Tasting the Sky: A Palestinian Childhood [NOOK Book]

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Winner, Arab American National Museum Book Award for Children's/YA Literature, among other awards and honors.

"When a war ends it does not go away," my mother says."It hides inside us . . . Just forget!"
But I do not want to do what Mother says . . . I want to remember.

In this groundbreaking memoir set in Ramallah during the aftermath of the 1967 Six-Day War, Ibtisam Barakat captures what it is like to be a ...

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Overview

Winner, Arab American National Museum Book Award for Children's/YA Literature, among other awards and honors.

"When a war ends it does not go away," my mother says."It hides inside us . . . Just forget!"
But I do not want to do what Mother says . . . I want to remember.

In this groundbreaking memoir set in Ramallah during the aftermath of the 1967 Six-Day War, Ibtisam Barakat captures what it is like to be a child whose world is shattered by war. With candor and courage, she stitches together memories of her childhood: fear and confusion as bombs explode near her home and she is separated from her family; the harshness of
life as a Palestinian refugee; her unexpected joy when she discovers Alef, the first letter of the Arabic alphabet. This is the beginning of her passionate connection to words, and as language becomes her refuge, allowing her to piece together the fragments of her world, it becomes her true home.

Transcending the particulars of politics, this illuminating and timely book provides a telling glimpse into a little-known culture that has become an increasingly important part of the puzzle of world peace.

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"A spare elegant memoir . . . What makes [it] so compelling is the immediacy of the child's viewpoint, which depicts both conflict and daily life without exploitation or sentimentality.  There's much to talk about here."  --Starred, Booklist "Beautifully crafted.  Readers will be charmed  by the writer-to-be as she falls in love with chalk, the Arabic alphabet, and the first-grade teacher who recognizes her abilities."--Starred, School Library Journal "A compassionate, insightful family and cultural portrait."  --Starred, Kirkus Reviews "Brims with tension and emotion."  --Publishers Weekly "Barakat strives to depict vivid details of everyday life . . . Well worth purchasing to provide a viewpoint not often available to young adults in the United States."--VOYA "This is an astonishingly beautiful and heartbreaking book.  The resurrected memories of a gifted girl growing up under the crush of war and occupation gave me hope:  that if we read carefully, with open hearts, the world just might begin to change."
--Suzanne Fisher Staples, author of Under the Persimmon Tree
 
 "Ibtisam Barakat is not only a luminous writer and thinker, she is a wondrous healer, too.  In this exquisite, tender account of her Palestinian childhood, nothing is missing--love, attachment, struggle, fear, humor, resilience.  The child in this story carries more wisdom and a keener sense of justice and injustice than do most people in seats of power.  Tasting the Sky should be read by everyone with a humane interest in the story of Palestine." 
--Naomi Shihab Nye, author of Habibi
 
 
"This is a poignant, eloquent testament of a war-torn childhood, a story we in the United States have only glimpsed before now.  This generous author has truly opened her heart for all to see."
--Jennifer Armstrong, author of The American Story:  100 True Tales from American History
 
 
"In vivid, beautiful prose, Ibtisam Barakat transports readers into a place few Westerners have ever seen--the interior life of a young girl and her family in the occupied West Bank.  This book, appropriate for readers young and old, holds literature's great power:  the power to humanize the 'other,' and to therefore change the way we understand our world."
--Sandy Tolan, author of The Lemon Tree:  An Arab, a Jew, and the Heart of the Middle East "An extremely compelling memoir about a young Palestinian girl who lived through the Six Day War in the Middle East . . . interesting [and] heartwarming." --A YALSA YA Galley Teen Reader "This book is very eye opening -- it tells the side of the story that you never learn about in history class and in the news, and it is really well written." --A YALSA YA Galley Teen Reader
Publishers Weekly

This rare and timely memoir tracks Barakat's amazing story of survival, largely through her belief in the power of words to heal: "Stories may inspire us to join hearts and minds so that, with our collective wisdom, a solution for this conflict—and any other—is possible." As this haunting book opens, Israeli soldiers haul Ibtisam, then a teenager, off a bus in the West Bank in 1981 and detain her without explanation. Ibtisam secretly risks these trips out of her village in order to visit a post office box, where she receives letters from international pen pals—her only link to a saner, safer world. While detained, she flashes back to details of the Six-Day War, in poetic yet searing prose. Ibtisam was little more than three years old when her family fled Ramallah in 1967 to a refugee camp in Jordan, and her memory of it, in a chapter called "Shoelaces," brims with tension and emotion. The narrator's understated tone lacks self-pity and thus allows readers to witness her fear and hope. She poignantly relates the Palestinian experience to that of street dogs: "I knew that they were dying and that they had come to our door only because, like us, they were seeking refuge. But instead of understanding, we shot at them, the way the warplanes shot at us." Ibtisam's reverence for language informs nearly everything she does, and it keeps her alive, whether corresponding with her pen pals or crafting this memoir: "a thread/ of a story/ stitches together/ a wound." Ages 12-up. (May)

