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1. Ian Curtis is resurrected.

2. The Smiths reunite for a private party at my favorite bar.

3. There is a new My Bloody Valentine album.

4. A new Nirvana comes along to blow away all of those fey Duran Duran emulators.

5. Radiohead stops listening to Pink Floyd and starts listening to Black Sabbath.

If you've ever made, or conceived of, a list like this, then look no further for your next book purchase. You have it. In your hands. Please consider it as your next book purchase.

In Perfect From Now On, John Sellers has written a fan's memoir overflowing with humor, self-deprecation, encyclopedic knowledge of musical minutiae, and "you should have been there" personal anecdotes. Despite vowing never to get caught up in music due to the nuttiness of a Dylan-obsessed father and playground taunts about his preference for Top 40 trash, he found himself powerless to resist the allure of indie rock, the genre that begat the likes of Sonic Youth, Pavement, Built to Spill, and Modest Mouse. When his favorite band, Guided By Voices, called it quits in 2004, Sellers examined his own listening habits, caught a few mind-blowing shows, got drunk with his heroes, and wrote this book -- one that is sure to resonate with anybody who has ever obsessed over good music.
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Editorial Reviews

Mick Sussman
Sellers works in the approved style of post-gonzo rock journalism, with an arch, self-deprecating, emphatic tone, digressive footnotes and "10 best" lists. His clowning about cheesy 1980s culture is only intermittently amusing, but whenever he immerses himself in the esoterica of alternative music the book improves. His knowledge of the subject is impressively obsessive.
—The New York Times
Publishers Weekly

Sellers, who has written for GQand the Atlantic, was born in 1970, so his radio was ready when the "indie rock" scene took off in the '80s. Even as a youngster, he had rejected his dad's favorite—Bob Dylan—in favor of pop music. Before long, he was trying to one-up his schoolmates by listening to only the very coolest bands. As he got older, he drank a lot of beer, went to clubs and even bluffed his way into frat parties, where he discovered that "dancing is a nice prelude to nonconsensual sex." Ultimately, he came to understand his own musical taste: "I required complex, pretty, inscrutable songs turned up very loud to help me avoid thinking that I didn't like myself very much." He idolized many groups, including Joy Division, Sonic Youth, Pavement and Guided by Voices. He collected their music, went to their gigs and even drank beer with Guided by Voices' Robert Pollard. Pollard "drinks capably," Sellers confides, although when he doesn't, that's also "[a]wesome." Sellers carries on debates with himself in footnotes, which can go on for pages (yielding howlers like "Ian Curtis... who hung himself on his coatrack"). More a blog (his blog name is Angry John Sellers) than a book, there's little of lasting substance here. (Mar.)

Correction:The title of George Konrad's memoir (Reviews, Jan. 22) is In My Own Country: A Hungarian Life.

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Kirkus Reviews
A play-by-play history of how journalist and blogger Sellers developed his taste in music. From his father's Bob Dylan obsession, which drove him to despise the artist, to his own preoccupation with now-defunct indie group Guided By Voices (GBV), Sellers dispenses rock anecdotes with a light touch. The Michigan-born author, who started out listening to Journey, chronicles his musical milestones: first album bought, first concert attended, first rock pilgrimage. High-school days favoring U2 and New Order gave way to the collegiate discovery of Joy Division and the Smiths, and then it was on to Pavement and his New York writing life. It all led to Sellers's interest in GBV and the band's astoundingly prolific songwriter and frontman, Robert Pollard. After consuming every GBV song he could get his hands on, Sellers and a buddy got a chance to live out their rock-fan fantasy of hanging out, drinking heavily and even singing onstage with GBV. Just when the author thought he'd made a decent impression on Pollard, a misunderstanding threatened their tenuous connection and chucked his rock dream into the gutter. Sellers's self-deprecating, music-obsessed memoir echoes the style of Nick Hornby's High Fidelity, but he manages to maintain a distinctive voice: likable, smart and steeped in music trivia, without being condescending. A fun read for indie-rock fans.
From the Publisher
"I will always know John Sellers as the Donkey Kong champion of the U.S., circa 1982. Why this is not appended to his name every time it is printed is unknown to me. But reading this brilliant, hilarious recalling of how indie music hijacked his life, I realized that Sellers was doing more than playing the game. Even back then, as he navigated Mario up the impossible structure of his yearning, leaping barrel after barrel thrown to him by monstrous fate, Sellers surely was not just showing off. I suspect he was already appreciating how pop culture shapes and soundtracks not only our adolescent passions, but our grown-up lives as well. Shakespeare may have taught us how to be human, but pop culture taught Sellers how to smash every barrel and move on to the next level."

