Since You've Been Gone

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Emily is about to take some risks and have the most unexpected summer ever. says, “Basically I couldn’t be more in love with this book,” from the bestselling author of Second Chance Summer and Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour.

Before Sloane, Emily didn’t go to parties, she barely talked to guys, and she didn’t do anything crazy. Enter Sloane, social tornado and the best kind of best friend—someone who yanks you out of your shell.


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Emily is about to take some risks and have the most unexpected summer ever. says, “Basically I couldn’t be more in love with this book,” from the bestselling author of Second Chance Summer and Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour.

Before Sloane, Emily didn’t go to parties, she barely talked to guys, and she didn’t do anything crazy. Enter Sloane, social tornado and the best kind of best friend—someone who yanks you out of your shell.

But right before what should have been an epic summer, Sloane just…disappears. There’s just a random to-do list with thirteen bizarre tasks that Emily would never try. But what if they can lead her to Sloane?

Apple picking at night? Okay, easy enough.

Dance until dawn? Sure. Why not?

Kiss a stranger? Wait…what?

Getting through Sloane’s list will mean a lot of firsts, and with a whole summer ahead of her—and with the unexpected help of the handsome Frank Porter—who knows what she’ll find.

Go Skinny Dipping? Um…

—Includes sixteen pages of bonus content!—

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Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
Emily Hughes’s best friend Sloane has disappeared without a trace—Emily has called, texted, and driven by her house, but it’s as though Sloane and her family have ceased to exist. Then, one of Sloane’s famous “to do” lists mysteriously shows up, with 13 directives for Emily, including “Kiss a stranger,” “Go skinny-dipping,” and “Dance until dawn.” In Sloane’s absence, the list—full of things she knew Emily would find fun, but a challenge, too—defines Emily’s summer, helping her meet new friends (including cute Frank Porter), come out of her shell, and find a way to hang on to Sloane. Despite the novel’s missing-friend hook, Matson (Second Chance Summer) primarily focuses on Emily’s progress with the list (the resolution of the question “What happened to Sloane?” is the weakest part of an otherwise thoroughly enjoyable story). Matson’s characters feel like familiar, comforting friends, even Sloane, who readers glimpse in periodic flashbacks. It’s a sweet, leisurely read with a title that, thanks to Kelly Clarkson, begs to be shouted out loud. Ages 12–up. Agent: Emily Van Beek, Folio Literary Management. (May)
"Hello Giggles"
"After reading Since You’ve Been Gone, I’m placing Morgan Matson on my list of Authors Whose Books I’ll Always Read."
VOYA, June 2014 (Vol. 37, No. 2) - Kathleen Beck
Emily’s best (and only) friend, charismatic and beautiful Sloane, disappears at the start of their senior summer, leaving Emily puzzled and bereft. Sloane is the leader, the one with the wild and wonderful ideas, and Emily, her faithful sidekick. Now all Emily has left is the list Sloane mailed her, tasks to complete before summer’s end: kiss a stranger, hug a Jamie (what?), ride a horse (gulp!), go skinny dipping. Emily convinces herself that if she accomplishes all thirteen tasks, Sloane will return. She cannot do it alone, though, and soon she has all-around overachiever Frank Porter; his best friend, Collins; and Dawn, the pizza-delivery girl who works next door, encouraging and abetting her. Then Emily sets herself the most difficult task of all: find Sloane. Punctuated by the iPod playlists Emily and Frank exchange, the story unfolds smoothly. Characters are three-dimensional and fully realized. Perfect Frank’s life is not so perfect, Emily finds, and Collins’s humorous, party-boy persona hides insecurity and self-doubt. As the tasks roll along, Emily learns to challenge herself, take a deeper look at Sloane, and cherish her own family’s eccentricities. Matson writes with humor and the rare ability to outline a character in a few, well-chosen words: Frank’s super-citizen girlfriend, Lissa, “made me [Emily] want to sit up straighter, and made me wish I’d read a newspaper recently.” Readers will cheer Emily as she emerges from Sloane’s shadow and claims her own space. This engaging story is a solid choice for both school and public libraries. Reviewer: Kathleen Beck; Ages 12 to 18.
Kirkus Reviews
A teenager disappears and leaves behind a quirky to-do list for her best friend. It's the beginning of summer, and Emily is disconsolate; her best friend, Sloane, is nowhere to be found. But she's disappeared before; her parents would occasionally steal Sloane away for a few days, and she would return tanned and with travel tales to tell. Without Sloane, reticent Emily feels like she's lost her spiritual and social tether. Finally, two weeks later, Sloane sends Emily a to-do list in the mail—but without a return address. The list includes daring, funny, incongruous items like "Hug a Jamie," "Steal something," and "Go skinny-dipping," and with the completion of each task, Emily is coaxed farther out of her shell. She recounts the navigation of the deep, unfamiliar waters of self-discovery in a grave, meticulous past tense. As she's on her way to complete the first item, she befriends Frank Porter—a handsome, kind and accomplished fellow student. Emily shares the list with him, and as Frank helps Emily cross off each item, their friendship deepens. Soon, Emily's having to remind herself that Frank has a serious girlfriend out of state, and anyway, they are just friends, right? Interspersed flashbacks provide revealing background into Sloane and Emily's friendship. A winning blend of touching moments, memorable characters and situational humor takes readers to a surprising revelation at the story's end. (Fiction. 12-16)
Morgan Matson "creates a time-and-space experience for teens that might actually interrupt their social media convos until they’re finished reading."
Justine Magazine
"We fell crazy in love with these characters."
"Hello Giggles
"After reading Since You’ve Been Gone, I’m placing Morgan Matson on my list of Authors Whose Books I’ll Always Read."
School Library Journal
Gr 7 Up—Emily is bereft when her bubbly and energetic best friend, Sloane, leaves without saying goodbye at the beginning of what should have been the best summer of their lives. Sloane was the one who planned their adventures and befriended everyone they met, and Emily is feeling more than a little lost when a letter arrives from Sloane containing a list of tasks for Emily to do over the summer. Hoping that the list contains clues to Sloane's whereabouts that will become clear as she crosses items off, Emily tackles the challenges, making new friends, overcoming her fears, and gaining confidence as the summer goes on. Readers will root for Emily as she gets a new job, skinny dips, uses the fake ID Sloane got for her, crashes a wedding, and kisses a stranger. Though marred by a few leaps of logic and the occasionally clunky turn of phrase, this is a thoroughly enjoyable book with a terrific romantic subplot and an ending that ties up the loose ends believably and satisfyingly. It will appeal to readers who loved Maureen Johnson's 13 Little Blue Envelopes (HarperCollins, 2005).—Stephanie Klose, Library Journal
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781442435001
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster Books For Young Readers
  • Publication date: 5/6/2014
  • Pages: 464
  • Sales rank: 558
  • Age range: 12 - 17 Years
  • Lexile: 970L (what's this?)
  • Product dimensions: 5.50 (w) x 8.40 (h) x 1.60 (d)

Meet the Author

Morgan Matson received her MFA in Writing for Children from the New School. She was named a Publishers Weekly Flying Start author for her first book, Amy & Roger’s Epic Detour, which was also recognized as an ALA Top Ten Best Book for Young Adults. Her second book, Second Chance Summer, won the California State Book Award. She lives in Los Angeles. Visit her at

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Since You’ve Been Gone THE LIST
The list arrived after Sloane had been gone two weeks.

