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Anna had fallen into a routine, or as much of a routine as a seventeen-year-old can reasonably fall into when she’s transient and living in hiding with an infant. She was staying at her sister’s friend’s house in a small town in Virginia.
The baby always woke up crying at four thirty or five a.m. Anna got up and changed Chloe’s diaper, prepared a bottle and bundled her into the stroller and then they left the basement where they were living, walked three blocks to the twenty-four-hour doughnut shop for coffee and across the wide empty street to the park. Anna sat on a swing with her first coffee of the morning and Chloe lay in the stroller staring up at the clouds. They listened to the birds in the trees at the edges of the park, the sounds of traffic in the distance. The climbing equipment cast a complicated silhouette against the pale morning sky.
There was a plastic shopping bag duct-taped to the underside of the stroller. It held a little under one hundred eighteen thousand dollars in cash.
That morning at a music school in South Carolina, a pianist was sitting alone in a practice room. Jack had been playing the piano for four and a half hours and under normal circumstances his hands would have been aching by now, but he was high on painkillers and couldn’t feel it. There was an east-facing window in the practice room and the morning light had long since entered. The piano was illuminated, sun caught in the varnish and gleaming in the keys, the whole room shining, he was dizzy, his skin itched and he hadn’t slept all night. His roommate had gone to Virginia to rescue a girl whom Jack had imperilled and everything was coming apart around him, but so long as he kept playing he didn’t have to think about any of this, so he closed his eyes against the shine and launched once more into Gershwin’s Rhapsody in Blue.
Ten years later, in February, the showerhead in Gavin’s bathroom began to leak. The timing was inconvenient. His editor had assigned him to a story about Florida’s exotic wildlife problem, and he was leaving New York the following morning. Gavin stood in the bathroom watching the steady dripping of hot water, at a loss. It seemed to him that this was the sort of thing Karen would have taken care of, before she’d moved out, and he realized at the same moment that he wasn’t even sure where the landlord’s phone number was. On a piece of paper somewhere, but pieces of paper had taken over his desk and spilled over onto the living room floor in the three weeks since Karen had left, a sort of avalanche. After a half-hour he came across a box of baby clothes that he’d forgotten to take to Goodwill and after that he didn’t want to look anymore, so he retreated into the bedroom and resumed an earlier search for clean socks. He could call the landlord when he got back.
What Gavin had wanted was to be an investigative reporter, a newspaperman, but nothing about his career was as he’d imagined it would be. When he’d graduated with his journalism degree he’d thought that this would be the moment when his life would finally begin. In idealistic daydreams he’d thought he might help change the world or at least improve it, and in shallower moments he’d just wanted to be a star reporter. He’d wanted to extend his hands and feel the weight of the Pulitzer with the crowd applauding before him, step up to the podium and clear his throat in the spotlight. He’d managed eventually to land a job as a reporter at one of the city’s best papers, but coming to the New York Star was like stepping into a drama in which all the major roles were already taken, or perhaps the play had already closed. There were veteran journalists at the Star, men and a woman who’d brought down titans and gone into war zones and propelled the paper to a point only just beneath the Times in the New York City newspaper pantheon, people who didn’t have to imagine what a Pulitzer felt like, but even the veterans seemed adrift in the changed world. The paper was sending out fewer and fewer correspondents on faraway stories. There were no more bureaus overseas or even in Washington. The paper was covering local news, relying on Reuters and freelancers for everything else. Too many of the stories seemed more like entertainment than news to him.
“You have to put in your time,” his editor had told him, but Gavin feared more and more that his time had passed. On two or three occasions he’d managed to get invited along for drinks with a couple of the veterans, and their stories mostly concerned a time that seemed better and more glorious than now and ended with some variation on “those were the days.” He’d come home from the bars leaden with disappointment.
“You know what your problem is?” his friend Silas said one night, when they were drinking together at an Irish bar near the paper. “I just figured it out.” Silas was a copy editor, and had been at the paper longer than Gavin had. Their desks were side by side in the newsroom.
