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Summer Snowby Nicole Baart
Julia DeSmit is finally learning to accept her new life. Optimistic and anxious to begin again after dropping out of college, she is taking fumbling steps down a challenging yet hope-filled road. But the careful existence Julia has begun to build falls hopelessly to pieces when her estranged mother, Janice, appears on the front porch one icy March night. Mother and… See more details below
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Julia DeSmit is finally learning to accept her new life. Optimistic and anxious to begin again after dropping out of college, she is taking fumbling steps down a challenging yet hope-filled road. But the careful existence Julia has begun to build falls hopelessly to pieces when her estranged mother, Janice, appears on the front porch one icy March night. Mother and daughter have not seen or talked in ten years, and a decade of anger, resentment, and bitterness follows in Janice's wake, along with a surprise Julia could never have anticipated. Julia is convinced that which is broken cannot be mended. Yet when she faces the very decision her mother did years before, she begins to realize what it means to truly accept grace. Will it be her undoing, or the impetus for a change she'd never dared hope for?
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Chapter One humility
It's not that I ever had delusions of grandeur, or even that I think I am better than anyone else, but there is something about donning a tag that says, "Please be patient; I'm a trainee" and asking, "Would you like paper or plastic?" that is uniquely, even brutally, humbling. Paired with a blue canvas apron cinched tight across my expanding waist, the plastic name tag screamed from my chest and made me frighteningly conspicuous at a time in my life when I longed for anonymity like parched earth wants for rain.
Cover me, I thought the first time I dressed in the awful ensemble. Standing alone in my room in front of a mirror too honest to disguise the profound hideousness of it, I felt more exposed than if I had been wearing a skirt that barely covered my floral-print panties. "Oh, God, if You love me at all," I breathed, "cover me."
He didn't answer. But I thought that maybe He was listening-Grandma promised me He was-and I held on to that hope, fledgling though it was. I couldn't claim to understand Him, but I felt a deep and growing need to try, even if He deigned to ignore my current plea for rescue.
"You look cute," Grandma commented diplomatically when I sulked into the kitchen moments later. But by the glint of a smile in her eye I knew that cute was a euphemism for ridiculous. "Just don't tuck your shirt in, Julia. It won't ... you know ... look too ..." She fluffed her fingers around her midsection, and flour poofed from her hands in small clouds like smoke from somewhere up a magician's sleeve. She cautiously, encouragingly, raised an eyebrow at me.
I looked down to see the petite crescent curve of my belly pressing against the knotted apron strings. Startled by what I saw, I sucked in impulsively. It disappeared-the growing evidence of her disappeared, a flat shadow beneath a fold of cerulean. "That's the best I can do," I said dolefully. "We have to tuck our shirts in. It's part of the dress code. And-" I reached into the front pocket of the apron and produced a thin, mustard yellow tie-"we have to wear this."
Grandma almost burst out laughing but only allowed herself a restrained little chuckle. "You know, I see those kids in Value Foods every week, but I never really noticed the uniform. Is that a clip-on?"
I nodded bleakly and snapped the clip at her, alligator-style, before affixing it to my starched collar.
"It's crooked, honey." She wiped her fingertips on a towel and left the bread dough that she had been kneading to circle around the worn oak table and face me. She tugged at the obscene bit of fabric, pulling it this way and that before tucking it under the top of my apron and stepping back. "There." The word sounded almost portentous to me-definitive.
"I'm going to be late," I croaked, clearing my throat self-consciously. "Don't wait up for me. I'm helping out with a restock tonight. They're going to train me how to record inventory...."
Grandma pursed her lips and spread her arms in understanding. I walked heavily into her embrace. "I'm proud of you," she murmured into my hair. "It's really not that bad, is it?"
I didn't want to be melodramatic, but I couldn't drown the sick feeling that was rising past my chest and into my throat, where it sat threateningly at the back of my tongue. They'll see me, I thought. They'll judge me. But I said, "You're right; it's not so bad. It's just that all the high school kids work there. I'll be the oldest person besides the manager...."
"You only graduated last year," Grandma reminded, trying to cheer me up. "You'll probably even know some of the employees!"
Great, I thought.
But she was doing her best to be helpful, and I managed a wry smile because at the very least she hadn't said, "You'll have so much in common with them!" The disappearing smoothness beneath the straight line of my apron guaranteed that I would have nothing in common with my coworkers.
"Well," I said, pressing my palms together and trying to force a little enthusiasm into my voice, "I'd better go or I'll be late."
"Wouldn't want that your first day on the job!" Grandma followed me into the mudroom and gave my back a little pat when my coat was zipped up and my hand was on the door. "It's going to be just fine."
"I know," I replied without blinking.
