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The Art of Holding On and Letting Go
     

The Art of Holding On and Letting Go

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by Kristin Bartley Lenz
 

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A Junior Library Guild Fall 2016 Selection

“When every piece falls into place, it’s like a dance, a delicate but powerful balancing act. The art of holding on and letting go at the same time.”
 
Competitive climber Cara Jenkins feels most at home high off the ground, clinging to a rock wall by her fingertips.

Overview


A Junior Library Guild Fall 2016 Selection

“When every piece falls into place, it’s like a dance, a delicate but powerful balancing act. The art of holding on and letting go at the same time.”
 
Competitive climber Cara Jenkins feels most at home high off the ground, clinging to a rock wall by her fingertips. She’s enjoyed a roaming life with her mountaineering parents, making the natural world her jungle gym, the writings of Annie Dillard and Henry David Thoreau her textbooks. But when tragedy strikes on an Ecuadoran mountaintop, Cara’s nomadic lifestyle comes to an abrupt halt.
 
Starting over at her grandparents’ home in suburban Detroit, Cara embarks on a year of discovery, uncovering unknown strengths, friendships, and first love. Cara’s journey illustrates the transformative power of nature, love and loss, and discovering that home can be far from where you started.

Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
06/27/2016
Debut author Lenz offers a thoughtful meditation on life after loss with the story of 15-year-old Cara Jenkins, a competitive climber. At a competition in Ecuador, Cara learns of a volcanic eruption near Mount Chimborazo, imperiling her parents and her Uncle Max, renowned mountaineers. With her parents safe but distraught and Uncle Max missing, Cara is sent to live with her grandparents in Michigan. Formally homeschooled, Cara adjusts to high school life, making friends with goths Kaitlyn and Nick, who are both struggling with their own traumas. With new friendships, a stronger appreciation for her grandparents, possible romance, and mysterious notes urging her to start climbing again, Cara heals even as her parents remain in Ecuador, determined to continue in Max’s honor. Lenz effortlessly explains complicated climbing terminology and intermixes moments of levity with contemplative quotations from naturalists and mountain climbers, quotes that Cara’s father uses to communicate with her. Though Cara’s ability to face her fears and help others do the same is noteworthy, the tidy ending doesn’t quite do justice to the complexity of Cara’s character and situation. Ages 12–up. (Sept.)
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"Eloquent debut."  —Booklist
 

“Cara is an appealing, engaging narrator. Surrounded by a well-rounded cast, Cara's journey toward a peaceful, fulfilling life is almost perfectly depicted. A compelling, unusual coming-of-age story."  —Kirkus Reviews

“[Kristin Bartley Lenz] offers a thoughtful meditation on life after loss with the story . . . Lenz effortlessly explains complicated climbing terminology and intermixes moments of levity with contemplative quotations from naturalists and mountain climbers.”  —Publishers Weekly

"Although this tale is about one of the most risky and exhilarating sports of all, this book is rather quiet, gradual, and sweet."  — VOYA Magazine

"This is a richly layered story, visceral and thoughtful in equal parts."  —Tim Wynne-Jones, author, The Emperor of Any Place

“I loved this book. There's plenty of humor, a hint of romance, and great rock climbing scenes that will have you riveted.” —Anne Rouyer, New York Public Library

“Cara’s story is about finding yourself, your family, and your center. Lenz encourages readers to think outside the pages, to find their own place in the world as Cara discovers hers."  —Meghan Dietsche Goel, BookPeople, Austin, Texas

“A powerful, enveloping story about grief—the deep layers of heartbreak bubbling beneath the surface—and the ways relationships help us through our toughest times."  —Kelly Jensen, stackedbooks.org