— John Hodgman, author of The Areas of My Expertise

"Perfect From Now On is clever and interesting and sincere, and I completely disagree with everything the author says."

— Chuck Klosterman, author of Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs

"Writing in a style that fuses the parenthetical asides of Nicholson Baker (exemplified by 179 'footnotes') with pop culture and musical insights à la Nick Hornby, [John Sellers] chronicles [his] musical 'origin story'Š [Perfect From Now On] will provoke conversation, debate, and smiles among all who love music and pop culture of the past 25 years. Recommended."
Library Journal

"Sellers bares his soul from the start — the refreshing opening broadside is titled "I Hate Bob Dylan" — and thoroughly explores what he finds valuable in indie rock and, for that matter, much of life. An accomplished slinger of invective, he provides a rousing evaluation of a phenomenon as ill-defined as its predecessor, alternative rock....Spot-on observations and a willingness to name names and ascribe blame as well as credit make this one of the best resources to date on indie rock, whatever it is.... Deliciously cynical."
— Mike Tribby, Booklist

"Seller's self-dreprecating, music-obsessed memoir echoes the style of Nick Hornby's High Fidelity, but he manages to maintain a distinctive voice: likable, smart and steeped in music trivia, without being condescending."
Kirkus Reviews

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781416539124
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster
  • Publication date: 3/6/2007
  • Sold by: SIMON & SCHUSTER
  • Format: eBook
  • Pages: 224
  • File size: 832 KB

Meet the Author

John Sellers is the author of Perfect From Now On: How Indie Rock Saved My Life and has written for GQ, The Believer, The Atlantic, and The New York Times, among many other publications. Originally from Grand Rapids, Michigan, he currently lives in Brooklyn, New York. For more information, visit
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Perfect from Now On

How Indie Rock Saved My Life
By John Sellers

Simon & Schuster

Copyright © 2007 John Sellers
All right reserved.

ISBN: 9780743277082



"You're finding out that it's way too late to be happy around your friends."

I hate Bob Dylan. Not with the kind of white-hot anger reserved for the asinine personalities of American Idol or the talk-to-the-hand disdain whipped out for the guy who replaced Michael Hutchence in INXS. This is no ordinary hate. It's primal. It's absurd. It makes me look bad. I mean, who doesn't like Bob Dylan?

Only a fool would resist the notion that Dylan might be a genius, would be reluctant to praise any of the 450-plus songs he's written, would fail to recognize that taking potshots at someone almost universally regarded as a living legend is a waste of energy. But until very recently, all of those fools were me. Every so often now, I find myself regretting my intense negative feelings toward him. There are times when I see images of him, especially as a young man, with his rat's nest hairdo and fluttering eyelids, and I feel bad not to be part of the club, many millions strong, that considers him a Martin-strumming Mozart. And then I imagine shaving off his hair and gluing his eyelids shut.

This is terrible, of course. But I've been moaning about Dylan almost since birth. Infrequently discussed, however, is the why. Why do I despise Dylan? Why do I want topress mute whenever I hear his incoherent bleating? Why am I tempted to seek out and club defenseless old ladies whenever someone plays that song about shit blowin' in the wind? The reason: I was abused as a child. Not in a way that will make this book a bestseller. There are no touchy-feely priests here, no overfriendly clowns, no despotic transgendered soccer moms. What I can offer you is a dad who took whacks at me every single day for nearly two decades. Only his weapon of choice was Bob Dylan.