I wasn’t at home to get it because I was at Sloane’s, where I had gone yet again, hoping against hope to find her there. I had decided, as I’d driven over to her house, my iPod off and my hands gripping the steering wheel, that if she was there, I wouldn’t even need an explanation. It wouldn’t be necessary for her to tell me why she’d suddenly stopped answering her phone, texts, and e-mails, or why she’d vanished, along with her parents and their car. I knew it was ridiculous to think this way, like I was negotiating with some cosmic dealer who could guarantee this for me, but that didn’t stop me as I got closer and closer to Randolph Farms Lane. I didn’t care what I had to promise if it meant Sloane would be there. Because if Sloane was there, everything could start making sense again.

It was not an exaggeration to say that the last two weeks had been the worst of my life. The first weekend after school had ended, I’d been dragged upstate by my parents against my wishes and despite my protests. When I’d come back to Stanwich, after far too many antique shops and art galleries, I’d called her immediately, car keys in my hand, waiting impatiently for her to answer so that she could tell me where she was, or, if she was home, that I could pick her up. But Sloane didn’t answer her phone, and she didn’t answer when I called back an hour later, or later that night, or before I went to bed.

The next day, I drove by her house, only to see her parents’ car gone and the windows dark. She wasn’t responding to texts and still wasn’t answering her phone. It was going right to voice mail, but I wasn’t worried, not then. Sloane would sometimes let her battery run down until the phone shut off, and she never seemed to know where her charger was. And her parents, Milly and Anderson, had a habit of forgetting to tell her their travel plans. They would whisk her off to places like Palm Beach or Nantucket, and Sloane would return a few days later, tan, with a present for me and stories to tell. I was sure that’s what had happened this time.

But after three days, and still no word, I worried. After five days, I panicked. When I couldn’t stand being in my house any longer, staring down at my phone, willing it to ring, I’d started driving around town, going to all of our places, always able to imagine her there until the moment I arrived to find it Sloane-free. She wasn’t stretched out in the sun on a picnic table at the Orchard, or flipping through the sale rack at Twice Upon a Time, or finishing up her pineapple slice at Captain Pizza. She was just gone.

I had no idea what to do with myself. It was rare for us not to see each other on a daily basis, and we talked or texted constantly, with nothing off-limits or too trivial, even exchanges like I think my new skirt make me look like I’m Amish, promise to tell me if it does? (me) and Have you noticed it’s been a while since anyone’s seen the Loch Ness monster? (her). In the two years we’d been best friends, I had shared almost all of my thoughts and experiences with her, and the sudden silence felt deafening. I didn’t know what to do except to continue texting and trying to find her. I kept reaching for my phone to tell Sloane that I was having trouble handling the fact she wasn’t answering her phone.

I drew in a breath and I held it as I pulled down her driveway, the way I used to when I was little and opening up my last birthday present, willing it to be the one thing I still didn’t have, the only thing I wanted.

But the driveway was empty, and all the windows were dark. I pulled up in front of the house anyway, then put my car in park and killed the engine. I slumped back against the seat, fighting to keep down the lump that was rising in my throat. I no longer knew what else to do, where else to look. But Sloane couldn’t be gone. She wouldn’t have left without telling me.

But then where was she?

When I felt myself on the verge of tears, I got out of the car and squinted at the house in the morning sun. The fact that it was empty, this early, was really all the evidence I needed, since I had never known Milly or Anderson to be awake before ten. Even though I knew there was probably no point to it, I crossed to the house and walked up the wide stone steps that were covered with bright green summer leaves. The leaves were thick enough that I had to kick them aside, and I knew, deep down, that it was more proof that nobody was there, and hadn’t been there for a while now. But I walked toward the front door, with its brass lion’s-head knocker, and knocked anyway, just like I’d done five other times that week. I waited, trying to peer in the glass on the side of the door, still with a tiny flicker of hope that in a second, any minute now, I’d hear Sloane’s steps as she ran down the hall and threw open the door, yanking me into a hug, already talking a mile a minute. But the house was silent, and all I could see through the glass was the historical-status plaque just inside the door, the one that proclaimed the house “one of Stanwich’s architectural treasures,” the one that always seemed covered with ghosts of fingerprints.

I waited another few minutes, just in case, then turned around and lowered myself to sit on the top step, trying very hard not to have a breakdown among the leaves.

There was a piece of me that was still hoping to find this had been a very realistic nightmare, and that any minute now, I’d wake up, and Sloane would be there, on the other end of her phone like she was supposed to be, already planning out the day for us.

Sloane’s house was in what was always called “backcountry,” where the houses got larger and farther apart from each other, on ever-bigger pieces of land. She was ten miles away from my place, which, back when I’d been in peak running shape, had been easy for me to cross. But even though they were close, our neighborhoods couldn’t have been more different. Here, there was only the occasional car driving past, and the silence seemed to underscore the fact that I was totally alone, that there was nobody home and, most likely, nobody coming back. I leaned forward, letting my hair fall around me like a curtain. If nobody was there, it at least meant I could stay awhile, and I wouldn’t be asked to leave. I could probably stay there all day. I honestly didn’t know what else to do with myself.

I heard the low rumble of an engine and looked up, fast, pushing my hair out of my face, feeling hope flare once more in my chest. But the car rolling slowly down the driveway wasn’t Anderson’s slightly dented BMW. It was a yellow pickup truck, the back piled with lawnmowers and rakes. When it pulled in front of the steps, I could see the writing, in stylized cursive, on the side. Stanwich Landscaping, it read. Planting . . . gardening . . . maintenance . . . and mulch, mulch more! Sloane loved when stores had cheesy names or slogans. Not that she was a huge fan of puns, but she’d always said she liked to picture the owners thinking them up, and how pleased with themselves they must have been when they landed on whatever they’d chosen. I immediately made a mental note to tell Sloane about the motto, and then, a moment later, realized how stupid this was.

Three guys got out of the truck and headed for the back of it, two of them starting to lift down the equipment. They looked older, like maybe they were in college, and I stayed frozen on the steps, watching them. I knew that this was an opportunity to try and get some information, but that would involve talking to these guys. I’d been shy from birth, but the last two years had been different. With Sloane by my side, it was like I suddenly had a safety net. She was always able to take the lead if I wanted her to, and if I didn’t, I knew she would be there, jumping in if I lost my nerve or got flustered. And when I was on my own, awkward or failed interactions just didn’t seem to matter as much, since I knew I’d be able to spin it into a story, and we could laugh about it afterward. Without her here, though, it was becoming clear to me how terrible I now was at navigating things like this on my own.

“Hey.” I jumped, realizing I was being addressed by one of the landscapers. He was looking up at me, shielding his eyes against the sun as the other two hefted down a riding mower. “You live here?”

The other two guys set the mower down, and I realized I knew one of them; he’d been in my English class last year, making this suddenly even worse. “No,” I said, and heard how scratchy my voice sounded. I had been saying only the most perfunctory things to my parents and younger brother over the last two weeks, and the only talking I’d really been doing had been into Sloane’s voice mail. I cleared my throat and tried again. “I don’t.”

The guy who’d spoken to me raised his eyebrows, and I knew this was my cue to go. I was, at least in their minds, trespassing, and would probably get in the way of their work. All three guys were now staring at me, clearly just waiting for me to leave. But if I left Sloane’s house—if I ceded it to these strangers in yellow T-shirts—where was I going to get more information? Did that mean I was just accepting the fact that she was gone?

The guy who’d spoken to me folded his arms across his chest, looking impatient, and I knew I couldn’t keep sitting there. If Sloane had been with me, I would have been able to ask them. If she were here, she probably would have gotten two of their numbers already and would be angling for a turn on the riding mower, asking if she could mow her name into the grass. But if Sloane were here, none of this would be happening in the first place. My cheeks burned as I pushed myself to my feet and walked quickly down the stone steps, my flip-flops sliding once on the leaves, but I steadied myself before I wiped out and made this more humiliating than it already was. I nodded at the guys, then looked down at the driveway as I walked over to my car.