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VOYA
In this account of a young child's life, Barakat marvelously depicts the existence of a Palestinian girl and her family in the years following the Six-Day War. Readers learn about Barakat's customs and language, her love of writing, and her incredible imagination-all methods this bright protagonist uses to escape the harshness and fear associated with growing up in a country torn apart by conflict. This book excels in expressing the passion Barakat feels for her family, home, friends, and language. Barakat is a poet, expertly evidenced by her ability to touch the heart. The lush, descriptive style creates vivid scenes and awakens emotion. Early in the story, Barakat is separated from her family, and the fear she feels is movingly conveyed. As she determinedly races toward the sight of her mother's braid, the reader's expectations grow along with those of the girl. When the goal is finally reached, Barakat feels as if the war has halted, and the reader's hopes rise to a crescendo. It is one of many times that readers will feel what the character feels. Rich descriptions bring even mundane things to life-teeth chatter "like hail on glass," wind blows through trees "whispering secrets," and thumping music has "tunes like elephant steps." Barakat's eloquence creates a wonderful book that shares the life of a young girl and illustrates to readers that no matter what kind of environment in which one grows, some things are common to all humankind. Reviewer: Dawn Talbott
VOYA - Suzi Steffen
Barakat's delicate memoir vividly recounts her time as a Palestinian child, both during and in the aftermath of the Six-Day War. Swept up in a stream of refugees, her parents accidentally leave her behind as she struggles to get her shoes on. Although she finds her family soon enough and they return home to Ramallah in the now-occupied West Bank, the alarm of separation and the threat posed by Israeli soldiers constantly knocking at the door of her family's farmhouse eventually leads the family to move into town. The book begins with what a reader expects to be a framing device with Barakat as a college student trying to return home and being frustrated and mistreated by Israeli soldiers, but the narrative quickly lands on Barakat's young childhood and early school days, and frustratingly never returns to the opening device. Although a more politically charged geographical area would be difficult to find, Barakat strives to depict vivid details of everyday life and education rather than to deliver political analyses. A reader who feels that Israel is always in the right would be hard-pressed to read this memoir because Israeli military choices dramatically affect Barakat's life and the lives of her family members. Barakat does not quite bridge the gap between adult and child. She sometimes seems to condescend to her younger readers, but the book remains well worth purchasing to provide a viewpoint not often available to young adults in the United States.
Children's Literature - Greg M. Romaneck
The conflict between Israelis and Palestinians has now spanned nearly six decades. In that time, both nations have become increasingly entrenched in conflicting perspectives that seem to lead to nothing but more suffering. While the day-to-day political realities of this ongoing conflict splash themselves across the pages and airwaves of international media the direct impact these events have on individuals is sometimes lost. In Ibtisam Barakat's autobiography, these personal happenings play out for readers to see and ponder. In this touching book, the author starts her tale when she is only six years old. At that time, the 1967 Six Days War has just begun and Ibtisam and her family are forced to flee from oncoming Israeli soldiers. Over the course of this personal story readers see the effects that war has on children caught in its path. The Barakat family loses their home, family solidarity, and all the safety they once knew. Over time, Ibtisam and her family reestablish their lives but in such a manner that it will never be the same as the existence they had once known and trusted. This is a powerful book and one that sheds light on life in a place and time that continues to plague not only the residents of these war torn region, but also the world at large.
School Library Journal

Gr 7 & Up - This moving memoir of a Palestinian woman's childhood experiences during the Six-Day War and its aftermath is presented in beautifully crafted vignettes. Barakat, now living and working in the United States, frames the story of her life between 1967 and 1970 with a pair of letters from herself as a high school student in 1981. Detained by soldiers during an ordinary bus trip, she was prompted to try to recall her shattered childhood and share her experiences with others around the world. She begins with a description of her three-year-old self, temporarily separated from her family in their first frantic flight from their Ramallah home as the war began. The author's love for the countryside and her culture shines through her bittersweet recollections. Careful choice of episodes and details brings to life a Palestinian world that may be unfamiliar to American readers, but which they will come to know and appreciate. Readers will be charmed by the writer-to-be as she falls in love with chalk, the Arabic alphabet, and the first-grade teacher who recognizes her abilities.-Kathleen Isaacs, Towson University, MD

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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9781429998475
  • Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux
  • Publication date: 2/20/2007
  • Sold by: Macmillan
  • Format: eBook
  • Edition number: 1
  • Pages: 192
  • Sales rank: 470,862
  • Age range: 11 - 15 Years
  • File size: 324 KB

Meet the Author

IBTISAM BARAKAT is a poet and educator who has worked with organizations such as the United Nations to facilitate a dialogue between Palestinians and Israelis. Tasting the Sky is her first book. She currently lives in Columbia, Missouri.

A bilingual speaker of Arabic and English, Ibtisam Barakat grew up in Ramallah, West Bank, and now lives in the United States. Her work focuses on healing social injustices and the hurts of wars, especially those involving young people. Ibtisam emphasizes that conflicts are more likely to be resolved with creativity, kindness, and inclusion rather than with force, violence, and exclusion. Her educational programs include Growing Up Palestinian; Healing the Hurts of War; The ABCs of Understanding Islam; Arab Culture, The Mideast Conflict; and Building Peace. The ABCs was selected by the Missouri Humanities Council as one of its Speaker Bureau programs in 2003 and 2004.

