My Name Means Fire: A Memoir
“I was riveted by this searing ode to the resiliency of the human psyche, rich in beauty and devastation.”-Melissa Febos, author of Girlhood

An unflinching and stunning debut memoir of an Iranian girl's coming-of-age experiencing abuse, war, and superstition-and her survival through dissociative identity disorder, which offered her an inner world into which she could escape


When she was a child, Atash Yaghmaian's home life was unpredictable: a confusing mix of love and terror. Outside of her home, Iran was also on fire. Her reality of abuse, war, gender oppression, and religious superstition left her feeling unsafe everywhere. So, she left reality and disassociated into a place she called the House of Stone: a building in a magical forest full of peaceful creatures, kind talking trees, and volcanoes. Inhabiting this world are 9 beings, each different parts of Atash, who would be her salvation from the external horrors of her outer world.

Set against the backdrop of the Iranian Revolution, Ayatollah Khomeini's regime, and the 8-year Iran-Iraq War, My Name Means Fire is Atash's story of survival as she experiences tragic events including sexual abuse, a mother who subjected her to superstitious rituals, and the horrors of war. In chapters alternating with what's happening in her outside world, her other parts-each named after a color-tell the story of her inner world, giving readers an understanding of what it's like to be inside the consciousness of someone who is multiple.

Honest, powerful, and moving, My Name Means Fire is a bold narrative that challenges the stigma and misinformation around dissociative identity disorder (DID) and ultimately reckons with what it takes to survive.
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My Name Means Fire: A Memoir
“I was riveted by this searing ode to the resiliency of the human psyche, rich in beauty and devastation.”-Melissa Febos, author of Girlhood

An unflinching and stunning debut memoir of an Iranian girl's coming-of-age experiencing abuse, war, and superstition-and her survival through dissociative identity disorder, which offered her an inner world into which she could escape


When she was a child, Atash Yaghmaian's home life was unpredictable: a confusing mix of love and terror. Outside of her home, Iran was also on fire. Her reality of abuse, war, gender oppression, and religious superstition left her feeling unsafe everywhere. So, she left reality and disassociated into a place she called the House of Stone: a building in a magical forest full of peaceful creatures, kind talking trees, and volcanoes. Inhabiting this world are 9 beings, each different parts of Atash, who would be her salvation from the external horrors of her outer world.

Set against the backdrop of the Iranian Revolution, Ayatollah Khomeini's regime, and the 8-year Iran-Iraq War, My Name Means Fire is Atash's story of survival as she experiences tragic events including sexual abuse, a mother who subjected her to superstitious rituals, and the horrors of war. In chapters alternating with what's happening in her outside world, her other parts-each named after a color-tell the story of her inner world, giving readers an understanding of what it's like to be inside the consciousness of someone who is multiple.

Honest, powerful, and moving, My Name Means Fire is a bold narrative that challenges the stigma and misinformation around dissociative identity disorder (DID) and ultimately reckons with what it takes to survive.
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My Name Means Fire: A Memoir

My Name Means Fire: A Memoir

by Atash Yaghmaian

Narrated by Samara Naeymi

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My Name Means Fire: A Memoir

My Name Means Fire: A Memoir

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Overview

“I was riveted by this searing ode to the resiliency of the human psyche, rich in beauty and devastation.”-Melissa Febos, author of Girlhood

An unflinching and stunning debut memoir of an Iranian girl's coming-of-age experiencing abuse, war, and superstition-and her survival through dissociative identity disorder, which offered her an inner world into which she could escape


When she was a child, Atash Yaghmaian's home life was unpredictable: a confusing mix of love and terror. Outside of her home, Iran was also on fire. Her reality of abuse, war, gender oppression, and religious superstition left her feeling unsafe everywhere. So, she left reality and disassociated into a place she called the House of Stone: a building in a magical forest full of peaceful creatures, kind talking trees, and volcanoes. Inhabiting this world are 9 beings, each different parts of Atash, who would be her salvation from the external horrors of her outer world.