She watched from the door as I drove away, but the sun was already a memory on the horizon-a thin ribbon of purple, little more than a bruise left by the imprint of orange-and I'm sure all she saw of my departure was taillights. It was better that way. I hated the thought of her seeing how I strangled the steering wheel.
Value Foods was far from the worst place in town to work. There was the packing plant, the egg plant, the paint factory, and a wide assortment of hog farms, cattle farms, dairy farms, and goat farms where my skin could absorb a variety of rancid smells that would stay with me even after multiple showers with lye soap and industrial-strength hand cleaners. The grocery store was tame compared to the rest of the job market in Mason, and in truth, I was lucky to get the job. I needed something full-time, with benefits, and as much as I hated to admit it, I was thankful that Mr. Durst, the manager, lived just over the South Dakota border and wouldn't mind that my pregnancy would progress before the entire town like a neatly drawn life cycle in a full-color science textbook. What was my personal scandal to him? In fact, when I warily mentioned in my job interview that I was three months pregnant, Mr. Durst had looked at me as if to say, So what? He did ask, "Will it interfere with your ability to perform your job?"
I assured him I would be able to scan boxes of cereal and bag oranges well into my third trimester if not up to the day I delivered.
He grunted and handed me a uniform from out of a stack on the desk behind him.
"Do you want to know my size?" I wondered out loud, holding the standard-issue pants, shirt, and apron gingerly.
"Small, medium, large, extra large" was his only comment, and indeed, when I located the tag inside the shirt, it read medium. For a while at least.
"Start with that," Mr. Durst instructed. "We'll get you more later."
Training was an evening job since, for most people in our conservative little town, the hours after suppertime were reserved for baths and play and television, not grocery shopping. When I drove into the parking lot at seven o'clock, it boasted only a dozen cars or so, and though I was tempted to pull close to the door and save myself the trek through below-freezing temperatures, I dutifully drove way to the back of the lot, where the employees were supposed to park. I yanked my hood over my head and stuffed my hands into my pockets, running the whole way across the empty parking lot with my apron flapping against my knees.
The store was overly bright, and someone had turned the elevator music a tad too loud. A little grocery cart corral at the front of the first aisle was stacked with carts, and only one checkout lane was open. The cashier, someone I didn't recognize, was sitting on the counter right beside the red-eyed scanner and blowing a fluorescent green bubble so big I was afraid it would pop and get stuck in her eyebrows. She sucked it in when she saw me and gave a bored wave, beckoning me over with a flick of her wrist.
"You're Julie, right?" she asked.
Though there was no hint of unfriendliness in her voice, I cringed when she called me Julie.
"Julia," I corrected, trying to sound upbeat.
She just stared. "Okay, whatever. You're late, by the way."
I twisted my watch on my arm and consulted the face again though I had already checked it twice since driving up. "It's a minute to seven," I argued.
"Clark-he's the assistant manager-insists that we be at least ten minutes early for every shift. Better if it's fifteen minutes; he'll forgive you if it's five. But you're late."
"Nobody told me that," I said and regretted how whiny it came out.
She shrugged. "He's waiting for you in the back room."
"Thank you." I started off past the registers.
It was a small thing, the thank-you, but it must have endeared me to her the tiniest bit, because as I was walking away, she offered, "Never sit on the counter." She drummed her fingers on the laminate surface beside her thighs as if to illustrate her point. "But if you're going to, make sure that Clark is in the back room. He'll kill you if he catches you."
I smiled and made a mental note of the name on her tag. "Alicia." And below that: "2 years of faithful service."
The back room of Value Foods was little more than an extended storeroom. The walls were cold, concrete blocks and the shelving was stark and unattractive, the ugly sister of the sleeker, more appealing units that graced the aisles of the store and made things like Ho Hos look appetizing. There was a dingy bathroom near the loading dock and a sprawling metal table that served as a break room at the far end of the elongated hall. Both locations were barely illuminated by naked lightbulbs that fought valiantly to dispel the dismal shadows but lost miserably. When I'd used the bathroom after my interview, I considered telling someone about the one burned-out bulb above the sink. But standing over the corroded fixtures and browning drain, I acquiesced. Crummy lighting actually improved the overall impression of the entire back room.
Thankfully, I knew I wouldn't find Clark amid the boxes and gloom. Opposite the break area at the far end of the passage was a duo of glass-fronted offices. The one on the left-the office with two actual windows to the outside world-was Mr. Durst's. I had been told the other office belonged to the assistant manager, Clark Henstock.
The light was on in his office, and he was looking at me through the glass.