Now that I was leaving, they all moved into action, distributing equipment and arguing about who was doing what. I gripped my door handle, but didn’t open it yet. Was I really just going to go? Without even trying?

“So,” I said, but not loudly enough, as the guys continued to talk to each other, none of them looking over at me, two of them having an argument about whose turn it was to fertilize, while the guy from last year’s English class held his baseball cap in his hands, bending the bill into a curve. “So,” I said, but much too loudly this time, and the guys stopped talking and looked over at me again. I could feel my palms sweating, but I knew I had to keep going, that I wouldn’t be able forgive myself if I just turned around and left. “I was just . . . um . . .” I let out a shaky breath. “My friend lives here, and I was trying to find her. Do you—” I suddenly saw, like I was observing the scene on TV, how ridiculous this probably was, asking the landscaping guys for information on my best friend’s whereabouts. “I mean, did they hire you for this job? Her parents, I mean? Milly or Anderson Williams?” Even though I was trying not to, I could feel myself grabbing on to this possibility, turning it into something I could understand. If the Williamses had hired Stanwich Landscaping, maybe they were just on a trip somewhere, getting the yard stuff taken care of while they were gone so they wouldn’t be bothered. It was just a long trip, and they had gone somewhere with no cell reception or e-mail service. That was all.

The guys looked at each other, and it didn’t seem like any of these names had rung a bell. “Sorry,” said the guy who’d first spoken to me. “We just get the address. We don’t know about that stuff.”

I nodded, feeling like I’d just depleted my last reserve of hope. Thinking about it, the fact that landscapers were here was actually a bit ominous, as I had never once seen Anderson show the slightest interest in the lawn, despite the fact that the Stanwich Historical Society was apparently always bothering him to hire someone to keep up the property.

Two of the guys had headed off around the side of the house, and the guy from my English class looked at me as he put on his baseball cap. “Hey, you’re friends with Sloane Williams, right?”

“Yes,” I said immediately. This was my identity at school, but I’d never minded it—and now, I’d never been so happy to be recognized that way. Maybe he knew something, or had heard something. “Sloane’s actually who I’m looking for. This is her house, so . . .”

The guy nodded, then gave me an apologetic shrug. “Sorry I don’t know anything,” he said. “Hope you find her.” He didn’t ask me what my name was, and I didn’t volunteer it. What would be the point?

“Thanks,” I managed to say, but a moment too late, as he’d already joined the other two. I looked at the house once more, the house that somehow no longer even felt like Sloane’s, and realized that there was nothing left to do except leave.

I didn’t head right home; instead I stopped in to Stanwich Coffee, on the very off chance that there would be a girl in the corner chair, her hair in a messy bun held up with a pencil, reading a British novel that used dashes instead of quotation marks. But Sloane wasn’t there. And as I headed back to my car I realized that if she had been in town, it would have been unthinkable that she wouldn’t have called me back. It had been two weeks; something was wrong.

Strangely, this thought buoyed me as I headed for home. When I left the house every morning, I just let my parents assume that I was meeting up with Sloane, and if they asked what my plans were, I said vague things about applying for jobs. But I knew now was the moment to tell them that I was worried; that I needed to know what had happened. After all, maybe they knew something, even though my parents weren’t close with hers. The first time they’d met, Milly and Anderson had come to collect Sloane from a sleepover at my house, two hours later than they’d been supposed to show up. And after pleasantries had been exchanged and Sloane and I had said good-bye, my dad had shut the door, turned to my mother, and groaned, “That was like being stuck in a Gurney play.” I hadn’t known what he’d meant by this, but I could tell by his tone of voice that it hadn’t been a compliment. But even though they hadn’t been friends, they still might know something. Or they might be able to find something out.

I held on to this thought tighter and tighter as I got closer to my house. We lived close to one of the four commercial districts scattered throughout Stanwich. My neighborhood was pedestrian-friendly and walkable, and there was always lots of traffic, both cars and people, usually heading in the direction of the beach, a ten-minute drive from our house. Stanwich, Connecticut, was on Long Island Sound, and though there were no waves, there was still sand and beautiful views and stunning houses that had the water as their backyards.

Our house, in contrast, was an old Victorian that my parents had been fixing up ever since we’d moved in six years earlier. The floors were uneven and the ceilings were low, and the whole downstairs was divided into lots of tiny rooms—originally all specific parlors of some kind. But my parents—who had been living, with me, and later my younger brother, in tiny apartments, usually above a deli or a Thai place—couldn’t believe their good fortune. They didn’t think about the fact that it was pretty much falling down, that it was three stories and drafty, shockingly expensive to heat in the winter and, with central air not yet invented when the house was built, almost impossible to cool in the summer. They were ensorcelled with the place.

The house had originally been painted a bright purple, but had faded over the years to a pale lavender. It had a wide front porch, a widow’s walk at the very top of the house, too many windows to make any logical sense, and a turret room that was my parents’ study.

I pulled up in front of the house and saw that my brother was sitting on the porch steps, perfectly still. This was surprising in itself. Beckett was ten, and constantly in motion, climbing up vertiginous things, practicing his ninja moves, and biking through our neighborhood’s streets with abandon, usually with his best friend Annabel Montpelier, the scourge of stroller-pushing mothers within a five-mile radius. “Hey,” I said as I got out of the car and walked toward the steps, suddenly worried that I had missed something big in the last two weeks while I’d sleepwalked through family meals, barely paying attention to what was happening around me. But maybe Beckett had just pushed my parents a little too far, and was having a time-out. I’d find out soon enough anyway, since I needed to talk to them about Sloane. “You okay?” I asked, climbing up the three porch steps.

He looked up at me, then back down at his sneakers. “It’s happening again.”

“Are you sure?” I crossed the porch to the door and pulled it open. I was hoping Beckett was wrong; after all, he’d only experienced this twice before. Maybe he was misreading the signs.

Beckett followed behind me, stepping into what had originally been an entry parlor, but which we had turned into a mud-room, where we dropped jackets and scarves and keys and shoes. I walked into the house, squinting in the light that was always a little too dim. “Mom?” I called, crossing my fingers in my jean shorts pockets, hoping that Beckett had just gotten this wrong.

But as my eyes adjusted, I could see, through the open door of the kitchen, an explosion of stuff from the warehouse store one town over. Piled all over the kitchen counters were massive quantities of food and supplies in bulk—instant mac and cheese, giant boxes of cereal, gallons of milk, a nearly obscene amount of mini micro cheesy bagels. As I took it in, I realized with a sinking feeling that Beckett had been totally correct. They were starting a new play.

“Told you,” Beckett said with a sigh as he joined me.

My parents were a playwriting team who worked during the school year at Stanwich College, the local university and the reason we had moved here. My mom taught playwriting in the theater department, and my dad taught critical analysis in the English department. They both spent the school year busy and stressed—especially when my mom was directing a play and my dad was dealing with his thesis students and midterms—but they relaxed when the school year ended. They might occasionally pull out an old script they’d put aside a few years earlier and tinker with it a little, but for the most part, they took these three months off. There was a pattern to our summers, so regular you could almost set your calendar to it. In June, my dad would decide that he had been too hemmed in by society and its arbitrary regulations, and declare that he was a man. Basically, this meant that he would grill everything we ate, even things that really shouldn’t be grilled, like lasagna, and would start growing a beard that would have him looking like a mountain man by the middle of July. My mother would take up some new hobby around the same time, declaring it her “creative outlet.” One year, we all ended up with lopsided scarves when she learned to knit, and another year we weren’t allowed to use any of the tables, as they’d all been taken over by jigsaw puzzles, and had to eat our grilled food off plates we held on our laps. And last year, she’d decided to grow a vegetable garden, but the only thing that seemed to flourish was the zucchini, which then attracted the deer she subsequently declared war on. But by the end of August, we were all sick of charred food, and my dad was tired of getting strange looks when he went to the post office. My dad would shave, we’d start using the stove inside, and my mother would put aside her scarves or puzzles or zucchini. It was a strange routine, but it was ours, and I was used to it.

