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ON THE RAILSA Novel
By John Owens
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Chapter OneGeorge Shymchuk's axes were always sharp.
Michael was fascinated by his father's honing ritual. The curiously smooth grindstone, pierced in the center by a heavily greased axle, hung suspended on a frame, connected by gears and a rubber belt to a foot treadle. Sitting, Michael's father would step up and down on the treadle, slowly at first as the stone wheel began turning, barely moving, rumbling to overcome its inertia. Then his foot pumping would become faster and faster until the wheel sped up, revolving easily, whirring now, its speckled surface blurred to a hazy gray.
Content with the speed, George would tilt the axe blade to a practiced angle and ease it against the spinning wheel. Michael would wait with anticipation for the groan of friction that brought a shower of yellow white sparks, streaks of straight light spraying his father's pant leg, never burning, harmlessly extinguished in the air and against rough denim. And his foot pumped and pumped until his father was pleased with the sharp, silver edge he had made.
* * *
To Michael, it seemed always so that his brother was stronger than him. A year and a half younger, always shorter, Peter was powerful and moved easily into the chores at the farm where Michael felt awkward, uninvolved.
In winter, they took turns using the axe to split the wood brought in by sleigh from the stand of trees near the back boundary of the farm. Their father would spend the day on the crosscut saw cutting up the trees he had felled the year before, sawing them into two-foot lengths which his boys would wrestle into stacks on the sleigh.
"Neat. Make the piles neat!" their father admonished them in Ukrainian.
"Why?" Michael asked, knowing that his question would bring exasperation, asking it not to learn but because he couldn't see a reason for it.
"More wood, fewer trips back and forth, that's why," answered his father, obviously irritated that his flow, his rhythm on the saw, had been interrupted.
The huge Percherons had no difficulty pulling the sleigh through the packed snow. Peter drove the team. Michael sat on the wood, staring back at the ruts which the runners had created, watching his father disappear into the distance.
Although barehanded, the boys looked forward to the messy unloading as they pitched log after log near the wood shed while the workhorses stamped their huge hooves and snorted, puffs of warm breath made visible in the cold, and the logs clacked crisply off each other.
After two trips, Michael was reluctant to return to the woodlot. The house, the warm house, was so close. He was petulant as the light-blue sky darkened into the rapid winter dusk.
"Why do we have to do this in the cold, papa?"
"It's a better time."
His father, steam rising off his reddened face and head, stopped the smooth rasping of the saw. He looked at Michael with genuine anger.
"Because the wood has dried since the summer so it weighs less and is easier to cut! That's why! Now be quiet and work!"
So Michael became silent and remained silent on the last ride back to the house. Even at that age, Michael saw that Peter could feel the cold, invisible wall between his brother and his father, tried to chip at that wall with a torrent of conversation-about the weather, about the amount of wood, about the horses. And even at that time, Michael understood and his father seemed to understand what Peter was doing, knew that it only served to mark out so clearly the division between them.
The next morning was, again, clear. And Michael could not wait to be outside with the axe, splitting the wood.
He carefully set up each round log on a flat board, turning it so the faint splits of dryness pointing into the center were directly in front of him. Hoisting the axe, Michael felt at his fullness when he reached back and brought down the axe, in a split second sensed the initial resistance then the blade drove the pieces apart, sent them spinning into the snow.
* * *
From his youngest days to his last days, the smell of baking bread made Michael smile. The aroma, heavy, fresh, intrusive, was the aroma of the farmhouse kitchen every day. It was the scent of his mother who seemed so happy to have him by her side as she rolled and pinched and kneaded the dough on the countertop sprinkled with flour. The fine white dust covered the backs of her hands, lay on and pronounced the light hair of her slender arms, sometimes blotched her face when she dabbed sweat that came from the job and from the huge wood stove Michael had stoked and kept fired up.
The mother and child would speak little, and Michael liked that. He could watch her then, study her intentness, her precision and care, her dark, warm eyes measuring, guiding her sure and quick hands. And she was aware of his gaze and connected to him because, from time to time, without breaking her rhythm, she would scrape and ball up a bit of soft dough, slide it to him, and smile as he popped it into his mouth.
* * *
The boys had been sent out to kill gophers and they worked well together. Peter would make the trips from the slough to the holes they had found, water sloshing in the tin pail that bumped heavily off his hip. He would pour bucket after bucket into the burrow and Michael would wait with a length of two-by-four for the animal's wet, furry head to pop up. Usually one swing was all he needed to kill. Michael would never confess to the pang of sadness and regret he would feel as he pulled the dead gopher from his hole, cut the animal's tail off for the two-cent bounty the government would pay.
