Shadows Bright as Glass: The Remarkable Story of One Man's Journey from Brain Trauma to Artistic Triumph

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On a sunny fall afternoon in 1988, Jon Sarkin was playing golf when, without a whisper of warning, his life changed forever. As he bent down to pick up his golf ball, something strange and massive happened inside his head; part of his brain seemed to unhinge, to split apart and float away. For an utterly inexplicable reason, a tiny blood vessel, thin as a thread, deep inside the folds of his gray matter had suddenly shifted ever so slightly, rubbing up against his acoustic ...

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Overview

On a sunny fall afternoon in 1988, Jon Sarkin was playing golf when, without a whisper of warning, his life changed forever. As he bent down to pick up his golf ball, something strange and massive happened inside his head; part of his brain seemed to unhinge, to split apart and float away. For an utterly inexplicable reason, a tiny blood vessel, thin as a thread, deep inside the folds of his gray matter had suddenly shifted ever so slightly, rubbing up against his acoustic nerve. Any noise now caused him excruciating pain.

After months of seeking treatment to no avail, in desperation Sarkin resorted to radical deep-brain surgery, which seemed to go well until during recovery his brain began to bleed and he suffered a major stroke. When he awoke, he was a different man. Before the stroke, he was a calm, disciplined chiropractor, a happily married husband and father of a newborn son. Now he was transformed into a volatile and wildly exuberant obsessive, seized by a manic desire to create art, devoting virtually all his waking hours to furiously drawing, painting, and writing poems and letters to himself, strangely detached from his wife and child, and unable to return to his normal working life. His sense of self had been shattered, his intellect intact but his way of being drastically altered. His art became a relentless quest for the right words and pictures to unlock the secrets of how to live this strange new life. And what was even stranger was that he remembered his former self.

In a beautifully crafted narrative, award-winning journalist and Pulitzer Prize finalist Amy Ellis Nutt interweaves Sarkin’s remarkable story with a fascinating tour of the history of and latest findings in neuroscience and evolution that illuminate how the brain produces, from its web of billions of neurons and chaos of liquid electrical pulses, the richness of human experience that makes us who we are. Nutt brings vividly to life pivotal moments of discovery in neuroscience, from the shocking “rebirth” of a young girl hanged in 1650 to the first autopsy of an autistic savant’s brain, and the extraordinary true stories of people whose personalities and cognitive abilities were dramatically altered by brain trauma, often in shocking ways.

Probing recent revelations about the workings of creativity in the brain and the role of art in the evolution of human intelligence, she reveals how Jon Sarkin’s obsessive need to create mirrors the earliest function of art in the brain. Introducing major findings about how our sense of self transcends the bounds of our own bodies, she explores how it is that the brain generates an individual “self” and how, if damage to our brains can so alter who we are, we can nonetheless be said to have a soul.

For Jon Sarkin, with his personality and sense of self permanently altered, making art became his bridge back to life, a means of reassembling from the shards of his former self a new man who could rejoin his family and fashion a viable life. He is now an acclaimed artist who exhibits at some of the country’s most prestigious venues, as well as a devoted husband to his wife, Kim, and father to their three children. At once wrenching and inspiring, this is a story of the remarkable human capacity to overcome the most daunting obstacles and of the extraordinary workings of the human mind.

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Editorial Reviews

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For Jon Sarkin, it all began with a sudden jolt in the brain while he was playing a quiet round of golf. Surgeons remedied the resulting excruciating pain with radical deep-brain surgery that radically changed his personality, diminished his sense of self-identity, and then somehow activated a previously absent urge to create. In this fascinating narrative, two-time Pulitzer finalist Amy Ellis Nutt takes you through the creation of an "accidental artist" whose transformation offers telling hints about the links between brain and soul. A natural for readers of Oliver Sacks.

Booklist
“Nutt exquisitely twins the inspirational and vexing story of Jon Sarkin, brain-damaged chiropractor turned renowned artist, with an account of humankind’s eternal pursuit of the soul…Nutt’s compelling narrative makes this is a real page-turner.”
Alice Flaherty
Shadows Bright As Glass is a fascinating glimpse into the mysteries of the mind, brain and creativity. Jon Sarkin wrestles with the great questions of the search for self, questions that concern us all.”
Booklist (starred review)
“Nutt exquisitely twins the inspirational and vexing story of Jon Sarkin, brain-damaged chiropractor turned renowned artist, with an account of humankind’s eternal pursuit of the soul…Nutt’s compelling narrative makes this is a real page-turner.”
From the Publisher
Shadows Bright As Glass is a fascinating glimpse into the mysteries of the mind, brain and creativity. Jon Sarkin wrestles with the great questions of the search for self, questions that concern us all.”

“Fascinating…A mind-bending and inspiring book.”

“Nutt exquisitely twins the inspirational and vexing story of Jon Sarkin, brain-damaged chiropractor turned renowned artist, with an account of humankind’s eternal pursuit of the soul…Nutt’s compelling narrative makes this is a real page-turner.”

Kirkus Reviews

The fascinating story of how a chiropractor, after suffering a massive brain injury, became an acclaimed artist with an entirely new outlook on life.