Ibtisam has taught language ethics courses -- Language Uses and Abuses -- at Stephens College (2002). She is also the founder of Write Your Life (WYL) seminars and has led WYL seminars in places including Morocco, Washington, D.C., Missouri, and Ramallah.

In 2001, Ibtisam was a delegate to the third United Nations conference on the elimination of racism, which was held in Durban, South Africa. In 2004, she was a visiting writer at the Creativity for Peace camp, which brought Israeli and Palestinian teenage girls to Santa Fe to provide an opportunity for them to live together in cooperation and peace. In January 2005, she was a moderator at the fourth international Faculty for Israeli-Palestinian Peace conference in Jerusalem, where Israeli, Palestinian, and international faculty members and students work toward finding creative ways to bring about peace for Israel and Palestine.

As an educator, poet, and peace activist, Ibtisam has spoken at the Center for Southern Literature / Margaret Mitchell House and Museum; William Woods College; Missouri Historic Theater; Dartmouth College; Printers Row Book Fair in Chicago; PEN New England; National Writers Union / New Jersey chapter; the International Children's Literature Day / University of Wisconsin; Children's Literature New England / Williams College; North Carolina Center for Advancement of Teaching; Reading the World / University of San Francisco; and various high schools, including the school district of Anchorage, Alaska.

Ibtisam Barakat lives in Columbia, Missouri. TASTING THE SKY is her first book.