I walked briskly toward him, trying to hold a capable expression that was both professional and eager yet not at all forced. Though no reflective surface played back my features and told me so, my face felt like it was locked in a grimace. I licked my lips, tried again, and finally abandoned the feeble attempt at confidence. The door to Clark's office was open, and I stepped up to the threshold, stopping in the doorframe to say, "I'm Julia DeSmit. You must be-"
"Clark Henstock," he said, clipping off each separate syllable with militaristic accuracy.
I almost said, "I know," but I managed to hold my tongue and was grateful for it when he tossed a pen at me. It came out of nowhere, and my hand shot up almost of its own accord. Against all odds, and for only the second or third time in my life, I made the perfect catch. The Bic thumped satisfyingly in my palm, and a grin unpredictably, and embarrassingly, sprang to my lips. "Caught it," I laughed and immediately felt like an idiot. Wagging the pen lamely, I shrugged one shoulder as if to shake it off and dropped my arm to my side.
Clark assessed me for a moment before stating coolly, "I need you to sign a few papers." He turned to the table against the glass wall overlooking the storeroom and arranged three documents in a perfectly straight row. "Here, here, and here," he said, pointing, when I stepped up to the table.
I signed my name three times. Each signature looked different from the last because I had to lean closer into Clark to reach the far papers and my body couldn't help avoiding his as if we were repelled magnetically. Although I half expected him to comment on it, he merely swept up the documents when I was finished and sank into his cushy chair. Swiveling toward a paper-laden desk, he shoved my papers into an open file and dropped it in a box by his feet. Then he looked at his watch and said without turning to me, "It's 7:04. You're late for work. Next time make sure you arrive on time."
It was impossible not to cringe, but I forced myself to bite my tongue and stay put, awaiting further commands. Clark remained with his back to me, and I determined to be as quiet and enduring as the sweetest of saints. Clasping my hands in front of me, I studied the back of his head while I practiced patience.
His hair was dark brown and noticeably thinning. On a man with a deeper skin tone, Clark's hair loss might not have been so pronounced. But Clark was white in a way that prevented any speculation of diversity in his family tree, and the chalkiness of his scalp peeking through sad little patches of scraggly hair was unnecessarily unattractive. Not that Clark was ugly. He was just trying a little too hard to maintain the coif of his youth when he was obviously pushing forty.
Shave it off, I thought. Embrace your age.
Almost as if I had spoken aloud, he whipped around to face me. "What are you still doing here?"
I managed to mumble, "Waiting for instructions."
Clark's sigh was a barely concealed groan. "Take a little initiative, Miss DeSmit. Be a problem solver. I'm not here to babysit." And he spun back to his computer.
I melted out of the office and wandered to the break area, where I shed my coat and hung it over a folding metal chair. It was suddenly very cold without my winter parka, and I wrapped my arms around myself, hurrying out of the storeroom lest Clark turn to see me dawdling and fire me on the spot. Deciding my best course of action would be to find Alicia and ask her what to do, I cut through the aisles and nearly collided with a boy who was almost a full head shorter than me.
"Oops!" He laughed a little too heartily. His yellow tie was crooked at his throat, and his stiff apron was stained with what looked like darkening blood from the meat counter. The thought nauseated me. "Sorry!" the boy exclaimed, wiping his hands on his apron and extending one to me. "I'm Graham. You must be the new girl."
"Julia," I muttered, taking his hand though it was almost painful to do so. His fingers were warm and soft.
"Nice to meet you, Julia. You'll like it here. It's a good job!"
While he looked too young to be working anywhere and his enthusiasm was overkill, it was hard not to smile back when he was grinning in my face. "Glad to hear it," I commented vaguely, hoping that a response wouldn't encourage him too much.
"Alicia is the shift manager," Graham explained as if he intended to take me under his wing.
I rolled my eyes at the thought of yet another person on the ladder of managerial staff at Value Foods.
"No, no, she's nice," he hurried to clarify, misunderstanding my expression. I started to explain myself but he went on. "Denise can be a bear, but Alicia lets us leave early for our breaks sometimes."
I gave him a little nod and took a small step back to disengage myself from his unsolicited conversation. "I'll keep that in mind," I said, slowly backing away.
But Graham followed. "Hey, I'll walk you to the front. It's almost my break time anyway, and I can introduce you to people as we go."
"Oh, it's okay, really. I don't mind at all." And though he could just barely peek over my shoulder, he took my elbow and steered me down the aisle as if he were some elderly benefactor and I a little girl.