VOYA, October 2016 (Vol. 39, No. 4) - Suzanne Osman
The title eloquently captures not only the spirit of this book but also the very essence of adolescence. The teenage main character, Cara, examines this theme throughout and, with any luck, she will inspire readers to do the same. An avid mountain-climbing competitor (along with her parents), Cara feels most alive outdoors, ascending peaks, frolicking in the wilderness, exploring various exotic locations. Her carefree life is abruptly terminated, however, when tragedy strikes, forcing Cara to live a conventional urban life with her maternal grandparents whom she barely knows. All of a sudden, she must learn how to make new friends, succeed at a new school, and interact with two caregivers who are just as ill-equipped to rear her as she is to be cared for by them. Now Cara must figure out how to hold on to a sense of inner joy even though she is unable to engage in the one activity that brings her purpose, comfort, and enthusiasm—mountain climbing. At the same time, she must let go of this previous life so she can find meaning and happiness in her new one. This is a charming book to recommend to patient readers who do not require stories to be quick paced, racy, or daring. Although this tale is about one of the most risky and exhilarating sports of all, this book is rather quiet, gradual, and sweet. Reviewer: Suzanne Osman; Ages 11 to 18.
School Library Journal
08/01/2016
Gr 8 Up—Cara Jenkins has traveled the world with her mountaineering parents and her dad's best friend, Max, so it is no surprise that competitive rock climbing is in her genes. At the World Youth Championships in Ecuador, the California teen is shaken to learn that her parents' expedition atop Mount Chimborazo has gone awry and Max is missing. Cara is forced to leave the event for Detroit to stay with her estranged grandparents while her parents search for him. Cara's anxiety about her parents' safety is compounded by the awkwardness of being reacquainted with her grandparents and being the new girl at school. She befriends fellow juniors Kaitlyn and Nick at the goth lunch table in an attempt to fly under the radar, as her face has appeared in several sports magazines. But mysterious notes left in her locker reveal that someone knows who she is and wonders why she has turned her back on the climbing scene. This mystery drives the narrative as new multilayered characters are introduced and a light romance buds, but it is Cara's grandparents who understand what she needs to ultimately gain her footing. The teen's unabashed athleticism is refreshing, and readers will find the rock climbing details authentic and enlightening. VERDICT A hot pick for outdoorsy teens who like relatable characters, with a bit of romance, mystery, and a road trip.—Vicki Reutter, State University of New York at Cortland
Kirkus Reviews
2016-07-02
After a tragic event changes the course of her life, Cara discovers a new version of herself.The daughter of well-known mountaineers, white, home-schooled Cara has grown up climbing mountains. At 15, she's a nationally ranked climber and a thoughtful teen who reads Henry David Thoreau and Annie Dillard. When her parents and her uncle are in an accident while attempting a summit—and Uncle Max is lost—her father's grief won't let him leave Ecuador. While her mother stays with him, Cara is forced to live with her grandparents in suburban Detroit. With her own grief overwhelming her, Cara gives up climbing and struggles with depression. Normal life in the suburbs is a difficult adjustment for Cara, but she's helped by her new, white goth friends, Kaitlyn and Nick, and her understanding grandpa. Recovering slowly yet realistically, Cara begins to see the appeal of her new life while reclaiming those things that make her Cara: climbing, Thoreau, and nature. Marching to the beat of her own drummer, Cara is an appealing, engaging narrator. Surrounded by a well-rounded cast, Cara's journey toward a peaceful, fulfilling life is almost perfectly depicted. Although some references that date the story to the mid-2000s might give readers pause, they will move past them as they get swept up in Cara's story. A compelling, unusual coming-of-age story. (Fiction. 12-18)

Product Details

ISBN-13:
9780996864916
Publisher:
Elephant Rock Productions, Inc.
Publication date:
09/12/2016
Pages:
307
Sales rank:
128,248
Product dimensions:
5.40(w) x 8.10(h) x 1.00(d)
Lexile:
HL640L (what's this?)
Age Range:
12 - 17 Years

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The Art of Holding On and Letting Go


By Kristin Bartley Lenz

Elephant Rock Books

Copyright © 2016 Kristin Bartley Lenz
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-0-9968649-1-6


CHAPTER 1

The waiting was the worst. I gripped my worry stone from Uncle Max, turning it around and around in my hands. My fingers probed its golden grooves and contours. The sharp edges shimmered.

