Save Me from Myself [NOOK Book]

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The amazing true story of an out-of-control rock star, his devastating addiction to drugs, and his miraculous redemption through Jesus Christ.

In February 2005, more than ten thousand people in Bakersfield, California, watched as Brian "Head" Welch—the former lead guitarist of the controversial rock band Korn—was saved by Jesus Christ. The event set off a media frenzy as observers from around the world sought to understand what led this rock ...

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Overview

The amazing true story of an out-of-control rock star, his devastating addiction to drugs, and his miraculous redemption through Jesus Christ.

In February 2005, more than ten thousand people in Bakersfield, California, watched as Brian "Head" Welch—the former lead guitarist of the controversial rock band Korn—was saved by Jesus Christ. The event set off a media frenzy as observers from around the world sought to understand what led this rock star out of the darkness and into the light.

Now, in this courageous memoir, Head talks for the first time about his shocking embrace of God and the tumultuous decade that led him into the arms of Jesus Christ. Offering a backstage pass to his time with Korn, Head tells the inside story of his years in the band and explains how his rock star lifestyle resulted in an all-consuming addiction to methamphetamines. Writing openly about the tour bus mayhem of Ozzfest and The Family Values tour, he provides a candid look at how the routine of recording, traveling, and partying placed him in a cycle of addiction that he could not break on his own.

Speaking honestly about his addiction, Head details his struggles with the drug that ultimately led him to seek a higher power. Despite his numerous attempts to free himself from meth, nothing—not even the birth of his daughter—could spur him to kick it for good. Here Head addresses how, with the help of God, he emerged from his dangerous lifestyle and found a path that was not only right for his daughter, it was right for him.

Discussing the chaotic end to his time in Korn and how his newfound faith has influenced his relationship with his daughter, his life, and his music, Head describes the challenging but rewarding events of the last two years, exposing the truth about how his moments of doubt and his hardships have only deepened his faith.

Candid, compelling, and inspirational, Save Me from Myself is a rock 'n' roll journey unlike any other.

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Editorial Reviews

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Guitarist from platinum-selling metal band gets trashed, has kid, gets born again, writes book. Melding old-school thrash rock with a Red Hot Chili Peppers-ish, hip-hop-ish attitude, California-based quartet Korn was at the forefront of the 1990s nu-metal movement. They were a hard-partying band, and founding guitarist Brian "Head" Welch often indulged in the stereotypical sex-and-drugs lifestyle right alongside his enabling Korn-ers. Eventually he realized it was difficult to simultaneously spearhead group meth sessions and properly raise his daughter Jennea. On one of his rare days off in 2004, Welch heard his five-year-old happily crooning the Korn tune "A.D.I.D.A.S." (an acronym for "all day I dream about sex"), which features such kid-friendly lyrics as, "Screwing may be the only way I can truly be free from my f***ed up reality." It dawned on him that harsh music and harsher substance abuse might not be the best influence on his child. Much to the shock of his bandmates and their fans, he swore off drugs, walked away from Korn and abruptly became a born-again Christian. Welch is a decent, if unexceptional storyteller, and he has good source material to work with: What meathead metal band's history doesn't include multiple moments of debauchery? His proselytizing grows repetitive, however, so some may find his autobiography at once alienating and dull. More to the point, it's schizophrenic-six chapters rock memoir, six chapters religious treatise. Only a small percentage of Korn's fan base is likely be interested in reading about the guitarist's spiritual awakening, and hardcore Christians are even less likely to want to read about a sideman from a band they've probably never heardof. Mildly inspirational, fairly cliched and an extremely tough sell.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780061753541
  • Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
  • Publication date: 10/13/2009
  • Sold by: HARPERCOLLINS
  • Format: eBook
  • Pages: 240
  • Sales rank: 130,429
  • File size: 2 MB

Meet the Author

Brian Welch

Brian "Head" Welch was one of the founding members of Korn. In 2005, after an intense spiritual awakening, he was instantly delivered from years of substance abuse with almost no symptoms of withdrawal. Today he lives and prays with his daughter Jennea in Arizona.

