Table of Contents
Introduction 1
Act I The Self (Connecting Back to You)
How to Deal with Loneliness 17
I Found Myself through Doughnuts, Barbells, and a Motorcycle 23
My Bathroom Stall Moment 28
How I Connected Back to Me 31
Self-Care Is Your First Date 42
Running to Stand Still 44
Pump These Pistons or Your Life Engine Will Not Move 51
Even Wonder Woman Has to Take Her Bracelets Off Sometimes 56
How to Treat Your Mind Better 64
Detach to Connect 73
My First Sweat Angel 75
Finding My Soul While Shitting in the Woods 80
Get Off the Island or You'll Always Be Tom Hanks Talking to a Volleyball 85
How to Make Friends as an Adult 93
Act II Relationship Residue (Letting Go)
Our Love Journey in a Shot Glass 101
Boots and Boners 108
The Search for Love Starts Earlier than You Think 112
Tracy Chapman Saved My Life 115
What Moving On Really Looks Like 120
"My Pus*y Knows Things" 123
"My Wife Won't Give Me Blow Jobs Anymore" 126
My Next Love Experience (Moving Through) 130
Street Art, a Parrot, and Long Hair I Couldn't Pull Off 136
Now Go Fuck Somebody 147
"I Knew on My Wedding Day It Was a Mistake" 150
Dating Apps, DMs, and the First Time I Did Molly 154
One of the Most Common Mistakes in Relationships 165
Act III The New You
Closure Isn't What You Think It Is 171
The Dog Died → I Finally Sat Down with My Ex-Wife → I Put My Hair Away 179
"Do You Date White Girls?" 184
The Picket Fence Has Splinters 191
How to Get a Life 195
Nothing Wrong Doesn't Mean There's Nothing Wrong 201
My First Mushroom Experience 205
Rip Up Your Blueprints 211
Reworth Yourself 216
Live at a Higher Frequency 221
It's Time to Believe Again 225
Final Thoughts: Every. Single. Day. 227
Single On Purpose Mixtape 229
Acknowledgments 235