The next time you hear "Like a Rolling Stone," try to picture a man in his early forties with a Tom Selleck mustache, clunky metal-frame glasses, and tufts of curly brown hair sitting shirtless in a cigarette-tortured, baby-shit-colored rocking chair. He's perched Indian style, a position that strains his threadbare denim cutoffs beyond their limit, revealing areas of skin that no kid should be made to witness. Now crank up the volume: In a deeper voice and with far better enunciation than Dylan's, he's singing emphatically along, occasionally puffing on a Carlton 100 or suckling at the Jar of Death, which contains a lukewarm admixture of Sanka, curdled milk, diet cola, and Carlo Rossi Chablis.

This is my dad. Or at least the version of my dad that slaps me when Dylan comes to mind. The image is seared into my brain: I saw him in this guise, or variations of it, nearly every night during my childhood. What I didn't realize then was that he was obsessed with Dylan. Totally. Actually, total obsession doesn't quite sell it. My dad was Bob Dylan's willing thrall. If Dylan had ever put a backwards message on one of his records urging people to take off their clothes, don their best blue bonnets, and skip like nancys across the Mackinac Bridge, my dad would have been the first to be arrested.

Sure, he listened to music by other artists -- John Denver, Jim Croce, the Moody Blues -- but specific examples stick out only because of their rarity. We were force-fed Dylan at breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and when my dad really got going, there were Dylan aperitifs. My mom, a high school English teacher with a preference for Chopin, the Carpenters, and nonconfrontation, had long stopped protesting by the time my memories kick in; she retreated to safe zones out of earshot of the living room record player, the epicenter of the problem. She knew what my two brothers and I eventually learned: No matter how many times you ask for air-traffic-controller earmuffs, you aren't going to get them. Better just to run.

There was a time when my dad viewed us kids as potential converts, blank slates upon which to etch the scripture of Dylan. Starting first with my older brother, Mark, then with me, then with Matt, he'd tell us, usually over marathon sessions of canasta or Yahtzee, about living in New York City in the mid1960s and sitting in cafés where Dylan once performed. The lyrics of "Maggie's Farm" were explained. (Sticking it to the man, essentially.) There was a lot of "Listen to this next song -- I think you'll like it." We never did. After a while, when the blank slates proved to be far more interested in Top 40 music, he just played the records as we rolled dice or bitched about magpies, and we limited the conversation to mutual interests like baseball and chili. He might have been more successful if he'd pretended to be really into James Taylor or something. I mean, next to the unparalleled earnestness of "You've Got a Friend," anything by Dylan would have compared favorably. After slapping us around for years with Taylor, he could have pulled out The Freewheelin' Bob Dylan and it would have sounded as enchanting as the coos of baby Jesus. But my dad is incapable of insincerity where Dylan is concerned. He is a true believer.

Now, I don't hate Dylan because I have anything against my dad -- well, aside from being denied a childhood of telescopes and Lamborghinis, a financial impossibility due to the extreme lack of demand for unambitious freelance herpetologists in west Michigan during the late 1970s and early '80s. We still get along very well. No, I hate Dylan because the music was crammed down my throat. It's like a guy getting plucked off a desert island after twelve years of eating mostly coconut. There's no way he's eating that crap again. Instantly after my mom, in 1983, finally pulled the plug on the marriage -- not even Stephen Hawking could have theorized a more unsuitable match -- the absence of Dylan in our lives was gleefully apparent: We were four shipwreck survivors gorging at a Chi-Chi's. Gorging, salsa-faced and happy -- that is, until an unfortunate incident a few days after we moved out. The four of us had driven back to the old house to pick up a television set, the last of my mom's remaining junk. The return trip was profoundly, disturbingly silent, apart from the sounds coming from the radio, which was set to a station that played a lot of Billy Squier and Styx. As if the deejay had conspired with my dad on a parting shot, the car suddenly filled with the opening electric chords of "Like a Rolling Stone," and we all -- even Matt, age six -- lunged for the dial before that voice could kick in. Minutes later, just after we stopped laughing, my mom barreled into a drunk jaywalker, causing ridiculous amounts of mayhem. (No one died, thankfully.) Although we didn't say as much to the policemen who arrived on the scene, it was the curse of Dylan.

