would start to wobble, and Charlotte would awake with her face on the paper. As she groped her way back to bed, feeling vaguely ashamed that her staying power was so slight, she would always vow to do better next time.

Their father was the only one in the family who had a normal relationship with sleep: Jerome Baird took it for granted, looked forward to it, cherished his sleeping garb. He would doze off after meals or during his daughters' impromptu recitals and incoherent dramas, waking up just long enough to announce his intention of retiring, yawning and stretching as he locked the doors and made his sleepy way upstairs, carrying a book they all knew he would never stay awake long enough to read, and inspiring them all with envy.

After her youngest child was born, Charlotte had suffered a bout of insomnia so severe that she actually became physically ill. It was a time in her life that she still looked back on with apprehension; nevertheless, she was grateful for it, too, because it had led her back to Christian Science. Baird was only four at the time, the baby just a few weeks old. She had truly lost her wits, hardly knowing who she was. (At one point she even considered the possibility that she was someone else, an older woman who suffered from numbness in all her extremities and who rode buses in endless loops around the city.) The children needed all of her attention, yet she found it impossible to focus. She would wander off in search of a diaper and find herself in the basement, looking for a broom, or wake up at night, ravenous, and begin baking, then leave the batter to collapse in the bowl while she went to look up the fifth monarch of England in her college history text. Perversely, a sinister idea began to take hold: She would die if she slept, if she let go. In the wink of an eye she would go from constant, unwavering, unblinking consciousness to absolute extinction.

She became painfully aware of her pulse, coming to regard it as a fragile lifeline. Her heart skipped beats. Her skin went from its normal lightly freckled pallor to a dead papery white. She grew thinner and more angular. Her small flat face, grown luminous with anxiety, became a white disk lost in a cloud of red hair; her fingernails cracked; she bumped into things. Her sisters called daily, asking for updates on her condition. She couldn't make decisions; she felt angry at the baby. She felt afraid. Melvin worried about her safety and the safety of the children, and he hired a girl, Gretel, to stay in the house with her when he was gone. He was just starting his souvenir business then and was spending a lot of time in Vermont taking his "scenics," which is what he called his seasonal photographs.

He claimed she was a hazard to them all, and she agreed, yet she couldn't seem to gain control of her actions. He even suggested that she cut her hair--she had never cut it, not once, not even when the craze for bobs overtook her sisters. It tumbled down over her back, a luscious coppery waterfall that reached well below her waist. There was so much of it, people turned to stare at her on the street, dazzled by all that hair. It influenced everything she did--the careful way she turned her head; the pretty way she perched instead of sat, with her back held straight; the peculiar way she walked, at the same time awkward and graceful, like a heron picking its way from rock to rock along a shallow river. And of course, wherever she went, she left it behind her--on people's furniture, on their clothes, in their mouths--and in her own house, on her own clothes. She came across the long red strands a hundred times in the course of a day, like her own secret tracks; if she ever committed a murder, she had once told Melvin, she would have to wear a hair net.

Cutting it, he had argued, would help her sleep; it wouldn't pull at her in the night and wake her up. It had frightened her, hearing him say that. When they were so in love--when they filled the whole world for each other, when it wasn't big enough to contain them--he had called her long hair his ocean, his heaven, his coppery earth.

At his insistence, she made an appointment with a doctor in downtown Syracuse. Young Dr. Jericho listened to her story, examined her cursorily, and concluded that she needed to relax.

"I'm trying to relax," she told him. "I'm trying to sleep. I'm trying everything."

He snapped her file shut. "Not everything, Mrs. McGuffey. You are a young and beautiful woman. Why not try enjoying life? Ask your husband to take you to the movies."

The movies! How dare he! Here she was, desperate, half out of her mind, and he told her to go to the movies! Walking back to the bus stop on Genesee Street after her appointment, she passed a Christian Science reading room and paused to look through the plate-glass window. She had not considered herself a Scientist since her marriage to Melvin ten years earlier, when she was a student and living at home with her sister Rosey and her father, a classics professor and the author of two slim volumes of poetry written in strict and regular recurrence of quantitatively long and short syllables.