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Tasting the Sky
PART IA Letter to No One1981, Surda, West BankLike a bird clawing The bars of a cage And wishing them branches, My fingers grasp The bus rails before me. 
But I wish for nothing.I'm midway from Birzeit to Ramallah, at the Israeli army checkpoint at Surda. No one knows how long our bus will stay here. An army jeep is parked sideways to block the road. Soldiers in another jeep look on with their guns. They are ready to shoot. A barrier that punctures tires stands near the stop sign. I regret that I chose to sit up front.The window of the bus frames the roadblock like a postcard that I wish I could send to all my faraway pen pals. They ask me to describe a day in my life. But I do not dare. If I told them of the fear that hides under my feet like a land mine, would they write back?A soldier leaps into the bus. He stands on the top step. His eyes are hidden behind sunglasses, dark like midnight. "To where?" He throws the question like a rock. I pull myhead toward my body like a tortoise. If I don't see him, perhaps he won't see me.He asks again. I stay silent. I don't think a high school girl like me is visible enough, exists enough for a soldier with a rifle, a pistol, a club, a helmet, and high boots to notice. He must be talking to the man sitting behind me.But he leans closer. His khaki uniform and the back of his rifle touch my knee. My flesh freezes."To where?" He bends close to my face. I feel everyone on the bus nudging me with their anxious silence."Ramallah," I stutter."Ramallah?" he repeats as if astonished. "Khalas. Ma feesh Ramallah. Kullha rahat," he says in broken Arabic. The words sound like they have been beaten up, bruised so blue they can hardly speak their meaning. But I gather them. "There is no Ramallah anymore," he says. "It all should be gone by now."I search for the soldier's eyes, but his sunglasses are walls that keep me from seeing. I search for anything in his face to tell me more than the words he's just said about Ramallah. What does he mean? Are the homes all bulldozed down? And the people? My father and my family, will I find them? Will they wait for me? Fear is a blizzard inside me. A thousand questions clamor in my mind.It was less than an hour ago that I took the bus from Ramallah to Birzeit. Now I am returning. How could everything disappear in less than one hour? Something must be wrong with me. Perhaps I do not know how to think, how to understand my world. Today I chose to sit up front whenI should have chosen to hide in the back. I should have known a front seat lets one see more of what lies ahead.I want to open my mouth and let my feelings escape like birds, let them migrate forever. I am waiting for the soldier to step off the bus. But he doesn't.He counts us, then takes out a radio and speaks. I don't understand, and I am somehow content that I do not. I do not want to know what he says about me or the bus, or what he plans to do.He switches back to Arabic, takes the driver's ID, tells the driver to transport us all--the old passengers, the young, the mothers, students, everyone--to the Military Rule Center. He means the prison-court military compound on the way to Ramallah. I know where that is. It sits on the ground like a curse: large, grim, shrouded in mystery. In ten minutes our bus will be there.New soldiers wait for us at the entrance to the compound. One walks to our driver's window, tells him to let all the passengers off, then turn around and leave. The driver apologizes to us. He says if it weren't for the order, he would wait for us no matter how long it took. I wonder if he is afraid to continue on to Ramallah, to be alone when he finds out whether it's really in ruins."Wait a moment," he says. "I will return your fare."But no one can wait. "Yallah! Yallah!" a soldier goads. "Hurry!"After a second head count, at gunpoint, we form a line and walk to a waiting area. We stand against a wall that faces the main door. The compound feels like the carcass of a giantanimal that died a long time ago. Its exterior is drab, bonelike, and hostile.We take out our IDs. Two soldiers collect them to determine if any of us had been caught in previous confrontations with the army. Our IDs inform on us. The orange-colored plastic covers, indicating that we all are Palestinian, pile up on the table like orange peels.Two college students, with thick books in their hands, are quickly separated from the group. For a moment, my dream of going to college feels frightening."Hands up!" someone says, and one of the two soldiers now chooses the people he wants and inspects their bags, pockets, bodies. He skips the girls and women. All is quiet until he raises his hand to search a teenage boy standing next to me.Even before the soldier touches him, the boy starts to giggle. The sound breaking the anxious silence is shocking. At first, the giggles are faint, then they grow so loud that soldiers from outside the yard hear and come to see. The boy's laughter is dry and trembling. Worried. I know what he feels. He wants to cry, but in spite of himself, in spite of the soldiers and the guns, all he can do is giggle.Angered, the search soldier punches the boy, but like a broken cup that cannot hold its contents, the boy continues to laugh. The soldier punches him again. The boy's laughter now zigzags up and down like a mouse trying to flee and not knowing which way to turn. But a kick on the knee from the soldier's boot finally makes the boy cry. He folds down in pain and then is led inside the building.We stand still like trees--no talking, no looking at oneanother, no asking questions, no requesting water or trips to the bathroom, no sitting or squatting. We do not know what we are waiting for or why we are waiting.The hours stretch like rubber bands that break and snap against our skins, measured by the ticking of boots, going and coming across the yard, in and out of the building.I keep my eyes on our main guard, who now sits by the door. Lighting a cigarette from the dying ember of the one he has just finished and filling his chest with the flavor of fire, he makes frog cheeks and blows smoke rings that widen like binoculars as he glances at us through the smoky panel. He looks at us as though we are only suitcases in his custodyI want to ask him if I can take out a pen and paper. If he lets me, I will empty myself of what I feel. I will distract myself from my hunger, for I have not eaten all day. And I will record details to give to my mother in order to avoid her wrath--if Ramallah is not really gone.But something in my mind wags a warning finger not to ask, not to do the wrong thing. It's a finger like Mother's, telling me to get home in a hurry, not ever to be late. But I am already many hours late. 