But when they were writing, everything changed. It had happened only twice before. The summer I was eleven, they sent me to sleepaway camp—an experience that, while horrible for me, actually ended up providing them with the plot of their play. It had happened again when I was thirteen and Beckett was six. They’d gotten an idea for a new play one night, and then had basically disappeared into the dining room for the rest of the summer, buying food in bulk and emerging every few days to make sure that we were still alive. I knew that ignoring us wasn’t something either of them intended to do, but they’d been a playwriting team for years before they’d had us, and it was like they just reverted back to their old habits, where they could live to write, and nothing mattered except the play.

But I really didn’t want this to be happening right now—not when I needed them. “Mom!” I called again.

My mother stepped out of the dining room and I noticed with a sinking feeling that she was wearing sweatpants and a T-shirt—writing clothes—and her curly hair was up in a knot on top of her head. “Emily?” my mom asked. She looked around. “Where’s your brother?”

“Um, here,” Beckett said, waving at her from my side.

“Oh, good,” my mother said. “We were just going to call you two. We need to have a family meeting.”

“Wait,” I said quickly, taking a step forward. “Mom. I needed to talk to you and Dad. It’s about Sloane—”

“Family meeting!” my dad boomed from inside the kitchen. His voice was deep, very loud, and it was the reason he was always getting assigned the eight a.m. classes—he was one of the few professors in the English department who could keep the freshmen awake. “Beckett! Emily!” he stepped out of the kitchen and blinked when he saw us. “Oh. That was fast.”

“Dad,” I said, hoping I could somehow get in front of this. “I needed to talk to you guys.”

“We need to talk to you, too,” my mother said. “Your father and I were chatting last night, and we somehow got on—Scott, how did we start talking about it?”

“It was because your reading light burned out,” my dad said, taking a step closer to my mom. “And we started talking about electricity.”

“Right,” my mother said, nodding. “Exactly. So we started talking about Edison, then Tesla, and then Edison and Tesla, and—”

“We think we might have a play,” my dad finished, glancing into the dining room. I saw they already had their laptops set up across the table, facing each other. “We’re going to bounce around some ideas. It might be nothing.”

I nodded, but I knew with a sinking feeling that it wasn’t nothing. My parents had done this enough that they knew when something was worth making a bulk supermarket run. I knew the signs well; they always downplayed ideas they truly saw promise in. But when they started talking excitedly about a new play, already seeing its potential before anything was written, I knew it would fizzle out in a few days.

“So we might be working a bit,” my mother said, in what was sure to be the understatement of the summer. “We bought supplies,” she said, gesturing vaguely to the kitchen, where I could see the jumbo-size bags of frozen peas and microwave burritos were starting to melt. “And there’s always emergency money in the conch.” The conch shell had served as a prop during the Broadway production of Bug Juice, my parents’ most successful play, and now, in addition to being where we kept household cash, served as a bookend for a listing pile of cookbooks. “Beckett’s going to be at day camp during the week, so he’s all set. Annabel’s going too,” my mother said, maybe noticing Beckett’s scowl.

“What about camping?” he asked.

“We’ll still go camping,” my dad said. Maybe seeing my alarmed look, he added, “Just your brother and me. The Hughes men in the wilderness.”

“But . . .” Beckett looked into the dining room, his brow furrowed.

My dad waved this away. “We aren’t going until July,” he said. “And I’m sure this idea won’t amount to much anyway.”

“What about you, Em?” my mom asked, even as she drifted closer to the dining room, like she was being pulled there by gravitational force. “Do you have your summer plans worked out?”

I bit my lip. Sloane and I had made plans upon plans for this summer. We had concert tickets purchased, she had told me she had mapped out something called a “pizza crawl,” and I had decided we should spend the summer seeking out Stanwich’s best cupcake. Sloane had a plan for both of us to find “summer boys,” but she had been vague on just how we were going to accomplish this. We’d blocked off the weekends we would drive upstate to the various flea markets she’d spent the last few months scouting, and I’d already gone through the drive-in calendar and decided which nights we needed to block off for the double features. She’d planned on making friends with someone who had a pool, and had decided this would be the summer she’d finally beat me at mini golf (I was weirdly naturally skilled at it, and I’d discovered that Sloane got strangely competitive when there were stuffed-animal prizes involved). I wanted to learn the zombie dance from “Thriller” and she wanted to learn the dance from London Moore’s new video, the one that had sparked all sorts of protests from parents’ groups.

At some point, we were going to need to get jobs, of course. But we’d decided it was going to be something unchallenging that we could do together, like we had the summer before, when we’d waitressed at the Stanwich Country Club—Sloane earning more tips than anyone else, me getting a reputation for being an absolute whiz at filling the ketchup bottles at the end of the night. We’d also left lots of time unscheduled—the long stretches of hours we’d spend at the beach or walking around or just hanging out with no plan beyond maybe getting fountain Diet Cokes. It was Sloane—you usually didn’t need more than that to have the best Wednesday of your life.

I swallowed hard as I thought about all these plans, the whole direction I’d planned for my summer to go, just vanishing. And I realized that if Sloane were here, suddenly having my parents otherwise occupied and not paying attention to things like my curfew would have meant we could have had the most epic summer ever. I could practically see that summer, the one I wanted, the one I should have been living, shimmering in front of me like a mirage before it faded and disappeared.

“Emily?” my mother prompted, and I looked back at her. She was in the same room with me, she was technically looking at me, but I knew when my parents were present and when their minds were on their play. For just a moment, I thought about trying to tell them about Sloane, trying to get them to help me figure out what had happened. But I knew that they’d say yes with the best of intentions and then forget all about it as they focused on Tesla and Edison.

“I’m . . . working on it,” I finally said.

“Sounds good,” my dad said, nodding. My mom smiled, like I’d given her the answer she’d wanted, even though I hadn’t told them anything concrete. But it was clear they wanted this off their plates, so they could consider their children more or less sorted, and they could get to work. They were both edging toward the dining room, where their laptops glowed softly, beckoning. I sighed and started to head to the kitchen, figuring that I should get the frozen stuff into the freezer before it went bad.

“Oh, Em,” my mother said, sticking her head out of the dining room. I saw my father was already sitting in his chair, opening up his laptop and stretching out his fingers. “A letter came for you.”

My heart slowed and then started beating double-time. There was only one person who regularly wrote to me. And they weren’t even actually letters—they were lists. “Where?”

“Microwave,” my mother said. She went back into the dining room and I bolted into the kitchen, no longer caring if all the burritos melted. I pushed aside the twelve-pack of Kleenex and saw it. It was leaning up against the microwave like it was nothing, next to a bill from the tree guy.

But it was addressed to me. And it was in Sloane’s handwriting.


One Year Earlier

“You sent me a list?” I asked. Sloane looked over at me sharply, almost dropping the sunglasses—oversize green frames—that she’d just picked up.