Set against the backdrop of the Iranian Revolution, Ayatollah Khomeini's regime, and the 8-year Iran-Iraq War, My Name Means Fire is Atash's story of survival as she experiences tragic events including sexual abuse, a mother who subjected her to superstitious rituals, and the horrors of war. In chapters alternating with what's happening in her outside world, her other parts-each named after a color-tell the story of her inner world, giving readers an understanding of what it's like to be inside the consciousness of someone who is multiple.

Honest, powerful, and moving, My Name Means Fire is a bold narrative that challenges the stigma and misinformation around dissociative identity disorder (DID) and ultimately reckons with what it takes to survive.

Editorial Reviews

From the Publisher

[A] searing debut memoir shares what it was like to grow up with dissociative identity disorder in Iran during the revolution.”
Library Journal, Starred Review

“A haunting memoir that excavates the weight of names, family mythology, and inherited trauma.”
Kirkus Reviews

“A revelatory look inside a unique mind.”
Publishers Weekly

“Transformative . . . Atash Yaghmaian channels the power of her fiery name to illuminate a path toward hope and healing.”
Shelf Awareness

“I was riveted by this searing ode to the resiliency of the human psyche, rich in beauty and devastation.”
—Melissa Febos, National Book Critics Circle Award winner and author of Girlhood

“Atash’s writing lives in the strongest softness. Every page was a sensory experience—I could hear, see, and feel every scene . . . This is a beautiful book.”
—Bassey Ikpi, New York Times best-selling author of I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying

“With an artistry steeped in truth and tenderness, Atash Yaghmaian braids a story of horrors and hope, of ferocious courage and incredible love for her many parts. A triumph.”
—Molly Winter, New York Times best-selling author of More: A Memoir of Open Marriage

“As someone living with DID, I deeply appreciate the courage and vulnerability it takes to share your experience. Atash’s story in My Name Means Fire is raw, brave, and profoundly validating . . . a compassionate and insightful glimpse into dissociation.”
—Olga Trujillo, author of The Sum of My Parts

“Overflowing with emotional honesty and grace about a condition that’s so misunderstood. . . . This memoir is full of hope. It’s also an open-hearted invitation to readers: to be kinder to themselves, the way Atash had to learn—through struggle, strength, and deep self-compassion.”
—Christie Tate, New York Times best-selling author of Group: How One Therapist and a Circle of Strangers Saved My Life

“Yaghmaian’s dissociative world reads like magical realism. Fascinating, provocative, and deeply personal, My Name Means Fire offers an unconventional perspective that will challenge your thinking on trauma and survival.”
—Nina Darnton, author of A Perfect Mother

Kirkus Reviews

2025-08-02
A haunting memoir that excavates the weight of names, family mythology, and inherited trauma.

In this deeply personal narrative, Yaghmaian, writer and psychotherapist, chronicles how a single word—Atash, meaning “fire” in Persian—became both identity and burden from birth. Born during a period when her pregnant mother felt compelled to dance nightly, she inherits not just a name but a family curse that her mother believed destroyed her marriage. The memoir traces the author’s childhood in pre-revolutionary Tehran, living with her grandmother, Maman Bozorg, after her parents’ divorce, bound literally to bedposts for safety and figuratively to stories that shaped her understanding of self. Yaghmaian, who migrated to the United States at the age of 19, skillfully weaves together scenes of family dysfunction—her mother’s legendary beauty and consuming jealousy, her father’s dramatic suicide attempt that won her hand—with broader themes of cultural displacement and the psychology of blame. The prose moves between tender childhood observation and mature reflection, examining how family mythologies can define and confine identity across generations. Her exploration of superstition, particularly her mother’s belief that naming her “fire” invited destructive spirits into their lives, offers insight into how immigrant families process trauma through cultural frameworks. The narrative’s strength lies in its unflinching examination of how children internalize adult conflicts, carrying guilt for circumstances beyond their control. Yaghmaian writes, “For many years, I felt like a freak, but through the many trauma survivors I’ve worked with, I’ve come to see the blessing in dissociation and am determined to tell my story now in order to give hope to others.”

A powerful exploration of how family stories and cultural identity forge—and sometimes fracture—the self.

Product Details

BN ID: 2940194780464
Publisher: Penguin Random House
Publication date: 10/14/2025
Edition description: Unabridged
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