Mother tells me not to speak about politics. She is always afraid that something bad could happen suddenly. "Khalas, insay, insay," she demands impatiently. "Forget, just forget." And I do. I know less about politics than do most of my classmates. I never even learned how the colors of the Palestinian flag are arranged. Sometimes I glance at the outlawed flag during street demonstrations. I see it for seconds only,before the hand that holds it is shot at by Israeli soldiers. At times, I see the flag drawn in graffiti on walls. Someone does it at night and leaves it for us to discover in the morning. The soldiers spray over it during the day. Anyone caught with the Palestinian flag is punished.Mother does not want me or any of my siblings to do anything that could cause us even the slightest trouble with the army. "Imshy el-hayt el-hayt wu qool yallah el steereh," she says. Walk by the wall. Do not draw attention to yourself. Be invisible if you can, is her guiding proverb.If I see Mother again, I will tell her what happened to the bus at the checkpoint. "Why go to Birzeit?" She will slice at the air with her hands, half wanting to hear my answer, half wanting to hit me.Birzeit is where students go to college after finishing high school in Ramallah. Some also come from Gaza, Nablus, and other cities, towns, and refugee camps. In Birzeit, many students become active in politics and have fights with the Israeli army. They chant on the streets that they want freedom from the occupation. But I did not go there to chant for freedom. I have my freedom. It is hidden in Post Office Box 34. This is what takes me from Ramallah to Birzeit.Post Office Box 34 is the only place in the world that belongs to me. It belonged to my brother Basel first. He left Ramallah and did not want to give up the box, so he passed it on to me. On the days I don't go to Birzeit, I bury the key in the dirt under a lemon tree near our house. If I die, the key for the box will be under the ground with me.Having this box is like having a country, the size of atiny square, all to myself. I love to go there, dig the key out of my pocket, turn its neck around, open the door, then slowly let my hand nestle in and linger, even if the box is empty. I wish I could open my postbox every day. I feel that my hand, when deep inside it, reaches out to anyone on the other side of the world who wants to be my friend.Some postal worker in Birzeit must like me, perhaps because I put "Thank you to the postman" on all my envelopes. When many days go by without my coming for letters, I sometimes find a stick of chewing gum in my box. Someone has opened it first, written a line of cheerful poetry, then wrapped it again. Smiling, I skip out of the post office. I chew the line, taste its meaning. Paper and ink, poems and my postbox are medicines that heal the wounds of a life without freedom.On some days, I wish I could stay inside my postbox, with a tiny pillow made from a stamp with a flower on it. At the end of the day, I could cover myself up with one pinkenveloped letter and sleep on a futonlike stack of letters from my pen pals:Dimitri from Greece. He writes of a Greek holiday called No. I reply that all teenagers in the world should celebrate this day. Dimitri and I argue about baklava. He insists it's Greek. I assure him it is Arabic. Perhaps it is both, we finally decide to agree, since both our peoples love it.Luis from Spain. He is unhappy for reasons I do not understand. His country is not occupied, and he does not have a strict mother like mine. But I like it that he always writes something about basketball. He says when he gets out on the court he forgets all his worries.Hannah from Great Britain. What if I wrote "Great" next to "Ramallah" when I send my letter? From Great Ramallah to Great Britain. We would be equals then. Hannah's letters are always egg white, with the queen stamp, which I stare at for a long time. The crowned queen is beautiful. Hannah writes about the trips she takes with her family and the books she reads. She loves Gulliver's Travels and Emil and the Detectives, books that I, too, love, because Gulliver and Emil remind me of myself. Gulliver knows exactly what it is not to be free. And both Gulliver and Emil form fond friendships with strangers.Sally, a grandmother from America, speaks about eating turkey on Thanksgiving. "Eating a country?" I write back. She explains. And I laugh because Mother dislikes the "Roman rooster," our name for turkey. She would never let one in our house, much less cook it for a celebration.I have many pen pals: tourists, Holy Land pilgrims, and students who join pen pal programs to see the world through other people's words. Some write only once in a long while. Others write often. But all of them send me scraps of their lives translated into English, which I have been studying for six years, ever since I turned eleven.In return, I tell my pen pals about my school, friends, teachers, studies. I describe the seasons, the land, the wheat and olive harvests, and the Eid celebrations. Looking into a hand mirror, I describe myself if I don't have a picture to send. Translating many words and sentences, I also write about the Arabic language. I explain that verbs in Arabic form roots that create trees of nouns and word structures. An yaktub means towrite. Maktoob means a written letter. Katebah is a female writer. Ala-katebah is a typewriter. Kitab is a book. Maktab is a desk for writing. Maktabah is a library, the place where one finds books. All these words grow from the root verb kataba. Making words in Arabic is like planting a field with seeds, growing an orchard--words hang on the vines like grape clusters, leaves throw shadows of meanings to the ground.I am eager to answer all my pen pals' questions about language. But when they ask me about my childhood, suddenly I have nothing to say. It's like a curtain comes down and hides my memories. I do not dare part it and look. So I skip all childhood questions and reply only about the day.Today, I wish I could tell my pen pals that I was going to Birzeit to open my postbox, to meet their words. There were no letters from anyone. Maybe they were on their way, but the postal trucks were unable to get to Birzeit. The roads and mail system here are like our country, broken. Letters are like prayers; they take a long time to be answered. What would my pen pals say if I told them that I am standing at a detention center because I went to open my postbox for their letters?Now, gazing at the ground under my feet, I remember that I need to make up something ingenious to convince Mother that I did not go to Birzeit to talk to college boys or do anything related to Palestine or politics. I usually cannot convince her of anything. She is cleverer than I am. She is cleverer than anyone I know. Perhaps ten mothers in Ramallah are not clever at all because she has gotten their share of cleverness.When unsatisfied, she pokes my chest and curses me. To answer her, I write poems about the cruelty of