Peter could not watch the blow, never asked to swing the club and Michael wondered if that made him the better or the worse for it.
* * *
Michael did not question but always envied his father's absence from Sunday Mass. By buckboard in summer, cutter in winter, he would drive his family to the simple white church, deposit them at the lane's entrance, turn the workhorses around, and retreat into the distance, away from St. John the Baptist.
Michael would watch him disappear, always aware of the stares of parishioners. The boy knew they were thinking something unkind, something critical as they filed into the church to be blessed. He sometimes cringed at the silent disapproval, and sometimes was proud of his father who, for his own reasons, did as he pleased on Sundays when the bell of the steeple would ring and be heard for miles.
Anne was the director of her younger brothers' behavior. It was her job to stand, sit and kneel between them, warding off their pokes at each other, calming their fidgets with silent pinches painfully applied just so to their thighs or their arms, all without taking her eyes off the front.
Father Kashimsky was striking in a gold, heavily embroidered robe, white lace alb underneath, lightly brushing the tops of his old, heavy boots. He stood out from the church with its whitewashed walls, dirt floor, and crude altar. And he stood out from the people who, though dressed in their finest, remained so plainly farmers and farmers' wives. Michael and everyone else had trouble associating this solemn, graceful figure with the shy and clumsy man, stocky and unimposing in the schoolyard, at Smygawaty's store.
On Sunday, with his hands scrubbed pink, the priest tended to the ministrations, mixing unseen ingredients in the gold chalice, falling to a knee, crossing himself, with a practiced seriousness and calm.
And then the priest would open his mouth to sing the Mass and the hair on Michael's neck would stand up. Deep, strong and clear, he'd chant, one man opening his arms and spreading his gold cloak as if he were winged.
Michael would brace for the sung response from the congregation. He would glance around the people and never fail to be astonished by them, by the ordinary people, the adults and children he knew who, on that day, on every seventh day, could together make that loud, ringing chorus, mournful or joyous.
And he would stare at his mother in profile, her long, slender neck, her chin and at her red lips, so fearlessly casting her song.
Then the silence when the bell was wrung three times and the smell of the incense, shaken rhythmically from a silver container swung from a chain, rolled invisibly through the church, reaching every corner with its pungency and strangeness.
Michael had been taught confession and penance but it was never a clean, natural thing for him and did not bring peace or relief because, every time, he would lie about the frequency and nature of his sins, and then never confess the lie.
He always felt awkward at communion, knowing his mouth was open too wide or too early to receive the body and blood. But there was a moment, as he walked back to his seat, hands folded in front of him, when the wine-soaked cube of bread began to melt in his mouth that he sometimes was bathed in comfort.
When Mass was over and the parishioners filed out into daylight, Michael saw a change back to the ordinary, as the men smoked, the children ran as they did in the school yard and the women talked quietly in groups. Whatever had just occurred in that building seemed to stay trapped in that building.
And his father was always there, expressionless, waiting to take the family home.
* * *
The coop was dark and full of the stinging smell of chicken shit. The jerking lantern that Michael held created bouncing shadows on the whitewashed walls and the thin, tiered logs where the hens slept. The birds clucked nervously, ruffling their feathers, shifting from one claw to the other, their heads twitching under the lamplight.
Michael's father reached out and grabbed a large, old hen, pinned her wings to her sides. The squawking grew louder.
"And that one," said George Shymchuk, pointing with the chicken in his hands at another one on a beam. Michael set the lantern down and slowly approached it.
Michael grasped at it but it wriggled free, its powerful wings beating furiously, the bird now screaming in fear, small white feathers shook from her body, floated lazily in the acrid air.
"Oy yoy, oy yoy," Michael's father clucked in disapproval, as Michael scurried around after the chicken scurrying around.
Michael cornered it and reached out, but the hen flapped up the wall, almost cleared his shoulder. The boy grasped at the bird, caught a leg and held it tight, finally able to still the beating wings. With one hand pressing the chicken against his chest, Michael's father retrieved the lantern and backed out of the coop.
In the barn, George Shymchuk hung the light on a peg and rested the chicken's head on a log block. The face of the block was scarred with axe marks and stained dark brown.
"Do I have to, dad?" Michael heard himself protest.
"Yes. It is your time. Now watch." And his father picked up a small axe. "First, you wait while the chicken becomes quiet."