Viewed from the minimum safe distance -- five miles then, seven hundred now -- my dad's obsession shifted from being weird and oppressive to being weird and mildly endearing. At age sixty-six, for example, he stays in touch primarily via e-mailed exclamations and forwards: "Dylan gets his own radio show!"; "Dylan documentary on PBS!"; "Conor Oberst: The New Dylan?" Not that anything has changed: Dylan is his and he is Dylan's. Which is why, even as my stance toward Dylan and his music slackens, there is little point in giving in entirely: Since I can never hope to enjoy Dylan as fully as my dad does, why bother to get involved? Any effort to do so would feel as false as a former Lutheran minister listening to Black Sabbath simply because his middle child does. Of course, this stubbornness to embrace Dylan has perplexed dozens of total strangers and good friends; it has also prevented a closer relationship with my dad. It's impossible for us to talk about his one true passion in a way that isn't lopsided. Attending a Dylan concert with him is out of the question. As unfortunate as these things are, I decided long ago not to surrender completely. To do so would be an endorsement of my dad's puzzling behavior when I was younger. It would make three decades of Dylan-hate absolutely meaningless. Most of all, though, if I immersed myself in Dylan, it would suggest that I was okay with turning into someone like my dad.

And then two years ago I realized that, without warning, I had already turned into someone like my dad.

A partial list of things music has made me do: fly overseas at considerable expense to see a live performance by a band I no longer liked, nurture a crush on a goth chick way out of my league, nurture a crush on an alternachick way out of my league, write a love letter to a German woman made up entirely of lyrics from my favorite synth band, reconsider fast friendships, get ticketed for doing 82 in a 55, drive around a remote area of England looking for a hero's grave, wear parachute pants without irony, perform the moonwalk in front of a crowded gymnasium, switch college majors, miss a final exam, shoplift (both successfully and unsuccessfully), dive to the bottom of a numbingly cold Scottish pond to retrieve my favorite T-shirt, stab my thumb into the back of a fellow concert attendee's neck to get closer to the stage, drink too much, lose my voice, stage-dive, cry, and regret. But it wasn't until I was thirty-three -- on a Friday night in April 2004, to be more specific -- that I found out exactly how important music was to me.

The evening began like so many others: the twist of a bottle cap, the first sip of beer, the descent of my buttocks into the swivel chair at my desk. My computer, a bulky eMac, still excited me a full year after I purchased it, in large part because it had completely changed the way I listened to music. Converting all of my CDs into searchable digital files had spoiled me. Gone were the days of hauling my carcass up to the wall-mounted CD rack to find the one disc that contained the one song required at a given moment. That song was now available with a click of the mouse -- and it could be found while sitting down. Once again I fired up the iTunes program and within seconds a familiar song was dominating my apartment. As I scrolled through more than three thousand songs for the perfect follow-up, the value of iTunes as something other than a tool to organize and burn CDs revealed itself in a bang: play count. How had I failed to scrutinize this ingenious function before? Here in front of me was an unadulterated reckoning of how often I'd listened to each song in my collection since the uploading had begun nearly twelve months before -- amazing. The frequency of seemingly uncountable thoughts and actions, such as the number of times I've said the word "awesome" or the sheer poundage of pizza I've eaten, has tantalized me for years, a desire that grew, most likely, out of a Saturday Night Live sketch from the late 1980s about a guy who arrives in heaven and proceeds to quiz an angel about all sorts of arcane trivia about his life, such as "What's the two hundredth grossest thing I ever ate?" (The answer: butterscotch pudding with a dead earwig in it.) Play count was offering up information that I wasn't supposed to have until death. It was a message from God. Or Steve Jobs, which is pretty much the same thing.