When Jon Sarkin awoke from brain surgery that required the removal of part of his cerebellum, he knew something fundamental about his sense of self had changed. The cerebellum controls motor coordination, processes visual images and affects cognition, emotion and behavior, and while Sarkin ultimately made a remarkable physical recovery, he no longer felt the same way about life. Before, he'd been a pragmatic family man, dedicated to hispractice; after, he felt disassociated with those instincts, and instead experienceda "ferocious need to create" and began to drawcompulsively. Newark Star-Ledger veteran reporter Nutt incisively delves into the emotional and physical implications of such a shift, examining the relationship between the brain and the soul. For thousands of years, philosophers and scientists have investigated this relationship, pondering the physical location of self-identity (curiously, the brain was generallyconsidered superfluous to the soul, and other organs were linked to emotion and intellect). Only relatively recently have researchers concluded that physical brain matter contains the force of life;neurosurgeons can even identify parts of the brain containing specific memories and impulses. When Sarkin lost part of his cerebellum, he also lost part of his ability to identify who he was. "If our ability to sense the world is compromised," writes Nutt, "so is our sense of self." Sarkin's damaged brain, as it repaired neurons over time, enhanced certain impulses and sensations to make up for what was lost, leaving him with a heightened sense of color and space. Art became the medium in which he searched for his new self, and he filled in the gaps in his self-identity with pictures. He is now a well-known artist and writer, and has said that "[w]hen an artist is truly born, that is the end of the person that was a person before he was an artist."

A mind-bending and inspiring book.

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781439143100
  • Publisher: Free Press
  • Publication date: 4/5/2011
  • Pages: 288
  • Product dimensions: 6.00 (w) x 9.10 (h) x 1.10 (d)

Meet the Author

Amy Ellis Nutt has been a writer at The Newark Star-Ledger for thirteen years. She has won numerous national awards for newspaper writing and was a finalist for the Pulitzer Prize in feature writing for her series about Jon Sarkin. She holds two Masters degrees, one in philosophy from M.I.T., and one in journalism from the Columbia Graduate School of Journalism. She lives in New Jersey.

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Chapter 1

THIN AS A THREAD

There was money riding on the hole, as always. The two friends had battled back and forth all afternoon on the Cape Ann golf course, and though Hank Turgeon was finally ahead by a couple of bucks, he wasn’t about to let up. He’d already sprung for the beer: twelve mini cans of Budweiser stashed in ice in the side pocket of his golf bag. The beer probably weighed more than his clubs did—he carried just three irons and a driver. Jon Sarkin, however, had about a dozen irons and woods in his father’s old canvas bag. The competition may have been friendly, but Sarkin liked to be prepared for contingencies—the rough, trees, water—and Lord knows there were plenty of them when he played. He needed all the clubs he could carry.

By the time they reached the eighth hole, they were loose and laughing, enjoying their good-natured rivalry. Turgeon had the honor, stepped up to the tee, and took a healthy hack with his driver. He hit the ball fat and popped it high into the crisp, Wedgwood-blue sky, then watched it land in the thick rough, just fifty yards away.

“Nice shot,” Sarkin said sarcastically.

The time was about 3:00 p.m., Thursday, October 20, 1988, and the two friends had lucked out when they decided to cut out of work early, Sarkin from his chiropractic office, Turgeon from his carpentry. The weather was warm and sunny, and they both happily breathed in the ocean air wafting across the Cape Ann golf course, some thirty-five miles northeast of Boston. The nine public holes rest on a spit of land carved out of the swamp and rocks by glaciers thousands of years ago. Sarkin always enjoyed the view from the eighth tee box, the highest point on the course and the farthest from the clubhouse. To his left, a winding creek emptied into a thin slice of harbor that gave way to the yawning Atlantic. To his right, shards of sunlight splintered the last leaves on a tall oak, scattering shadows across the fairway. A slight breeze rippled the surface of the creek as Sarkin bent down, reached inside the pocket of his golf bag, and fished around for a tee. As he pulled his hand out, he experienced a hideous dizzying sensation, as if his brain had suddenly twisted inside his head. He stood up and froze.

What the hell just happened? he thought.

In less than half a second, a part of his head had seemed to unhinge, to split apart and rush away.

I’m going to die. I’m thirty-five years old and I’m going to die, he said to himself.

“Is anything wrong?” Turgeon asked.

Sarkin hesitated, trying to get his bearings.

“Nope.”

What could he say? That he felt as if his brain had just broken in half? Maybe the sensation would pass. Maybe he even imagined it. He took a few deep breaths, teed up his ball, and swung from his heels. As he often did on his drives, he topped the ball twenty yards—plunk—right into the marsh at the front of the tee box.

“You’re going to break your freakin’ neck with that swing.” Turgeon laughed.

Sarkin felt queasy, and as he walked toward the fairway, he tried not to move his head. What he did not know—what he could not know—was that somewhere deep in his brain, a single blood vessel had shifted ever so slightly and the movement, as miniscule as it was, had caused a cataclysmic response in one of his cranial nerves.

