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In these poems, we come to know a different side of the acclaimed novelist Susan Minot. We find her awake in the middle of the night, contemplating love and heartbreak in all their exhilarating and anguished specifics. With astonishing openness, in language both passionate and enchanting, she offers us an intimate map of a troubled and far-flung heart: “Can you believe I thought that?” she asks, “That we would always go/roaming brave and ...
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Poems 4 A.M.

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Overview

In these poems, we come to know a different side of the acclaimed novelist Susan Minot. We find her awake in the middle of the night, contemplating love and heartbreak in all their exhilarating and anguished specifics. With astonishing openness, in language both passionate and enchanting, she offers us an intimate map of a troubled and far-flung heart: “Can you believe I thought that?” she asks, “That we would always go/roaming brave and dangerous/on wild unlit roads?”

At once witty and tender, with Dorothy Parker–like turns of the knife and memorable partings from lovers in New York, London, Rome and beyond, these poems capture a restless movement through loves and locales, and charm us at every turn with their forthrightness.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780307958754
  • Publisher: Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group
  • Publication date: 10/12/2011
  • Sold by: Random House
  • Format: eBook
  • File size: 2 MB

Meet the Author

Susan Minot
Susan Minot's first novel, Monkeys, was published in a dozen countries and received the Prix Femina Étranger in France. She is the author of Lust & Other Stories, Folly, Evening, and Poems 4 A.M., and wrote the screenplay for Bernardo Bertolucci's Stealing Beauty. She lives on an island in Maine.
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I. MASSACHUSETTS

Boston Ancestors

I hear them behind me crossing Persian rugs on heel-less shoes,
drinking Dubonnet, eating nuts
(from the pantry the smell of stew),
talking about naval battles and varsity crew,
their voices raspy with cigars in underheated rooms.

Someone sewed their eyes shut with needlepoint thread and when they speak they make up for it in booming tones.

It is somewhere out of them alive or dead
I have sprung.
Yet not a person there seems to recognize me.
Not one.

Bulbs

Even in the dead of winter he is talking about bulbs.

Walking after dinner with my father.

There is snow, moonlight everywhere.
Cold. The loop is short.
We pass where he planted a hill in the fall.
Above us stars

in the dark seed sky.
Their scattered pattern is something we might discuss—
something he knows from navigating boats.

I look up. It's like breathing ice.
Glitter.

My father's attention, though,
is on the knotty wooden claws he's pressed in.
He knows where they are below a packed layer of earth,
then all that snow above.
The tree shadows crisscross and humps push up more sparkling white and all he can think of,
walking with his daughter,
is bulbs.
Daffodils? I ask.
Yes, he says, this father of seven.
I planted them in clusters.

Family Dog

You left, not I.
One by one there were less of you.
Less bicycles tipping off stands.
Less leftovers I'd get of stew.
Less and less shouts and then fewer hands
To pull back my ears or smooth my head,
Or strangle my throat till my tongue went dry.
Some of you changed tastes, slept with cats instead.

Each, apart, you told me you loved me: a lie.
You each went, snapping your suitcase shut.
I loped after each car. Barking at the end
Of our drive. I could only stray so far. What
I was attached to in you would not stretch or bend.
When the last who sucked his bottle lying on my fleecy side
Left, I ambled off to where dogs bereft go
Down by the railroad tracks, and died.

New England Rock

I could never travel so far or stay so long in the desert or stand under veils and veils of rain that it could change where I began.
My life rose up this way:
a round hill studded with rocks,
a winter sea not freezing for rocking at a rocky shore, cellars with rocks pushing up through the floor.

I tried to get away.
I flew across the world into a man's fig mouth. I circled mangrove roots like a whirling drain.
I swam deranged in cocoa river mud and huddled against palm trees waving.

The ballast in my pocket kept throwing me down.
It was meant to steady, but it kept all of us off balance, the stones we carried.
It looked like slapstick. We tried to laugh it off.
The pratfalls of a drunk.
Or we had another drink to keep it light.

Would that it were easy not to feel so dense in this land mined with headstones.
Would that we wouldn't turn so cold overlooking soaked grey fields or slapping the rope up on the bow.
You see it in people's mouths,
the granite tightening of their souls.
I move close to another for some heat and the warmest thing I feel is doubt.

I dive into a pile of leaves and hit the ground hard.
Would that these rocks lodged here so fixed and stern would give me something fixed and firm as belief.

The Cliff Crawlers

I have to crawl up.
It is a rock-scramble crawl.
Bitten pen in my teeth.
They say it's easier if you're small,
tearing at roots till they're ragged as curtain pulls.

I slide back when I hear men rearing motorboats out on the lumpy bay,
their engines revving out of the water, backing up,
throwing out all that man spray.

I have tried obeying and not obeying laws and neither has taught me how to climb.
Neither and both are guidelines.
Neither and both will ever fit.
I push words around; the clouds won't remember it.
Their shadow spreads over other cliffs and I see someone else on a climb.
She makes it look easy, far away.
Does she claw as I claw? Is this even worthwhile to do? It's always more full of doubt and harder when the climber is you.