I held out the paper in my hands, the letter I’d seen propped up by the microwave as I headed down that morning, on my way to pick her up and drive us to the latest flea market she’d found, an hour and change outside of Stanwich. Though there hadn’t been a return address—just a heart—I’d recognized Sloane’s handwriting immediately, a distinctive mix of block letters and cursive. “It’s what happens when you go to three different schools for third grade,” she’d explained to me once. “Everyone is learning this at different stages and you never get the fundamentals.” Sloane and her parents lived the kind of peripatetic existence—picking up and moving when they felt like it, or when they just wanted a new adventure—that I’d seen in movies, but hadn’t known actually existed in real life.

I’d learned by now that Sloane used this excuse when it suited her, not just for handwriting, but also for her inability to comprehend algebra, climb a rope in PE, or drive. She was the only person our age I knew who didn’t have a license. She claimed that in all her moves, she’d never quite been the right age for a permit where they were, but I also had a feeling that Milly and Anderson had been occupied with more exciting things than bringing her to driver’s ed and then quizzing her every night over dinner, geeking out on traffic regulations and the points system, like my dad had done. Whenever I brought up the fact that she lived in Stanwich now, and could get a Connecticut license without a problem, Sloane waved it away. “I know the fundamentals of driving,” she’d say. “If I’m ever on a bus that gets hijacked on the freeway, I can take over when the driver gets shot. No problem.” And since Sloane liked to walk whenever possible—a habit she’d picked up living in cities for much of her life, and not just places like Manhattan and Boston, but London and Paris and Copenhagen—she didn’t seem to mind that much. I liked to drive and was happy to drive us everywhere, Sloane sitting shotgun, the DJ and navigator, always on top of telling me when our snacks were running low.

An older woman, determined to check out the selection of tarnished cufflinks, jostled me out of the way, and I stepped aside. This flea market was similar to many that I’d been to, always with Sloane. We were technically here looking for boots for her, but as soon as we’d paid our two dollars apiece and entered the middle school parking lot that had been converted, for the weekend, into a land of potential treasure, she had made a beeline to this stall, which seemed to be mostly sunglasses and jewelry. Since I’d picked up the letter, I’d been waiting for the right moment to ask her, when I’d have her full attention, and the drive had been the wrong time—there was music to sing along to and things to discuss and directions to follow.

Sloane smiled at me, even as she put on the terrible green sunglasses, hiding her eyes, and I wondered for a moment if she was embarrassed, which I’d almost never seen. “You weren’t supposed to get that until tomorrow,” she said as she bent down to look at her reflection in the tiny standing mirror. “I was hoping it would be there right before you guys left for the airport. The mail here is too efficient.”

“But what is it?” I asked, flipping through the pages. Emily Goes to Scotland! was written across the top.

1. Try haggis.

2. Call at least three people “lassie.”

3. Say, at least once, “You can take my life, but you’ll never take my freedom!”

(Say this out loud and in public.)

The list continued on, over to the next page, filled with things—like fly-fishing and asking people if they knew where I could find J.K. Rowling—that I did not intend to do, and not just because I would only be gone five days. One of my parents’ plays was going into rehearsals for the Edinburgh Fringe Festival, and they had decided it would be the perfect opportunity to take a family trip. I suddenly noticed that at the very bottom of the list, in tiny letters, she’d written, When you finish this list, find me and tell me all about it. I looked up at Sloane, who had set the green pair down and was now turning over a pair of rounded cat-eye frames.

“It’s stuff for you to do in Scotland!” she said. She frowned at the sunglasses and held up the frames to me, and I knew she was asking my opinion. I shook my head, and she nodded and set them down. “I wanted to make sure you got the most of your experience.”

“Well, I’m not sure how many of these I’ll actually do,” I said as I carefully folded the letter and placed it back in the envelope. “But this is awesome of you. Thanks so much.”

She gave me a tiny wink, then continued to look through the sunglasses, clearly searching for something specific. She had spent most of the spring channeling Audrey Hepburn—lots of winged black eyeliner and stripes, skinny black pants and aflats—but was currently transitioning into what she was calling “seventies California,” and referencing people like Marianne Faithfull and Anita Pallenberg, who I’d never heard of, and Penny Lane in Almost Famous, who I had. Today, she was wearing a flowing vintage maxi dress and sandals that tied around her ankles, her wavy dark-blond hair spilling over her shoulders and down her back. Before I’d met Sloane, I didn’t know that it was possible to dress the way she did, that anyone not heading to a photo shoot dressed with that much style. My own wardrobe had improved immeasurably since we’d become friends, mostly stuff she’d picked for me, but some things I’d found myself and felt brave enough to wear when I was with her, knowing that she would appreciate it.

She picked up a pair of gold-rimmed aviators, only slightly bent, and slipped them on, turning to me for my opinion. I nodded and then noticed a guy, who looked a few years younger than us, staring at Sloane. He was absently holding a macramé necklace, and I was pretty sure that he had no idea that he’d picked it up and would have been mortified to realize it. But that was my best friend, the kind of girl your eyes went to in a crowd. While she was beautiful—wavy hair, bright blue eyes, perfect skin dotted with freckles—this didn’t fully explain it. It was like she knew a secret, a good one, and if you got close enough, maybe she’d tell you, too.

“Yes,” I said definitively, looking away from the guy and his necklace. “They’re great.”

She grinned. “I think so too. Hate them for me?”

“Sure,” I said easily as I walked a few steps away from her, making my way up toward the register, pretending to be interested in a truly hideous pair of earrings that seemed to be made out of some kind of tinsel. In my peripheral vision, I saw Sloane pick up another pair of sunglasses—black ones—and look at them for a moment before also taking them to the register, where the middle-aged guy behind it was reading a comic book.

“How much for the aviators?” Sloane asked as I edged closer, looking up as if I’d just noticed what she’d picked up.

“Twenty-five,” the guy said, not even looking up from his comic.

“Ugh,” I said, shaking my head. “So not worth it. Look, they’re all dented.”

Sloane gave me a tiny smile before putting her game face back on. I knew she’d been surprised, when we’d first started this bargaining technique, that I’d been able to roll with it. But when you grew up in the theater, you learned to handle impromptu improv. “Oh, you’re right,” she said, looking at them closely.

“They’re not that dented,” the guy said, putting his comic—Super Friends—down. “Those are vintage.”

I shrugged. “I wouldn’t pay more than fifteen for them,” I said, and saw, a moment too late, Sloane widen her eyes at me. “I mean ten!” I said quickly. “Not more than ten.”

“Yeah,” she said, setting them down in front of the guy, along with the square-framed black ones I’d seen her pick up. “Also, we just got here. We should look around.”

“Yes, we should,” I said, trying to make it look like I was heading toward the exit without actually leaving.

“Wait!” the guy said quickly. “I can let you have them for fifteen. Final offer.”

“Both of these for twenty,” Sloane said, looking him right in the eye.

“Twenty-one,” the guy bargained lamely, but Sloane just smiled and dug in her pocket for her cash.

A minute later, we were heading out of the stall, Sloane wearing her new aviators. “Nicely done,” she said.

“Sorry for going too high,” I said, as I stepped around a guy carrying an enormous kitten portrait. “I should have started at ten.”

She shrugged. “If you start too low, you sometimes lose the whole thing,” she said. “Here.” She handed me the black sunglasses, and I saw now that they were vintage RayBans. “For you.”

“Really?” I slipped them on and, with no mirror around, turned to Sloane for her opinion.