The Bible and the Science and Health lay open side by side on a green velvet cloth. Passages from the current week's lesson had been underlined in powder-blue marker on both their pages. The underlined passage in the Science and Health was well known to Charlotte and featured the Porter, a curious figure who had accrued special significance in her imagination as a child:

Stand porter at the door of thought. Admitting only such conclusions as you wish realized in bodily results, you will control yourself harmoniously. . . . The issues of pain or pleasure must come through mind, and like a watchman forsaking his post, we admit the intruding belief, forgetting that through divine help we can forbid this entrance.

Her father had had an ancient model train set that he kept hidden in his bedroom--perhaps not exactly hidden, but it had seemed so to Charlotte, since why else would a grown-up keep such a thing to himself? He kept it on his big desk in a corner of the bedroom, covered up by a woven white shawl of his wife's, along with his Science books and periodicals and stacks of "Home Forum" pages from the Monitor. When she was sure she was alone in the house, Charlotte had sometimes stolen into his room to look at the little figures, at the gloomy station house, the corroding tracks and bridges and railroad cars. The little figures that belonged to the set were dark and mysterious and made of a hard rubber material: Among them were a conductor, an engineer, a flagman, a flagman's wife (they had the same startled expression), and a porter, whose red trousers sported a military crease. His face was creamy brown, and on his shoulder was a curious lump of deteriorating rubber with a long cinnamon-colored tail, and in her imagination, Charlotte had construed it to be a sweet little monkey who whispered naughty things.

Standing at the window, feeling the mesmerizing pull of Mrs. Eddy's soothing, familiar words, made softer and sweeter by the velvet cloth beneath the book, Charlotte had been seized by a powerful longing for her mother. Charlotte was ten at the time of her mother's death; protected by her family's belief that disease and death were essentially illusions, and that the inevitable outcome of every sickness was the good health her family members took for granted, she had remained unaware of much of the drama taking place in the house during her mother's illness. Her mother's bewildering behavior toward the end was enveloped in mist. Only certain smells brought her mother back, and the image of her strong, beautiful hands.

Charlotte remembered the peace she'd felt as she sat with her family in the little church they attended on Sundays, the quiet rustling of people's clothes at the Wednesday evening testimonial services, the lilt in her sister Kitty's voice as she read aloud to her family from Mrs. Eddy's works on Sunday evenings.

When Charlotte was twenty and newly married and just barely starting on a life of her own, Kitty was already a licensed Christian Science practitioner. She had completed all of her classes at the Mother Church in Boston at the exceptionally young age of thirty-two and had started a small practice out of her home. Kitty had always had an advanced understanding. Even as a child, she had been a dedicated Scientist, performing healing ceremonies on squashed bugs and droopy baby birds, giving testimonies in church in her reedy little girl's voice, sitting beside their mother's bed in the dark and praying with her whenever she got one of her nervous spells.

The reading room was very clean and nearly deserted. A Mrs. Helen Wade Rounds was on duty that day, wearing an expensive-looking maroon suit with a loose-fitting jacket that was held in place by only one button, as if there were other, more ineffable forces at work to keep it closed. She had looked up, smiling, and handed Charlotte a copy of Mrs. Eddy's book. "Take this," she had said. "This will help."

After reading the first three pages on the living-room couch, Charlotte had fallen fast asleep. Hours later she woke in the darkness to the smell of baking potatoes as Melvin, in the kitchen with the children, prepared their supper. She lay there a long time, enveloped in a delicious drowsiness, and listened to their voices--Baird's high-pitched, childish tones, Mel's low somber ones, Hoskins's erratic infant sounds--and was filled with gratitude for God's power to heal, and for heavenly sleep.

When she went back to the reading room the next day to thank Mrs. Rounds, the white-haired woman behind the desk said she'd never heard of her. After the testimonial service Charlotte attended the following Wednesday, the usher shook his head solemnly. No, he didn't know of her. Charlotte took it as a sign and came to think of it as part of her healing: the visitation of Mrs. Rounds, with her one button, her soft, powdery skin, her utter confidence. In her writings, Mrs. Eddy defined angels as God's representatives, and that seemed like a perfect description of Helen Wade Rounds: She had materialized out of nowhere at just the right time, offering Mrs. Eddy's healing words at the exact moment when Charlotte needed them, and then simply disappeared.