There are 100 billion capillaries in the human brain. Placed end to end they would stretch from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, to Portland, Maine. Inside Sarkin’s head a tiny patch of one of those blood vessels, as narrow as a thread and no longer than a single stitch, had suddenly bulged and was now touching, ever so slightly, the eighth cranial nerve. In that thinnest of breaths between one moment and the next, Sarkin’s hearing and balance were threatened and, if the vessel ruptured, possibly his life. He felt dizzy and nauseous and confused.

Sarkin didn’t bother looking for his ball, so he took a drop. Several strokes later, he finally chopped and hacked his way to the green. All he wanted was to go home.

“Do you mind if we quit?” he said after putting out.

“Sure,” Turgeon answered.

Sarkin had become quiet and Turgeon thought that maybe his friend was just frustrated with his game. No problem. He’d had enough, too, and it was getting cool, anyway. In the fading autumn light, they wound their way back to the clubhouse, dragging their clubs behind them.

On the ten-minute drive home to Gloucester, Sarkin sat glumly in the passenger seat of Turgeon’s navy-blue pickup truck, trying to right himself. Looking out the window at the autumn colors whirling by, he started to feel dizzy again. A sense of panic, even dread, enveloped him. He had no idea what was going to happen next. Often, after they played a round, the two friends drove up to Halibut Point for drinks, but Turgeon sensed Sarkin just wanted to get home.

The two had known each other since the early 1980s. Both played guitar and both occasionally jammed with a local band called the Joe Tones. Turgeon grew up on Cape Ann, and when he first met Sarkin, he wasn’t sure what to think. Here was this Eastern college boy in khaki pants and pressed shirt, smart and polite and straight-edged. But the guy sure knew music—jazz, folk, blues, rock. In the past several years, they had also become dedicated duffers. They played at least once a week after work or on the weekends. One summer they even rented a house in Truro, out on Cape Cod, and played thirty-six holes a day for a week. They were out in the sun so long they told each other they looked like burn victims.

By the time Turgeon dropped Sarkin off it was almost dark. He got out of the truck and slowly lifted his clubs from the bed.

“See ya,” he said.

Sarkin paced himself, walking carefully up the curving granite steps to the front door, still hoping the world might tilt back on its axis. When he walked in the door, his wife, Kim, knew immediately something wasn’t right. He looked miserable.

“What’s wrong, Jon?” she asked, balancing their nine-month-old baby boy on her hip. She watched as her husband walked slowly across the living room to the futon couch, sat down, and buried his head in his hands.

“What’s wrong?” she asked again, a little more urgently.

“I don’t know how to explain it,” he answered “Something happened. I was bending down, and then my brain just… twisted.”

Sarkin held two clenched fists in front of his face and then turned them, abruptly, in opposite directions, as if wringing out a wet towel.

“I don’t know what happened,” he said. “I just know everything is different. Everything’s different and it’s not ever going to be the same.”

© 2011 Amy Ellis Nutt

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Table of Contents

Prologue Shadows Bright as Glass 1

Chapter 1 Thin as a Thread 5

Chapter 2 A Thousand Screaming Baboons 9

Chapter 3 Rolling the Dice 13

Chapter 4 Six Cups of Fluid and Tissue 21

Chapter 5 Building a Life 27

Chapter 6 Code Blue 37

Chapter 7 The Mechanical Mind 44

Chapter 8 Two Halves 55

Chapter 9 Absolve Me 67

Chapter 10 Puzzle Pieces 78

Chapter 11 Adrift 86

Chapter 12 A Haunted House 93

Chapter 13 The Ghost and the Ice Pick 104

Chapter 14 A Double Consciousness 114

Chapter 15 The Accidental Artist 122

Chapter 16 Proceed with Abandon 125

Chapter 17 Bridging the Imaginable 134

Chapter 18 Art Boy 139

Chapter 19 The Inner Savant 144

Chapter 20 Blindsight 152

Chapter 21 Seeing Is Believing 158

Chapter 22 Senses and Sensibilities 163

Chapter 23 The Imagination Instinct 171

Chapter 24 Ghosts of the Present 174

Chapter 25 The Extended Self 178

Chapter 26 Boltflash 188

Chapter 27 Working in the Dark 194

Chapter 28 Things Speak for Themselves 199

Chapter 29 Richard's Gift 207

Chapter 30 Infinity On Trial 217

Chapter 31 The Loquacious Brain 222

Chapter 32 Finding Tommy 231

Chapter 33 Best Friends 235

Chapter 34 Unbound 239

Chapter 35 Flawed Words, Stubborn Sounds 245

Bibliography 251

Acknowledgments 261

Index 263

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  • Anonymous

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    Recommend for those that like science.

    This is a fascinating book about how the brain integrates ideas and controls our actions and emotions. There are several interesting detours along the main storyline, but these are rather short, odd and enjoyable to read. One thing that impresses you along the way is the inner strength of the entire Sarkin family.

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  • Posted August 13, 2011

    Great read

    Well written biography interspersed with the history of our understanding of how the brain works. Sarkin's story is amazing and the more research-oriented sections (such as a brief history of the lobotomy) are woven well with his story. You can tell Nutt did her homework, thoroughly researched and well written.

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