She look a step back, hands on hips, her face serious, like she was studying me critically, then broke into a smile. “You look great,” she said, digging in her bag. She emerged with one of her ever-present disposable cameras, and snapped a picture of me before I could hold my hand up in front of my face or stop her. Despite having a smartphone, Sloane always carried a disposable camera with her—sometimes two. She had panoramic ones, black-and-white ones, waterproof ones. Last week, we’d taken our first beach swim of the summer, and Sloane had snapped pictures of us underwater, emerging triumphant and holding the camera over her head. “Can your phone do this?” she’d asked, dragging the camera over the surface of the water. “Can it?”

“They look okay?” I asked, though of course I believed her.

She nodded. “They’re very you.” She dropped her camera back in her bag and started wandering through the stalls. I followed as she led us into a vintage clothing stall and headed back to look at the boots. I ducked to see my reflection in the mirror, then checked to make sure her letter was secure in my bag.

“Hey,” I said, coming to join her in the back, where she was sitting on the ground, already surrounded by options, untying her sandals. I held up the list. “Why did you mail this to me? Why not give it to me in person?” I looked down at the envelope in my hands, at the stamp and postmark and all the work that had gone into it. “And why mail anything at all? Why not just tell me?”

Sloane looked up at me and smiled, a flash of her bright, slightly crooked teeth. “But where’s the fun in that?”

1. Kiss a stranger.

2. Go skinny-dipping.

3. Steal something.

4. Break something.

5. Penelope.

6. Ride a dern horse, ya cowpoke.

7. 55 S. Ave. Ask for Mona.

8. The backless dress. And somewhere to wear it.

9. Dance until dawn.

10. Share some secrets in the dark.

11. Hug a Jamie.

12. Apple picking at night.

13. Sleep under the stars.

I sat on my bed, gripping this new list in my hands so tightly, I could see the tips of my fingers turning white.

I wasn’t sure what it meant, but it was something. It was from Sloane. Sloane had sent me a list.

As soon as I’d taken it out of the envelope, I’d just stared at it, my brain not yet turning the symbols into words, into things I could parse. In that moment, it had been enough to know that she had sent me something, that she wasn’t just going to disappear and leave me with nothing but questions and memories. There was more to it than that, and it made me feel like the fog I’d been walking around in for the past two weeks had cleared to let in some sunlight.

Like the others she’d sent—one appearing every time I went away, even if it was just for a few days—there was no explanation. Like the others, it was a list of outlandish things, all outside my comfort zone, all things I would never normally do. The lists had become something of a running joke with us, and before every trip I’d wonder what she was going to come up with. The last one, when I’d gone to New Haven with my mom for a long weekend, had included things like stealing the bulldog mascot, named Handsome Dan, and making out with a Whiffenpoof (I later found out Anderson had gone to Yale, so she’d been able to include lots of specifics). Over the years, I’d managed to check off the occasional item on a trip, and always told her about it, but she always wanted to know why I hadn’t done more, why I hadn’t checked off every single one.

I looked down at the list again, and saw that something about this one was different. There were some truly scary things here—like skinny-dipping and having to deal with my lifelong fear of horses, the very thought of which was making my palms sweat—but some of them didn’t seem so bad. A few of them were almost doable.

And as I read the list over again, I realized these weren’t the random items that had accompanied my travels to California and Austin and Edinburgh. While many of them still didn’t make sense to me—why did she want me to hug someone named Jamie?—I recognized the reasoning behind some of them. They were things I’d backed away from, usually because I was scared. It was like she was giving me the opportunity to do some things over again, and differently this time. This made the list seem less like a tossed-off series of items, and more like a test. Or a challenge.

I turned the paper over, but there was nothing on the other side of it. I picked up the envelope, noted her usual drawing where most people just wrote their addresses—this time she’d drawn a palm tree and a backward moon—and that the postmark was too smudged for me to make out a zip code in it. I looked down at the list again, at Sloane’s careful, unmistakable handwriting, and thought about what was sometimes at the bottom of these—When you finish this list, find me and tell me all about it. I could feel my heart beating hard as I realized that this list—that doing these terrifying things—might be the way I would find her again. I wasn’t sure how, exactly, that was going to happen, but for the first time since I’d called her number and just gotten voice mail, it was like I knew what to do with myself. Sloane had left me a map, and maybe—hopefully—it would lead me to her.

I read through the items, over and over again, trying to find one that wasn’t the most terrifying thing I had ever done, something that I could do right now, today, because I wanted to begin immediately. This list was going to somehow bring me back to Sloane, and I needed to get started.

S. Ave in number seven had to mean Stanwich Avenue, the main commercial street in town. I could show up there and ask for Mona. I could do that. I had no idea what 55 Stanwich Avenue was, but it was the easiest thing on the list, by far. Feeling like I had a plan, some direction, for the first time in two weeks, I pushed myself off my bed and headed for the door.


“Oh my god!” I yelled this as I jumped involuntarily. My brother was in my doorway—but not just leaning against the doorframe like a normal person. He was at the very top of the frame, his legs pressed against one side of it, his back against the other. It was his newest thing, after he’d seen it done in some ninja movie. He’d terrified us all at first, and now I just habitually looked up before entering a room. To say Beckett had no fear of heights was an understatement. He’d figured out how to scale the roof of our house when he was five, and if we were trying to find him, we all started by looking up.

“Sorry,” Beckett said, not sounding sorry, shrugging down at me.

“How long have you been there?” I asked, realizing that while I’d been absorbed in my letter, my brother had come into my room and climbed to the top of my doorframe, all without me noticing.

He shrugged again. “I thought you saw me,” he said. “Can you drive me somewhere?”

“I’m about to go out,” I said. I glanced back at Sloane’s list, and then realized I had just left it sitting out on my bed. Our cat was only in the house about half the time, but he seemed to have a preternatural ability to know what was important, and he always destroyed those things first. I picked up the letter and placed it carefully back into the envelope, then tucked it into my top dresser drawer, where I kept my most important things—childhood mementos, pictures, notes Sloane had slipped into my hand between classes or through the slats of my locker.

“Where?” Beckett asked, still from above me.

“Stanwich Avenue,” I said. I craned my neck back to see him, and suddenly wondered if that was why he did this—so that we’d all have to look up at him for a change, instead of the other way around.

“Can you take me to IndoorXtreme?” he asked, his voice getting higher, the way it did when he was excited about something. “Annabel told me about it. It’s awesome. Bikes and ropes courses and paintball.”

I was about to tell my brother sorry, that I was busy, but there was something in his expression that stopped me, and I knew that if I went without him, I’d spend the whole time feeling guilty. “Are you going to want to spend a lot of time there?” I asked. “If I drop you off at this Extreme place? Because I have somewhere I need to go.”

Beckett grinned. “Hours,” he said. “Like, all afternoon.” I nodded, and Beckett lifted his foot and did basically a free fall down the doorframe, stopping himself before he hit the ground and jumping to his feet. “Meet you at the car!” He raced out of my room, and I glanced back to my dresser.

I caught my reflection in the mirror above it, and I ran a brush though my hair quickly, hoping that Mona—whoever she was—wouldn’t be someone that I needed to impress. I was wearing a vintage T-shirt Sloane had insisted I buy, and a pair of jean cutoffs. I was tall—I had a good four inches on Sloane, unless she was in one of her heel phases—and the only really interesting thing about me were my eyes, which were two different colors. One was brown, and one was brown and blue, and Sloane had freaked out the first time she’d noticed it, trying out all sorts of different eye shadow combinations, trying to see if she could get them to turn the same color. My hair was brown, pin-straight, and long, hitting halfway down my back, but anytime I’d talked about cutting it, Sloane had protested. “You have such princess hair,” she’d said. “Anyone can have short hair.”

I tucked my hair behind my ears, then pulled open my top drawer to make sure the list and the envelope were still safe. When I was sure they were, I headed downstairs, turning over and over in my head what I was about to do—55 S. Ave. Ask for Mona.