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First Chapter

Charlotte lay awake all night listening to the clock in the downstairs hallway. Every quarter hour it squeezed out a chime within a long and predictable sequence of sounds that became more distinct as the night wore on: a wheeze, a cough, a running start, and finally, a pause and a failure of nerve, and then a little song--another quarter hour is coming, another is gone, another is coming, another is gone. She pictured the old, dead quarter hours piling up, then sliding off the pile and disappearing into endless Time where quarter hours didn't count. Quarter hours were mere human constructions, temporary units fabricated by mankind for convenience in daily life, like minutes, though more important than minutes, since clocks didn't chime every minute--and for that she was very grateful. There was an infinite number of units of time, as many as you could think of names for, each one folded inside the other, their inward progression stretching beyond the mind's eye, to the outer edge of knowing, all of them ticking, relentlessly beating, like her own heart.

She decided to drown them. She gathered them into Melvin's fishing net and lowered them into a dark pool, watching as the flimsy little units cascaded gently toward the muck at the bottom. Just before they landed, she reversed the net and whipped it out of the water. Success! None had stuck! They were all gone, or nearly all. Just one was left; it clung to the net, its delicate green wings twitching, ticking, relentlessly beating. . . . She was doomed; she would never sleep. Her skin prickled; her long, heavy braid pulled at her scalp. She listened to Melvin breathing peacefully beside her, to the quiet little snort at thebottom of each breath that signaled his blissful oblivion. Across the hall, their two small sons slept on, two soldiers of sleep marching through the night. It was always she, the lone female, who had to carry the whole nocturnal consciousness of the household, she alone who watched and prayed, and waited for the dawn.

Insomnia had been a way of life in Charlotte's family. Her mother and two older sisters were always prowling the house at night in search of sleep, a loosely knit pack stalking the same elusive prey. Their mother read from Mrs. Eddy's works, her flowered bathrobe tucked tightly around her legs as she sat curled up on the couch, head resting on her hand under the glow of the lamp. Rosey, the oldest, read romantic novels, while Kitty, the middle child, did puzzles. (Kitty was always alert and cheerful no matter what the hour and could easily do anagrams after midnight.) Charlotte, the baby of the family, was last to join in their forays. At first she snacked, like any child let loose in an unsupervised kitchen. Later, she got out her crayons and sat alone at the long, polished table in the dining room, creating the same little scene over and over again: a house with a high-pitched roof and a garden in front (always drawn from the same perspective), a standard lollipop-shaped tree (with nests), a row of tall flowers marching alongside the walkway through the garden, two happy clouds, and a flock of V-shaped birds in the far distance. After she had made a few of these pictures, so full of goodwill and brave resolve despite the dark shadows in the corners of the room, her fatigue would take over and her flowers would wilt, the tree would list, her birds in flight would start to wobble, and Charlotte would awake with her face on the paper. As she groped her way back to bed, feeling vaguely ashamed that her staying power was so slight, she would always vow to do better next time.

Their father was the only one in the family who had a normal relationship with sleep: Jerome Baird took it for granted, looked forward to it, cherished his sleeping garb. He would doze off after meals or during his daughters' impromptu recitals and incoherent dramas, waking up just long enough to announce his intention of retiring, yawning and stretching as he locked the doors and made his sleepy way upstairs, carrying a book they all knew he would never stay awake long enough to read, and inspiring them all with envy.

After her youngest child was born, Charlotte had suffered a bout of insomnia so severe that she actually became physically ill. It was a time in her life that she still looked back on with apprehension; nevertheless, she was grateful for it, too, because it had led her back to Christian Science. Baird was only four at the time, the baby just a few weeks old. She had truly lost her wits, hardly knowing who she was. (At one point she even considered the possibility that she was someone else, an older woman who suffered from numbness in all her extremities and who rode buses in endless loops around the city.) The children needed all of her attention, yet she found it impossible to focus. She would wander off in search of a diaper and find herself in the basement, looking for a broom, or wake up at night, ravenous, and begin baking, then leave the batter to collapse in the bowl while she went to look up the fifth monarch of England in her college history text. Perversely, a sinister idea began to take hold: She would die if she slept, if she let go. In the wink of an eye she would go from constant, unwavering, unblinking consciousness to absolute extinction.

