Postcards from Berlin: A Novel [NOOK Book]

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Catriona Lydgate is a housewife with two children and an adoring husband. But beneath the surface of her seemingly perfect life are the dark secrets of the past she's tried to forget. Disturbing postcards begin arriving in the mail; she is recognized by a man who knew her from her past-an avalanche of small moments that will threaten everything she thought was real. When her youngest daughter falls ill with a mysterious illness, the doctors and even her husband suspect that she is deliberately making her child ...
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Overview

Catriona Lydgate is a housewife with two children and an adoring husband. But beneath the surface of her seemingly perfect life are the dark secrets of the past she's tried to forget. Disturbing postcards begin arriving in the mail; she is recognized by a man who knew her from her past-an avalanche of small moments that will threaten everything she thought was real. When her youngest daughter falls ill with a mysterious illness, the doctors and even her husband suspect that she is deliberately making her child sick.As her marriage unravels, she comes dangerously close to the edge-and to losing everything that she loves-as the past she has fought so hard to bury becomes her witness and prosecutor.This is a haunting, heartbreaking novel-domestic fiction at its very finest.
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Editorial Reviews

The New York Times
The resolution of Leroy's novel has a fairy-tale aspect, but fairy tales can nevertheless be very absorbing. Despite the occasional straining of her plot, Leroy succeeded in making me care about these characters; even at my most incredulous, I was eager to find out what would happen next. I dreaded the worst and hoped for the best -- and I won't tell you which takes place. — Margot Livesey
Library Journal
On the surface, Catriona (Cat) Lydgate enjoys a contented, middle-class life with a devoted husband, two lovely daughters, an elegant home, and a room to call her own: an attic where she dabbles at art. Things begin to unwind when Daisy, her younger daughter, comes down with the flu, which develops into a mysterious, malingering illness that causes her to stop eating and leaves her lethargic and achy. As specialist after specialist can find no physical explanation for the illness, they begin to suspect psychological causes, the likeliest being Munchausen by proxy, a condition induced by the mother (who has often had a troubled past) as an attention-seeking device. As Cat learns more about the disease, she becomes increasingly secretive about her own difficult upbringing in a notorious group home, where she was abandoned by an alcoholic mother at age 13. This is a gripping medical mystery from an assured writer who could be the next Minette Walters. Highly recommended. [Previewed in Prepub Alert, LJ 4/15/03.]-Barbara Love, Kingston Frontenac P.L., Kingston, Ont. Copyright 2003 Reed Business Information.
Kirkus Reviews
Mother battles the medical establishment when her child comes down with a mysterious illness—in this indictment of the British health care system. At 13, artistically gifted Catriona Lydgate was abandoned by her alcoholic mother and placed in institutional care. In her 20s, Catriona met Richard, the divorced, debonair father of one of her charges at the preschool where she worked. Now happily middle-class and married to Richard, Catriona is disturbed when she starts receiving beseeching postcards from her mother in Berlin. Around the same time, Catriona’s eight-year-old daughter Daisy comes down with a debilitating stomach flu she can’t seem to shake. The family GP doesn’t take the illness very seriously, clearly considering Catriona an overly protective, hysterical mother. But after Catriona’s repeated prodding, the GP reluctantly refers the child to a pediatrician who also clashes with Catriona. Soon the doctors are proposing that she is at least part of the problem, if not its cause (Munchausen by Proxy is bandied around). At first Richard seems fairly supportive, but when Cat, increasingly angry and defensive, demands that he go along with hiding her bad childhood from the authorities, his understanding falters. Support arrives—of course—in the form of another attractive divorced father, an Irish journalist who has recently moved into the neighborhood. He takes Catriona’s side unquestioningly. As Cat becomes ever more driven, Leroy gives her daily life a lurking undertone of menace that adds an element of psychological mystery. Although Catriona is eventually vindicated, for long stretches she is no clear-cut heroine, but a woman still in the thrall of early demons; wecan understand why Richard (who is too easily discounted as a philanderer) and the doctors would suspect her tendencies toward paranoia and obsessiveness. British author Leroy’s US debut starts strong, creating delicious uncertainty about the heroine, but eventually settles for pat answers and easy romance. Agent: Kathleen Anderson/Anderson Grinberg
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780316077095
  • Publisher: Little, Brown and Company
  • Publication date: 6/27/2009
  • Sold by: Hachette Digital, Inc.
  • Format: eBook
  • Sales rank: 361,563
  • File size: 713 KB

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Postcards From Berlin


By Margaret Leroy

Little, Brown

Copyright © 2003 Margaret Leroy
All right reserved.