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  • Posted May 23, 2014



    Have you ever known, even before you held a book in your hand, that it was going to be awesome. That when you were finished reading it, you’re whole world would be changed?  I have, and it is why I read — I’m always looking for that next hit of life-changing words.  That’s exactly how I felt in the months and weeks leading up to receiving Since You’ve Been Gone.  

    When I say I hugged the book, I’m not kidding. I actually unwound it from its tightly wrapped paper and hugged it, like it was a long-lost best friend.  And I kept wanting to hug it while I was reading.  Every few pages I would just have to set it down and soak in the words I had read.  I was lost in a battle of wills — wanting to devour every word and wanting to savor every moment I had with the book.

    When I was reading about Emily, I felt like I was reading about myself. I understood her in ways I couldn’t even imagine. Painfully shy and lacking in her own identity, some scenes were incredibly hard for me to read and not feel a pang of heartache for my teen self.  

    Emily grows in leaps and bounds through this book, and she does it with the help of some really well-developed characters.  I loved Collins, Dana, and of course Frank.  Frank’s obsession with a well-ordered universe was just fantastic. 

    I’ve read Matson’s last book, Second Chance Summer, and I saw some really great parallels to that book and this one.  In SCS, the dad loves puns.  In this book, the best friend does (well, she just loves to think about the time that goes into naming businesses with puns in the title).  In SCS, the neighbors are screenwriters and in SYBG, the parents are playwrights.  It was really interesting to see the parallels besides the obvious one: summertime.  I can’t wait to read Amy & Roger’s Epic Detour to see what other parallels exist. 

    The list was cute and made me want to start giving my BBF (seriously, long story) a list of things to do. It had a certain camaraderie that made Sloane a very visible character even when she is present for very little of the book in flash back form.  Also, Matson is the best when it comes to flash backs — they are always so well timed and really help propel the story forward, without causing too much of a break in pace.

    I loved the way the story ended — of course you know Sloane is missing and there is this list to go through before summer ends, but you really don’t know how it is going to end up.  I got one tiny clue of Sloane’s whereabouts, but I was really happy with the way things ended up. It was a really great wind down and the perfect way to end out a fantastic story. I didn’t feel like I was flooring the breaks as I gained speed going downhill like I do with some books (seriously, “HOW will they wrap everything up in those few pages” is a phrase my brain thinks far too often), but I felt like it was a natural, steady culmination.

    If you are looking for a book to connect with… If you are looking for a book about friendship and growing up and love… If you are looking for a great book to read by the pool… If you are looking for a book to fall in love with… If you are looking for any of these, Since You’ve Been Gone should definitely be the next book you pick up.  This is my new favorite book of 2014 and one that is going on my “tell everyone you know to buy” list.

    3 out of 3 people found this review helpful.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 2, 2014

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    I went to the store looking for contemporary books and this was one of the books I happened to purchase. I'm so incredibly happy I bought this book! Everything about this book was perfect! The characters were funny and the plot was fantastic. It's rare that I find myself actually laughing out loud when reading a book, but this made me do it (multiple times). This book is actually life changing and if you are yet to experience it, GO NOW! BUY THIS BOOK! 

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted July 7, 2014

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    Initially I was hesitant to purchase this book because, although

    Initially I was hesitant to purchase this book because, although I love a lot of "coming-of-age" stories, it's very rare to find a book from an author who can 
    actually write a great coming-of-age story. Most authors I've read (and there have been a lot) that write about adventures about being a teenager
    and all the high school drama, usually leave a bitter taste in my mouth, making me super happy that I graduated from high school. 
    But Morgan Matson truly has a gift in this genre because not only was her story captivating, her characters were so relatable and fun. Morgan Matson 
    reminded me of all those special "firsts" for me as an awkward teen and how those memorable and pivotal moments in my past changed me and molded me into the woman I am today. I sincerely enjoyed Emily's journey and I am really glad that I took a chance on this book. It was well worth the money I spent and right after I rate this book, I am going to look at another book by this amazing author. Happy Reading!!!

    1 out of 1 people found this review helpful.

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  • Posted December 26, 2014

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    A must read

    This book was good I have been amazed that all the books I have been reading have been amazing. I loved the friendship and romance in this book. I can really relate to the main character I am also shy and i like to hang in the background. The list is totally something my best friend would do to me. This book is worth the buy and read.

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  • Posted December 21, 2014

    one of my favorite books of all time i recommend this to EVERYON

    one of my favorite books of all time i recommend this to EVERYONE

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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 7, 2014

    Too much narative.

    Verbose. A whole lotta narative. I think there was a cute story there but, the first hundred or more pages were hard to get through.


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  • Anonymous

    Posted December 3, 2014


    Since you've been gone yeah yeah I can(nt) breathe for the first time...

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  • Anonymous

    Posted November 19, 2014


    I feel in love with the cover and the book itself is just plain amazing! I love the story line and throughout the book you follow the main character point of view and go along to read about the main characters late summer nights, fun travels, and a list to complete! I totally think you should buy this book!

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  • Posted October 31, 2014

    I seriously adored this book. A few chapters in, I suddenly foun

    I seriously adored this book. A few chapters in, I suddenly found myself unable to put it down, and finished it in a marathon session. I had to know what happened to Sloane, and was Emily really going to finish the entire list? What was up with Frank? 

    I saw a few people complaining that the list was "tame" and too "vanilla". Maybe it was because I wasn't the most popular girl in school, I was the "good girl" but I wouldn't have done most of the things on the list in high school. Some people look at it and go "bah, I have done that/do that all the time!" But for those of us a little more like Emily, it was a small victory to see her overcome her fears and conquer the list.
    Overall, it was a great story of friendship and finding out who you really are. My only complaint was that I was a little dissatisfied with how things between Emily and Dawn and Emily and Collins were left, but not enough to say the book wasn't amazing. I highly recommend it, and I will most definitely be picking up Morgan Matson's back list. 

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  • Posted October 10, 2014

    Emily starts out her summer before her senior year with a missin

    Emily starts out her summer before her senior year with a missing friend and a very strange to-do list. On the list are tasks like apple picking at night, kissing a stranger, and dancing until dawn. The only problem, her best friend Sloane—the writer of the list—isn’t there to help her out. After a series of strange interactions and a lot of verbal fumbling, Emily makes some new friends and goes on an emotional journey that could help her slip out of her very small shell.

    Finding yourself isn’t a piece of cake, and Morgan Matson doesn’t let Emily take the easy way out. Emily chooses to do things she, and I, would never normally do. Honestly, Emily is completely relatable—besides the cross country running thing. I don’t do that, kudos to those who do. She’s amazingly awkward, and her thoughts noticeably show that specific characteristic. She makes me feel 100% socially competent. Although Emily is a very fleshed out character, her companions are not. Frank is the good guy, Collins is the good guy’s wild best friend, and Dawn is the new BFF. That’s all.

    And while Matson’s story is completely believable, there are some minor issues. Emily is an observer, but it’s hard to observe your own changes. Especially when they’re buried somewhere on the inside with all of those feelings and other emotional stuff, yet Emily is able to recognize her own character growth rather effortlessly. Also, it’s a fast-paced story, which somewhere along the way loses pieces of its ending. I’m left with questions, and that is not okay. Okay?

    So, your to-do list in regards to this book: 1) Expect some cutesy, fluffy, fun stuff. 2) Be prepared for the awkwardness. You know you can relate. 3) Enjoy the playlists of songs provided in the book—Music is cool, and comedy clips are not. You’ll get my reference when you read it. 4) Sigh at all the lovey-dovey moments, not because they’re cheesy, but because they’re cute. 5) Understand that the things I wrote earlier are possible for you to feel while reading. And finally, 6) Smile throughout.