She became painfully aware of her pulse, coming to regard it as a fragile lifeline. Her heart skipped beats. Her skin went from its normal lightly freckled pallor to a dead papery white. She grew thinner and more angular. Her small flat face, grown luminous with anxiety, became a white disk lost in a cloud of red hair; her fingernails cracked; she bumped into things. Her sisters called daily, asking for updates on her condition. She couldn't make decisions; she felt angry at the baby. She felt afraid. Melvin worried about her safety and the safety of the children, and he hired a girl, Gretel, to stay in the house with her when he was gone. He was just starting his souvenir business then and was spending a lot of time in Vermont taking his "scenics," which is what he called his seasonal photographs.

He claimed she was a hazard to them all, and she agreed, yet she couldn't seem to gain control of her actions. He even suggested that she cut her hair--she had never cut it, not once, not even when the craze for bobs overtook her sisters. It tumbled down over her back, a luscious coppery waterfall that reached well below her waist. There was so much of it, people turned to stare at her on the street, dazzled by all that hair. It influenced everything she did--the careful way she turned her head; the pretty way she perched instead of sat, with her back held straight; the peculiar way she walked, at the same time awkward and graceful, like a heron picking its way from rock to rock along a shallow river. And of course, wherever she went, she left it behind her--on people's furniture, on their clothes, in their mouths--and in her own house, on her own clothes. She came across the long red strands a hundred times in the course of a day, like her own secret tracks; if she ever committed a murder, she had once told Melvin, she would have to wear a hair net.

Cutting it, he had argued, would help her sleep; it wouldn't pull at her in the night and wake her up. It had frightened her, hearing him say that. When they were so in love--when they filled the whole world for each other, when it wasn't big enough to contain them--he had called her long hair his ocean, his heaven, his coppery earth.

At his insistence, she made an appointment with a doctor in downtown Syracuse. Young Dr. Jericho listened to her story, examined her cursorily, and concluded that she needed to relax.

"I'm trying to relax," she told him. "I'm trying to sleep. I'm trying everything."

He snapped her file shut. "Not everything, Mrs. McGuffey. You are a young and beautiful woman. Why not try enjoying life? Ask your husband to take you to the movies."

The movies! How dare he! Here she was, desperate, half out of her mind, and he told her to go to the movies! Walking back to the bus stop on Genesee Street after her appointment, she passed a Christian Science reading room and paused to look through the plate-glass window. She had not considered herself a Scientist since her marriage to Melvin ten years earlier, when she was a student and living at home with her sister Rosey and her father, a classics professor and the author of two slim volumes of poetry written in strict and regular recurrence of quantitatively long and short syllables.

The Bible and the Science and Health lay open side by side on a green velvet cloth. Passages from the current week's lesson had been underlined in powder-blue marker on both their pages. The underlined passage in the Science and Health was well known to Charlotte and featured the Porter, a curious figure who had accrued special significance in her imagination as a child:

Stand porter at the door of thought. Admitting only such conclusions as you wish realized in bodily results, you will control yourself harmoniously. . . . The issues of pain or pleasure must come through mind, and like a watchman forsaking his post, we admit the intruding belief, forgetting that through divine help we can forbid this entrance.

Her father had had an ancient model train set that he kept hidden in his bedroom--perhaps not exactly hidden, but it had seemed so to Charlotte, since why else would a grown-up keep such a thing to himself? He kept it on his big desk in a corner of the bedroom, covered up by a woven white shawl of his wife's, along with his Science books and periodicals and stacks of "Home Forum" pages from the Monitor. When she was sure she was alone in the house, Charlotte had sometimes stolen into his room to look at the little figures, at the gloomy station house, the corroding tracks and bridges and railroad cars. The little figures that belonged to the set were dark and mysterious and made of a hard rubber material: Among them were a conductor, an engineer, a flagman, a flagman's wife (they had the same startled expression), and a porter, whose red trousers sported a military crease. His face was creamy brown, and on his shoulder was a curious lump of deteriorating rubber with a long cinnamon-colored tail, and in her imagination, Charlotte had construed it to be a sweet little monkey who whispered naughty things.