My teammate Becky sat next to me in the isolation tent examining her red, white, and blue–painted nails. It was the second day of qualifying rounds, and we'd been waiting two hours for our turns to climb. Tiny stars dotted her thumbs. I didn't understand why she bothered — the polish always chipped by the time she finished her climb.

My own nails were cut as short as possible, my fingers rough and calloused. A crosshatch of red lines spread across the back of my right hand where I had wedged it into a crack last week, the rock scraping my skin. I couldn't tell yet if it would leave a scar like the other white marks on my hands, the crooked gash on my thumb, my pitted palm.

"Ugh," Becky said. "I want my phone. Seriously, I'm, like, twitching. Look." She pointed to her eye.

"Maybe you got mascara in it." Her lashes were so clumped and coated, they looked fake.

She'd scrolled through her phone at breakfast, tilting it toward me so I could see the picture of her hand placed over her heart like she was reciting the Pledge of Allegiance. She'd managed to display our USA team logo, her cleavage, and her patriotic nails all in one close-up shot. Four hundred likes.

No phones allowed in the tent, and no checking out the routes before we climbed; the canvas walls blocked our view of the competition area. A collective groan came from the bleachers outside. Someone had fallen.

"Another one bites the dust." I tumbled the stone faster and faster in my hands. I swear I could feel its heat, its fire.

"It's pyrite. Fool's gold," Uncle Max had said. "Named after fire. It'll spark if you strike it against steel, so they say. Want to try?"

For the rest of the day, we struck it against anything metal we came across — tent poles, car rims — startling ourselves and giggling every time we saw the tiniest spark.

Becky nudged me with her elbow and nodded toward our teammate Zach. "Sleeping Beauty."

Zach was sprawled on his back, shirtless, his blue-and-white team tank top wadded under his head as a pillow. His eyes were closed, ear buds in. Zach always spent his isolation time listening to music on his iPod and snoozing.

"He climbs right before you," I said to Becky. "Make sure he's up after I leave."

"Oh, I will." Her slight southern drawl stretched out the word will, her lips curving into a sly grin.

I knew exactly how she'd wake him up, leaning in close so he'd open his eyes to her boobs in front of his face. I didn't understand how Becky could be so strong yet look so soft and curvy at the same time. I was all bone and muscle. My own chest looked like Zack's — two nipples sticking out of rippling, hard pecs.

A burst of laughter erupted from the other side of the tent. The French team lounged in a clump, girls and guys draped all over each other. They held hands, rested heads in laps, massaged each other's feet.

Becky had been eyeing them all morning. She rolled her eyes and laughed with me, but I knew she'd rather be hanging with them. In their cozy company, she'd have an excuse to hang all over Zach.

Becky sighed. "You're lucky your parents aren't here. Mine will be whistling and waving as soon as my name is announced. They make me so freaking nervous."

I glanced at the large digital clock over the tent's door. My name would be called soon. I set the chunk of pyrite next to my backpack and picked up my thermos of peppermint tea.

"Just don't look at them before you climb," I said.

"I can't help it. I always want to see who's in the crowd."

I sipped my lukewarm tea. The crowd made me nervous, not my parents. Knowing they were in the audience usually calmed me, but there was something freeing about being here by myself this time, as a serious competitor, not as the daughter of top mountaineers Mark and Lori Jenkins.

"At least your parents have a life," Becky said. "My mom would never leave me alone in a foreign country."

Mom hadn't been comfortable leaving me. We'd debated our plan for weeks, but in the end, I had insisted. Mom should go on the Chimborazo expedition with Dad and Uncle Max.

I shrugged. "They'll be back by the finals."

"What if you don't make it to finals?"

I arched an eyebrow at her. I would make it to finals.

A competition volunteer appeared at the tent entrance and motioned for me to follow. I handed Becky my thermos of tea and tugged on my well-worn, broken-in shoes. As long as the rubber soles were still grippy, I wasn't giving them up. Becky was still trying to decide which of the three shiny new pairs she'd brought looked best with her outfit.

I shook out my hands and cracked my knuckles. I rose up on my tiptoes and bounced. Up, down, up, down.

I nudged Zack's ribs with my toe on my way out, and he opened one eye.

