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In a world of hype, we may buy into the idea that through Jesus, we’ll be healthier and wealthier as well as wiser. So what happens when we become ill, or depressed, or bankrupt? Did we do something wrong? Has God abandoned us? As a child, Michael Horton would run up the down escalator, trying to beat it to the top. As Christians, he notes, we sometimes seek God the same way, believing we can climb to him under our own steam. But we can’t, which is why we are blessed that Jesus descends to us, especially during ...
In a world of hype, we may buy into the idea that through Jesus, we’ll be healthier and wealthier as well as wiser. So what happens when we become ill, or depressed, or bankrupt? Did we do something wrong? Has God abandoned us? As a child, Michael Horton would run up the down escalator, trying to beat it to the top. As Christians, he notes, we sometimes seek God the same way, believing we can climb to him under our own steam. But we can’t, which is why we are blessed that Jesus descends to us, especially during times of trial. In Too Good to Be True, Horton exposes the pop culture that sells Jesus like a product for health and happiness and reminds us that our lives often lead us on difficult routes we must follow by faith. This book offers a series of powerful readings that demonstrate how, through every type of earthly difficulty, our Father keeps his promises from Scripture and works all things together for our good.
As everyone who knew him even casually could attest, my father had eyes that laughed before the rest of his face could catch up. Some of us, especially his children, knew that, on those rare occasions when his temper flared, it happened first in his eyes. With a mere glance, he could nip horseplay in the bud at the dinner table. Now those eyes were almost always reporting an emotion we had never seen in our dad. The one for whom the glass was always half full, who always landed on his feet in every circumstance, was more terrified of waking than of dying.
Have you ever seen someone wail without actually being able to articulate a cry, his heaving chest and terrified visage giving the secret away? Larger than life since my childhood, this great man was now as helpless as an infant and more pitiful than any life I had ever known, his gaunt flesh wasting and yellowing with every passing week.
At the age of seventy-eight, James Horton had been diagnosed with a benign brain tumor that required immediate surgery. At first, a shunt released some of the fluid on his brain, but a further surgery was necessary to excise the rapidly growing lump before it interrupted vital brain functions. This surgery failed, and before long we realized that my father would not recover.
He lived for nearly a year, however, almost paralyzed from head to toe. Since even his face had lost muscular control, his eyelids drooped, exposing their red interior. It was as if his whole face had melted like wax, and we could hardly recognize him-except for the eyes, which were always filled with emotion, usually unspeakable pain. But occasionally, and more frequently toward the end, they evidenced hope and a confidence that came from another place.
We prayed for weeks that the Lord would take him home. We would place our son, just a few months old, in his namesake's listless arms and watch my dad's heaving chest signal his delight. Even then, it was always a bittersweet visit for my father, and for us.
The Gibraltar of the family, my mother, fussed over his bedside, nervously fluffing his pillows at fifteen-minute intervals, ensuring that the intravenous fluids were properly calculated, and organizing edifying visits from friends and children from church. In between, she read quietly in her chair while holding Dad's hand. For years, I had witnessed the remarkable care that these two people provided in our home, first to their own parents and then to fifteen elderly folks in our residential care home as I was growing up. But now she was caring for her best friend, and there was almost nothing she could do for him but fluff his pillows-and try to hide her own daily grief. Although my mom always looked ten years younger than her actual age, these months acted like time-lapse photography, working my father's pain into her own face and wearing her body down.
A Second Blow
Then, just two months before my father's death, Mom suffered a massive stroke while I was driving her from her sister's funeral, where she had delivered a moving eulogy. This strong and compassionate woman who had given her life to disadvantaged city kids and abandoned seniors was now herself dependent on others.
I recalled a couple of times in the past when my parents had mentioned their worst fears about old age. For my dad, a debilitating disease would be the most horrible way of death, he said; for my mom, it was being a burden-and from their caregiving experience they knew both well. In my darker moments, I wondered why God would allow them to experience their worst scenarios in the last act of their play, especially when they had done so much for so many others. They had moved close to Lisa and me in our first year of marriage to be of help when they learned of our first pregnancy. Always running to the side of those who needed a strong arm, my mom was now partially paralyzed and disabled, while my dad was succumbing to an agonizing death.