Standing at the window, feeling the mesmerizing pull of Mrs. Eddy's soothing, familiar words, made softer and sweeter by the velvet cloth beneath the book, Charlotte had been seized by a powerful longing for her mother. Charlotte was ten at the time of her mother's death; protected by her family's belief that disease and death were essentially illusions, and that the inevitable outcome of every sickness was the good health her family members took for granted, she had remained unaware of much of the drama taking place in the house during her mother's illness. Her mother's bewildering behavior toward the end was enveloped in mist. Only certain smells brought her mother back, and the image of her strong, beautiful hands.

Charlotte remembered the peace she'd felt as she sat with her family in the little church they attended on Sundays, the quiet rustling of people's clothes at the Wednesday evening testimonial services, the lilt in her sister Kitty's voice as she read aloud to her family from Mrs. Eddy's works on Sunday evenings.

When Charlotte was twenty and newly married and just barely starting on a life of her own, Kitty was already a licensed Christian Science practitioner. She had completed all of her classes at the Mother Church in Boston at the exceptionally young age of thirty-two and had started a small practice out of her home. Kitty had always had an advanced understanding. Even as a child, she had been a dedicated Scientist, performing healing ceremonies on squashed bugs and droopy baby birds, giving testimonies in church in her reedy little girl's voice, sitting beside their mother's bed in the dark and praying with her whenever she got one of her nervous spells.

The reading room was very clean and nearly deserted. A Mrs. Helen Wade Rounds was on duty that day, wearing an expensive-looking maroon suit with a loose-fitting jacket that was held in place by only one button, as if there were other, more ineffable forces at work to keep it closed. She had looked up, smiling, and handed Charlotte a copy of Mrs. Eddy's book. "Take this," she had said. "This will help."

After reading the first three pages on the living-room couch, Charlotte had fallen fast asleep. Hours later she woke in the darkness to the smell of baking potatoes as Melvin, in the kitchen with the children, prepared their supper. She lay there a long time, enveloped in a delicious drowsiness, and listened to their voices--Baird's high-pitched, childish tones, Mel's low somber ones, Hoskins's erratic infant sounds--and was filled with gratitude for God's power to heal, and for heavenly sleep.

When she went back to the reading room the next day to thank Mrs. Rounds, the white-haired woman behind the desk said she'd never heard of her. After the testimonial service Charlotte attended the following Wednesday, the usher shook his head solemnly. No, he didn't know of her. Charlotte took it as a sign and came to think of it as part of her healing: the visitation of Mrs. Rounds, with her one button, her soft, powdery skin, her utter confidence. In her writings, Mrs. Eddy defined angels as God's representatives, and that seemed like a perfect description of Helen Wade Rounds: She had materialized out of nowhere at just the right time, offering Mrs. Eddy's healing words at the exact moment when Charlotte needed them, and then simply disappeared.
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Reading Group Guide

A luminous, gently funny novel, Learning to Drive is the story of Charlotte McGuffey, her children, her sisters, and her unfolding relationship with Christian Science, the faith in which she was raised.

Just before Christmas one year, Charlotte tells her husband, Mel, she thinks they should separate. The reality of her announcement has barely begun to sink in when Mel is killed on a business trip near his hometown of Beede, Vermont. Her sister Kitty, a Christian Science healer, offers comfort by reminding Charlotte of Science's belief that death is simply a misunderstanding; her other sister, Rosey, has a much more emotional but equally unhelpful response. Hoping for some sort of sign, Charlotte decides to take her young sons to Beede for the summer as usual. There, amid a townful of quirky neighbors and bohemian artists, she begins to find her own way, her own beliefs, and her own life. Dealing with questions of love, healing, community, and acceptance, Learning to Drive is a remarkably accomplished, nuanced debut. This guide is designed to help direct your reading group's discussion of this graceful novel.

1. On page 18, Charlotte tells Mel, "I've made up my mind that we should separate." Do you believe her mind was made up before she said the words aloud? Is it true that her decision is based on feelings rather than principles? Why is that distinction important? What is your impression of Charlotte at this point?

2. A central tenet of Christian Science is that matter does not exist; humans are subject to the laws of matter only if they believe they are real. Clearly Kitty believes this, while Rosey is less certain. What does Charlotte believe? How hasthis helped or harmed her before Mel's death, and how does her thinking change afterward? What is she raising her sons to believe? How does Francis's fascination with deterioration come into play here?