“Please,” Gavin said, “tell me what my problem is.”
“Look at you. Jesus. The fedora, the trench coat. You want to run around the city with a flashbulb camera and a press card in your hat band.”
“How is that a problem?”
“Your problem is that you don’t really want to work at a newspaper, per se. You want to work in 1925.”
“I don’t disagree,” Gavin said. It had been clear for some time that he was in the wrong decade. All of his favourite movies were older than he was. His camera was a 1973 Yashica. He’d seen Chinatown a dozen times.
He suspected his editor was sending him on his first out-of-town assignment to make him feel better about not being senior enough to be sent into a war zone, or perhaps to make him feel better about having missed the days the veterans drank to. He knew she was doing him a favour, but the assignment itself seemed depressingly symptomatic: he was being sent to his hometown. He’d gone in a circle. He wanted to scream.
“Aren’t you from there?” his editor asked, when she called him over to her desk.
“I am,” he said. “But—” and he realized as he spoke that of course there was no way of evading the assignment, of course he couldn’t tell her that the weather in his hometown had sent him to the hospital with heatstroke nearly every year until he’d left at eighteen, so he sat by her desk discussing the story for a few minutes and then went back to his computer to check the South Florida weather. The city of Sebastiana was in the grip of a heat wave.
That night he lay awake listening to the dripping shower and wondered if it would be pathetic to call Karen about the landlord’s phone number, decided against it and woke at an unspeakably early hour to board a southbound plane.
Gavin had been back to Florida only once in the past five years. He flew into Fort Lauderdale and when he stepped out of the airport the heat made him gasp. He drove a rental car down the freeway to the city of Sebastiana and called his sister from his hotel room, which was mostly pink and smelled of synthetic cherries.
“I’m glad you’re here,” Eilo said. “You’re sure you won’t stay with me?”
“I don’t want to impose. The paper’s paying for my room.”
“Want to meet for dinner?”
“I’m supposed to meet with a park ranger later,” he said. “How about tomorrow?”
But their schedules were incompatible, and three days passed before he had a chance to see her. He spent his first day in Sebastiana and the day after that interviewing conservationists and herpetologists, knocking on doors of the houses closest to the canals to ask residents about their encounters with giant snakes. He took photographs of blue-green water, of shy iguanas at the edges of backyards.
There was an afternoon spent staggering through swamps under a wide-brimmed hat, listening to a park ranger named William Chandler talk about the new monsters that had been appearing since the early ’90s. The creatures in the Florida swamps were terrifying and new, and the canals delivered the swamps to the suburbs. Experts speculated that some of the animals had been blown deep into the swamps by Hurricane Andrew—greenhouses that had held snakes had been found shattered and empty once the storm had passed—but most were abandoned pets. Small glittering lizards who’d seemed manageable enough when they were babies but then outgrew aquarium after aquarium until they’d become seven-foot-long two-hundred-pound Nile monitors with eerily intelligent eyes and extravagantly pebbled skin, perfectly capable of eating a small dog. Or Burmese pythons, purchased when small, abandoned when the owners got tired of having to feed them live rabbits. Capable of swallowing a leopard whole, William Chandler told him, and therefore capable of swallowing a human. All of these creatures multiplying in the brackish far reaches, the suburbs coming out to meet them. All Gavin could think of was the heat, but he blinked hard against the spots swimming before his eyes and wrote down everything Chandler said. Insects hummed in the trees.
By night the suburbs glimmered anonymously from his window, but even by daylight it was difficult to grasp the terrain. There had been considerable development in the decade since Gavin had lived here, and nothing was quite as he remembered. The present-day Sebastiana was like a dream version of his hometown, much larger than it had been, circled by unexpected shopping malls and new condominium complexes, entire new neighbourhoods where once there’d been trees or swamp. Once this had been the outer suburbs but now there were suburbs that sprawled out still farther, linked up with exurbs by lacework patterns of freeways. The heart of the city was difficult to find. The suburbs circled wetlands, and there were monsters in the swamps. He wrote about the pythons and the Nile monitors, William Chandler and the frightened residents who lived alongside the canals, working deep into the night in the cool light of the hotel room.