The bird, indeed, became calm.
"And then once. Very hard."
The axe came down quickly passing through bone and ending with a 'thock' in the wood. The chicken convulsed one or two times as Michael's father held it upside down. Blood flowed then dripped, a deep red in the lantern light.
But Michael's small hand could not pinion both wings. One wing beat against the side of the log. His father had to kneel down, clutching the chicken, its neck resting on the block.
After a few moments, the bird was still and soundless.
"Now," hissed George Shymchuk.
With the axe poised, Michael hesitated.
"Now!" said his father, loudly and impatiently.
But the chicken was wriggling again and Michael, fearful of cutting into his father's hand so close to the block, faded away with his swing. The axe descended and cut into the chicken's head just behind the beak, Michael feeling the skull's resistance to his half-hearted stroke. The bird was alive and thrashing.
George grabbed the axe Michael had let fall and swung forcefully and the bird was dead.
Michael wanted to cry and would not, knowing his father would be maddened further.
He was shaking as father and son walked back to the house and the summer kitchen where his mother had a large pot of boiling water waiting for the birds and the stink of their feathers and scalded, stubbled skin soon filled the house.
* * *
Michael accompanied his father to Gimli on the shore of Lake Winnipeg to buy a thresher that, his father heard, could be had for a good price from the Swede who owned it. The trip in George Shymchuk's Model T truck had taken most of the day as they became lost several times.
Finally on the only road to Gimli, his father seemed to relax, his grip on the steering wheel loosened and he would look from side to side and even at Michael from time to time.
Michael kept his nose against the window staring at the countryside as it became more uneven, more treed. In the distance, he saw an imposing structure, a huge skeleton of girders and beams supporting an undulating roof.
"What's that?" he asked.
"It's to amuse the lazy, rich people," answered his father while Michael craned his neck at the roller coaster disappearing behind them.
At last, they found the man's home on a small hill overlooking a huge expanse of blue. Nine-year old Michael was enchanted with the sight of such an unlimited volume of water. His father, not wanting the boy, never wanting the boy, to be near any discussions of money, sent Michael to the lake.
The Swede with keen blue eyes had been watching.
"Go ahead, boy. Go to the water. It won't bite," he said in singsong English, that day the language of business. Then to his father: "You bohunks must have wheat fields. I must have water, big water. It is the way it has always been, no?"
Happy to escape the bargaining of men, Michael walked then ran to the water's edge.
By the sun, Michael knew he was staring north at this blue swath that had no end until it met the sky which, in that light, seemed farther away, the edge of a great dome.
He rolled up his pant legs and removed his boots and rough socks and timidly stepped onto a rock barely submerged in the water. The cold was like the cold of Cooper's Creek in the spring when the ice had gone. Startled at the frigid sharpness, Michael lost his balance, and rather than fall among the rocks in the shallow water, he pitched himself forward, naturally lunging into deeper water.
Under it now, the water was no longer blue, but transparent with a brown depth. He opened his eyes, saw the white bubbles and his still whiter hands before him. The cold seemed colder than anything Michael had felt during the Prairie winter. On frozen, wind-whipped land, only his face or hands or feet would be cold but in this water that seeped through clothing he was instantly and completely cold.
He broke the surface, gasping and thrashing, his thick clothes now heavier. Extending his feet, he could not feel the lake bottom and panicked but did not cry out as the cold water flowed into his mouth.
Wrenching himself and pulling at the water, Michael was able to feel a rock. His hand slipped off it and slipped again, his lungs burned and he kicked and finally could lift himself out. Panting and heaving on the rocks, his first thought was of his father.
Had he been watching?
The boy could not put his socks and shoes on, walked barefoot over the new, soft shoots of grass and flowers. His clothes felt like heavy sacks of grain, his trousers soon chafing between his legs, as he trudged up the hill to the Swede's house, the anger at himself slowly dissipating with the warmth of the early May sun.
The men were shaking hands and laughing. At him? Michael did not often hear his father laugh and knew this to be a surface laugh, one he manufactured in his throat when others around him were feeling something deep within themselves while he seemed to feel only bemusement or boredom or polite contempt.
The laughing stopped when Michael drew up to them and then the Swede began laughing again.
"Maybe the water, it bite after all!"
Head hung in embarrassment, Michael fought off shame and shyly smiled at the easy, loud way the Swede had, at the joke that meant no harm. His father reddened and stared at Michael with something almost like hate in his liquid blue eyes. He slapped Michael hard behind his head.
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