Okay, so the message wasn't divine; it wasn't even exact. Perusing the incredible totals, I quickly saw the problem. Take Outkast's "Hey Ya!" The single had been everywhere in recent months, and I had willingly submitted to it like everyone else in my age bracket. According to iTunes, the song, uploaded near the end of 2003, had been played just three times on my computer. Obviously I'd heard it many more times: at parties, on television, over the radio in the car, in a much-distributed Internet clip featuring dancing Peanuts characters, on a local tough's boom box outside my deli. "Hey Ya!" was inescapable. Exactly how many times I'd heard it was impossible to tell -- twenty? forty? But as a new beer was opened, a new rule was considered: Whatever play count said was law. The totals were probably only slightly misleading. Very few appealing songs were popping up with the frequency of a "Hey Ya!" -- it was an exception, and thus an outlier. Neither the radio nor video channels were major sources of musical entertainment for me anymore. My CD player was rarely switched on, and I did not own an iPod. Couldn't nearly everything not heard on the eMac, my primary source of music delivery since my collection was uploaded, be discounted? The stats seemed sacred enough. I chose to run with them.

Not surprisingly, the numbers, in aggregate, confirmed that indie rock is my favorite genre of music; it has been for nearly two decades now. Since I'll be using that term often here, it could use some clarification -- in part because the phrase has become nebulous in this relatively recent era in which Borglike conglomerates have swallowed up labels once considered too insignificant to matter, and also because indie rock may be defined differently depending on whom you ask. Back in the early 1980s, when the term started getting thrown around, things were relatively simple: You were either on an independent label or you weren't -- and if you weren't, then you probably sucked, at least to die-hard fans of the genre. But then R.E.M. got popular. And Nirvana. So now confusion reigns. Purists might disagree, but I think the term can now safely apply to anything that feels independent, whether published on an obscure label or something insidiously corporate, and it can include songs that many people associate more closely with another of indie music's many aliases and subgenres: hardcore, postpunk, grunge, shoegazing, lo-fi, emo, and stuff we older sorts used to refer to as college rock or modern rock. Such classifications, as you might expect, can be personal. Most indie aficionados -- that moderately large listener base that has always been woefully underserved by mainstream radio and MTV -- would probably consider Sonic Youth and Hüsker Dü and Dinosaur Jr. and Built to Spill and even Death Cab for Cutie to have retained their credibility after signing with majors. But what about the Smashing Pumpkins? How best to judge the case of Radiohead, which has always been on a major label? And what of Weezer, another major-label lifer -- and one, in fact, that seems to be an independent band created in a major-label-funded laboratory experiment? I'll settle it: They're all indie.

However the genre is defined, I'm a fan. Well, mostly. Actually, lots of indie rock sucks worse than Dan Fogelberg. And just because I love indie music doesn't mean that it's all I listen to or that it's the only genre that matters. There is value in the Toto song "Hold the Line." I own every original studio album by Led Zeppelin, not to mention Coda. I will always possess the gene that makes some guys turn their vehicle into Neil Peart's ninetynine-piece drum kit whenever Rush's "Tom Sawyer" comes on. But I'll get into all that later. What's at issue here is that, thanks to the play count discovery, my listening habits were now both quantifiable and sortable. It was thrilling even to look at tracks that didn't rank among my favorites. How many times had I played the Pixies' "Velouria" in the past year? Twelve times -- a manageable once-a-month craving. I had failed to listen to any songs from Soundgarden's Superunknown other than "Fell on Black Days," which caused me to rock out unabashedly sixteen times. Songs by old favorites New Order and the Cure were played in the same moderation as those by newer go-tos the Shins and the New Pornographers. Van Halen's "Everybody Wants Some!!" (22 listens) ranked ahead of anything by Nirvana, but the average number of times I'd listened to the first eleven songs on Nevermind (5.9 times) greatly exceeded that of the eight songs on Women and Children First (3.8 listens). But obviously this is not the information that blew my mind.