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First Chapter

Save Me from Myself
How I Found God, Quit Korn, Kicked Drugs, and Lived to Tell My Story

Chapter One

Life Begins in Bako

I grew up in a southern California town called Bakersfield, about an hour and a half from Los Angeles. In the past few years, the place has grown a ton, but when I was younger, it was still pretty small. There are two important things that you should know about Bakersfield when I was younger:

It was hot (we pretty much baked in the heat every summer, so we started calling it "Bako").

There wasn't much to do.

My childhood there was pretty typical. Like a lot of kids in Bako, I grew up in a nice enough house, with nice enough parents. We were pretty much a typical middle-class family of the eighties, living at the end of a cul-de-sac in a ranch-style house with a basement. The basement was everyone's favorite room. We had a home theater system down there (well, as good as home theaters got back then), huge couches, a huge pool table, a big "Asteroids" game (just like they had at the arcade), and some workout equipment. Even my dad liked hanging out down there, since that's where he had his wet bar and a little bathroom that he used every morning to get ready for work.

Because both of my parents worked a lot in order to provide for me and my older brother Geoff, there wasn't a lot of time for hugs in the house. While I knew we all loved each other, it wasn't the kind of place where everyone said it or showed it all the time. For the most part, my dad was a pretty cool guy. He coached my soccer team as well as my brother's, took us motorcycle riding, andwhen he was in a good mood, he made us laugh a lot.

But every now and then, he'd have these Mr. Hyde moments when he'd get kind of crazy. I don't want to sound like I grew up with some abusive father or anything, because he wasn't; when he was nice, he was really nice. But when he got angry, he got scary. Part of it had to do with his drinking; his dad was an alcoholic, and my dad drank a bit too. While my dad usually got happy when he was drunk, he definitely had his moments when his temper would flare up—even over little things. I remember a few times when my brother or I would spill a glass of milk at dinner, and he'd change into a totally different person, yelling at us with a voice full of anger, a voice that made us feel like we were going to get beatings, though he never followed through with those. A few minutes after his anger fits ended, he was usually back to normal. They were scary moments, but then they would pass.

Overall, my mom was pretty cool and laid back—more or less your standard mom. She cooked good dinners every night, helped get us ready for school in the mornings, kept the house really clean, basically your typical mom stuff. It seemed like she had it more together than anyone else in our house, but she had her issues too—just like everyone else in the world. Growing up, I felt the most love from my mom probably because she didn't have the unpredictable emotions that my dad did.

My brother Geoff is two years older than I am, and, like all brothers, he and I fought a lot when we were kids. A couple of times it was brutal, but it wasn't always that way. We also used to play games together for hours and make each other laugh. As we got older and became teenagers, we began pushing each other away in a more serious manner. In general, it wasn't personal; it was mostly that we were just into different stuff. For example, I was into heavy metal, but he was into new wave. Back then the rockers didn't get along with the new wave crowd. Geoff used to pin his jeans real tight at the bottom and his hair was long on one side of his face—down past his eye—while on the other side, it was cut short; it was the classic new wave hairdo. I would constantly make fun of him for it and for being new wave in general. One time we were arguing in our basement about something stupid, and I picked up a pool cue and whacked him with it as hard as I could. Got him good, too. I knew he was going to kill me for that, so I ran to my mom and hid behind her until he calmed down.

Even though he didn't get me that time, he usually got me back. When he was sixteen, he had this yellow Volkswagen bug that was slammed to the ground with matching yellow rims. One day I took the bus a half-hour across town to go hang out at the mall all day with one of my friends, and at the end of the day, I was tired and seriously not looking forward to another half-hour bus ride home. We saw my brother in his bug, and I asked him for a lift.

"No way!" he said. "I ain't giving a ride home to no rocker."

Like I said: different.