3. Although Charlotte and her sisters were raised in a strictly Christian Science household, both Charlotte and Kitty have married men who aren't Scientists. Why do you think that is? What do you think of Rosey's eventual choice of husband?

4. What is the significance of the Porter? What do you think the quote from J. Smith on the opening page means? How would the novel be different without the Porter passages?

5. Charlotte is one of three sisters, and she herself has two sons. What kind of parallels do you see in the behavior of these single-gender generations? How are their relationships different from Roberta and Norman's? Is Baird more like Kitty or Rosey? Is Hoskins like Charlotte?

6. The idea of perfection comes up again and again: On page 25, "Charlotte had to be constantly on guard against such thoughts, silently refuting suggestions of Hoskins's imperfection with prayers and reasserting his identity as a perfect child of God." On page 217, Francis declares that deterioration–imperfection–is a reason to believe in God. And on page 253, Kitty tells Charlotte she will bring on illness by dwelling on imperfection. Who do you agree with? How do these competing convictions shape what happens?

7. Christian Science is a religion of words. Hoskins has many words, yet throughout the book he refuses to use them. What is the significance of this? The significance of the words he does speak?

8. What is the significance of the title?

9. Both Charlotte and Kitty make momentous decisions at the end of the novel. Whose do you think was easier to reach? Did either of them make the wrong decision?

10. When Charlotte cuts off her hair, there are several references to death: "Braiding her long hair for the last time, Charlotte felt as though she were dressing the dead" (p. 97) "The cut ends . . .swung out grotesquely, like helpless climbers having lost their footing." (p. 97) "She laid the braids out side by side like two corpses." (p. 95) "And here she was, finally putting her hair to rest." (p. 97) And yet, once it's cut off, "She looked about twelve." (p. 95) Nobody recognizes her. Is this rejuvenation/rebirth intentional, or is Charlotte merely acting on impulse? Is Francis's digging up of the lupine field analogous?

11. Christian Science, with its devotion to the written word, is a religion for the educated. Charlotte's father was a professor, Kitty is a teacher, and Charlotte herself is something of a perpetual student. But the residents of Beede, in particular Beatriz, are not of this ilk. As the Porter says to Charlotte on page 162, "These are not your people! They know nothing about discipline, reason, hard work. They're common." If the Porter is a creation of Charlotte's imagination, does this mean these statements are really hers? How do issues of class affect Charlotte's understanding of her faith? Does her time in Beede change her thinking? How does Beatriz's exposure to Christian Science influence her expectations of Ben Hightower?

12. Why do you think this book was set in 1952-53? What does McCarthyism have to do with the central themes of the novel?

13. Distinctions are drawn between the Christian Science belief in the power of thought–A sick body is evolved from sick thoughts (p 64)–and superstitions, like Baird's reliance on a horse chestnut for good luck on page 23 or Rita's many rituals as described on page 213. But towards the end of the novel, on page 264, Charlotte realizes, "If you juggled the facts around enough, you could fool yourself into thinking you could control the whole course of your life–or someone else's." She seems to equate thought and superstition, and finds them equally lacking. Why do you think she has undergone such a radical change in thinking?

14. How much, or how little, did you know of Christian Science before reading this book? Do you intend to learn more? Does it alter your thinking about your own religion in any way?

15. The author, Mary Hays, is 63 and publishing her first novel. Do you think her age and life experiences influenced the type of book she wrote in any way?

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  • Anonymous

    Posted October 11, 2005

    A sumptuous read

    This is the kind of book that makes you slow your pace, curl up and settle into the fascinating world the author lays out for you. By the fourth chapter, you're hoping it never ends. Mary Hays is a soulful writer who reveals the ways of her characters with compassion, humor and a light hand. I look forward to being transported again by her next book.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted February 7, 2004

    A Wonderful Read

    I loved 'Learning to Drive: A Novel'. The characters are people that I would like to know. I heard a strong, appealing and funny voice through out the book. The ending of the novel is very satisfying and thought provoking. I,m looking forward to Mary Hays next novel.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 2, 2003

    Wonderful book!

    I can't wait to read May Hays' next book! I couldn't put Learning to Drive down. The title interconnects several characters, very well used. Heartwarming, insightful and surprising;I learned a lot from this book and continue to think of the characters. I think I would compare Ms. Hays style of writing with that of Jan Karon...style....not content :-)

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