ISBN: 0316738131


Chapter One

DAISY HEARS THEM FIRST: the crunch of feet on the gravel, the resonant clearing of throats outside our living room window.

She darts to the window, tugs at the curtain.

"They're here," she says.

She kneels on the sofa, presses her face to the glass. Her warm breath mists the pane.

I turn off the light, so the room is lit by the dancing red of the fire, and go to stand beside her, pulling the curtain open. My head is close to hers: I smell the musky sweetness of her hair. Sinead hangs back, fiddling with her new velvet choker, an early Christmas present from her mother. She's reached that age when enthusiasms have to be carefully concealed; and anyway, gangsta rap is really more her thing.

I glance at Richard. He folds his Times and turns toward the window. In the shadowed room and the flickering of the firelight, I can't see if he's smiling.

"Look," says Daisy. "They've got snowflakes on their eyelashes."

There are ten of them in the darkness by the steps to our front door. They're bundled in coats and scarves, the everyday color leached from their clothes and faces by the torchlight. Their breath is thick; there are siftings of snow on their shoulders. They move around and shuffle into position. Nicky is there, in a woolen hat that hides her crisp black hair, with little reindeer dangling from her ears. She looks up at Daisy, grins, and blows her a kiss. The earrings shiver.

The others have their eyes down; they're fumbling through their music books with clumsy wet-gloved fingers. There are women I recognize from Daisy's class at school, Kate's mother, Natalie's mother - women I know only by the names of their children - and men from the choir at the church round the corner, and two or three teenagers. The torches they carry suffuse their faces with red: A myriad of little torches glimmer in their eyes. Next to Nicky there's a man I don't recognize. He has unruly fair hair, a darkly gleaming leather jacket; I can just make out his heavy eyebrows and the line of his jaw. Above them, a nail-paring moon shines briefly through the clouds. Nicky knows what this moon is supposed to mean: She's been through feng shui and aromatherapy, and her current passion is witchcraft - the kind of bland designer witchcraft you can read about in lavish books with pastel velour covers - and she says that the moons have names, and this is the birch moon - the first moon of the year, the moon of beginnings.

The snow began this morning, with a perfect, theatrical sense of timing. In our garden, there's a milky skin of ice on the pond, and the dangling tendrils of forsythia are white knotted strands of wool, and the stone frog fountain has a hat of snow. We played snowballs, Sinead and Daisy and me, staying out far too long, not realizing how chilled we were, and when we finally came back into the warmth of the kitchen, Daisy's fingers were red and shiny in spite of her gloves, and she cried as the blood came back into them. I told her they hurt because they were getting better, warming up, but it didn't help to know that; she couldn't stop crying. In the cold, the foxes are getting bolder, coming close to the house. This afternoon I saw them on the patio, looking in at the French doors, then shying away, mangy, thin, golden, one with a paw that it couldn't touch to the ground, quite silent yet leaving perfect footprints. Since then more snow has fallen, blotting out the foxes' footprints and our own, so our back garden looks as though no one has ever been there. If you went out there now, you would feel a thing you rarely feel in London: a sense of how high the sky is, of the immensity of the night.

The singers clear their throats and start to sing. Their faces are lifted, eager, their breath like smoke. I saw three ships come sailing in, on Christmas Day, on Christmas Day. Singing voices sound different outside, fragile, thinner, half their resonance swallowed up by the air; yet so precise and perfect. I see the ships in my mind's eye: They're like the ships in a toddler's picture book, with rainbowpainted prows and many silken sails, playful, gaudy, cresting the curled waves.

Daisy gives a little sigh and rests her head against me. Sinead comes close, sits on the arm of the sofa. They're both thoroughly irreverent - they have their own salacious parodies of carols, picked up in the playground - yet they're held, stilled, by the song. The room smells of cinnamon and warm wine, of the forest freshness of juniper, of the apple cake that is cooling in the kitchen, moist and sweet and crusted on top with sugar. I want to hold this moment, to make it last forever, the scents and the singing and firelight and Daisy's head against me.

There's a long, still moment after the end of the song, like a held breath. Then Daisy applauds extravagantly, and I turn on the lights and hurry to the door and open it wide.

There are seven stone steps up to our door. Nicky comes first, bounding up two at a time. She's pink skinned, eager eyed.

"Catriona - you look so good."

I kiss her; her face is cold.

"Were we brilliant?" she asks.

"You were wonderful."

She pulls off her hat, shakes out her spiky hair. Wetness sprays from her, the reindeer earrings dance. She holds out the Christian Aid tin, rattles it hopefully. Daisy puts in our money, with a satisfactory clatter.