Our family moved from Los Angeles to Bako when I was in the fourth grade. My dad decided to go into business with my mom's brother, Tom, and his wife, Becky, and together they ran a Chevron truck stop in East Bakersfield, managing a staff of full-time truck mechanics, gas pumpers, and cashiers. My mom also worked with my dad at the Chevron too. Looking back on it, it was amazing that the two of them got along so well. They worked together all day, five or six days a week, then came home at night and dealt with me and Geoff. They had their problems—and we added to them—but they worked hard to make money and to make us a family.

Save Me from Myself
How I Found God, Quit Korn, Kicked Drugs, and Lived to Tell My Story
. Copyright © by Brian Welch. Reprinted by permission of HarperCollins Publishers, Inc. All rights reserved. Available now wherever books are sold.
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  • Posted August 20, 2010

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    Loved It!!

    I really enjoyed reading Brian's book. I grew up with rock'nroll in the 70's and my son grew with with Korn in the 90's. All that I've heard about living on the road as a rock band was confirmed in Brian's story.

    I am so happy for Brian that he has found Jesus and with that, peace.
    I asked to be in God's light when my son was born, over 20 yrs. ago.

    What Brian says about the struggles that Christians face in these pages are so true and he says it so eloquently.

    I have been inspired by your story, Brian, God Bless You!!

    5 out of 7 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted June 16, 2009

    Informational

    I have been a huge Korn fan for about 10 years, Head was always my fav. I was sad when he left Korn and always wondered why. The book really explains alot. Mostly all of the mistakes that he made though out his life and his recovery. It kept me going becuase I am a Korn fan and I wanted to know what exactlly happen that made him leave Korn. It was interesting to see inside the life of Korn. It would be a great read for someone that loves inspirational stories. Overall I am glad that I have read it just for the fact that I wanted to know what happened.

    5 out of 5 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted August 17, 2009

    I Also Recommend:

    I ready Fieldy's book first, then I needed to know how he and Head took such different approaches to living their faith so I bought this book.

    Head's story should be read by all Korn fans and anyone who cares about music, personal transformation & Christianity (or any one of them). I'm a Korn fan, both of these books made me take a deeper look at life and faith; now I'm an even bigger Korn fan! Thank you Head!

    4 out of 6 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 29, 2008

    What I Strive to Be Like

    I put reading this book off for many months. I finally started reading it and was blown away by how much I want to be like this guy. If God offers it, he wants it, regardless of how it might look. This was a wonderful book and I long to be closer to Jesus because of it.

    3 out of 3 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 17, 2012

    S'alright i guess

    Definitely NOT what i had expexted from someone who had spent so much time in one of the worlds biggest bands. Like most of korns recent releases welchs book is largely dissapointing and most of the time just seems to narc out and point the finger at his former bandmates.

    2 out of 5 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted January 5, 2011

    A DIFFERENT ANGLE

    This is a good read for seeing how God can change anyone. I learned about the sub-culture of dark-metal music. Brian did not sugar coat his story but was straight forward. I believe this book can and will reach a younger generation for Jesus Christ. Worth the time to read and software worked good on Nook.

    2 out of 3 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 21, 2009

    Ok....

    Well I have to admit I am having a really hard time reading this book even though I find the story quite interesting. I love Head to so it pains me to say this...the book is very elementary. I am not sure if he is just trying not to offend anyone.but the entire time I was reading it I question who he was writing this book for. The story was great, but I just felt like it was "dumbed" down some.

    2 out of 4 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 12, 2008

    Amazing, Uplifting......