"Send it!" he called out as I left the tent. I gave a thumbs-up without looking back and entered the competition area.

I squinted in the bright sunlight and slowly let my eyes adjust. The bleachers were a sea of color: parents and fans and climbers. The World Youth Championships banners covered the fencing that enclosed the outdoor venue. A gust of wind rippled the flags of all the countries. Russia, Australia, China, Mexico, Canada.

"Cara Jenkins," the announcer boomed, "age fifteen, from California, the United States of America, los Estados Unidos."

The crowd buzzed, a nest of bees, murmuring and shifting; I didn't look. Someone hooted. Another whistled. I took a deep breath, twinkled my fingers, and scanned the route. Sixty vertical feet of soaring artificial walls with exposed overhangs. I tied the rope to my harness and dipped my hands in my chalk bag. A puff of white dust floated in the air as I rubbed my palms together.

I nodded at the belayer. "Climbing."

"Climb on," he said with a Spanish accent. His face was neutral, all business, and made me long for a brief look of reassurance from my parents.

I reached for the first handhold and let everything else fade behind me. Steady breath, reach, grasp, pull, push, pivot, twist. My fingers wrapped around a doorknob bulge, pinched another shaped like a duck's bill. I slid my hands along a large diamond-shaped protrusion. The sandpapery surface scraped my calloused fingertips. My forearms quivered. My bruised toes jammed at the front of my climbing shoes, supporting my weight.

One handhold left, a tiny crimper. I balanced on the tip of my big toe, stretched, and inched myself up with the last bit of strength in my muscles. I teetered. I locked my eyes on the grooved nugget above my head. Breathe. My hand trembled as I reached upward, the nugget like the pyrite I had tumbled in my hands earlier. Come on, Cara, you know how to do this.

A final surge of energy erupted from my core, and I grasped the hold with two iron-claw fingers. Yes! I clipped the bolt, threw my head back, and grinned at the sky. My heart pounded all the way up to my ears. Over the top of the climbing wall, I searched the hazy distance for the snowcapped peaks of the Cordillera Occidental, the Avenue of Volcanoes. Yesterday, the mountains had been clearly visible, grand domes and jagged peaks against a backdrop of blue sky. But this morning, the Andes wore a mask of clouds. My parents were out there with Uncle Max, high on Mount Chimborazo.

The breeze swept across my face, ruffling my bangs and cooling the sweat on my forehead. I closed my eyes and sent a wish to my family, imagining my words traveling with the wind. They'd left four days ago. If all went as planned, they had reached the summit near dawn and were descending at this very moment.

The belayer lowered me back to the ground, and I untied from the rope with shaky hands. Heat pulsed through my body, from my blood to my muscles to my skin. I sneaked a sideways glance at the crowd of clapping, cheering spectators.

I never knew quite how to act when I finished a route. Usually, my gaze would connect with my parents. Mom's face would look relieved, and Dad would send signals with his expression, a nod or shake of his head, analyzing my performance. Uncle Max would cross his eyes or make some sort of goofy face, making me smile, releasing the tension. I'd really need them in two days, when I competed for my world ranking.

I spotted Coach Mel and my teammates who had climbed earlier. I grinned and waved, and left the stage to join them.

CHAPTER 2

I was done climbing for the day, but I still felt jumpy. I always felt nervous for the other competitors, almost like I was climbing up there with them, and now it was Becky's turn. Just like she had said, her eyes swept over the crowd and her parents stood up, hollering and waving. Her dad held a camera with a huge lens, and her mom shook a glittery red, white, and blue pom-pom. She probably had patriotically painted nails too.

I tipped my head and squinted at Becky as she climbed. Something was off. She excelled at speed, much more than I, and she took risks, launching and leaping. It was her strength, but also her downfall; sometimes she miscalculated. She'd quickly launched over the first overhang, but now she kept pausing in position. Beautiful positions, her form was great, but she was going to burn herself out before she reached the top. At this rate, she wasn't going to make it over the crux.

"What is she doing?" Coach Mel muttered.