The others follow her, noisily talking: They are themselves again, separate, banal, the braid of music that bound them together unwoven. They shrug off their wet, heavy clothes; the powdering of snow on their hair is melting al- ready. They stretch out their arms and relish the warmth. The house is suddenly full of sound, of energy.

I bring the saucepan from the kitchen and dole the wine into tumblers. Daisy and Sinead hand the glasses round, carrying them like precious things, holding them right at the top so as not to burn their fingers. I see their heads as they weave their way through the crush: Sinead with hair that's dark and thick like her mother's, pulled back in a ponytail and fastened with karma beads; and Daisy, blond like me.

Nicky, passing, whispers in my ear, "D'you like my new recruit?" She gestures rather obviously toward the man in the leather jacket.

I nod.

"Fergal O'Connor. He's a sweetie - bringing up his little boy on his own. Jamie goes to Saint Mark's, I think. Remind me to introduce you."

She moves off to talk to Richard.

I chat for a while to Kate's mother and Natalie's mother. They drink eagerly, cradling the tumblers between their hands to warm them.

Natalie's mother looks greedily round the room.

"Nice house," she says.

Her teeth are already stained purple by the wine.

I shrug a little. "Well, we're so lucky to live here."

"I'll say." Her fervor isn't quite polite.

They talk about their children: about homework, what a pain, quite honestly you end up having to do it yourself; and the 11+ and how ghastly it is, last year some girls were so nervous they puked up before they went in; and whether eight is really too young for your child to have her first cell phone.

These themes are familiar; I only half join in. I look round the room, feeling a warm sense of satisfaction, seeing it through Natalie's mother's eyes, recognizing what I have achieved here. Because any woman might look at it now in that greedy, appraising way. Yet when Richard and I first came here and walked between the stone dogs and up the seven steps, and the woman from Tarrant's unlocked the door and ushered us in, I felt such uncertainty. It was empty; it smelled musty, unused, and there were green streaks of damp and horrible flowered wallpaper. But it still had a kind of grandeur, with its parquet floors and cornices and mantlepieces of marble, suggesting to me a whole way of life that I'd probably gleaned from TV costume drama: men taking a rest from empire building who warmed their backs at the fire, port, political conversations. I couldn't begin to imagine that I could feel at home in these imposing spaces. I walked round the edge of this room, my footsteps echoing in the emptiness, and felt flimsy, insubstantial, as though I might float to the ceiling, as though nothing weighed me down. Richard put his arm round me - he did that often then - and I felt his warmth, his weight, his opulent smell of cigars and aftershave, grounding me, making me real. And the estate agent, a pleasant woman, canny about such things, read my hesitation. "Let me show you something," she said. She took us through the French doors and into the garden. It was big for a town garden, and secluded, with a rose bed, badly neglected, just a few tattered rags of roses still clinging to the gangly bloodred stems, and a pond, empty of water, with weeds growing up from the concrete. The starlings in the birch tree were puffed up with the cold, like fruit ready to fall. There were worm casts in the grass and pools of water lying on the lawn and it all terribly needed tending. But the lovely shapes of it were there - the rose bed and the pond and the way the trees leaned in around the lawn, encircling it with a kind of intimacy. And I saw how it could be: saw the stone frog spewing water from his wide cheerful mouth, saw the lily pads and the old-fashioned roses, palest pink and amber, single flowers not lasting long but scented, clambering up the wall.

From that moment it was easy. We bought it and moved in, and I knew just what to do with it, decorating most of it myself. I seemed to expand to fill the space; it started to feel right for me. And now it is all as it should be, elegant, established, with velvet curtains and tiebacks with tassels and heavy pelmets edged with plum-colored braid. Our things look right here, in this setting; everything seems to fit: Richard's Chinese vases and his violin, and the two ceramic masks, one white, one black, that we brought back from our honeymoon, and a little painting I did of a poppy that I thought was maybe good enough to frame and go up on the wall; and on the mantelpiece, there's a cardboard Nativity scene, intricate, in rich dark colors, that I bought from Benjamin Pollock's Toyshop in Covent Garden. The Nativity scene was my choice, not the girls'; they'd probably have gone for something more contemporary and plastic. But I love traditional things. I'm always hunting them out, in junk shops and on market stalls: things made to old designs or with a patina of use, a bit of history. Like when I decorated Daisy's room, the floors stripped and varnished to a pale honey color, the ceiling night-sky blue with a stenciling of stars, and I knew there was something missing. It needed something old, loved, a teddy bear to sit in the cane chair, an old bear with bits of fur worn off, like people sometimes keep in trunks in their attics. And I wondered what it would be like to have had a childhood that left such traces - old toys, photos, perhaps - things that are worn with use, with loving, to store away, then come upon years later and show to your own children, with a little stir of sentiment or mildly embarrassed amusement or nostalgia. In the end I found a bear in a department store: It had oldfashioned curly fur and was dressed in Edwardian clothes, but it smelled of the factory. I bought it anyway. It was the best I could do.