mothers. "What difference is there between a mother and a soldier? None." I underline my answer. "Mothers and soldiers are enemies of freedom. I am doubly occupied."I post the poems on the wall like freedom graffiti or tuck them in "her journal," a journal that I keep only for my mother. She reads it when I am gone.Often, however, I write good words in her journal, hoping that when she sees them she will know that I care about her and be gentler with me. "God, I feel terrible for Mother because she works so hard. And I don't know what it is to be a mother in a land filled with soldiers and war. Please make her happy. Take from my happiness if that's the only way to help.""Liar," she pencils next to my words, then erases it. The faint traces remain. I see them. We never speak about her journal, but we meet there to say the things we cannot say out loud.My true journal is written with no pen or paper, but in my mind, with an invisible hand in the air. No one will ever find it. When Mother says to come home, I write in my mind that I feel at home nowhere. I want to wander the streets after school, walk forever, walk away from a world I do not understand, a world that tells me daily there is no place in it for me.And it is not just Mother who is afraid and watches over me. Father does, too. My parents, Suleiman and Mirriam, whom I call Yaba and Yamma, often disagree on things, but when it comes to me, they act as though they never disagree.My father copies his feelings from Mother the way one copies homework. On some mornings, they whisper a few words, then my father pretends to go to work early. But he waits outside until I walk to school, and follows me.He must want to see how I behave on the streets when I am alone. He does not know that I read him the way I read a street sign, and that I watch for him every day the way I watch for the snipers on top of the large buildings in Ramallah. They, too, watch how we walk and what we do. Without looking at them, we know exactly where they are. When my father walks behind me, as if he thinks he can outwit me, I feel sad. How little he knows me."Yaba, why not wait outside until I leave?" I said one morning."What for?" he asked."So that you can follow me," I fumed. He became outraged and charged after me. I bolted into a room and locked the door."Why do you challenge me?" he shouted. I opened the door and walked right up to him. He only shook his head, blamed my defiance on my schooling, and blamed himself for sending me to school."You dig your head into your Nakleezi books like a sheep, grazing all day," he said, and sighed, perhaps wishing he, too, could read English books.I know that my father does not really want to put down my schooling, especially because of the way he treats the word chair, the only word in English he knows. He says it with pride, moves it around in his speech as though to gaina better view of things. He sits on it like it's a throne. Yet it is a lonely chair. My love for language and words seems to come between us. It takes away his authority over me. The books, not he, are my references.The soldiers are another force that separates us. Father knows that they, not he, are the ones who control every one of us. We are not free to be a family the way he wants, with him a lion in our lives. He is like a lion in the zoo. Any of us can be taken away any day. No one can stop that, no matter how hard he roars from the fenced space allotted to him.I compare my father with the fathers of other girls. He is poorer than many, and war lives inside him. Every night, he wakes up shouting that someone is going to kill him, kill us all. He punches at the air, kicks with his feet to free himself, and cries for someone to help him. Mother sleeps on the farthest edge of the bed to avoid getting hit. She pretends she does not hear his cries.But every night I run to comfort him. I bring him a cup of water and sit beside him. I ask him to tell me what he sees. Catching his breath, he mixes words and tears. My father has no language for the pain and loneliness he feels. Is that because he has lived all his life not knowing freedom? Or does he hide his freedom somewhere, the way I hide mine in Post Office Box 34? 
It is late afternoon, and we are still standing, still waiting at the detention center. My feet are aching for rest. Then, unexpectedly, I am released.My tears drip onto my shoes. Tears are my secret ink, inthe absence of real ink. Liquid stories. On the air that comes into and leaves my chest, I write all the things that happen to me. "Now the soldier hands me my ID and tells me that I can go home ..." I run toward the center of Ramallah, my heart heavy, as if it has stones in it. Questions rattle in my mind. What did the soldier on the bus mean?But ... Ramallah ... is ... still ... there. It is there. Juabah newspaper shop, Salaam taxicab office, Fam boutique, Abu Azmi grocery shop, Zabaneh market, Salah pharmacy are all closed, but all are there. I want to hold Ramallah the way one holds oneself when there is no one else to touch.Quickly, I realize that some fight between Palestinian protesters and Israeli soldiers must have taken place. The streets are deserted, except for speeding military vehicles. I walk cautiously. I feel afraid and alone. "Walk by the wall." Mother's proverb now guides me like a map. I hurry up until I get to the street near our home. But there, my heart begins to race, and my mind begins to fill with soldiers. Suddenly, I can see the kinds of things that my father describes in his nightmares. With every step I take, more images of war appear.I stagger through the door under Mother's scrutinizing eyes. She is filled with fury. But one look into my face, and all turns into worry. "What happened?" she gasps.I tell her that the soldiers detained me with many others. I tell her that, like Father, I have become ill with war. I describe to her the images I see. But I do not say I had gone to Birzeit. Perhaps she does not really want to know. For this, I am grateful."When a war ends, it does not go away," she says. "It hides inside us." She knows. "Do not walk that road," she warns me. "Insay. Insay." "Just forget!"But I do not want to do what Mother says. I cannot follow her advice. I want to remember.Sinking in the sea Of forgetfulness I reach for the raft of remembering. 
Where the small girl I once was Stands alone, Holds a key to the postal box of memory, And awaits The day When she will Find her home By asking Her heart to Take her there. 
Listen. 
