Life was difficult enough when Metz's husband suddenly slumped onto the kitchen floor, dead of a pulmonary embolism, leaving her with a six-year-old daughter to raise on her own. But what happens when she finds out, soon afterward, that her contented marriage was just an illusion -- and that her husband had carried on numerous affairs, including a long-term tryst with one of her closest friends?
Metz is still reeling from her husband's sudden death when hints begin to surface about his double life. Friends and family members who first tried to protect her begin to admit what they know. Soon she is poring over her husband's old emails, reading about his passionate longings for other women and his disappointment with her. And all the time, she hadn't suspected a thing. Or had she?
Metz's willingness to probe her own psyche is what makes this book so powerful and so different from other tell-alls. She methodically contacts the women in her husband's past and questions them in an effort to reconstruct the true nature of her marriage and to better understand how she contributed to its failings. Is a perfect marriage possible? And if you think you have a perfect marriage, are you living a lie? Metz's choice of title is startling and provocative, like the rest of this riveting memoir. (Fall 2009 Selection)