“How do you like being back in Sebastiana?” his sister asked. Their schedules had finally coincided on his last night in Florida, and they’d met at a seafood restaurant near the hotel. Eilo was only thirty-two but her hair was mostly grey now, and she’d recently cut it very short. The haircut made her eyes look enormous. She was wearing a suit.
“It’s exactly the way I remember it,” Gavin said.
“A diplomatic response,” Eilo said.
“Except even more sprawling.”
“It never ends,” she said. “You can drive from here to Miami without leaving the suburbs. How’s Karen these days? She couldn’t come with you?”
“We broke up a month ago. She moved out.”
“You broke up? Even though she’s pregnant?”
“She’s not pregnant anymore.” Gavin remembered, sitting here, that he’d thought seriously about naming the baby after Eilo.
“Gavin, I’m sorry.”
“Thanks. Me too.” He didn’t want to talk about it. “How’s the real estate business?” They spoke on the phone every couple of months, but he hadn’t seen her in so long that being in her presence was unexpectedly awkward.
“Never better,” she said.
“In this economy?”
“Well, I do deal exclusively in foreclosures.” Eilo was looking at her plate. She hesitated a moment before she spoke again. “How’s your health?”
“Fine,” he said. “A bit touch and go in the summertime, but I stay indoors and take taxis when it’s hot. Is something bothering you?”
“I don’t know if I should tell you now,” she said.
“Tell me anyway.”
“Part of my job is inspecting homes. I inspected a property on Pauline Street a few weeks ago, a place that had just been foreclosed on that week. The property owner’s name was Gloria Jones. Older woman. She was taking care of a little girl.”
“Taking care of her?”
“She referred to the girl as ‘my ward.’ I actually never saw the upstairs, so I don’t know if the girl lived there or not. She was . . . listen, I know this sounds crazy, but the little girl looked exactly like me. It was like seeing myself as a kid.”
“So she was half-white, half-Japanese?” Gavin wasn’t sure where she was going with the story and was already a little bored by it.
“I was struck by her. I have to take pictures of the home for the real estate listing, and I made sure the kid was in one of the shots.” She reached into her handbag and extracted a paperback. She’d placed the photograph in the middle for safekeeping.
“Oh,” Gavin said. “I see what you mean.” For a disoriented moment he thought he was looking at a photograph of Eilo as a little girl. European and Asian genes in delicate combination, the same straight dark hair and thin lips, the same faint scattering of freckles on her nose. It took him a moment to realize that the eyes were different. His sister’s eyes were brown, and this little Eilo’s eyes were blue. But the similarity was uncanny. She stood at the edge of the shot, by the window of an almost empty dining room.
“She’s ten years old,” Eilo said. Gavin was beginning to understand even before Eilo spoke again. “Gavin, I asked the kid her name when Gloria was out of the room. Her name’s Chloe Montgomery.”
“That was when I knew,” Eilo said.
“She looks exactly like you. Where is she now?”
“I have no idea. To be honest, the woman caught me taking the kid’s picture and started yelling at me, so I got out of there quickly. I drove by the house two days later, but they’d already moved out. I don’t know where they went. I thought you should know.”
“Can I keep the picture?”
“Yes. Of course.” She was quiet for a moment. “I’m sorry,” she said. “I know this can’t be easy, especially given . . . I thought you should know.”
After dinner Gavin walked out to his car and drove past his hotel on purpose. He wanted to keep driving for a while, alone in the air conditioning. He turned off his cellphone. He was thinking about the girl, the other Eilo. Thinking about trying to find her, trying to imagine what he might say if he did. My name is Gavin Sasaki. You look exactly like my sister. I had a girlfriend named Anna who disappeared ten years ago and you have her last name. I know this sounds crazy but I think we have the same genes.