Today is that day.ShoelacesThe war came to us at sundown. Mother had just announced that our lentil-and-rice dinner would be ready as soon as Father arrived. She picked up Maha, my infant sister, held out a plump breast, and began to rock and feed her. I was three and a half years old but still wanted to be the one rocking in my mother's arms.My two brothers, the noisy inseparables--Basel, six and a half, and Muhammad, a year younger--were chasing each other around Mother's summer garden. I stood at the door awaiting my father. Soon I would see him emerge from the curtain of evening shadows on the long gravel road that led to our home. As I did every evening, I was preparing to run toward him with all my might.But because I owned one pair of shoes, and was allowed to wear them only on important occasions, I was barefoot.When my father finally appeared in the distance, I hopped my way along the gravel toward him.My dad was my favorite person in the world, and before the war I had an unwavering sense that all was well as long as he came home at the end of the day. Each time I met him, he embraced me with a splendid smile that made his right eye fade into the shape of a crescent moon. He reached out to me with his loofahlike hand, and I half hung in the air as I grasped two of his fingers and walked beside him.My father often gave me five tries at guessing what treat he had in his pocket for us. When I could not guess by the fifth time, he gave me the first letter of the word, and then I guessed for certain. M for mulabbas, candy-coated almonds. J for jawz hind, coconut mounds. K for kastana, beetle-shaped chestnuts. Q for qedameh, salted and roasted chickpeas. B for bizer, roasted pumpkin, sunflower, and watermelon seeds, and S for simsim, sesame-seed bars, my favorite treat. I would break a bar into tiny bites to make it last for two days.But on the evening of June 5, 1967, my father had no treats for us. On this evening he was the one rushing toward me, and soon I could see that his face had no smiles. Although he was saying something, it was only when he was closer that I could hear."Turn back!" he shouted. "Tell your mother the war has started," he ordered. "Run!"I did not fully understand what he said, but every part of me felt the danger in his words. As I ran home, I fell on the gravel and scraped my knees, but I did not feel the pain--except for a moment. I sensed that my father did not need to be bothered by a crying child.Mother seemed to know exactly what my father's words meant. Her response astounded me. She struck her face with both her hands, dug her nails into her terror-stricken cheeks, and then she scratched. She said nothing, and her eyes gazed into the distance. It seemed like her soul had momentarily departed from our kitchen, where we all stood paralyzed.Then my father rushed through the door, dropped the bags filled with food he was carrying, and turned to Mother. She shrieked with tears upon seeing him. But he spoke to her tenderly, in the same way that he spoke to me about the importance of closing my eyes and falling asleep when he blew out the kerosene lamp at night. He told Mother he had heard that Israeli warplanes had been targeting Palestinian homes and the safest thing would be to turn off all the lights, leave our house immediately, and sit in the water trench in the garden while we decided what to do. He also wanted to listen to the radio to find out which specific areas were being attacked, but the only radio we owned was a set the size of an oven, too big to carry into the trench.Mother snatched Maha and held on to her tightly. Basel, Muhammad, and I held on to Mother's dress, and we all marched outside.Inside the trench, I glued myself to my brothers, and my heart surrendered to the rhythm of our vigilant breaths, all rising and falling in anxious unison. With the tip of my head, I reached to touch my father's arm, which held usclose. His other arm enclosed Mother. She was frantically trying to quiet Maha, whose siren cries threatened to draw fatal attention to our hiding place. Because there was no room for love and lullabies in the narrow trench, Mother snapped sharply at Maha, who quickly stopped her crying.My parents exchanged anxious whispers. "Think with me," Mother urged. "What else should we do to be safer?""There is no escape from destiny," Father replied, his voice filled with pain.I reached for him and held on to him firmly. I felt that something beyond what I'd learned or would ever understand was about to happen to us. My father would not be able to protect us. He could not make the war stop. He could not talk to the people in the planes and tell them that we had done nothing wrong.As darkness enveloped us, I could not see the faces of my parents or my brothers. Then, suddenly, Mother whispered that she could hear footsteps. My father ordered us to freeze. I stopped myself from breathing.We quickly realized the footsteps were those of a stream of people from neighboring villages fleeing their homes. Raising his voice just loud enough so they could hear him, Father asked what they knew. A man's voice answered. "After the planes attack, they will be combing the area house by house. Word is that they will butcher every living thing they find."My parents exchanged a few words, then quickly agreed. It was time for us to leave. "Death in a group is mercy," Father said."First I must get into the house," Mother interrupted. "We need food for the children," she pressed. And she was right. Hunger was pecking inside my stomach like a bird."Then don't light even a match," my father cautioned her. And so Mother tucked my silent sister into his arms and set out for our house.But before we could settle into the thought that food was within reach, a loud, pulsing noise sliced through the dark. Bullets were being fired at Mother!"Yamma!" my brothers and I exploded. But our father shushed us into silence. Then the noise of planes filled the darkness everywhere. One plane seemed to be right above us, seeding the ground around us with bullets and bombs, and as it trailed off into the distance, it set nearby patches of the darkness afire. It was impossible to tell which side of the sky would be the next to blaze.Dad flung himself out of the trench. He found Mother's foot and pulled her back to us. Frightened and confused, she searched herself for a fatal injury. "Suleiman," she begged my father, "I want to see my children one last time before I die." But the darkness surrounding us was merciless.Father held Mother to his chest. "Mirriam, they missed," he whispered. Miraculously, she had escaped injury, and the warmth in Dad's voice allowed my blood to flow again through my veins.Mother, shocked, had nothing to say. Then, suddenly, she demanded that we leave.It seemed strange, but she picked up Maha and began walking toward the house. Basel, Muhammad, and I leaptafter her as my father prayed hysterically that we come to no harm.Inside the house, Mother snatched the pot of lentils and rice from the kitchen and wrapped it in a rag. Then she dashed into the darkness and searched for a bundle of golden bracelets that had been her dowry when she and my father married. I could hear her sigh of relief when she found them.Mother then commanded that we put on our shoes. But I could not find mine, and