    3/5 stars

    *Note: I received a copy of this book to review from Book Review Board of Missouri. This in no way altered my opinion/review.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted October 9, 2014

    Must read!!!!!

    This is a fabulous book for any girl out there! However the amazing ending really surprised me, which isnt something that happens a lot to me... but it love when it does... AND I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!!!

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    Posted September 9, 2014

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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 15, 2014


    LOVE IT. one of the best books ive read in a long time. Everything about it is perfect. Read this

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  • Posted July 31, 2014

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    Since You've Been Gone is a fun, feel good novel about a girl le

    Since You've Been Gone is a fun, feel good novel about a girl learning to stand on her own.  Morgan Matson wove a sort of magic in her words that made it impossible for me to put this down!  It's not often I come across a contemporary that I like as much as I liked this one.  Morgan Matson has secured a spot on my "Authors I Must Read" list.  

    The characters in this book were amazing!  They completely stole my heart.  I related so much with Emily.  She was in the shadow of her best friend, always tagging along and never making the plans.  She was comfortable that way.  I went through a similar situation when I was younger so I knew exactly what she was feeling.  Seeing the way she slowly began to hold her own in her life and gain more confidence was awesome.  You could tell that Sloane never meant to overshadow Emily, it was just the way their personalities reacted to each other.  We didn't see a lot of first hand Sloane but from what we did see, she seemed so fun loving.  The list that she left for Emily to do showed how well she knew Emily and how she challenged her to push her boundaries.  

    We also had Frank.  I love this guy so much.  He was just a genuinely good person.  It was refreshing to see a love interest in YA that wasn't brooding, dangerous, or intimidating.  He was smart, caring, and helpful.  It was hilarious seeing him try to help Emily with the list, especially with things like kiss a stranger and skinny dipping.  He complimented her perfectly and they worked wonderfully together.  I loved that they became friends before anything even slightly romantic happened.  Also, their runs were the best!

    The list added structure to the plot and helped it move along.  However, when things weren't playing out with the list, things became a little slow.  I was never bored but I was anxious to see Emily move along and complete things on the list.  

    Since You've Been Gone is a book worth reading!  If you like fun, hilarious, and heart-warming novels, you're not going to want to miss this one!  I'm definitely going to be looking out for more books by this author.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 20, 2014

    Please read

    So i dont know anything bout this book so dont lisen to my rating any way i was hoping somone might give me sone insight on how this book is but dont tell me the story i just want to know if it is a good book or a waste if money

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  • Anonymous

    Posted July 19, 2014

    Since youve been gone

    I really like this book. I was not much interested in it until i read the back , saw the lis and enjoyed the first3 chapters. I figured out that this book would very enjoyable during chapter4. I hated how sloane wwnt missing! But it was a very good mysterty to solve with emily. You could mentally solve where and why sloane left without explanation with emily. I very muched enjoyed this book and i hope Morgan Matson would appreciate to mae much more!!!

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  • Posted July 12, 2014

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    The perfect summer read--everything about Since You've Been Gone

    The perfect summer read--everything about Since You've Been Gone makes it perfect for summer. First of all, there's the cover and the fact that it's set in summer, but most importantly, this book is a super fun, mostly light, and romantic. It has a list of tasks for Emily to complete and a great group of people she becomes friends with. There are playlists, sweet inside jokes, funny and quotable moments, and just the right amount of feels. There is a very strange family, an amazing love interest, his funny best friend, a pizza girl, a great (but absent) best friend, and a very relatable heroine. It is the best friendship book I've read in a long time. 

    What else do you need in a summer read?

    I really connected to Emily because I could relate to her quite a bit. I felt her emotions, especially in the moments when she felt absolutely alone. Surprisingly, those parts made me cry. There were two chapters where it was just so sad. I wasn't expecting that!

    I loved Frank the moment he was introduced into the story. He was such a good friend, love interest, and character in general. His quirks made him so likable! He was amazing.

    The romance was so sweet! However, friendship was the bigger focus. I loved how friendship was developed before romance came into the story (there were hints of it before that point, but just that--hints). Frank and Emily became very good friends and that just made their romance all the more stronger.

    I loved the structure. Each chapter focused on one task of the list, which just felt nice to read. Each task got its own spotlight, which made completing them more important. There were also flashbacks throughout the story, which really helped me get to know Sloane. I didn't always like her because I was mad at her for just leaving without a word, but I ended up thinking she was an awesome character.

    Overall, I loved Since You've Been Gone. It was a very fun read. There's really not much more to say that this: go read this book!

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  • Posted July 10, 2014

    You can find more of my reviews here at my blog: Take Me Away.

    You can find more of my reviews here at my blog: Take Me Away...

    Morgan Matson is one of my auto-buy authors. It doesn't matter what she comes up with, when a new title of hers is released, I automatically add it to my TBR pile. And that's exactly what happened with this one. With this read she not only justified that 1,000 times over, but she also solidified my belief that she is the Queen of Realistic Fiction.

    I feel that the easiest way to review contemporaries is starting with the characters and then going on the romance. So, lets start with Emily. Emily at the beginning seems like a very shy, normal, teenage girl. But as the book goes on and we see the flashbacks on Sloane, we see that Sloane is the exact opposite and forces Emily to be courageous and do some things that are definitely out of character for her. All because she was worried if she didn't do them Sloane wouldn't like her any longer. To me, she seemed really impressionable. At first it bothered me a little, but she grew tremendously during the novel and I could see why Matson chose to do it that way. As for Frank, I really liked his character. He felt like a real teen boy with real fears and real life stressful situations. He was everything a teen boy really is. He really helped Emily turn her life around and managed to help her just have fun. And last but not least, there's Sloane. While she was there she seemed like a great friend. But just leaving like she did and not mentioning anything was a little hurtful. She didn't give either one of them a chance to stay friends. She just gave it all up. I could see why Emily was a little hurt. It felt like to Sloane their two years as besties meant nothing.But even still, Sloane was a whimsical and carefree girl with some deep guarded secrets. 

    As for the romance, I could see it from the very beginning. I wasn't sure because of that one thing, but as the story went on I found myself not caring. I know it was bad, but I was really starting to ship them. Even when the other dude got in the picture. But with that being said, I was really upset when they had the little argument. As she just kept cutting him off and talking over him I could feel myself starting to get upset as my ship was sinking lol. But I was so happy that things came together in the end. At the end of a summer where they both found out so much about themselves, they both deserved to be happy and I'm glad they got that. 

    Last but not least, I want to talk about the writing style. Morgan Matson is the Queen of YA realistic fiction. From the very beginning I was sucked in to Emily's story as if I was her next door neighbor and was really watching each scene play out. I really want to know if there was anything on that list inspired by a true story lol. Because that's what it seems like. It seems like the list was the only fiction part and Matson went through some old memories and put them on a page for her readers to enjoy. 

    So basically, I loved this book and Emily's story. I'm hoping for another one with Sloane completing her list or basically telling her story a little more in depth because I would really like to see what happened to her and what will happen to her. Clearly I was invested in this story and it's realistic characters and awesome romance

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 15, 2014


    I am soooo lucky because I got to read the book before it even came out. I love it soooo much. This is a truly wonderful read.

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  • Anonymous

    Posted June 13, 2014


    This book was great! First off I looovvee the cover, I think it really explains the story. Second I loovvee the book it was very well written and I really like the list. I can really relate to her and I love how the list gets her out of her comfort zone. It was really great. I LOVED IT! :)

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