No, what made me reconsider my place in life were the songs at the top of the list when sorted by play count. At 193 listens, the song I had played most often during the previous twelve months was written by a band that most people have never heard of. In fact, the top ten songs -- and seventeen of the top twenty (and thirty-five of the top fifty, and sixty-three of the top one hundred) -- were all by that same band or its offshoots. The facts told me what I had only just begun admitting to myself: I was obsessed with Guided By Voices.

Now there are a few ways you can give in to musical obsession. You can give in suddenly and briefly -- such as when, over the course of a few weeks or months, you find yourself hooked on a particular album (especially a debut album or a breakout album) and start talking up the artist to everyone you know; but then, after seeing a boring live performance or hearing someone you don't respect gush about the music, you just as suddenly denounce the artist as being annoying or unoriginal.

Or you can give in sporadically. This might happen if you are dealing with unfamiliar real-world concerns, such as a new job or mouth to feed, when you have neither the time nor the energy to satisfy the rigors of a full-blown obsession; it might also be that your passion peaked years ago and is only at the edges of your synapses now. But the mania is merely in remission; it is still there, waiting to flare up, much like herpes, at certain and often unpredictable moments: a release of a new bootleg, an anniversary of a hero's death, a reunion tour, a simpatico comment by a bartender, a delivery of killer weed.

Or of course you can go all in -- and indeed, this is the most recognizable form of musical obsession. You let it dip into every facet of your life: your wardrobe, your hairstyle, the foods you eat, the drugs you take, the naming of your pets and children. Fanship of this type is generally expressed outwardly and unabashedly, and as such it tends to draw the bewilderment and ridicule of those who don't understand. Not that you really care what those morons think. You may appear on an MTV program talking about your fanatical devotion; you will almost certainly blog about it. Tattoos are possibly involved, and in wacko cases, plastic surgery. If you observe a hero wearing a hearing aid or wielding gladioli, you will likely get an intense urge to be seen in public wearing a hearing aid or wielding gladioli. There is a sense of competition among your own kind to be known as the most dedicated fan. But you also feel most comfortable when among other faithfuls, and you may even have friends or a spouse whom you met at a show or through a message board. En masse, you and your brethren may be given a label by outsiders, usually derogatorily: Deadheads, Phishheads, Parrotheads, metalheads, goths, Elvis freaks, Teshies, Idiots Who Think That Michael Jackson Isn't a Child Molester. In other words, you are the Trekkies of musical fandom. But you are also that most loyal of fans: willing, in theory, to get beaten down defending the music you love.

I didn't intend for intense musical obsession to find me. Not again. Not at the age of thirty-three. And especially not for the band Guided By Voices, which had been brought to my attention numerous times previously and summarily dismissed. It should have been too late. This was 2004, a decade past their heyday. The buzz was mostly gone. Their lead singer was forty-six. They lived in Ohio. But something stronger than reason was at work. A pleasant encounter with one of their albums had caused me to buy it on impulse. And then after a few listens a higher power assumed control. It made a Bloblike crawl through eBay and Amazon, eating up every CD in its path. But the music just kept coming: 252 songs on fifteen proper albums, hundreds more on EPs and compilations, and that didn't even begin to count the side projects, of which there were more than ten. A year and a half after that first listen, I had barely begun. Almost as compelling as the band's music (so familiar-sounding, with hints of the Who, the Replacements, and the Beatles -- but also none of those) was its persona. These were hardworking Midwesterners whose collective genius had mostly been overlooked. Their lead singer and chief songwriter, Robert Pollard, had been an elementary school teacher. His brother, formerly in the band, worked at a General Motors parts plant. One of the drummers had been a male nurse. They wore sensible jeans, untucked cotton twill shirts, and high-top sneakers. They drank heartily. They loved sports. At last: regular guys who just happened to write transcendent songs.