"Do you think she hurt herself?" I asked.

Coach Mel shook her head, her eyes still on the wall.

I knew exactly where Becky was going to have trouble, I could see the spot coming up. She didn't have enough momentum.

She paused on one tiptoe, her right leg trembling. Sewing machine leg, when your muscle fibers twitch uncontrollably from fatigue. Or Elvis leg, as Uncle Max liked to call it. She needed to drop her heel. Like right now.

My hands rose to my face as Becky soared off the wall, arms and legs spread wide.

The crowd groaned, and Coach Mel swore. I cringed. We'd have to wait for the scores later, but she must be out. I couldn't imagine coming all this way to be eliminated during the qualifying rounds.

I waited, but Becky didn't join our team in the stands. Climbing was a weird sport that way. Officially, we were the USA team, but we all had to compete individually. We lived and trained in different places, and we were all competing against each other.

I watched the rest of the competitors, my neck growing more and more stiff and cricked from looking up at the climbing wall. I rolled my head around to relax the muscles. I needed to stand and stretch, move.

"I'm going for a walk," I said to Coach Mel.

She nodded without turning to look at me, her eyes focused on a climber from Germany on the wall.

I went back to the isolation tent to get money from my backpack. A volunteer escorted me inside; they had to make sure I didn't talk to anyone who was still waiting to climb. My chunk of pyrite sat beside my pack where I had left it, and I zipped it into a pocket for safekeeping. I didn't see my thermos of peppermint tea, though. Thanks, Becky.

Back outside in the competition area, I spied Becky with her parents huddled in a corner. I expected to see them consoling her, but they looked at a phone and her dad's huge camera — talking and gesturing. Were they analyzing her climb, trying to strategize? I was curious, but I didn't join them. I still didn't know what to say to her. But if she wasn't crushed about her fall, I wasn't going to feel bad either. Finally, the jittery tension unwound from my muscles.

I darted through and around clumps of spectators, disappearing into the crowd. Outside the competition area, a colorful market lined the sidewalk. It wasn't as big as other markets I had been to in other countries; it seemed to have popped up just for tourists at the climbing event. Even with all of my traveling, this was my first time wandering off by myself. The freedom made me giddy; light and airy enough to skip. My parents must be feeling that way too. Way up high on the summit of Mount Chimborazo, the top of the world!

I wandered from one table to the next, gazing at hand-sewn purses, leather belts, and scarves. The alpaca wool blankets looked so soft, the colors vibrant, the patterns intricate, but I was afraid to stop and touch them. When I was in China with my parents last year, the rule was, "You touch it, you buy it." The vendors wouldn't leave us alone if we showed the slightest interest.

A man motioned to a tall stack of black fedoras as I passed his table. "Señorita?"

I smiled but kept moving. He didn't call after me, and the woman at the next table didn't even look up from her weaving. Not like in China where they followed us. "You likee, you likee? Big daddy have money. Big daddy buy." It had been so funny to see the little Chinese men and women herding my tall, burly Dad toward their stalls.

I smelled smoke and roasting meat, but I didn't see any food. I didn't seek it out, either, because I'd heard they ate guinea pigs, and that I did not want to see.

I finally gave in to my urge to touch the colorful wool, running my hand along a row of striped blankets, soft as cashmere. I hoped they were still here when my parents got back, so we could buy one to take home.

Up ahead, a woman sat on a bright red blanket, jewelry spread out at her feet. I wasn't one to wear much jewelry, I didn't even have my ears pierced, but I hovered over a row of beaded bracelets.

The woman wore a dark green fedora and a white peasant top. She had a baby wrapped in a rainbow-striped sling with a mass of dark hair peeking out. Even the baby had her ears pierced.

"Buena suerte," the woman said, lifting a bracelet and motioning for me to hold out my arm. I crouched at the edge of her blanket, and she slid the bracelet onto my wrist.

The beads were ivory with swirls of chocolate and caramel, weathered looking, and strung with an almost invisible elastic. They looked ancient, like maybe they really could bring good luck.

"Taguas," she said.

I squinted at her. "Taguas?"