I wouldn't mind letting go of this hold and standing up to see the islands on the other side where other women tuck and fold.
But I can only go so fast. In fact,
I'm very slow. I want things to last longer than they do, and other slower ones to be over soon.

I wanted a life beside him,
he handed me my coat.

Somewhere is a man who doesn't miss me and somewhere rain and somewhere a change waiting to sprain my life into relief.

My hands fumble.
Clumps break into dust.
Look at the puffs of brown sailing off like cannon shot, spreading like rust in the sky.
The earth tilts up, pressing its belly to me.
I rub its dirty kisses from my mouth,
then kiss it again firmly.

II. LONG ISLAND

There's a man I've thought of many hours . . .

and
3
a.m.
tonight he sleeps somewhere and though
I
no longer hope to keep him near or to kiss his grave face or drink his sigh

I
don't mind thinking of his closed eyes or of his mouth parted and how my own once rested there full-hearted

Returning Monday Morning from a
Weekend on the North Fork


No night of love. In the morning a soft bandaged knock on the guest-room door. Dreams socked in country quiet. Radiator banging like an oil rig. A white ocean filling the window on the bathroom floor.

I rise somehow. Rise out of no one's padded arms.
Spit toothpaste in a cold sink. This weekend we raked leaves. Lay in front of the fireplace.
Had a lot to drink.

Bags in the hall in the dark. Forgetting bags.
Bags in the car. The one who drives is the one staying behind.

Lights on at the Corner Box. Coffee.
The newspaper I bought. Orange leaves on wet grey ground.

6:45. The bus door creaks. Luggage door lifts.
"Where are you getting off?" with aluminum doors folding down and back, then the quiet interior seats.
Selection of heads, Monday morning full. Nearly toppling over when the bus starts to move.

I could eat tin, I'm so hungry and light.
Could eat these words I write.

Sunday night reading in the bathtub sideways.
Kawubata Oe's son born with an open lesion in his brain. Later he composed music.

I sit down beside a woman in a turquoise uniform reading Patricia Cornwell. She has left the window seat free.

There are many ways to live—empty, full.

The dark tar at the end of the road is still wet from the rainy night. The sun will not appear today, seems like.

Do you love that, too? he said, lying on his back. Outside it was another country. June. Dress in disarray.

Nothing to be done. Nothing
I can do.

Black nets of kudzu lie thrown over the roadside growth. Jutting up like collapsed roofs.

In a car an intimacy develops, he said.
How easy it was for him to slip off my clothes.

The seams on the highway thwang beneath us like a bass.

Will you undress me? he said. For a change.

A house at the edge of a tipped field sits alone in the fall morning with no one in sight under a bright warning sky.

The sky like white marble shoulders.

Will you undress for me? he said. I
held my breath. Desire breathing.
He said, Silence is just as good.

The woman collecting tickets knows many of the passengers. "What's she majoring in?"
she says. A scarf is tied over her turtleneck.
"You spending Thanksgiving at home?"

Will you have dinner with me tonight?
he whispered in that other land during a cold rain. Like winter in summer. Rain hammering on the car.

Touching. To get close, then to break apart.
This weekend lots of touching in the kitchen.
Then breaking apart when someone comes in.
Lots of kitchen touching all over the world.

Hot cider and rum. Leftover pie. Snapping sticks on the lawn. Smooth stones in cold sand. Being on a quest. Were you then?
My turn now?

A baby in the backseat half crying.

Wishing I were a wife. Wishing I were his wife.
Not that, though. Ever.

Not hardly likely. A bug smacks the windshield.
The way he threw me down.

Traffic. The bus suddenly slows. A passenger returning from the bathroom staggers.

In that movie we watched, There is only now,
said the dying man.

The buildings of Queens rise in the sky: a thousand windows. Below, on the road, white cars glide by my resting hand.

The city noise closer like a furnace blowing,
cars leaping over the rumbling streets. I'll see a hundred faces before I open my door.

The heart disappearing, like a road drying.

The Man in the Green Box

Last night he did not join me where I waited in my bed,
but slept in a green box close by my side, raised up,
instead.
A hand showed from a narrow slot;
the fingers short and strange were none that I could recognize.
One knuckle had been bent, or cut.
I watched it rearrange itself before my eyes, to grow into the long thin shape of hands that I well know.
I looked inside and saw his body there, a shell.

So, tell me, I said when he woke,
why sleep away from me?
I was in shock, he said,
after my accident. You see,
I needed no distraction if I was to get my rest,
but here–he stood–allow me . . .
And his arm with its strong breast went round me, holding on.
We walked along a hall.
The corridor was tipped.
My face began to shake.

Don't cry, he said. I'm at your side.
I know, I said, and pressed his chest and felt the beating thump inside.
I said, My fear is just the slanting of this ship.
I lied.

For all night long I'd thought this man who held me up had died.

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