Initially the iTunes totals made me proud. Puffed-out-chest, hands-on-hips proud. I'd listened to a song named "Game of Pricks" 193 times last year! But as the stats (and more beer) sunk in, it occurred to me that most people my age did not listen to music that way. With two or three exceptions, none of my friends seemed to listen to music anymore at all. Obviously they must have been doing so in moderation, and might have even been loving it, but not with the reckless abandon of youth. They were married, had tiny offspring, were focused on making money, on dinner parties, on breast pumps, on property. Somewhere along the line they had become adults. Adults do not spend thousands of dollars they can't really afford on paraphernalia relating to one band. They do not spend hours making wall montages featuring their new heroes in various comical poses. They do not plan trips around concerts -- especially ones that involve air travel. Their biggest wish is not to meet a particular musician and get drunk with him. There seemed to be unwritten rules for people my age. Having diverse listening tastes: great. Going to the occasional concert: fine. Getting excited about one band more than others: okay, but watch it. Exhibiting fanboy behavior: embarrassing and not to be tolerated. Our differences in listening to music was a major reason I'd retreated from them, my best friends in the world. I wanted to hang out, hold court, and blare music, and they did not. I wanted to go to concerts, get drunk, and let go; they wanted to get up early. It was a drag.

Then again, I wanted money and property. I wanted to be taken seriously. And I profoundly missed my friends. The longing to mix with burgeoning adults but also the need to think and behave like a juvenile -- these were conflicting, crippling desires. They seemed irreconcilable, too. To have fun, you couldn't go half-assed, but if you didn't go half-assed at my age, there were often severe consequences: increasingly painful hangovers, missed work and opportunity, a loss of interest in hanging out with more sedate friends, a frequently annoyed girlfriend. The warning signs were all around me. I'd seen how my dad turned out: Gollum, sitting happily in his cave, singing to his Precious. Did I want that to happen to me? Did I want to be a frothing man-child for the rest of my life? Over the next few weeks, with the obsession out in the open and my listening habits questioned, it dawned on me to conduct a low-level personal reckoning. Not in that Hollywood way parodied a few times on Seinfeld, in which George or Jerry would go to the pier at Coney Island, mull over his shallow existence, look around and see happy couples with kids, and finally run off, scuttling pigeons, determined to change his life. But I was experiencing relationship and career malaise -- neither was very fun. My obscene musical devotion, and the lifestyle it espoused, didn't have everything to do with my stagnant reality. But it certainly had something to do with it. It was obvious that sooner or later some lifestyle tweaks would have to be made if I ever planned on having a cushy bankaccount balance or a significant other who wouldn't tire of my frequently immature and obsessive behavior. Not that I had any intention of abandoning the music; I have always envisioned my eighty-five-year-old self as the scourge of the nursing home, blasting songs so loudly (theory: Frank Black is my generation's Tony Bennett) that my shriveled neighbors will be forced to turn off their hearing aids. Maybe, though, it was time to consider listening to music differently.

Copyright 2007 by John Sellers


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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 14, 2008

    if you dig tiresome rantings, here's your book!

    it was wack. isn't the point of indie rock to veer away from idolatry? kind of misses the point...

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  • Anonymous

    Posted January 17, 2008

    Funny -- plus a whole chapter about Pavement

    I bought this book mainly because it has a recommendation on the cover by my favorite author, Chuck Klosterman, but also because it talks about a lot of bands that I love, including the Smiths and Pavement. I'm glad I did. The story follows Sellers' path as a music fan, from basically his early love of Duran Duran and U2 to his later fixations on the legendary indie bands mentioned above. He concludes with a long appendix of lists -- some funny, some dead-on, and others that I completely disagreed with (he admits to not liking Sgt. Pepper's!). He does come across as a fanboy at times, and he often goes off on plenty of tangents, but I looked at it like I was having a conversation with someone about his musical past, and if you've ever had one of those, you know that they do tend to go off on tangents. Anyway, I was surprised to find myself laughing out loud on a few occasions. And I think that's the true accomplishment of this book: I feel like the author is someone who'd be fun to hang out with, and someone who is probably not that different than me (except the Sgt. Pepper's part!).

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