She reached into a wooden box of beads and pulled up a handful, letting them slowly fall through her fingers. "Taguas."

"Taguas." I pointed and smiled. "Gracias. Uno mas, por favor," I said. "Para mi madre."

She nodded and handed me a second bracelet. This one was a rainbow of colored beads. Not quite pastels, but not bright either, they almost looked edible.

"Gracias," I said and handed over my money.

"Buena suerte," she said again.

I headed back to the competition, repeating taguas and buena suerte out loud, enjoying the sound of Spanish rolling off my tongue.


By early evening, the climbing judges announced the competitors who would advance to the semifinals. My stomach fluttered when my name was called, even though I expected it. I grinned and shrugged off my teammates' congrats. Four out of six of us were advancing, but I was the only girl.

I caught Becky's eye, still unsure what to say. "It was a really tricky route."

She shrugged. "I don't know how you do it, you climb like a freaking snail. At least Mama is off my back now. Daddy got the best shots of me climbing, wait until you see."

I half-laughed, half-snorted. Unbelievable. She'd altered her climbing style to pause long enough for good pictures! She held out her phone, and our teammates gathered to see. Instead of climbing, she'd been posing. She'd flown a gazillion miles from home just to enhance her brand. I shook my head, completely unable to relate.

Our team returned to the hostel for dinner, jostling and joking as we stomped through the entryway. Our host was an American expat, a mountaineer who came to Ecuador to climb twenty years ago and never left. My parents had shared adventure stories with him before leaving for their expedition. He had a salt-and-pepper beard and switched back and forth from English with us to rapid-fire Spanish with his staff. His last name was crazy long and Polish, but he told us to call him Mr. S.

He asked us about the competition, and Zach grabbed my wrist and thrust it up in the air.

"The championess!" he shouted.

Becky's eyes were laser beams. I jerked my arm out of Zach's grasp and elbowed him. I'd compete with Becky on the climbing wall but not over a boy. Zach was cute but like a brother to me. We'd climbed together at the same cliffs when I lived in Colorado years ago.


(Continues...)

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Meet the Author


Kristin Bartley Lenz is a writer and social worker whose career has taken her through rural Appalachia, the California Bay Area, and inner-city Detroit. She is the coeditor of the Michigan Chapter blog for the Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators. She lives in Royal Oak, Michigan.

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The Art of Holding On and Letting Go 4.7 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 3 reviews.
jessiev More than 1 year ago
From the first page, this book reels you in and leaves you never wanting it to end. If you start it at night, be forewarned! This is a tale that includes travel, climbing, nature, big cities (waves to Detroit! Love you!), following your dreams, the very real nature of safety in climbing, and the importance of family and friends. And all while I was reading the book, I wondered how Lenz was able to capture all of these things into one flawlessly written novel. This is one book I am happy to recommend, for all readers. You’ll enjoy it, learn much, travel the world through the story (one of my most favorite things, ever), and fall in love with a book that you, in turn, will recommend highly.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Entertaining as well as thought provoking. Would a young girl really be able to understand her parents in such a way? I read it in two days.
HSMeloche More than 1 year ago
Lenz's book pulled me right in with her descriptions of mountain climbing in The Art of Holding On and Letting Go. She offers so much sensual and lyrical detail about the climbing process that I felt I was on the cliffs and mountains with main character Cara. The book follows Cara's emotional journey from Ecuador, where tragedy strikes her family, to the flat, concrete streets of a Detroit suburb, where she is sent to try to restart her life with her grandparents. She must try to make new friends, try to grapple with the loss she faced in Ecuador, and try to understand where she fits in to her new locale as well as the world as a whole. Being a metro-Detroiter, it was cool to see Cara going to the climbing facilities near her new home since I've been to those, as well. Lenz creates well-drawn characters, especially the agoraphobic grandmother and the witty grandfather, who made me bust out laughing on many occasions. This is a book about Cara's intense passion for climbing up walls of rock as well as the drive to climb higher than who she was before in order to become a stronger girl in the end. A beautiful debut about holding on to what's most important and letting go of those things that stop us from moving forward.