Never Say I Can't (C.V.A. A hard way back) [NOOK Book]


IThis book was originally published under the title "C.V.A. A hard way back."

I don't know what the ambulance man did with my bucket. Where did the medical staff put their faces? Mine was in the bucket.
It made sense to me.
The doctors called it CVA. A few called it a stroke.
I laughed. It was a joke!


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IThis book was originally published under the title "C.V.A. A hard way back."

I don't know what the ambulance man did with my bucket. Where did the medical staff put their faces? Mine was in the bucket.
It made sense to me.
The doctors called it CVA. A few called it a stroke.
I laughed. It was a joke!

Additional material for this edition - Poems including "Just a Joke"

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Product Details

  • BN ID: 2940032906377
  • Publisher: Philip Catshill
  • Publication date: 12/3/2011
  • Sold by: Smashwords
  • Format: eBook
  • File size: 302 KB

Meet the Author

Philip Catshill is a former British police officer and lives in England. He has had several unique life experiences, near death encounters, physical disabilities and emotional incidents that have combined to provide a firm foundation for his excellent stories. At the age of 30, after combining an accidental blow to his head with a late night party, he survived a massive stroke. To return to the job he loved proved to be a sometimes amusing, sometimes daunting struggle that took 18 months. With great pride in this achievement, he survived another 11 years as a fully operational, uniformed police sergeant. During this time, he stretched his mind to the limit by studying for a degree. Nine years after that first stroke, everything was put on hold when a younger man took interest in his family, his home but mostly, his wife. Within weeks, his 19 year marriage was at an end, his mind and life collapsed. His inability to cope with the changes left him homeless and estranged from all that he had loved and the daughters he cherished for 18 and 15 years respectively. Despite having no faith, he was encouraged to pray. Amazingly, he discovered that prayer works! Throughout the loneliness and despair of being homeless, prayer sustained him and brought him to a new life, new love, but most of all, a loving and welcoming family that was happy to love him as their own. It was meant to be a happy ever after ending to the tragedies, but just four weeks after his last exam to give him his degree, and 16 days after his second marriage, a road accident caused a second major stroke, bringing his working life to an abrupt end. Undaunted and determined to defy the paralysis, he took up music and art, achieving piano grade 3 and paintings that are quite simply breath-taking. ( As he approached his 60th birthday, Philip, who is still severely disabled, decided to write about that stroke from 30 years before. From that experience, there emerged the fictional character of Mike Newman. Like this fictional hero, Philip Catshill is the type of guy who never says, "I can't" Philip adds: "I'm glad I don't harbour any ill feelings because I think hatred consumes you quicker and more effectively than cancer. Life is for loving. We only have one crack at it and I am determined to enjoy every single minute of all that remains, and I can do that because when I was at my lowest and called out to God in despair, he was there! Prayer works, prayer heals, try it, and persevere with it. Life is wonderful. Live it. Enjoy it."

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  • Posted January 11, 2012

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    Disturbing - but wonderfully written!

    At the age of 30, Philip woke to find himself on the floor after just having survived a stroke. This is where the story begins. It’s a fascinating tale of the trials and tribulations that a stroke victim suffers as he fights his way back to some form of normality.

    His emotions in tangled, he tries to understand why no-one can grasp his new language. Unable to explain his fears and the pain he suffers, he’s locked inside - alone and scared. Because his right side was paralyzed, from his face to his leg, any normal movement at the beginning was impossible.

    But this man slowly applies himself to recovering his life. Step by step, he explains how he manages and what is happening to him during these days. We leave the hospital with him and move back his home where life as he knew it is now completely different. It’s a window into a nightmare none of us can visualize, but he writes it so well, we can almost imagine.

    Determined to return to his job as a policeman, his pressing desire outweighs even his periodic wish to just give up and admit he can’t.

    I strongly recommend this book to anyone who has either suffered a stroke, or knows or lives with someone who has experienced the horror of this ailment. It’s a personal triumph full of grit and determination - a must read!

    BTW - Teasing the reader with the dream sequence was just plain naughty!!

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