The women are reminiscing about recent toy obsessions - Furbies, and Pokémon, and Tamagotchis, the pocket computer animals that you have to feed and care for. Natalie's mother saw a woman at a school concert who had three Tamagotchis hanging round her neck, so she could look after them: Now, that is going too far; I mean, she was really under the thumb. I'm only half-listening. Over their shoulders I can see Richard talking to somebody's teenage daughter. He looks too smart for the company in his jacket and tie - he isn't very good at casual dressing. The girl is perhaps eighteen, just a little younger than I was when he chose me. She's wearing a sleeveless top in spite of the snow, showing off her prettily sloping shoulders. Her arms are thin and white and her hair is watered silk and she has a big gleamy smile. I can tell he's charming her; he comes from that privileged class of men who are always charming - perhaps most charming - with strangers. And Richard likes young women; it's what he was drawn to in me, that new gloss. I know I'm not like I was when first we met. I don't have that sheen anymore.

Nicky is next to Richard, talking to the man with the unruly hair. She's getting in close - not surprising, really; he's quite attractive. Now that she's taken off her coat, she looks like a picture from a magazine. There's something altogether contemporary about Nicky. She has leather skirts and boots with molded rubber soles and she works at an advertising agency, where, in spite of - or maybe because of - the niceness and easygoingness of Neil, her husband, who is an inventive cook and a devoted parent, she exchanges erotic e-mails with the creative director. "You see, we're not like you and Richard," she says to me sometimes, leaning across the table at the Café Rouge toward me. "You two are so transparently everything to each other. I mean, it's wonderful if you can be like that - if you've got that kind of marriage - what could be lovelier? But Neil and I aren't like that, especially since the kids; maybe we couldn't ever be. I don't think I'm built to be completely faithful; it's just not in my genes...."

She feels my eyes on her. She turns, speaks to the man again. They come toward me. Kate's mother and Natalie's mother move away.

He smiles at me: His eyes are gray and steady. Nicky puts her hand on my arm.

"Meet Fergal," she says. "Our latest recruit. A tenor. Tenors are like gold dust. I love my tenors to bits."

I smile. He says hello. I remember how much I like Irish voices.

Nicky takes her last bite of apple cake and licks her sugary fingers. "Catriona, your cooking is out of this world. I have to have more of this."

Sinead walks past with a plate. Nicky lunges after her.

My boots have high heels and my eyes are just on a level with his. We look at each other and there's a brief, embarrassed pause.

"I liked the carols," I tell him. Then think how vacuous this sounds.

"Well," he says, and shrugs a little. "It's been fun." I note the past tense. I rapidly decide that he's not the sort of man who'd like me. I know how I must seem to him, a privileged, sheltered woman.

"Nicky's good at arranging things," I say. "Making things happen."

He nods vaguely. He's looking over my shoulder. I've bored him already.

But then I see he is looking at my picture - the painting of poppies that I hung on the wall. It's just behind me.

"Who did the painting?" he asks.

"I did."

"I wondered if it was you," he says. "I like it."

I feel a little awkward, but acknowledge to myself that I am quite pleased with this painting: The petals are that dark purple that is almost black, yet there's a gleam on them.

"I don't do much," I say. "It just makes a nice break.

Continues...


Excerpted from Postcards From Berlin by Margaret Leroy Copyright © 2003 by Margaret Leroy
Excerpted by permission. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 17, 2004

    Gripping story - magnificent writing!

    I absolutely LOVED Postcards From Berlin. I read the whole book in 2 days while sick with the flu - What a treat! The story just flows from page to page to page making it absolutely entrancing and impossible to put down. I found Catriona to be such a likeable character and I was fighting for her the whole way through. I could feel her pain and anguish. I hope to see more from author Margaret Leroy soon!! Highly recommended!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 30, 2003

    A Gripping Story

    I loved this book. I found Cat a very appealing character, and the story of her troubled childhood brought a lump to my throat. Right from the atmospheric opening, when carol singers arrive at Cat¿s house, the world of the story is vividly evoked. Margaret Leroy writes beautifully ¿ the book is full of delicately described detail and sensitively observed relationships, and the love between mother and child is tenderly depicted. From the beginning, there is a sense of unease, with hints that this perfect world is going to fall apart. As the trap started to close around Cat, I found myself reading raptly, completely gripped by the story.

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    So so

    I felt this book had loose ends, didn't fully develop the character.

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