    This book shoots it straight, with such honesty and true self descritpion, anyone can read this book and come away with something in thier hearts, the cover may be a little scary, but the story is lifechanging. He proves that if he can do it, anyone can better themselves. God Bless him and his family

    2 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted December 10, 2013

    Save Me From Myself

    The story starts out pretty good where he explains trouble growing up with drug and drinking problems and leads into the birth of his daughter. I am sorry, but I totally lost interest about half way through this book and I just couldn't finish it. I wish that he would have hired experts to help out with his story,because he has a message to express. I am proud of the author because of turning his life around, if he would write another book with the help of experts then I would consider purchasing again, but I will save the end of the story for a day when I have nothing better to read. No offense to the author, Please hire a team of writing experts to keep your story along a page turning pace and then you will gain a better reputation as an author and a healthy following of fans. Good Luck, Brian. God Speed

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted April 5, 2013

    HAHA

    HEAD FOUND KORN AGAIN!

    1 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted May 28, 2012

    Inspirational Read

    I appreciate the way he wrote this book as though he were having a conversation with a friend. Kudos to him for writing his story in such an honest light without glamorizing his drug use. It took courage to expose his journey to God and his day-to-day struggles. If you need inspiration to kick a habit, be a better parent, or find God, then this book is for you.

    1 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted November 15, 2011

    Amazing

    This is a book by a great guitarist that went through tons of things in his life. He was very weak and grew to be very strong. Inspirational and informational.

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted April 25, 2010

    I am an 68 year old recovering addict with some clean time and found Brian's story compelling. The Lord can help us suffering addicts if we let Him. Great story and I can relate with him. Will give this book to my group to enjoy. Happy days,ChcukD

    GREAT!

    1 out of 3 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted December 8, 2009

    Priorities

    Book review: Save Me from Myself

    In this exhilarating novel, Save Me from Myself, Brian "Head" Welch doesn't mess around by setting the scene. He starts off the book with a bang. Drug abuse, sex, a new born daughter, and some very serious marital problems.
    Brian starts out as a normal teenage rocker in Bako, California. Until he started to experiment with drugs, and that's where all of his problems got started. Brian was in many bands before he helped start KORN. Brian hated being on the road for many reasons, but you will have to figure those reasons out for yourself.
    I encourage everyone to read this novel. It doesn't matter if you are a KORN fan or not, you will be moved by this book because it's not just about a man who put on rock shows and partied a lot, it's also about life and how faith and family are the two most important things on the planet.
    Although Brian made it big, he was on a very rocky road all the way to the top. "Take life as it is."

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted December 4, 2009

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    Interesting and Inspiring

    Brian Welch may not be a natural writer for say, but he sure poured out everything he had from his past into this book, and I found it rather inspiring. As a former Korn fan turned Christian, no longer necessarily caring much for some of the lyrics within Korn's music, though I still listen to some of their songs, I thought it was totally awesome and inspiring what God did for Brian Welch. I mean...this guy was in a pretty bad place for so long, and when it didn't seem like anyone could save him from his despair, even himself, a loving God came down and rescued him, and I just think that's so amazing, and God really did a lot of great things through Brian after his transformation. I mean heck, if God can save a guy from drugs and have him kick the habit with little to no recovery or relapse, just think of what else He can do. God is the key people! He can take you from the deepest depths you may have been in or are in and can totally transform your life! Anyway, that's enough from me. Brian Welch also has a great album titled just like his book. I recommend it totally. It's like Korn in a lot of ways, but Christian. It's totally cool. He also has another book out called Washed By Blood, though I haven't read it, but I'm sure it's pretty good. I am going to check it out at some point. Anyway, check out this book all! God bless!

    1 out of 2 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 14, 2014

    Very good read!

    I'm a huge Korn fan and this was such a great read! I learned so much about the band and the members that made me love them even more now! Highly recommend

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  • Anonymous

    Posted May 9, 2014

    Never never...

    Love that song by them.........

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 23, 2013

    Save me from myself

    Excellent strength and powerful words from an amazing musician i totally admire.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 23, 2013

    Wow!

    Great book even though it did get disturbing at times! A great testament to what God can do in someones life!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 17, 2013

    Omg

    This guy looks like a girl with a beard

    0 out of 6 people found this review helpful.

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