I tried not to sigh as I allowed myself to be led through the store. Though Graham would release me long enough to let me shake the outstretched hands of my coworkers, as we continued to the checkouts he would manage to take up his paternal position again. There was nothing malicious or inappropriate in his gesture, and because he elicited genuine warmth in everyone we met, I did everything I could to be friendly and fine with whatever social particulars made him comfortable. I couldn't escape the feeling that much of my life from now on would be molding myself to fit snugly against other people's ideas and ideals. It was safer there where I could blend in, where I could be smooth and seamless and hidden-predictably contrite for my situation and newly flawless in my efforts at virtue. It made my head ache with inadequacy.
Value Foods wasn't an enormous store, but by the time we passed nine aisles and started through the produce section to the front, I had met half a dozen employees. All of them teenagers. None of them particularly enthused to see me. I was just the new girl-and an old one at that.
I peeked at my watch when we got to the front and waited patiently while Alicia finished with a customer. An older man wearing what looked to be a brand-new overcoat paid for his bottle of wine with a crisp twenty-dollar bill while Alicia grinned at him as if he were the single most interesting person she had ever met. She waved and watched him walk away, and he was halfway through the first automatic door when she finally turned to focus her attention on Graham and me. The easy turn of her lips sunk immediately, and she clicked her tongue as if to chastise us. "It's quarter after seven."
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Review by Gigi Hoffman
I was so excited for this book, the sequel to Nicole Baart¿s debut book, After the Leaves Fall. I couldn¿t wait to find out what was in store for Julia, and this book did not disappoint.
Julia is anxious and excited to figure out her new life after dropping out of college and returning to live with her grandmother. Things aren¿t easy, but Julia is putting the pieces back together and things are beginning to look up.
Then Julia¿s mother, Janice, who abandoned her when she was nine, shows up on the doorstep one snowy evening. Julia¿s secure, hope-filled life begins to shatter again. Why would her mother come? How could she ever forgive her mother for years of estrangement, bitterness, and pain? And what about the surprise her mother brought with her?
Then, Julia ends up in the same position her mother was in years ago. She grows, learns, and discovers what grace is really about.
Touching, a good read, and an uplifting hint of a happily-ever-after. I was right there in the novel with Julia; I felt her pain, experienced her coming to terms with things, and felt her growing up. If you¿ve read After the Leaves Fall, this book is a must.
I was afraid that I would be lost because I hadn't read the book that came before this. I didn't have to worry though because Nicole's writing allowed me to enter the characters' lives easily even though I didn't know their past. The writing is so beautiful and eloquent as the reader is taken on a journey within the small town. Family ties are tested throughout the book and mother-child relationships are the mainstay of the novel. This story is so sad and you feel so much for Julie throughout the novel. I really felt like I had entered her life and became a part of her family. However even though with all the drama that is going around, there are still touches of hope sprinkled throughout the story. I liked Julie's coworker very much. Also Simon is a cutie and brought happiness to Julie when she needed it. The ending almost brought me to tears and I'm sure it will affect other readers the same way. This book touched me so much that I had to go back and read After the Leaves Fall and I was not disappointed. The characters from these two books will stay with you long after you've turned the last page. Nicole Baart has written a wonderful gem and it is not to be missed. I am looking forward to her next novel but until then this book is HIGHLY recommended.
Ever since I read Nicole Baart¿s lovely debut novel, After the Leaves Fall, I¿ve been looking forward to the release of its sequel, Summer Snow. Following the story of Julia, who in the first book lost her father and the man she loved, this sequel traces the journey of her pregnancy and her reunion with her long-lost mother. I must admit that when I realized Julia¿s mother was returning, I cringed a little. A dramatic family reunion seemed like such a predictable storyline. But I should have known that the story wouldn¿t turn out to be predictable or boring. Julia is an authentic and often lovable character. The twists and turns of the plot, the development of the characters, are vibrant and real. I did have a little difficulty ¿getting into¿ the story, but it began to pick up speed and interest for me a couple of chapters in. From that point on, I read with absorption and enjoyment. Nicole¿s style isn¿t sparse or simple. She clearly loves the nuances and beauty of language. However, she usually avoids being self-indulgently descriptive, by instead being both specific and evocative. One of my favorite passages reads, ¿It was like finally being opened to the crushing weight of some indescribable significance pressing itself upon my soul, filling in the gaps. Leaving a mark. Leaving an imprint with a hand so heavy, so full and sweet, I almost cried out, but not in pain. In joy.¿ (341) Summer Snow also walks the fine line between melodrama and cynicism, humor and sadness, showing and telling. I found the dramatic, sad parts of the story tempered by the prosaic, funny, and down-to-earth. God is not absent from the story, nor is He relegated to its least important shadows. Instead, some of the most intense and metaphorical passages are spiritual. I really appreciate this about Nicole¿s writing. Summer Snow is another gem among Christian novels. I highly recommend it, and am again anticipating the release of Nicole¿s next novel.