I told God that it all seemed too calculated, that he seemed all too real, too involved, too present in our lives, especially my parents', as if he had cruelly dished out the very end that each most feared. Shouldn't people whose lives were all about giving to others, especially to the elderly, have a break when it comes to how they leave this life? It seemed to challenge the whole "reap what you sow" principle: does this apply only when people deserve bad and not when they deserve good?
My wife, recovering from several especially difficult miscarriages, found that her visits to my dad's bedside only aggravated her questions about God's goodness. It was strange to see her go through this. After all, Lisa was a Bible study teacher who devoured pretty deep theology books. Now it was all being put to the test of real life.
I had experienced death up close in our home growing up, not only with my grandparents but also with the adopted "grandparents" in our home for the elderly. Still, Lisa and I both struggled with the usual doubts. People suffer and even die from natural causes every day, we tried to tell ourselves. Furthermore, old people eventually die. We all die. This doesn't mitigate the tragedy, but its inevitability and universality at least prepare us for the fact.
But why do some people suffer so much in their death? Why is it often so slow and painful? Is death itself not horrible enough that we also have to fear dying-a wasting and withering that threatens our cherished expectations of a good and orderly providence? Just to look at my father over the course of those ghastly months, those long and torturous weeks, was to face the most serious, existential, concrete challenges to our deeply held Christian convictions.
Marching to Zion ... OK, Limping
Years after maneuvering to inherit his brother's birthright, Jacob received word that Esau was on his way to meet him. (The story is told in Genesis 32-33). This was not good news of a family reunion but a harbinger of certain war between what were now two sizable camps, and Jacob was deeply disturbed, so he prayed and reaffirmed his faith in God's covenant promise. Sending a farmyard of livestock ahead of him as a gift, Jacob hoped to placate his brother's anger.
That night, however, Jacob is ambushed not by his brother but by a strange man who is identified with no less than God himself. In this unexpected wrestling match, Jacob is allowed to "win" and as a result receives the Lord's blessing: the Lord makes himself weak in order to deliver the promise by grace, accommodating himself to the feebleness of his covenant servant. Yet Jacob walks away from the scene with a limp that he carries with him throughout his life-a groin injury that pointed to the promise and the perils of being an heir of promise, a child of Jacob, now renamed "Israel." As dangerous as it was to meet face-to-face with his angry brother, Jacob realized that he had encountered a greater foe on the battlefield and had prevailed, by the grace of the enemy, who was really his friend.
It is, of course, true that "all's well that ends well," as Shakespeare's title has it. Today, my father is no longer suffering even the ordinary vicissitudes of daily life; he is in the presence of the triune God, awaiting with us the resurrection of the body. Yet even in the trial itself there was a calm in the middle of the storm. In fact, it wasn't really a calm, but a deep, moving current of Spirit-given life drawn from Immanuel's veins.
When it came to faith, my dad was the strong, silent type. A hard worker raised during the Depression, he had always been a scrapper whose hands were worn from labor, not from turning pages. Although my father was an entertaining storyteller, my mother nurtured my faith and my interest in reading, studying, and asking questions. Yet against the bleak backdrop of death we witnessed a swelling confidence in God's grace and goodness that my father had not always displayed. In between dark days of despair, when his eyes seemed to scream at us, Make it end! there were moments of genuine joy in the cross and resurrection, as Scripture was read or the elements of Communion were placed in his mouth, or when children sang songs of Zion. He would lift his forefinger as far "north" as he could muster, pointing to the Wellspring of his hope. Even as his flesh was wasting, he was being renewed inwardly.
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A small den similar to the Warriors den sit. It has a pool so and lots of nests. May the Appretices enjoy their apprenticship and learn to be a great warrior.
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