the house was black as coal. "Yamma, where are my shoes?" I cried."Find them!" she ordered. My brothers and I obediently searched until all three of us found our shoes, then hurried outside.Now my parents spoke urgently. My father said that if we didn't die that night, we'd have to sleep in the wilderness. We'd need clothes and blankets. When he came out of the house with a mound in his arms, he and Mother argued over whether or not to lock the door. They finally agreed: we would lock it and take the key with us.People continued to pass by our house, spreading word of impending terror. A breathless man told my father that there was no one left in his village. He and the others were going to hide in the caves, then try to cross the bridge at the border to Jordan."Which caves?" Father asked."Just run with us," the man replied before disappearing into the darkness.Father turned to Mother. "We must leave now," he said. His voice was sharp like a knife.My brothers were ready. They held each other's hands tightly. Mother had secured Maha between her arms. My father strained to see the road from behind the mound of clothes and blankets he carried. But in spite of my desperate attempts to obey my parents' commands, my three-and-a-half-year-old hands were unable to lace up the one shoe I had put on. My right foot was still shoeless."Yamma, Yaba! Help me!" I cried in a hushed voice, lest I attract attention and we all die. But no one answered.At that moment, a new wave of fleeing villagers rushed by. As they disappeared, everything faded into stillness. And my family was gone.Had they just walked into the crowd and left me behind? Fear dug a hole in my heart. I could not grasp what had happened. I wanted to cry aloud, hurl their names across the darkness, but dread stifled my voice. I knew that the only hope for me was to instantly run in the same direction, leaving one shoe behind.As I moved, sounds of distant gunshots and screeching swelled and then subsided. I kept running. When I looked behind, I could no longer see the giant shadow of our home. The world within and around me seemed to fade into the unknown. The gravel grated sharply into my skin. Once again, I commanded myself not to feel.Soon, my ears detected voices. I waited cautiously, and when people approached, I attached myself to the end of their caravan.Settling into the rhythm of this rapidly moving crowd, I could hear voices talking about a group of neighbors theyexpected to meet at the caves. The caves? My parents were heading toward caves! My heart filled with hope that my family would be there.But my hopes disappeared when flare bombs lit up the darkness and formed a dome of light in the sky. Silhouettes of everyone suddenly became visible. Now the warplanes could locate us. Would real bombs follow?Anticipating the moment of final destruction, people prayed aloud. They said that Allah is one. But as the lights and sounds of distant bombardment continued and no bombs fell directly on us, it became clear that neighboring areas were the immediate targets of attack.We continued on, slowly sinking into a solemn calm. I saw that we were joining other clusters of people, as ghostly and stunned as we were. Among those ahead of us, I thought I saw my mother, her thick, dark braid waggling on her back.Our group hurried to catch up to the group in front of us, and my numbed feet flew forward. The lights in the sky came and went, but I kept my eyes on the braid. I fell repeatedly, but quickly got up. My eyes never wavered. I was determined to reach my mother. I pushed myself closer and closer to where I thought I saw her until I was only a few steps behind her braid. When my fingers finally touched her dress, the war seemed to halt.Thinking that I was with my mother again, I could see that I had lost the one unlaced shoe I'd had on. I began to feel the feverish fire in my feet. I let myself weep a little, hoping my mother would hear me, then I pulled on herdress and let it take my weight. The respite lasted for only seconds, however. As new flares flashed, a strange face turned to scold me. "Who are you?" she asked as she shook her dress free from my hand. Now I could see. The woman was not my mother.In shocked disbelief, I dropped my hands to my sides, gripped my own dress, and could feel neither terror nor pain. My eyes searched for no one, and it barely mattered whether I walked alone or had people around. I could only put one foot in front of the other.When we approached the area of the caves, I learned that there were many caves, in different places. Anxious voices pierced the air: should we hide or continue on? Some settled for hiding. But I found myself walking with those who chose to continue on until we arrived at the road that would lead to Jordan. It was deeply dark here, like everywhere else. So we waited for a long time for the night to be over.When dawn finally lit up the world, I saw that I was surrounded by a large crowd. No one spoke to me, and I stared at the children who were clinging to their parents. I envied them having a hand to hold on to while I had none.People were gazing into the sky as though a long line of unanswered prayers hung from it. They were cursing as they struggled to swallow their grief. They begged one another for a drink of water and begged God for mercy.I wandered aimlessly, staring at strange face after strange face. And then, suddenly, I thought I saw my dad. "Yaba!" I called in a low voice, hoping it wasn't a mistakeagain. But he turned to me. Tears streamed down his face. Now I was certain.Next to him stood Mother, holding my sister to her chest. My father and my brothers hurried to meet me, holding out their arms. Muhammad, the one who had first noticed that I was missing, offered me his shoes.My heart ached, my feet burned, and something in me still felt confused and lost. But I was no longer alone. Once again, I was with my family. Together, we entered the second day of war.Copyright © 2007 by Ibtisam Barakat
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    Posted June 2, 2012

    TASTING THE SKY BY IBITISAM BAKARAT

    This is an excellent book that I highly recommend, not only to my friends, but to teenagers. I personally think that this book is written so well that the reader is better able to appreciate what is happening to the innocent who are part of the war, through no fault of their own. This book should be put on the MUST READ list in schools.

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    It's a good book but I wouldn't of read it if a class I'm taking

    It's a good book but I wouldn't of read it if a class I'm taking hadn't required it.

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    This is so awesome i thought in the only one whos last name is barakat!oh ya i didnt read the book i want to tho it sounds pretty intresting

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